#Anyways I'm just monologuing now

[gideonisms]

since we are a week from nona here are my top predictions. Now I don't have "evidence" for these so much as Vibes. With that in mind:

*alecto in harrow's body, harrow in alecto's body, gideon back in gideon body by end of book

*gr*ddlehark kiss but in the most convoluted angsty possible way before they are parted once again by circumstance

*ianthe makes suggestive comments to john who nopes out of there to the dream bubble where he meets with harrow

*coronabeth badtwin moment

*nona has to sacrifice her identity to become someone she was before, we all cry

*camilla palamedes tragic choice

*Anastasia/Alecto scraps

*mercy/augustine Actual failed marriage pre-necromancy

*john hot professor moment (vindication for me specifically when everyone who isn't a lesbian or a Good People Enjoyer follows me into my toxic waste thirst zone)

*some kid Nona knows becomes a zombie

*3 shakespeare refs this time

*between 5 and 10 bible refs

*yeah I'm still on my nona is alecto bullshit. I don't buy gideon, harrow, or any combo because both of them are intense in ways that Nona is not & I don't think you could go back far enough in their memories to make either one of them easygoing but who am I to say

*fuck it. pyrrha/camilla give camilla a sexy summer fling let's see how complicated we can make this polycule

*aiglamene with a steel chair

*nona not affected by resurrection beast, thinks it's cool & potentially a friend

*tamsyn picks a new character to convince me to like better (babs?? silas??? some new horrible teen I have trouble getting invested in but grow to appreciate by the end?)

and finally

*I don't cry at the expected moment but at a totally different moment that hits me out of nowhere

#nona the ninth #nona the ninth spoilers #ig? #for the shorter preview which i'm using to make some of these guesses which are in all honesty just crack #like this is just me amusing myself #also dni if you've read the arc we're a week from what i consider fair game for spoilers #honestly i'm not a huge cryer for books i tend to just get unexplainable emotions that are the same as drinking too much caffeine #but both prev books did make me cry a little. in h*n it was the one scene where she goes to the planet & she's away from the horrible lyctor #situation & she has the little monologue about bugs & trees & how her heart is an empty burrow but it's okay now that she's alone #in g*n it was gideon comforting harrow after her *own* death. moments that simply. #anyway i hope nona makes me full on sob. stuff rarely does but i need some quality angst okay!! i need my heart stomped on

[allthoseotherworlds]

It's honestly pretty frustrating sometimes how I feel like so many people say they love Martha, but mostly what I actually see people saying about Martha is how much she probably does/should hate the Doctor for not returning her crush, or sometimes how much people hate Blink/Family of Blood/Last of the Time Lords because they were hard for her.

And like, the former of those is frustrating because a) Nobody is obligated to return someone's romantic feelings, b) Being oblivious to someone having a crush on you might suck for the other person but is not actually a moral failing and c) Martha was sad about it but like. She didn't leave because she was furious at the Doctor for not returning her crush? She left because she knew her crush wasn't reciprocated and wasn't going to be, but couldn't get over it on her end while travelling with the Doctor. And also because the past year had been pretty traumatizing for everyone, including her and also the Doctor and also everyone else who was on that ship thing.

Anyways

I just wanted to talk for a bit about the things I like about Martha, or that are interesting, that are unrelated to those points above.

I think she's the first companion in New Who to join Unit, and I think still the only one to be a medical doctor with a strong scientific backing. Which is cool!

I think it's interesting that in the first episode she appears in, her family is shown to be kind of messy and kind of frustrating, and it feels like that's something she's a little glad to be getting away from for a bit when she travels with the Doctor (though it's not the reason she travels with them). And then, at the end of the season when her family is in danger she prioritizes their wellbeing enough to snap at the Doctor about it. If I remember correctly their phones were tapped or something and it wound up making things a bit worse, but I appreciate the nuances of her relationship with them and how important they are to her despite the messiness.

Despite all the ado made about her crush on the Doctor, I really loved how she really seemed to get the point of travelling with the Doctor. I think that she nailed both the joy and excitement of the unknown, and the compassion and sense of care that motivates the Doctor's travels, and which I think is vital to all of my favourite companions.

It also contrasts in interesting ways with how her personality shifts after she stops travelling with the Doctor - she still cares about people's wellbeing and seems to value the things she learned while travelling, but working with Unit and Torchwood does make her more military, and then of course doing freelance alien fighting (? or something?) in the End of Time.

I think Martha and the Doctor are an interesting duo because they contrast each other in interesting ways. They're both compassionate, hopeful but practical, and good at what they do, but they reflect those qualities in ways that almost, but don't quite, fit together nicely. They don't conflict, really, but they're not quite sustainable either.

They work well together and care about each other, but they're too similar in some ways and too different in others to ever quite see eye to eye, which is why they end up going in different directions. And I think that's not anyone's fault, or indicative of any deep flaws in either of them. Or even really a tragedy, because Martha seems to be doing new and interesting things every time we see her, with plenty of options available and a decent rapport with the Doctor whenever they show up.

Anyway this got way longer than I meant it to. Tldr: There are so many more interesting things to say about Martha than just "She must hate the Doctor". Here are some of them.

#Also I didn't have room here but. I understand hating the family of blood stuff but. John Smith is not the Doctor. That's the whole point #John Smith is absolutely rude to Martha and I dislike him as a person. But he is also not the Doctor #And I absolutely do not believe that the Doctor handpicked the persona and went “Yeah. Making him rude and racist and like guns” #I think they just got out the chameleon arch and said #“Here's the time and location that gives us the best shot at avoiding the family of blood. Give me and Martha random identities. Thanks” #That said it's actually not an episode I particularly like so I don't know why I'm rambling about it here #I get anxious about things where characters are Not Themselves and being rude and mean in ways they aren't #And also found the ending a little Too Much personally #Anyways I'm just monologuing now #Doctor Who #Doctor Who Meta #Martha Jones #I am talking #I am just some guy (gender neutral) #This post brought to you by another person joking about how Martha is so strong for putting up with the Doctor because of the crush stuff #And me as an aromantic not enjoying the implication that I am something to put up with and that the most interesting thing anyone can say #about a dynamic between two people is how much it sucks that one of them didn't know the other had a crush and 'led them on' #or whatever. But just ranting about that again didn't feel constructive so I tried to say more interesting things instead

[adozentothedawn]

Six Sentence Someday

Tagged by @orime-stories thank you!

Despite what it looks like, I am in fact ocasionally still writing, I just tend to word vomit about my current obsession and then never finish it.^^° So yeah, my last game that I finished was Fire Emblem Fates: Conquest and it made me go insane, so have a part of my 1k monologue that I wrote for a potential time travel fix it. It is only 5 sentences because 6 would have been awkward, but if I ever get to it again you'll get a lot more.

"They ordered me to kill you but I couldn't do it. I would have ruined everything because I looked at you and remembered cherry blossoms and warm nights. I remembered off key lullabies and larger hands than mine on my back. I couldn't do it. And I think when you looked at me you knew that."

Gonna tag @adraveins and @stylishanachronism if you have anything you'd like to share.^^

#thanks for tagging me! #i know I don't respond to a lot of tags these days but i promise i see and appreciate all of them #i'm just writing my bachelor's thesis and that takes a lot of my brain power #i am in fact currently procrastinating on that #anyway wanna guess what that scene is? #it's not hard for anyone who's played the game probably tbh most of that monologue right now is just recounting what happened #with a bit of personal perspective #that game is wild in how it fluctuates between legit punching me in the teeth with emotion and being absolute garbage #the idea of that potential fic is that the corrin of all paths is the same #kinda like how some 3h fics work #time travel back to the crux and try again #my excuse is magic dragon bullshit cause no one can stop me #i am ironically also somewhat itching to write an Odin and Camilla ship #cause i have opinions about that #might write a separate post for that some time if anyone's interested #would be another opportunity to procrastinate xD #anyway orime don't be confused about my follow message for some damn reason tumblr unfollowed me a while back and i didn't notice #tumblr shenanigans

[yelenapines]

watched tbosas today. needless to say i am obsessed with the red uniform skirt and they should have been wearing those the whole movie. thank you.

#tbosas #much more to say about this movie but thats it for now #actually no lets TALK #they literally changed how the games end which is fine but like how is no one noticing #also um clemensia dropped in got bit and thats it?? bye bye? have fun? #also this annoying bitch in my grade said she hates sejanus in the movie but loves him in the book um please get his name out of your mouth #if you're gonna be speaking filth about my son #ugh #anyways um rachel ate #love how the movie can tell the whole story tho i *am* conflicted about my feelings on how fast paced it was #and then again not seeing his inner monologue is a problem but like it's a movie so idk #also ofc the vibe is different between parts 1 and 2 and part 3 idk why people dont like it i think its cool and like thats the point to se #his evolution #sejanus' death was horrible like i'm sorry the mockingjays reproducing his last cries for help are just. #anyhoo #i will not shut up ok let's keep going #ik that like ppl are simping for tom blyth and as u should tbh same but you COULD NOT CHANGE HIM OR FIX HIM IK ITS A JOKE BUT IT BOTHERS ME #SO MUCH #like ik it's being silly and goofy but it just rubs me the wrong way cause like its not true #also Tigris and Snow's story is so fucking sad kms #also TF WAS THAT MOMENT IN THE ARENA WHERE SEJANUS ALMOST KISSED CORYO WE ALL SAW IT OK #sejanus is not straight at all lmao he spent the whole movie batting eyelashes at coryo but ALSO i love the angst of the marcus x sejanus i #idea i made up #also coriolanus is so fucking goofy like bitch pls “mY oLd SeLf. I kIlLeD hIm To Be WiTh YoU” bestie sit down #ok rant over #yelenaposts #sejanus plinth

[draconicace]

*tries to look into the future at the inevitable 5th gen remakes and next legends game* you'll do something with paradox pokemon right. right?

#aiden's monologuing #it works perfectly thematically... #listen i just want 5th gen remakes to be good. i want bdsp to be an anomaly #i also want to shiny hunt for scarlet paradox pokes... i don't want to do union circle or whatever... #not even sure union circle works for area zero anyway #idc about the snacksworth legends bc they're shiny-locked. i have them all in regular form #it is great for newer players though! i'm glad old legendaries are easier to get now #also extremely glad i can get kubfu in this game so i don't have to play through sword a third time for my living dex #ailbpokesv #i do have to play through violet and dlc a second time to get pokemon for trading though... ghh #second switch profile my beloved. unlocks so many doors for me

[musicalchaos07]

Idk how to tell y'all this but uh Will is getting possessed again I'm sure of it

#like just with the s2 tweet #it's not looking good for the boy #combined with the now that I'm here in Hawkins 👀👀👀 #i mean did they move them to California for El or was Owens trying to weaken Will's connection to vecna #who can say #“Eddie is gonna be kas” EDDIE IS DEAD AND WILL BYERS IS THE MAIN CHARACTER #anyways don't mind me #stranger things #st 5 #will byers #Byler #<- Target audience #bc Mike's love monologue (real version) is going to save Will

[septembersghost]

the silence that only comes when two people understand each other

#so my secret opinion here now that i've read this is the show was not only a great adaptation #but a superior telling of the story because i actually FELT the love and magnetism between the characters that i think was rather lacking #on the page #not only in regards to daisy and billy but with the entire band and with simone #and i really like the changes they made and the way they fleshed everyone out #it just worked much better for me. the ending landed harder too #because this story isn't one love story it's several all tangled together #and i MUCH prefer daisy's path in the show too...just the whole story coalesced in such a beautiful way #but i'm still glad i read this and i smiled that they put this monologue #and the “whatever made daisy burn made me burn” part in the show #maybe tjr and i just don't click well bc you know how i felt about that other book of hers (djats was better for me overall) #anyway of her writing this is my favorite passage and the most ts-coded #words #love for you is like a religion

[flufflecat]

Hi everyone. I just want you to know I’m thinking about crowley supernatural. Sorry. (◠ᴥ◕ʋ) (●__●) (ー_ー゛)

#crowley spn #i'm not that sorry actually #had an in depth discussion about his character and motivations and how the writers failed #took a nap #woke up and went back to contemplating him but with even more manic energy #now just you wait. i can justify this obsession #you see: i like him #:) #it's not my fault i'm a 10 #with great taste and no unresolved mental issues #i prommy i'm like soooooo mentally sound and you can tell bc i'm projecting on a totally respectable character to project on #no i promise it's fine #projecting on the gay homophobically mistreated constantly overlooked supernatural character is healthy actually #all i can say is that if /i/ wrote him he'd never be treated like this #and he'd be diagnosable with all the same issues i've got agfkahfkjajf #i'm healthy and great thnks for asking #i also go on monologues about being evil like once a month but i'm totally fine thx 4 asking #someone needs to make me a fictional character so i can be misinterpreted by the audience and be evil for funsies #i'm edgy. i could do it. you could put i can't decide by the scissor sisters on my playlist. i promise. i'm edgy. #anyway. bye lol #fluffle talks #also who wants to hear about how I can project my personal journey with aromanticism onto him #I don't think he's aro I just have a stunning ability to project

[aroacehanzawa]

i see nakata seigi from the case files of jeweler richard is competing against kim dokja for most unreliable narrator of all time whilst narrating about a guy they are deeply in love with

#nakata seigi: 'i spend every single page talking about how hot my boss is but that has nothing to do with anything.' #'i have a crush on a girl who coincidentally has the same interests as my boss. i will get a girlfriend and get married because that's what #normal people do. even though i just talked wistfully about my high school friend and said it would be weird if we met again if he was #married now. and then pretended not to understand how that would be a weird thing to say about a friend. #anyway when i was in school i wanted to marry this guy.' #SEIGI?????????? HOLD UP #HE JUST DROPS THAT LAST BIT OUT OF NOWHERE #completely UNPROMPTED his internal monologue was basically like oh yeah if what i said could be misunderstood that's because it's #not actually a misunderstanding really #??????????????? #i hate this guy he acts like a Generic Light Novel Protag with no personality with a superficial crush on his female classmate while being #equally superficially obsessed with his boss's appearance but i'm starting to think i don't know this guy AT ALL

[keeps-ache]

i've had tiny pieces of dialogue following me around for most of the year, little bits i'd think about sometimes and turn in my hands thinking 'okay. this has somethin goin on with it. i dunno what but like. it does'. and then today i was in the car and suddenly they all just clicked together and waow. woah

#just me hi #it was a whole thing #like an entire villain monologue like where did That come from #also made me realize i was bi again but we don't need to talk about that khbdsd #and then you won't believe what happened!! #i FORGOT the whole thing!!! :DDDD [<- in pain] #all i know what that it had something to do with truth and fire and that's IT #that's ALL i've got #hhhhhhhhhh loll #//anyway in OTHER news #i am Struggling making stuff lol ;u; #i dunno whyyyyyy #like i WANT to make things and i have some vague ideas but then i sit down to scribble and then suddenly POOF #i don't like being so so so repetitive because it bothers me like an itch you can't reach so i refuse to just. do what my brain can do aahh #i say Can Do bc there are No other thoughts in here [collapses] #like uuuuuhgiuashkhdgk #YEAH i could work on my project but then i start Thinking about it and the. Black Magic get all up in the works uhhhghgh #POINT is. ... what was my point uhhhh #POINT is brain is being a funky little guy right now. just a really JAZZY tiny dude. giving me the blues out here uhg #anyway i'm listening to new music so i can't focus that well rn lol so if none of this makes sense or something then uhhhhhhhhh #just uhhhh imagine. imagine Rice. white rice brown rice yellow rice orange rice boom Rice #ok i go now- toodliesssss

[infriga]

Broooooo Control was so good. I haven't played the DLC yet but damn even just the main game is hella fun and cool and the story is great too.

#The fake out ending definitely had me going ''whaaaaaaat' #But then I realized what kinda game it is and figured it was probably a fake out lol #Control #Control game #I wonder what happened to Dr. Darling? Is he in Hadron's original world? Did he end up hosting part of Hadron too? #Is that how he was able to send a message to Jesse? #It didn't seem like a recording because he says that Hadron is gone now so it seems like he's reacting to her destruction #So did Casper have his own Polaris? #Maybe the dlc will offer some illumination #Also lol at the game having blatant sequel bait for Alan Wake lol #This game actually results in the Alan Wake plot making a lot more sense in the context of this (shared) universe though #Like Bright falls being an AWE and the clicker being an O.O.P #And I'm guessing Alan is a parautilitarian #Anyway Control is great and I love the world building #Last thought: maybe Darling actually is dead since the message appeared similar to the Trench Echoes... #Granted I don't think it was stated that the echoes could only come from dead people #Heck even the echo thing is just Pope's theory #OH also Jesse is a great MC #I love how often the game cuts to her inner monologue where she's just judging people or going off on a tangent #Like when she's wondering what's in the bags she got for Arish from his dead friends and thinks ''is it rude to ask what's inside?'' #Then immediately asks ''what's inside the pouches?'' out loud followed by her thinking ''too late now'' lmao #Ok now I'm done rambling lol

[miharuhebinata]

OK WAIT INSANE 6 AM RAMBLE INCOMING THAT IS ALSO SORT OF(?) RELATED TO MY PREVIOUS POST?? ok so like, we've all pretty much convinced ourselves that will is going to have a coming out scene at some point in volume 2, right? or at the very least we've convinced ourselves that he's going to confess his feelings to mike, even if he just strongly hints at it & never says it outright. basically my point is that everyone (and by everyone i mean those of us on tumblr & also what i would assume to be a large chunk of the general audience, maybe?), a lot of our focus has been fixated solely on will. not entirely ofc, but for the most part. but what if it's all been a red herring this whole time? not that he's gay, because obviously he is. but what if, just hear me out, WHAT IF. this whole time the big reveal that we've been building up to isn't that will is gay (& in love with mike), but that mike is gay (&, presumably, in love with will)????? 😮🤯😮🤯

( ...... yes i know i sound insane, especially in the tags, but once you think about it a bit? & when you're sleep-deprived?? idk man, it kinda starts to make some sense 👀🤔🔍 )

#plus this idea would work perfectly with the idea of will becoming a bigger part of the plot again either in vol 2 or season 5?? #like aside from those that are just the dumbest most heteronormative motherfuckers alive the audience already knows he's in love with mike. #we don't necessarily need textual &/or verbal confirmation to come to that conclusion #(although it would be nice if only so those aforementioned heteronormative weirdos would never be able to deny it without #actively burying their heads in the sand & looking stupid). you know who's side we DO still need to see though? mike's. #we still have yet to get a good look at what's going on inside his head. who knows what thoughts are rolling around in there? #remember his character is supposed to have some big emotional monologue coming up soon. could it be a sweeping declaration of love toward #el? yeah ofc. but the point is at this moment we really have zero clue for sure! it could just as easily be a coming out scene ya know? #& to get back to my point about this working well with the idea of will getting mixed up in actual plot. well since we already know how he #feels they could have his character focus more on that meanwhile mike becomes a bit more introspective. #how should he tell will? *can* he tell will? is it worth it? what about their friendship? it's such a hugely monumental thing to have to #deal with. is he even ready? how are you supposed to know if you're ready? #.....ok i'm legit making myself emotional now. time to pack it in girlies #i can already tell i'm gonna be so embarrassed rereading this when i wake up but i promise i won't delete 😩😭 #anyway hope you all enjoyed my insane wishful thinking <33333 #mike wheeler #will byers #p: the best thing i've ever done #stranger things #st spoilers #📺 tag #send tweet

[eggmeralda]

reading about expressive language disorder and maybe it's an explanation as to why I've never formed a full sentence in my whole life :')

#^above is literally a full sentence but that's not the point #it's still a mess of a sentence i guess #can't form a sentence without saying i guess and stuff it's like yeah but anyway all that sort of thing and like you know etc. #and i always don't know the names of objects so i just call everything a guy or a lad with some vague hand gesture #and i have never been able to easily write an essay in my whole life #and i can never hold a conversation #and i always thought it was just bc of no internal monologue but I've heard of other people who also don't have one and they can still talk #maybe this explains why i barely spoke from age 16-18 and even now i'm known for being relatively quiet #bc if i say something it'll be an incoherent ramble #not a single thought in my head <3 #this is a revelation though omg #i guess in the past few years I've become more confident with talking but it's bc I've just given up trying to make sense so now i just #idk but i just won't say the names of things I'll just point at them or i'll mix tenses up and stuff #also atm i'm basically just putting all the thoughts in these tags as they're appearing for a split second in my head so this is incoherent #but yeah anyway idk if i actually have expressive language disorder itself #but i definitely have Something #i'm thinking of other messed up language stuff like how for the past almost decade i've mixed up words and pronunciations from #other languages like the ones i learnt at school #which i cannot speak but i now know random words #so sometimes i'll just get the urge to pronounce something as it would be in spanish or whatever #and also after a while i'll just get bored of the sensation of saying a certain word so i'll change it. spice it up a bit #especially if it's a word i say a lot #so like names of characters i hyperfixate on get absolutely butchered on purpose #*looking at entry swig rokey unn bytirr 27 teed dav aoodry and bianpolay rn* #anyway this is an absolute ramble and completely going with the theme of this post i do not what i'm supposed to be saying #so i'll end it there #but anyway i love a midnight revelation <3 #ramble

[oasatelematics]

the secret actually good "they both die at the end" that lives in my head

#little more than halfway through now #and the writing style is still cringe #like I'm sorry but you can't convince me this is what the internal monologue of a teenager sounds like #the references to pop culture/social media and use of slang feel so forced #and with every page silvera seems to just dump beloved memories of the main characters on us as if to say #look! look how Human they are! they loved their family! feel Connected to them! be Sad that they'll die! #like I love the concept and the idea but the execution is just so mid and lukewarm that it's a miracle I even feel attached #to the characters at all #feel like my writer friends could write this book much better don't @ me im right #my writer friends if you're reading this I know you'd make me insane if any of you had written this instead I just know it #anyway. it's like a generous 6/10 so far. very generous #vegan.txt #this is goodreads for me btw this is where my book reviews will go if I ever write any more #straight into the tumblr post tags

[draconicace]

ok i've watched the trailer. they're bringing mega evolution back this is not a drill they're bringing back a gimmick mechanic that had lore implications and timeline shenanigans. mega evolution

#aiden's monologuing #ailbpoke #*just barely holding myself back* #will we Finally get to know what's up with Az. with the literal war that happened #if it's futuristic though that might not be the case? hm #saw someone say if legends: a was in the past and legends: z is in the future that could connect to bw's themes #i'm excited to see the connections! and it does make sense to make a kalos legends game instead of unova i think #anyway good. now bring back triple and rotation battles and put them in competitive please #i want to see the meta fall apart to clown-like plays

[wtnytv]

why do I feel like a shady double-faced garbage person for wishing the girl who has a crush on my crush a happy birthday 😭

#i genuinely like the girl #i am just being nice #why do i feel weird about ittttt #anyway idk if she even knows i like him 👀 #cause a mutual friend told me she liked him but they've been friends forever so surely he must've told her about my crush #it's just weirddd #i feel very weird about the whole thing #as you can tell i've never been friends with someone who has the same crush as i do #and now i'm catching up with that experience everyone goes through in their teens #ANYWAY #enjoy your day babes thanks for reading my rant ilysm #manon's monologue