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indigostudies · 2 months

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a very incomplete list of cdramas (plus a few chinese films) i've watched and my rating for hsk proficiencies for them below the cut!

i've watched some shows that aren't included on this list, but i didn't watch enough of them to get a good sense for the level of challenge they pose, so they're omitted from the list. i've also included links to the mydramalist pages, if you want to get a sense of the plot.

i had to remove the list format, since tumblr decided i had too many characters per block of text, so i apologise for that. a number of these can be watched on youtube with english fansubs, but if you can't find something, you can always dm me and i'll get you a link!

沙海/tomb of the sea: this fits into the extended daomu biji/grave robbers' chronicles/lost tomb franchise, but you don't have to have seen the other shows or read the books to watch it, and the pov character is an outsider who also doesn't understand what's going on 90% of the time. this show is contemporary, and you could probably start watching it at a fairly low hsk level because it doesn't have a ton of complicated technical or genre-specific terms. the subbing in english decent, since it came out a while ago, but there are some errors that crop up with names and nicknames. if you wanted to watch it without subtitles, i'd say you could probably get the gist of what's being said at around an hsk 4 or hsk 5 level. it has 52 episodes, each around 45 minutes long. (mdl link)

双镜/couple of mirrors: set in the republican era, so some of the terms used are a bit outdated in terms of colloquialism, and it also has a mystery/detective element to it, so that could pose a bit of a struggle. that said, the show isn't actually too challenging in terms of vocab—i would say you could watch it without english subtitles at an hsk 3 level with some struggle, and with a fair amount of ease at hsk 4. 12 episodes, at 46 minutes each. (mdl link)

云泽传/legend of yunze: wuxia/xianxia, which makes the amount of unfamiliar terms higher if you aren't used to the genre, but the episodes are all very short, and the plot itself isn't overly complicated, which makes it easy to sit down and watch in one go. on a level of difficulty, as long as you're familiar with wuxia/xianxia terms, you could probably watch this at an hsk 2 level without too much issue, and the subbing in english is very thorough. has multiple seasons, but the first season is 12 episodes, between 3-7 minutes each. (mdl link)

神探/detective l: this is a procedural detective show, and it's set in the 1930s republican shanghai, so there's a combination of more formal/outdated language and specialised detective/case-related phrases. the english subs are decent, though, and the actors all enunciate clearly, which helps if you need to look up words. i would say this would probably be a bit of a struggle below the hsk 5 level, but you'll pick up a lot of new, crime-related phrases. 24 episodes, 40 minutes each. (mdl link)

不良执念清除师/oh no! here comes trouble!: i'll be honest, this one was a struggle for me because of the taiwanese accent. i can understand what they're saying, it just sounds like the auditory equivalent of someone coming into my house and moving everything a few centimetres to the left. this is also a procedural show, but contemporary, so not quite as challenging in terms of vocab to detective l, in my opinion..........but it's also got a heavy supernatural element, which does come with specific vocab. the subbing is good, but if you're going to watch it, this one probably requires a higher hsk level to keep up—hsk 5, at a minimum, in my opinion. 12 episodes, 52 minutes each. (mdl link)

s.c.i谜案集/sci mystery/sci: another contemporary procedural mystery show, but from the mainland, so there's no elements of supernatural. surprisingly simple vocabulary; you could watch this at an hsk 2 level and get the gist, and an hsk 3 or hsk 4 level would let you watch it just fine. has fairly good english subs, and i believe they set the show in hk, which accounts for the higher than usual amount of english usage, up to and including in dialogue. the only bit that might make it challenging is the heavy lean into the psychology, but it's all largely explained directly, since most of the characters aren't familiar with the terms either. 24 episodes, 45 minutes each. (mdl link)

成化十四年/sleuth of the ming dynasty: ming dynasty (mid 1400s, under the chenghua emperor) setting, but a fairly colloquial vocabulary. there are some specialised titles used, but those are fairly self-evident by the way the show is shot, and easy enough to look up. the english subs are good, and i would put this at an hsk 4 level—but even at an hsk 3 level you probably won't struggle too badly. my hangup here was, again, one of the leads being played by an actor with a taiwanese accent, though it's not too heavy. 48 episodes, 45 minutes each. (mdl link)

老九门/the mystic nine: dmbj prequel, set in the tail end of the republican era (1939, if i remember correctly?). has a lot of tomb- and tomb-robbing specific vocabulary, alongside the more dated modes of speech, so i would put this up at an hsk 5 or hsk 6 level, but there's decent subs, so you could watch it at lower levels, it would just be a bit of a challenge. 48 episodes, 42 minutes each. (mdl link)

猎罪图鉴/under the skin: contemporary procedural show; there's a lot of emotion- and motive-specific words used, and the fact that it's a procedural makes it a bit more challenging, in my opinion. i would recommend that don't start with this show, just because of the fact that it's pretty easy to get lost if you don't grasp some of the vocabulary. i'd put it at an hsk 6 level, but that said, the subs are good and you can watch it at an hsk 5 level with some effort, i think. 20 episodes, 45 minutes each. (mdl link)

春风沉醉的夜晚/spring fever: honestly not as challenging in terms of vocabulary as a lot of things on this list, and fairly contemporary (set in the 2000s). i would say if you're at an hsk 4 level, you will probably do alright with it. 116 minutes in total. (mdl link)

关于我和鬼变成家人的那件事/marry my dead body: another case of struggling to acclimate to the taiwanese accent; otherwise, not too complicated in terms of vocab, though there are some spirit/marriage-specific terms used. overall, though, i'd put this at an hsk 4 level as well. 130 minutes in total. (mdl link)

陈情令/the untamed: heavy on the wuxia/xianxia elements, so unless you're familiar with that, you might struggle a lot to get through it. this is a lot of peoples' entry into cdramas, though, so it's not utterly inaccessible, and has decent english subs. i would put this around an hsk 5, if you want to watch it without subs, though you'll probably still have to pause and look up some words here and there even then. 50 episodes, 45 minutes each, making it the longest on this list. (mdl link)

山河令/word of honour: arguably the hardest on this list, i would say, because it's so plot-heavy. i, as a native speaker, struggle to follow along with this for extended amounts of time because there's a combination of 1. a lot happening, 2. a lot of wuxia terms, and 3. a lot of references to literature/art/etc. i would put this up at an hsk 7 level, honestly. that said, the subs for this are very good. 36 official episodes with a 37th mini-episode, 45 minutes each for the regular ones. (mdl link)

天官赐福/heaven official's blessing: one of the easier shows on this list; i would put this at an hsk 3 or hsk 4 level; there's some words you probably won't know, but while it does fall under xianxia, it doesn't go into that as much in terms of vocabulary as cql/the untamed does. i believe both seasons have both official subbing and official dubbing into english available, but that's not how i watched it, and i've only seen the first season, which is 11 episodes and about 20 minutes per episode. (mal link)

致命游戏/the spirealm: not particularly challenging in terms of actual vocab, but as of yet, only the first few episodes are subbed, since it came out literally this month, and the other subs are all auto-generated and.............very lacking. that said, it's a contemporary setting, and i would put this at an hsk 5 level, give or take; there are some references to folklore, but the characters research and explain or deduce the explanations of what is happening as it occurs, and you aren't left to struggle to figure it out yourself. 78 episodes, but each one is a bit under 20 minutes long, so it actually isn't that much content in total. (mdl link)

#汉语 #resources #not sure how helpful this will be but i hope it's useful to someone!#if anyone wants my personal reviews of any of these send me an ask and i'll be happy to answer it :)#this is just meant to be a rating of difficulty rather than a rating of the actual plot #indigo ink

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lgbtqromance · 4 months

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学长与小学弟的超淫性事

杜龙今年刚刚26，法学本科毕业后直接留在长春工作。

前段时间回吉大找仍在深造的同学A小聚，A同学身旁跟着一位计算机系的小学弟，小学弟光洁的额头，挺挺的鼻樑，一双彷彿会笑的眼睛弯成月牙形，十足的阳光帅气。

帅气的小学弟很大方的向杜龙打招呼。

瞬间，杜龙整个心都醉了，裆下那根东西也跟着不争气的秒硬了。

经过一段时间的私下探查，原来学弟叫小亮，今年22岁，一直单身，杜龙坚信每个人的心中都有座断背山，更对自己信心十足。

经过半个月的简讯、即时通、电话各种无赖手段的狂轰乱炸，在一个星期前，杜龙成了小亮的现任bf

小亮有着一张很可爱的娃娃脸，虽然看起来安安静静，却是个名符其实的游泳健将，每当看到小亮朝气的脸庞，总是撩的杜龙心痒痒的，只想直接把小亮扑到在怀里狠狠的疼爱一番。

不过一直没有机会，所以两人还停留在拉拉小手的阶段，杜龙当然是不甘心。

但是昨天…

杜龙和小亮在住的地方用电脑用的摇杆玩拳皇，一款比较老的游戏。

小亮玩的很好，杜龙也不差，但杜龙故意装做玩不过他，在快要输的时候，杜龙趁机装作耍赖，扑在小亮的身上，把小亮按倒在地毯上

小亮睁大黑白分明的双眼，不安的看着身上的杜龙。

小学弟的身体怎麽会那麽软，空气中混杂着一丝丝淡淡的洗发水和体香的甜味，握住裸露在T恤衫外面的手臂，连触感都那麽让人流连忘返，忍不住在手中把玩。

杜龙瞬间陶醉了，心脏咚咚的剧烈跳着，大脑彷彿一片空白一样，温柔而霸道的把自己宽厚的嘴唇复在小亮的小嘴上。

吻过小亮的唇才发现他的唇是如此的濡软，杜龙心里又是激动又是愧疚，生怕自己会玷汙了这份美好。

小亮两隻手有些无措的搭在杜龙的肩膀上，静静的感受杜龙环抱，彷彿被温泉浸泡一样，舒服的忍不住呻吟了一声。

这一刻，杜龙的脑子彷彿炸开一样，只想撬开那润润的双唇，细细感受其中到底是什麽味道。

小亮早已经被杜龙浑身散发的雄性气息熏的五脏剧烧，神魂不明，此刻被杜龙一路势如破竹进入，也不由自主慢慢回应起来，彷彿是天下最香醇的美酒。等两人都回过神来，小亮才发现被杜龙这麽个彪形大汉整个压在身下，自己双臂紧紧环绕着杜龙的脖子，杜龙的大腿紧紧贴在小亮的身上，恨不得把小亮整个人都嵌在自己身体里。

小亮顿时大羞，轻轻的推了下杜龙，但在杜龙看来这麽欲拒还迎的姿态却是那麽撩人。

终于逮住这麽个机会，杜龙怎麽可能放过。感觉到小亮的身体有些紧绷，杜龙的双唇辗转到小亮的耳廓用牙齿细细的咬磨他的耳垂，与此同时，杜龙的手也没闲着，不一会，小亮就光熘熘的暴露在空气中，小亮很喜欢游泳，长期的有氧运动让他的肌肉富有线条的美感，6块腹肌隐约可见，肩头细腻的皮肤泛着象牙般的光泽，看的杜龙忍不住想上去咬一口。

杜龙麻熘的拉下自己的运动服上衣，健壮如牛的上半身特意展现在小亮面前，上学的时候杜龙就经常运动，如今每天也坚持锻鍊哑铃，特别是肩大头肌，胸肌和腹肌看起来非常明显。

在嗅觉，视觉，触觉三重刺激下，小亮已经完全沦陷了，光着身子被杜龙抱起，轻轻的放在床上，自己也主动的颤抖着双手拉下杜龙宽松的裤子，露出杜龙巨大的阳具。

这个时候杜龙的JB已经硬的像铁棍一样，杜龙的大JB足足有18cm长，又直又粗，特别是龟头很硕大，有个鸡蛋大小。

以往和小0们做的时候，总能把他们干的丢盔弃甲，但因为杜龙的尺寸太大，有的小0无法完全承受，所以总感觉不够尽兴。

杜龙一边继续轻吻他，一边再次把小亮压在床上，杜龙的双手骨节分明，修长有力，每一次的轻轻抚摸，都带起一阵电流似的，让小亮不自觉的颤慄。

杜龙的大根顶在小亮的菊花处，小亮感受到杜龙惊人的巨根，似乎有点慌张，扭动着身体想要逃避，却不知道这样更是激发了杜龙的性慾。

杜龙直接把小亮的双腿分开，欺身而上。

这个时候小亮的JJ已经挺起，小亮的JJ秀秀气气的，16cm，龟头粉粉嫩嫩，非常可爱。

杜龙一把握住小亮的JJ，玉茎的前端已经沁出了一点点晶莹的液体，还在杜龙的手中跳动。

同时另一隻手复盖在小亮的身上顺着他滑嫩的身体从锁骨到胸前的凸起，或捏或揉，很快就胀成了硬挺挺的小樱桃，乳尖传来的奇特的快感，让小亮鼻子里发出了隐忍的轻吟，「啊，龙哥，唔…恩…龙哥…不要」。

杜龙怎麽捨得放过这香豔的场景，俯下身子细细的品味着这个人间美味，从乳头到肚脐，用舌头慢慢的划下，留下到晶莹的水渍，轻轻的吹口气，再用鬍渣微微一蹭，一股痒痒的感觉直冲小亮的大脑。

杜龙的嘴巴移到那个被自己紧握的小小亮，圆圆的龟头，怎麽看怎麽漂亮，毫不犹豫的一口把它含下，小亮的身体啊的一下弓了起来，彷彿被一片柔软的棉花裹在云端，这麽美妙的感觉是小亮从来没体验过的，舌头不停的在小亮的龟头上画圈圈，时不时的扫过那个马眼，小亮已经欲仙欲死了，就像在泡温泉，浑身四亿八千万个毛孔都像能呼吸，爽的忍不住又是一声闷哼。

杜龙却是没有在小亮的分身上流连忘返。转战到小亮修长大腿的根部，轻轻的啃噬，小亮已经完全无力拒绝，浑身力气都像被抽没了一样，只能在喉间发出阵阵轻吟。

虽然杜龙一再告诉自己要做一个有耐心的狼，但小亮的低喘简直就是催命的春药，让自己把持不住。从随行的包里，杜龙拿出早已经准备好的大号套套和X8精华。

托起小亮的屁股，那个杜龙日思夜想的小穴就暴露在自己眼前，小亮的屁股软软的非常有弹性，菊花也圆圆的嫩嫩的，就像一个含苞待放的小花骨朵儿，看的杜龙直流口水。

顾不得再仔细详小亮的菊花，杜龙用X8精华在小亮端的菊花处一点点的按摩，然后探进一根手指不断的进出搅动，直到两根，当进入三根的时候，小亮任然一脸淫靡的样子，没有表现不适应。其实小学弟的心中早就已经开始了剧烈的天人交战：学长那麽大的一根要是插进去，估计会很痛吧，但自己明明也是很想要，一想到那麽粗的一大条要在自己身体里进出，心中就涌起莫名其妙的快感。

继续用手指对那个小洞洞按摩开发了一阵，把小亮的双腿架在肩膀上，带上套子，男人把自己的大根对准了那个微微一开一合的洞口，一点点的把JB向里捅，龟头刚进去一半，小亮发出一声痛呼，男人立刻停下来，心疼的轻抚小亮的身体。

小亮的小穴真紧，夹的杜龙深深的吸了一口气，心头直呼大爽。先把鸡巴插进去一半，杜龙停了一下，等小亮微皱的眉头松开，略略适应。

「宝贝儿，乖，老公慢慢的来」，一边说话分散小亮注意，一边猛的挺身把剩的一半JB全根插进小亮的身体，小亮直被杜龙这一下干的浪叫一声，杜龙也舒服的长长的嘘了口气，小亮的菊花里热乎乎的，好温暖，好舒服，爽的杜龙全身热血沸腾。

「老婆，老公要动了」，用双手扶住身下可人儿屁股，然后把鸡巴缓缓的一下一下进出小亮的身体。

「龙哥，不要…我好难受」小亮自己也说不清是痛还是爽，只感觉全身被那个巨根塞的满满的，胀的自己的肠子都要被顶爆了。

每一次进出，坚硬的阴茎摩擦整个圆圆的小洞，带来阵阵酥痒，菊花的褶皱早已被撑开，龟头每一次顶入，都顶到小学弟身体内那个软软的小包，一种想要尿尿的感觉传进小学弟的大脑，让小学弟痛并快乐着。

保持这种姿势干了十几分钟，小亮因想要逃避而不时的扭动腰肢，带起杜龙的龟头一阵酥麻，这突如其来的刺激让杜龙感觉更爽更有趣，「老婆，你真是个天成的尤物」，

杜龙一边缓缓的抽插一边赞歎道。

小亮也渐渐发出享受的恩恩声，「老公，不要那里，不要那里，那里好痒…」。

「宝贝儿，不要哪里，恩？」杜龙心底坏笑了起来，要真是不要又怎麽会把自己搂那麽紧，表情那麽痴迷，

「老婆再忍一下，马上就让你爽了」，又狠狠的探索着对那个软软的小鼓包发起了进攻，小亮的小腹上一片湿润，全是小亮的前列腺液。

小亮探出手死死的搂住杜龙的腰不放，呼吸也急促了起来，杜龙偶尔猛的一个撞击，顶到小亮的花心出，杜龙的阳具就完全被菊花吞没。

这朵菊花简直就是极品，干了这麽长时间，小亮的后面反而越来越湿润，男人的铁棍进出的越来越自如，小亮张开红润的小嘴，叫出淫荡的啊，啊声，快把杜龙的魂给叫没了。

杜龙再也忍受不住，儘量分开小亮的双腿，也不管他能不能受得了，大开大阖，大力的把JB全根拔出，再猛的全根没入，一次次顶到他内壁的最深处，每一次插到深处，都能感觉到小亮的G点和杜龙的龟头碰撞，就像有道电流直冲杜龙的脑门，

渐渐的杜龙感受到小亮轻缩他的菊花，夹的好紧好爽，整根JB都被小亮柔软的内壁全部包裹，杜龙的肉棍再次充血更加变胀变硬了几分。

杜龙的巨根一次次冲击那娇嫩的菊花，小腹猛烈的撞击着软软的有弹性的屁股，发出啪啪啪的催情声，「小骚货，早就等着老子来干你了吧」，剧烈的插了一会，杜龙伏在小亮的耳旁边轻轻的道，看到小亮的耳朵羞红一片，真是秀色可餐，小亮也渐渐进入了状态，两条修长的腿紧紧的盘住杜龙的下腰，叫声由一点点地呻吟变成了大声的浪叫「啊。。。老公，慢点。。。啊。。。老公，好爽，老公你干的我太猛了……哦……哦……」，「啊，老公，不要，我要被你干死了，啊。。。啊。。。要被插死了。。。太爽了。。。你的JB好大…」。

杜龙提起小亮的腰，把他的屁股向前压，用一种蹲马步的姿势，猛插小亮，

「老婆，快睁开眼睛，看看老公的大JB操你的菊花」，

刚好从这个角度，小亮睁开眼睛，就看到杜龙紫红色的大龟头，还有青筋爆露的大吊不停的进出自己的菊花，小亮羞人的不敢在看下去，但脑子里盘旋的，全是自己男人的大鸡吧，身体上感受到洞口惊人的温度，自己的菊花会被融化吧，小亮电光火石的想到。

「操，老婆，你更骚了，看把老公的鸡巴夹的多紧」，杜龙不断加快抽插，每一次顶到深处，小学弟的就淫叫声越来越大。小亮就像坐过山车一样，彷彿整个人爽快的都要飞了起来，温暖的感觉遍佈全身上下，突然杜龙的JB就被小亮的肉洞紧紧包裹住，「啊。。。老公。。。啊。。。太爽了…啊。。。我来了。。。恩。。。」

一股股白花花的精液就从小亮的小弟弟里射了出来，全部射在杜龙的胸口，腹部上面，小亮被杜龙操射了，这一刻小亮彷彿被杜龙送上了九霄云端，极度的快感早已冲昏了小亮的神经，只宁愿一生都在这一刻停留多好，整个人迷失在这个极乐世界。

射完后，看到小亮无力的瘫软在地毯上，虽然还没尽兴，杜龙也决定今天先不把小学弟折腾这麽厉害。「老婆再忍耐下，老公马上也就出来了」，再次抬高小亮的屁股，杜龙的鸡巴对准洞口又一阵猛干，「啊。。。老婆，老公也要来了。啊。。。太爽了。。。」杜龙近乎野蛮的把最后一股精液送进酥软的菊花里，分身一阵强烈的收缩，高潮一浪高过一浪，胀的难受无比的鸡巴终于得到发洩。

小亮被身后的精液烫的彷彿整个身体都沸腾了起来，只好把脸深深的埋在自己男人的胸前。

射完后杜龙也不把自己的JB拔出来，就这样抱着小亮躺在床上，轻轻搂着身下娇嫩的宝贝儿。

对于自己的第一个男人，身边传来的温度是那麽的让人心安，小亮心底最后一丝不安也消除殆尽，踏踏实实的闭上了眼睛。

看着小学弟昏昏睡去，杜龙心中充满了无限的幸福和自豪。期间虽然杜龙一直想再要，但看到小亮睡的很香，就强压下慾望。

毕竟来日方长，经过了这麽一次实质性的突破，两人因为刚认识就急速发展而产生的最后一层隔膜也不见了，互相的惦念，彼此的情意化为漫天情网俘虏了两个人的心房，柔情蜜意也不过如此吧。

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【NEC小说翻译】一切终焉之始

Disclaimer: This is a fan translation of For Every End, a Beginning by Andy Clark, as the copyright owner seems to have no intention to offer official translations for this series of short stories. The original story was posted on the Warhammer Community website and everyone can read it free of charge, so I suppose I am permitted to post a noncommercial translation for those who have difficulty apprehending this tale in English. This translation doesn't involve any texts copied from Games Workshop or its subsidiary in China, including the translation of the proper nouns.

启明者泽拉斯蹲坐在一个脉冲照明的密室中心，密室里摆满了古老而复杂的机器。他将目光投向面前两个翡翠色球体传感器之间旋转的信息。这些是对泽拉斯最新标本的生物力学分析，通过分子解剖和跨光谱分析得出。他的机器小脑吸收了这些信息，他知道这个部分的速度与他所研究的生物的思维能力相比堪称闪电。对泽拉斯来说，这种迅速是正常的。毕竟，他已经这样思考了上千年。

并不完全正确，他训斥自己。

确实，启明者长期以来一直拥有高超的智能。他的强化意识有能力解决分形级复杂的科学问题，或是权衡困扰一整个星球文化的哲学难题。在做到这一切的同时，他还能为泽拉斯留出足够的处理能力，让他能够正常运转、交谈、做实验，甚至是走向战场，而丝毫不会被打断。

毕竟离神只有一步之遥。

然而，多亏了新赞助人慷慨的馈赠，再结合上泽拉斯自身的科学天赋，现在他的思维比以往任何时候都运转得更快。启明者活动着他新强化的机器肢体，将自己的身高伸展到了全新的高度。如果没有赞助人提供的独特材料，泽拉斯很难如此迅速地实现自我提升。损害他躯体外壳的风险或许可以接受，但对他人格印记中的融合元素造成的危险是不道德的。泽拉斯知道自己是整个物种中最聪明的心智。毫无必要地将整个太空死灵种族最宝贵的智力资产置于危险之中，当然是不可原谅的。

然而现在我更强、更伟大了，他一边想着，一边让信息在他刚翻新的精神架构中流淌。有了这样的增强，他将比以往任何时候都更有能力继续他的研究。那是当然的，生命本身最深的秘密终于尽在泽拉斯掌握之中了！

但这项工作还得再等等。启明者与他的新赞助人签订了契约，他必须完成交易中自己的那部分。事实上，赞助人的目标与泽拉斯自己的并非毫无联系。推进这位盟友的工作必然也会他推进自己的工作。

赞助人。

盟友。

泽拉斯知道还有其他称谓可以用于这个与他达成交易的存在，可能他应该使用这些称谓。但启明者的傲慢深深扎根于他迷宫般的人格印记结构中。他无法做到这一点。对泽拉斯来说，谦逊是个异样的概念，就像睡眠或者进食这些生理需求一样——他对这些概念既没有兴趣，也没有能力。但泽拉斯也知道他并不想耽误赞助人的计划，更不想冒险辜负他的期望。

我还有声誉要考虑，启明者告诉自己，仿佛这是他履约的唯一理由。

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启明者将最新的生物力学计算降入第三级大脑分区，让四肢开始动作。类似昆虫的强壮躯体承载着睿智的头脑，沿着引力栅格通路，来到一个更高的平台。在这里，一个圆顶状的壁龛嵌在了房间的墙壁里。此处的物理空间十分受限，但维度调节器调整了空间现实，足以让他容纳泽拉斯层面天文台的庞大计算阵列和多维透镜。

启明者用精神祈使赶走了几台勤奋的冥工。他在主维度聚焦光圈前站好，让自己与他的信息流相协调。

数据一比特一比特地叠加到泽拉斯的感知中，逐渐扩展了他的意识，为他提供了爆炸一般突然展开的空间视角。这个过程足以烧毁最先进的生物标本的精神。即使是他的同族中最有天赋的墓穴技师，若要应对泽拉斯所见场景的完整范围与规模，也不得不先努力一番。

而他不是一位简单的墓穴技师。

这个念头！

启明者意识中的一些小块感到遭受了侮辱，思维在他们之间噼啪作响。不过，即便是泽拉斯，在检查维度光圈时，也没有多少富余的计算能力能用来处理这种人格驱动的反馈。

整个宽广的银河横亘在泽拉斯强大无比的思维构筑中。他不仅能感知到他的族人所处的物质层面，还能感知到那之外的能量无限，所有有知觉的生命体都受那东西束缚。泽拉斯甚至能够观察到古圣网道的丝缕，他们被拉伸得破破烂烂。他看不到细节；毕竟启明者还不是真正的神灵！不过，他还是能接收到一些东西，印象、色调、微妙的波谱和数据极光，这些都能透露出珍贵的信息。启明者怀疑，银河中任何其他有知觉的种族都会为了这样的智慧而点燃一个个世界。

泽拉斯看到灵能级联在广袤银河的中心肆虐。先进的至高天预测模型显示出不断波动的概率模式，推算亚空间风暴哪些将盈，哪些将亏。泽拉斯读得出波动中的暗示，新通道将会打开，现有路线也可能突然猛烈关闭。

当然，所有这些都是令人沮丧的假想。对于死灵引擎冷酷的逻辑分析来说，能量无限的不稳定性本身就是可憎之物。每一种可能性都伴随一个反结论，一个用分形调制覆盖更可能的预测结果的反模型。这些信息远非毫无用处，但却极不稳定，因此在泽拉斯看来是不可信的。

仅有的常量是缓慢扩张的灵能外流区，以及不断向外扩散的非物质域辐射，渗透到现实空间物质中。一处极微小的复杂闪光叠层向泽拉斯揭示，灵能变异正在许多低等种族易受影响的生物形态中猖獗，人类就是其中的佼佼者。

他们仍在从尘封已久的远古时代中探头，泽拉斯想，他们仍然拒绝接受失败，这会危及我们所有人。正如奥里坎预见的那样。

启明者超越了诸如妒忌或怨恨这类卑劣的情绪反应。尽管如此，仅仅想到占卜者，就足以中断他的突触平衡。他心智中的信息视野碎裂开来。他解体了，丢失了。

泽拉斯向后退去。他感到烦恼，但说不清是对他自己、对想到奥里坎，还是对整个银河的局势。但这并不重要，他已经从刚刚在层面天文台的一瞥中得到了他需要的东西。泽拉斯看不到他赞助人的计划还能有别的选择，也没有看到任何超出启明者自己公差模型的意外因素。

是时候处理反灵能矩阵的事了。

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他的躯体一路向下，穿过一个个房间和闪烁的粒子转位器。他穿过活体解剖台时哐啷作响，标本在分子分解机的范围中尖叫扭动着。他们发出可怜的呻吟，毛皮都被剥去了，肢体和神经系统被小心地展开，外科冥工正在一丝不苟地提取样本。这里有一颗头颅还活着，在没有身体的情况下还能维持一段时间；那里有一副抽搐的骨骼结构，神经仍然穿梭其上，因无法想象的极端痛苦收缩着。泽拉斯的部分思维在他路过特别有前途的解剖对象时做下记录。

兽人形……有前途的肌肉系统适应……古老，如此古老，久已熟悉……

人类形……大脑对反突变措施再一次出现莫名的抵抗……耐人寻味……

赫鲁德形……棘手的时间熵对分解机架有害……麻烦……

终于，泽拉斯穿过维度入口，出现在了星体仓库中。他停顿了一下，允许自己在他所创造的辉煌中沉浸一瞬。仓库是球形的，十分广大，可以让一艘古墓舰舒适地停靠在里面。他的内表面沸腾着复杂的机械装置——许多都是泽拉斯自己设计的——闪烁着能量的光芒，荡漾着翡翠色的字形。许多人影正在其中穿梭。驼背的技师和漂浮的冥工踩在泽拉斯视角中墙壁、天花板和地板的广阔空间中，这都要归功于房间的向心重力激发器。在他们之间，房间中心悬挂着一张宏大的反灵能矩阵地图，无论站在仓库外缘的哪个位置，都能看到恒定的平面排布。

地图中心悬浮着耀眼的汇流球，包裹他生长的活体金属笼子过滤了他的光芒。球体向外辐射的能量束就像某种原始海洋掠食者的手臂，在多个维度间交错。每根能量束都环绕着较小但同样明亮的火球和围绕他们运行的球体。这些能量束荡漾着，流动着，像活物一样不断生长，形成了一张环环相扣的网，通过非欧几里得链接绞合在一起，每根都束缚着数十个更小的节点。

这是一张镜像微粒组成的地图，与现实空间中对应的巨型结构具有量子层面的纠缠。简单来说，这是他赞助人的反灵能矩阵的超微缩版本，能够实时变化调整，以反映整个空间区域内发生的情况。

随着矩阵通过节点尖塔实现扩张，地图也会随之扩张。

随着星球和星系落入矩阵影响的范围中，捕捉到的数据也会以字符形式流过仓库的传感器显示屏，进入截留矩阵中。

泽拉斯从对仓库壮观景象的赞叹中回过神来。一个代表团正沿着一架组合太阳望远镜走过来。他注意到了这几个高级技师：不羁者阿姆诺特克身披轻薄的等离子体能量丝漂浮着；无穷之眼科托塔由吱吱作响的冥工圣甲虫地毯托举着；蒙面者哈斯马特普的水银卷须在他周身不断翻腾；而领头的那个，无尽门道阿斯曼迪尤斯，光是到场就令启明者不快。老科技牧首的法杖每走一步都与地面哐当相撞，顽固的金属面容直截了当地显示着权力和目的，三只一组的目镜则燃烧着紫水晶色的火焰。

“启明者大驾光临我等实属罕见。”阿斯曼迪尤斯说道，发声平缓的振幅传达着几乎不加掩饰的厌恶。

泽拉斯高高在上地站在这些劣等科技奇术师面前，并没有低下身子的兴趣。阿斯曼迪尤斯装腔作势地使用过于有机体的方式来表达侮辱，而这只是泽拉斯不喜欢这个老死灵的诸多原因之一。他抛掉了科技牧首多余的评论，转而招呼密会的其他三位技师：

“阐明你们来此的目的。”

蒙面者哈斯马特普提供了一串非发声形式的同步脉冲信息。

视觉确认您的存在——赞助人问候的愿望——补充信息报告——恰当尊敬的表示。

泽拉斯非常怀疑，无尽门道阿斯曼迪尤斯这样当面打扰他，是否有一丁点的尊敬之意。他的怀疑在墓穴技师的下一次发声中得到了证实。

“您强行推进的速度太快了，启明者。能量无限中显现的级联链触发的灵能失谐正在减少。我们的反灵能矩阵扩张迅速，导致边界上低等种族扰动程度越来越大。这项工作本应循序渐进，让短命的害虫无法察觉。然而，您却选择了仓促行事，这样做肯定会让他们发觉我们的尝试。”

永远谨慎，永远保守，泽拉斯俯视着头骨圆钝的科技牧首想道，思考着若是活体解剖这颗头脑的话还能不能产出些有用的东西来。启明者觉得这很值得怀疑。他再次无视了阿斯曼迪尤斯的话。

“显示二级信息层。”泽拉斯命令道。他可以靠一个念头就调出这些信息，他们也都知道这一点。尽管如此，科托塔还是赶紧接入了附近一个终端节点，输入一串字形，为泽拉斯提供了他要求的信息。

他们面前的地图闪烁起来，显现出一条条多面的额外细节。启明者看到了标示这个地区低等物种的符号，物种和亚种各个不同。矩阵交叉域边界外的种族散发出活力的脉冲。其他刚被纳入、还勉强处于边缘的种族，断断续续的发光就更微弱。矩阵中心地带有知觉物种的字形标识冰冷而灰暗，像石刻一样了无生气地悬挂在地图的经纬中。

大量的其他字形倾泻了整个地图。他们挤在虚空中，聚集在主要世界周围。这些字符有无数个死灵王朝的纹章和颜色，有些是小王朝，有些非常强大，但泽拉斯知道，所有这些都接受了他的赞助人的掌控。

一切都遵从那个存在的意志。

信息织机和晶质分析实现仪用深奥的数据纺出的二级字符流盘绕在地图边缘。

灵能活动在预测的参数范围内下降，泽拉斯边带着一种满足感研究这些信息边想，能量消耗巨大，但和我们的余量比起来仍然可以忽略不计。新石棚墓门的制造也在飞速进行，还有……

他大声说了出来：“我很高兴。我们的赞助人会很高兴。我现在就去写报告给——”

泽拉斯的话刚说到一半就被打断了。琥珀色字形在地图显示屏一侧边缘打起螺旋，就在同一瞬间，一条紧急警报像钟鸣一样在他脑中轰然响起。

启明者这次没有再坚持要表现自己的权威。他以极高的效率操纵起自己制作的地图，把区块分隔到一边，拽过警报字形跳动的象限。

就在那儿，他想，新东西。

果然，在边境外混乱的生命标记和潜在的节点世界之间，能看到有一堆新的字符。泽拉斯的单眼透镜快速来回闪烁着。他追踪着绽开的灵能签名，这些符号还能预示更多正在加入进来的字符。

“人类形，强烈的军国主义倾向。”他说出了声。

阿斯曼迪尤斯的手杖重重地敲在组合太阳望远镜的地板上。

“这样一来就是我有先见之明了，我的目光能刺破因果律本身的面纱！”他引用��占卜者奥里坎的一句著名的自夸。他肯定知道这会激怒泽拉斯。“要是我的话没能这么快就正好被证明是对的该有多好呀。我们的赞助人会对这一不幸的事态发展作何反应呢，您认为？”

泽拉斯终于屈尊把目光转向了老科技牧首，与他发生了数据域交流。阿斯曼迪尤斯的姿势僵硬了，肩膀也塌了下来。他眼中的火焰摇曳不定，变得小心了起来。在这一刻，启明者泽拉斯允许阿斯曼迪尤斯体验他自己的反应：启明者分享了他的兴奋、期待和愈发高涨的狂喜，这些感觉让科技牧首感到恐惧，因为这并非他所预期的。

“按预定计划推进，”泽拉斯言道，“这正是赞助人和我本人的意图。反灵能矩阵测试的下一阶段现在开始。”

说完，泽拉斯从他的下级面前背过身，向附近的转位门走去。在帝国的闯入者越过交叉域边界之前，他还有很多事情要处理。他希望到时候他可以在那里不受打扰地观察矩阵的效果。

这只是开始而已，他想。

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《金锁记》剧本改编

喧闹的商业街的午后，街上处处是叫卖声、吆喝声。街上熙熙攘攘的，人们不停地进出各式各样的店铺，手上拎着满满的物品。从外往内数的第三家，是一家麻油铺。店里满是芝麻的油香，柜台是带着油污的黑色，油缸上吊着不同大小的舀子。

曹七巧，大约十八、九岁的模样，着蓝夏布衫裤，镜面乌绫镶滚，站在麻油铺柜台后，正和一个头缠白色汗巾、身着带血污的背心的男孩相互打趣着。

男孩是肉铺里的朝禄，他看向七巧时，眼里总是带着些许欣喜。朝禄叫她曹大姑娘，或是巧姐儿。七巧略带愠色地打了朝禄一巴掌，眼角却带着笑意。

麻油铺旁的肉铺，伙计正在分割猪肉，只见他从钩子上摘下一片生猪油，重重地抛向肉案。初夏的微风，伴随着逐渐升高的温度，空气中弥漫着腻滞的死去的肉体的气味。

三十来岁的曹七巧睁开了双眼，她试图将自己的丈夫固定在椅子上，但这一团毫无生命力的肉体却不断向下滑，曹七巧用力踢了一下桌角，脸上是委屈的泪痕。她垂下头。

曹七巧的声音：“你碰过他的肉没有？是软的、重的，就像人的脚有时发了麻，摸上去那感觉……”

她带着戏谑打量着周围的一切，眼中曾经的光芒荡然无存，只有对眼前苟延残喘生命的嫌弃以及对周遭一切的不满：

丫鬟在曹七巧背后的窃窃私语以及轻视的眼光；

姜季泽的摸自己脚的轻薄以及自己对他又爱又恨的交织情感；

分家时孤儿寡母被欺负的无助与无奈……

五十来岁的曹七巧半躺在床上，她的脸色枯黄，牙齿是被鸦片熏过的黄色。她带着玉质的、银质的、金质的手镯与戒指，手上握着枪杆，吞云吐雾。

姜长白进入屋内，试图找七巧要钱，七巧顺手将身旁的枕头扔了过去，长白悻悻地退了出去。

长安的脸浮现在曹七巧眼前，曾经满怀期待的少女，如今眼中的光已然全部熄灭。七巧脑海中的长安好像已经永远失去了笑容，眼中只有对母亲的怨恨与失望。

七巧好像突然受到了什么惊吓，手中的烟枪重重地落到了地上。她摸了摸胸前挂着的、已经有些褪色的金锁，缓缓闭上了双眼。

出现皎洁月光缓缓泻下的场景。

片头：金锁记。

片头完。

这是姜季泽家中。

小姐太太们时常在家中支起麻将桌，约上三五好友，闲话家常，有时会请说书的、唱戏的来家中逗乐，大家在牌桌上消磨时光。屋内的丫鬟们进进出出，时而添茶送水，时而呈上吃食。

洗牌的声音回响着，麻将敲击桌面，发出脆响。女人的笑声尖利，贵妇们身上的首饰叮铃作响。似乎每一桌都拥有闲聊的话题，人们的注意力更多在八卦上。呷一口茶，摸一张牌，然后全身心地投入到闲谈他人的生活中。

一进门是许多牌桌，每一张桌子上都坐满了人。桌上摆着茶壶与点心，不时有丫鬟呈上热毛巾揩手。屋内的装潢是旧式风格，有一木质的屏风，墙上挂着中国山水画。屋前有一矮桌，有一个训鸟人正在教鹦鹉学舌，但并没有多少人注意他。

突然一声惊呼，所有的声音戛然而止。

兰仙（大笑着）：“哎！又和了！对不住了，今天手气好。”

兰仙发现周围的人都在看向自己，不好意思地向周围人点头示意，并连连小声道歉。周围的牌桌又渐渐恢复到了先前的热闹。

与兰仙同桌的牌搭子们露出了些许的不悦，但很快就用讪笑掩饰过去。与兰仙同桌的牌搭子三人分别是李太太、王太太与陈太太，四人都是阔太太，衣着华丽，身上佩戴着许多首饰，交谈甚欢。

李太太（着手准备开始洗牌）：“姜太太，这都第几把了，您这是有什么顺心事吗？所有的好火气都在您这儿。”

兰仙没有回答，眼里满是自得的神气。李太太左手边的王太太一边洗牌，一边做惊讶状。

王太太（惊讶状）：“嗐，李太太，您还不知道呢。自打姜老夫人仙去、姜家分家后，姜太太这不和她家那位讨人嫌的麻油铺分开了嘛，这可不是天大的喜事。”

四人不约而同地发出了笑声。

陈太太（呶呶嘴，不屑状）：“要我说，麻油铺就是一扫把星。姜太太之前和我们打牌的时候，总是愁眉苦脸地说着麻油铺的‘奇闻轶事’，又是家中丢了东西，又是争执不断、鸡犬不宁的。这一分家，人逢喜事精神爽，可不手气好嘛。”

兰仙的眼中带着戏谑，伸出手连连摆了摆，试图让三人讨论的声音降低些。

兰仙（食指放在嘴前，“嘘”声）：“哎哎，这可离人家地盘儿不远，可不敢这样说。（大笑）想我刚嫁到姜家的时候，她倒好，先是要姜家云泽姑娘早些出嫁，甚至写信给人家未来夫家，赶她出门，又是把我揣着捏着、捶着打着，恨不得把我一并赶走好。你说说，就算她命苦嫁了个残废，这谁可受得了她！”

王太太因为久坐，颈椎有些难受。她向左右侧了侧头，似乎是在拉伸，同时一只手放在颈部揉捏。

王太太：“可不是嘛，毕竟和我们不是一个出身。早年听我家老妈子说，这麻油铺可是街上一枝花呢，那肉铺家的、修鞋的、拉车的，可都把她视若天仙，她可不心高气傲！谁成想她兄嫂钻钱眼里了，把亲妹妹卖给姜家作姨太太，侍奉个残废。可真够狠的！”

兰仙眼前浮现出曹大年夫妇的模样：欠着腰、唯唯诺诺的，身上穿的还不及姜家下人好，看到姜家人就像是见了活菩萨般。

兰仙（翻了个白眼，冷笑）：“麻油铺心里恨毒了她兄嫂，却又不得不接济他们，毕竟这是她在世上仅存的亲人。她兄嫂也正是认准了这点，才敢继续腆着脸来我们姜家要这要那，装得满满的进来，一样装得满满的出去。我可看见了，麻油铺可是拿了金镯子、金簪子、金锞子给他们！她兄嫂那道谢不迭的样子，可像极了陈太太家那只哈巴狗！”

四人似乎联想到了陈太太家那只吐着舌头，看见人就摇尾巴的哈巴狗，不由得同时发出大笑。

陈太太虽然感觉有些被冒犯，但碍于主人家的面子不好发作，只能将这口气咽了下去，脸上不得不赔着笑脸。

陈太太（尽可能压抑心中的不悦）：“姜太太，您这可是折煞我家的狗了！”

兰仙的丫鬟小双端着明前的龙井和各类茶点从门口进入。她半弯着腰，给每个太太都换上了新茶水，将变凉的揩手巾一并收了。转身欲退下。

兰仙看到小双，突然反应她原来在姜家时服侍二房的。兰仙心生一计，伸手拉住了正欲离开的小双，对她莞尔一笑。

兰仙（不怀好意状）：“我近年来年岁长了，记忆力也大不如从前，小双，你来详细说说之前曹家舅爷来姜家的场景给各位太太听吧。”

小双想到在姜家被曹七巧打压的过往，心中不由得涌起愤怒。她将手中的托盘放在麻将桌旁的小茶几上，双手抱胸，十分努力忍住不让自己翻白眼。

小双：“那天我可记得清清楚楚。各位太太，麻油铺一听到我说她兄嫂来了，嘴上说着怎么又来了，可她的眼睛居然亮了起来，好像来的是两个大宝贝！明明每次来姜家都是拿这拿那，象征性问候两句，她居然还盼着他们来？要换做是我，我可巴不得离这二位瘟神远远儿的呢！”

四位太太相互交换眼神，想到曹七巧会对将她推入火坑的兄嫂还有所期待，仿佛像是听到了天大的笑话一般，笑着摇了摇头。

小双看到四人的反应，以为是和她有共鸣，内心甚至有些窃喜。便继续讲了下去。

小双：“她不停地给这个给那个的，谁还不贪呢！除了自己要的，还给儿女，甚至是家里的老妈子都拿了东西。一向扣扣搜搜的麻油铺在这个时候倒是大方得很呢！”

李太太（深表赞同状）：“可不，按她这样的脾性，姜家上下谁会乐意接近她？这也是自作孽不可活！”

小双听到李太太的赞同，十分高兴，准备继续往下说

小双：“李太太，您说的对极了。我看她送走兄嫂时还舍不得呢，那个时候我还觉得她有点可怜，但想起她平日里是怎么对我们这群下人的，我只觉得恶心！说起……”

兰仙见小双洪水决堤般的牢骚，内心有些许的厌烦，敲了敲桌子。

兰仙：“小双，够了，下去吧。”

小双似乎也意识到自己说得有些多了，拿起刚刚放下的托盘，向四位太太鞠了一躬，缓缓退下。

四位太太的牌局正酣，手上摸牌、打牌的速度也渐渐变快。突然，陈太太好像想起了什么的样子，起身调整了一下坐姿，将头凑近牌桌。

陈太太（低声）：“话说回来，我一直好奇，这残废到底是怎样能够生儿育女的？麻油铺的一双儿女看起来可正常得很，完全没有残废父亲的影子呢。”（打出了二饼）

李太太兴奋地抓过那张二饼。

李太太：“哎，我听牌了！”（揉了揉微微发酸的手腕）“陈太太，我想，麻油铺既然能在年轻的时候吸引那么多男人，自然有她的厉害之处，谁知道她有没有什么秘籍呢！”

四人再次交换眼神，发出轻蔑的笑声。好像想到了什么，恍然大悟。

兰仙（厌恶状，仿佛在回忆极度不愿回首的事情）：“嗐，在姜家时，她可一直和姜季泽在我眼皮子底下眉来眼去呢，连脚都摸上了，还以为能瞒住我？她自己都说残废的肉是松的，还要我们去碰他的肉，说是软的、重的。天哪，真是令我作呕。”

王太太：“八万。这可不是想拉着别人可怜可怜她？她诚然可怜，但可怜也不是她恶心别人的托词吧？说到姜先生，姜太太，前几日我可见他去麻油铺家了，您可知道这事？”

兰仙摸了一张牌，兴致突然高涨了起来，她将自己面前的牌推倒，脸上又浮现了得意的笑容。三位太太有些无可奈何。

兰仙：“自摸，清一色！不好意思了各位。（三人数了数钞票递给兰仙）我知道这事，姜季泽有什么事情我不知道？早前姜家分家的时候，他就盯上麻油铺这块肥肉了。年轻的时候姜季泽还称得上端正，姜家本身也没几个正常男人，麻油铺对他有意实属正常。这些年他愈发肥头大耳，头发也稀疏了，儿女一天天大了，他也开始逛起窑子了，还真以为我傻？”

兰仙呷了一口茶，仿佛将自己的怨气也一并咽了下去。三位太太交换了眼神，但是并没有任何意外的神情。姜季泽本就花名在外，听到兰仙对丈夫的描述，三人心中反而有些许嘲讽的意味。

兰仙（清了清嗓子）：“咳，他去找麻油铺，无非是以为麻油铺还念着旧情，会乖乖拿钱出来给他用。麻油铺哪有这么傻！死了丈夫的女人，只有钱不会背叛自己了，这不就把姜季泽扫地出门了？可把我笑死了。”

陈太太用戴着戒指的手小心地夹起一块桂花糕，就着一口茶送入嘴中。细细咀嚼后，用手绢擦拭手上的残屑。她想起前几日在曹七巧家门前曾见到过姜季泽。

陈太太（试探状）：“我是说怎么姜先生从麻油铺家出来的时候一脸晦气，脸色微红。不得不说姜先生这如意算盘打得可够好。没成想这麻油铺倒还机灵，知道自己配不上姜先生，把钱紧紧攥在自己手里。”

王太太听到陈太太认为曹七巧知道自己配不上姜季泽，十分不同意，她将手放在陈太太的手腕处，轻轻一捏。陈太太抬头看了王太太一眼，有些疑惑。

王太太：“她那哪是知道自己配不上姜先生？在我看来，年轻的时候被那么些男人中意，她的心气可高了吧，在听到��先生的表白时怎么可能没有一丝心潮涌动？只不过是提到钱了，就好似突然察觉到了危险信号，这时被泼了一盆冷水吧？听说分家的时候就闹得不愉快？”

回想起分家时曹七巧带着一双儿女将整个姜家闹得鸡飞狗跳，兰仙翻了个白眼，咬紧牙关，像是从牙缝中蹦出一个个字。

兰仙（咬牙切齿）：“是，当初分家的时候，她说她家那个有病不能出去做官，她是个没脚蟹，长白还不满十四岁，往后苦日子有得过呢。九老太爷问她想怎么办，她也没个想法，只会哭哭啼啼，喊着人家欺负她们孤儿寡母，最后把九太爷直接气走了。最后还是按原计划分家，你说闹这一出，何必呢？”（不耐烦地抓起一张牌，恨恨地摔在牌桌上）

坐在她下手的李太太被她突然的举动吓到了，抬头看了兰仙一眼。兰仙端起茶杯，猛地吞了一大口，眼中是无比的痛恨。李太太摇了摇头，将心思放在牌上。

李太太（与兰仙相反，轻轻地放牌）：“四筒。真是会给姜家丢人。这姜长白和姜长安也这么大了，他们妈把人都给丢完了，这俩孩子以后可怎么过哟！真造孽！”

兰仙冷哼一声。

兰仙：“麻油铺把钱看得死死的，都不给自己儿女花。姜长白是个男孩，还供他读书，姜长安这么大了，看上去还像七八岁的女孩，感觉像是长期在家吃不饱饭。（眼中突然迸射光芒，将身子和声音都压得低低的）我听有人说，麻油铺这么多年也没个男人，她现在眼里就只有他们家白哥儿咯！”

四人不知道联想到了什么画面，笑作一团，伴随着嫌弃与厌恶的表情。

王太太成功接受到兰仙的信号，抓住机会，做出谄媚的神情。

王太太（拿了一张牌，看着兰仙，嘴角牵了一丝笑）：“对比一下您家的长馨，小小年纪便聪颖过人，在学堂里也是拔尖儿的，麻油铺不是一直心高气傲嘛，这儿女也比不过姜太太您呀！”

兰仙似乎很受用的样子，脸上的笑意是对王太太的赞同。但是将她家长馨同姜长白姜长安相比，她内心还是十分鄙夷的。这份不屑十分明显地在她的眼底显露出来。

兰仙：“可不敢和她比，可不敢和她比。我们和麻油铺不是一道人，我们家长馨以后是要嫁给好人家的，可不像姜长安一样是个没爹的野丫头。（陈太太出了幺鸡，兰仙看了一眼自己的牌，高声笑道）哎呀陈太太，谢谢您的幺鸡，我又和啦！哈哈！”

洗牌的声音渐渐淡去，四人依旧在牌桌前叽叽喳喳地。笑声与交谈声逐渐淡去，门口的训鸟人教会鹦鹉“恭喜发财，吉祥如意”这句话，鹦鹉不断地重复着，略带哀凉。

曹七巧家的宅子在这片尽是阔太太的街区显得格格不入，斑驳的鹅黄色小洋楼，生锈的铁栅栏，常年紧闭的大门，无一例外地像是在向他人宣告主人的“贫穷”，甚至连推销员与报童也绝不会去“打扰”这一家人。

院内也是十分的荒凉，秋风将法国梧桐枯黄的叶子吹落，由于老妈子与丫鬟的数量不够，这满庭院的落叶竟无人打扫，远远望去像是一层黄色的薄毯覆盖于深灰色的地面上。老妈子与丫鬟各自心怀鬼胎，都想方设法地偷着懒，都最怕太太的突然召唤。

曹七巧的侄子曹春熙风风火火地从大门进入院内，好像给这座死气沉沉的宅子带来了些许生机。他与长白、长安的年纪相仿，三人很快成为了玩伴。

有天，长安想要拿放在柜子最上方的莲子，长白摆摆手，表示要妹妹自己拿。长安便搬了个凳子，支在柜子旁，拼命踮着脚，试图够到莲子。但由于她长期营养不良，十三岁的年纪却只有七、八岁的身高，怎么都够不着。这时曹春熙看到了。

曹春熙（担心状）：“哎呦，安姐儿可别摔了，回头我可脱不了干系！”

话音未落，长安一个没站稳，向后一仰，凳子被踢翻，曹春熙果断上前扶住了长安。长安有些惊魂未定，大口喘着粗气。

曹七巧（突然冲入房间内，将曹春熙扶住长安的手打掉，十分愤怒，冲曹春熙咆哮）：“我三茶六饭款待你这狼心狗肺的东西，什么地方亏待了你，你欺负我女儿？你那狼心狗肺，你道我揣摩不出么？你别以为你教坏了我女儿，我就不能不捏着鼻子把她许配给你，你好霸占我们的家产！”

曹七巧顿了顿，上下打量了一下不过十来岁的曹春熙，又回想起这么多年以来兄嫂对自己的压榨与欺负，顿时恍然大悟。

曹七巧（冷笑）：“我看你这浑蛋，也还想不出这等主意来，敢情是你爹娘把着手儿教的！那两个狼心狗肺忘恩负义的老浑蛋！齐了心想我的钱，一计不成，又生一计！”

曹春熙听了这席话，气得只想翻白眼，但碍于曹七巧是长辈而不得不压下心中的怒火。他刚欲开口为自己辩解，甚至连长安都想开口解释时，曹七巧更是气不打一处来。

曹七巧（指着他们俩的鼻子，叉着腰）：“你们还有脸顶撞我！（对曹春熙）还不给我快滚，别等我乱棒打出去！（对长白长安）你们俩也给我滚，多大的人了，还胳膊肘往外拐了？你们是想气死我吗！”

三人咧咧呛呛地从房间里退了出去，曹七巧在发完脾气后感到一阵眩晕，扶着丫鬟也离开了房间。

曹春熙年轻，血气方刚，从小到大哪里受过这种委屈？他回到房间后，忿忿不平地开始收拾行李，嘴里还小声骂骂咧咧，当天晚上头也不回地离开了曹七巧的宅子。

姜长安内心虽然也觉得对不起表哥，但这么多年，深知自己母亲脾性的她也不敢和母亲顶撞。在曹春熙离开后，长安蹑手蹑脚地来到七巧的卧室。只见七巧靠坐在床上，腰间垫了一个小枕头，她闭着双眼，手不停地揉着太阳穴，好像是头疼。长安见状有些心疼，悄悄在床边坐下。

姜长安（轻声）：妈，对不起，我让你头疼了。

曹七巧缓缓睁开双眼，眼前的长安让她感觉有些模糊。那一刹，她突然不想让长安长大。虽然很气愤，但曹七巧还是握住长安的手，轻轻抚摸着。

曹七巧（因为疲惫而声音略带温柔）：“你今年过了年也有十三岁了，也该放明白些。表哥虽不是外人，天下的男子都是一样混账。你自己要晓得当心，谁不想你的钱？”

曹七巧想到前些日子姜季泽的所作所为，心中五味杂陈，一是愤怒姜季泽竟然会打孤儿寡母的主意，一是伤感自己对姜季泽竟然还有不切实际的幻想。她撅了噘嘴，表情逐渐严肃。

曹七巧（长叹一口气，悲哀状）：“男人……碰都碰不得！你娘这几个钱不是容易得来的，也不是容易守得住。轮到你们手里，我可不能眼睁睁看着你们上人的当——以后提防着些，听见了没有？”

姜长安垂下了双眼，在内心深处并不苟同母亲的想法，随后脸上挂着一丝悲哀。在她心中，母亲永远把钱看得比一切都重，甚至比自己和哥哥更重。长安感到无可奈何，但在这个家里，曹七巧才是那个拥有绝对权威的人。她很快收起自己脸上的悲哀，微微点了点头。

姜长安（十分小声）：“我听到了。”

曹七巧看了看自己曾经被姜季泽捏过的脚，又看了看长安的一双大脚。突然，她意识到，如果给长安裹脚，她是不是就会待在家中，远离所有的男人？她不出门抛头露面，是不是也意味着节省了很大一笔开支？她咧着嘴，盯着长安笑，长安只觉得有些毛骨悚然。

曹七巧（试探）：“你嘴里尽管答应着，我怎么知道你心里是明白还是糊涂？你人也有这么大了，又是一双大脚，哪里去不得？按说你今年十三了，裹脚已经嫌晚了，原怪我耽误了你。马上这就替你裹起来，也还来得及。”

话音未落，周围的老妈子倒笑了，她们看向彼此，有些不可置信。姜长安在听完母亲的一席话后直直定在了原地，她感到十分恐慌，双眼放大，嘴巴微微打开，想说些什么却又什么都说不出。

曹七巧（笃定地拉着长安）：“我不愁我的女儿没人要，不劳你们替我担心！真没人要，养活她一辈子，我也养得起！”（招呼着几个老妈子按住长安，她亲自替长安裹脚）

姜长安的哭喊声在寂静的黑夜中惊醒了整条街。

第二天，曹七巧盘算着自己的女儿已经缠足，也没办法再去学堂，便寻思着去学堂把学费要回来。她带着两个老妈子，气势汹汹地冲进了学堂，在校长办公室找到了校长。校长本是儒雅之人，先是静静地聆听她的诉求，但当他听到曹七巧在给长安缠足并希望要回学费时，校长感到十分震惊。他愤然起身，坚定地回绝了曹七巧的无理要求。曹七巧哪肯依，她也起身，分开腿，叉着腰，手指着校长，痛骂他不要脸、钻钱眼里了。最后，校长让保安将她们三人架出了校园。

整个学堂都知道了这件轶事，每当长安上街遇见老同学时，总感觉他们在背后窃窃私语。久而久之，姜长安眼中原有的热忱与希望已经被世俗磨灭。再见到她的人，会发现她打了一根辫子，叉着腰，迈着小碎步，不停地发表对世俗的高见，紧紧攥着手中的钱──谁都说她是活脱的一个七巧。

姜长白在完成学业后，成天无所事事，先是染上了赌瘾，后来渐渐和姜季泽一起逛起了窑子。曹七巧看着儿子一天天花着这么多钱，便想着为他张罗婚事。曹七巧对媒婆带来的人选总是挑三拣四，媒婆早已厌烦，背地里总是骂七巧“不撒泡尿照照自己”，但表面上还是要赔着笑脸。一顿手忙脚乱之后，她为长白定下了袁家名为芝寿的小姐。

新妇过门，曹七巧怎么都看她不顺眼，还暗中给她使绊子。芝寿心中委屈，但丈夫不体谅，又不能回娘家，只能将满腹委屈自我消化。

这天，芝寿的母亲前来探望女儿，曹七巧便约上另外两个太太（张太太、赵太太），一起吃午饭。另外两位太太不知道这是芝寿的母亲，只当是曹七巧的朋友，便以芝寿作为话题开始闲聊。

丫鬟们陆续送上了菜，放眼望去，西红柿鸡蛋、小葱拌豆腐、清炒时蔬、虎皮青椒。袁太太有些惊讶，请客竟然一点荤腥都没有。但看张太太和赵太太习以为常的模样，她也不好问些什么。

张太太（让丫鬟给自己倒了一杯茶，润了润嗓子）：“姜太太，我看您这新媳妇嘴唇可有些太厚呢！听说嘴厚的人天性厚呢！”

曹七巧抬起眼，瞟了一眼袁太太，只见她的脸一阵红一阵白，额前冒了细细的汗珠，神情十分不自然。她勾起嘴角，一副看好戏的模样。曹七巧天生一副高爽的喉咙，扃扃的，刮得人疼痛，像剃刀片。

曹七巧（大笑）：“张太太，天性厚可并不是什么好话。我只但愿咱们白哥儿这条命别送在她手里！（她夹了一筷子豆腐）你们瞧咱们新少奶奶老实呀，一见了白哥儿，她就得去上马桶！”（不屑地哼了一声）

袁太太此时有些愣住，刚刚伸出的筷子猛地抖了一下，她悄悄打量了一下身边的三人，发现另外两位太太并没有发觉到她的异样，便稍微低下了自己的头，呷了一口茶。

曹七巧察觉到袁太太的坐立难安，心中却是一份窃喜。她用手绢揩了揩嘴，扭头和赵太太攀谈。

曹七巧（略带骄傲意味）：“赵太太呀，不是我说，我家白哥儿和我可亲了。我要他给我烧一夜的烟，他可甘之如饴！这新媳妇啊……”（曹七巧将自己儿子亲口招供的媳妇的秘密宣布了出来，有声有色地渲染着）。

张太太和赵太太听得津津有味，还时不时打断七巧，试图与她一同探讨。这边的袁太太脸上挂不住了，她慢慢放下筷子，神色有些恍惚，汗珠顺着她的脸颊滑落，滴在有些掉漆的餐桌上。

张太太发现袁太太有些不对劲，便投来了关切的目光。

张太太（关心状）：“袁太太，您没事吧，是哪儿不舒服吗？”

袁太太正愁没有一个台阶可以下，她猛然起身，向席间三人欠身致意。

袁太太（有气无力）：“三位太太，实在是不好意思，我突然有些头晕，就先回去了。三位慢吃。”

曹七巧也没有挽留的意思，她对着袁太太笑了笑，眼底带着不屑和嫌弃。她也缓缓起身，走到袁太太面前，挽住她的胳膊。

曹七巧（带着笑意）：“哎呀，这可真是不巧，那我就让丫鬟送您到门口。亲家母，下次您再来看芝寿的时候，我们再聊。”

袁太太连连点头，却很快地拿开曹七巧的胳膊，和丫鬟匆匆离开了。她离开时脸皮紫胀，心中觉得也无颜再见女儿，乘了包车回去了。

姜长白和芝寿本就不亲密，在曹七巧的搅和后更是渐行渐远。姜长白的心又回到了花柳巷之中，花销越来越大，曹七巧看着账簿上的每日支出也是越发心烦。为了拴住长白，她把一个丫鬟娟儿给长白做了小，又让长白和她一起抽烟，长白这才安心在家守着烟袋和姨太太。

姜季泽的女儿姜长馨给长安介绍了一个留学归来的男朋友，名叫童世舫。多年以来，姜长安第一次感受到了恋爱的滋味，每每见到童世舫，她总会心跳加速。过去十年她总是过着“小曹七巧”式的生活，这是第一次，她想要逃离自己的母亲、自己的家庭。

童世舫是一个具有英伦气质的绅士，多年在海外的求学使他对中国的传统女性抱有极大的兴趣。他在姜长馨的介绍下认识了姜长安，他被长安身上的传统气息所吸引：她的一颦一笑总是温婉的，旗袍下她的身姿婀娜，眉眼间总是明媚的。在几次约会后，二人确定了恋爱关系，最后甚至瞒着曹七巧定下婚约。

曹七巧不知从哪里听到了这个消息，她气急败坏地质问长安。长安被爱情蒙蔽了双眼，只想着自己未来的幸福。曹七巧恨她执迷不悟，总是以自己嫁到姜家被欺负的过往来警告长安，甚至侮辱童世舫，认为他这么多年在海外没有娶亲是不正常的事情。多年顺从的长安在这一件事全然不肯让步，最后七巧竟只能答应见童世舫一面。

童世舫来到姜家时，有一种莫名的恐惧感。当他落座吃饭时，见他的却只有姜长白一人。两人就着酒谈天说地，气氛相对缓和了许多。正当童世舫以为这场“鸿门宴”即将顺利结束时，他突然看见，姜长白身后的阴影里，出现了一个有些驼背的、干瘦的老太太，他的直觉告诉他——这是一个疯子，他只觉得毛骨悚然。

曹七巧在阴影中打量了童世舫许久，她上前一步，微微欠身，算是问好。童世舫也连忙向七巧鞠了一躬。

曹七巧（略带疲惫）：“童先生您好，我老了，若有招待不周，请您多多谅解。”

童世舫（连忙摇头）：“姜太太不必如此客气，您能邀请我前来作客我已经感到十分荣幸了。只是不知道长安现在何处？”

曹七巧的眼中突然闪现一丝光芒，童世舫很快捕捉到了，这只让他觉得可怖。曹七巧缓慢地转身。

曹七巧（慢悠悠地）：“您还没有参观过我们的宅子吧，我带您参观一下，您就能看到长安了。”

童世舫随着曹七巧穿过昏暗的走廊，宅子不大，却是死一般的寂静，曹七巧轻微的咳嗽在宅子里竟然有回音。微黄的灯光下，墙壁上藏青色在这一刻仿佛成为了死亡的黑色。童世舫不禁打了一个寒颤。在二楼站定，二人面前是微微虚掩的房门。

曹七巧（回头，声音有些飘忽）：“童先生，这就是长安的房间，她正在里面，您自己去见她吧。”（说完便又走进了一片黑暗中）

童世舫微微推了一下房门，并不急着进去，他的视线定格在了躺在床上的长安身上：长安的右手拿着烟枪，正在吞云吐雾，那一双三寸金莲似乎是长安“旧女性”身份的“勋章”。那种吸鸦片之人特有的糜烂与恍惚全然不似他平时所认识的那个活泼的、满眼爱意的中国少女。眼前的瘾君子头发散落着，像极了《聊斋》中尚未化成人形的聂小倩，她直直地盯着天花板，浑身竟然没有一丝生气。童世舫被眼前的场景惊吓到了，他悄悄带上了房门。

童世舫（小声嘟哝）：“这就是现在的中国闺秀了吗？为什么传统的女性也会抽鸦片？是我离乡太久不知道现在的习俗了吗？”

正当童世舫有些神游时，一个丫鬟不小心撞到了他。丫鬟连忙道歉，还一边小声向外吐着“姨太太”、“生了”之类的词语，童世舫有些疑惑不解。

童世舫（拦下丫鬟，疑惑状）：“姑娘为什么这样着急？是有什么急事吗？”

丫鬟（十分不耐地挣脱他的手，匆忙欲离开）：“哎呀，我们少爷的姨太太要生了，我得赶紧过去帮忙了，您请别拦着我。去完了太太要骂的！”（说完便急匆匆往上赶）

童世舫消化了一阵，才将丫鬟说的话完全理解。他的神情依旧有些恍惚。

童世舫（继续小声嘟哝）：“姨太太，这难道不是旧时代的糟粕？三寸金莲，不也是对女性的剥削与压迫？”（他的眼前突然浮现出曹七巧那干枯的脸庞以及空洞的双眼）

童世舫只觉得冷汗一阵一阵的，他不敢在这座吃人的监狱里再多呆一分钟，他只觉背后好似有什么人在追赶着他，不由得加快步伐，跌跌撞撞、头也不回地离开了姜家，从此再无音讯。

病入膏肓的芝寿听到丫鬟说娟儿生了个小少爷，她已经瘦得皮包骨头，曹七巧和姜长白很少过问她的死活。她艰难地翻了个身，头歪在枕头上，嘴角淌着涎水，她缓缓张开嘴，试图说些什么，却发不出任何声音。没有人知道她是什么时候咽的气。

娟儿虽然被扶正，但是曹七巧长期以来的打压与嘲讽、抚养孩子的艰辛与痛苦、对长白迷失于花柳巷的无奈与愤怒，使她本就不坚强的心理防线彻底崩塌了。仅仅过了一年，她便吞生鸦片自杀了。

姜长白不敢再续弦，他成天在外面闲逛，有时赌上几把，有时嫖个妓女，有时抽上几口。每当囊中羞涩时，他总是会去找曹七巧，刚开始七巧还有些可怜他，渐渐也只让他滚。

长安又回到了“小七巧”的状态，她叉着腰，对这个世界充满怨恨与不满。她时常暴怒，对家里的丫鬟、老妈子冷嘲热讽。七巧再也不提给嫁人一事，长安也再也不和七巧说上一句话。

七巧半躺在床上，手边放着烟枪。窗外皎洁的月光泻下，好似曾经她在麻油铺当姑娘时看到的一般。她的眼前突然出现朝禄那年轻的脸庞。

朝禄（半羞赧半开玩笑地）：“巧姐儿，等我攒够钱，就娶你回家好不？”

曾经的七巧轻轻给了朝禄一巴掌。

曹七巧（羞红了脸）：“嗐，你说什么呢！别乱开这种玩笑！”

曹七巧至今还能记起朝禄略微失望的模样。

她摸了摸自己胸前挂着的金锁，这一生像电影般在她的脑海中不断闪回。她知道她儿子女儿恨毒了她，她婆家的人恨她，她娘家的人恨她，就连她自己也恨毒了她。她左手腕上的玉镯子，还是当姑娘时带上的。她侧过身，用右手徐徐将这镯子向上推，竟然推到了腋下。

她又穿着蓝夏布衫裤，镜面乌绫镶滚，这件衣裳不知道从何时起竟如此大了。她直直地盯着前方，少女时代对邻家少年的悸动，嫁入姜家后承受的屈辱，自己当家后对子女与金钱的掌控，在如今的七巧看来，全是荒唐中带着些许心酸。眼角的泪水滑落，她把脸侧向头底下的荷叶边小洋枕，凑上脸去揉擦了一下。

朝禄的脸庞又突然浮现在了她的眼前，似乎是在等待一个答案。

曹七巧已经没有任何力气了，她只觉得脑袋昏昏沉沉的，四肢已然麻木，意识也逐渐模糊了。

曹七巧（艰难地长大嘴巴，面部有些狰狞）：“好”。

她闭上了双眼，脸上残留最后一滴眼泪，她就由它挂在腮上，渐渐自己干了。

渐渐淡出的、皎洁月光泻下的场景。

叠印字幕：剧终。

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[CN] Victor’s 2023 Birthday Story (Eng Translation)

⌚Warning⌚ This post contains detailed spoilers for a content yet to be released in the global server! ♡

Collect the memory items and look back at the moment when his life ushered in a major turning point. The future he earnestly desired is composed of every second and minute from that immediate moment.

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Victor’s dialogues will be in bold and italics. Others’ dialogues will be in only bold.

I’ll use ( ✄┈┈┈┈ ) when moving on to the next page within the same chapter and partitions for different chapters, as usual.

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✧ [Chapter 1] ✧

Creak–– creak––

Creak––

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The sound of metal scraping against the ground travels intermittently to the ears. Although small, it’s still enough to jolt someone awake from light dreams. The fingers resting on the table shudder almost imperceptibly. After a few moments, the owner of the hand is awakened, and he lifts his head from the crook of his arms.

The laptop on the table had already entered sleep mode long ago, the dark screen reflecting his disheveled fringes and the warm sunlight. Instinctively, Victor lightly squints his eyes. After a while, he sits up straight and can’t help but let out a light hiss.

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The arms have been pinned down for too long, and the first movement sends an intense sense of numbness through them. He leans back in his chair and moves his stiff forearms and the back of his neck, hearing the sound of the table and chair scraping traveling to his ears once again. This time, however, the other party is clearly much more relaxed.

“I’m sorry. I made too much noise while looking for something.”

Cao Lin, his dormitory roommate, holds up a dusty wireless mouse and shoots a glance at the computer,

“Did you stay up all night again last night?”

“Mm.”

“Thank you for your hard work. About that project showcase for that application for the school’s Entrepreneurship Park...”

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“It’s good. Take a look at it for yourself.”

Victor casually taps the keyboard a few times. In the next second, the screen lights up abruptly.

“As expected of you.”

Cao Lin impatiently takes the laptop from him and browses through it, wonderstruck,

“Although it’s not complicated, the key points are so clear at a glance… you even made a Gnatt Chart of the future revenue expectations! Yes, yes, I knew I had just the right person!”

“It’s nothing.”

Victor takes a bag of instant coffee and glances at Cao Lin,

“What about the speech draft?”

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“Here it is.”

Cao Lin fumbles with the printed manuscript, words still on his lips,

“I’m truly not exaggerating. This entrepreneurship thing for university students is like “being alive even after dying nine times.” If it weren’t for you being sufficiently strong, I would’ve never agreed to join.”

No reply can be heard drifting to the ears. When Cao Lin looks up, he finds Victor staring hard at the speech draft, his slender eyebrows knitted into a frown.

“The background of the project is not written clearly enough,”

Victor picks up a pen from the table and continues to draw circles relentlessly,

“It has to give a more granular level of details regarding the current situation of the marketplace and its prospects.”

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“The orientation is also too limited. Our target audience will not be confined to the campus, and the following will have to be adjusted accordingly.”

He puts down the pen as he speaks, picking up the cup from the side,

“The selection quiz is at 3 pm. We still have time, so let’s get down to modifying this version again.”

Cao Lin takes the speech draft, sighing as he looks at it,

“We don’t have to be so serious, right? This shouldn’t be too far off the mark in response to the school’s audit.”

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“There are several teams in the Economics Department planning to start their own business.”

Victor counters methodically,

“Across the school, there are only a few more competitors.”

“But they necessarily won’t apply for the Entrepreneurship Park…”

“The rent at school is over 30% lower than outside.”

Victor shoots him a glance,

“Which project that drew up a financial plan do you think will let this opportunity slip by?”

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Cao Lin dithers for a moment, sighing as he returns to his seat and turns on his computer. Victor gets up and walks over to his desk, tapping on the screen.

“One more thing. Let’s lengthen the margin to leave room for annotations.”

He looks at his phone as he speaks,

“I’m not coming with you guys. Professor Wu has something for me. Send me a soft copy when you’re done, and I’ll meet you directly at the venue at 3:00.”

✧ [Chapter 2] ✧

The office building of the institution is located in the northwest corner of the school, surrounded by pines and bamboo. Victor walks through the gently swaying shadows of the trees in the corridor and knocks on the heavy door of the office.

“Come in.”

The professor behind the desk looks up from his computer and pats the chair next to him, motioning to Victor.

“I wanted to see you to have a chat about your term paper.”

After he sits down, Professor Wu turns the computer around,

“Your paper is very promising. Can you tell me a little about your thinking process for choosing this topic?”

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“Generally, along with a society developing economically, its industrial structure will also be transformed. This usually means the proportion of the tertiary industry will increase…”

Victor contemplates for a moment, and then elaborates in a methodical manner.

“Then, why didn’t you begin with the Baumol effect?”

“That’s indeed the mainstream research method.”

Victor explains calmly,

“But I think if we combine the actual data on the basis of the Ricardian model, we can strengthen the explanatory force.”

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Professor Wu nods unobtrusively and asks a few more follow-up questions from tricky angles. Faced with Victor’s logical and rigorous analysis, his gaze gradually displays the look of an unconcealed admiration. When Victor finishes his explanation, he strokes the teacup in his hand, looking thoughtful.

“The angle for your choice of topic is very new and original, and your reasoning is also very clear... Your paper is already at the level of a graduation thesis.”

“Thank you, Professor.”

“I’m just stating the truth, nothing more.”

The professor pours a cup of hot tea once again.

“I wanted to see you for one more thing.”

“At this point in your junior year, it’s time to consider the next step.”

The professor says, pushing the cup of tea towards Victor,

“After you graduate next year, how about coming to me as a postgraduate student?”

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The scorching temperature of the tea passes through the porcelain cup and spreads on the palm of his hand. Through the dense steam, Victor’s gaze sweeps past the bookshelves in the back row of the office. “General Theory of Employment, Interest, and Money,” “The Field of Modern Economics and the Economy,”... each and every name of a well-known reputation in the Economics field are silently displayed on the spine of the books, and Professor Wu’s name is also among them.

No other explanation is necessary. Victor clearly understands that the path unfolding before him is a smooth and straightforward one, causing people to flock toward it.

With a professor as a guide, it will be much easier to plow through the field of economics. Perhaps within a few years’ time, his name will also appear here, silently overlooking countless students.

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Victor blinks, quietly averting his gaze from the bookshelves.

All that is all right. But he knows in his heart that this is not what he wants.

The investment world is indeed colder and more ever-changing than the academic world. But this is precisely what causes him to be intrigued–– there are numerous opportunities and dangers lurking in this field; the chips you have in your hand now could be wiped away overnight, or they could grow astonishingly like a snowball. Here, all judgments reveal their consequences in the most straightforward manner.

This is the only place where his ambitions and talents could be realized.

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“Thank you for your kind appreciation.”

He looks at the professor, his tone carrying with it a certainty,

“But I have decided that I want to start a business with my team.”

“I’d like to see what kind of future I can achieve with my capability.”

✧ [Chapter 3] ✧

“We formed a media company that offers a range of services including…”

Victor pushes open the back door of the classroom and is suddenly greeted with the sound of a staccato explanation. There is not even a single empty seat in the large classroom. The cold light of the projection on the podium reflects either the nervous or expectant faces of several hundred students off the stage. His gaze wanders around the lecture hall a few times, finally spotting the familiar four or five figures in the corner. At about the same time, Cao Lin notices him and waves his hand, making gestures:

“God Vic! Over here!”

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Victor passes through the back of the classroom. Just as he draws nearer, his arm is eagerly pulled by Yu Hong. He is one year above Victor and is in charge of the financial aspects of the project. Although he is the oldest among the teammates, Yu Hong is prone to being nervous when it comes to formal situations. Only a few moments have passed, and his face has already broken out in sweats,

“You really did hit the nail on the head. This battle is a big one!”

“I fear there are no less than forty groups present today.”

Some of them are hurriedly revising their speeches based on the experience of the previous groups, while speaking with anxiety,

“If the application is not approved, then…”

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“That won’t make much difference.”

Victor pushes down Yu Hong’s hand,

“We can control our costs by renting space in a slightly more remote location.”

“That’d be too far. What would we do about the back-and-forth trips?”

“That’s not a problem. We can make arrangements with the shuttle bus service for the morning and evening pick-ups.”

Victor’s eyes sweep over the faces of the group,

“Also, there’s no need to worry about it right now. I don’t think our project will be any less impressive than the others.”

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While they are conversing, the previous group’s project presentation has come to an end. The teachers in the front row turn their heads sideways to discuss something. Shortly after, they flip to the next page of the registration form,

“Group 9, be prepared to take the stage.”

The air that alleviated just a little becomes tense once again, and Victor hears Cao Lin next to him inhaling a deep breath. His fingertips curl up, and he takes the lead as he rises from his seat. A multitude of eyes rests upon him within an instant.

“Let’s go.”

He says in a low voice and strides down the flight of steps.

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Following Victor’s footsteps, the other team members ascend onto the stage in a single file. After the projector is connected, a clear and concise presentation of the project is immediately displayed on the screen. Victor’s gaze unobtrusively glides across the stage, and he begins to explain in a profound voice,

“We are a team of entrepreneurs from the Department of Economics. This application is for an industrial project where investment is the main operation…”

“The next stage is to expand our target clientele beyond the campus to assimilate social investment…”

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The display of the project turns over page by page. Along with the rigorous narration of several people, a number of teacher exchange glances with each other rather approvingly. However, a female teacher sitting in the middle of the front row knits her brows into a frown. Victor’s heart shivers slightly. As luck will have it, the female teacher takes the lead with a difficult question in the question and answer session that follows:

“In terms of future profitability, your project is indeed remarkable. However, unlike outside Entrepreneurship Parks, the school does not prioritize profits.”

“I’ll be straight with you guys–– this project lacks social significance. Compared with the previous projects from the Department of Computer Science and the Department of Journalism, you guys don’t have any advantage.”

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The sound of restrained discussion immediately breaks out in the classroom. A few of the teachers nod thoughtfully, a little more scrutiny emerging in their gazes.

“But, but…”

Cao Lin parts his lips helplessly, a few drops of cold sweat sliding down the corners of his forehead.

“I agree with the teacher’s viewpoint.”

Victor takes the microphone and meets the eyes of the teacher off the stage, not even blinking his eyes,

“It’s true that the school’s Entrepreneurship Park should not be for utilitarian purposes.”

“But again, I also do not think that the social significance of this project is any less than the subject fields you’ve mentioned before.”

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“I agree with you that business practices can involve the addition or subtraction of assets, but this cannot comprise all the elements. Driven by business, the essential factors of production will operate in a more efficient manner, and society will change in line with the development of the industrial structure–– it’s a practical fact that is relevant to everyone’s life.”

Victor’s gaze sweeps across the audience. He pauses, as if he’s explaining something, and as if he’s making a kind of promise:

“And in our own way, we, too, will influence the world.”

✧ [Chapter 4] ✧

“The school will inspect the operation of the project on an academic year basis. If any violations are found, the right to use the park will be withdrawn immediately…”

“There is also a requirement for your CGPA. You guys must not let your entrepreneurial project interfere with your studies…”

At the office building of the school enterprise center, the teacher in charge of explaining the terms of use to the winning projects props her glasses up and describes the terms meticulously. As Victor writes down the contents in his diary one by one, he suddenly hears the voice drifting to his ears coming to a halt. He looks up, only to find that the teacher, who was particularly strict during the question and answer session, has lifted the corners of her lips into a small, imperceptible smile. Her voice seems to soften a little as she hands over the key,

“Your presentation was very good. Congratulations to you guys.”

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“Thank you.”

Victor lowers his eyes. The key is now in the palm of his hand, shining quietly with a warm coppery luster. The traces of being worn out is clearly visible on it. It’s only a light piece of metal, but it feels heavy as he holds it in his palm. He gently clenches his palm, and out of the corner of his eyes, he sees the faces of several people next to him turning thorough and thorough red. After walking out of the school building, Yu Hong is the first one to shout in excitement,

“We did it! We have our own zone now!”

“It was so close! I thought we would lose it in the question session… luckily, “God Vic” was quick to respond just in time!”

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Laughter, high fives… the pressure and exhaustion from running around for several days seem to dissipate into the air in this overflowing clamor. Victor looks at the group and finally lifts the corners of his lips,

“Let’s not waste time and go see the park.”

“Let’s go, let’s go. I’ve been curious for a long time!”

Making a racket, the group of people soon walks to the Entrepreneurship Park, which is a block away from the school. When they reach the gate, everyone falls silent in tacit agreement, watching as Victor inserts the key into the keyhole and turns it gently. In the next second, a neat and quiet space slowly unfolds in front of this group of youngsters.

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“From today onwards, this is our place? Why does it feel like a dream…”

“Then you keep dreaming. I’m putting my words here first. That desk by the window belongs to me, Senior Yu.”

…

Several of the youngsters habitually “roast” each other, then rush to scatter all around the office, taking in the surroundings where they will spend a long time in the coming days. Victor follows behind them unhurriedly; his gaze runs over the slightly congested desks and yellowed ceiling fans, then turns to the bright view outside the window–– although the decor, the tables, and chairs wear the traces of age, for a start-up team like theirs, this is already enough.

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“God Vic! Come and see this!”

A shout of surprise rings out behind him. Victor turns around and sees Cao Lin and the others huddling around a wall, excitedly filming something. As he approaches, Victor finds that there is a wall of memorials, filled with messages written by the previous generations of seniors who had started their own businesses. There are self-motivational words along with many motivational slogans–– the wordings are not lacking in brashness, but what cannot be concealed within them are the vigorous vitality and ambition.

“Let’s write something on it too… it will be a memento for us to see when we come back here after being away for half a lifetime.”

Cao Lin makes a genteel proposal. No one makes any jokes at this time, which is a rare occasion. In a serious and quiet atmosphere, this group of youngsters writes down their dreams, stroke by stroke.

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Accompanied by the uniform sound of brush strokes, Victor lifts his hand and solemnly writes a line on it:

“You can change the society with your values.”

✧ [Chapter 5] ✧

“Exam time is over. Everyone, now stop answering and pass your test paper from the back to the front.”

The invigilator’s voice rings out almost simultaneously with the bell. Victor puts down his pen, hands the test paper to the person in front of him, and releases a soft breath. It’s akin to a silent signal, declaring that the winter holidays have officially begun from this moment. Despite the reservation that the teacher hasn’t yet left, the atmosphere in the classroom suddenly brightens up.

While the teacher is busy sorting out the test papers, Victor turns on his phone. Several messages pop up one after another at a gushing pace. He casually clicks on the text at the very top, and the moment he reads the content, he’s suddenly taken aback.

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“Vic, happy birthday! Have you ordered a cake for yourself today? Aunt has recently learned some new dishes. I’ll cook them for you when you come back…”

Victor blinks, then looks at the center of the screen as an afterthought: “13th January.”

For the previous month, he’s barely found any room for respite in his life. For the project, applying for the Entrepreneurship Park was only the first step. To bring in investments and attract more people to join, it involves product assessment as well as system evaluation… In the juggling between the park and school, time passes by in such a rush; to the extent that, he practically forgot today was his birthday.

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“Damn, the last exam is finally done!”

At the back, Yu Hong lets out a long sigh of relief, casually conversing with the people around him,

“I’ve booked a flight, and I can be on the slopes galloping by noon tomorrow!”

“I’m going straight back home. My mom urged me several times.”

Cao Lin says, patting Victor on the shoulder,

“God Vic, what about you? What’s your plan?”

“I’m not going back. I’ll stay behind to push the project.”

Victor replies concisely. His eyes sweep over the message of blessings sent by his father, and he briefly explains his decision to stay on campus during the vacation. When he lifts his head again, he’s met with Cao Lin’s slightly hesitant gaze.

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“You’re striving too hard, aren’t you?”

Cao Lin’s tone is a little hesitant,

“The project has only just started, and we haven’t gotten any business yet. Why are you throwing away your vacation now?”

The other person behind him doesn’t say anything, and his expression reveals a bit of approval. Yu Hong at the side seems to be unable to look past it and frowns at Cao Lin,

“Are you unclear about the logic? The more we can’t progress, the more we have to rush in to draw investments, don’t we?”

He says and looks at Victor,

“I was careless before. I’ll come back after skiing the day after tomorrow, and I’ll stay here with you during the holidays.”

“No, I didn’t mean anything else by it…”

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“Today should be the last time we will be able to meet before school starts.”

Victor says as he flips open his diary,

“Let’s start by reporting on the progress of our respective work. Cao Lin, how is the market research analysis going?”

“I’ve been occupied with the exams for the past few days and haven’t started yet. I––”

“Yu Hong.”

Victor’s gaze turns to the next person,

“What about the financial budget you’re in charge of?”

“Almost done. I’ll give it to you in a couple of days.”

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As the report submitting process progresses one by one, some people’s faces gradually grow embarrassed–– those who get the opportunity to be admitted into the Economics Department after the college entrance exam are gifted. Even if no one has spoken up yet to denounce anything, their self-esteem cannot stand the blow of this kind of comparison.

Victor listens calmly as the last person finishes his report and closes the diary in his hand, not gently but not heavily either,

“It’s my own choice to stay at school during vacation, and I’m not imposing everyone to follow up on the project here.”

“It’s your personal freedom to plan your vacation. I don’t want to interfere with that.”

Victor says, gliding his gaze over the group,

“However, no delay in the progress is allowed.”

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“It’s a company, not a school group project anymore.”

Without further delay, Victor picks up his bag and gets up to leave. The moment he steps out of the classroom, there seem to be hesitant murmurs coming from behind him. It’s akin to questioning, and also akin to soliloquizing,

“...will anyone really invest in a start-up company that hasn’t been around for a long time? Isn’t that a bit too ambitious?”

Victor doesn’t stop in his footsteps. Those chaotic voices are reminiscent of a gloomy shadow, and he leaves them behind in the school building without looking back.

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On the way to the Entrepreneurship Park, he habitually pulls out his phone and searches for new investors–– he can’t remember exactly how many attempts he’s made during this period.

And it doesn’t really matter.

✧ [Chapter 6] ✧

The days are always particularly short in winter. It seems that merely within a flash, the sky outside the window is tinted with the dusky colors of twilight, and the sound of tapping the keyboard fades a little along with it. Victor takes his eyes off the screen and lifts his head to turn on the ceiling light at his workstation. When he returns to his seat, he happens to catch his phone screen lighting up for an instant.

“The project looks quite promising. We can make an appointment for a face-to-face meeting and begin with further evaluation.”

It’s a message from an investor.

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Victor’s fingertips freeze in the air for a moment, almost invisibly. A few moments later, he lifts his hand and replies:

“Of course, we can meet at your convenient time.”

With a few words, he forwards the messages to the workgroup. In just a few seconds, messages suddenly continue to pop up one after another in the previously silent group.

“F*ck! Someone is really coming to review our project?”

“Thank goodness I didn’t buy a train ticket yet… wait, I’ll go to the park tomorrow to sort out the materials!”

“I can complete the stuff I have within tomorrow. What do we have to prepare next?”

…these people.

✄┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈«

Victor sighs softly at his phone, and even he is unaware that his own expression has quietly softened a little bit. After arranging the next steps of the tasks, he glances at his phone and finds that it’s already past eleven.

Studies, work… even his birthday isn’t any different from regular days, and it’s still occupied with all kinds of things. Now, this less than an hour that he has left, it seems that it truly belongs to him and him alone.

Perhaps now, he can do something else.

✄┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈«

Victor contemplates. Almost subconsciously, he opens his social networks and begins to search for news related to the orphanage incident–– for several years now, he never gave up on the thought of finding the girl. For him, it has become almost an instinct.

His eyes scan over page after page of news, most of the contents of which he has already browsed countless times. Occasionally, one or two pieces of new information pop up, but it can be easily told that they are obvious fabrications. Victor’s gaze lingers on the “no new news” prompt for a few seconds. After pondering for a while, he posts an anonymous search post.

✄┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈«

He is going to wait a little longer. If there’s still no news, he will look for a different method… Victor thinks as he presses the Enter key. Kneading his forehead, he suddenly thinks of something and logs into his private email.

There is no blessing sent by his mother.

–

[Important Tidbits]: It’s a reference to his 5th birthday story~ ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

–

Just like the office at the moment, his mailbox is empty and deserted. But after all these years, he has also long since gotten accustomed to this feeling of emptiness. His gaze pauses on the inbox page for a second, then he retreats and leans back in his chair, closing his eyes a little wearily.

✄┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈«

He doesn’t have to worry for the moment. There will be more possibilities in the next year. The company should be welcoming more opportunities; perhaps he will receive blessings from his mother, and perhaps he will find her soon. As Victor thinks, he suddenly hears a very faint rustling sound drifting to his ears. Victor subconsciously inclines his head and looks toward the source of the sound, finding that it has started to snow outside the window at some point.

The flurry of snowflakes descends from the sky, quietly and ardently dancing across the horizon, akin to a wordless present.

Victor quietly stares like this for a while, the corners of his lips lifting softly.

✄┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈«

This year’s birthday has indeed been a little cold and lonely, but that’s okay.

The best gift of all–– he will give it to himself in the future.

—

Birthday Date: here!

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#言神! 言神!! 言神!!! “god Vic” skskdjshl a gem is a gem no matter where you put it ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ #this man!! he is just so uugghh he is so so so inspiring it’s just 😭😭#and the last part– in the time that belongs to “him and him alone” he goes to search for MC and waits for his mom’s message– SPARE MY HEART #and for when i do translate the date– good luck you guys. water stream. straight water stream 😭😭😭#mlqc victor #mlqc li zeyan #mlqc #mr love victor #mr love queen's choice #恋与制作人 #李泽言 #love and producer #mlqc cn #mlqc spoilers #mlqc translations

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xiudi1985 · 4 months

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Slash：Aragorn/Bormir

作品标题：《无耻混蛋》

等级：R

警告与说明：全是无聊的暗示和废话，护戒小队其他七个人的受难记。本质上是中土没品笑话，我没有写任何违规的词汇，没有任何。

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“说真的，”莱戈拉斯说，“我在密林见过许多的相思鸟，但却没见过哪一只是人类形状的，两只都是公的、长得这么大、那么长的相思鸟。看多了脏兮兮、臭烘烘的人形相思鸟们不分昼夜的腻歪在一起，勤快的互相摩擦胡茬，这对我的精灵视力很有影响——而且他们两只相思鸟都长了那么拉碴的胡子！”

当他强调“胡子”的时��，矮人金姆雳很不高兴地狠狠瞪了精灵一眼，重重地哼了一声。

“在我们矮人之中，成熟的妇女都有漂亮的胡子，她们会将之编成迷人的胡子发辫，并点缀上美丽的鲜花和名贵的宝石，没有哪个矮人会觉得这样不好！不像你们精灵，出门倒个垃圾前，都要先做个灯照美甲，光子嫩肤，涂完了面膜，再往身上喷满一百毫升的香水！”

“真的吗？你确定你形容的不是你的叔叔伯伯，而是那些可爱的矮人女士吗？”莱戈拉斯挑起一边眉毛，“而且，我亲爱的矮人老爷，你的美容知识，远超过我至今认识的所有精灵同伴们关于美容知识的存储量。”

正当矮人与精灵要继续辩论，团队中最年长的迈雅巫师适时地敲敲他的棍子，把烟斗从嘴里放下，拿在手中，缓缓吐出一个烟圈。“我的精灵老爷，我的矮人老爷，我们的话题要友好一些，和平，有爱——还有节制，这个话题说得太多，显然会对我们小团队的一些年纪尚轻的朋友们——产生不好的影响。”说着，巫师看了一眼坐在打开的包袱旁，每个人都吃了四块兰巴斯饼干的，四位年轻的霍比特族冒险者。

“这能给我们带来什么不好的影响呢？”大脚的年轻霍比特人皮聘抢答，“是指三更半夜的时候，我不小心听到的那些关于刚铎号角、或者关于纳熙尔圣剑的，不朽的传奇吗？”

大家伙儿都看着皮聘，他吊足了众人的好奇心，继续往下说：

“我听到阿拉贡不无赞叹地讲道，”年轻的霍比特人学着游侠的语气，绘声绘色地形容起来：

“Amazing！Amazing！波罗米尔！每当我吹响你这只美丽的白号，你的声音就比这号角的音色更华丽，更悦耳……然后我听到波罗米尔气急败坏地回应，住嘴！阿拉贡，你如果不抓紧时间，絮絮叨叨的超过三首长诗的标题加注脚，我就让你的纳熙尔圣剑彻底变成残破的遗物！又过了很久，我又听到波罗米尔问阿拉贡，他的声音虽然带着和十个强奥克战斗过后的气喘与虚弱，但听起来依然充满战士的骄傲，和有点儿掩藏不住的得意洋洋……”

他继而模仿起宰相长子的语气，模仿他那简洁而有力量的用词，“怎么了？阿拉贡，你看来是真的很喜欢我的刚铎号角，它让你的西方之焰名不虚传，一刻不停地冒着那么热情的白色焰火……阿拉贡懊恼的回嘴，是的，自然，这比闪耀着珍珠般光泽的白塔更欢迎我的到来，如果这是你对我由衷的认可，我愿意与你一起赤忱相待地在刚铎的塔楼上赞美这荣光……但当我好奇刚铎的白号和西方之焰的神奇，想加入他们伟大的夜谈时，我却连一个人影都看不到！直到我转来转去的，好像踢到了脚下有什么透明的东西，我又听到了阿拉贡和波罗米尔吸气的声音！这真是太奇怪了！”

所有人都陷入了短暂的奇怪沉默，莱戈拉斯首先反应神速地撇了一眼他脚下精灵的隐身斗篷，把它一脚踢到矮人脚边，“看到了吗！我就知道总有一天他们会用它来干这件事！不要再让这件有刚铎人故事和刚铎人后代的斗篷再靠近我一毫米！一毫米都不可以！不要问为什么，也没有为什么，总而言之——我永远不想再用到它！”

“人类啊，人类！”甘道夫痛心疾首。

“但是…但是……”梅里弱弱的说，“阿拉贡和波罗米尔恐怕是我至今所认识的，最最虔诚的人类啦！”梅里咽了下口水，继而替这两位对他非常友善的高大人类辩解道，“我时常在夜里或者晨间，在茂密的树林里，听到他们虔诚的祷告，有时候，在前半夜，波罗米尔会跪在泥地上喊Eru，在后半夜，阿拉贡则背靠着树干念诵Valar……他们对造物神持续不断地赞美的频率和强度，甚至再次加深加强了我对中洲诸造物神们的信仰！”此时此刻，梅里的表情和话语都充满了绝对的纯真。

“够啦，够啦！”巫师跺着拐杖，用长袍中的大手去捂好持戒人弗罗多的耳朵，仿佛他们刚刚所说的一切比魔君索伦的蛊惑更可怕，“噢皮聘，梅里，闭上你们的大嘴巴！”

心智年长的山姆害羞地低下头去，只剩下正被堵着耳朵的弗罗多一脸茫然，他好像知道这讨论的不是什么好话，但是又一句话都没听懂。

“你们在谈什么？”远处的树林，阿拉贡和波罗米尔一前一后，抱着新捡的柴和找到的食物回来，他们看起来正常，体面，面色红润，步履很稳，举止高贵，头发和衣服都整理得好好的，一切如常——除了波罗米尔和阿拉贡的嘴角上，好像有什么动物的咬痕，那当然不可能是除了人类之外的什么其他动物。

阿拉贡眼尖地瞟到波罗米尔后脑勺的头发中藏着的一片枯叶，他不动声色地，用手快速又轻巧地将它弄了下来。

而波罗米尔则咳嗽一声，脸上生出一丝莫名的红晕，欲盖弥彰般，他高大的身躯主动地站得离阿拉贡远了一些。

环视了一圈不知道为什么沉默的其他七个人，七个人像七盏高低不一的红绿灯，看向七个不同路口的方向，视他与阿拉贡如无物。波罗米尔率先摇了一下手里的新鲜食材，脸上挂着憨厚又和蔼的笑容，问道：

“现在谁想吃第五顿晚饭？”

“我们！！！”四个霍比特人齐声回答。

Fin

#aragornxbormir #aragorn #boromir #sean bean #viggo mortensen #vigbean

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gaogaoxdy321 · 1 year

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妈妈的奶子

作者：alcomc

第九章

早餐过后，妈妈用极为认真的语气和我约法三章。

“虽然妈妈肯跟你......发生一些母子间不该发生的事，可是......妈妈毕竟只是你妈妈，你也只能当妈妈的宝贝儿子，在外人面前绝不能作出任何失礼的举动，不然就是不尊重妈妈。妈妈答应过的事就不会反悔——在家里的时候，只要你有需要，妈妈一定会满足你，相反的，你也得听妈妈的话，答应妈妈你会好好的努力用功念书，知道吗？”

妈妈如此的说着；而我，对于妈妈的提议，则是持百分之一百赞同的态度，飞快的点头答应。

刚尝过甜头的我，深怕此时一旦和妈妈对立，难保不会失去与妈妈一亲芳泽的机会；事实上，现在我仍旧感到自己正处于虚幻中，这幸福来的太快，快到我需要一点时间分析与消化，如何才能继续保持这份幸福。

我能想象妈妈现在正承受的压力和她无法心宁的顾虑，但妈妈心想的那一些无谓的顾虑其实是很可笑的——姐姐自从上了大学搬出去后，就极少回家住，我俩母子相依为命多年，也不见什么亲戚朋友关心过问，只要我不说、妈妈不说，谁知道我和妈妈发生了一堆不可告人的事。

乱伦，在世俗眼光中是一对异常沉重的字眼，对我而言，不就是一堆狗屎，从妈妈肚子里生出来的我，和妈妈本来就是一体的，乱伦的枷锁，只加深了和妈妈相爱时的刺激感，能得到妈妈这般如花似玉的尤物，要我做什么都愿意。长久以来的美梦终成了真，我怎会挑这种时候反对妈妈的话？

用力的拍拍胸膛保证过后，在妈妈愉快的笑容中，准备迎接美好的生活。

接下来的几日，每一天有如天堂一般的舒爽。

暑期假日还有一大半未过，日夜和妈妈独处在同一屋檐下，身边供着一具美好的肉体任我亵玩，只要任何时候我一想要，即使多忙着做家事杂务，妈妈依旧会停下手边工作，没好气的瞪了我一眼，仍尽心尽力的满足我。用手、用口，甚至用那一对丰满无比的巨乳，给予无时无刻、全年发情的我极大的快感。

餐桌底下，妈妈蹲在我大腿之间，脑袋前前后后的摆动、张大小嘴将粗壮的男茎含入，用最为淫荡的表情套弄着，温热的小嘴努力地替炽热的大鸡巴服务，湿暖的口舌毫不娇持的舔弄丑恶的蘑菇龟头，最后再任由我将腥臭的精液全数喷在她美丽的容颜上。（看精彩成人小说上《成人小说网》：https://crxs.me）

客厅沙发上，坐的有如大老爷般的我，下体赤裸，观赏着电视机里音量全开的三级片，妈妈则趴在我腿边，感受她娇软的胴体，娟娟秀发沿着妈妈娇美的容貌落在腹阜上，柔嫩的乳球厮磨敏感的下体，撩拨挑荡的套弄着，直到发泄终了妈妈毫不介意的将浓浊白精吞食入腹。

母亲口舌并用的服伺着需求无度的淫邪儿子，在无人打扰的房子里无时无刻的玩着禁忌的游戏。在我强烈的要求下，妈妈在家里保持着最清凉的打扮，好让我随时随地能扑倒她玩弄。

妈妈虽然任由我搓揉胸脯、爱抚她半赤裸的肌肤、甚至粗暴的对待她酥软如玉的臀球，无论她再淫荡再放浪，但下体的神秘私处，始终是一处不可亵淫的禁地、妈妈矜持的最后一道底限；好几次我将妈妈挑逗的酥软发麻、淫水直流，可当阴茎排除万难的拨开内裤边缘、几乎陷入小穴时，妈妈总能及时剎车，将我推开，倘若我过份越矩，当天妈妈就会扳起脸、任由我再怎么道歉也不予理会。

妈妈牺牲母亲的尊严来满足我的淫欲，如果能一直维持现状已经让我很满足了；一步错，则全盘皆错，我怎有胆量打破我与妈妈亲密关系的最后一道关卡？

然而......

贪婪，是人类的劣根性之一。

得到越多，想要的也就越多，只要是人，多多少少会有欲望；上帝造人，雌雄性之间的吸引，便是一种最重要的传宗接代的本能，一种谁也不能抵抗的生物本能。

夜深人静，反转难眠的我，脑海中尽是幻想着妈妈被我赤裸裸的压在床上，粗壮鸡巴进出神圣的蜜穴，大干特干，妈妈被我肏的淫水直流的淫荡模样。

走在满是人潮的街道上，左手帮妈妈提着一袋又一袋的购物，右手被妈妈亲密的环抱住，臂上感受的尽是妈妈胸脯的柔软。

妈妈她及腰的长发绑成马尾，俏脸稍施淡妆，穿了件合身的连身套装，美丽的容貌、高贵典雅的气质，再加上一身火辣无比的身材，吸引道路上百分之九十以上的雄性目光，也连同让陪伴在妈妈身旁的我走路有风、面上有光。

瞧，羡慕吧！这美艳的尤物，不是别人，是我的女人，也是我的妈妈。

星期天下午，陪妈妈一同外出购物，也进行着母子俩突破关系后的第一次约会。

偷偷打量着妈妈，除了她美艳的容貌和百看不厌的身段，将视线放低，凝视妈妈优雅的步伐，眼中尽是那双晃动美腿，却又是另一番勾人垂涎的优圣美景。

在我的要求下，妈妈穿起平时极少穿着的裤袜，网状的黑色蕾丝在深蓝色的套装裙的陪衬下，将妈妈一双修长绝美的大腿显露的更加性感撩人，流线般的曲线，由上往下的欣赏那丰满结实的大腿，划过圆嫩的柳膝，连接着妈妈纤细的小腿，丰盈的脚裸下套着一双淡红粉的高跟鞋，配合妈妈高贵的气质，引人遐思之虞，还挑拨起我内心一种淫虐的欲望；紧贴着雪白腿肉的丝袜，更让我有种将之撕破的冲动，恨不得当街捧起妈妈的脚大吻特吻，吸吮妈妈鲜嫩的脚��。

逛了一整个下午，��购物袋卸上后车厢，接着和妈妈来到南区一家小咖啡屋里。

“小伟，不要没事一直盯着妈看，妈妈会不好意。”路人的注目其实还好，但妈妈在接受了我视奸了整整一天后，终于受不了的红着脸出声谴责。

“妈妈这么漂亮，为什么不让人家看呢？”我摆下手中卡布奇诺，笑咪咪的捧起下巴靠在桌台上，毫不掩饰的直盯着妈妈的脸。下巴下的指头微动，我对着妈妈淫笑的说，“妈妈你看，站在吧台的中年大叔，还有......嗯......左手边坐在那儿的大学生，不都也是在偷偷看你？”

随着妈妈疑惑的目光转动，正打量着妈妈的色鬼们匆忙转移视线，但不久后仍用着眼角的余光不死心的偷瞧着妈妈的美貌。

“噗......你这小色鬼......”妈妈娇笑出声，笑骂道，“不要管别人，管好你自己就好了......再怎么说你也是我儿子，那有儿子这么盯着妈妈看的？”

“谁说我是你儿子，”我故做生气，嘟起嘴说道，“妈妈，明明说好今天你是我女朋友的！所以......”

露出淫荡笑容，我色色的捧起妈妈摆在桌上的小手：“从现在开始，我就叫你老婆，妈妈你呢......就叫我老公好了！”

“别这样没大没小......”妈妈红着脸甩开我的手，“早上妈妈是被你缠的受不了才答应的，怎么能当真？”

回想今早母子间刺激的感触，想起我那淫荡的妈妈，居然在帮我乳交时单是被我玩弄乳头而玩到高潮时的失神艳韵，内心忍不住闷出一阵火热性欲。

妈妈被我看的不好意思，偏过头去，斥道：“好啦，小伟，别再这样子看妈妈了，人家都在看啦！”

“咦，老婆，你在说谁在看你啊？”我故意装傻的问道，接着捉起妈妈好似娇软无骨的小手吃起豆腐。

“唉，你这死因仔，大概是妈妈上辈子欠你的......”妈妈叹了口气，用娇滴滴的声音撒娇道，“好了啦，别这样看我啦......老公......”

Oh，Shit！

老公，这两个字一从在妈妈嘴里说出，马上让我兴奋的不能自己，柔嫩的嗓音和性感的语气，顿时令心中舒服不已，忍不住央求妈妈再说几次。

回应我的，却是妈妈千娇百媚的瞪了我一眼，娇哼一声；妈妈的电眼威力一出，杀伤力惊人，让我愣在当场、动弹不得，只能眼巴巴的看着妈妈挣脱我那豆腐魔爪。

买回了该买的杂物，剩下来的时间当然是我和妈妈母子间的亲密约会。既然是约会，少不了遵循约会的四大铁则：喝咖啡、看电影、吃晚饭，以及上旅馆。

晚饭是一定要吃的啦，至于旅馆上不上的了，决定权并不在于我。

踏进西区的电影院，观眼一望，才发觉最近还真没什么好片子可看。

“妈妈，你想看什么？”我转头看向妈妈，问道。

“妈也不知道，随便你挑。”

“呃，没什么好看的耶，要不然......”看着目前上档的片子，最终发觉没任何一部可以实行我邪恶的计划，只好提议说，“妈，我知道这附近好像有一家挺不错的MTV，我们去那儿看好了......”

妈妈一向没有看电影的习惯，对于宝贝儿子的选择，她自然没意见的乖乖陪同。当她知道我们要去的MTV，其实是包厢式的小房间内两人独处，妈妈只用深邃的目光盯着我看，直到我头皮发麻才没好气的点头答应。

订好包厢，偷偷摸摸的在柜台选了一部只曾在网络上看过片段的四级片：“超淫乱－终极性爱”，拿着饮料和妈妈一同踏进了昏暗的小房间。独处的男女，灯光闪烁着澄色霓虹，舒适宽敞的黑皮沙发，和长桌上特地摆置的面纸盒，无一不做出让人脸红心跳的暗示。

看到这等架势，妈妈那还看不穿了我的计划，知道我精虫上脑，等不及回家再解决，好在妈妈仍贴心配合，所以当我拉着妈妈坐上沙发，妈妈除了没好气的敲了我一下，却也没有拒绝我搭在胸脯上乱摸的手。

片头一开始，马上跳入火辣辣的性爱场景——一位戴着眼镜的少年和美艳的熟女，两人赤裸裸的躺在床上互相爱抚。望着宽大的屏幕，听着淫声浪语，妈妈吃惊的张开小口，好一会儿才害羞的偏过头，小声的朝我骂一声：“小色鬼！”

我淫笑嘿嘿的给妈妈一个笑容，脱下长裤，又把内裤褪至腿边，猴急的拉了妈妈的手搭在早已勃起的大鸡巴上，示意妈妈学电影里的美妇人正为那眼镜仔服务的动作。手中感受鸡巴的炽热，妈妈迟疑了一下，才慢慢的开始上下套弄，目光始终留意着影幕。

解开妈妈上半身套装三个钮扣，大手一掏，一对硕大无比的巨型美乳弹跳而出，将白色丝蕾的胸罩往下一扳，雪白的乳肉在空气中抖荡着，和着深红色的硬挺乳果，显得分外耀眼迷人，粗糙的手掌分别掩盖注乳房，低下头去又吸又揉。

肉体上的拨弄，令妈妈娇喘连连，套弄在我鸡巴上的手，也逐渐加快。持续的观赏电影中淫荡的演出，视觉上的挑逗，让脸红通通的妈妈意乱情迷，连我偷偷的伸下裙内脱下她的内裤都没发觉。伸指一探，只觉得热烫的淫水已像溪流般地从那妈妈的私处潺潺而出，滑不溜手。

母子一同外出，在家屋之外的公共场合观看着色情片，互相替对方手淫，粗重的喘息声和电影中毫不掩饰的淫浪声，让这小小的包厢房内顿时春色无边。

妈妈和我同时偏过头去，脸一碰互相舌吻，洁白的贝齿，小小的粉色香舌缠着我不放，这一吻直到天晕地暗、喘不过气才分开，唇分之后，脸前妈妈小嘴吐出诱人的芬芳，仍恋恋不舍的伸着小舌舔弄我的唇。

转头看回屏幕，此时片中男女已改变姿势；我转望妈妈，用眼神询问着，妈妈娇羞的看着影幕中男女做出羞人的姿势，她摇摇头，欲迎又拒，欲挣开我拨弄她私处的魔手，却发觉自己浑身发软，无力靠在我身上；在我半磨半强迫下，妈妈只好任由我搂着她改变体位——让妈妈躺在沙发上头，我伏身趴在她身上，头低在妈妈大腿间和她呈69式。

第一次在如此近的距离欣赏妈妈赤裸的下体，浓密的黝黑毛发，发育完全的成熟阴阜在多年未曾灌溉下显得额外饥渴，散发出一种极为淫腻的气息。淡淡的尿味和浓郁的肉屄骚味，令人窒息的性感，引诱我这种未尝肉味的青涩菜鸟无比的亢奋。

“小伟，别看那儿......”

感受到我视线的奸淫，被我压在身下的妈妈忍不住羞着抗议；而呈现在她面前的，亦是我光秃秃的下体，还有那根高挺的粗大肉茎。

用手指拨开暗红色的肉缝，两片肉瓣左右一翻，露出勃起的肉芽和粉色的小屄，湿漉漉的爱液马上沾满手指，我低下头，吐舌探去，轻轻的来回逗弄妈妈最为敏感的肉缝。在我的服伺之下，妈妈边挣扎边娇啼浪叫，雪白的俏臀任不住随着我的舔嗜轻轻摇摆，一上一下的迎接口舌的侵犯。

“啊啊......小伟......啊......啊......妈妈好舒服......儿子......你舔的......啊......真棒......”

敬爱的慈母被我搞得娇喘淫叫，内心前所未有的满足感，为了回馈妈妈这几日无私的奉献与服务，我更加卖力的舔着妈妈的私处，同时大嘴吱吱有声的吸食着妈妈溢出的淫水。

“妈妈，你也要帮忙啊......”摆腰晃臀，用硬挺的鸡巴像在恶作剧似的划弄妈妈的脸，我笑着要求道。

“真拿你这孩子没办法......啊......”妈妈喘叹了一口香气，认命的伸手扶住肉茎，吐着小舌舔嗜龟头来回应我。

此时，我和妈妈当然已经没办法再转头注意屏幕中那对男女的动作了；随着我兴奋的喘息和妈妈阵阵淫浪呻吟，坚持了许久，暴涨的阴茎前端一下一下的在妈妈娇美的脸上射出精液，而妈妈也在我的舔弄下畅美的泄了身，一道道透明黏滑的爱液溅满了我的脸，为我们母子俩人初次的69写下完美的句点。

在MTV的柜台结了帐，不知是错觉还是什么，总觉得那位年轻的柜台小姐望着我和妈妈的表情有些许怪异，害得妈妈羞的急忙拉着我的手离去。

回家路途，傍晚上人潮稀少，整个人似乎放松了不少的妈妈，酥软无骨的靠在我肩膀上。我和妈妈手牵着手，在昏暗的街灯道下行走，互相依偎，享受着情侣间浓情蜜意的气氛。

“嗯......想吃什么？回到家，妈妈给你煮好吃的。”

“哼，妈妈，现在这时候你应该叫我......”

“呵呵，叫你小色狼吧......啊......嘻嘻嘻......好痒啦......”伸手探入妈妈的胳肢窝搔痒，妈妈马上有如惊弓之鸟似的娇笑起来，她投降的抱起我的胳膀，娇声喊道，“别这样......老公......”

“妈妈，我真正想吃的......”

浑身酥麻，我笑着回答妈妈的问题：“是你！”

妈妈风情万种的瞪了我一眼：“想的美哟，小色鬼......”

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aworldforastage · 2 months

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A very subjective recap of my audiodrama journey in 2023 "Year of the Rabbit"

This is entirely based on personal preferences and not at all an objective assessment of quality

If applicable, cast members are listed with the gong first.

"Web Drama/网配" here refers to the free, not-for-profit productions

All AD's are on Mao'er FM (Missevan) unless indicated otherwise.

Favorite Completed Dramas

The Golden Terrance/黄金台 -- (Web Drama/网配)

Jia Xu/贾诩 x Yacejun/雅策君

Three not-for-profit productions of The Golden Terrance launched in 2020, but this is the first and only one to be completed! I'm just so grateful and amazed that so many talented people contributed to make this happen -- all for free! It's not perfect, but it's comparable if not better than for-profit productions at least 90% of the time, and I think it really did this beloved novel justice. Go listen to it!

Famous/In Name Only/有名

Wei Chao/魏超 x Chen Jiaheng/陈家恒

I did not know I needed to hear Lan Wangji's audiodrama VA speak in a southern/canto-style accent, but it has been life-changing.

"Famous" comes with all the bells and whistles you could possibly hope for in a professional, for-profit production. It has eight original songs, tons of little skits and bonus content, wonderful performance and polished post-production. The team brought their own vision to the adaption, leveraging the of creative potential in the audio medium while staying true to the text. If we have to nitpick, I'd say Liang Yu sounds a bit old for a man on the cusp of 30, but Wei Chao's magnetic voice is more than enough to make up for it.

After the Disabled God of War Became My Concubine/残疾战神嫁我为妾后

Shi Zekun/史泽鲲 x Liu Sicen/刘思岑

This is the guilty pleasure personal favorite I have been playing on repeat in the background -- a comforting little sugar pie AD. Objectively speaking, this production has noticeable flaws, from built-in plot holes from the source material to uneven performance and mixing of some minor characters' dialogue. However, I really like the sweet, lighthearted story and the lead voice actors' performance, and we got the entire thing in one season!

“Next season please start tomorrow!"

The Sword Named No Way Out/剑名不奈何

Zhao Yi/赵毅 x Chen Zhang Taikang/陈张太康

I'm very conflicted about this one! This is the first time I really understood the charm of Zhao Yi's voice, but I don't like his character (gong/love interest) or the romantic arc. I am intrigued by the twists in the plot, but we still don't know who is the main conflict halfway into the story, because the novel is just written this way. I'm absolutely charmed by the supporting characters, but I suspect their roles will be reduced in the next season to make way for the the main romance. I really can't get into this novel for some reason, so I'm waiting on the AD to satisfy my curiosity.

"Top flower vase of the mainland entertainment industry"/内娱第一花瓶 -- (Web Drama/网配)

Liu Sicen/刘思岑 x Shang Tong/商桐

This free drama has released 3 stunning seasons since 2021. The screenplay and post-production is a little rough in places, but that's nothing to compared to quality and scale of the output -- the first few episodes of the AD convinced me to commit to reading this 900K words long novel! With free Web Dramas, you can't really guarantee or expect anything. It updated fairly consistently since 2021 but lead CV Liu Sicen currently has an insanely busy lineup of paid projects and likely no time for this. I'm very grateful for the seasons we have had, but I still dream of this AD releasing one more season to at least finish the main story -- and end on a happy note after the reconciliation!!!

Onmyōji/阴阳师 -- (on Manbo & others)

Yuan Mingzhe/袁铭喆 & Zhao Chengchen/赵成晨 [No CP]

Ironically, I think this is the series with the smallest chance of getting a second season, despite its star-studded cast, excellent production, and iconic source material. It sounds great, and I love the main voice actors playing something different from their normal dynamic. However, the series struggle to attract a wide audience as a general/non-BL drama. I'm taking comfort in the fact that the source material is a collection of short stories, so it doesn't feel too incomplete at the end of Season 1.

"well, that ... happened"

A lot of the ADs released in 2023 are said to feel like the work off a "production line"/流水线. It does well enough to maybe satisfy the fans of the source material and fans of the voice actors, but there's not much that's special about it to draw you in if you are not already interested, and is far from realizing the full potential of the story and the AD medium. There were a few shows that I had been very emotionally invested in, but ultimately they were a bit underwhelming.

The Demon Venerable’s Wistful Desire/魔尊他念念不忘

Yuan Mingzhe/袁铭喆 x Ma Zhengyang/马正阳

Probably the most well-received drama out of the three here. The source material -- a comedic xianxia transmigration story -- helped it stand out in field a dominated by modern urban dramas. I didn't find the story to be particularly compelling or innovative as a fantasy/xianxia story, but the voice actors gave solid performances.

Flower Vase/花瓶 -- (on Manbo)

Peng Yao/彭尧 x Liu Sicen/刘思岑

Does anyone still remember this show from last year? Flower Vase is an iconic novel in the scum gong/substitute/crematorium sub-genre, and because it's short and relatively old, there are already two complete free Web Dramas (and more incomplete ones). This work is good, but not enough to make most people willing to listen to this story again or really stand out over the free versions. I liked this one mostly because I was (and still am) in a phase about Liu Sicen's voice.

Morbid Attachment/诟病

Wen Sen/文森 x Yuan Mingzhe/袁铭喆

I'm a fan of Zhe-ge and Wen-laoshi to downright unreasonable degrees and even I have nothing to say about this drama except "it finished." Seriously, you have these two on your cast, in an extremely popular story that features a pop star, and we have like two and a half songs, no duet, and not a single song from YMZ. I still put it on when I want to hear their voices, but it definitely didn't deliver on the potential of one of the most popular stories on Changpei.

"not bad but I had higher hopes "

All of these are based of very popular novels that I read and liked but didn't love, and I ended up feeling the same way about the ADs. It's a coincidence that Taikang has leading roles in all of them.

TGCF/Heaven Official's Blessing/天官赐福 Season 1

Chen Zhang Taikang/陈张太康 x Su Shangqing/苏尚卿

Since the AD is based off the new revised version of TGCF that me (and most people) haven't read, it's hard to tell if the show has completely misinterpreted parts of the novel or if it's just new content. I can't truly dissociated TGCF from the unpleasantness of all the fandom drama, which dampens my enthusiasm for it quite a bit. However, I'm happy enough with both the production and the performance in the 2023 release that I listened to it a few times. But at an emotional level, I'm just not as excited as I expect myself to be for a project of this level of fame and quality.

Swallow the Sea/Tunhai/吞海 Season 2

Zheng Xi/郑希 x Chen Zhang Taikang/陈张太康

It took me a while to realize why I was struggling with Swallow the Sea. It's hard to follow mystery/procedural stories if you are only getting 40 minutes of content once every week -- you would have forgotten everything by the time the new episode airs! I never realized before because I got into AD's late enough that a lot of iconic shows (like Modu and Poyun) have been completed and available for binging. Now I think I'll wait until this one finishes all its seasons.

Thrice Married to Salted Fish/三嫁咸鱼 Season 1

Ma Zhengyang/马正阳 x Chen Zhang Taikang/陈张太康

I felt a bit underwhelmed by the novel when I finished it, and I wouldn't have cared for the AD at all if it weren't a collaboration between Ma-laoshi and Taikang. Ironically, I really love the ending theme, which the audience hated so much the studio had to put out a new mix. Maybe this story is just for people with very different tastes?

Everybody's talking about you

I haven't listened to these yet, but I heard so many good things about these three in the past year.

Qiang Jin Jiu/The Ballad of Sword and Wine/将进酒

Yuan Mingzhe/袁铭喆 x Jiang Guangtao/姜广涛

Does this need an explanation? After its surprise return just before Chinese New Year, the newest (free) episode racked up more plays in a few weeks than entire seasons of some ADs. This is what a real superstar looks like!

But personally, I plan to wait until the series finishes first. I waited for almost two years for Season 4 -- I can wait a bit longer for an indulgent binging experiences.

The Selfish Gene/秉性下等

Shun Zi/顺子 x Sun Lulu/孙路路

This drama has the closest thing I have seen to "universal acclaim" in the AD fandom in 2023. It's one of the few 2023 dramas to break through 10 million play count, beating out many productions with bigger IPs and more popular voice actors.

I definitely want to listen to it, but now I want to wait until I'm in the right mood to really enjoy it.

Stealing The Wind But Not The Moon/偷风不偷月 -- ("Voiced drama"/Audiobook, on Ximalaya)

Sang Yuze/桑毓泽 x Yang Chaoran/杨超然

2023 saw a lot of activity in the 有声剧 area. I think of them like audiobooks because they keep most of the narration, but they are still called "dramas" and the actors still put a lot into their character performances.

This production has been received very well, especially compared to the audiodrama that is currently airing on Mao'er. I held back on the AD because of this, even though I have been very excited about a Liu Sicen x Shun Zi collaboration. However, I'm not sure I want to get into a new platform for this, even though it definitely put Ximalaya on my radar.

I'm waiting to see how it goes ....

Some series are off to a strong start, but there's still a long way to the end ...

I Became a God in a Horror Game/我在惊悚游戏里封神 (Season 2/?)

Shun Zi/顺子 x Dao Mei Si Le/倒霉死勒

Season 1 have play counts that can rival TGCF, and Season 2 seems to be starting off strong after arriving at the end of 2023. The hype alone has gotten my interest, but then I realized it would take probably 10 seasons to finish this novel, so I think I'll wait a bit first ...

The Reincarnated Minister/再世权臣 (Season 1/ ?)

six people x Dao Mei Si Le/倒霉死勒 [NP]

I heard the plot of this novel is actually quite good, and I am really impressed with the quality of the free episodes. However, this novel is looooong, and I'm not sure I will enjoy the NP outcome in the end. But if they can keep up the good work for a few more seasons (lol years?), maybe I could be tempted into getting into this.

A Clear and Muddy Loss of Love/泾渭无间 (Season 1/?)

Hao Tian/浩天 x Xu Xia 徐佳琦

Unlike the other two, I followed Season 1 of this one as it released.

GL deserves more love, but I'm not very optimistic about this drama carrying through to a satisfying conclusion in a timely manner. A novel of this length would normally take 4-5 seasons on Mao'er, but its stats are not encouraging. In the final of episode of Season 1, they did that ridiculous montage that rushed through so many things, probably trying to save on costs. I understand GL has a smaller fanbase than BL, but it's still disheartening to see one of its biggest IPs being handled liked this ...

A Special nod to a few web dramas

The amazing labors of love we get to enjoy for free.

"Spoil"/作践 (Web Drama/网配, completed)

Zhao Chengchen/赵成晨 x Gu Chen/顾辰

(2021-2022, 12 episodes + 1 extra). I only listened to the first four episodes, which prompted me to read the novel, but then I found it a bit too dark for me to want to revisit AD. That being said, I am very impressed with the episodes I heard, especially the screenplay. I didn't feel lost at all even before I read the novel. It set up some complex scenes and conflicts very clearly, better than many for-profit dramas imo.

The Golden Terrance/黄金台 (Web Drama/网配, in progress)

Xu Xu Dian Deng/续续点灯 x HolyNight

(2020-- ?, 7 episodes so far) This drama didn't update in all of 2023. I lost hope when then other version finished, but then they suddenly came back with a long new episode early in 2024! I think this adaption is a bit more abridged than the one that already finished, but fingers crossed that they finish this!

"Dao Zhan Shan He"/ 刀斩山河 (Web Drama/网配, incomplete)

Shang Tong/商桐 x HolyNight [switch CP/verse]

(2020-2022, 6 eps) The production officially ended, which is a real shame because it was pretty good for the parts it covered. I listened to this because I really liked the novel, and it actually encouraged me start exploring the other Web Series that has been abandoned/incomplete, because the good work of the staff and actors deserve to be appreciated even if they didn't have the resources to finish the story.

The most disappointing ....

Mr. Melancholy Wants to Live a Peaceful Life/忧郁先生想过平静生活

Wen Sen/文森 x Sun Lulu/孙路路

I'm disappointed with this drama, but I sort of understand why it came out this way. The novel plays heavily off dramatic irony to carry its humor and suspense, and that is hard to express in audio -- at least, I don't think there is a well-established formula for it. However, I still think it could have done much better to cover the scenes and action in a straightforward manner.

The Return of Cambrian Period/寒武再临

Guo Haoran/郭浩然 x Ma Zhengyang/马正阳

I can understand why "Mr Melancholy" is hard to adapt, but I really, really don't understand why this straight-forward, plot-driven action adventure has turned out so poorly. The episodes are too short and fragmented to engage listeners. A lot of the dialogue could have been edited during adaptation to make it more natural and smooth. Many scenes use music and sound effects that are very cheesy and dated, which almost sounds like an inside joke about the age of the novel that no one wants that at the expense of quality. It's just a long list of little problems that seem incomprehensible for a production that had the budget to hire an all A-list cast.

"Tan Lian"/贪恋

Wen Sen/文森 x Yuan Mingzhe/袁铭喆

My favorite voice actors tackling an original screenplay! I was so excited, but ....

the story is just not good, to the point I'm wondering how did everyone get through making this AD, because it makes so sense as a narrative! If it's a comedy, maybe everyone can at least get some laugh out of it, but it has be a angsty scum gong story. "Confusing and miserable" just don't make an appealing combo.

Final Thoughts

When I first got into danmei in 2022, I mostly listened to the "backlog" of famous productions, and I was really blown away by the quality and variety. 2023 was the first year of me "following" the current releases, and it was a little disheartening tbh. The industry seems to be a at a turning point, experimenting with new people, genres and formats, with varying results. Maybe it will work out better in 2024.

#danmei faves #danmei audiodrama #audio fandom hours

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ayasley · 5 months

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《一通电话》：阿尔弗雷德·潘尼沃斯的自述

有人打过一通电话。一通电话就足够了，只要一通电话，我们的人生就改变了。

我曾经有一个计划：我不打算为韦恩家族奉献终身。我终会回到英格兰退休，也许在茱莉亚家附近购置房产。当我终将离开，步入生命之终焉，我的身边将环绕和我一样“奇怪腔调”的人们，我的灵魂会于祷告里飞入彼端。布鲁斯少爷曾经对我们的口音很感兴趣，在我初次抵达韦恩庄园之时，托马斯老爷带着小小少爷走在铁栅栏旁。我们用力地握手，我立刻注意到那个机灵的男孩并由衷地欣赏。他先是盯着我的手提箱，然后接过了它，不只是为了接待，也是为了好奇。

我记得我喜爱地说：“看起来，小布鲁斯少爷还有许多要学的。”

而布鲁斯少爷用以他的年纪里最讨人喜欢的聪明、礼貌又不太守规矩的调调回应：“我要学的第一样东西就是你奇怪的腔调。”

这是我们的第一次对话，我从未想过人生的玄妙于此而启。

那个包含了我未来退休生活愿景的计划在某一个深夜来电后彻底破灭了。

它关于一个著名的事件，来自G.C.P.D，向我阐述了那个有名的悲剧。在那里，我接到了雨夜中蜷缩在一件过大的外套里惊惧的布鲁斯少爷。在此后数十年岁月里，我明白这通电话不仅改变了有关我的生活、我的少爷的生活，同样改变了这座异国他乡常雨之城的未来。我们在深夜尝试保持大宅常亮多年，且小布鲁斯少爷对祷告与礼拜的兴趣变得越来越淡薄；我知道某种东西在改变，它悄然变化，在成熟的时刻，长绒的蝙蝠终会破茧而出。

为了哄巨大创伤下难以入眠、不愿在睡前晚祷的少爷继续曾经的生活规范，每天收拾床铺的时候，我总是留下一颗薄荷糖。它用小片的透明薄塑料袋装，背面印着“--W--”*和生产日期。第二天清晨，我总会发觉薄荷糖消失了；但我知道少爷没有依照老爷与夫人在世时的要求做祈祷。这是可以谅解的：我的少爷的童年在八岁时便彻彻底底的结束了。

不久后，我们开始为哥谭市其他无辜儿童更长久——起码久于八年——的童年而斗争。事业并不容易，从来都不。在新泽西州，几近半数的重大劣性犯罪来自哥谭。这座听起来像“愚人村”*的都市滋养了无数臭气熏天的黑暗造物，积累的罪孽不胜枚举，如同奥革阿斯的牛圈，粪秽堆积如山，而布鲁斯少爷试图做完成完成“不可能完成的任务”的赫拉克勒斯*。当我意识到我照看长大的小少爷正在成为受刑架上的英雄，我想任何有职业涵养的管家都无法置之不理。是的，我爱茱莉亚和老贾维斯，也爱怜着失去双亲的小布鲁斯·韦恩，那个曾经狡黠灵动的、为我拎手提箱的小男孩。

这便是一通电话所改变的事情。

我开始期待来自通讯器的电话。是的，我们甚至拥有了这些高科技的小玩具，像是军情六处。我开始期待它们，不是因为我喜欢它们。

每当我走在街道上，或是采购接洽、或是物资管理，我看着拥有家庭、朋友，拥有生命的人们，那些如果不是「他」就不会出现在这里的人们。我开始期待来自通讯器的电话，每当听到「他」的声音从线路另一头涌出都是一种解脱。

只要是「他」本人打来电话，那就不是「那通电话」：那通多年前，由G.C.P.D代劳发来噩耗的电话。

我在能睡觉的时候睡觉，在我知道他安全的时候，我才入眠。我定制了特别的保温瓶，尺寸恰好能够放在蝙蝠战机导弹开关之间的空隙里，上面没有印蝙蝠标志，因为它还需要正好卡在董事会会议桌的圆形凹槽里。在我不得不接受布鲁斯少爷短期无法睡觉的时候，它能帮助年轻的城市守护者至少保有基本的进食....流食。我这么做，是因为他是蝙蝠侠，世界需要他；他是蝙蝠侠，他没时间关注琐事——检查钱包与钥匙、推拒晚会邀请、为自己准备咖啡、给蝙蝠车胎打气、校对战机无线电频....他是如此专注于拯救别人，以至于遗忘了自己。他需要别人记住他，作为韦恩家族的管家，我乐意效劳于此。

「我在能睡觉的时候睡觉，在我知道他安全的时候」——绝不是在他任何出门的时间里。从托马斯·韦恩和玛莎·韦恩身上，我学会了在任何韦恩出门在外之际保持待命。

然而，此时此刻，我的意识正在绵长的回忆里沉睡，于回忆长流之中，我又清晰地意识到这一点。我在回想所有的一切：从最初的职业生涯规划、到那通来自戈登警长的电话，到那在主卧阳光下（不得不说，少爷的主卧少有曦色；盖因布鲁斯少爷遵循吸血鬼的人世哲学，总在白日用窗帘拒绝晨曦）被光线折射衬得五彩斑斓的薄荷糖纸。我在意念里奔波，却听到熟悉的通讯提示在震动。我知道，我必须醒来。

那意味着蝙蝠侠在呼叫便士一*。那意味着布鲁斯·韦恩在呼唤他的助手。那意味着我的少爷——我黑头发的男孩——需要我。

职业信念和激烈的念想支撑着我。我开始感受到我的眼皮如蝶翅震动。真奇怪，人们常说：“当你意识到自己在做梦时，你已经醒了。”而这就像第二十二条军规*，显而易见的逻辑陷阱。我需要追寻那振动，我的小英雄该出发为他的天下追觅金羊毛*了。

一盘松饼。

当我彻底将灵魂回拢至肉体，我开始一如既往地用最近一次数枕边薄荷糖的记忆考验自己的思路是否彻底回归，同时，我发现一个托盘被放在床罩上。

这是厨房常用的铁托盘。

我撑起半个身体，昨日战斗的钝痛潜藏在肌肉群中，一旦我开始活动，便恶毒地攻击着我。我看见布鲁斯少爷赤裎上半身，腹部缠着绷带，坐在床头。我先是长长地吐出一口气息，想来梦里的呼叫是布鲁斯少爷现实的动静。

“没事的，你没错过什么，阿尔弗雷德。”我听见孩子这么说道，开始清晨的第一场对话。我终于想起昨日过往，在38号公路44号大道，是莱斯利为少爷包扎，处理了我的眼球与肩膀。我居然比受刺伤的孩子起得更晚，在我开始责难自己前，我发现我的通讯器与电话不翼而飞。

“我又把松饼烤糊了。我曾经用蛛丝马迹瓦解了一个精妙的全球犯罪帝国，但我还是弄不明白怎么烤松饼。”孩子向托盘示意。

“你拿走了我的通讯器和电话。”我指出。

“��的，我不想打扰到你。”他说。

“你觉得怎么样，布鲁斯少爷？”我想起那道恐怖的伤口。每每布鲁斯少爷都能够说出「需要接一下」的时候，情况总是不太好。昨天是黑色警报，而年轻的披风英雄为过多的失血昏迷许久。

“感觉像是字面意义的被捅了。”我观察年轻人的脸色，以免他一贯地在身心健康方面说谎。幸运的是，莱斯利是个好医生。我的孩子看起来面庞苍白，但恢复良好；他没有刮胡子——他当然没有，他是蝙蝠侠；但我确信布鲁斯少爷刚刚流露出来有限的笑意。我听见少爷继续说：“得留你自己休息了，我应该离开了。”

我的神经再次紧绷起来。

“巡逻时间吗，先生？”

“是的。”

“您会打电话吗？”我尝试。

“不。”

噢，显然不。他收走了我的通讯器和电话，在这种时候——在任何一个韦恩需要外出行动的时候，我最需要的就是我的通讯设备。我顿了顿，以某种多年来「我们需要谈谈」的腔调开口：

“如果您指望我会在床上呆着，不知道您的....”

“....阿尔弗雷德。”我的发言被打断了，我决定倾听。以韦恩家族管家的素养。“我不会走的。”

“什么？”

“我理解如果我在外面你是无法放松的。而且我的腹肌上有几英寸的金属撕裂伤，肾也被刺穿了，现在不方便走动。所以我让卡珊德拉和杜克替我巡逻。”

噢....

“这可真不寻常地合理，先生。”他甚至知道自己什么时候「不方便走动」。

“今天我不想让你担心。”

“真的？那今天为什么特殊呢？”我提起了兴趣。再次观察布鲁斯少爷的行为举止，我看着他起身并走向门边。在拧开把手前，他微微转过身子，这次露出了普世意义的、任何无需苦心孤诣研读「蝙蝠语言」的人类能够辨识出来的微笑。我听见他柔和地——这个更加不同寻常——用往往是布鲁斯在宴会上以某种伪装身份需求的温软的声音回复：

“好好休息，阿尔弗雷德。”

他开门，以忍者的习惯轻轻地走了出去。我知道那个声线这回不是某种伪装，我分辨得出来。

这是我所不习惯的场景。通常情况下，往往看着另一个人的离开的背影的人是管家，而非主人。我环顾我熟知的房间，这个点事实上是整理家庭事务的工作时间，这使我由衷地忧心那些多功能腰带格是否有人补充道具、蝙蝠镖是否有在清点数量（而记录本在我这里），换洗披风是否有在检查、修补与熨烫。我知道如果我去寻找，我总能找到我的通讯设施，对于这个宅邸没有人能更加熟悉，即使是暗夜骑士也无法在这方面超越他的管家。

但在此之前，更重要的，我需要先享用孩子烹饪的松饼。

我慢慢靠近那个托盘，打开盖子，拾起里面唯一一块松饼：它看起来宛如经历过无数次失败的洗礼，从兄弟胞妹们中脱颖而出，将将成为尚且能吃的那一小块。我弓着背坐在床沿上，感受着肩颈沉淀的疼痛，珍而重之地品尝那块松饼。

我的房间装修崇尚极简，这也是韦恩家族管家历届应有的装潢，家具几乎都是木制品。我的神思飘忽，看着远处木桌上安放的木相框。我突然意识到了今天是什么日子。

我天才的大脑——请允许我这样说，不是一种自傲，而是黑暗骑士确实需要一个聪明的助理和天才的头脑——能够处理追踪器和远程操作系统协助蝙蝠侠精准降落在任何他需要的街区，但我忽略了一个显而易见的、大众的常识。

我感到我的眼球在颤动着发酸。

二十几年前，当一个黑头发、蓝眼睛的小男孩陷在他过于宽敞的大床上，因景触情，在节日的夜晚蜷缩在被子里，用脑海反复绘慰风木之思时，我曾经为他讲过查拉图什特拉*的故事：

“....一个人是可以使千万年的历史生色的——也就是说，一个充实的、雄厚的、伟大的、完全的人，要胜过无数残缺不全、鸡毛蒜皮的人....”我念着来自家族藏书室的书，发现我可怜的孩子早已神游天外。这并非意味着我的孩子不好学，也许我的少爷早已通悉这其中哲理。我只是不想让他在又一个特殊的节日孤单地独自坐在床上晚祷，于可悲的祷文里请求神明使双亲回归人间：我和我早熟的孩子都知道那是无望的追思。“....布鲁斯少爷？”

男孩茫然地回过头。他聪颖的小脑袋瓜不知道在转动些什么。

“今天是父亲节，阿尔弗雷德。”

“今天是父亲节，少爷。”

我叹息着收起尼采的大部头，一如既往地，朝小小的少爷柔软的掌心里塞入一颗薄荷糖。

时光彼端的如今，同样的日子里，我发现托盘远处同样躺着一颗薄荷糖。

我颤抖着拿起它。熟悉的糖纸，每天的日常，背面印着“--W--”图案。

那一年的深夜是怎样结束的？

我抚摸孩子柔顺的发丝，通常情况下，作为管家我不会这么做；但他....布鲁斯少爷，他难得地在他该睡觉的点陷入沉眠，而他目前只有十一岁。我悄悄地熄灭主灯，为父母离世后绝望着渴望光明的孩子留下他熟悉的灯。我说：节日快乐，布鲁斯少爷。

也许是幻觉，也许是某种感情作祟，也许是某种穿越了苦痛与时光长河的力量。我仿佛在深夜的宏伟的大宅里也听见沉睡的少爷回应道：

节日快乐，阿尔弗雷德。

*注释*（为非英语母语者或者非欧美文化下读者而注释，如果你生活在英语母语国家且在欧美文化体系内长大，甚至还恰好能读懂中文小说看到了这里，接下来的内容你就可以不用看了）：

①“--W--”是韦恩集团LOGO。

②“哥谭市”谐音“愚人村”。

③赫拉克勒斯是是古希腊神话中的最伟大的英雄之一。为了赎罪，他需要完成12项“不可能完成”的任务，其中一项是为奥革阿斯打扫牛圈。奥革阿斯是海神的儿子、厄利斯的国王，他养了无数的牛，粪秽堆积如山，该牛圈在后世常常被比喻为累积成堆或肮脏腐败的难以解决的问题。

④“便士一”是阿尔弗雷德的姓氏“潘尼沃斯”的谐音。

⑤第二十二条军规的典故：“如果你能证明自己发疯，那就说明你没疯”。源出美国作家约瑟夫.赫勒1961年根据自己在第二次世界大战中的亲身经历创作的黑色幽默小说《第二十二条军规》。这部小说太有影响了，以至于在当代美语中，“第二十二条军规”已作为一个独立的单词，使用频率极高，用来形容任何自相矛盾、不合逻辑的规定或条件所造成的无法摆脱的困境、难以逾越的障碍，表示人们处于左右为难的境地，或者是一件事陷入了死循环，或者跌进逻辑陷阱等等。

⑥希腊神话故事中“金羊毛”被看作稀世珍宝，很久以来，希腊人对它传说纷纷。许多英雄和君王都想得到它。金羊毛，不仅象征着财富，还象征着冒险和不屈不挠的意志，象征着理想和对幸福的追求。

⑦“查拉图什特拉”出自尼采《查拉图什特拉如是说》。

故事情节出自《蝙蝠侠V3》年刊3，很感人的小故事。

第一次读这卷漫画时我哭得眼泪都流干了，所以很想写一写这个情节中阿尔弗雷德·潘尼沃斯第一视角下的自述。

这卷漫画真的很感人！如果您还没看，又恰巧喜欢布鲁斯和他的管家的话，强烈推荐您阅读它。:)

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卑微到骨子（深圳的爱）

在深圳城，我对你的爱卑微到骨子里

流水线的工人，有留不下的城

和回不去的家，他们称我为打螺丝的人

我从遥远山区来，睡过天桥

住在廉价的出租房，饿了等着外卖小哥

衣服破了就等着快递上门

像蝼蚁一样穿梭在别人的高楼大厦间

这便耗尽了我青春，耗尽我的一生

在这城里，大大小小的机遇如彩票

互联网，虚拟币，没有一个为我准备

颠簸离乡路，故乡人也嫁为人妇

我却天涯无尽，归乡无期

流水线的工人，打螺丝，进厂

在深圳城，对你的爱卑微到骨子里

每每深夜里，总拾起孤独的枪

却找不到一个，愿把我视为敌人的对手

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远方的谋生者

神色异常的大街

路人衣衫不整，穿着拖鞋蹒跚

在马路中不知道避让汽车，向全副武装的白衣人张口

他们把他们新生的孩子叫做疫生

窗外的荔枝树下

猫陷入一种寂静，传说的死亡墓地里

微风吹过你的面颊

在夜里寻找，你的双眼和二月薪资一样单薄

买菜，做饭，隔离，做核酸

日子无数，你把自由交给明天

被未知恐惧宣判，年轻的意志被时光消磨

心存理想的异乡人啊

你在东莞的某个旧旅馆中安生

在疫情中，面包和自由无处可依

历史向前，滚动着谋生者的意志

明天过后，日子仍然要过，房租仍然要交

大街上广播的大喇叭也仍旧要来

唯有青春，一去不再复回

—杨东泽2022年03月11日于东莞大朗

本不相识的人

—华为溪流背坡村欧洲小镇记

我不愿以爱之名

绑架一个流入迷途的心

本不相识的人，有时我很爱你

有时我也不那么宠你

我驾着你想象的灵魂去追寻着自由

穿省过市，在偏远小镇里放歌

常常用你的名义叫醒老街道的黎明

机翼突破云层，今日，我又来到松山湖

带着你的希望，在溪流背坡村

乘着红色的小火车，在风雨里依然如旧

穿棱在巴黎和海德尔堡间，常常过康桥

到布鲁日与牛津去闲逛

在勃艮第喝咖啡

在克伦诺夫花园里荡秋千

吃最多的猪脚饭，看最大的蜗牛

在欧洲小镇，在大郎镇，在大岭山

我来时从不拨弄衣袋

去时，也不曾在荔枝林里深埋遗物

唯一能做的是，我愿意

能在离开时，从你悲伤的深处

把你的忧伤带走

—杨东泽2021年10月16日于广东东莞松山湖

佛山城记

姑娘，如果我爱你

我将会追寻你的脚步，去到广东

佛山，这个岭南的天地之城

有你最喜欢舞狮，最喜欢钟楼钟声

有你爱喝的千灯湖烈性德国啤酒

姑娘，如果我爱你

我将在每次经过佛山时

给你打来异乡的长途电话，告诉你

你曾经走过的飞鸿路我正在走

你曾经听的粤剧胡不归我正在听

你曾经吃的勿米粥火锅我正在吃

姑娘，今夜我从佛山城过

在龙塘诗社诗会上舞文弄墨

在南风古灶前广场喂着白鸽

在佛罗伦萨小镇喷泉边合着节奏

姑娘，那禅城南海给我的美

我将要用诗歌为你收藏

那祖庙给我的辟佑神牌

我将要加上你的名字

姑娘，今夜我在禅城想你

那渔人码头的霓虹见证我的思念

那顺德逢简水乡的小船带着你温柔

姑娘，我追寻着你的脚步

听你最喜欢的钟楼钟声

唱你最喜欢的粤剧名曲

学你最喜欢的舞狮

但是亲爱的，我深夜里的孤独

伴着我走遍了佛山城的每个角落

飞鸿街，祖庙，南风古灶，佛罗伦萨

千灯湖，都给不了我

你可以给的温柔

——杨东泽2022年01月08日于广东佛山岭南天地

东莞城记

我从广东过

光与影中，与东莞相遇

清澈的爱，迷离的人

他们生在虎门南城，死在南海珠江口

为民族站岗，为人民放风

我不曾想过，在孤独的夜

走过东莞的每个角落

在东江水道上来来回回，摇船

在黄旗山上放声高歌，迷雾

东莞，你给我的

我将会带到世界播散

你给不了的，我将尽情在你的土地享受

在下坝坊听着音乐摇摆

在富民街吃着莞式奶茶

寮步，大岭山，长安，塘厦

东莞啊，他们说来到你的土地上

他们是为了爱

但我到你的世界里，却唯独现在为了情

在孤独的夜，我从不曾想过

我会在黄旗山岭上高歌

光与影中，与莞城相遇

虎门大桥下的东莞人

他们生在珠江口，却死在了历史之中

—杨东泽2022年01月15日于东莞南城厚街

深圳城记

我从没有见过螳螂山的夜色

但是我喜欢深圳的风

我从没有去过大梅沙的海滩

但是，我喜欢深圳湾的水

姑娘，我不喜欢别的，我的意思是

我喜欢你的温柔

即使我是住在城中村的人

即使我每天需要挤上罗湖开出的轮渡去往香港谋生

即使我的生活如此残酷，如此冰冷

即使有人告诉我是一个需要被爱的人

但是姑娘，1979年我也是从远方来的人

姑娘，我见过你没有见过的深圳

我来时世界之窗还是一片沼泽

大芬没有你想要的绘画艺术

蛇口码头也还是一处无人知晓的茅地

姑娘，1979年，我的灵魂

还没有把肉体裹挟

说爱别人的话比爱自己的话更多

但是，姑娘，在深圳的车水马龙间

抓住让人害怕，分别却往往留不下祝福

姑娘，我也是从远方来的人

1992年，我还住在白石洲

我从没有见过螳螂山的夜色

也没有去过处处艺术的油画村

但是，姑娘，我最喜欢的

还是你无可替代的温柔

—杨东泽2022年01月25日于广东深圳观澜湖

停摆的春

枯叶纷飞

黄花铃再次开放

一周又一周，停摆的城市里

追求理想的人终日穿街过巷

在铁轨上追寻故乡

说是要在火车上创造灵感

在深圳的街角

他说他有理想、还有艺术

炮仗花高挂检测点篱笆枝头

一月又一月，摇曳在隔离病房的窗外

坐上绿皮火车

他说怎能我看见他口罩后的逝去容颜

枯叶纷飞，黄花铃再次开放

他说他与众不同，他说他要远行

在旅途中把春歌声唱遍大地

去下一站寻找家乡，他说那里有理想

有艺术，有山峰，也有自由

枯叶纷飞

黄花铃再次开放

他说他有理想

他说他要在铁轨上寻找家乡

——杨东泽2022年03月15日于广东东莞大朗

黄风铃

微风吹动枯叶

黄风铃，在湖岸边摇动

曾在松山湖边祈祷

心爱的人，请勿在旅途中迷失

你是百木丛中的一点黄

也是我我心中的一点痛

一夜间你吹落了枯叶

一念中你吹动了枝头

我曾经在你的花冠下求爱

我曾经在你绿叶下避雨

黄风铃，你尽情地卖弄你的妖艳

人民的苦难，你可以装作不知

历经冬的山芋抵不住春天的风

开着硬派越野姑娘也要一次次地洗劫黑夜

黄风铃，她，消失在花丛中

她把你的黄，遗失在了旅途

—杨东泽2022年03月19日于广东

三十岁

我喜欢杭州

我喜欢三十岁的女人

她在黄浦江边的沼泽地里长大，浦东

她的童年被一座座摩天大楼暗杀

三十岁的女人，住在江嘴村

出门是钱塘江，开窗便可以与湘湖相遇

三十岁，开着她的宝马三系

她在芝江绿道边规划未来

三十岁，生活，父母的意志和理想的追求

她在西湖边结婚，离婚，然后与爱人相恋

年复一年，三十岁的女人

我对你的爱，如杭州城里的樱花期待春风

三十岁，向诗人寻求未来

你具有其他人不具有的勇气

金钱，占有，安稳，依赖

诗人的未来如在大地上的风，四处游荡

三十岁，我是一个贫穷的人

不善于在平淡的爱情中存储甜言蜜语

爱情这东西，吃多了会让人厌

离开了，却又让人止不住的念

——杨东泽2022年03月19日于广东

汕尾城记

茫茫南海，一个人的记忆

在迷雾中迷失，是谁让章鱼游上了岸

又是谁看到了他走过的志向

海虾，血蛎，螃蟹，今日空船而归

写下的诗，走过的路，爱过的人

带上一切，明日便又从海湾出发

打渔人，从未停下过与夕阳的交易

一日四季，月月在浪尾上飘泊

翻过雪山，白日在沙漠里打滚

晚上便在草原上乱窜

汕尾的夜里，寻找着

码头上的海货，寻找着排档里的生腌

茫茫南海边，白色沙滩，无边无际

你我在天际线上行走

渴了就喝凉茶，到海湾处，饿了就吃咸饼

——杨东泽2022年05月29日于广东汕尾保利

惠州城里的约定

看三千里绿水

我从西枝江来，又沿东江而去

那西湖里的静默。

是与垂柳的前世的依依相守

罗浮山里，前世我们心心相印

约定，在西湖边等那个人

约定，在古城边等那首诗

如今，我在石桥下，我在古城边

在水东街，在文笔塔

静静地等，默默的念，坠入了梦

梦里花落，今夜，诗人已到岭南

我将城门洞开，张灯结彩

高榜山下，惠州城里，红花湖边

我在在高楼上备下那客家酒菜

为他接风，也为我送葬

——杨东泽2022年05月30日于广东惠州平湖

大鹏所城记

搜山检海，阳光，沙滩，海湾

在弯延曲折的山路上飙车

南海边的医生，不再向更深的水域

一个拿着手术刀，见惯生死的人

始终战胜不了内心的恐惧

在大鹏所城的咖啡馆

灯光昏暗，海浪醒忪，一只蚊子

误闯了天下，几个瑜伽人的体式生硬地

倒挂在将军府的牌匾

人，见惯了别人的死

却仍执念着自己的生

一壶桃花酿，几块青石板道

落地窗内家乡的过去

就足以收买我们的彼此手掌

生命线很长，你说你可以长命百岁

而我感情分叉，最终可能独守空房

搜山检海，在弯延曲折的大鹏半岛

灯光昏暗，海浪醒忪，我们

见惯了别人的生死，收买彼此的手掌

一壶桃花酿，几块青石板

你说你可以长命百岁，而我最终可能独守空房

—杨东泽2022年05月28日于广东深圳大鹏所城

交际花（打工人）

在深圳，却不是深圳人

失去土地，告别家乡

漂亮的乡下女人收拾行囊

踏上养活自己的南下打工之路

酒肉林池，贪财好色，

城里的人为她争风吃醋

律师、医生

忙忙碌碌的体育教练

他们刷着她孤独寂寞的朋友圈

吃着她做的饭

身边全是男人的人

社区里的交际花

若为情人会让心生无比的嫉妒

若为朋友，她却是打开城市男人的阀门

丑陋，罪恶，相恨相杀

男人们色欲、贪欲、占有欲

女人们的嫉妒、复仇、侦探般的防线

在深圳，漂亮的女人慢慢老去

收拾行囊，回到家乡

向法庭提起诉讼，为了城市里的包养

她愿意抛夫弃子，到大城市里

过着足不出户的生活

——杨东泽2022年09月16日于广东东莞松山湖

观澜湖

浅浅的海湾池塘

孩子灿烂的微笑透着善良

你期待的眼睛

对我的一无所有目不转睛

我的存在就是

我的价值的低估

她的声音在说着

对我未来的一切否认

我裂心力竭眼盯未来

欲用心灵的低吟

召唤世界的主宰

你却用全世界的解脱

迸裂着梦的欢乐

五月的太阳晒着

为梦想奔忙的人儿

网球场边上的水壶

唱着欢快的曲调

晚霞映衬着观澜公园七彩风车

轻风浮过的沙沙声

伴随我心灵破灭

摩天轮孤独地守望远方高球场

远归的孤鸿向远方传递情愫

不要在爱的草原梦境中回复

你还爱我

—2018-5-20于深圳观澜湖网球场打球有感

白石洲

失去了生命的春

追求理想的青年

在羊城伤心的游荡

天如太阳般为世界带来烈焰

是到了我说话

的时候了

我们的分离并不是因为我们的无知

自认为有所知才是我们的裂痕

所以我们各自只能属于天空

世界之窗乌光的屋顶上

你和江泽民题字一样久远

在将来的一天

当我跪在你的坟头

向你哭诉自然的不公

你是否会在天堂诵读我赠予你的诗文

我幻想过不止一次

你我在浅浅海湾向日而行追逐心灵的交融

可是枯萎的日子啊

你是否能够和我的愚昧一起

用心追随着爱情的梦想

即使你我百孔千疮

—2018-5-11于深圳世界之窗

未完之诗 I 忘却

十一点一刻

航班停留于宝安机场

机翼划过欢乐的海风

珠江海岸远方的黑夜

守候一个从沪都到访的心灵

那颗期待的心

在微信上一再催促

用一首短暂的诗歌

证明他尚未离去

因为它的美丽

深圳

—2018年4月12于深圳龙岗横岗

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