#( bc he likes people that are powerful i guess )

[transmasccofee]

thinking yet again about Saiki‘s’s final choice in the series being “I’d rather live with my powers than die without them” bc that is seriously the single best ending of a disability narrative I’ve seen. Fuck.

#The thing people don’t tell u about being physically disabled #Is that you’ll see the physically abled people in your life start to view you as something tragic #And while they rarely say it when it comes down to things #They think you’re better dead than disabled. That you’d be happier put out of your misery. #Even with stories involving disabled characters (If we’re anything beyond a background diversity shot which is… rare) #It’s about “curing” or “overcoming” your disability which is I guess a nice sentiment but most of us won’t ever do that #Saiki doesn’t do either of those things #He wants to be cured and briefly thinks he is but then it’s discovered that he Cant be cured bc his powers are part of the whole of him #He doesn’t ever overcome them either #He just puts his glasses back on and decides that if it means he can live another day then he’ll continue to deal with them #And his powers are progressive #And that’s a thing weighing on him but it’s never treated like a death sentence #It’s just something he has to and will deal with #And it sucks but what else is he gonna do #It’s just. Aughhhhh. Aaaaaauuuuughhhhhhhhh…….. #This post was brought to u by a man grieving his own mobility #physically disabled #physical disability #saiki k

[ingo-ingoing-ingone]

So for spooky season (my favorite season) I wanna write more Ghostmmet oneshots, or at least one or two other ones! I have several ideas lol

But I also wanna write a noncanon crossover with ABYS, where instead of being found in time in ABYS, Emmet dies and becomes a ghost and things get real crazy around the station for a while.

Would people be interested in that, or do y'all think it would be too much? I have. Several ideas, and I think it would be so fun to focus on the spooky horror aspect. Something something a violent end leads to a violent awakening, classic haunting shit, stuff like that. More info in the tags of this post :)

I'd say it would still come to the same conclusion as like. He Trusts You.

But I don't know! Tell me what you think, preferably in comments of this post instead of in separate asks :) Thank you guys preemptively for feedback!

#submas #submas angst #submas conjoined au #i wanna write ghosts sooooooo bad guys you have no idea #also yes emmet is still emmet #just. coming back into the world after experiencing the hell emmet did before he died is hard! #that's what i mean by 'violent' #not like 'hurts people' but like #'very powerful negative experience' #also maybe i just wanna make some lightbulbs explode ya know? #and yeah like. he's half a guy he's gonna look pretty scary #ALSO I FORGOT TO SAY IT WOULD BE SOMEWHAT VISCERAL BC LIKE. HE IS HALF A GUY HIS EVERYTHING IS OUT. THAT IS ALL #do i give away all my ideas before people can read them? maybe so #but idk i like input and warning people more than i like being secretive i guess! #i hope you still like what i make lmao #also this and the other ghostmmet fic are gonna have some similar positive interactions bc they make me go feral thank you goodnight

[morninkim]

Rise of the Mighty Morphin Power Rangers - "Mask of the Masked Rider"

Prince Dex of Edenoi was given the powers of the Masked Rider by his dying grandfather, King Lexian, following a devastating final assault on Edenoi's capital by the evil Count Dregon. With Edenoi's defenses crippled, Dregon set his sights on Earth. Dex soon followed, teaming up with the Power Rangers and forming a strong alliance with them, counting them as some of his first and closest friends.

Dex's past is riddled in tragedy, Edenoi having been under constant siege since before he was born. His planet made for an easy target, as most of the population were pacifists, save for the Masked Rider Warriors that stood guard against incursions. Sadly, they were all wiped out in Dregon's final attack, leaving only Dex and his Ectophase Activator as the last remnants of the Rider Warriors.

Around the Rangers, Dex says everything extremely deadpan, making it hard to tell whether or not he's joking, but he will soon clarify with an equally deadpan "That was a joke." or "Was that not funny?"

He comes into inadvertant conflict with Tommy as she starts to worry about him replacing her on the team, threatened by the "newer and cooler green guy". The two soon reconcile as Tommy apologises for projecting onto him, with Dex saying that, as someone who also had never had friends before now, it's understandable that she would be worried about losing them again.

#rotmmpr #power rangers #mmpr #masked rider #kamen rider #dex stewart #OKAY im glad i got this one out of my system #three guesses who i was thinking of while designing dex's civilian form lmaoo #dex is one of my fav bits of rise bc i think he's one of the most clever and dumb jokes i could think of that ALSO moves things forward #essentially he's a meta joke about people considering rider to be more ''mature'' than sentai or pr even though it has the same target demo #+ a purposeful and comedic over-correction on the original saban's masked rider since that show ended up being more of a sitcom than even p #while ALSO referencing the fact that kamen rider black got an adult-oriented reboot last year #plus i just thought ''mask of the masked rider'' was a silly subtitle for the mini-arc he'd appear in #his suit is also deliberately designed to be a lil more complex and ''modern superhero design'' than the rangers' suits #to contrast against them and match his like. different tone than them #but ye. he's very much tied into tommy's arc on the team where they both have the sort of. tendency to just say shit #that they think is completely normal. but is so deeply fucked up to everyone around them #obvs dex to a much more extreme degree since he's a victim of actual genocide lmao #and both he and tommy learn how to work in a team over the course of the masked rider arc #i also imagine tommy would have a lil dream sequence where she imagines dex replacing her as the green ranger #and he morphs into a form that looks kinda like kamen rider j or zo #i won't be designing the other masked rider warriors but just know. I AM AMAZON. would be canon.

[relicsongmel]

Your honor my client simply wanted to fuck around and find out

#mel's musings #briefly interrupting my hiatus to leave this here #context: i found a remaster of joking motive with the bw2 soundfont on youtube #and it gave me the absolutely HILARIOUS mental image of raymond shields as colress' defense lawyer #you know. because of the whole ecoterrorism thing (re: freezing an entire city just bc he was curious about kyurem's power) #cause like. there's NO WAY that didn't kill people right #there's no way there weren't some poor folks walking around the streets that got blasted w/ unbreakable ice #(oc tangent: denise nearly died in this attack and has permanent ptsd and aversion to ice/cold in general as a result) #AND YET the dude seemingly suffers no consequences for it. he's still just chilling on team plasma's ship in the postgame #which always made no sense to me because ghetsis and the sages got arrested in bw1 (even if the former escaped) #n's a different story because he was being groomed. but colress has no such excuse #either the pokemon world's justice system is REALLY lax or he had a really good lawyer #and guess what brilliant idea i just had today. i would SO be fleshing this out more if my brain wasn't still eating itself alive #↖️ this user is not normal about raymond shields ace attorney and you best believe she's going to make it everyone's problem #forest for the tree

[lord-squiggletits]

pharma really is such an interesting case. one thing i’ve always felt with pharma is that he absolutely doesn’t want consequences. and facing up to it requires a lot of looking at and showing people what he’s done and you know. the consequences. i mean hell he’d rather start a plague than say “hey i got coerced into doing a very bad thing by the djd”

I do understand what you mean about Pharma not wanting to face consequences, but on the other hand, I kind of understand why Pharma made a plague rather than admit to medical malpractice/murder? Because like, the thing that I don't see brought up often enough with regards to Pharma is that blackmail... is blackmail. Like, as someone who's unfortunately been on the receiving end of blackmail, the entire point of blackmailing someone is that you corner them into doing bad things by convincing them that they CAN'T turn to an authority figure to ask for help. Like, the person doing the blackmailing generally convinces the person who's getting blackmailed that if they try to reach out for help, the law/authorities/etc either won't care about their predicament or will punish them for the bad thing they did that they're getting blackmailed about.

I kind of feel like (and this isn't an attack on you, just a commentary about the nature of blackmail) when someone like Ratchet looks at Pharma and says "but you could've called for help or shut down the clinic or anything!", it kind of ignores the fact that...... when you're being blackmailed you're fucking terrified, and people who are terrified generally don't jump to the most rational, safe solutions possible? When you add in the fact that Pharma was blackmailed by Tarn of the DJD, notorious hater of Autobots and fanatic leader of a torture club, it's not hard to imagine that Pharma was both afraid and in pain (or threat of pain) while at Delphi and thus wouldn't be thinking straight about it.

I don't know, like. Yeah, on one hand Pharma made a plague and killed a bunch of people to try and cover up his crimes and maintain his career. But he didn't just do it for ego related reasons, he was also almost certainly facing threats of torture and death.

#squiggle answers #pharma apologism #i think i'm biased on this issue so anyone can come in here and add their thoughts or correct me #i guess it just bothers me because like. i've kind of been in that situation (not as serious as pharma's) where i didn't ask for help #and when i got in trouble for not asking for help afterwards and instead choosing to lie or go behind someone's back or whatever #it was generally bc i was more afraid of punishment by The People In Charge #than i was afraid of lying or breaking the rules or doing other bad things #and when i got accused (by the people in charge) of seeing myself as above the rules or thinking i was better/smarter than them #it always pissed me off because i was like. bro i didn't lie to you for fun and games i lied to you because i was afraid #that if i asked you for help you would just shun me or get pissed off at me and punish me #also re: the blackmail i was a victim of. the thing about that is it was over something ultimately petty (stupid internet drama) #and i was PROBABLY never in any real danger but like. the issue was that i FELT like i was in danger #fear is powerful. fear of being threatened at any time or having the things you care about taken away is especially powerful #i had nightmares p much once a week for months during the ordeal and still sometimes do now #like idk i really am biased on this matter but like. just bc pharma made the plague to cover up his crimes #doesn't mean that that's the ONLY reason is what i'm saying #when ppl lie and cover up things about that it's not just about ego but about dumb animal terror #and i mean. to get back to the pharma apologism brand. ratchet KNEW pharma was being blackmailed but he fucking ditched him anyways #this is the guy who was supposed to be his bestie of millions of years and he fucking told pharma he was dead to him #and that's the guy who pharma thought would UNDERSTAND. imagine what he thought other autobots would think of him #also i have a theory that tarn probably psychologically tortured pharma by telling him the autobots would just lock him up for his crimes #as a way to get pharma to not tell anyone and keep supplying him cogs. because you know. blackmail

[boxwinebaddie]

i was thinking about you today and hoping that youre doing well! sorry if thats weirdhfjfk. anyways i wanted to wish you well and remind you that self imposed deadlines are not real and i think everyone on here is more than happy to wait as long as needed <3

d'awww!!!! <333 :'}}} nonono! this is so sweet and kind! i'm so...omg

( this touches my heart in a way i cannot explain coherently rn ily )

if i'm honest, i'm finding that going fully into writing and not being able to answer my asks is sort of isolating and makes me sad because i feel like the same way that you all can't really check in on my ( unless you privately dm me ) i can't really check on you either!

( i think i'm gonna sneak back & answer some for stress relief shhh )

so it means a lot to me every time you guys write in and keep me company in the box, haha! i know it's kyle-piling up in there, but i swear i'm getting to them, i have read/enjoyed every single one and all of your deranged thoughts, big or small, make my day so lovely :)

also as we know i am working on my self confidence, so when you guys pop in, it's exciting for me because i'm glad you still care rip!!!

i know that its been a while, but i'm glad it's worth it for...ncu!style?

( i chatted a lot abt how i'm feeling abt writing rn! you don't have to peak if you don't want to hear me squeak on forever! but i'm processing a lot which is nice <3 )

you are all seriously so sweet and kind to me; i could not ask for better readers and human beings scattered around the world. <3 for all of you, i promise to be gentler to myself...i think i will feel much better when rm6 ( or, idk, sigh, part of it...ig ) comes out.

( btw no deadlines i promise!!! just ansty to post bc i'm v tired

and excited!!! more excited than tired!!!! )

BUT--

what i fear is happening ( and what i'm understanding ), is that because it all plays in my head like a movie which goes by way quicker than writing, i over-estimate how much can plausibly fit in a chapter upload...it becomes a list of things/scenes/dialogue so long that it's almost impossible for me to finish...and then i get stressed out/panic/get burnt out and never finish.

( aka something i assumed would fit into like 11k bc it's just blank lines of dialogue...actually ends up being 20k-30k with words fml )

so for my sake ( and possibly all of yours ), i'm thinking of maybe writing smaller updates...which will be more manageable for me than committing to months worth of work. they might flow less well, but that way you guys get content, i feel happy that i could post something/share stuff with you, my chest feels lighter. which is not to say the quality will be worse...it'll just be less daunting for me?

a lot of my stress unfortunately comes to sitting on all this writing and lore and not being able to post it until im Done...so i'm hoping that shorter chaps plus the relaxed formatting...and doing nice ask memes w/ breaks will really make me less stressed!

and i hope you too! ajhashdlsd thank you for checking on me! i also want to get something for pep out soon...even if its just posting a weird snippet of...whatever i have and spoonfeeding you all your cherry nyquil slowly but in pieces i can manage...seems better?

but tldr: thank you for checking! i'm okay! i just want to post my update/s because seeing them in my drafts is daunting. i think i'm going to post smaller chapters, so if they look weird! you get content/progression, i can relax and vibe with you all! peace on earth!

and of course, thank you for waiting and supporting me. i dearly miss doing my memes, it's lonely and boring in writer girl jail.

-uncle nina, who loves you all so so so so

p.s. slowing down in the sense of understanding plot is good for me tho! i think deep comprehension, but shorter, surer posts are in the near future <33333

#MWAHMWAHMWAHMWAHMWAAAAH #thank you for sending this seriously #this just like briefly freed me from writer girl jail #i needed air and to see the light #thank you for checking on me #I HOPE YOURE WELL I LOVE YOU YOU ARE SO SWEET #over the last few days i started processing a lot of stuff and i think im understanding a lot more abt what is reasonable #and what is just putting myself thru crazy amounts of horrifying stress for no reason #so im just gonna...do what i want i guess #whatever that means #we just kinda get what we get bc if i do not post something soon im gonna yell im sick of looking at my drafts #i want to vibe again #let me know what u think if u would like but i hope #this makes sense help hsadlksahd #LAST THING I THINK BC OF STANS TOOL POWER #HE CAN KIND OF FUCK W GEARS OR MACHINERY #so when they test him or check people for mutations he makes the machines malfunction #RANDY IS SUPER RACIST AGAINST MUTATED PPL AND ALIENS BTW HES EVIL #so if he found out stan would be dead lmao #so stan just is a secretly mutated person he fucks up a lot tho

[orcelito]

Honestly hate how hard it is to start writing again when you've gone too long without it. Like for fuck's sake man Why's shit gotta be like this

#speculation nation #daydreaming of the early discacc days when i wrote 70k words in 3 weeks. those were the days... #im just... so tired and wrung out and everything is so fucking hard #im barely even Doing anything besides working. my apartment is in horrible shape rn. #what is it about grief that makes life so hard to live man. you lose a cornerstone to your life and suddenly everything is in shambles #and i know he wouldnt have wanted this for me. for me to be Barely functioning bc my brain has been so bad in response #im alive im going to work im feeding myself and showering every day #but i havent been doing the dishes i havent taken out the trash theres Stuff all over my floors and cat messes i havent cleaned #and i dont have the energy for any of it. i get home i eat and then i climb into bed. rinse and repeat. #im just... tired. im so very tired. #i keep wanting to turn to my hobbies to cope with things but it's so fucking hard to stick to #constantly oscillating between manic moods where i think i can finally start moving on (but i dont have the focus to do writing) #and depressive moods where Good Fuckin Luck doing anything besides laying in bed #if you couldnt tell im in the second boat right now. in bed as we speak. and so i shall remain until it's time to go to work #at least ive been going to the woods almost every chance i get. it hasnt given me the power to write but it's been good for me i think #get out of the apartment. experience nature. pick up a snail. you know how it goes. #i kinda feel bad for entering a fandom and trying to dig out a place for myself and Kind Of succeeding #i have a good handful of followers. people who wanna see more of my analysis and fanfic #but i havent posted anything significant in like a month bc i have belonged to the void. all month. #losing family will do that to a person i guess. doesnt stop me from being frustrated though. #negative/

[saeraas]

Yeah, people forget that Three Hopes Claude doesn't learn what Three Houses Claude did.

(Gonna start this by saying I do not know Hopes so I'm going to speak about Houses)

Yeah. It's like if we remember his supports, especially his earlier ones with Byleth, he mentions how he was always considered an outsider so he always had to come up with may different schemes for many different situations to survive.

He came to Fodlan expecting things to be different than how he grew up and realized real quick that they were very similar despite his belief that the people of Fodlan couldn't be cowards because his mother was no coward.

I think people forget how hostile Lorenz and some other non-Golden Deer Leicester Alliance people were to Claude when he arrived, not to mention how some of the ways people talked about Almyrans despite at this point Almyra was not being aggressive at Fodlan's locket. So, I think encountering a Claude who doesn't get to spend much time with his housemates/other people, learn more about Fodlan besides immediate experiences, or that doesn't have the chance nor time to snoop around the library then I think it's plausable that we'll see a different Claude who may make more harsh decisions because he didn't have the luxury he had in Three Houses to learn

#asks #anon #claude von riegan #he mentions too how when he saw byleth wield the sword of the creator that he immediately started thinking of ways to use byleth #he knew the power that sword had and had to have ways to include that sword as an option #i think that thinking claude is completely good is a disservice to him #he's not static at all as through his supports and time at the Monastery he changes his viewpoints on things #from believing the over reliance on gods to not be good for overall society #to not being outright against gods but only ones that do not meddle in people's lives #to recognizing despite his personal beliefs that it is a system of the land that is heavily embedded #but relied on it for change bc byleth is not rhea and will be different #so going a way where he doesn't get the chance to have the same development would cause him to approach the situation differently #like dimitri for example #he doesnt spiral like he did in 3 Houses because the moment that kickstarted it didn't happen #so he'll still have the ghosts of his pasts plaguing him but he never ends up in prison falsely like in 3H (im guessing) #hoping this doesn't end up in main tag i do not feel like debating on this #i just think claude is morally grey & the most interesting chara #or lord at least #also i kinda think of him similar to gojo from jjk in a sense that he would love no casualities of course #but would have a threshold of lives he would afford to be lost for a cause

[glitchdollmemoria]

yknow the cool thing about having a ptsd induced bad dream is it gives me more motivation to go watch cozy movies and eat comfort food til i feel better

#after spending an hour in bed scrolling through tumblr waiting for my muscles to power on ofc #anyway little vent abt that ahead #no one has to read this ofc its really mostly just me working through it and processing it yknow #had a dream i was still involved with a couple people who are now gone from my life hopefully forever #also still dating my gf though? but he wasnt there :( #and we were in a uhaul or smth and were driving around and i felt very Uneasy #and like. i was actively in a flare up in that dream so the brain fog was making it harder to think clearly #so i felt very dumb the whole time #and so we drove through this like... pathway? with tall dark plants on either side #some kind of overgrown decorative shrubbery #and we were just chatting and i was trying to pretend i didnt feel uneasy #and then we came to this plant archway but the way was blocked by a bush about waist high #which. i have some particular feelings about that imagery. but idk if i wanna say it cus maybe im just being schizo #anyway we got out of the truck and left it there to go to the little restaurant cafe place we could see on the other side #and once we were inside we realized it was very clearly run by and for the jewish community which made me feel a bit better #so we sat at one table for a while i guess just to wait? then moved upstairs to another table to actually eat #and one of the people i was with started arguing with me and insulting me while the other one just kinda let him #bc he was like mad that i didnt tell him when to say a certain thing in a prayer i guess even though it was written on a thing on the table #and even though i was brainfoggy as hell and didnt know to expect that and he couldve looked himself and it DID NOT MATTER... #so i threw a metal thing holding the piece of paper at his head. #it kinda just bounced off him but then i walked off and he followed me and started beating me up lol #i woke up right as he started throwing punches. i think people were about to step in though #the weird thing is i think at the beginning of the dream i was ONLY with my current gf #idk how to word it but like. these other two just kinda barged right into the dream #anyway that dream is def Up There among dreams that i feel might have some deeper meaning but also not the MOST Up There #might delete later also bc The Paranoia #anyway! claps! time to watch old pokemon movies and eat pancakes

[aprofessionalwithoutstandards]

the age gap argument is the funniest shit to me. like you said demo doesnt even have a canon age. theres no age gap unless you make one up. demo could be the youngest merc if you wanted him to be

Right... Demo and Engie both are aged pretty ambiguously to me, they're not given hints of a canon age range like Heavy or Spy or Soldier, with bits of their lore (the gulag, being Scout's parent, and wanting to enlist in WWII respectively) all pointing towards some kinda range. Demo doesn't have an explicitly stated age like Scout either. It's kinda just in bad faith to assume that Demo is older than Sniper based on nothing, but also I cannot emphasize this enough even if Demo were confirmed to be in his forties that would not change how I feel about swordvan. I post bushmed. Clearly that doesn't bug me

#medic isn't given a canon age either but i guess he has the most obvious signs of physical aging being the only one we know to have #graying hair #also like look at him look at his vibe #ask #anon #tf2 #demo #swordvan #etc #overall it's like. sniper is thirty. he's also not real. there's not actually any Power Imbalance between medic and anybody else #besides like. he could kill them? but everyone else is also capable of killing him? #idk people assume that just bc medic is older than someone that means he holds power over them #like people saying in medic/pauling (which i hate btw for other reasons) HE'S the one imbalancing the power... she is literally his boss #also again like. none of these men are real. hot new opinions on shipping incest sucks and that's it

[mrfoox]

Kinda wish I had less empathy and social understanding

#miranda talking shit #I still misunderstand people often and will do mistakes but bc im so aware of that fact im scared to talk many times #Like in the beginning when im new friends with people my filter will be thin and i will talk more but then when the new excitment is gone #I get so caught in my head im like.... What if i say something bad or insensitive or- #I feel im at that stage with oliver :') we used to be able to have all kinds of discussions but now bc im so paranoid of being weird we #Dont. So its just basic boring small talk and i am like whelp i dont like this #I understand he cant push for such topics bc he is technically an employee and a worker so he has to be professional #But any time i got us into such topics he'd talk without much problems and we'd discuss all sort of stuff #I miss that but im paranoid of making him feel uncomfortable or something like it. Idk the whole power dynamics is there i guess too and #Aware of it. I wish i wasnt but i am. Im too aware of that and i know we arent 'friends' and thus its the wholw.... Hes not talking with #Me bc he wants to but bc he has to. And i dont want to be an annoyance i guess... #And i know i have problems to spot if i make people uncomfortable or such unless they say something obvious about it #Magnus is much easier bc he has autism and adhd too so i think that barrier of whats appropriate isnt something he has in mind #Idk if im making sense here but yeah no kinda wish i didnt care about others atm #I love being careful and thinking about others but in these type of situations they make me feel bad?

[ct-hardcase]

I have my bones to pick with Soule's writing sometimes, but there's always the feeling of the Jedi Order feeling like home and a community that binds its members together when in his work

#when I first read his Avar #that was the first time I'd seen *light side* powers be this badass and aspirational totally OP thing #bc for so much of canon it's that the dark side is quick and easy and so much more powerful #(and in some of its sloppier canon/fanon interpretations can be used in a situation with little consequence and a mea culpa) #but Avar connecting Jedi through her song and having that all draw them together? Badass as shit while also maintaining the Light Side Vibe #like I guess I had it in my head for a while but it really clicked when I read how he wrote Avar #it's that and it's how Bell and Loden are a calm assuring presence and on the same wavelength #and conversely in dark lord of the sith #granted it's a pretty common theme in Vader works now #but before I read Soule's Vader I really only knew Vader-as-power-fantasy #but Soule's Vader is undeniably a miserable isolated and hurting bastard #super powerful. kills people wherever he goes and wins duels effortlessly #but his daily choice to turn to the dark leaves him empty #ditto the inquisitors—facades of power and the illusion of camaraderie which can be shattered at any time by anyone #the dichotomy of the dark getting someone cheap/limited power and the light being hard but very rewarding/powerful shines in his writing