really love characters who have varied panic responses. kirk stating himself that he does not panic outright, externally, not in high-stress dangerous situations, but instead becomes tense and level like a wound string, on-guard: mostly because his role as captain necessitates that he maintain level rationality even when facing potential death as his training as 'the guy who tells you what to do when shit hits the fan' requires, but also because his childhood experiences taught him early that drowning in the desperate haziness of panic won't help you survive. especially as kirk already follows his intuition so deeply. he learned to grasp and contort the feeling. spock is the main person who represses his emotions, of course, but kirk does it to those deep-set, personal ones (this includes how he doesn't reveal anything truly personal about himself willingly 90% of the time, only what others already know/shallow anecdotes) in a much more subtle way that's really interesting to me. certified expert at avoiding the subject as long as he isnt caught out on the lie. professional bluffer.
in terms of past or parents we dont know much!!! hes known as the heart-on-his-sleeve guy!!! like yes he yells, he gets irritated, excited, hes a whirlwind of quick-thinking and plans and intuition, he goes out of his way to connect with his crew and shows it, when he puts on a little act or bluff he puts his heart into it and clearly enjoys the dramatics so much, at times he wears his heart on his sleeve, he laughs openly and is honest to spock about what he means to him, he's very sun-coded to me in a burning, passionate way, always intertwined with the stars and seeking them out, but when it comes to genuine deep-set turmoil? we dont actually know all that much about him??? hes so full of emotion and character (i love fics where spock characterises jim's mind/bond as a whirl of colour and sensations, hes a quick thinker!!! intuitive!! lively!!!) and yet its still so outwardly surface level. tarsus iv gets mentioned like twice? so especially here where kirk gets briefly jumpscared by the creature, because like:
its subtle but his eyes. his eyesss!!!!! kirk commands with his emotions but there's always some sort of level of control to it, or he transforms them into something that spurs on others or uses them to ascertain a goal: seeing unguarded fear/distress in his eyes even if its faint and brief (in this instance) makes me go insane every single time. like!!! its such a small moment!!! he isnt even panicking!!! really, he just got jumpscared!!! its insignificant!!!!!!! but seeing a two-second flash of actual, naked apprehension is just...oughhh,,,,,,,,,
oh god, and dont even get me started on the galileo seven episode where he assumes a tense level-headedness throughout the whole thing, irritated and apprehensive but not panicking, making sure he maintains intelligent rationality, even when he has to leave them behind, but when spock and the crew are confirmed safe and the bridge is occupied the camera pans to him and his eyes look like they're fucking watering and he's so achingly relieved. don't even talk to me. im. fuck.
he shows so so much but at the same time reveals so little.
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Nothing has ever made me question my polyamorous lifestyle quite like the round of Uno we just played.
I have witnessed a veritable tower of Babel constructed of draw-four cards and bitter betrayel. The turn order reversed so many times I can barely remember my own name. Every time the end might have been in sight - the would-be-champion mere moments away from putting us out of our misery - the other three would sabotage their efforts, prolonging The Hunt.
More than once the door opened and we chose to remain in a hell of our own creation. Dante may have assigned us to the second circle of hell, but Sartre knew much better.
Eventually, somebody won (though at what cost only time may tell). The game is over.
My mother was right - this life can only end in heartbreak.
A single, crucial piece of the 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle we've devoted hours to has been carried off by the winds of chance. We are in mourning.
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should’ve known I was hormonal when I sobbed on my boyfriend about how every time I watch Naruto I start having heart palpitations because I can’t “reach through the screen and stop sasuke from leaving”
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Not me finding out the Trojan war probably didn't happen, at least not like that. There was no horse, childhood ruined, the Iliad will never read the same again :(
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friend asked me if i could only listen to 10 albums for the rest of my life which ones i would choose and my IMMEDIATE first thought was “fuck fall out boy has 9 albums i only have space for 1 more”
which might be the wrong answer
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wish i could play omori for the first time again cuz first time i played i thought the only way to get out of That room was to kill mewo like i thought the game was forcing me to do it and it’s a genuine stain on my soul
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i have GOT to stop going "omg im high! i should think about everyone being mad at me and there being scary nightmare monsters so i can have a bad high! :D" it DOESNT WORK it just makes me REALLY EXCITED because i want to try having a really bad trip to put the rest of my shit into perspective with and also because it'll be cool. and then i get to wait like 20 minutes and be disappointed that there is no paranoia-inducing scary monster materializing out of my weed. or like. i watched horror movies before the first time i ever did shrooms because i wanted to have a terrible time. that shit DID NOT WORK it was LOVELY and i am STILL DISAPPOINTED even though i am now like forever going to want to do them again for the pleasant and fun time i had the first time round
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psychology hack:
if everyone starts vocally saying things like "ugh I can't stand people-pleasers" or "I don't have any respect for someone who's just a people pleaser 🙄" then when people-pleasers hear that they will go "oh the way to earn everyone's love and respect is to stop being a people-pleaser" and they will be cured 😊
source: trust me I'm totally an expert
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