lonelyheartsexpert

[lonelyheartsexpert]

your siblings will forever be the people who out of the 7,000,000,000 on earth will have the EXACT same situation as you. Same parents. Same family. Same education. For them to hurt you mentally or physically is scary because its almost like youre hurting yourself.

almost. 

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[lonelyheartsexpert]

I needed somewhere to post this. I don’t know what to do

I don’t know what its like to have a big sister in my life. Sure, I have one by blood but I don’t feel like I matter to her at all. Over the past few years I’ve only mattered to her when she could get something out of it. She stays in her room all day and yells at me if I go anywhere near her door. I can’t shake the feeling she’d be happier if I was out of the picture and I don’t what to do. I still remember her calling me “fatty, stupid,” at the age of 8. It doesn’t seem to matter to her at all. All she does is take her anger out on me and lie about stuff.

[lonelyheartsexpert]

Reminder

Abusive siblings are just as disgusting as abusive parents and partners

[lonelyheartsexpert]

i think I'll never be able to have a normal and healthy relationship with anyone. maybe it's my fucked up brain and my twisted logic; I'll never believe someone genuinely wants nor loves me. it's impossible. I'm just an obligation. legally, emotionally or socially; I'm just the person they have to keep so gossips are avoided. this is not love, it never was. this is me confining you inside of my toxic environment

[lonelyheartsexpert]

That feeling when you realise you have absolutely noone to reach out to anymore<<

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[lonelyheartsexpert]

Pov: they’re in your friendgroup

I hang out with people i don’t like.

It was easier a year ago. When i liked them. I could go and not get that uneasy feeling in my stomach. I know i deserve better than to hangout with these shallow people. But i can’t just not come. I can’t miss birthdays of my friends. The only reason i don’t want to come is because of you. Because you scare me. Because you try to make me feel beneath you. Because you show me how much fun you have without me infront of my face. Because you talk about every little thing i do. Because you can influence others to not like me. 

why cant you just leave me alone?

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[lonelyheartsexpert]

The fact that most people would go through the most traumatising incident of their life which will probably affect every action they make for the rest of their life and then just go to school the next morning and pretend nothing happened.

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