#FUCK I could cry so much more LMAO

[xnervouscircus]

oh

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i am legitimately tearing up oh wow

#yeah okay i'm pretty much full-on crying at this #i guess i just assume my writing is the kind of thing you read once and maybe go “that was all right/amusing/evil/stupid” #and proceed to forget about entirely #nothing fucks me up more than people saying they've reread something of mine #IN A GOOD WAY #but yeah it's weird and wild #god i miss writing fanfic #i haven't written much of anything since covid first hit the US #and there's been no fandoms i've been like. IN enough to write for. #and lmao i have literally never not once in my life felt like i could write a good crowley or aziraphale so nope not ruining them. probably #but man i wish i could maybe write some beauyasha or widomauk #and i would love to finish a wangxian or snowbaz fic HOW HAVE I NEVER FINISHED A WANGXIAN OR SNOWBAZ FIC #no taibanis?? no catradoras???? i am a failure #but getting a comment like this. mm. makes the not-writing anxiety ease off a bit. #it's always there and Judging me for not really writing anymore #and yeah i would love to write again. anything. #but at least i wrote something once upon a time and it made some people happy #that's still pretty fucking cool #hope i can share something new someday that might make other people happy too #michele.txt #idk where all this rambling in the tags came from i'm emotional and i miss writing!!!!!!!!!!

[celestial-toys]

been laying here listening to Lucky by Dermot Kennedy on loop for half an hour while thinking about Everything Stays and crying

#it’s good crying dw i am just. i have so many feelings about this story #Seven’s Celestial Commentary #Everything Stays #writing stuff #i may be stuck in bed struggling to type due to personal reasons but that will Not stop me from cooking up ideas for this fic #there is gonna be so much fucking angst and it’s gonna hurt soooooo good #the more i listen to it the more the possibilities expand #i can easily see Moon and Reader going back and forth between verses vulnerably arguing over Sun #but i can also see it being Sun and Moon getting real and discussingcougharguingover Reader #can’t decide which i like more #god i wish y’all could see this story the way it plays out in my head #next best thing would be to keep writing and sharing the story instead of vagueposting abt future plot points tho wouldn’t it lmao #and GOD don’t even get me fucking STARTED on Two Hearts… #Dermot Kennedy’s music is responsible for yet Another plot point for this story and i can’t even be mad about it. his fucking lyricsss dude #‘and so we jump to the THEATER??? in that SAME OLD TOWN???’ DO WE? FUCK I GUESS WE DO NOW!!! #picture me listening to that song and inspiration hitting me like a truck. diligently taking notes like the lyrics r instructions from God #‘she sees his face?? and HE sees HER as the LIGHTS GO DOWN???’ write that down write that down #‘the life that they should’ve had sat between them that night??’ FUCK Man yeah it sure did!!! #anyways it’s chill i’m chill. i’m very normal about my little stories and their musical inspirations! #and i’ve listened to these songs a very normal amount (translation: they will likely be in my top ten for the 2024 wrapped) #(cut to the scenes playing vividly in my head) ‘Well‚ at least I can always say that I /told/ her!’ #‘I can’t relate to having a heart like that‚ Sun! With all of your wonder and your trust intact…’ #like no i wouldn’t lift the lyrics directly for the song to use as dialogue but FUCk does it work well.. Lucky is such a good script for- #like- a heated conversation between my Relentlessly Positive Sun and my Apathetic Jaded Moon #‘How could our farewell mean as much as our time? Honey‚ I’ll be gone. It’s better if I’m something that you leave behind.’ #‘I used to paint these trees‚ now I just scream at the sky. Honey I was wrong. Guess there’s certain things you never leave behind.’ #*sobbing shaking throwing up clawing at the walls* I Am Normal About These Characters #anyways uh. on an unrelated note how many song lyrics do ya think i can cram into ES before it’s Too Many #gonna have to start getting creative with how i can incorporate more songs in a way that feels natural and not forced #even tho i am forcing it. i am forcing it very much bc i have songs with applicable lyrics and y’all Will read them one way or another

[youmearepeaches]

my total admiration for nurses and caretakers. I’ve spent a couple of days taking care of my grandma because my aunt and mom are on holidays and I ended up crying out of frustration

#like i take care of her sometimes but not usually the heavy stuff like hospital admitions and stuff #it’s just so much work? and I’m physically and emotionally exhausted #she’s old and i adore her because she basically raised me #but fuck it’s hard to deal with someone who doesn’t listen and want things exactly the way she wants them and won’t accept other options #I’m just really frustrated right now after spending 1 hours between calls because she touched something on the tv and it didn’t work #i ended up sobbing and with a little mealtdown and my cousin managed to fix the issue via phone call #i feel weak and a failure but i mentally need a break agter yesterday #it breaks my heart but I can’t spent more than a few hours with my grandparents without ending up being very very frustrated #which makes me feel like I’m an ungrateful bitch #anyway i don’t have any more energy today and it’s not even 1pm #i wish i could call someone to give me a hug and hold me while i cry for a bit #but i feel guilty about bothering the few friends i have so yeah #im gonna pour my feelings in a tumblr post like i used to do 10 years ago lmao

[linonyang]

just watched barbie brb i'm gonna cry the whole night (the tags has some spoilers there ig)

#yk what i'm kinda tearing up already #idk i realized so many stuff it's so sad for me who loves being deep and sensitive #how the world is just so . fucked up to the core #how i should've embraced more abt being a woman #how barbie's image is no longer focused on the careers and capabilities the dolls could influence on us #how we just look at barbie on the surface level - the body and the face #the world was such a big influence on how we treated barbie and IT SUCKS #i wanna wear pink more :< i wanna be more girly :< i dont wanna gaf about what ppl say abt me esp as a woman #idk im kinda rambling atp #i'm happy that i'm kinda branching out on my girlier side this year #my teenage years were mostly avoiding pink bc of my subtle emo phase lol #but now i think being a girl is so fun #but so scary at the same time bc of reality #i grew so much fear of being harassed and sexualized just bc i am a woman #i hope the world will be a better place so i would be a girl without anybody judging me for simply being a girl yk #i was holding back my tears in the cinema lol #barbie's kinda hitting me hard already...... it's almost midnight LMAO #might cry myself to sleep idk #i love being a woman really #and i hope i'd still feel the same even if the world's crumbling down right in front of me #kinda wishing im in barbieland so i wouldnt deal with so much shit in life #it's so rough out there #i want to be happy and free </3 #i hope we'll be understood more as women.... as humans with feelings #r.text

[orcelito]

oh i also talked a lot about fire emblem today. specifically whether i was planning to buy Engage or not. verdict is: Probably, considering reviews say the tactics gameplay is really rich & that's like 80% of why i enjoy playing fire emblem. so yes i am not a fan of the character designs. but i will probably buy it. at some point.

i went to gamestop after work to see if i could find it but didnt see it and INSTEAD i saw 2 games for relatively cheap. so i got those instead.

#speculation nation #it's uhhh horizon zero dawn. which ive heard good things about. and tales of arise. which ive known i'd b getting eventually #considering how ive enjoyed every tales of games. & xillia 2 Still is the only game that's made me cry like a baby Twice #reviews seem pretty positive for tales of arise too so tbh more likely i'll play that first. #character designs of party members seem pretty solid too #i also got two sets of dice for a total of $4 so like that's pretty rad. im up to 82 sets now. Woo #i. need to go to sleep lskdjflskdjf #but ya me chatting with my coworkers who dont know fire emblem about different games #mentioning that my fav is still fe echoes bc it is superior in character design. story. map tactics. and ESPECIALLY the music. #but also i'll enjoy a slightly trashy fire emblem game which i KNOW bc i loved fates. genuinely. #it gets a lot of hate & god Knows i can complain about its faults endlessly #but i have a lot of fun with it and i love a lot of characters. So. #tbh so many ppl love three houses but i honestly enjoy fates more. there's a reason ive completed like 4 games of fates #and im still struggling through my 3rd of 4 playthroughs of three houses lmao #the maps are fun but there's too much downtime. & i feel like i Have to use the downtime bc otherwise im losing out on skill grinding #but i dont like fire emblem for wandering around and talking to people. i like fire emblem for playing complex tactical maps #and sure yea i could up the difficulty. probably will have to for my next three houses game to keep it interesting (it is WAY too easy) #but. yeah. back to back battles is probably Also a lot of why i like echoes #no wasting time just puttering around. we're on a WAR PATH. why would we go back to the castle between every fucking mission? #it makes no sense. genuinely. #anyeays uhm. fire emblem. i'll get it eventually.

[dan-crimes]

I gotta complain abt being a picky eater here for a sec cuz I'm lookin @ all this stuff on the breakfast menu and there's always the SAME ingredients in all these SAME food items and it would be SO much easier if I could just order food without having to think of all the stuff I DON'T want on my food cuz I always gotta put in so much effort to look into every single ingredient in every since food item that I order bcuz I DON'T LIKE MOST FOODS !!! SMHH !!

#mostly making a post abt this cuz there are ppl out there who think picky eaters are just childish and need to grow up #as if I'm CHOOSING to be a picky eater #and they call it childish cuz they think ppl just don't wanna be healthy and eat veggies and it's not THAT bad or whatever #THE THING IS! I FUCKING LOVE VEGETABLES!! THAT LITERALLY PROVES IT'S NOT PEOPLE JUST THROWING HISSY FITS !!!! #I literally LOVE fruits and veggies and I'm honestly not a big fan of candy like I enjoy it but I have a pretty low limit for em #like I could just eat tons of fruits and veggies no problem but candy makes me sick if I eat more than a few of em #snacks on the other hand like chips and nuts and granola and stuff are a different story #which btw my family does NOT have the same taste buds as me they are all SUPER unhealthy and I like the most healthy foods #not including my outer family members I mean immediate ones that I actually care abt and effect my food palete #ANYWAYS I will say I don't like tomatos that's one of the few I'm not a fan of I don't even really like ketchup that much #tho I have gotten better about spaghetti sauce which I'm sure people would CRY from how plain my pasta is lmao #the sauce is literally called tomato sauce it is LITERALLY tomato sauce it has nothing else in it and it has absolutely no chunks #probably the reason I never had sauce on my spaghetti for so long is cuz it always has CHUNKS in it or little leaf things that would crunch #which I like crunchy but only when it's MEANT to be crunchy #anyway all I'm sayin is it would be nice to get a breakfast burrito but I feel bad changing the order SO MUCH just for me to enjoy it #and most the time other ingredients will get in it regardless and I can't eat it anymore cuz that entire area is infected with the taste #even my Mom thinks I'm crazy for that 🙄 LISTEN IF YOU PUT PEPPERONI ON PIZZA THE FLAVOUR STICKS TO THE PIZZA #DOESN'T MATTER IF YOU TAKE IT OFF THE JUICES THE FLAVOUR IT GOT ON IT I CAN LITERALLY TASTE IT BRO !!!!! #or even a half and half situation if any pepperoni touched MY side of the pizza I am TASTING it and I cannot eat it #trust me it's not a mind thing it has been tested on me before and no one has tricked me into eating it bcuz I simply DO NOT LIKE IT !! #there is no trick to be had I can simply TASTE IT !! smh smh #anyway that is my rant abt being a picky eater quota met for the first half of the year #I have one more I have to make before the end of the year (just saying it'll likely happen is all lmao)

[minglana]

omg omg omg yall i forgot to tell yall that i went to the goya museum yesterday...... had so much fun (i almost cried)

#the amount of feelings that some of the grabados evoked in me...... screaming crying yelling throwing up #also fun thing is that i went w more ppl and they just kinda looked through most of them. and it took them like 10-15 minutes maybe? #(i wasnt rly concerned w the time so it could be more) #but i like. carefully looked at most of them (i skipped the bullfighting ones lmao) and it took me. for fucking ever to get through them lm #lmao* #and i skipped a lot of the last ones i looked at bc the museum was also gonna close soon #but yeah i enjoyed it sooooo much🥺 #z xarre

[acaiyatree]

wow!! going into the sonic idw tag was a fucking mistake!!

#yall r annoying god bless #i understood some critiques of last issue (ie : tangle wouldn't Do That and it feels like an artificially made conflict for the sake of #making conflict) #but like. for the folks saying lanolin's a bitch : What. genuinely What. and also Boo Hoo female charas can give off bad vibes boo hoo so #sad crying a river boo hoo yall r weak < 3. yall do know she could go through character dev right? yall do know bitchy characters can exist #right? fucking face palming be fr w me rn. insaw someone say that her saying her wisp can't fly that high is mean and like. bro. be fr with #me. be so fucking fr with me rn. and also miss maam's just tired i??? yall genuinely got mean vibes from her tf #she isn't even all that bad lmao. and then someone saying lanolin is being shipped with sonic in the latest issue.... again. be so fr with #me rn. be fr. you saw that as budding romance?? WHAT. WHY. anyways idw comics tag i will never see you again i hate you so much an #d i hate the people in it more :>

[chubs-deuce]

current mood featuring cryptic sona me

#this is tbh less abt me feeling bad and more about the overwhelm of realizing how much I have on my plate in longterm creative commitments #and then my brain deciding to attach itself to silly space kitty and her passively disgruntled alien friend #while I'm only 6 pages away from meeting the update backlog threshhold soe we can update the comic #while I have 3 other longterm projects on the side still waiting to get worked on #I have like 8 videos I have yet to edit and make thumbnails for #6 crochet projects I keep working on only sporadically #and then that AT AU fic I've gotten stuck halfway into chapter 9 on #not to mention the patreon I never touch and refuse to advertise for this very reason #bc I feel super guilty knowing they pay money to see things but never get to see things bc my adhd ass can't do the brainage thing at will #like I'm just involuntarily too flakey #this is also why I don't do commissions anymore #though I might open up some slots for lil icons some time that could be fun #not between lots of travels and art fight tho lmao #also pray for me when the comic actually starts updating again to keep up the work pace #at least a smidge #and that people will actually enjoy what they see #I worked so fucking hard on that shit man I'll cry if someone says something mean #chubs stop rambling in the tags again already #chubs rambles #shitpost

[bibiana112]

It's like 3:00 we got home before midnight but were already tired and sleeby and I swear I act so tipsy when all I had was regular ass tea just because of what the mix of tired and overstimulated does to my brain

#u think I'm exaggerating but the reason I'm only unwinding now despite getting home relatively early #is cause me and my roomie just sat on the floor talking shit and stuff for hours #and in the middle of that #at some point #I was cry laughing for absolutely no reason after being so unable to string words together that I just repeat dour synonyms #it made it sound like I was having an existential crisis but I'm just tired but my mouth keeps trying to say things 😭 #roomie was like oh but I wish I could talk more I'm running out of energy and all I can communicate is via laugh #and I'm like I wish I could just shut up actually #I wish I wasn't the kind of person you know is doing bad because they're not swinging a thousand thoughts at u or in their head too much #Wish I had the sense to stop prattling if I can't communicate well but if I like the person and am enjoying their company I just. continue #oh no I'm having self recognition through the blorbo at this hour cause I just realized I headcanoned that about Aoi too oh nO #that makes sense fuck I never realized I did that until now #honestly it was embarrassing and roomie was like pfft what? no it's not I'm just awkward and indeed an jour later they cry laughed too #it's not like we were telling good jokes or anything like our brains were just melting so yeah how do I plan on finishing this #I liked the food kind of want to go there again for the gyoza ngl but not at night again there's too many people drinking and no sweets #we finished the meals and wanted dessert but everything had just closed :( #we got all dressed up and shit and not a single picture came out alright lmao #oh also I missed the two people that came with! they're so fun and we hadn't seen each other since y'know rona started #so it was really nice to catch up with them hopefully I'll be classmates w the two again if my transfer fcking goes through alright #Void fala aí

[3bagshotrow]

middle-earth dashboard simulator

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pippin was 29 years old???

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he should've been at the green dragon

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#gates of argonath #argonath #amon hen #middle earth landscapes #photographers of middle earth #travel #dark academia #lmao pls reblog this i almost fell out of my boat taking this photo

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my hungry ass could never travel with lembas

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#the entitlement i see on this site sometimes is disgusting #y'all will just post about having easy access to lembas when we can't eats hobbit food??? #we must starve??? #vent #do not rb

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CALLOUT FOR GRIMA WORMTONGUE

I've talked a lot about this already on this blog, but I want to have everything collected in one post so next time some dipshit with a white hand icon slides into my inbox to call me a liar I can just link to this post. tl;dr grima wormtongue has been poisoning my uncle and the land of rohan for the past few years, and here are the receipts:

Keep reading

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i stg if one more of you tells me I should've sent frodo on the eagles I'm asking iluvatar to take me back

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recent read: there and back again: a hobbit's tale by bilbo baggins

I thought this was SOOO fun and cute! I'm usually not into rpf but did anyone else think there was something between bilbo and thorin? 👀 I can't be the only one who saw it. but the ending made me cry my eyes out.

4.5/5 stars

#booklr #there and back again #bilbo baggins #recent read #dark academia #light academia #book review

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who up mirking they wood

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🐛 manofsirith Follow

wtf the new king of gondor just bowed to these four random short guys?? everyone else bowed too and I just went along with it lmao 😅 am I missing something????

#this is right after he sang a song and made out with some hot elf chick #truly the wildest coronation i've ever been to

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ULTIMATE HOTTEST FIRST AGE BADDIE TOURNAMENT FINALS!!!!

🔘 haldir-deactivated30190303

here y'all go again pitting two bad bitches against each other

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everyone who voted galadriel is a kinslayer apologist #luthiensweep

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fuck my job so much. everyone manifest an attack on gondor so I can finally warm my fingers on this beacon fire.

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by eru this can't be happening

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#please clap #lotr #lord of the rings #silmarillion #dashboard simulator #post simulator #mp

[toastsnaffler]

one unfortunate thing abt watching bloody violent up-close-and-personal movies is that it makes me even more crazy touchstarved than usual after.. I need to wrestle someone NOW

#i need to BITE. or lie in someones lap and let them stroke my hair #also now my family have left i probably wont even get a hug for a longass time......... its dire out here #ik my flatmate said a while ago she wouldnt mind if i wanted more physical contact or whatever but ik thats not true #bc she always seems so physically uncomfortable near me or moves so distinctly far out of my space like i get the message man #and its just difficult for me for so many complicated reasons. sigh #im just tired of feeling so lonely always all the time. and so ostracised or alienated in every community and relationship in my life #and i know thats my own fucking fault bc im stupidly incapable of allowing myself to trust and believe other people abt anything #and partly also bc im disabled and autistic as shit etcetc and so will always come across weird and Other and i have no control over that #but mostly its my fault. and i dont even know where to begin trying to fix that man. if its even fixable in this lifetime i dont even know #but it sucks ass im so tired of being sad and close to tears 90% of the time i cry on the fucking daily even on good days #dont get me wrong im doing pretty okay at the moment like i dont even really have any Real problems its all just in my fucking head #but unfortunately thats the head i live in. and will live in the rest of my life so i guess im always gonna feel like this on some level #so i need to just accept it and be grateful for the shit i have bc it could be so so much worse #and yet i cant just do that so here we are!!!!!!!!! oh well. #maybe a part of me likes being miserable. or feels like i deserve it. bc im really fucking good at it lmao #anyway i should go to bed soon before this gets worse. at least i dont have work tmr so i can do smth nice or chill all day #and there have been lots of nice things today too.. ah i just need to sleep #sorry for rambling my ass off with my mentally ill monologues again 🙃 well not that sorry bc youll see me do it again lol #.vent #.diaries

[cinnabeat]

elliots death will always be upsetting to me but it will never match the actual sobbing i did when break died

#it was wild that first time #elliots death still makes me upset whenever i read it like tears and all #but breaks death like made me sob for HOURSSS bro i was so upset like #full on grieving #but if i read it now its like normal levels of upset #ill cry bc its sad but im pretty sure i cry more when reading elliots death than vreaks now #like i remember being sooo upset and then the second i read that part where break is like #i dont want to die?? i remember i like started crying so hard man #idk why that hit me so hard lmao i was like fuck dude i too want to be alive #i think it was that realization that fuck theres so much i want to do? im not ready to die? #like its so unfair #and its just the juxtaposition between break constantly talking abt how his body is gonna give out one die like THE ENTIRE MANGA #and then the moment it happens hes like wait im not ok with this at all actually #elliots death is so fucked up tho like peak tragedy #and then to have the only witness to his death and the person who hears his last words #is vincent fucking nighteay like god damn cant even have the dignity of being a badass in front of people who could appreciate it #'humpty dumpty i deny all of you' panel is sooo #oh my god #peak composition #michi tag

[angeltism]

ohh shit listening 2 random playlists and getting punched in the emotions so hard when Heather starts playing that i well up in tears within the first 5 seconds

#➳ valentin vents #srry i'm pathetic #i could rant . i could rant so fucking much right now . #but no . nope . #people who know all of us could misinterpret or paint my jealousy and insecurity as having negative opinions of others which is not the cas #but i could and i fucking want to . #i just need someone to fucking listen #and actually fucking listen to me . not just . . . pretend to care or only listen just 2 put up w me #someone to comfort me while i cry about all the hurt that i had to fucking deal with . it wasn't anyone's fault for sure but it still hurt #and it hurts even now ! for stupid complicated reasons i don't want to talk about publicly . not for now at the minimum . #i just want someone to understand #i think i'm even more insecure now for reasons that are out of everyone's control . i'm just kinda Like That . #fucking hell i'm sorry i keep being like ''im fine'' and then i have an entire fucking day where i only post vents #i don't want to be dealing w this either lmao . #why does anyone tolerate me

[orcelito]

me gearing up to hate my Fucking life as i work to finish this damned texting bitch of a program due tomorrow, logging into the school website to get the lab info page... only to see the due date's been pushed back a week. probably bc many people, like me, are really... not close to done with it lol

i wouldve known this if id gone to class today probs lol, but i was too busy being gay. so uh. yay? this is a genuine relief lol i was feeling Particularly destructive about it all.

#speculation nation #ive been increasingly irritated today bc of the knowledge that this was waiting for me at home #i knew i wasnt going to finish it in a way that was favorable to me. i was going to need to sacrifice sleep. #but it seems like i wont have to. thank fucking god. #anyways yea my girlfriend was visiting for the past few days (aka why ive been largely absent from here) but she's left again #i only had a few more hours with her so i decided to skip class and be gay instead of going. Lol #and then i had to go to work to do some stuff but i procrastinated leaving bc i was watching critical role #and then the stuff took longer than expected bc i had to make creme brulee bc we were completely out but got more powder for it #did inventory. prepped my notes for the meeting (that is starting. soon.) #then came home. prepared myself for Shit Night. got started looking into shit #and then found this thing. so like lmfao like Hell im going to work on this bitch tonight. fuck that. #uhmmm sorry professor for not going to class for two consecutive class periods i was busy prepping for being gay and then being gay #Finger Guns. lmao #anyways yeah life resumes as normal. im not really getting a day off this week. #WELL depending on things maybe i could get away with not coming in on thursday #i was only scheduled an hour today but it turned into 3.5hr. im not scheduled tomorrow but it's payroll week so i'll go in to do tips #then thursday im scheduled 2 hours for recipe restocking but if no recipes need restocked then like. no need & all #the other days r proper shifts. Though if they dont give us our tapioca by the weekend i'll end up not having a sunday shift #bc BOBA MAKING IS BACKKKKKKKKK (crying tears of joy and pain) #but we're getting a new machine for it so it'll hopefully be Much easier than it used to be. which is good! i fucking hated my Life with it #anyways i know i need to sleep after the manager meeting bc lol. lmao even. staying awake any longer in this kind of mood isnt gonna help