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I don't know who needs to hear this, but:

It is absolutely fine to use a label, only to realise it doesn't suit you anymore. Labels aren't there to bind you to them. They serve as a way to better describe how one feels and what ones lived experience can be like.

I had two pipelines of relabeling myself simultaneously.

From bi to lesbian, and back to bi.

From asexual to demisexual (because I thought, that one day, maybe I feel this kind of attraction, as sex-ambivalent and oscillating were terms I related with, and still do), and back to being asexual.

Does that make me less sapphic or a-spec? Absolutely not.

And to be honest: I still haven't figured out if I'm demiromantic or aromantic. And that is perfectly fine. We don't own anyone an explanation, but ourselves.

If the label felt good at that time, but doesn't anymore, let it go and take the one that feels more fitting. ♡ We are human beings. We are allowed to grow. You are valid, no matter which label you choose.

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F me up Florida

Victoria Shakespeare has just 'accidentally' killed her ex husband. Terrified she'll get caught, she runs away to Florida, and starts a new life. But Tori's new life is not all glitz and glamour. She meets a girl, Nia, who leads her into bad habits. Tori spends her days running from her problems, high, drunk or both. But if she's gonna be drunk, she might as well be drunk in love, right...?

- A collaborative project with Raccoon

#current wip #collaborative #collaborative writing #raccoonfriend #There are many Taylor Swift references but Raccoon doesn't know that so we won't say anything

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Apparently intro posts are important on here so might as well

I'm Ozzie. That's not my real name, but it is what I'd like to be called on here.

I use she/they pronouns but that is subject to change.

I'm aroace. Specifically, aegoromantic/bellusromantic and asexual. (if there is a label for this I don't know it)

I am a minor

I like Hermitcraft, the life series and Empires SMP, but I mostly post about Hermitcraft and the life series.

I'm a swiftie.

My cat, Bramble is the mascot of @aroacesafeplaceforall (hope you don't mind the tag)

I write, but that content is on @c-oswinwrites-x

My tags

#I want garlic bread - I tag everything with this

#*Spontaneously combusts* - absolutely nonsense. Anything in this tag is complete bullshit.

#Racconfriend - posts about my best friend, who for privacy reasons we're calling Raccoon

This is probably shit. Sorry.

#intro post #blog intro #introductory post #introduction #updated

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Hermitcraft Circus AU

So, basically, I'm turning Who's Afraid of Little Old Me? into a full AU so I can write more than one fic

Gem - Gem has spent so long at the circus she's forgotten her own last name. She is a doe with antlers, which should be impossible, but there she is. She's not violent. Well, she is now. But that's only because the circus leaders tried to force her to be docile. While backfired horribly, obviously.

Pearl - Pearl was never cut out for the circus life. She is a moth hybrid. She is kind, but not at all innocent. Her wings are clipped, but she wasn't using them anyways. She will do anything to keep Gem safe.

Joel - Joel hates his job, but he knows he'd probably be killed for sport if he left the circus. He would do anything to get out. No one knows why, it's hell for circus performers in the real world. He is a tanuki. He and Gem often fight, but it hasn't been anything physical until recently.

Scar - Scar is so overworked but he wouldn't dare say anything. He is a cat/vex hybrid, suspected to be the only one in the world. He has been known to leave the ring, get back to where no one will notice him and just collapse. He tends to sit around, only getting up when absolutely necessary.

#hermitblr #geminitay #hermitcraft au #Who's Afraid of Little Old Me? - Shiny Duo #who's afraid of little old me? #And yes #Scar sitting around is because he doesn't know he's disabled #And does not know how to manage it #Because how can you manage a disability you don't know you have? #Joel and Gem fighting is just so I can put one line in but it is kinda them

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The way you change your immediate reactions to things is that you catch yourself having an uncharitable/bigoted/overly judgmental thought and you catch it and replace it and then you do that a hundred times a day for your whole life and eventually one day like five years later you realize that you think differently now and you’ll always be working on something but that’s how life goes and that’s fine.

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i think it is important to recognize the ways in which your favorite thing sucks. i think it keeps u normal

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this may or may not be a fantasy writing exercise for me. please reblog

#You seem like you'd like a quill pen. #Lil artist bitch #(affectionate)

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Can I get some help with the names?

Bdubs - Bdubs Clocker has just turned 21. Not only was the party at his dad's an absolute disaster, but the atmosphere at his mom's isn't great either. His little brother Scar's health isn't great, Cleo - his mom - is stressed and focusing on Scar, like she always is. Bdubs tries to understand, it's none of their faults that Scar's disabled, but he wishes he could have more time with his mom.

Jimmy - Jimmy hates his wings. They've only ever caused him suffering. He can't fly, there's no space in his town. Everyone bullies him for his wings, and sometimes he thinks he'd be better off without them.

Scott - Scott's life has been horrendous so far. He's never had a healthy relationship, and his hometown is very conservative. So he ran. Then he ran again. He's now 23, working in a bar, and there's a really hot regular...

OK OK I WANT TO SHARE ONE OF MY FAVOURITE AUS I'VE EVER DONE

So basically the characters from Limited Life but they're just... People.

Like, you still have the Clockers, but they're just a single mum and her two sons.

You have the Bad Boys, but they're just a guy, his brother and his son who could take anyone in a fight.

You have T.I.E.S but they're just four brothers who were wild in their youth, but have settled and now they live together.

You have the Nosy Neighbours but they're just two best friends living together because she didn't want to live with her dad anymore and he had a spare room.

You have the Mean Gills but they're just Those Gays who are a little too in everyone's face

You have them all, but they're not trying to murder each other. They're just people living in a small town.

Some things I've written in this au (nothing posted) -

Bdubs as the glass child (nameless) - self explanatory, but younger Bdubs around the time Scar got sick - cw self harm, depression, alcoholism

A Scott centric thing (nameless) - Scott centric fic where he's just a guy. - cw homophobia, alcoholism, drug addiction

Start of a Jimmy thing (nameless) - Young Jimmy vs the Canary Curse - cw self harm, depression

#trafficblr #life series fanfic #Limited Life AU #traffic au #scott smajor #bdoubleo100 #jimmy solidarity #solidaritygaming #smajor1995 #bdubs

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My New WIP - Who's Afraid of Little Old Me? - Shiny Duo

Gemini and Pearlescent are anomalies in their species. Gemini is a doe with antlers - biologically impossible! And Pearlescent is a female moth hybrid - moth hybrids are mostly male, so she is considered a rarity.

The girls ran away and the circus found them. They thought they were going to have a home. Until the ringleader dulled Gemini's teeth and clipped Pearlescent's wings.

They just wanted one night out, but the circus can't afford to lose their biggest attractions.

Pearl is the only one who has ever treated Gem like a person, (person said loosely, but with lack of a better word) and not just her antlers. Gem is furious to say the least when she finds out what the circus leaders did to Pearl. She doesn't even care that they dulled her teeth, she's just mad that they clipped Pearl's wings.

It's not like they were planning to actually leave the circus. So Gem became violent. Rebelling against her 'masters' at any chance, using the one thing they want her for - her antlers - to punish them for hurting her sister. Well, Pearl's not actually her sister, but she might as well be.

Everyone, including Pearl, is shocked at Gem's sudden change in demeanor. She went from such a sweet girl to a woman who can and will kill you at any excuse she has.

Pearl is terrified she's going to lose Gem. She does everything she can to protect her, making excuses, and getting herself hurt to make sure she keeps Gem. She'll even go out into the ring scarred from the other acts.

The circus guests are none the wiser, as Gem can put on a performance, having done it her whole life. Until one day, she snaps. She's just gotten out of a fight with one of the other acts, a tanuki she's often butted heads with - literally and figuratively - in the past, and she's expected to go out into the ring, fully composed? So she decides to show them what she can do. She may be small, and she might hurt her friends, but she doesn't care anymore. 'Who's afraid of little old me?' she laughs to the audience. They don't think a thing of this unassuming deer girl. 'You should be.' she says, knocking the ringleader clean out.

#hermitblr #trafficblr #geminitay #pearlescentmoon #shiny duo #who's afraid of little old me? #Who's Afraid of Little Old Me? - Shiny Duo #Yes the tanuki is Joel #This is also why Scar doesn't like the circus /j #writers on tumblr

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The intro post is kinda big,,,

Why is Flightless Bird getting ignored,,,

#flightless bird - grian fic #ooc

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Being a Watcher - Pros and Cons

Pov character - Grian

Pros

Awesome peripheral vision

Cool language

People use your name like a curse

Cons

Dead language

Eat emotions

People use your name like a curse

(he's an avian the wings only apply to non-winged animals/hybrids)

#grian #hermitblr #hermitcraft headcanons #grian headcannon #watcher grian #xelqua

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Pearl grew up speaking Galactic, it comes with being a born watcher.

Grian learned Galactic when he joined the watchers.

Gem, however, learned Galactic out of pure spite and pettiness.

Pearl and Gem didn't see each other much at the time, and Pearl joked that she bet Gem couldn't learn Galactic before they saw each other again.

So she did.

#hermitblr #geminitay #trafficblr #hermitcraft headcanons #pearlescentmoon

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Flightless Bird

Chapter/Part/Whatever the fuck you want to call it 1

CWs: Suicide mentions, internalised ableism, body dysphoria, shipping.

If any of this makes you uncomfortable, please, don't read it. I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable with my writing.

I stood on a roof, preparing to jump. You might be wondering why was about to jump off a roof. Well, it's simple. I'm an avian. I fly. Or at least, that's what I'm supposed to do. I have a stupid birth defect, meaning I can't fly. My wings are too small for my body. Not small enough to notice, but small enough that they can't support my weight. I've never met anyone else like me. I've never even met that many avians either though, so that might be a factor. Anyways, back to the roof.

All I could think of was my probable impending death. I knew I wasn't high enough to kill myself, but jumping off a roof is terrifying, no matter how high it is. I was about to jump, force myself to fly, when I noticed Scar. That awful, awful, beautiful man. No Grian. Stop thinking like that. He's neither of those things, least of all beautiful. Look at him for Xelqua's sake! Those eyes spell trouble Grian. Those gorgeous green eyes... that are so easy to get lost in. Shut up Grian. You don't have time for this!

Scar walked in my direction, a lot more bounce in his step than normal. His face fell when he saw me too. Oh gods, he thought I was going to kill myself... I pulled at my sleeve, trying desperately to think of how I explain... jumping off a roof... with no suicidal intentions... I couldn't think of what to say, so I just jumped, spreading my wings, hoping for the best. Of course, I fell. I don't know why I thought I'd be able to fly if I jumped off a roof. But at least I didn't get hurt too badly...I led on the ground for a minute, upset. I don't know why I thought it'd work. I don't know why I thought I'd ever be normal. Scar approached me, dropping his cane and crouching down beside me. I wish I was more like him. He knows he's not gonna wake up one day and be completely normal, and he's ok with that. He owns it. I wish I could do that. I wish I didn't force myself to do things I can't. I wish I could just accept that I'm disabled, and I will be for my whole life. I wish I could just accept that I'll never fly by myself.

"You alright?" Scar asked. "Mhm." I mumbled, too lost in my own thoughts to really pay attention to him. "Grian, as much as I would like to agree with you, you just jumped off a roof. You can trust me. What's wrong?" Scar replied. I snapped out of my thoughts at that. I turned to look at Scar. "I can explain!" I stuttered. Scar nodded at me. "It's complicated... I... can't fly. My wings are too small for my body... I don't know why I thought jumping off a roof would help me fly, I don't know why I even thought it was a good idea in the first place-" I started, talking far too fast. "Calm down Grian. Breathe. Now talk. Slow down. It's ok." Scar interrupted. Usually I'd be annoyed at being interrupted, but he helped a bit. "I can't fly." I said, trying to hide the obvious break in my voice, badly. "What? Don't say that!" Scar replied. "No, I literally can't. My wings are too small for my body. They physically cannot support my weight." I replied. "Oh." Scar whispered. "Come here." he said, louder this time.

I sat up slowly, suddenly feeling a sharp pain in my legs. I don't know what I expected, I mean, I jumped off a roof. I let out a sharp hiss, a noise I didn't even know I could still make. Scar wrapped an arm around me, running his fingers across the back of my head. I smiled at him, trying not to look like I was crying. Scar started talking, a slightly serious tone. I don't remember a word, I completely spaced out in his arms, trying to focus on anything other than the pain and failing spectacularly. I don't know how long we were there, but I eventually started paying attention to what he was saying again. "Do you think you can stand up?" he asked. "No..." I replied. "That's fine. I don't think I can either." Scar laughed. I wish I could joke around like that.

Scar placed a hand on my wing, just where it connects to my back. I shuddered. I've told him so many times why he shouldn't do that. It's not the kind of thing you do to your friend. But maybe that's not a bad thing... Shut up Grian. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. You don't have time for this! You have better things to think about than Scar! We sat there for a few minutes. "Maybe I should call someone." Scar mumbled. I didn't really want to get up, not when he was so close to me... and touching my wings like that... Grian! Stop thinking like that. I didn't really want to get up, but he was right. We couldn't just sit there forever.

#flightless bird - grian fic #grian #hermitblr #hermitshipping #Tw suicide mentions #tw ableism #tw body dysphoria #grian fanfic

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I love how I'm posting Flightless Bird Out of Context but not actual Flightless Bird

And people still like it too. There's also that.

#Flightless Bird - Grian fic #< not part of the writing

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Flightless Bird Out of Context

I don't know why I thought I'd be able to fly if I jumped off a roof.

(he's 'ok'! Physically. Mentally, very scarred.)

#Flightless Bird - Grian fic #Flightless Bird Out of Context #out of context wips

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Thank you to everyone who got me to 100 likes!

This blog is less than three days old.

#100 likes #tumblr milestone #thank you #not writing related