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2023

went through another breakup (4 years), ugh

realised polyamory probably isn't for me

did a half marathon! (in 2:23)

went to Mallorca (again)

went to Hong Kong to visit friends and my grandmother's ashes

started baking sourdough bread

started making kimchi

continued going to the gym and running

continued teaching 2 students online

went through part 2 of the horrific friendship breakup

learned a lot about my lack of boundaries & inner critic

still learning to be kinder to myself

still learning how to deepen friendships and relationships

2024 is going to be a year of change.

#2023 #new year

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2022

moved back to the UK then back to London

started exploring polyamory properly

fell in love again and got a second partner

went through some intense conflict in my polycule

got a job in the charity sector again but continued teaching three students per week

had a pretty horrific friendship break up

continued going to the gym and running

gained a huge amount of awareness about myself through my relationships and therapy

went deeper into personal finance

really struggled to deepen friendships as much as I wanted to this year. realised a lot of things about myself that generally get in the way of intimacy. 2023 is a year in which I will attempt to be kinder to myself.

#2022 #new year

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2021

- survived the ongoing pandemic for one more year

- got a promotion

- tried mushrooms and lsd for the first time

- started a gym and running routine (5 days per week)

- read even more books than last year

- started therapy again

- went camping in hong kong

this year has not been one of great change, but next year i will be moving back to the uk, where i hope to deepen friendships and put down roots.

#2021 #new year

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2020

- survived the worst death of a loved one i could possibly imagine, my grandmother

- survived the (ongoing) pandemic

- became an avid reader and read the most books in a year i have ever read

- finally found a secure hong kong company to work in

- found a really nice apartment in hong kong (much better than the last one)

- stopped therapy for a while (to save money)

- finally started investing money in the stock market

- generally improved my cantonese a lot (and established a daily routine)

- built a strong romantic relationship with someone in hong kong and had them move in with me

this year has generally been about survival of some pretty horrible experiences. i feel a lot more pessimistic and jaded. i hope i find a way to deal with this.

#2020 #new year

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2019

- worked for a week in beijing/qinhuangdao, china

- started counselling and learned a lot about myself and my attachment style

- chaired a panel discussion on being an east asian woman in punk music

- worked for a week in nanjing/taizhou, china

- generally improved my cantonese a lot

- came out of another long-term relationship

- moved to hong kong (finally!)

- got my own studio apartment

- started teaching full-time

- again worked way too much

- went to taiwan for taipei pride

- had some fun experiences on weed

- met some pretty cool hong kongers

#2019 #new year

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2018

- went to hong kong (again) and spoke lots of cantonese

- went to lisbon (again)

- improved my filmmaking skills a lot

- went to mallorca (again)

- kept on teaching - probably worked too much in general

- travelled around the uk a lot (for work and leisure)

- received an offer for a week-long teaching job in beijing

- read the most books since leaving university

- started a gym routine and got stronger

this year has been less about new experiences and more about working at the same thing. next year i have some plans to mix it up a bit (hopefully)

#2018 #new year

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2017

- moved in with some great people

- started filmmaking

- went to vienna again

- built a good class of students

- taught at a summer school in oxford

- went to athens

- got a promotion at the charity

- my gf moved to london

- moved into a better house

- got a new cantonese teacher

- went to edinburgh again

- tried some more class a drugs (because why not)

#2017 #new year

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2016

- went to dubai and met a girl

- went to rome

- discovered my mbti type / went on a journey of self-discovery

- tried class a drugs

- went to istanbul and almost died

- left my old job which was making me miserable

- got a better job working for a charity

- travelled to other parts of the UK and met some great people

- moved into another flat

- did a teaching course and passed with the top grade

- got a teaching job

- went to malaysia and spoke cantonese

- generally improved my cantonese a lot more

#2016 #new year

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2015

difficult year to begin with but gradually turned into probably the best. noteworthy things included: - came out of a long term relationship

- moved out of my parent’s house (to london)

- visited hong kong for the first time in 10 years

- generally improved my cantonese a lot

- went into the crazy dating world and came out alive

- lead a feminist discussion group

- got a (kind of) promotion

- went to mallorca with mostly people i didn’t know

- drove in a foreign country and didn’t die

- walked on the red carpet with cate blanchett (kind of)

- had casual sex for the first time and realised it wasn’t for me

- saw lots of wonderful gigs

- started playing drums again

- (kind of) started a band, tbc

- travelled on my own for the first time (to lisbon)

- started designing posters again

- met some incredible, inspirational people

very, very excited for 2016 :)

#2015 #new year

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Beach House’s “Sparks” is named Best New Track 

#beach house #sparks #ohhhhmaaaahgaaaaad #late to the party

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Frank Auerbach

#frank auerbach

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Knowing how to be solitary is central to the art of loving. When we can be alone, we can be with others without using them as an escape.

bell hooks, All About Love: New Visions (via feellng)

#bell hooks

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I’m lost. And it’s my own fault. It’s about time I figured out that I can’t ask people to keep me found.

Anne Sexton (via indicio)

#anne sexton

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Chungking Express (1994) dir. Wong Kar-wai

#chungking express #wong kar wai #tony leung

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Take action in your heart and be careful whom you love—for a lover who dies, no matter how forgotten, will take somewhat of you to the grave.

Nightwood, by Djuna Barnes (via haltingly)

#djuna barnes #nightwood

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“71. I have been trying, for some time now, to find dignity in my loneliness. I have been finding this hard to do.  

72. It is easier, of course, to find dignity in one’s solitude. Loneliness is solitude with a problem. Can blue solve the problem, or can it at least keep me company within it? —No, not exactly. It cannot love me that way; it has no arms. But sometimes I do feel its presence to be a sort of wink—Here you are again, it says, and so am I.”

— Maggie Nelson, Bluets

#maggie nelson #bluets #happy together #loneliness #solitude #dignity #wong kar wai

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‘Diversity-talk’ in queer movements will invariably raise trans issues, discussions of gender expression, polyamory and even sometimes sex workers’ rights if you’re lucky but the whiteness of queer movements tends to go unaddressed...

#whiteness #queer #racism #white privilege #queer identity #diversity #queer movement