#(i couldnt find 'keep out' :( )

[sorrelpaws]

rick at various ages

#rick and morty #rick sanchez #as a kid i imagine hed be super nerdy and kind of Accidentally chaotic? like he'd set off fireworks in his backyard to see what'd happen #and then as a teen he mellows out a bit. STILL DORKY #like i very much believe rick is basically Exactly like morty without the rick influence and with way more techy sciency knowledge #or like. maybe not knowledge. Curiosity. he fucks around and finds out a lot more basically #obviously had to keep the blue pants yellow shirt combo #umm idk. thats about it. threw in a regular rick at the end for comparison i guess #originally i considered adding college aged + post family death versions as well #but then i decided i couldnt think of a young adult design and i didnt feel like drawing the other one. These Four will Suffice

[the-implications]

just realized in npmd boy jerry and paul have the same shirt lol

#i assume that it literally is the same shirt of course #but yeah not sure if anyone else noticed this but i wanted to point it out lolllll #sorry 4 the shitty screenshots btw i couldnt find any hd pics smh #i keep seeing these professional looking shots on google but theyre so low res for some reason???? #so if anyone knows where i can find better photos PLS lmk #nerdy prudes must die #npmd #boy jerry #paul matthews #jon matteson

[caluski]

today marks another birthday for this sweet, wonderful, kind, and amazing creature that goes by the name Żmija. nearly popping out in the fall, but with her heart as hot and impatient as the sun of july morning, she rushed for the last days of summer where she truly belongs - so of course, a summertime portrait it is :-)

wishing you the happiest and most love-filled of celebrations, @slavicafire -from yours truly and yours forever :-)

#scheduled as usual since im not here. hence the hour of posting - sorry; i know you dont like when i do that! #but i hope it will find you still. #sorry i couldnt do justice to your tattoos - god they look wonky but i SUCK at those so bad everytime!!!! #anyway. hope u have a wonderful monday and that bday package got to you all safe and on time! kocham cie bardzo bardzo mocno! #rysunki #also now that i look at it while scheduling. god did i draw you too pale. or is it just my laptops screen settings. god i hope its my lapto #oh good god and tumblr says its scheduled for 17th even tho i keep changing it to 18th. oh god #please forgive me if for some reason it will be posted a day early.... on app it says 18th but here... #oh god i changed the timezone on my blog to warsaw and everything why does it still say 17th!!!!!!!!!!!!! #ill try to fix that later im so sorry if it doesnt work out

[oatbugs]

my research partner and i are huddled in a blanket in paddington waiting for a too-late train i already miss you and you and you

#he keeps falling asleep almost on my shoulder and waking up and readjusting but i want to tell him its ok weve seen a lot #of each other ive seen your brainwaves you called me crying a few nights ago. research partner right now is a potentiality #friend is a certainty. i met a banker passionate about finance. he said his advice made the lives of others better and he likes the numbers #more than he likes anything else. on a high rise near canary wharf the view was wonderful and the people even moreso #he said i loved her but i spent 33 grand on her and i cant do this anymore. his voice cracked talking about her. he did love her. #and she talked softly she grabbed my hand she bought me a pack of Marlborough gold she told me to snap #the russian menthol cigarettes of the tortured polish man near us with my teeth i kept staring at her teeth #bright white and sharp. i couldnt find her heartbeat but i did find warmth and i did find her lips and i did feel #how she felt pressed against a wall. a pretty boy held my hand and i gave him my number. i couldnt stop smiling about her no matter #how many runways youve walked on how many collections youve designed how many students youve taught. senior lecturer teaches me how to do #very unethical things ethically over a double shot of vodka made by the half-persian with broken farsi. she talks softly #and she says her eyes are hazel but they appear a shade of red. pure gold on her hands and leather on her back and her fingers on my lips #(she talks softly sees through me she says something i cant hear but i wont forget the way she flies) she talked to my research partner #about the possibility of moving to sunny dubai with the rest of her family and my heart felt pierced. on her arm i traces a tattoo of a #knife passing through a rose. she told me she thought there was romance in severing so i kissed her some more. #he sat me down and asked me what i loved and i told him and he said no romance no person no tragedy will take that from you. #the room was filled with a collection of people in love with something that wasnt a person and i kept looking at her. #red eyes bitten jawline beautiful hands. it is 3 degrees Celsius my head is on his shoulder i miss my friends #we walked out the lecture hall with arms linked a photo of two years ago and we both said #jesus christ. i miss you all. and i miss logic metatheory lectures. im glad i get to stare at the depth of your eyes #i wish i had met you years ago. #crushposting

[good-beanswrites]

If it's okay with you, could you write a drabble about the hypothetical aftermath of Amane getting attacked by Kotoko?

Welp thank you pal for making me absolutely insane with this request 👍 I ran through a few hypotheticals and realized I had to shift some things around since there were so many absolutely tragic outcomes. I worked something out but damn if it didn’t make me emotional to think about how uniquely rough Amane has it. Even making sure she's in a good place at the end, this got pretty serious, so warnings for child abuse and cult references. 

(So in canon, Kotoko goes in order and attacks Fuuta, but Kazui steps in. Then she attacks Mahiru while he’s distracted with his injuries. She’s about to attack Amane, but Mikoto gets in the way (my hc that he did it on purpose survives!). By the time they reach a draw, Kazui is back, and the two of them can prevent Kotoko from any further action against Amane. Sticking to this apparent system of three attacks and one rescue, I’m just shuffling around the injuries for this story. Fuuta’s attack went unnoticed, and he’s in the same state as canon Mahiru. Mikoto steps in before Kotoko can fight Mahiru, so Mappi’s the one who get out physically unscathed. While Mikoto checks on Mahiru, recovers himself, or discovers Fuuta, Kotoko is able to attack Amane next. Kazui comes to help, but not before she leaves Amane looking like canon Fuuta.)

Mahiru could practically feel her heart shatter into a million pieces when Amane finally cried in front of her. She hadn’t shed a single tear yesterday – it was the shock, Shidou said. Mahiru was skeptical. After all, she had been shocked, too, and cried plenty.

Amane woke as she came in with breakfast. She took a moment to survey herself, bandages peeking out from beneath her pajamas and an eyepatch securely over her right eye. As calmly as one might say “good morning,” she started to cry. Mahiru might have missed it, if Amane hadn’t wiped at her good eye with her sleeve.

“Oh, sweetheart…!” Mahiru rushed over to her. “It’s okay, I’m here.” She wanted nothing more than to wrap the girl in a secure embrace, but she remembered the mass of bandages that were around her chest. Shidou had mentioned broken ribs and bruises. It took everything in her not to cry along with Amane, at the thought.

“I can get you another ice pack, if you need. Or more medicine.” Her mind spun with ways to help with pain. Many of the first aid supplies had been used to keep Fuuta from the brink of death, but surely there were extras to spare for Amane. 

The girl just shook her head. 

She muttered, “I can’t… I…I’m going to be punished, I’m going to be punished…”

“No! You’re safe now.” Mahiru placed her hands gently on Amane’s arms. “Kotoko’s not coming back. We’re all watching over you. You’re safe. She’s not going to hurt you anymore.” 

“That’s not…” Amane pulled away. Her voice stayed level, despite hiccups interrupting her. A hand reached up to her eyepatch. “It’s this. It’s all of this. It’s sinful. I took it off last night, but he must have…” She started unwrapping it. “They’re going to punish me...” 

With a careful motion, Mahiru held it in place and took Amane’s hands into her own. She’d been picking up on the signs ever since they arrived here together, and a final wave of understanding washed over her. 

“I can’t let you do that.”

Amane’s expression twisted, though words came out far more frantic than fiery. “Let me go.” 

Mahiru didn’t. “I’m sorry. Amane, you need this treatment.”

“That is not your decision to make. That is not any human’s decision to make.”

Mahiru pressed her lips together. “I know. But I can’t watch as you… I can’t sit by again while someone…” She was careful not to apply any pressure, but she could no longer fight the urge to gather Amane up in her arms. “You don’t need to be afraid of those people, anymore.”

“I’m not afraid.” Amane hiccuped. “They love me, and I love them. I need to be good for them.”

“I love you, and I don’t want to see you in pain.”

“You just pity me because I’m young.”

“Why does your age matter? You are a lovely young woman – you are my friend – and I can’t bear to see you in pain.”

The two sat in silence for a moment. Mahiru doubted she would take that as an answer; Amane had refused to call any of the others her friend. At least she didn’t argue. In fact, it seemed she was leaning into the embrace a bit more. She sighed a shaky breath into Mahiru’s uniform.

“Listen, Amane. Can you do me a favor? I’m trying to be a good girl, too. To make up for something awful, I need to make sure you’re alright. Can you help me? Can we be good together?”

A long pause followed. Amane’s voice spoke up, ever so gently.

“I suppose I can consider it.” She added quickly, “for the sake of your redemption. Of course.”

“Of course.”

#milgram #amane momose #mahiru shiina #thank you so much! i dont want to be bubbly on such a serious drabble but i want to give an enthusiastic thanks because this one really got #the gears turning!! #i started making plans as soon as i saw the ask and it took so long finding something that wouldnt result in straight up tragedy :( #if i kept to the initial timeline and said kazui didnt step in until amanes attack then both fuuta and mahiru would be close to death #and given there seems to limited supplies i think one of them would have died if shidou needed to treat three critical patients #so i moved people around to make sure everyone survived #which brought me to the main problem of amane self sabotaging her medical care #even minor injuries could have resulted in death if she got her way and removed bandages/refused treatment #but the mental strain of keeping the treatment would be just as bad as the physical pain -- shed be paranoid 24/7 of #divine punishment and repeating the mistakes that led her here.... it would hurt more to be forced like that #so i needed someone to be able to get through to her gently #but the only one who shes been able to trust just got the shit beat out of him and is in no position to talk!!!! #everyone else would just make her more upset or not know how to convince her the right way :( #still - i think mahiru could do it the best! with her own trauma from allowing loved ones to die in front of her i think shed be motivated #so. yeah. #i know amane is supposed to be talking in the plural pronoun now but i couldnt get it to work - lets just say that kicks in soon after this #tw cults #tw child abuse #drabbles

[sidesteppostinghours]

do you think julia wouldve grown her hair back out as easily as ricardo shaved his mustache if step asked her to.

#i keep thinking about it because like #obviously she cant get it back to the way it was and definitely not in the span of the books timeline #and as kittlebugs pointed out ricardo grew out a mustache for a different reason julia cut hers #also i do personally subscribe to julias haircut having strong personal significance to finding herself because of sammys fic #but like. also? if she couldve would she go back to having long hair #specifically im thinking abiut step saying “i miss your hair” in her apartment #she cut her hair as an impulsive decision because the failed attempts at taking care of it just reminded her of step #i do think it wouldve been too raw to grow out in the years after where step was still dead #but she has step back now so couldnt she bring this back too? get some semblance of the past back #this is a genuine question btw because i could also see her sticking to the hairstyle she has now #even with the opportunity to grow it back to the way it was #ortega #pulp speaks

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i don't even like video games so why have i been playing Red Dead 2 for the past eight hours gay

#i think me brain likes the Reward of successfully one hit killing things with a bow and arrow #i was born in the wrong generation (should've been a hunter gatherer) #i dont even care about the story!!! the tutorial / first chapter was tedious as fuck! #im only completing missions to unlock things so that i can Keep Fucking Around!!! #also my horse's name is wizard and if anything happens to her im killing everyone in this game #thankfully when the fuckin. asshole odriscolls Ambushed me i was riding a backup horse i'd just tamed #so THAT one died instead of my darling wizard. but still. cmon #she was a gorgeous buckskin... her name was gonna be Egg... i was on my way to the stable to name her... #BUT YEAH I DONT EVEN LIKE THIS GAME ALL THAT MUCH WHY CANT I STOP PLAYING #maybe my brain is like 'oh my god finally something New. something other than the same shit we've been doing' #killin turkeys and deer #i tracked an elk into a train tunnel AND HIT IT!! #but it didnt die!!! and ran out!!! and then i couldnt find it!!! cmon!! #this game is so infuriating Why Cant I Stop #absolutely unprompted #though i have been thoroughly entertaining myself with my own antics #'i want to be nice to people 🥺' #ten seconds later im killing a man i couldve easily saved purely bc there were no witnesses around <3 #well! he would'a talked! i got a camp to protect and provide for! #oh ok yeah i also think my brain likes being able to be a rugged western man w a beard #riding horses and Providing in a slutty little outfit i picked out #most of the game is Such A Drag (as my darling shikamaru would say) #but there are some good bits. addicting bits. sigh #like the allure of open world. optional story. yeah <3 #no rules <3

[spacedlexi]

trying to keep all my clemviminnie thoughts contained until i get to episode 3 but

its hard

#telltale was CRAZY for this btw!! the drama of it all ALWAYS gets me #violet blaming herself for her gf/minnies death. clem helps her open up again. starts dating clem. finds out minnie is still alive? #saved violet telling clem she has nothing to worry about and she'll fight minnie if she has to to keep clem and her loved ones safe #kidnapped violet getting brain poisoned by minnie into turning against clem after feeling betrayed and abandoned by her #saved vi shooting minnie to save clem!!!!!!!!! but cant leave minnie behind because she already left her once and she cant do it again #vi begging minnie to stop trying to fucking kill them but shes too far gone. the 3 of them fight to the DEATH!!! #now add all that to the parallels and dark mirrors going on between clem and minnie in the A plot like the tension is off the charts #plus the parallels you can draw between clem and vi but those are less “you are my dark mirror” and more “we are the same i understand you” #HOW are the girlies not still talking about this #you know what i partially blame myself i dont talk about it enough either. i forget how many things ive left in my wips folder sometimes #UGH its all so good violets route just ads so much Flavor to the clem/minnie plotline its Delicious i couldnt imagine it Not being there #i neeeeeeeed to draw them fighting and being gay and maybe bloody even #if u cant tell i really want to get back to that wip i posted a few weeks ago but im Trying to Restrain Myself #i love forcing myself to take things slow sometimes really makes the brain shift into overdrive #twdg #violentine #it speaks

[lidrens]

based on: I Made A Roomba That Shoots Anything It Bumps Into

This your doing? What's it doing in my shop? That's not what I sent you credits for. > @trooperst-3v3

#ok sorry for spam tagging #i couldnt get this silly thing out of my head after seeing that post and i keep wheezing about it #i dont want to send you one million asks about a stupid roomba joke but i hope you also find it funny #trooperst-3v3

[marymekpop]

why are you defending her after seeing what she did?.. are you trying to protect ok chan-mi?

#revenge of others #3인칭 복수 #shin ye eun #lomon #korean drama #mygif #lowkey obsessed w this drama #its actually turning out to be a pretty decent watch so far #first time ever watching lomon and hes pretty good #im impressed #also some of the shots and visuals in the drama is soooo pretty and nice #the bus scene took my breath away #hands down one of my fav shots from the drama overall #really liking where chanmi and sooheons relationship is going #and the drama keeps getting more and more interesting #i already finished the two latest eps so i have to wait another week #hELP #T_T #also i couldnt find a quote for this gif set so i just chose this one asdkfjd #the struggle is reeeeeeal

[dyketubbo]

ik normally we talk about situations like what shubble opened up about, we wanted to take time to think through everything especially because of how upsetting the topic is to us personally. as of now, we do agree that signs point to wilbur so we wont support him and we encourage others to not support him during this time and especially not actively defend him.

but we dont want to make a big deal out of not supporting him so focus can be on shubble and people learning how to see signs of abuse. we're already not very active due to our own recent experience with a traumatizing friendship (we hesitate to really call it abuse yet) but regarding that experience and others weve had we can focus on another big part of shubbles stream: educating others about the signs of abuse. so we want to use the rest of this post to talk about that

abusers will be everywhere and anywhere. yes there will be more in this community, but youll find them no matter where you go and there will be abusers in your personal life as well, whether you end up being abused or someone you know does. theres abusers who are "obvious", who scream and yell and hit. and theres abusers who are charismatic, who will be supportive and funny and yet passive aggressive and backstabbing. and theres abusers who will be quiet and cold and manipulative. and theres abusers who fall into multiple "categories" because theyre complex people just like anyone else and thats why abuse can happen to everyone. because abusers can be anyone.

dont get yourself caught up in how "theyre such a good person", dont get yourself caught up in thinking abuse could never happen to you. if you find yourself in a situation where communication doesnt work, where the other person hurts you over and over and doesnt show signs of getting better, where you keep finding ways to blame yourself and defend them (especially if you find yourself thinking that you deserve how they treat you), where youre scared of them and how theyd react if you told them so, where when you tell them you dont like how they treat you they dismiss you and start treating you worse, look into how to get out of there.

and know that it will take a while. that abuse is hard to get away from. that sometimes youll be trapped for a long time and sometimes youll relapse and defend them even after youve realized theyre abusive. and there will be people who support your abuser over you and people who will hate you and believe your abuser over you. and there will be people who support you but will still support your abuser too for whatever reason. and there will be people who support you fullheartedly and care for you and help you even if it takes you a long time to find them.

abuse is complex. "good people" can be abusive. no matter the fandom, no matter the community, no matter the when who where how why there will always be abusers around. no matter where you go or who you talk to there will always be some case of abuse. the important thing is to educate yourself.

learn about tactics like DARVO (deny, attack, reverse [the roles of] victim and offender), keep notes of the hotlines and organizations about abuse. keep the discussion of how to spot abuse and support the victims open. and always, always, keep more affection in your heart for victims than you do hate for abusers. make yourself someone who can be confided in and trusted to not take advantage of that trust.

and remember: if youre a victim yourself, its okay if you didnt do everything "right". its okay if your feelings keep changing, its okay if you were an asshole victim, its okay if you didnt see the signs even when others pointed them out to you, its okay if you did things "wrong". abuse is hard to sort through and what matters is not whether you "provoked" them, its that they had the power to hurt you and get away with it and they used it, over and over. and thats horrible and what you deserve is to get out and to be able to speak about it without getting hurt for it.

if shubble's story and others like hers resonate with you, tell people. it doesnt have to be public. in most cases it shouldnt be. tell people who you can trust in private and get the support you need so that when youre able and ready to you can get out. and know that there are people like you and even if you feel alone right now you wont be forever

#all the peace and care to shubble. we saw the vod seems to be deleted and we hope shes doing okay right now #critter calls #mostly pres but not just me sooo overall system tag #would say sorry for the long post but we arent really sorry. its an important topic #for the record we dont support how far some people have gone with speculation #we saw people on twt making full fucking timelines and sharing screenshots of shubbles deleted reddit post #dont fucking do that. all the information shubble could share on the matter was in the stream #dont pry any more into their life more than they shared #we have the information we need to know that it was likely wilbur but thats all. and if shubble says that she isnt saying names for- #-reasons outside of just not wanting to then.. i dont think its good or safe for her for people to keep prying #we dont even like the speculation that brought us to believing its wilbur #not because we believe wilbur couldnt do something like this (anyone could) but because #we know we would hate people prying into our life to find out the details about our abuse

[bunnihearted]

🌧️🐇

#feeling sad today bc it's my mom's birthday #and i couldnt afford getting her anything :< i've made a card but tbh i feel so dumb even giving her that like wow.. useless #my sisters are spending the day with her so i cant even be with her at all. and she likes spending time w my sisters more than me anyway so #im just keeping away. it makes me sad tho that they can all hang out but .. #like im actually such a shitty person and unwanted and just an awful person because not even my family wants to be with me #i feel lonely bc i dont get to partake in my mom's birthday celebration and that my family doesnt even want me to #and my mom doesnt think it's valuable to spend time with me today. she doesnt even want to... im just a burden and a bother #i feel so unlovable and unwanted .... and it makes me sad and i just wanna die lol #bc i truly truly am annoying and not important in their lives #why do i even exist? why do i even do anything? why do i even talk to anyone when all i am is a burden #i make everyone's lives worse and more difficult. im only a pain to deal with. i cant ever do anything right either #idk... i just hope my mom had nice moments w my sisters today #maybe i'll try to hide the card on her desk so she can find it so i dont have to give it to her skskks

[birdcatt]

doodles of these 2 lads

#art tag #pokemon #cresselia #darkrai #oc: scylla (pmd) #oc: silas (pmd) #their current arc in the daydream is 'scylla we need to integrate ourselves into society' 'ok lol' (becomes a hermit #scylla stole her name from silas even #theres also that point in time where scylla takes a job that is to just stand near a sleeping guy and she finds out the guy is in a coma #and shes like. i cant possibly take their money for this. the fuck #the towns view on silas vs scylla initially 'its the scary nightmare guy that tried to end the world...!' vs 'she'll keep that guy in check #then the towns view shifted to #'oh thats the nice friendly lad with the unfortunate ability. hes a trusted member of the community' vs 'i think she has rabies' #anyway im not sure of silas' origins but scylla woke up in a desert #stayed in the same spot for several days bc she couldnt figure out how to move #nearly died in a sandstorm #not sure how she got out tho

[amugoffandoms]

i just have a question has anyone wondered if like kazui's bad habits of smoking and drinking alcohol were the parts that he didn't keep to his wife (I'm calling her hinako for the sake of this)

it's possible that the fact of lying to her was just the killing blow, like maybe hinako knew that he was being a massive liar somehow and marriage is all about being open with one another or something, so when he told her about like this, she sorta broke

i think this post Capri made is so interesting because if she WAS already falling, then that could imply that Hinako already knew something and Kazui telling the truth to her sorta solidified the deal for her

i think kazui really tried to be a good husband to hinako (i recall someone saying his UNDERCOVER scene was him holding a bouquet of flowers, so what if he was bring that home for his wife, but she was dead before he could get there), but his lies (whether it be he was gay, had terrible habits, a conman, etc.) caught up to him and when he finally revealed himself to her, she realized if he lied to her for that long, then maybe this relationship wasn't good enough

#really quick expansion on the bringing flowers home to his wife though #because he mentions he couldnt make it in time to save mahiru #and idk why rhat sounds familiar #it sounds verh similar to him with those flowers and finding out his wife died #which is why he feels responsible for what happened to her #*mahiru i mean #i need to know why this mf is used to violence though #i cant keep defending you man because i liked you fjrst if you're a cop #mug theorizes #milgram #mukuhara kazui #kazui mukuhara

[queenerdloser]

there's a lot of reasons to hate the way ad-based levels are now the standard starting level for streaming, but beyond just sheer blind hatred for it, it's also fucking annoying because they don't even have the diversity of actual tv ads. at least when you had regular tv channels you got like. usually a decent variety of tv ads coming your way and some local ads thrown in. with streaming services it's literally the same five fucking ads. i've seen the same ad for the same movie 40+ times because it plays at every single ad break. all this is doing is making me so homicidally irritated you're basically guaranteeing i'm never going to go to macy's or watch this stupid fucking horror movie about a pool. they're forcing us to watch ads and then they're making the ad-watching experience - already bad - even fucking worse.

#i finally gave up and decided to download criminal minds instead lmao i couldnt take it anymore #liveblogging life #im not joking about that horror movie ad it was on literally every! single! ad break! #also saw a LOT of amazon happy honda days and macy's #to the point where i now have zero interest in any of these brands. i've been so overexposed im just fucking annoyed about it #like i hate tv ads too but at least it wasn't the same fucking tv ads on every single ad break????????? #idk man i'm keeping netflix purely bc i do like having one (1) streaming option #but uh. i think i'm officially out of streaming outside of that. i already kind of was bc i only really have amazon prime & netflix #tried hulu. hate the ad experience. hate being bullied to the more expensive non-ad option. so bye hulu! #the main reason i like streaming is that i dont always know what i want to watch so i dont always have a whim thing downloaded #and it IS more effort to go and download shit if i dont already have it so it IS easier just to find it on netflix or w/e #but now with everything so spread out like... it takes just as much time to fucking find it anyway lmao #anyway the point is streaming sucks lmao

[glitteronadumpsterfire]

When will people that barely know me stop assuming things about me.

#witchy.txt #you are young and have nothing wrong with you!¡!!!¡ #fuck right off i have several things that are wrong with me #i cant go somewhere without having my heart racing for fucks sake #i am extremely paranoid when i have to go somewhere i dont know #i had a breakdown not too long ago bc the same coworker suggested me to find a job in the weekend #among other things #and thing is i would go there if it wasnt organized by the church. hell i would #but if it is something that revolves around having to go to mass and pray every other hour i want nothing to do w that #and they spent the last 20 minutes guilt tripping me into going to this stupid summer camp. right as i walked in to work #i fucking hate catholics i hate them so much #i am not what you think. and if you knew you would kick me out of here #every day it's a struggle to keep my mouth shut #she told me at some point that 'i dont have to have anxiety' #and i told her that it's like telling someone w a broken leg to walk it off #i straight up told her that bc i couldnt take it anymore of her bullshit #but she wouldnt stop. she didnt pick up the signals at all #i should be at the club having nasty transgender sex not in a church summer camp!!! fuck off!!! #UGH #st cheerleader gerard help me