#AAAA IM SO STRESSED

[yeonjun4beagles]

ahhh its not an asia world tour if my country doesnt get skipped 😀

so.....do i buy a ticket to jakarta...or bangkok....🥲

#CJ!thoughts #bye #im just gonna go cry #all day #all night #AAAA IM SO STRESSED #but still grateful that they get to meet so many moas #BUT MY COUNTRY ALSO HAVE MANY MOAS SO WHY NOT #okay calm down cj #calm down 😀

[crowleys-bentley-and-plants]

I am stressed out and sad and even sadder because me stressing out prevents me to think of more stuff that makes me happy so please tell me what little things make you happy

#i started this little project to get some peace in my head but it's stressing me out that i cant think of things lol #i swear i have so many little things that make me happy but my brain is so focused on the dealines and stuff aaaa #it's clouding suffocating even idk #i think im gonna put 'hearing what makes other people happy' to this list cause honestly yes #tell me what makes you happy!!! #ramble gamble

[ca-3]

the new Servamp anizukins are so cute... 🥲🧡💚

#servamp #sakumahi #mahisaku #ca3 art #watanuki sakuya #sakuya watanuki #shirota mahiru #mahiru shirota #i want them so bad aaaa #i drew this kinda quick but im trying to not stress every drawing aaaa

[knightfeared]

if you’ve ever taken the time to write me an unprompted starter in my inbox, hi I am fond of you. I REALLY APPRECIATE IT—

#I’ve drafted a few so far and I’m just #Bless…. #IDK IT HELPS SET THE SCENE ENOUGH FOR ME TO WORK WITH AND SHOWS THERES IDFK #AAAA #WORD HARD #I AM SLOW WITH THINGS SO I GET MUSHY WHEN PEOPLE JUS YEET AT ME AND KICKSTART THINGS IF I FLOUNDER AND IM AAA #Ty you took time to send something and have an interest in my dumbasses 🙏😭 #It helps take the stress off me to figure something out and it’s definitely not a requirement but it always makes me stare and then scream #When it happens 😭😭😭💕 #IN THE BIN. 🗑️ TO BE DELETED. #╰┈➤ ┊❛ out of medkits. / ooc. ❜┊

[eldesperadont]

now that i know that a cis dude can see and be attracted to me as a man my brain decided to give these traits to my ex in my reoccurring dreams of him (i was never and im not out to the dude) im never free of that mf 💀

#hi the date i had recently was really great but we are just platonic so my brain continues to focus on my last romantic relationship #someone free meeee #i hate that i want a romantic partner so bad but ive got no time nor energy for that rn #plus im pretty sure that im demiromantic - i want to but its so hard for me to fall in love. #im 24 and it has barely ever happened BUT IT DEFINITELY HAS and im craving it.. but without all the stress aaaa i hate living. #vent

[oscill4te]

Manifesting that this group hang out thing goes okay todayy

#im so nervous abt it i feel like theres so much liability for it to fall apart lol #and the inner control freak in me is pacing around and another part of me wants to freeze and do nothing #good that i woke up early at least #its hard cuz everyone seems to want to do different things and theres a chance ppl may opt out and. aaaa. #someone wants to go to the mall. me and 1 person wanted to do an escape room. another wants to go to this grunge clothing shop in the city #some want to drink. some dont. some want to drink at a bar some want to drink at our place to save money #u see what i meannnn. aaaagh #i just hope everyone vibes and is okay with whereever this planless hang out takes us #im personally ok with anything as long as everyone is happy and not super bored (an issue that arises w one particular person) #its only an issue cuz whenever they get bored they make their partner feel bad for wanting ti stay. its liek. why did u even come then if #ur just gonna be bored and mopey? idk #ig im just anxious beans idk. group settings stress me out cuz im always worried what if ppl dont mesh well? #its gonna be 7 ppl aaaa

[dare-g]

Tbh I haven't been on here a lot this week cause I had been focused on that stitch so bad to the extent I wasn't letting myself have breaks and I was staying up late to keep doing it and tbh after so many days it was just making me feel sick/stressed.. but I did make myself go see Stopmotion anyway cause I had been looking forward to it and im going to be out of town the next couple days.. anyway Stopmotion was a horror film centered around the creation process artist go through and how putting yourself into your art can effect you ect and tbh it just made me feel worse

#in general i like to stitch but if i get stuck in big focus mode it can be bad #which its the worst craft i do to do it in cause its extra time consuming so im stuck forever #but anyway the character was having similar determination and i just was like aaaa #idk i was really stressed before the movie i thiught if i couldnt get it done i was gonna explde #and i also felt kinda sillybcause what i happened to get stuck on wasnt even something actually personal #i mean im glad i did it but i need to work on my restraint but i dont choose to get ficus stuck in the first place it just happens #talks

[fiie]

Same girl. I had a pretty bad mental health spell where I was having panic attacks almost every day (pretty sure I developed panic disorder) from the stress of working my full time job. And you have very little down time to recover

me 🤝 you

fr this is so me😭 it's kinda embarrassing, but I've had so many breakdowns at work that they started putting up mental health posters around the workplace 💀

I hope you're doing okay, anon 🥺🩷

#also lets not talk about the time i first started my job and it stressed me out so much i got shingles 💀💀 #i feel like i need to step down and work less hours @_@ i cant do this anymore aaaa #bc im starting to get bad again

[pandaemoanium]

a friend asked me to participate in Zineton with them and i think i wanna give it a shot. its scary as hell bc ive never made zines before but i hope itll be a fun learning experience

#zineton is an event where you have 3 days to make a zine based on a certain theme. sorta like a game jam yknow #theres a participation fee which kinda sucks considering my current situation but you will get a printed copy of your zine so #i have to stop stressing out aaaa its gonna be fun. its gonna be Fun its gonna be fun!!!!!!!!! im sure of it!!!!! #personal

[ask-andante]

#the new tumblr update image description makes it impossible for me to see my fucking image when trying to type whats written on it #ALSO I FORGOT TO QUEUE AAAA #i am ending 7yr here soon sorry for being so inconsistent #my current place i live at is shit so i get sick a lot from stress and anxiety and all that #so im like also super tired all the time #7yr #ask #andante #mew #pokemon #queuedante

[crowleys-bentley-and-plants]

If i didnt feel the urge to throw up every time i have to speak in front of an audience i would follow in my father's footsteps and make the funniest most unhinged presentations ever this man said "our goal is to make people's lives miserable... Im sorry, measurable" in front of hundreds of people and got away with it legend

#havent slept for days because im stressing about my presentation on thursday😀 #the problem is tho that criminology doesn't really have much stuff you can joke about so the jokes will just be very disrespectful and stuf #but anyway #i haven't even prepared anything yet because im too stressed to work on it aaaa it's a vicious cycle #ramble gamble #criminology is a joke

[trucbiduleschouettes]

I hate travelling by train it's so much more stressful than taking a plane

#planing this whole trip is #so fucking stressful aaaa im losing sleep over it #i have only figured out the train tickets for my way over #and that's by hoping real hard that i dont get lost too or miss a train #i hate when trains dont leave from the same station like. bro come on the fuck do i need to cross half the city over for #in only 50mins #and the first train is so early i might need to sleep at the hotel the night prior to avoid driving with no sleep #aaaaaaa #I'm fine this is just a lil stressful

[andromacheflints]

i love the whole world violently. and i dont want to finish this paper

#aaa aaaa aa aa a aa a a aa #deadline is tommorow and i dont feel im even close... #i still dont have an introduction ffs #and im. so tempted to just bullshit it but i really want this grade. #its very bad and i feel very stressed and i cant focus #becasue i dontk know how to begin to salvage this. #ok thx bye

[4giorno]

jumpscare warning!!!!!

#i didnt read this story what happens in this scene hdjjdjdjfkfkfk #ill try to read it after i wake up so well see #hhhh this is the closest ive ever come to the closing time of an event! it was rlly stressful #but somehow i managed to still use the usual 5100 dia so it was worth it #aaaa this card is so beautiful 😭 all the pink in the bloomed version mwah #from the ribbon shop i got the office outfits all dia and 6 memorial coins so im rlly satisfied

[sunshine-in-a-bottle]

Thanks to Stroob tho my demons aren't rotting me from the inside anymore. I'm still gonna get them out in the tags because the rot always comes back but like, my ribs aren't fucking disintegrating anymore, so thank u, you demonic fruit

#ok so im fucking. i feel fucking. aaaa so messed up about cGogy because on one hand. he makes me bitter #for a number of reasons #on the other hand i feel really fucking bad about being bitter. its a painful upset from which there is no reprieve #because i like cGeorge when i write him and in certain fics i find. but so much of it just adds to the Rot #and it eats me up inside because i have. no fucking clue if my problem with his character is like. Valid #or if its just personal issues made paper flesh #everyone else seems to like him just fine. he's a sweet little meow meow. whats wrong with me #i dunno whenever i get too messed up about it i just write for him #as if in some fucked up sort of apology #i dont even know how to begin to explain. theres no one to talk about it with #i feel like the fucking flower lung disease. hacking up petals trying to contain the intensity of the emotion #fuck this is stressful. theyre just characters why do i feel so bad about it #projection. thats the word. projecting. is my character interpretation correct or am i doing that #does it matter? i feel like it matters. i dont want to dislike a character for the wrong reasons #i dont want to dislike anyone at all really. makes me feel sad. #Im writing him right now cuddling with Dream. trying to fix it. its sortve working #doesnt make the feeling go away completely. but im happy for a while i guess #blah. tldr i dont like certain aspects of cGogy and it makes me feel like a bad person because i suspect its projection #and everyone else is fine with him so it probably is and im just a little silly #and if i cant trust myself to be impartial with him can i trust any of my interpretations at all? #will my writing suffer because of this? #jesus i need to lay down #Suds Soapbox #<== tagged post-laydown in case I need to find this post again for some godforsaken reason

[noxtivagus]

i'm so happy i'll cry so bad when i finally open it 😭😭

#tag later #AAAA IM ACTUALLY SO HAPPY #IM LIKE. RLLY CHILL RN BUT IM SO SO HAPPY #i'll play nier first ofc but oh my god zack. crisis core. i'll cry so bad #im so happy im rlly so happy it's so funny i'm so chill rn but #earlier when i saw data blitz w the poster i jumped n ran to it pointing at it n #I WAS SMILING SM WHEN THEY HAD IT IN STOCK N ALL UWAHH #fun day w my friend hehe we rlly just shopped ngl 🥹 #her. 'friend' ehem (read; basically bf) was low on social bat it seems but it was cool meeting them irl BUT I WAS TOO SHY TO TALK.. #they're usually more extroverted tho n then #i'm sorry i accidentally peeked at my friend's messages n her friend mentioned that like. if another friend of ours (who apollo n i are #closer with) then it wld've been more chill or wtvr I CANT REMEMBER #i miss hanging out w my friends :< I MISS THEM SO MUCH FUCK #I'm so tired from walking tho help i'm sitting down rn finally #torn between really excited for ccr n stressed for the future n really happy from today n #torn too between feeling excited or. idk lonely rn thinking abt all my different kinds of relationships #that flew by too fast.. i wna spend more time w my friends :< #despite how fun it was n everything i can't shake off this certain. emptiness that i can't make sense of #BUT RN I'M DOING FINE DW #technically i'm friends too w the friend of my longtime friend bcs we met (save for me w my longtime friend ofc #like way back early this year. turns out another guy from the other school went bowling w their friends in the same mall #n OH YEAH in this same mall iirc the friend apollo n i are closer w from the guys went to a con here yesterday? #i just realized hi small weird thumb reveal it seems #i just realized if you're filo n know your malls n know a con yesterday then it's very obvious where i was today uh #WAH THAT SAID THOUGH omg i'm rambling but i'm. god i've been feeling rather empty lots lately But i know that i'm happy from today #omg oh yh bcs of all the ppl i mentioned earlier me n longtime friend n apollo joked abt like. reunion of that grp earlier this year hehe #the idea is rlly lovely.. ngl i rlly do have a level of social anxiety even w close friends yeah but that doesn't mean i'm antisocial no #i rlly want to socialize n make friends :< so the idea of it is. rlly wonderful indeed but it seems so far out of my reach #i'll fix tags later i have sm to talk abt oh my god but it's comforting knowing my friend. felt the same way i do abt that earlier hehe #I RLLY WANT A BUCKET HAT N COOL SHADES TO GO W IT HFKSJFKSJFS