etherealstardustt

[etherealstardustt]

Okay but i want to be ridiculously affectionate to all the girls in my life. Would that be okay 👉👈

#<3 #im so chill rn and i have a test tomorrow like uhm #anyways i love girls sm #im thriving cuz of the girls no other reason yes #tumblr girls #love #friends

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I need a fucking break in a cute cottage with a person who I know will make me feel safe and warm and free. oh it would be nice if a beach is nearby too

#im legit on the verge of screaming ahhhhhhhh #this is torture damn #im so tired of studying #this syllabus is never ending fr #and people😭 #i hate when they grow apart #and im the one who is hurting more like i hate giving that privilege to people who are not worthy #yes this is directed at you #you particular person who is being shitty to me rn #ugh i should have never let you in #never never never never never never #never. #rants

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went through a multitude of emotions during my pds this time (if anyone cares btw) (*sobs*)

#😭??

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Wasn't feeling well and sort of weird yesterday, and I just shut my study books and phone down and went outside, saw stars and moon, felt it's warm glow all over and suddenly it all made sense. like everything IS about love, at the end, it's all that persists, that remains, that keeps us going. That's why we don't stop, even when someone we love hurt us, we don't stop, we can't stop actually falling in love with yet another person(And I'm not at all talking abt just romantic love btw). It exists guys, love exists. And it will find you. I promise.

#but literally tho it felt like the most beautiful realisation ever #not sure if it makes sense completely- #i was feeling restless and it kind of grounded me ig? #and then i immediately told a friend that he was loved and everything #cuz i was feeling really bad for him for the stuff he went through #i was hesitating a bit to do it earlier so yeah #<33 #love #nature #moon

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I'm always surprised when my posts get notes; you liked what I had to say? You graced me with a like?? You blessed me with a reblog???

#frrr #your likes give me validation lmfao #thankyou sm

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OH MY GOD IM HATING MYSELF SO HARD RN LIKE AHHH😭 okay so i caught this habit of talking to a online guy friend everyday and we were constantly texting almost all day and it felt good that someone is with me cuz I'm mostly in isolation cuz I have to study and he is sweet and everything and he was there for me too when I needed to vent but now we don't talk that much and I think this new sparking friendship is dying and it kinda hurtssss aah. And he has a crush now so ig that's one of the factor too cuz I feel his behavior changing and he is paying less attention and our talks are less interesting and ngl I kinda hate it🥲 and I hate myself more for letting myself grow close to someone and that too a guy?!! (No offense to guys but I could never connect sm with a guy so yeah) and it's a difficult time for me cuz I have all this exam pressure and ughhhhh why did this have to happen now😭

#i feel so anxious and heavy😭 #i hate that im so affected by the presence of a single person #like thats so not me #but here we are #i feel stupid ughhhh #rant #🥲

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I'm finding it so hard to be grateful rn. Like not for my life and privileges or smth, but for the people :") Like at the end, everyone cares for themselves. You matter as long as they are going through a hard time or you have good times.

#i feel so terrible #and idk where else to vent #i dont wanna burden anyone #but ugh i cant help but feel that im surrounded by such ignorant self centered people AHSHSHJSK #is wanting some genuine people as a support system too fucking much to ask? 🥲 #its not #its so fucking not.

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I'm sorry for being so horribly inactive but I have this huge study load and my exam is really soon. But I wanted to say that thankyou for all the people who sent asks and replied under my "wanna be friends?" post lol and offered to be my friend. I love you all sm and you made my day <33

#🐧💌 #i will try to reply to y'all soon #i promise😭

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hiii pooks i’ll be ur friend <33

Ahhhsjk I'm honoured!! 🤭💗

#asks #y'all are so sweet i can't 😭😭 #🦋

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I love my mutuals. Reblog if you love your mutuals.

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I'm in love with involuntary validation of a relationship. My best friend saying "our spot", my brother saying "our cookie recipe" or my mum saying "our song". Like YES I LOVE YOU TOO. I'm so soft for it.

#<3

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hiii saw a post can i be ur friend <3 - ⚔️

Haha ofc!! (But im curious, who are youu tho?👀)

#asks #cute🐧

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*with the biggest smile on my face* yes I'll have you!!🙈

Okay HOW DO Y'ALL MAKE FRIENDS HERE? Like hello does someone wanna be my friend? 👉👈

#cute #<3

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Omgg you're the sweetest human being!!!! 🥺💌

Looking forward to getting to know youuuu! 🙈

Okay HOW DO Y'ALL MAKE FRIENDS HERE? Like hello does someone wanna be my friend? 👉👈

#thankyou and ilyt☃️

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Okay HOW DO Y'ALL MAKE FRIENDS HERE? Like hello does someone wanna be my friend? 👉👈

#its been like 15 days since im here but yeah im very impatient #but really tho i see these groups of tightly knit friends and i cant help but wonder like howwww #friends #friendship #gotta go back to study #screaming from a cliff #tumblr

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i hate random sad days. having a heavy heart and an anxious mind is the worst.

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Imagine falling in love and it works out for the rest of your life.

#wild thought