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Last week, alcoholic smoothie and half a bar .. I've got to quit the blackouts .. So gonna party light, for now .

#xanax #liquor #drugs

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So my family held an intervention for me :')

Will talk about it tomorrow

#drugs #intervention #xanax #coke #party #druggy #abuse #addiction #mental health #suicide

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So my family held an intervention for me today 🙃

Basically about my mental health and drug abuse . Step mom is gonna try to get me into a program but no thanks. I'll just tighten up .. Not let loose like that cause it has gotten bad recently again . Fuck me I didn't want those talks . . I hate to make then worry and such man ..

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yall mind if i

abuse substances alone in my room instead of participating in human contact

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So I took two white xans yesterday and drank .. alot and thought I just passed out to a movie or playing video games .. naw apparently my step mom saw me all stumbling and talked to me a minute and said I was up til like 5 am balling my eyes out over my ex and worrying about my dad overdosing .. I felt fine before the black out I guess that shit just unburied those feelings ... Then I hurt this girl's feelings I've been kind of talking to and like fuck man.. That's why I'm glad I'm gonna live alone where I can't hurt anyone and can die alone when I so please ..

#xanax #sad #depression #blackout #drinking #alcoholic #drugs #5am

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Partied all weekend .. Lived to Die another day .. 2 xans left til pay day ☹️ gotta buy an 8th of grass tomorrow and wait for the weekend to go skiing ❄️😏

I hope I get laced and die soon lol atleast make it look accidental

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What's the 27 clu-u-u-u-uub we ain't making past 21

#xanax #coke #oxy #blow #snow #drugs #sad #killme #coffin #dieyoung #knockoffxanax

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I low-key hope I get something laced with Fent.. atleast it'd probably be an accident 🤷

#xanax #suicide #sad #overdose #kms #drugs #accidents

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When I'm in a bad mood or just having a really fucking boring day my cravings get so bad man.. like I wanna do blow or down a bar or three with some liquor like fuck man.. Never thought I'd get like this when I was a kid or when I got older but here I am ..

#drugs #dope #fuckedup #coke #blow #xanax #depression

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I was so close when I tried last time ... I'm sorry to my family for doing that to them but damn was I close ... Oh well though what's done is done, here's to continued drug use with liquor wit vague hopes I o.d again

#xanax #suicide #sad #depression #overdose #liquor #badchoices #stupid

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My night 😝

#cokerock #coke #drugs #weed #high #wiggedout #dopelife #dodrugs #Depression #sadboy

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My Saturday night. picked up 30 bars today. I’m gonzo

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Whatever it take to get through this abysmal ensemble of a life we got