carmennn222

[carmennn222]

starving stopped being tortue for me. now i cant help it, just dont feel hunger and all of that shit. im too afraid n too tired. too exhausted, too stressed. i just wanna peace id god or somebody exists there i just want fukicng peace, stop testing me guys cuz i wont handle it

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[carmennn222]

tf queen elizabeth died????????? no fucking way

[carmennn222]

im just waiting for death cuz i hope that after that i'll reborn in my dream body and dont have to starve. if not at least im gonna disappear and not being here anymore lmao

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[carmennn222]

okay, but sometimes i wonder why not me? why i am not one of these girls who were born with perfect body and pretty face and they dont have to do anything to look good. no matter how they act, no matter if they dont put any effort in their appearance, they always look pretty and everyone like and adore them. i do every fucking thing i can to make myself look thin and pretty. i can take every pain literally just to be skinny and achieve my dream body but its never gonna be enough. why cant i be one of them? thats so damn unfair. honestly im just waiting for death, cuz i hope that after it im gonna have my dream body, face and life. i mean it has to be better, doesnt it? it cant be always like that. my god lifes so damn unfair like fr. hate that shit

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[carmennn222]

honestly fvvck these 'diets', im just gonna back to starving, drinking water, diet coke, chewing gums and eating max 250 calories. im gonna achieve my goal faster than by doing these 'diets' which count smth around 700 calories per day and feel guilty after that anyway, its even harder, cuz if i have more calories i have bigger problem w/ what should i actually eat so nahh thats not for me, i prefer my own diet who actually works faster tho

today i havent eat anything yet, its 5.45 pm at my country, so im gonna eat one apple and thats it for today. its gonna by prolly something around 150-200 calories cuz its kinda big.

bye<3

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[carmennn222]

sorry for not doing updates but i was exhausting and had to focus on my diet, so before it my weight was 99 pounds, right now it is 90 pounds, honestly thought im gonna lose more but thats fine. my goal weight is 80 pounds, so since tomorrow im gonna try another diet (later i'll post how its gonna look) and i promise i'm gonna do updates about it. anyway i'm proud of myslef that i wasnt binging and i did it. stay skinny, besties <333

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[carmennn222]

okay so day 2 of diet, today was 400 calories (377) and i did 11000

coffee 152 cal

salad (tomatoes n cucumbers) 50 cal

salt popcorn 20g 75 cal

2x salad (tomatoes and cucumbers) 100 cal

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[carmennn222]

okay so actually im trying that diet, today is my first day of it (before i was eating max 200 calories, but usually it was something around 100-150), but my body is kinda weak rn and it seems like a good idea. Today i ate 250 calories, less than i should, but i just cant force msf to eat more and im too afraid to drink something with sugar lmao, but tomorrow i'll try to eat 400 cal as i should. Also already done 9000 steps, i'll try to 10000 n thats it. Another update tomorrow.

*im not saying its healthy n i dont force anyone to do that. if somebody wants to its fine but if somebody doesnt its also fine, just do whats best for u to achieve ur goal*

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[carmennn222]

coffee 84 cal

thats it, also drink a lot of water and took vitamines

5.30 pm

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[carmennn222]

i hate when ppl around me treat me like an fckn psycho. im losing my weight not my mind, when i'll get what i want i stop, i have a control.

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[carmennn222]

i love when my mom and friends 'skinnyshame' me, like u guys really think its gonna make me eat more? no it just gives me motivation and confirms that its working

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[carmennn222]

okay so i havent eaten anything since yesterday. rn im gonna drink my starbucks coffee and thats it i guess. im so proud of myself!!!

in my country its almost 6pm (france)

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[carmennn222]

so today i ate smth around 287 cal

strawberries 165 cal

cookies 68 cal

coffee 54 cal

and thats it, my daily limit was 200 cal so not too proud of myself but i hope tomorrow's gonna be better

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[carmennn222]

nick avocado is my best motivation fr, when i watch his videos i wanna throw up n never ever eat again

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[carmennn222]

okay so some advice from me, maybe it will help some of yall. if u feel like ur gonna binge, just sit and think about how u eat it, how guilty ur gonna feel, cuz u know the feel of gulit n u know that its always gonna come after eating, ur gonna feel ugly again, u dont wanna feel that, right? think bout the feeling of being light, when u lay in pretty lingerie under white sheet, when ur legs are so skinny, when ur stomach is so damn flat, when ur fingers are so long n so damn skinny. remember that. u dont wanna eat, ur body wants to, but does it deserve it? is the moment of pleasure worthy the week of gulit?

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[carmennn222]

okay, so basically i'm gonna start posting here, cuz i feel like its gonna help me a bit. i was in 'restric' diet it was something around 400 calories sometimes even less, but i still feel disgusting in my body, so i decides to eat max 200 calories and posting here how i feel etc to stop myself from binge. honestly idgaf about any advice for recorvery so please just get over it. So its 8pm and my 'last meal' was blueberries, i hate myself for eating after 6pm, but since now i start doing this, and eat nothing or as i said max 200 calories. i dont know how long im gonna do this, prolly to this time when my body wont handle it, then im gonna eat a bit more like maybe again 400 calories. thats it, xoxo

also french's my first language so if i did some mistakes plz forgive me lmao

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