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i’ve completely lost control in regards to my eating like i genuinely don’t remember the last time i had three stable meals in one day

#i think a year #since i left my job during the beginning of the virus #tw eating #tw restriction

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i’m actually starting to hit my goals for weight loss but i feel like i can’t tell anyone about it bc it’ll trigger them bc weight loss talk is so toxic :(

#personal #ed recovery #weight loss #idk what to do :(((( #rant

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𝑖 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦 𝑖𝑛 𝑙𝑜𝑤 𝑞𝑢𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑔𝑖𝑓𝑠 :)

#the caption got me fucked up #ed’s are so scary lol

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SYDNEY ALEXANDRA

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~ delicate ~

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Ur in her pants I'm in her snack cabinet we r not the same

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i hate it when people say shit like “trump’s criminal record with assault allegations would disqualify him from a food service job and yet he’s our president” like you are so exhiliratingly close to getting it, go a liiiittle bit further you’re almost there 💞

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why do i look of photos of me when i was bigger and i literally wanna deck that bitch😐

#personal #internalized fatphobia tw #recovering ed #body dysmorphia #not pro

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i’m stagnant af in my weightloss and idk what to do :( i got a full time job so i have to eat but i also thought it would like even out bc i’m on my feet all day :( UGH i don’t wanna restrict badly i need energy to work :(

#personal #ed recovery #weightloss #not pro ana

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i wanna try medication again but there’s no real way to medicate bpd without messing around with a whole bunch of cocktails of medications and i just can’t do that to my body right now. i’ll just suffer and smoke weed ig

#bpd #actually bpd #idk man #i’m diagnosed and everything so it wouldn’t be too hard to see a psychiatrist but i also have trauma w them from my sewercite attempt #medication #tw mental illness

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i really fucking hate my body and i want to tear myself apart so i don’t exist anymore

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i hit 152 td and i’m like sad that i ate but like it’s Important to eat God Fuck I’d die if i didn’t, and i have my first shift at my new job tomorrow and i can never stomach breakfast i just get bad nausea so it’s good that i are a rly big dinner it’s just hard to do this the right way sometimes :| also i do be comparing my body to locals and that’s not Healthy :(

#personal #traumacore #ed recovery #weight loss #bpd #actually bpd

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remember when you were a child and you thought the moon was following you in the car…gud times