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After 3 painful years of so much drama, sweat, anxiety attacks and stress, I finally finished the major arcana and felt it was fitting to share this on the release of the final trilogy teaser! Yes this tarot will be a full 78 physical deck and will be avail on my etsy later in the year. You can follow this shop (PS: it’s only the user profile atm!) and get notified once it’s released :) Thank you for being part of the ride! Individual Major Arcana Tarots:

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𝓕𝓲𝓻𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓦𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓻

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After the Throne Room, Rey and Ben pretend nothing happened. If only their dreams would leave them be.

All the things that never happened in the year between The Last Jedi and The Rise of Skywalker. An interlude to my upcoming post-TRoS comic.

Part 1

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It also has a great message. The central theme is failure, but it still ends on hopeful note. The characters fail, but it's not the end - learn from your failure and be better.

whats so great about tlj? (aside from reylo stuff)

Gorgeous cinematography, great writing, challenges the source material and asks questions instead of just pulling straight from the OT, adds to the ‘verse, pushes characters into places they haven’t been before, opens our (the fans) imaginations... should I go on?

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foreshadowing done well makes me go feral like there’s NOTHING better than getting to the end a book or an important storyline moment and realising that the author laced information so intricately into their writing that weren’t noticeable upon first read but when you read back sections they’re light giant red flags like wow writing is amazing

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look, i dont care what directors say in behind-the-scenes or interviews, if they dont present that information in the film, they are bad story tellers. like, we had to assume everyone attended your comiccon panel? like? no. you are bad at story telling. if a character appears with zero context, it is confusing. i am not saying spoon feed the audience, but goddamn, there are plot devices that should be there to explain why that character showed up. not just information from your twitter. i shouldnt have to absorb five layers of media for your film to make sense 

#tros negativity

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Call me the devil’s advocate but aren’t we being disingenuous when we say that Rey Palpatine was a retcon but the sympathetic portrayal of the temple incident in The Rise of Kylo Ren was not? In The Last Jedi, Rey CLEARLY said her parents were nobodies and Ben CLEARLY said he destroyed Luke’s temple. In both cases, the next writers took a seemingly indisputable plot point and turned it into a case of ‘from a certain point of view’ to match what the fans wanted.

Uh, no, because Ben was already established as a character who gaslights himself. The only person Ben lies to is himself. He lies because he is trying to convince himself that he is the monster that his true nature is not. 

This is also the guy who said “I killed Han Solo. When the moment came, I didn’t hesitate” and we know that was a total lie. Ben says that because it’s what he is telling himself he wants to hear. He’s trying to speak into existence what he failed to do in reality.

This is the exact same thing that happened with the temple incident. And moreover, in the comic, it’s left ambiguous what happened. Yes, a lightning strike hit the temple, but was this just a random lightning strike? Was it Palpatine? Was it Ben? Was it Palpatine acting through Ben? We aren’t told that information. The ambiguity is intentional because I 110% guarantee that Ben does blame himself for the destruction of the temple and moreover as part of his Kylo Ren persona has moved on to saying “he destroyed it” because whatever happened, he caused it, either because of his inherent monstrousness or his inherent cursed nature. This is the sort of self victim blaming that is textbook Ben and you see elements of this all throughout the canon. 

This is a character who has internalized every bad thing that ever happened to him and in a desperate attempt at agency says that those terrible things must have happened because he deserved it, which means he functionally caused them. We have a guy canonically abused and mentally manipulated since birth by a dark Force entity who never once blames Snoke for any of this. He blames himself. He says that he is the monster; he is the person who is so terrible and inherently unloveable that everyone betrays him when his only crime was to exist.

This is an element that a lot of people get wrong about Ben’s characterization in the fandom because it’s a subtle point, but it drives me nuts. Just because Ben says something, and in fact might “believe” it, doesn’t mean it’s the canonical truth and it’s probably not even something Ben believes deep deep down, in the places he doesn’t allow himself to go because it would rip his entire justification for the Kylo Ren persona apart. Ben’s statement is an interpretation of an event and is colored by his personal experience and bias. Rey’s statement was a statement of a fact, not an event. There’s nothing to interpret here unless you are being an extremely disingenuous writer, which JJ is.

And this is moreover ignoring the reason why even if these statements were both retcons, one is fine and one isn’t. And that’s that Ben turning out to be an innocent pawn in Palpatine’s chess game is very much in line with how his entire character has been written, better informs that character, and provides a natural arc for growth. Rey’s retcon destroys the very reason why her character was unique, why her character mattered in the narrative, and what the very narrative was trying to say. Ben’s innocence doesn’t break the story; it enhances it. Rey’s “sudden parentage” destroys the story and creates a horrorshow of new themes like “you can’t be somebody unless you have a lineage” and “some people are just born impure and must be discarded.”

#reylo #agree on all accounts

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Do people really not see the appeal of enemies-to-lovers? I keep seeing these ridiculous posts about how Problematic it is that people are shipping people who *gasp* have fought in canon *clutches pearls*. It’s totally fine to not enjoy the trope, but to pretend like it’s some ridiculous new idea that “silly 14 y/o fangirls” have made up and it has no appeal outside of a “bad boy kink” (which is very patronizing and sudetly misogynistic phrase) is extremely disingenuous. ‪Enemies-to-lovers is one of the oldest and most enduring fictional stories of all time, and for good reason. Because many, many people enjoy it for many, many different reasons. I’m going to focus on het enemies-to-lovers and the female gaze because that’s where I see the most controversy happening. Although there certainly is a lot to be said about slash/femslash enemies-to-lovers, especially how it can be used to explore internalized homophobia and the gay experience, and I may make a follow-up post about that.

What baffles me the most is people that accuse enemies-to-lovers of being inherently abusive or abusive when there’s any actual conflict (like, you know, stories have) beyond something boring that no one would write like they stepped on each other’s toes in a movie theater. This extreme purity police attitude shows a lack of any understanding about storytelling and what like...fiction is. But diving even deeper into this claim, enemies-to-lovers is in dynamically the exact opposite of an abusive relationship, and that in of itself is a large part of its appeal for a lot of people. No intimate abuser will announce themselves as your sworn enemy, they will present themselves as everything you have ever wanted and the most perfect partner you could imagine. Instalove, the exact opposite of enemies-to-lovers, is actually the trope that resembles love bombing aka how most abusive relationships start. One of the reasons enemies-to-lovers can be so appealing, especially to women and people who have been in toxic relationships, is because when the enemy becomes your lover - you know they mean it. You know how they behave with their enemies, you know the darkest part of them and you don’t need to worry about what is lurking beneath the surface because you’ve already seen it and battled it and gotten past it.

As far as being misogynistic, enemies-to-lovers is literally a power fantasy for the female gaze. It’s the idea of someone who once opposed you being so enamored by you in your most unfiltered, non-seductive form that they listen to you, see things from your perspective, and ultimately align their strength with yours. Women are told that we need to make ourselves small and inoffensive and perfect to attract men or anyone or anything positive, so of course the idea that someone could become deeply enamored, almost against their will, with you when you are actively fighting them, arguing with them, challenging them etc. that those qualities, that being opinionated and angry and passionate and strong, could be the very thing that attracts them to you is a subversion of that idea. And enemies are equals, for a woman to be considered a worthy adversary to a man (and not by becoming a man to him or a sexual “temptress”) means the woman is being respected as his equal. This is a dynamic entirely based on equality, it relies on both characters being of equal strength, much more so than most romance tropes.

This is not exclusive to the female gaze though, in general it’s a fantasy that many can appreciate. Everyone has insecurities and bad moods, and intimacy is difficult for everyone (to varying degrees). In an enemies-to-lovers ship, the lovers have already seen each other in their most unromantic state. They have seen each other screaming with the rage of battle, have seen each other’s scorn and sneer, have seen each other so intimately that once they enter “lovers” and even “to”, there is nothing new to discover except the good parts. Imagine if you could get into a relationship where you don’t have to worry about what your partner’s hiding or if they will reject you because you always know the worst of each other, have already accepted it, and now get to fall in love discovering only the good parts. It creates a very intimate and intense dynamic.

On the other hand, there’s the appeal from the perceptive of the antagonist. Some people prefer to identify their trauma or pain or insecurities with antagonists rather than protagonists because they don’t see that part of themselves as the hero and/or they don’t want to have to hold that part of themselves up to some pristine standard. Some people want to see the dark part of themselves go full dark and then be loved anyways. The idea that you can always change for the better, that you are always worthy of love no matter how damaged you think you are. The idea that someone bright and good could see the most angry, hurt, ugly part of you and still love you. That is a very hopeful and positive message to a lot of people. I will never understand these types of people’s hateful opposition to redemption and healing, because I truly think that’s one of the most beautiful and powerful messages a story can have when it’s done right. The obsession some people have with punishment and condemnation simply is not healthy or productive.

Also, if people could stop infantalizing women as if we can’t differentiate reality from fiction with our silly girl brains, and also stop demonizing girls/women for exploring their sexuality in fiction by calling every goddamn thing “fetishization” - basically just stop being misogynistic af, yeah that’d be great thanks.

#well said #enemies to lovers #aka one of my all time favorite tropes #as well as opposite attracts

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Already gone

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Re-coloured this piece I drew back a year ago after TLJ came out. I’ll never get tired of #reylomarble ayee.

#rest in peace #reylo #fanart #fav

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make me love you.

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#rest in peace #reylo #fanart #fav

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blooming in your bones

matching reylo wallpapers! (open in new tabs for bigger sizes)

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#rest in peace #reylo #fanart #fav

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One Day

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Another daydream I hope to see in IX! Inspired by Hans Zimmer’s “One Day” in POTC at world’s end. That soundtrack was really moving and feels so reylo!

Buy me a coffee if you like my art?

#rest in peace #reylo #fanart #fav

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Don’t leave like the rain.

Art print, coffee mug, notebook and other goods of this art are available at society6 

#rest in peace #reylo #fanart #fav

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People trying to do the ‘Rey took the name because she considers Ben her husband and therefore she’s joining the family’ take is so ridiculous to me. I get they’re trying to make themselves feel better but twisting yourself into knots to apologise for this piece of complete garbage and pretend like it means anything is not a productive use of your time.

1. Ben is cut out of his own family’s story and then literally erased. He is never mentioned again and no one mourns him, his entire life and death means nothing to the film’s narrative. Rey is depicted as fine and content without him, lacking nothing, having learned nothing from him or their relationship.

2. Rey replaces him in his family, she doesn’t join him and become part of it through her connection to him. She’s the ‘perfect heir’ they all ‘should’ have had. Everyone loves her because she is inherently better and more deserving and they all just ~knew~ that instantly. Ben wasn’t worth raising or training in the Force or trying to save or give a pep talk or listen to, every one of his caregivers gave up on him before he’d ever done anything wrong. This is the unavoidable subtext of the film and Terrio has only doubled down on it.

3. Rey regresses to childhood with a new set of deified dead parents, Luke and Leia, and now they’re looking on approvingly to show this is supposed to be a good thing. This is about a restitution ‘adoption’ of a worthy child, not about her moving into the fullest adulthood possible as a widow, living up to the person Ben could taught her she could be. He isn’t fucking there even symbolically, everything he tried to teach her about herself and her power and how worthwhile she was has been undermined into a lie because no, your power is from your lineage and you were born special and you should worship the past and wait in blissful, dysfunctional denial until some new mummy and daddy arrive to tell you what to do. Her parents were good heroes and she was completely right not to ever grow up or accept her abandonment.

4. How dare anyone compare this to Titanic. Titanic is not broken and it’s not pointless, it is a functional story and Rose’s decision to take Jack’s name was actual culmination of her character arc, it made thematic sense, it served the significance of their relationship, and it was earned. Rose is embracing a true self which was always there that Jack helped her discover and define by pushing her to face the truth, forging a new free life in adulthood and self-knowledge with the gift he gave her. Their love was consummated and productive, she doesn’t go back into denial and childhood. He MEETS HER in the AFTERLIFE because it was about them and his positive impact on her. Ben has no Force ghost and no token in the final scene because as far as this movie is concerned he is completely irrelevant.

5. It’s not Ben’s name. He has a name and this is not it. There is no in-universe reason for either of them to want the Skywalker name, even if they both didn’t have the worst relationship with the only person they actually know whose name is Skywalker, they still don’t need to take a new name when Ben has one already. The name has NOTHING TO DO with Ben, the thing that affected Ben’s life was THE BLOODLINE.

#great points #if you do like the movie then good for you #but I have problems with this movie and will forever be salty #tros negativity #salty garlic sauce

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Rian Johnson: Crafting the Perfect Plot Twist (x)

#agreed!! #sometimes plot twists come out of nowhere and I'm like ??? why #it's only effective if it has been foreshadowed #imo it's better if the audience does realize it but doesn't expect it to happen #i really like rian #if knives out sequel is successful i hope he makes it a detective series #it's kind of refreshing to see modern days detective #i'm too used to read classic mystery novels that is set in 1920 or something lol #rian johnson

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Ben Solo marketing

They released the comics right before the premiere which made it clear that Ben Solo did not destroyed the Jedi Temple and did not kill any jedi student. He just wanted to get home. And that certain night when Luke tried to hurt his nephew, Luke Skywalker was indeed under the influence of Palpatine.

All of these meant to prepare the audience for the “ Redemption  ” and Ben Solo’s happy life…

Before JJ Abrams and his crew changed and destroyed everything. JJ Abrams and Chris T. changed, rewrote and undone everything has been set up since TFA//TLJ.

#jahsjakdjha #kylo ren #ben solo