#And 3 exams day after tomorrow

[cafffeineconnoisseur]

IT HURTS SO MUCH

#I literally feel like my body is gonna split open #Even my legs are shaking lol #I fucking hate my periods #Also like why today #I literally have 3 exams tomorrow #And 3 exams day after tomorrow #I missed it for 2 months #2 more days wouldn't have hurt #Ugh I hate mother nature #Even the pain killers aren't doing shit #I'm literally curled up like a ball #Crying for no reason #I don't wanna deal with anything #Fuck #i'm just a girl #i can't atp

[crowrrupt]

It’s Afuro/Aphrodi’s birthday! 17.05.2024

[twitter]

#my art #ina11 #inazuma eleven #afuro terumi #inazuma eleven aphrodi #fanart #artists on tumblr #i have my first exam tomorrow #But i couldnt miss his birthday #It’s 3 days after mine I cant do that to him #Anyway #see everyone after my exams lol

[dreadnotau]

Happy three years everybody! As always, there’s a lot to say on the occasion, so pop in at the end of the post for the tl;dr if you don’t have time for my detailed diatribes, haha

Boy, time flies, huh? Feels like the second anniversary was just yesterday, but maybe that’s just the several long hiatuses getting to me. I’ve been scarce on uploading anything anywhere for a while now, even though I promised I’d actually pick up the slack this time around. What gives? Well…

For one, college hell, and for two, a lot of unfounded anxiety about putting my art out there. Allow me some theatrics for a moment and I’ll actually get back to the comic at hand… I’ve never had an exceptionally supportive environment for making art. It wasn’t suppressive, not in the slightest, but it also wasn’t… encouraging. It was always treated as a hobby or a distraction rather than something I was allowed to be fully proud of, especially because a lot of my art focused on more cartoon-y and fantasy ideas, rather than still life studies and painting (which people generally outside of the art sphere tend to value more, arbitrarily). Couple that with a childhood full of being bullied over minute shit you hadn’t even considered could be an issue before, and you get a teenager hellbent on never sharing his interests or ideas with anyone, mostly due to the fear of rejection.

I’ve grown, thankfully, but that paranoia and fear doesn’t go away overnight. As I’m sure you all know, Meowchela was the one who originally encouraged me to post this comic, and the only reason she succeeded was because she was the first person in a long time who listened and engaged with my interests and my art in a meaningful way. It’s kind of obvious her friendship had a profound impact on me, and I’d cite her as one of the reasons I was even hopeful enough to apply to an art college in the first place! This comic, and that bond with another person, proved that maybe these things I’m so passionate about weren’t duds, and weren’t something I had to keep to myself.

So, fast forward a few years. About three years, in fact.

During one of my classes, right before this hellish two weeks of exams started, one of the class assistants talked me into showing my comic pages to one of my professors. He’s generally a pretty open guy when it comes to new mediums, but I’m always… apprehensive about showing my less “traditional art”-y things to professors, but, he ended up being genuinely proud of it. Specifically, I showed him pages 85-87 (because they’re my favourites) and, he didn’t read the text, just the visuals were enough for him to say “good job, keep it up” (which is HIGH praise from that guy). When I mentioned I’ve been meaning to simplify the visuals because I didn’t have time to work on the comic very often because of college and classes, he dismissed it on principle. I was honestly caught off guard. Heavily paraphrasing, he suggested that worsening the visuals for an arbitrary deadline was counterproductive to making something that’s Good™.

That’s kinda stuck with me. For a good few years now I was more focused on optimisation rather than visual improvement for the comic, and though it HAS contributed to better visuals in some ways (cutting corners sometimes makes for a less pointy and jagged end result), it’s kind of weird I’m treating an art project that way, isn’t it? I set a lot of… arbitrary deadlines and standards for myself, in the form of expectations and what I “should” or “shouldn’t” be doing at certain stages in my life. I’ve thought of Dread Not as a passion project second and a stepping stone first, if I’m being honest. As if it was too… fandom-y and derivative to be treated with more gravity than that, like it’s an immature project because I was still a child when I came up with it. As if it was something I’m making to Build Up to Something Else, something Bigger and Cooler and More Important, and… the more I think about the future of Dread Not, and even my future career options, the more I realised that’s, ironically, a really immature way to think about it.

If there’s one thing going to this art college has taught me, is that there’s no “right” way to make art, and there’s no “right” way to success as an artist. There’s no clear-cut paths, just more commonly treaded roads, but even those are heavily overgrown. Why should I try to box myself into thinking I have to make things from complete scratch to be taken seriously? What’s so bad about Dread Not as a story and as a comic that’s caused me to vaguely keep it under wraps when conversing with people in my day-to-day life? Why wouldn’t I put all these skills I’ve acquired to improve and expand this project that’s Right There, WAITING for me to finally get off my ass and get pages out there again?

I wish I could say I’ve used all this time away in a particularly clever way, but I really haven’t - at least, it feels like I haven’t. My art has undoubtedly improved over time (though admittedly the art for this post was Very rushed, fuckin exams), and while I’ve been working on projects in the background, chipping away at them in a VERY disorganised way, I haven’t been posting that progress anywhere, and I haven’t made any good progress on my biggest project, Dread Not, because of the other ones. And, honestly? Admitting that kinda stings. This comic means a lot to me, and I wish I actually gave it the time and attention it deserves instead of letting it sit out hiatus after hiatus because I keep failing at structuring my time.

So, my new plan is a little more abstract: find a way to work Dread Not into my school schedule, and slowly build a habit of working on it more often. No clue how long that’ll take, but I think it’ll be worth it to consider it as an option, and hopefully finally end these long, drawn out hiatuses with short bursts of uploads in-between. HOPEFULLY. Building habits was never my strong suit, so please bear with me while I figure this out in what will probably be the most hectic upload schedule in this comics history, which is: no schedule at all.

From now on (until the end of Act 1), I’ll upload pages when they’re ready, and depending on how the weeks go and how complex the page is, they could be weeks or days apart from one another. Hell, some might even take a month to finish if school stuff gets REALLY hectic (god knows Hellish Exam Week number 1 and number 2 won’t be giving me much time to work on the comic), but I’m determined to do this. I want to be able to put my all into this project again!!

(And hopefully finish Act 1 by the end of this semester…)

TL;DR: College is giving me life lessons I didn’t expect, and because of them I’ve decided to give myself a non-existent upload schedule for Dread Not: Pages will be posted when they’re ready, and the spacing between pages could wildly vary depending on circumstances and the actual complexity of the page itself.

As always, thank you for being here, thank you for reading, and thank you for being patient!

If all goes well, there will be new content very, very soon.

#dread not #dreadnot #dread not au #dreadnotau #not comic #kris #schedule update #again #apparently i was calling this last hiatus a pseudo hiatus? #oh silly past me. this was a full blown hiatus jesus fucking christ #but yeah no i love being at this college dont get me wrong #its just that i have like 3 exams to prepare for the next two days ALONE #so like!!!! wish me luck!!!!! for christs sake #yknow i was planning on actually Dedicating Time to the art for this post #but uhh. haha. a little thing called the consequences to my actions caught up to me #fuckin psychology exam today that i had to cram for last night #i think it went ok? who the fuck knows at this point #but for tomorrow and the day after that i have digital shit to finish some theory to cram AND an ENTIRE PAINTING #that i didnt even START YET #and its an autoportrait. as if i wasnt suffering enough i have to stare at my ugly mug for hours #AGAIN. BECAUSE I HAD A DIFF AUTOPORTRAIT TO FINISH FOR LAST WEEK #im in spain without the s yall pray for me

[musubiki]

i think it would be very funny if lime kept stealing all of mochis side quests because he thinks theyre fun even though he doesnt need any of the rewards and everyone is pissed because they could actually use the things she gives in exchange but lime keeps fucking taking all the side quest resources before anyone has a chance to report back

#mochi standing in the hall with the little blue checkmark #(bring me 3 red angle frogs and an empty snapple bottle and i can trade you 5 cafe cakes) #or (deliver these goods to the homeroom teacher in exchange for exam hints) #no one knows how or why she has these things and the mob spell prevents people from questioning it #and when you go look for angel frogs lime is like (haha idiot i already got them all LMAO) #mochi after lime completes the 5th side quest for that day: dont you think you should save some side quests for everyone else-- #lime: you got your frogs didnt you? what do you care who gets them for you? #mochi: i feel bad.. #lime just doesnt like when too many guys start doing her side quests #none of it is romantic but he doesnt like it anyway #and then his fangirls start getting mad too #them @ mochi: no side quests today??? how am i supposed to get you to give this to lime?! #mochi: try again tomorrow i guess...? #its like a multiplayer game where every side quest is a free for all #limes the type to play a game to completion. do all the possible side quests

[shrews-art]

I got like really sick and at the same time I have exams coming up that I really shouldn't skip so with all that I can't muster up the energy to draw and on god the ideas hopping around in my brain are multiplying by the minute dgdjhdkdgdj

#it's been a tough few days :') #my chronic pain is acting up too I'm guessing bc of the exhaustion #at least after my exam tomorrow I can rest a bit!!! gonna catch up on fics I've been wanting to read hehe #also con this weekend!!!! my venti cosplay makes me happier than ever tbh <3 I can't wait to go in it #wonder if I should post pics here hmmmm #I always do in Instagram stories but that feels a little different #personal #shrews ramblings

[exopelagic]

okay I’m going insane I need to fix my sleep schedule now

#I cannot keep getting up at/after midday this is driving me crazy #SO. I’m gonna not do ice hockey for a little bit until I can get myself normal #I want to step away from ice hockey anyway bc the new committee are being annoying and I need them to stop making me do things #tonight I will go to bed at midnight. and I will stop everything to get ready for bed by 10 bc I need that time #and tomorrow I’m setting my alarm for 7:30 #I’m going to have mornings again if it kills me bc this is making me feel like shit now #will also mean hopefully I’m less stressed about work and can schedule stuff with my friends bc oh my god everything has been a nightmare #this week. and it’s only Tuesday what the fuck #also going to make a sleep tracker again bc that worked in February #and I’m setting library times for weekdays as 9:30-12 and 2-5 because getting there is the problem and I normally stay longer once I’m ther #and that worked for exams AND there’s just less work to do now so if I can keep on top of it everything should be fine #just have to actually do it #like right now I rlly need to go get writing bc I need to figure out some title options and that needs to be done by tomorrow afternoon #otherwise there won’t be time to get feedback from my supervisor before the deadline #so while today might be a bit of a lost cause bc I need to shower go to the shop and cook which takes most of the free working time #I can do something and if I can make tomorrow morning work I’ll have enough time #I’m okay with having periodic getting my shit together days as long as I do use them to get my shit together #now pls. get your shit together <3 #luke.txt

[love4hobi]

why have i been the busiest ever since hots started airing 🦧

#i have 3 exams this week . #and now my doctors ordered a bunch of imaging literally 4 different things that im anxious abt #but im gonna try to push until after the semester #but i have to get blood drawn tomorrow morning pls help #last time i got blood drawn i felt so weak for the next like 4 days #i have terrible circulation!!!! and it doesnt help when they steal all my blood #and i have some much schoolwork but i just wanna gif :( #:((((((( #blood tw

[ah0yh0y]

the moment when you wonder if this spinning spiraling existential crisis and buzzing in the crevices' of your bones is actually just because you lack sleep and you haven't eaten properly

#ahoys thoughts #did i wate 3 hours todya of not actually studying with trying and failing real hard not to fall inot a pit of feelings on inadequacy #when i have an exam the day after tomorrow yes i did waste that much time no i have not ahold of the conepts i need aah #i should get off the internet. hm

[kyouka-supremacy]

<3

#Btwww have an exam tomorrow and after that I'm going to answer asks still in my inbox so like. #If you feel like shooting me any to give me a reason to get through tomorrow I'd love you forever 🥺🥺 #Or scream to me about chapter 107.5 because like. I'm growing more excited every day #And besides that yesterday I realized that???? It's just one month till season 5??????? That's absolutely insane????????? #Like wtf!!!! Literally not ready #Anyways. take care <3 #Pray that I don't die during tomorrow exam #random rambles #Actually I'm stuck at university for the next 15 minutes at least and I dunnot what to do uhmmmmmmmmm

[todayisafridaynight]

DID YOU MISS THE EXAM... Either way I can believe in that superstition for a sec I'm so sorry 😭😭😭

NONO I TOOK IT. BARELY. I BARELY TOOK IT. I JUST THOUGHT CLASS WAS GOING TO BE NORMAL BUT NOPE <3<3<3

#snap chats #ngl cried a lil in classs... mightve scribbled a bit on the page.. which has happened before when taking spanish tests LMAO #the rage and anger i felt... oh to punch a wall like i literally just wanted to leave and scream #and i havent felt that kind of anger in a hot minute it was so ugly LMAOOOO so stupid nothing even majorly bad happened #it just the build up ig.... anyways... #I THOUGHT IT WAS WEDNESDAY CAUS EI HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT TOMORROW #AND ASSIGNMENTS ARE USUALLY DUE THE DAY BEFORE THE EXAM BUT. OK. FUCK ME IG #when i finally stopped being a big ol baby i focused on the questions and they weren't actually too hard so im p sure i did fine #it was just... The Emotional Damage of walking in thinking it was gonna be a chill day after Everythin and its like :) No Exams Today :) #the funnier bit is that i literally asked my professor and then she forgot to give me the exam so i had to ask her for it 🧍‍♂️ #right after asking about the exam 🧍‍♂️like i know im unremarkable but you JUST spoke to me.... #my reputation of being the most invisible man continues..... an ironic title to have but ill take it.... #call my ass kellam the way i have to remind people im here <3 fe homies will know what that means and they'll know im right </3 #anyway to end the horrible night. Hopefully. i was gonna get milk from the milk dispenser Because We Have Those #and the milk i usually get was empty so i got the second one and the spout was tilted weirdly so the milk just went backwards #so that was fun. to get. and then a guy tried getting chocolate milk after me and Something happened cause he just yelled the f slur LOL #what a day... it's no one's day today apparently..... #anyway Lesson Learned don't fuck with three's. i don't like the number three it always gives me bad vibes... #did i disclose my Unhealthy relationship with numbres.. i prob did lol.. ima wrap this post up now...

[its-coda]

Commissioning someone is so fun bc i get to be jumpscared by really good art of my favorite silly guys

#coda’s rambles #also hi tomorrow is the last day of exams after that im gna be drawing again >:3

[star-mum]

okay lovelies I'm officially done with the group assignment that was hanging over my head and draining the soul outta my body this past ENTIRE WEEK

#If I get a score under 8 I think I'll actually cry #... #okay if I get anything under a 9 my heart will break into a million pieces #Yes I put a lot of my worth as a person onto my performance in class #IM A LITTLE FUCKED IN THE HEAD #WHY DO YOU THINK IM ON TUMBLR FOR #I was not particularly pretty funny or popular in school #but DAMN IT if I wasnt a Delight To Have in Class #I must impress every single teacher I come across #please save me #OKAY !! #I have a test tomorrow that I havent started studying for #and I have a report on my intership due wednesday that I havent started either : D #and it needs to be done in the morning so my mom can print it out : D #alright its waking up at 6am everyday for the next two weeks for me !! #I should start it tonight at least so I can focus on my test tomorrow but my sister needs to use the computer too :/ #I have exams for the next 3 days :3 #Maybe a phd isnt for me... #like this is a BAs and Im already struggling #alright quick cry break after dinner then we regroup

[newtness532]

im going to have to start studying tomorrow

#ugh i hate it #and when i go back to uni i have to do an assignment for a class that is on the same day as the exam (stupid me) #and i think im supposed to use statistics? bro i dont even remember what dataset means #you are a chemistry class you are asking for too much #i need a longer break #anyway tomorrow i need someone to force me to study cause im running out of time #oh i can also study on my way to uni i guess #so when i get home i can work on the assignment which i hope wont take more than an hour #and then ill have the rest of the time to study for the exam #and i know most things i just have to memorize some values and remember some foods and micronutrients and tips and stuff #oh and ill have to rememorize the bmr formula #ugh have i already mentioned that i hate exams? #anyway im going to focus all my energy on the 3 most important exams and ehatever happens with the other 5 happens #fuck am i nervous #whose idea was it to have an exam the day we go back after the holidays? #jo says stuff #university update

[collecting--stardust]

Rebelling for the first time by trying to convince my parents (especially my mom) to let me take the night flight and didn't back down even when my mom obviously dislike the idea so pls pray for me that my parents give the green light 🙏

#okay so usually for other courses they have 3 months of break before the new semester #since im in nursing we have short sem and im in currently in my 3rd week of clinical posting out of 6 #but after my clinical posting ended i need to sit for my osce exam which is like a skill exam #THE THING IS: instead of immediately let us sit for our osce our course coordinator told us it will be at 19/9 #even though my clinical posting ended on the first week of September #so im desperate for more holidays and want to go home at 19/9 on the night flight with my friends who stop at klia #and then me and my friend take the earliest morning flight to tgg because we are the only one that need to transit #but the things is my mom is worried that we will sleep at their airport and don't want to let us take the night flight #so it means ill take a transit flight on the morning of 20/9 #but that means ill arrive at tgg in the evening and its like a day wasted just for travelling #plus i love night flights so ive been convincing them which i never did #my dad seems ready to give the green light but my mom hmm #will call her tomorrow to convince her and hopefully she will listen and let me go ✨MANIFESTING✨ #personal.txt

[wutheringhestia]

standing at the bus stop with the winter sun, listening to northbound by grace petrie, was a moment from today that was so <3

#tw for medical things in the tags my loves #it’s been an odd couple of days - feeling things in my body that I haven’t felt since the whole 2018 year-I-almost-didn’t-survive fiasco #and I’m okay! I’m not anywhere even close to that situation now. but it’s strange to be briefly feeling like I’m sharing a body with my #17 year old self #had an almost medical emergency after my french exam but I was able to manage it myself and everything was okay #and it’s strange thinking that this afternoon could have ended up in an emergency visit but instead I got to catch the bus under a big blue #sky and think about how my city is the most beautiful place in the world in my heart. and then I got to visit my friend who’s flying back to #nz tomorrow and play cards with their little sister #life !!!!!! #if you’re still here GO LISTEN TO GRACE PETRIE. LESBIAN PROTEST SINGER WHOM I ADORE #tw death #tw medical #just to be safe <3

[zouisexo]

.

#the day i had man dsjnfdsj #so i woke up at 8am to study #bc i had an exam at 11 and hadn't even finished reading everything yet #then i took my exam #had lunch quickly and left for class #omw to class my phone gets STOLEN #right out of my bag #so v cool and then i had a 4 hour class #on antibiotics #and i didn't know if i passed my morning exam or not bc they sent the marks on my phone #so all day i didn't know #anyways after my fucking long ass class #where i was about to cry all the time fjdsnfjk bc i was so sad #i had therapy and then got home #and i did pass <3 yay <3 #but i so sleept #sleeeeeepy #and tomorrow i have to wake up early #and go get a new phone #which costs like a zillion dollars #but anyways #im not too bad actually i feel ok now #but i was so sad all day jfdsnfj #and also i'd been sad all week so #now im good <333333333 #now on to blog abt louis <333333333333333333 #shut up laura