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I gave a gift once to my grandma, heck ye it was unappreciated. So never gave one ever again.

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A flash of light: there and gone again.

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Reason to Live #3682

  To feel the rain and the wind, and then go home and drink something hot under a blanket. – Guest Submission

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Accurate af!!!

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I am nowhere to be found

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Lee Do Hyun of Hotel Del Luna 🌃

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No.-004- 「F」

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Difference

The difference between me and you is that you’ve grown in a place full of love, surrounded by love. And I? I’be been struggling so bad to fight everything. And it is because I live and grown with broken people, families, friends and relationships. Yes, i pretended not to be affect, but it really does. And I won’t say sorry for that. Because I know it made me strong. Strong enough to face you. Strong enough to take a forward even though its baby steps. Strong enough to keep to myself that i love you. But not strong enough to say it to you. Not strong enough to make you stay, even if i love you.

—mydcl

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honestly life is still beautiful without romance. theres a lot of ways to feel connected with people that exist outside of that context. romantic love is beautiful n partnership is sacred n special. but thats still only one aspect of life, just one of the many available facets. life can be full and rich and intimate outside of romance. n we have the capacity for so much! n if we’re really open minded, love can still be everywhere. its there when ur learning something new and when u finally master it. its there at ur baby nieces first birthday party!! it’s there when u make a dish thats tasty n doesnt make anyone sick! its there when something ended up not being as bad as u thought it would be. its there when ur dogs greet u when u get home. it jus exists everywhere all the time in so many forms. n tbh romantic love is limiting. n maybe good love can transcend all kinds of things. but the good news is that we have options.

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“I met an angel long ago who asked me “Why are you lonely?” I told her not to worry because it’s lovely being me. “Then why are you unhappy?” she asked as she looked at me with pity. I smiled at her and said “The cheerfulness in being sad is the thing I call melancholy.””

— j.d

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“inability to reach out to you”

I tried to write you a love letter, Because god, love, it’s what you deserve, But the words wouldn’t come out right, And it ended up a lot more like an apology. I love you, I wrote, Because the words looked so damn pretty on the page - But then I crossed it out, Because I am trying to be truthful. How could I love you? I don’t even know you, Not anymore. I miss you, I write next, and I cross that out, too, Even though it’s true – So true it aches; sometimes it feels as though missing you Is all I ever do. (which isn’t true, I drink cups of coffee but never finish them, I write poetry in pencil at 3am, I wear friendship bracelets and walk barefoot in the rain, I live, and every moment of my life leads back to you.) I brushed by a woman wearing your perfume And suddenly I couldn’t get you out of my head; Couldn’t fathom why I was anywhere but In your arms. I don’t even know who I’m apologising to anymore; I miss all of you, I love none of you, All I know is that it’s nearly September and I wish it was the start of summer again – I wish I could redo it all, Turn back the clock.  (except that if I could turn back the clock, I would stay far, far away from you, I have learnt my lesson – you can’t get addicted if you never try the substance) ((except you can, and I haven’t, and if I could turn back the clock I’d hold your hand so much tighter, knowing it’d be the last time I’d get to)) I keep checking my texts, though I know there won’t be one from you – I pushed you away, I know that, My fault, my fault, my fault – You should probably stop reading now. You should probably leave me now. I’m sorry – Please, I’m so sorry. I wish you could tell the difference Between my anger, and my inability to reach out to you – I wish I could, too. Everything is unravelling, love, Everything is falling apart, And I’m not sure how to do it without you. I should’ve known it’d end in pain - I can never do it quite right, I can never make anyone stay, But you don’t care and I shouldn’t care and it doesn’t really matter now. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I don’t blame you – I hate this callous, cold version of myself too. You made a mistake, you regret it, I get it – I’m sorry, I’ve had so many friends be ambivalent to whether I am in pain I forget my actions and words can hurt, When so many have been apathetic marble statues. This was such a bad apology, I’m sorry. What I’m trying to say is, It’s not your fault I can’t tell the difference Between hate and hurt and love, Especially when I feel none of them. It’s not your fault we became a tragedy, And you aren’t to blame For the force with which I hit the ground.

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“Be proud of your pain, for you are stronger than those with none.” - Lois Lowry, Gathering Blue

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Sending all my love to anyone who is hurting today.