#— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon)

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as of recently, i've considered remaking. i've never done that before in the .. (checks watch) 11 years i've been on tumblr? i like looking at old posts and i've been on this particular blog for almost 4 years now. but i think between my absence here as i finished school and just the weight of interactions i've had that have had nothing to do with writing, i'm just anxious and miserable when i log in. which is really unfortunate because ryu is a character i've invested a lot of time in. i enjoy writing her and writing has been a hobby i've loved. i think it's been overshadowed by other factors. and it doesn't need to. i don't want that especially since this is the first time in years i feel like i can write without having to worry about papers and clinicals. if i do remake i'll keep relationships only if you want to. if you'd like to break mutuals/you have no interest in writing with me thats ok too! i just want to have fun again here. and i'm not having a good time, scoob. JNDJKNDJK. if you do want to be mutuals in the new space just like this and i'll follow when i move over. if you're not interested or you've been looking for a way to leave, thanks for being with me until now. c:

#— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon) #its negative but its not negative bc i'm trying to be an active part of my own solutions fkndskjnd

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Title: His Love

Characters: Random issa surprise tho yall would probably see it in the tags

Genre: Angst I guess

Warnings: Some OOC depiction, manga spoilers, strong language

Summary: A drabble collection showcasing a father’s love.

A/N: Happy Fathers’ Day to all you fathers/father figures/dad friends out there! This little project has less drabbles than the Mothers’ Day one since I’m kinda using it to help me get back into the swing of writing regularly & just writing in general also im tired :D

one. While Levi took pride in being one of the most competent, effective members of the military, he truly doubted himself when it came to comforting or consoling anyone– be it a stranger or someone he’s known all his life. With the way his tongue couldn’t seem to help itself from being sarcastic and rather unnecessarily frank, he decided that he really wasn’t someone to be approached during times of sorrow or grief.

However, he couldn’t help himself from brewing a teapot of his prized black tea and pouring a generous amount for the shaken, seemingly betrayed member of his squad. Though the ravenette’s usual stoic expression painted his face, his eyes seemed to soften a little as he sat in front of the petite blonde lady who stared vacantly into space, while her superior tried to figure out if she was trembling in shock, anger, or a combination of both. Seeing that she wouldn’t take the initiative to speak any time soon, Levi cleared his throat to catch her attention; once he was able to do so, he heaved a heavy sigh before opening his mouth to speak.

“Historia,” he started before taking a quite uncomfortable pause, trying to piece his words together before continuing. He had quite a lot on his mind right now, given the complexity of the situation, therefore he couldn’t bring himself to immediately give a straight-to-the-point statement the way he usually does. “Are you alright?” was all he was able to add as he gave up on trying to string his messy thoughts together.

“Am I alright?” Historia repeated the question with a rather sarcastic, dry scoff. Levi wanted to laugh at how the pair have seemed to swap personalities, but he knew damn well that it wouldn’t be appropriate to do so– it wasn’t that funny, either. “I met my biological father for the first time in my life, and then I had to kill him because he’s an asshole. Now, I have to take charge of the land and clean up after his shit. I’m not alright.” her voice trembled and she blinked back tears of frustration as she spoke, urging Levi to push her teacup closer in hopes that the warm drink would somehow soothe her.

Albeit Historia’s response was one that Levi would expect from her, he could understand why she reacted the way she did, and he thought that she had every right to. Just like the young woman, he, too, had been in a position where he was young and pelted with demanding responsibilities he never asked for. He remembered being shrouded in fear, anxiety, and loneliness the same way the young lady was at the moment, but he couldn’t recall having the same selflessness, altruism, and determination she had– it made Levi admire and respect her even more.

“I don’t know if I’ll ever be alright.” the elder of the pair heard her mumble, making Levi pity her and feel so sorry for her that he immediately felt a thousand pins pierce through his heart. Though Historia had turned her face away from him, he knew that pain and worry filled her face, further adding to the heavy feeling that sat on his chest.

Seeing that she had finished her drink, and that she probably needed another one, Levi moved to generously refill her teacup as he offered her a barely visible yet gentle smile that spoke volumes of how everything will be alright.

two. A smile creeped onto the elder man’s weary, matured face as he watched his son scan through his collection of novels, ocean-blue eyes growing wider with curiosity and excitement with each page he turned. As he leaned on his study room’s doorway, the elder recalled how back in the day, he was just as inquisitive and interested in all the knowledge the world had to offer, leading him to spend hours and hours with his nose in a book the same way his son did.

Sensing that he wasn’t alone, Erwin quirked an eyebrow as he slowly craned his head to face the doorway, offering a warm, welcoming smile to the man who stood there. “Hi, pop.” he greeted, turning back to the book he had in hand upon receiving an acknowledgement. Chuckling at how his son couldn’t seem to take a break from reading, Mr. Smith took small steps towards the younger, placing a hand on Erwin’s head before gently ruffling his hair.

“The Pearl.” the elder immediately recognized the novel albeit taking one glance at the page the younger was one. “My favorite book.” he rasped with a fond sigh as he affectionately patted the younger’s back. Knowing that his father was pleased with his book of choice, Erwin shot him a toothy grin and nodded enthusiastically, further adding to the pride and bliss Mr. Smtih was feeling.

“Would you sit with me while I read?” the boy asked hopefully. While his father did make an effort to spend time with the family, Erwin still yearned for quality time with him as each and every conversation they’ve had was enjoyable as it was intellectually-stimulating. “There are a few words and phrases that I’m not sure of.” he added bashfully, though he knew that the other would be more than happy to sit down and answer his questions.

With a bright smile, Mr. Smith enthusiastically plopped down on the chair next to the one Erwin was seated in and scooted closer, more than ready to spend an afternoon answering anything and everything that was to be thrown his way.

three. His limbs felt numb and heavy, while his vision blurred and his head spun with intoxication, though he was sober enough to make an effort to quietly close the door and gently walk through the cramped, dingy space he and his nephew called “home.”

Plopping down onto the ratty, worn-out sofa placed a few meters from the front door, Kenny leaned back with a sigh as he tried to calm the buzz in his head. Absentmindedly, he fixed his eyes onto Levi’s, his nephew, sleeping form. It probably seemed creepy, but he couldn’t help but observe how the young boy looked so peaceful and carefree in that moment– a stark contrast to the usual vacant expression he had on.

At that moment, the young boy possessed a striking resemblance to his younger sister, tugging on Kenny’s heartstrings as thoughts of how much he missed her, and of how much he wished she were there to see her son who has grown up to be a handsome, courageous young man. Though there were times where he was bitter about his sister’s choices that eventually lead to her demise, it all boiled down to how it happened because he didn’t fight hard enough for their clan, leading them to do whatever they could to survive in the harsh, cruel Underground– hiding like sewer rats until their clan was “good enough” to blend with the society they were originally a part of.

Though he has never expressed it, and he highly doubts that he ever will, Kenny knew that he loved Levi dearly; after all, he was the only family member he had left– there was no way that he would let anyone take that away from him. Crossing his arms and closing his eyes, the man swore the moon and stars that he would fight tooth and nail for the young brat. That way, he would be able to give Levi the good life he deserved and obviously had a right to. 

That way, he wouldn’t have a reason or excuse to grow up to be like his sorry excuse for an uncle, given that Kenny completely knew that he was and never will be fit to serve as a father figure– no matter how hard he tried.

#snk #shingeki no kyojin #aot #attack on titan #levi ackerman #historia reiss #mr. smith #erwin smith #kenny ackerman #ooc #fic #drabble #snk spoiler #snk spoilers #aot spoiler #aot spoilers #shingeki no kyojin spoiler #shingeki no kyojin spoilers #attack on titan spoiler #attack on titan spoilers #manga spoiler #manga spoilers

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#— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon) #issa meeeee #felt lots of seratonin today #i definitely needed it #tbd.

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ooc update under the cut!

i'm done on monday with my degree!!! thats it. i literally just cleared out every single assignment i've written from my desktop. (since most of its in my portfolio) i wanna cry. literally a few days ago my advisor was like HMMM i think you need to need nutrition you might not be able to walk in may and i was BAWLING. but they let me substitute. and i just accepted a position in the OR. (i'll be an RN) i'm so happy for the nightmare to be over. no job, no friends, no energy, no hobbies i was so drained and it made be so anxious to log in because i was depleted. i contemplated deleting ryu and emery because i kept saying no one will want to write with you if you keep disappearing and i had the worst anxiety being here. but i really think its because i had no energy for writing. even if i wanted to. and now that my schedule is clearing i'm just happy and grateful for the patience and understanding. seriously. it really means a lot that and is really the only reason i still have a love for rp.

#— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon)

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if we had a thread before i disappeared would you still want to continue or would you prefer i initiate and start something new?? i have threads i want to reply to, but i’m not sure if others would be interested in me continuing it.

#other people have switched blogs and i don't know what the new blogs are either to refollow so i'm not even sure who all is still here #— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon)

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fantasy verse rambling.

ryu's memories are really warped in this verse because they're a blend and clash between two different universe's versions of herself. the strangest things may bring her to tears or make her incredibly happy, but there's no surface memory to attach it to because her psyche is very distorted. like most things that screw with time, she attracts a lot of oddities. strange creatures that feel very detached from the world itself. because it's magic that tethered her there, it protects her in ways. it's sealed her memories to prevent her brain from literally shattering, otherwise she'd just be spiraling back and forth between the memories of people that have died in her universe but exist perfectly fine. the magic also gives her physical ailments and a slight power buff. she's still human but she has natural enhanced strength and an affinity for wind magic. it's not something she uses often because though she has an affinity for it, it drains her VERY rapidly. its supercharged just because of the other magic, but once she does something its lights out for her. other magically inclined people can probably sense something is not quite right with her/know she has some sort of forbidden spell, but they'd likely be unable to fix it. and if they did it might literally fry her brain/kill her. she's typically sent to this universe on her own, but i always think its a fun plot point that someone else she cares about was ported too, but they actually keep their memories and know the Gods that killed that universe seek to kill them both. so its just this fight of 'pls believe me, we know each other!' i also like it in the reverse too.

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i'm probably going to try genshin and honkai bc a friend sat with me through the damn long download of it and said i might like it. and now i actually have time to pay attention to genshin. so i'll probably do that for the rest of the night/play dbd unless i get a whirlwind of inspiration. if you need me or want to write/have an idea my ims are always open! c: 💖

#— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon) #we'll see if this ends up like gbf! 😭 #tbd.

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#hating everything i write today but forcing myself to put it out anyway #— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon)

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look at her. look at her face. why would u not hold her hand?

#shaking the cage #new asuka magazine dropped and it updateeeed now i have more ryu icons to edit #— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon)

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like this and ryu will do something in your inbox. (these will be short since i technically should be offline to focus, but i'm taking a small break. if we haven't interacted it's fine.)

#omg two weeks left i cannot WAIT to be insufferable between ryu and emery #— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon) #also thanks for voting on the icon #i'm so bad with change SO BAD #unless someone does it for me #i went through every stage of regret #but i think i'm good now

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i thought i'd spend next week getting back into writing but i think i'm going to give myself until my graduation to be back properly. any asks, threads and starters i received i'll answer and place in my queue whenever i feel like writing over the week (thank you for sending/writing me things!) but i won't be too active while i prepare for boards and just getting my first real break in a very long time!

#— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon) #also side bar #but i didn't know nursing wasn't a stem major #and i've been saying black women in stem all semester like a fucking idiot #😭😭

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am i really going to watch a show just bc the main character would be a good fc for ryu?

#proceeds to download three episodes #— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon) #tbd. #i don't know a thing about doing caps but a bitch will learn

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someone: no ryu: :(  ryu: (manipulatively)

#witness my new banner i got from silabus #WITNESS IT #— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon)

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“ Do you or do you not feel bonita?  ”

#this has been stuck in my head #i've got about an hour before i have to go back out SOOO #let me finish this reply to soma #and then #we'll see what happens #— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon)

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consider this an inbox call. i’ll go through your memes or send you something original. we don’t need to have interacted before, i’ll just pull something out my brain. 

#pls gimme something to do thats not staring at my drafts #— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon)

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“Whenever I try to cook something, I always record it. 'Cause if it fails, I can reverse the video and it's like I never wasted the ingredients. And I just walk out the kitchen and order out. Very therapeutic.”

#i just bought the latest magazine her fc is in and she was only in a few frames. WEEPING #— ooc. ( ❛ issa moon)