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Had to take a couple reading breaks, cried a little, almost threw up from pain at what I was reading.

I just finished The Sunshine Court.

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eveeyones got it wrong your mid 20s arent for going to the club or partying or picking up new crafts. your 20s are for discovering how much more autistic you are than you thought you were in high school

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i may not be the prettiest or the smartest or the funniest but i sure am the sleepiest

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wanting to go back to school vs wanting to lie down in the middle of the road like roadkill

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life sucks but at least there’s bisexuality and my chemical romance. and the horrors

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not femininity or masculinity but a secret third thing (faggotry)

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at least there’s my chemical romance

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they should invent a life that is liveable and a sleep that comes easy and a winter that doesn't feel like decay and a spring that doesn't feel like the past and a head that doesn't hurt and a heart that doesn't sit in your chest like a rock and a body that doesn't hate you and a hometown that doesn't make you lose your mind and a university that won't kill you they should invent a me that is normal I think that would be really neat. ok good night I love you

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ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to be an unemployed depressed faggot

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What do you mean I actually have to write my thesis?

#school #stemblr #stem academia #dark academia #personal #thesis

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The STEM urge to drop out of school and open a flower shop instead

#look how gorgeous she is #dark acadamia aesthetic #dark academia #stem academia #stemblr #plants #flowers #relatable #school

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“no matter how badly you think you’re doing it, someone else has done it a lot worse and been fine” is applicable to a wide, wide range of things and i say it to myself all the time

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I need several hours of Quiet Time each day or i become the worst person alive

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I can’t stop thinking about those tragic little gay men. They consume my every waking thought.

#the obsession and codependent relationships are chef’s kiss #iwwv #summer sons #the wicker king #these violent delights #(the gay one) #the goldfinch #vicious #dark academia #dark acadamia aesthetic #books #dark academia books #book recs

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The maze was, indeed, dense and leafy and half as high again as either of them. - A Marvellous light, Freya Marske

#the maze scene might be my favourite #a marvellous light #edwin courcey #robin blyth #queer books #dark acadamia aesthetic #dark academia #book recs

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the urge to make my most recent 5-star read my entire personality