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There'll be a post like, "ableism is bad" and all the comments will be "yeah! Ableists are all sociopaths and narcissists!" "Ableists all live in their moms basements and don't contribute anything to society!"

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If you want to call yourself "madpunk", "cripplepunk", "neuropunk", etc, your activism better not stop at the things you find "bad". People with no empathy. People with personality disorders. People who need their aids in daily life. People who have extreme fluctuating emotions. People with paraphilias. People with dissociative disorders. Psychotic people. People who have different modes of eating, excreting, having sex, etc. Homeless people. People who wear diapers. People who have violent urges/thoughts. People who you think are "dangerous". People who use drugs. People who need medication to survive and live. People with physical deformities. People who have delusions. People who struggle with feeding themselves, cleaning, working, etc.

If you think any of these factors make someone "abusive", you are ableist. Abusers are abusive. None of the above things make someone an abuser.

Madpunk and cripplepunk aren't just "adhd and autism punk". Or "mobility aid user punk". Keep that in mind.

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i dont like to talk about self-diagnosis because i dont enjoy people making assumptions about me, my illnesses, and my diagnostic status. but i will say:

i have self diagnosed and gone on to be medically validated with an official diagnosis. multiple times actually. i was never wrong about my self-diagnoses.

however, i have been misdiagnosed by professionals FIVE TIMES. and let me tell you, a professional diagnosis being wrong is far more harmful than a self-diagnosis being wrong.

if your self diagnosis is wrong, maybe you used the wrong language or put yourself in a box or now feel invalid and whatnot. but if your professional diagnosis is wrong, it can lead to abuse, medical trauma, panic attacks, issues with medication, even suicide.

i was misdiagnosed with BPD when i was 15 by a psychologist that i spoke to for hardly even 10 minutes. this diagnosis was based on my parent's description of my reactions to abuse, and the diagnosis was used to validate and excuse their abuse.

i was misdiagnosed with MDD when i was 12 and put through several different types of anti-depressants. we never found anything that worked, because it was actually ADHD and dissociation, but i did end up with panic attacks and insomnia all throughout middle/highschool!

when i self-diagnosed with autism however, it saved my life. it took me out of active suicidality because i was able to finally able to accept myself after years of feeling like i am just "being a person wrong". i had the knowledge to accomodate for myself and the language to advocate for myself. this was life changing. even if i was wrong, which i wasnt, i dont see how it couldve caused any harm.

my opinions on self-diagnoses arent black and white, and im not entirely settled on them either, but i do think this is important to understand. doctors and psychologists are not all knowing. we live in a time where we can access thousands of dollars worth of university level education on the internet, even the same exact resources medical students use. plenty of people are capable of interpreting themselves and that information to come to a conclusion about what they are experiencing and what might help.

sure, self-diagnosis might be biased. but a professional is most likely going to be just as biased, and possibly less aware of it. its just silly to use bias as a primary argument when it is an inescapable feature of human psychology. there is a reason ADHD is underdiagnosed in women. there is a reason anxiety disorders are underdiagnosed in men.

an incorrect self-diagnosis wont take away resources or your space in your comminities. but professional misdiagnosis can cause real damage.

(i am not trying to fear-monger about professional diagnosis, moreso responding to the fear-mongering surrounding self-diagnosis)

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please be aware that disabled people are not "against exercising"

Some disabled people's symptoms worsen when exercising and they can't affort that while holding a job/studying/making an ssi application

some diasabled people cannot exercise unless in physical therapy, which they may not have acess to.

Some disabled people risk hurting themselves permanently by exercising

A lot of disabled people do exercise but abled people don't consider it exercise because it isn't normal enough.

Most disabled people have been told to "just exercise" or "try yoga". Most disabled people have been guilted into thinking it's their fault because they're not exercising or not enough. Most disabled people feel like shit when you bring up exercise because they'e learn it's followed up with either a lesson on how they can "cure their disability" or how they're "letting themselves go"

Some disabled people get trauma response by people telling them to exercise, or that execise is good for them even if that is true.

When someone tells me exercise is good for me i have to stop myself from sobbing on the spot. Because my dad and doctors told me i should just exercise no matter how many specialist's letters i have saying i risked permanent damage. Because my physical therapy is right there, i just can't acess it. Because all the ressources are a subway away and i'm being denied them. i'm being told to way for a year and a half while i watch my mobility and pain worsen, knowing it could be getting better. Because it reminds me how abandoned i am from people who could save me.

Because telling disabled people "exercise is good for you" or "have you tried exercising" is an insult to how much they want and are trying to get better. This is getting in the "i know better" position and getting mad when you do not know better.

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i have a semi-popular post where i say that canes are moreso for balance than support, so i wanna apologize for spreading any misinformation

i noticed that in cpunk community they usually tell that canes are low support and more for balance. i disagree and i want to say why.

not sure if there's such thing in english, but in my language we have different words for "walking cane" and "support cane". first one is exactly how people describe it: for light weight bearing, good for balancing. meanwhile the second one is good for weight bearing, and i know what i'm talking about - i use one.

the difference is handle type + shaft structure. for heavy weight bearing it should be solid, no mecha joints or smth. wooden ones are the best, and always read specifications closely, they must have maximum weight that the cane is able to support. mine can bear my whole body weight and even some more.

what about handles, it's usually derby or t-shape. they're the best for heavy support because if you hold it properly your wrist doesn't hurt, your whole arm works instead. my wrists are never sore. so, a good way to hold a cane for weight bearing is lean your palm against the handle and stretch your index finger down the shaft.

and of course the right height is very, very important.

with all that said, i can switch almost my whole leg weight onto the cane, and my wrist is okay, and the cane can bear it just fine.

the point is, canes can bear weight and they can do it really good, just not every cane is capable.

#chronic pain #disabled #physical disability #mobility aids #cripplepunk #chronic fatigue #chronic illness #cane user #(since yall are the target audience)

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apparently people are now purchasing thick water to make slimes with because of a trend on tiktok

thick water is for disabled people who can’t swallow properly. stores usually have extremely limited supplies of it.

please don’t buy thick water for fun or to make slime with. it’s literally the only way some disabled people can drink anything. It’s not a fucking toy

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this meme is so niche

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"why don't you have a job?"

i can't find one that will hire/accommodate me or that i qualify for, bc i'm disabled.

"be a cashier!"

requires long hours of standing, which i can't do, or has a physical requirement of being able to lift 40+ lbs from the floor to above shoulder level, which i also can't do. some companies go so far as to expressly state that reading body language is required for this position, which i am very bad at.

"well you could buss tables!"

long hours of standing, a lot of walking, bending, lifting, carrying, all of which i am not capable of doing for extended periods of time.

"just work from home!"

doing what? it hurts to type, i have a hell of a time trying to figure out new software, no one in any work from home job i've ever done has communicated adequately which always results in me being in trouble, sitting for too long is painful.

"walk dogs or smth!"

again: can't do long walks. also, can't be reliable bc of flare ups and such (which applies to all of these, really).

"start your own business!"

with what money? with what product? art? can't consistently do it. music? not that either. sewing crocheting scrapbooking writing? nope nope nope nope. plus, i struggle so hard w/execution dysfunction that one of three things would happen: 1) i would make and create and package and send and nothing else ever. or 2) i would do unrelated stuff that needs to be done and never create or package or ship. or finally 3) i would never do anything ever bc brain refuses to cooperate and all the tasks are overwhelming.

"idk, be a crossing gaurd or smth!"

see previous statements.

"collect shopping carts!"

see previous statements.

"post office!"

see previous statements.

"electrician, plumber, hvac!"

see previous statements.

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Rollator version (You are here!)

Crutch version

Cane version 

White cane version

Wheelchair version

Power Chair version 

[ID: An image featuring an edited version of the “Why Do We Have Hands” meme. The header says “Why Do We Have Rollators?” and is followed by a black and white cartoon image of a rollator. Underneath that reads “There Are Many Reasons” and beneath that is a series of four images with captions. They are all black and white and in a simplified style. The first image is of a person walking over cracks on the ground with a rollator. There is a motion blur used. The caption is “free massage.” The image to the right of it depicts a person running into another person with their rollator. The person being hit has three exclamation points near their head. The caption is “HIT the ableist.” The third image to the bottom left is of a person sitting on their rollator with flames in the background. The person is saying “This is fine,” and the caption is chair anywhere! The fourth image to the bottom right is a close-up of a rollator with stickers on it. The stickers feature a skull-faced cat; a round, white sticker with a black ribbon in the center; a black rectangle with a smaller white rectangle inside; and one that reads “SICK CUTE” in a creepy font. /End ID]

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once i made a post about my first mobility aid being a stick i found outside and someone responded to it attempting to convince me that my post about Poverty was somehow a privilege since i "dont need a wheelchair" (i do).

#i love this threat <3 #and thank you

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so i got the abortion, almost everything went smoothly. i can still confidently say i made the right decision for myself, my health, and my future.

everyone was very kind, and they walked me out the back after so i wouldnt have to deal with the protestors. i was very scared, i thought i was ready. but i think i was wrong. i wasnt expecting this to affect me so much. ive been getting intrusive memories of the procedure accompanied by worsened pelvic pain. i keep crying about it. which is weird for me! i never cry about the simple fact of something having been painful and unpleasant.

*trigger/content warnings for mentions of sexual trauma and description of my unpleasant procedure*

honestly i did not know it would hurt, and i have amnesia so i may be wrong (although i believe the same alter who handles most of our medical things handled both appointments for us) but i dont believe i was warned of pain, only "discomfort". i dont know how much better i mightve taken it if i did know, but i still wish i had been expecting that. it hurt badly. i dont know if it may have been affected by my hEDS and chronic pain, the doctor seemed frustrated so i wasnt sure if my reaction was normal.

it happened so quickly, but excrutiatingly slow. the doctor quickly and roughly inserted the iv into my arm and said "i dont know how well these pain killers are gonna work", which was terrifying, and then he immediately got to work. i was reduced to tears very quickly. due to repeated sexual trauma, my legs have an instinct of uncontrollably flinching and/or closing when touched and i have a very hard time relaxing down there. the pain certainly didnt help with that. they kept telling me i needed to keep my legs apart and i was just sobbing and saying im sorry over and over again. a nurse held my hand the whole time and walked me into the recovery room. she was very kind.

i dont regret anything about my decision. the fact that i couldnt even handle this pain was even further proof to me that i could not handle childbirth. and seeing such a diverse group of people at all ages was somewhat comforting to me. it made me feel more normal. and i appreciate that the staff there really did seem to try to create a comforting and frendly environment.

im glad i got an abortion. but it was a truly awful experience. its quite honestly not that different than many other medical procedures.

thank you again, if you read this.

i, a 19 year old disabled trans man at 11 weeks of pregnancy, am scheduled for a surgical abortion tomorrow at 2pm.

i suppose i just wanted to speak on my experience.

i am scared

i am sad

i am grateful

and i am sure

**massive trigger warnings for mentions of addiction, substance abuse, the pro-life movement, and domestic abuse.**

personally, this feels somewhat as a loss. i am of the belief that a baby is always a blessing (meant non-religously, somewhat spiritually, but up to interpretation). and if i had the resources to bless this child back as a parent, i would with immense joy. i have never intended to have a child; however several of my siblings, as well as myself, were unplanned and i have seen the miracle of a child firsthand. to have the chance to welcome one into the world would be a beautiful and well-worth experience to me.

however, i am an addict. before and after discovering my pregnancy, i have smoked weed, used MDMA, and drank alcohol. i have left myself dehydrated, malnourished, and extremely stressed out due to a current abusive relationship. not to mention, i live with currently unmanaged chronic and mental illnesses and can barely take care of myself. i do not have a job, and have an extremely hard time getting hired due to my circumstances. i am off to residential rehab soon. i am not in a place to raise a child, and it would be entirely unfair to both them and to myself at this point in my life. i am making the best educated and kindest decision i possibly can for both myself and this life inside of me.

i am extremely sure of my decision. but this oppourtunity for love and life being lost does mean something to me. and i think it is strange and unfair the way that so much pro-abortion activism is done so aggressively and with no compassion or consideration to the people who's abortions bring on sad and complicated feelings. painting it as a procedure with absolutely no possibility of emotional/physical short or longterm effects. refering to the fetus as a "parasite" even, and with no consideration to it as a possibility for human life. i dont mean this in any pro-life sort of way, i firmly believe it is a personal choice whether or not you go through with the pregnancy. i just think it is unfair to pregnant people to paint this wonderful biological phenomenom as a scary harmful inhuman thing. even some of the support ive recieved from those close to me has referened this idea of a "parasitic" baby i need to "kill". i dont know if its just my pregnancy horomones, or perhaps my sense of humanity, but that verbage and imagery was just sickening to hear.

i have recieved an incredible amount of support, however, that many do not recieve. i am extremely grateful for both the family and friends who are supportive of my right to abortion, and to have been born and raised in a state with access to this right (before 15 weeks at least). my stepmother has had an abortion, shared her experience and support, and she is paying for mine. my father drove me to my initial consultation (as my state's law requires a ridiculously lengthy consultation 24 hours prior to the actual procedure), and even yelled at the protestors outside of the clinic. my partner, despite our relationship's hostility, is aware of this procedure and fully supportive. i am aware of my luck and privilege, and my heart truly does go out to anyone going through this on their own or with less support. as well as anyone living without access to this right.

the process of abortion is very trans-unfriendly in my experience, and ive opted to act as female and accept being misgendered. of course the pregnancy and this process has been dysphoria inducing, but sometimes it's just easier to do certain things like this. my trans homies know what i mean.

it is also very unfriendly overall, as my state's process attempts to coerce or scare you into changing your mind many times before the procedure takes place. not to mention the protestors standing at the sidewalk calling you a murderer and lecturing you about your sins. however, the clinic i went to had volunteers who very kindly escorted me from the car to the door and attempted to shield me from any harrassment. the staff inside was very kind and respectful, as were the patients going through this alongside me. it seemed everyone was attempting to counteract the heavy nature of the procedure and overall unfriendly and anti-feminist process. seeing the humanity and compassion from the people around me has been a pleasant silver-lining.

dont let anyone fool you, abortion is a pretty common thing. i couldnt find an open appointment at any clinic near me. my father drove me an hour and a half to a 5:30 appointment in a clinic (that exclusively did abortion), that was packed full of people in need of abortion services.

this experience has taught me things about myself, and the people around me, and the world. i do not regret my choice and dont think that will change. but even if it does that will be my own journey, which should never take away from anyone's basic human rights. it is appauling, disgusting, and terrifying to me that access to abortions is so limited. it is even at high risk in my state of becoming more limited, or even criminalized. i will always advocate and vote to the best of my ability for everyone's access to abortion. and i hope anyone reading this intends to do the same.

thank you, if you did read this.

#abortion #pro abortion #transgender #actually traumatized #abortion experience #pro choice #feminism #trans inclusive feminism #radfems dni #vent tw #sexually traumautized

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a lot of the language used to describe disabled people's legal situation is so misleading... like, ok, "disabled people can't get married without losing our benefits" sounds like a non-issue to most outsiders

but "benefits" would be more accurately called "sole lifelong income"

"disabled people can't get married without losing our sole lifelong income" sounds a lot worse and like we're being intentionally funneled into abusive relationships, eh?

in my least charitable moments, i think a lot of the words chosen by non-disabled outsiders to describe us and our lives and legal situations are intentionally softening the reality of our situation, so it sounds less horrific than it actually is

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please reblog ^this^ edited version of this post. other previous versions might specify mental and/or neurological disability, and those words exclusively refer to intellectually and neurologically disabled people. that is completely my mistake, and i do sincirely apologize.

i meant to refer to psychological and neurodevelopmental (may also include intellectual and neurological) disability. which i believe are all under the neurodivergent umbrella. so again, please reblog this more accurately edited version! thank you.

i really do believe that psychological and neurodevelopmental conditions can cause physical disability. (tourettes causing pain and fatigue, schizophrenia causing catatonia, anxiety causing heart problems, autism and dyspraxia causing motor skill issues, etc...) many conditions can be both mentally and physically disabling.

but it feels disingenuous to describe yourself as "crippled by a psychological/neurodevelopmental disorder" while entirely avoiding calling yourself Physically Disabled.

the principles of cripplepunk specificies the exclusion of abled bodies and acknowledgement of the intersection between mental and physical disability.

cripplepunk is specifically stated to be by and for physically disabled people, so if you do not consider yourself to be physically disabled and you use the word "cripple", you are not cripplepunk. you are ableist.

#cripple punk #cripplepunk #actually disabled #tw ableism #cripplepunk discourse #actually physically disabled #physical disability #actually crippled

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Autistic people who use little word because they forget big word I love you.

Autistic people who use big word because they forget little word I love you.

Autistic people who use simple word because is all they can understand I love you.

Autistic people who only use simple word because is what is on theirs aac I love you.

Autistic people who have lot of very specific word about theirs special interest that other not understand I love you.

All this go for autistic non human too, people is what is fastest on aac. Peace and love to y’all

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i, a 19 year old disabled trans man at 11 weeks of pregnancy, am scheduled for a surgical abortion tomorrow at 2pm.

i suppose i just wanted to speak on my experience.

i am scared

i am sad

i am grateful

and i am sure

**massive trigger warnings for mentions of addiction, substance abuse, the pro-life movement, and domestic abuse.**

personally, this feels somewhat as a loss. i am of the belief that a baby is always a blessing (meant non-religously, somewhat spiritually, but up to interpretation). and if i had the resources to bless this child back as a parent, i would with immense joy. i have never intended to have a child; however several of my siblings, as well as myself, were unplanned and i have seen the miracle of a child firsthand. to have the chance to welcome one into the world would be a beautiful and well-worth experience to me.

however, i am an addict. before and after discovering my pregnancy, i have smoked weed, used MDMA, and drank alcohol. i have left myself dehydrated, malnourished, and extremely stressed out due to a current abusive relationship. not to mention, i live with currently unmanaged chronic and mental illnesses and can barely take care of myself. i do not have a job, and have an extremely hard time getting hired due to my circumstances. i am off to residential rehab soon. i am not in a place to raise a child, and it would be entirely unfair to both them and to myself at this point in my life. i am making the best educated and kindest decision i possibly can for both myself and this life inside of me.

i am extremely sure of my decision. but this oppourtunity for love and life being lost does mean something to me. and i think it is strange and unfair the way that so much pro-abortion activism is done so aggressively and with no compassion or consideration to the people who's abortions bring on sad and complicated feelings. painting it as a procedure with absolutely no possibility of emotional/physical short or longterm effects. refering to the fetus as a "parasite" even, and with no consideration to it as a possibility for human life. i dont mean this in any pro-life sort of way, i firmly believe it is a personal choice whether or not you go through with the pregnancy. i just think it is unfair to pregnant people to paint this wonderful biological phenomenom as a scary harmful inhuman thing. even some of the support ive recieved from those close to me has referened this idea of a "parasitic" baby i need to "kill". i dont know if its just my pregnancy horomones, or perhaps my sense of humanity, but that verbage and imagery was just sickening to hear.

i have recieved an incredible amount of support, however, that many do not recieve. i am extremely grateful for both the family and friends who are supportive of my right to abortion, and to have been born and raised in a state with access to this right (before 15 weeks at least). my stepmother has had an abortion, shared her experience and support, and she is paying for mine. my father drove me to my initial consultation (as my state's law requires a ridiculously lengthy consultation 24 hours prior to the actual procedure), and even yelled at the protestors outside of the clinic. my partner, despite our relationship's hostility, is aware of this procedure and fully supportive. i am aware of my luck and privilege, and my heart truly does go out to anyone going through this on their own or with less support. as well as anyone living without access to this right.

the process of abortion is very trans-unfriendly in my experience, and ive opted to act as female and accept being misgendered. of course the pregnancy and this process has been dysphoria inducing, but sometimes it's just easier to do certain things like this. my trans homies know what i mean.

it is also very unfriendly overall, as my state's process attempts to coerce or scare you into changing your mind many times before the procedure takes place. not to mention the protestors standing at the sidewalk calling you a murderer and lecturing you about your sins. however, the clinic i went to had volunteers who very kindly escorted me from the car to the door and attempted to shield me from any harrassment. the staff inside was very kind and respectful, as were the patients going through this alongside me. it seemed everyone was attempting to counteract the heavy nature of the procedure and overall unfriendly and anti-feminist process. seeing the humanity and compassion from the people around me has been a pleasant silver-lining.

dont let anyone fool you, abortion is a pretty common thing. i couldnt find an open appointment at any clinic near me. my father drove me an hour and a half to a 5:30 appointment in a clinic (that exclusively did abortion), that was packed full of people in need of abortion services.

this experience has taught me things about myself, and the people around me, and the world. i do not regret my choice and dont think that will change. but even if it does that will be my own journey, which should never take away from anyone's basic human rights. it is appauling, disgusting, and terrifying to me that access to abortions is so limited. it is even at high risk in my state of becoming more limited, or even criminalized. i will always advocate and vote to the best of my ability for everyone's access to abortion. and i hope anyone reading this intends to do the same.

thank you, if you did read this.

#abortion #feminism #radfems dni #pro choice #tw drug mention #pro abortion #trans inclusive feminism #ok to rb

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as an ND able-bodied person, i just wanna say that cpunks are NOT doing anything wrong by not allowing us in their community. its completely okay and im actually very very happy that physically disabled people finally have their own space where they dont have to deal with ableism toward them all the time

able-bodied NDs have it made in this sense. we have TWO communities! we have neuropunk and madpunk, and you can go on any social media platform and easily find hundreds of other NDs on there along with little communities and shit. but physically disabled people dont have it that easy. when they DO find one that isnt just about ND people, it's still full of ableism. i've seen it myself and it makes me sick

so physically disabled people decided to make their OWN community. just for them. no one else. then THATS when able-bodied NDs start getting pissy and call them ableist when they were basically doing the exact same shit before.

you can handle not being allowed in one community. theres two more you can be part of just fine

if youre an able-bodied ND who sees yourself in any of this, maybe you should stop and look at yourself. make some improvements

to the cpunk community, dont let people like this tear you down. stand your ground, push these people out. you deserve your OWN safe space and no one will take that from you

#refreshing to see this kind of support quite honestly #i dont remember when the cripplepunk community became so filled with discourse about whether ablebodied folks are included #but it has never made sense #main principles of cripplepunk specify the exclusion of abled bodies #thank u op #for ur allyship

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i don’t necessarily believe in mind/body dualism but i am sick of nd and mentally ill physically abled people acting like our struggles are the exact same and like they have the authority to speak over us on topics that don’t really affect them