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i’m so sorry for my inactivity, and leaving so suddenly. my mental is just horrible, and i have such a difficult time on the daily. running a blog that needs to be constantly updated with posts has been so hard, and i don’t find it to be worth it when a mere 10 people take the time to actually appreciate it. i love lian with all my heart and she’s genuinely a part of me, but with how little interaction i’m getting, i’m slowly starting to think that this blog is drying out.

i don’t think that i can handle the excitement of finally posting a draft, only to get disappointed because nobody interacted with it. i was getting a pretty standard amount of notes (around 60 or 50) and now i’m getting a good 10 to 15. it pains me so much to feel as if i’m wasting my time on something that i truly, deeply, care about.

i can’t find it in me deactivate nor discontinue her; the life i’ve created for lian means so much to me — and to throw it all away is probably going to be one of the hardest things i’ll ever have to do, which is why i’m not going to do it.

i have no clue how long i’ll be gone for — it could be a week, a month, hell, maybe a few months if that’s what it takes to get my life back on track. i wanted to take advantage of the summer break and write till my fingers get achy and sore, but all i’ve done is suffer.

i’ve started visiting a therapist again and i’m working on myself. i can’t take on as big of a responsibility as this blog is with the state i’m in mentally, and so i’ll be taking yet another hiatus. i can’t even express to you all how so incredibly sorry i am for constantly taking breaks and coming back for maybe a week, and then leaving again.

i feel like such a burden getting started with everything and then scrapping it because i’m having a difficult time again. but this is what’s best for me, and i need to take time for myself or else i don’t know what may happen. i love you all so much, and i promise to try my best on my break so that this sort of thing doesn’t need to happen when i come back.

[nct-lian]

sorry for being kinda inactive !! :(( i’m almost done with my drabble but i’m sort of putting it off. i don’t wanna release it and have it flop after doing so much work for it lol

#layla: shut up #it's kind of nerve-racking tbh #especially because my new normal is maybe 10 notes #i probably sound so ungrateful but i'm really not #i appreciate u all but it's SO unbelievably discouraging

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THUS ISNT A QUESTION BUT- HIIII IM REALLY LOVING THE NEW THEME OMGGG

AAAAAA THANK YOU !!!!

#anons

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HELLO DUMBLR IS BACK AT IT AGAIN I DIDNT GET ANY OF YOUR NOTIFS 😣😣😣

CONGRATS ON COMING BACK YAY (idk if thats the right phrase but)

lmao idk if im an anon here but if i am then i might be jaeli anon lmao im that anon that really supports jaeli idk if you remember but

yeah, congrats again! stay safe and stay healthy!

I HATE TUMBLR SO MUCH OMG ☹️ BUT AH THANK YOU !!!! and no i don’t have any permanent anons yet !! would you, maybe, like to be one 😳

stay safe as well !!

#anons

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chungha gifs

#lian: visual

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Lian does it make you uncomfortable when people ship you with idols you haven’t met?

(LIAN) at first! it’s still a little weird; i don’t think anyone ever gets used to it? but i’m not as phased as i was a couple years ago!

#lian: q&a! #anons

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sssuerose

#lian: aesthetic

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#lian: aesthetic

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This layout is cute !

thank you !!

#anons

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wait ruin our friendship by studio killers,,,, giving big big jaeli vibes,,,,,, the edit audios hit so different

#layla: shut up #IM SAD LOL I LOVE THEM

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just dropping by to say i love lian and i'm so excited for your future posts <3

thank you so much !! i’m glad you’re looking forward to them :’)

#anons

[nct-lian]

also it’d really mean a lot if you guys were a little more active LMFAOAOAO i know it might be a lot to ask for but it’s kinda discouraging coming back and only having maybe, six people that are continuously active on here :/

a drabble i’ve been working on for the last couple of months is almost finished, just to let you all know :’) it might be out by the weekend but i can’t say for sure !!

#layla: shut up #i hope this isn’t too much to ask for !!

[nct-lian]

a drabble i’ve been working on for the last couple of months is almost finished, just to let you all know :’) it might be out by the weekend but i can’t say for sure !!

#layla: shut up

[nct-lian]

please write some lian with ten im curious to see how that goes!

i’m planning something with them 100% !! i’m just not gonna make any promises on when it’ll be out because,,, we all know how that goes 😀

#anons

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UGH THIS NEW ERA!!!!!

YES !!! IM SO EXCITED FOR IT !!! i cant wait to work extra hard for all of you 💕💕

#asks #milkdoie

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LIAN’S ADMIN.

hey everyone !! i just noticed that i never actually gave any of you a formal introduction, so here it is <3

my name is layla, i’m a high school student, and my pronouns are she/her!

official biases: yuta, jisung, jungwoo, kevin, cha eunwoo, taehyung

#about me #nct addition #nct female member #nct 127 #nct #nct dream #wayv #nct 127 added member #nct 127 female member #nct dream added member #nct dream female member #nct dream female oc #nct 127 female oc #nct female addition #nct dream addition #nct 127 addition #nct 22nd member #nct 24th member #nct 127 10th member #nct dream 8th member #nct additional member

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LIAN — SHIP TAGS.

127 — taeil + lian ( il-li ) : johnny + lian ( joann ) : taeyong + lian ( liyong ) : yuta + lian ( yun ) : doyoung + lian ( lido ) : jaehyun + lian ( jaeli ) : jungwoo + lian ( liwoo ) : mark + lian ( limark ) : haechan + lian ( lihyuck )

DREAM — renjun + lian ( liren ) : jeno + lian ( lino ) : jaemin + lian ( lianmin ) : chenle + lian ( chenli ) : jisung + lian ( lisung )

WAYV — kun + lian ( lun ) : ten + lian ( liten ) : winwin + lian ( liwin ) : lucas + lian ( lulian ) : xiaojun + lian ( xian ) : hendery + lian ( liandery ) : yangyang + lian ( yanglian )

U — shotaro + lian ( litaro ) : sungchan + lian ( chanli )

#the untagged members just means i have no works for them atm #nct #nct 127 #nct dream #wayv #nct u #nct addition #nct female member #nct 127 added member #nct 127 female member #nct dream added member #nct dream female member #nct added member #nct female addition #nct female oc #nct dream female addition #nct 127 female addition #nct dream female oc #nct 127 female oc #nct 24th member #nct 22nd member