#🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯

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kinda going through it rn,,,,,

#oh to fall in love with someone who has never even existed and will never truely know how much I love them... #🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #selfproship #proselfship #proship selfship #selfship proship #selfship #selfshipping #tw gore #tw violence #tw vent #ask to tag.

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If my f/o's don't magically show up on my doorstep this valentines day I'm gonna riot /hj

#Valentines day always hurts a bit for me cause thats when i yearn the most #and when I yearn i realized that my f/o's will never know how much i truely love them #and I'll never what it's like to feel them love me just as much #It hurts alot but its hard not to think about #🍯💖syrup talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #romantic f/o #proselfship #selfproship #proship selfship #selfship proship #selfship #selfshipping #tw vent #tw valentines day #ask to tag.

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I wanna update my f/o lists but also that would involve putting some embarrassing/weird f/o's on there and just hgngmghgng i survive off the approval of others so my brain can't handle embarrassment :(

#🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #proselfship #selfproship #proship selfship #selfship proship #selfship #selfshipping #ask to tag.

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Me, everytime I get a new problematic f/o: I feel so bad for liking them cause they’re so unbeleivably problematic and I’d get so much shit for romantically liking them. Like I know they’re completely fictional but still, they’re jsut such a problematic character

Also me, f/oing multiple different characters that are just as problematic if not more problematic, making my s/i a shota/shotabait, and making my s/i biologically related to a good few of my romantic f/o’s: Feeling fucking silly rn. Just in a silly goofy mood, yaknow? Some silly goofy fun with fiction

#it may take me a moment to be open about this new fictional crush #but i will say right now #he is one of those characters that was made problematic ON PURPOSE #so really its borderlining it #the character has also canonly said slurs im pretty sure so again #i'm really fucking pushing the limits of what characters its ok to like in fiction #🍯💖unnamed ship💖🍯 #🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #proselfship #selfproship #proship selfship #selfship proship #proship #proshipping #shipcest #age gap ship #tw shipcest #tw age gap #ask to tag.

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you ever find out that the person who created your f/o's source is (probably) an anti and you just end up dying a little inside cause now you feel too nervous to post about said f/o's, even if the posts aren't in the main tag? /rt

just me? ok

#it doesn't help that I refuse to make my s/i any older than 16 #it also doesn't help that said creator has a tumblr account #🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #tw ventish #ask to tag.

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I hope my f/o's would still love me even though I'm a useless dumbass failure

#sorry i'm having a mental breakdown over my grades #give me a moment I should be fine once i die :) #🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖gushing💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #proselfship #selfproship #proship selfship #selfship proship #selfship #selfshipping #tw vent #tw negativity #ask to tag.

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Me, happily writeing about my f/o’s dying in horrific ways as well as being in a killing game: :) good fic, i like that in my fics :)

also me, when I see anything about my f/o’s dying in canon/in someone elses fanfic: WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WT-

#I think its mainly because when i write a fanfic about my f/o dying #I'm the one who chose to make them die so of course my brain feels alright with that #cause if I write it its cause thats what i wanted #but if anyone besides me causes my f/o to die #its extremely upsetting cause it wasn't in my control #and thus not something I wanted to happen #idk its weird #🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #proselfship #selfproship #tw vent #tw character death #ask to tag.

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Me: *Remembers about a situation involving an extremely toxic ex-friend who literally traumatized me*

me: yaknow what it feels like my brain is melting but i’ll probably recover

my friend, with good intent: *hands me some extremely unfortunate information about the creator/voice actor of one of my f/o’s*

Me: i am no longer able to recover, its one thing after another aint it-

#im in severe distress #on this fine morning #like im glad they told me #but god at least wait until i recover from the first minf fuck please /nm /lh #🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #proship #proshipping #tw vent #tw implied suicide #tw discourse #ask to tag.

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New dilemma discovered!: I hate this characters guts with a burning passion cause they’ve hurt many of the characters that I like and they’re just an over all peice of shit.

but at the same time whenever i look at fanart of him my brain immediately goes “THATS MY DAD!!!!” and its stressing me out cause I hate this character, he’s absolutely awful, but at the same time,,,,,,, I kinda want him to be my dad cause I think he’d at least try to be a good dad. So now i’m just emotionally stuck,,,,

and then I had an idea, what if upon adopting my s/i, they were gonna raise my s/i to be evil to, but upon actually gaining attachment to them, he goes “I, kinda don’t wanna be evil anymore.... i kinda wanna set a good example for my new kid.” so its kinda like, they used to be evil, but because they wanna be a good parent, they’re trying to better themself, even if its hard for them.

but like yeah,,,, does anyone else experience that? where theres a character in the fandom that literally everyone hates so you feel you should hate them too, but instead you get an attachment to them in someway? cause I hate it it fucking sucks

#honestly with how much the character is hated on in the fandom #i don't even wanna say their name #i just think they'd ironically be a good dad #idk its like i'm trying to force myself to hate them cause literally every person i nteh fandom does #but i just #idk I don't have the ability to hate a character unless they have like no redeeming qualities #🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #familial f/o #proselfship #selfproship #proship selfship #selfship proship #selfship #selfshipping #tw vent #tw long post #ask to tag.

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hey would my f/o’s still love me even though I’m a narcissist/have npd? cause like, someone i thought was safe to follow just reblogged a shitton of pro-narc abuse shit onto my dash so now i’m triggered as fuck and need some comfort or whatever cause i feel like my f/o’s would assume i’m an abusive peice of shit cause im a narcissist and most people like to assume that every single fucking narcissit is abusive by default

#it wasn't even anything that bad #just narcissist being used as a synonym for abusive #but still #and what struck me as odd was just #the person who was spreading the narc abuse stuff also had a cluster-B disorder which just BAFFLED me #cause like... aren't we suppose to be on the same team? #we're literally in the same group full of equally stigmatized disorders #like what the actual fuck #🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #proselfship #selfproship #proship selfship #selfship proship #selfship art #selfshipping #tw ableism #tw vent #ask to tag.

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I just read a fic where Yin-Yang dies in a horrific and morbid way and now I feel like I’m gonna vomit from how upset I am :(. Why do I do this to myself

#I can write and draw my f/o dying #but god forbid I read about it #God I wish they were here so I could cuddle them #I really need it #🍯💖2-in-1 boyfriend💖🍯 #🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #romantic f/o #proselfship #selfproship #proship selfship #selfship proship #tw vent #tw fictional death #ask to tag.

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I found a new character I have a crush on but He's literally a character with barely anything known about them cause they only appear once in the series and they're in severe distress in said appearance and i'm just ｡･ﾟﾟ(>д<)ﾟﾟ･｡

#for context the character is Mephone3gs from II #and i've only seen literally the only actual clip of him and I just kjhgjfvhk #I wnat to see them happy but the only clip that exists of them is them in severe distress #whyyyyyyyyyyy #my heeeaaaart i just want to see them smile #🍯💖unnamed ship💖🍯 #🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #romantic f/o #proselfship #selfproship #proship selfship #selfship proship #ask to tag.

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soooo,,,, I recently got a new fictional crush I think, but I’m too afraid to selfship with them cause i’m like, 17 and they’re like, 7-8 years younger than me and like, idk I just know that If I wasn’t getting harrassed over my selfships now, i’d definately get harrassed over this one

#i would age them up but I feel very weird changing the canon ages of my f/o's unless its for an au #I mean idk why i'm afraid I literally f/o luke from OM #but even then that was kinda different for me cause like angels age differently then humans #idk maybe i'm just dumb /j #🍯💖Unnamed Ship💖🍯 #🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #kinda #romantic f/o #proselfship #selfproship #proship selfship #selfship proship #age gap ship #tw age gap #ask to tag.

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I hope dis does not seem like a bother but could I maybe,,,, get some f/o notes please? I would prefer my parent f/o's specifically, but any f/o's would work,,,, thank you,,,, /nf

#My mom just did something very gross to me and just uogh /neg #🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #f/o notes #selfproship #proselfship #selfship proship #proship selfship #selfship #selfshipping #tw vent #ask to tag

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Mmmm feeling physcially and mentally unwell due to reason™, gonna try to make f/o comfort stuff for myself but idk,,,,,

#currently not even entire upfront #might end up leaving front altogether btu yaknow #I just need something to comfort myself and usually I'm the one who has to create that comfort #🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #tw vent #ask to tag.

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I keep seeing Airy hate on my tiktok fyp,,,, bleg

#it's making me sad #like there are so many people who post positive Airy content #but I onyl get the people who post negative shit like wtf #It's mainly memes about his death so ig i can't really call it 'negativity' #but it still upsets me alot cause i care him #🍯💖Heirloom💖🍯 #🍯💖syrups talks💖🍯 #🍯💖syrup vents💖🍯 #romantic f/o #proselfship #selfproship #proship selfship #selfship proship #selfship headcanons #selfshipping #ask to tag.