#there is gonna be so much fucking angst and it’s gonna hurt soooooo good

[jazzyblusnowflake]

I've got one for ya. What were the first kisses in the N/V/Uzi relationship like. Uzi and N first, Uzi and V's first, and V and N's first.

(Bonus points for V and N's first kiss at the manner for some bittersweet angst)

Also, good golly gumdrops, love your stuff, even if you don't answer this one, still gonna keep enjoying

oh oh i love these kinds of ideas :"D tho it takes a bit of brain power to think of a good scene uhm.... lessee....

Ok so first up, although im still waiting for a canon first kiss for NUzi- since they are a thing now, i still like to think of something separate for my own version- [since obviously the main show isn't going towards a poly dynamic lmao]

See, we all know that the show is fast paced and its hard to find any empty spaces between each event, hell it almost feels like earth was blown apart and the DDs were on copper 9 the next day, Liam we need a fucking timeline order. 🙄 soooooo i personally like to imagine that there's a lot more time between events than is shown in the actual show. like- lets maybe put a few days between Uzi administrating N and V and the arrival of J and Cynessa- like.... maybe lets put a few NIGHTS between that??? what's the freaking rush 😭

But anyway yeah- i would put the first NUzi kiss somewhere around betwenn the camp and the flashback eps probably :p my idea would be that since the camp incidents, Uzi would be having a lot of bodily changes to deal with, one of which being her inability to tolerate the sun much anymore. other things would probably be the growth of literal flesh and blood and bones inside of her and lets make this morbid by adding her throwing up blood but keeping it a secret from everyone :p she may sneak back to the other two at night and stay with them- clearly shaken up- [V probably also being shaken up because on one hand she's terrified of seeing this transformation take place- but at the same time, she clearly cares enough about Uzi AND Ns happiness...] asking for help and advice- and the 3 grow closer during this. They practice with her for flying or controlling her tail- maybe some stuff on her control on oil hunger too. she probably also gets some fighting, sneaking and sparring practice with V-

//insert one of those cheesy moments where V riles up Uzi enough to tag her on the snowy ground but then realizes its the same position she got V in her solver!mode and starts panicking and pushing herself back- V getting back up and asking what the heck was that and Uzi just saying she doesn't want to hurt her and V is an insensitive jerk for making her spar with her in the first place and tries to fly away to calm down-..... which probably just ended with her falling face first in the snow and a lecture from both N and V.

overall they all started subconsciously getting even closer. tbh there's so many things i could add here but i gotta keep it a few NIGHTS not a few MONTHS until the next event 😭

either way during this i guess N and Uzi could have maybe ended up alone at some point- maybe after a flying lesson having gone right and they were a little too happy on top of a building or upturned bus or something lol- i imagine after a hug maybe Uzi asks if she could kiss N but quickly backtracks saying nvm it was stupid or something but N softly says its okay- //probably picks her up too, adding to her embarrassment- cuz she's short lmaooooo// and Uzi just decides to give a small unsure smooch- but decided to make it not too long. they decided to just hug after that to not let the other see them blushing like hell 😭 [also they didn't really decide anything after this cuz they are idiots????😭😭😭]

but anyway for the Vuzi first kiss i have no idea if or when V would return if she's been set to remain alive in the canon- but for me its probably when she appears again in her normal form, as herself. not a clone. Alice isn't alive to take the cores and make them sluggish with heat and the sentinels wouldn't have a chance against the solvers centipede lookin ass form.

Anyway if we consider that one way or another Uzi, N and V will meet up again, [and N and Uzi preferably get to share a better kiss this time-] the first thing Uzi is doing is landing a swift punch in Vs face and then kissing the daylights out of her- //confusing herself and everyone in the area in the process including V herself...// overall she would scold V on the whole "i trust you" shtick and leaving them alone- but yeah :p [ keep in mind that im also considering a few nights between when J and Cynessa show up and when they decide to actually go and find and search the labs, because PLOT REASONS :D ]

as for the first Envee kiss- ill do you one better and make it more angsty and say that N and V used to always spend time with each other and do silly things like hold hands in secret or send internal chat messages to eachother, draw and read books together- maybe N used to put flowers for her sometimes. But at some point a certain little corrupted drone started feeling possessive of her favorite "big brother" figure not spending time with her anymore...

one time, N had asked V if he could kiss her and at that they were both blushing messes but before V could respond they get interrupted- maybe by someone giving them orders or maybe by Cyn. either way, V quickly whispers to him "later, i promise" with a smile, making N happy and giddy. but the later never comes... V becomes comatose soon after... N sadly reading books to her and sometimes whispering to her to wake up and that she still has to keep her promise...

anyway after all things are said and done in the future and the solver is defeated- whether they are still living on copper 9 or any other planet idk- N, V and Uzi are all close, but since both N and V are close to Uzi, they also start spending more time with each other too. maybe one time on a walk or going out and about N was able to catch up with V and they reminisce about old memories they can now remember; and when V was finally able to open up a bit to N, he mentions that he still remembers the promise and asks her if he could kiss her again and she lets him.

and thaaaats all the brain power i have for tonight... i think... hope it made yall smile or cry or idk something lmao. :")

#snowballflo #snow rambles #murder drones #nuzi #vuzi #nuziv #envuzi #biscuitbites #violetviolence #violentbitingbiscuits #uzi doorman #serial designation n #serial designation v #envy #envee #goldenmemories

[celestial-toys]

been laying here listening to Lucky by Dermot Kennedy on loop for half an hour while thinking about Everything Stays and crying

#it’s good crying dw i am just. i have so many feelings about this story #Seven’s Celestial Commentary #Everything Stays #writing stuff #i may be stuck in bed struggling to type due to personal reasons but that will Not stop me from cooking up ideas for this fic #there is gonna be so much fucking angst and it’s gonna hurt soooooo good #the more i listen to it the more the possibilities expand #i can easily see Moon and Reader going back and forth between verses vulnerably arguing over Sun #but i can also see it being Sun and Moon getting real and discussingcougharguingover Reader #can’t decide which i like more #god i wish y’all could see this story the way it plays out in my head #next best thing would be to keep writing and sharing the story instead of vagueposting abt future plot points tho wouldn’t it lmao #and GOD don’t even get me fucking STARTED on Two Hearts… #Dermot Kennedy’s music is responsible for yet Another plot point for this story and i can’t even be mad about it. his fucking lyricsss dude #‘and so we jump to the THEATER??? in that SAME OLD TOWN???’ DO WE? FUCK I GUESS WE DO NOW!!! #picture me listening to that song and inspiration hitting me like a truck. diligently taking notes like the lyrics r instructions from God #‘she sees his face?? and HE sees HER as the LIGHTS GO DOWN???’ write that down write that down #‘the life that they should’ve had sat between them that night??’ FUCK Man yeah it sure did!!! #anyways it’s chill i’m chill. i’m very normal about my little stories and their musical inspirations! #and i’ve listened to these songs a very normal amount (translation: they will likely be in my top ten for the 2024 wrapped) #(cut to the scenes playing vividly in my head) ‘Well‚ at least I can always say that I /told/ her!’ #‘I can’t relate to having a heart like that‚ Sun! With all of your wonder and your trust intact…’ #like no i wouldn’t lift the lyrics directly for the song to use as dialogue but FUCk does it work well.. Lucky is such a good script for- #like- a heated conversation between my Relentlessly Positive Sun and my Apathetic Jaded Moon #‘How could our farewell mean as much as our time? Honey‚ I’ll be gone. It’s better if I’m something that you leave behind.’ #‘I used to paint these trees‚ now I just scream at the sky. Honey I was wrong. Guess there’s certain things you never leave behind.’ #*sobbing shaking throwing up clawing at the walls* I Am Normal About These Characters #anyways uh. on an unrelated note how many song lyrics do ya think i can cram into ES before it’s Too Many #gonna have to start getting creative with how i can incorporate more songs in a way that feels natural and not forced #even tho i am forcing it. i am forcing it very much bc i have songs with applicable lyrics and y’all Will read them one way or another

[bloodydeanwinchester]

Hello what are your fave fanfic tropes?

hi anon im sorry it took me a few days to answer this but i actually had to think quite a bit about it before i could answer. i can always tell whether im gonna like a fic when i read the summary but i never really put a lot of thought into what specific tropes are my favorites. the more i thought about it tho, the easier it was to see that i already knew what tropes were my favorites lol. anyway here's what i came up with:

angst with a happy ending - i am such a big fan of angst in fics! like give me all the angst please!! (also hurt/comfort i LOVE that shit). but also i realized recently that i really need there to be some happy moments wedged between all that angst or else i don't really have all that much fun. also the happy ending is NON-NEGOTIABLE.

mutual pining - god my favorite thing in fics is some really intense Y E A R N I N G. like when they're both pining so hard for each other but have no idea that the other feels that way about them too and for some reason they think they could NEVER be together? yeahhhh i love that like a lot.

canon divergence/fix-it fic/case fic - okay so while i loooove a good au, canonverse fics are my absolute favorites. the thing is that a big part of the reason why i love spn is because i love the spn world. and sometimes they did a shit job of writing it on the show so i reaaally love to see the way that fanfic writers take that world and make it better!

time travel shenanigans - okay im not gonna lie this one is like 99% because i love stanford era dean. but also the ones where we get to have two deans and get to watch dean being confronted by his older/younger self? AND ESPECIALLY YOUNGER DEAN GETTTING TO SEE HIS OLDER SELF BE SO LOVED soooooo fucking good. and it's not just about dean for me. we don't see this as much but i would love to see more of these fics including 2 cas's and cas having to be confronted by his older/younger self.

childhood friends to enemies to lovers - also just enemies to lovers in general but when they've got a past where they were best friends who were in love with each other but before they could become lovers something tore their friendship apart? yessss that shit is SO good

fake dating/marriage - these are just so fun especially when you've also got the mutual pining peppered in there.

#thank you so much for this ask anon it was really fun to think about and answer! #fanfic #jenna.ask #anon ask

[saintobio]

Hey Author, I love sincerely, not soooooo muchhhhhh and also I would like to ask if we would see more of Toji in Bora Bora. If he accidentally bumps into Y/N in Bora Bora during one of her drinking sessions after her inevitable heartbreak on seeing Gojou with Sera, it would be perfect and also a reality check for Gojou that Y/N is human too and that she can’t just keep ignoring her self so that her ignorant husband can be happy with his mistress.

Also chapter 7 was good, I’m glad we got to see more of Gojou’s affectionate side and him fucking up indirectly because of his one true love Sera 🙄🙄🙄 even though this time he didn’t do all this deliberately. The angst is good and can’t wait for chapter 8 where there’s more angst 🤤🤤🤤.

I hope you’re resting well, I saw your schedule and oh my goodness it is so tiring. Please take your time to update chapter 8, we don’t mind waiting. Please don’t overwork yourself.

If you don’t mind me asking can you rate the level of angst on a scale of 10 in chapter 8? 👀

would u guys hate me if i say there is no toji next chapter 😭 i want the pain as raw as possible. as in hurt no comfort. though if i’m gonna rate the angst level (pls note i have high tolerance), i would say it’s only somewhere around 7-8.

and thanks so much bby i wanna update fast but work is slowing me down unfortunately :(

#saintobio.asks #series: sincerely not

[bitchloveskcbaseball]

Payback ~~ Happy Birthday Burns!!!!!!!

Pairing: Bryce Lahela x Casey Valentine

Series: The Bones

Series Note: Just a small housekeeping note... Working on this got me thinking about the chronology of this series and I came to the realization that Flirt and, by extension, this fic, fit in better before Surprise, so I have changed my masterlist to reflect that.

Summary: Casey figures out how Bryce can pay up on an unsettled IOU. A follow-up to Flirt.

Word Count: 5170 (helluva way to break 6 months of writer’s block LOL)

Warnings: Language (if this ever doesn’t appear here, send help because something is seriously wrong with me lmao)

Disclaimer: All characters belong to Pixelberry

A/N: Happy Happy Birthday @burnsoslow!!! This is 100% written for you and 100% because of you!!!! You requested fluffy Bryce and Casey and this is me hoping I have given that to you!! What?!?!? Not me struggling to write fluff without adding in that dash of angst I’m so fond of LMAO

I literally don’t know if there are words enough to express just how much I love and appreciate you, but this is me attempting to find them anyway 💜💜 From my very first crazy message all those months ago I know I should have come with a warning label... it fell off during transport so I am so very sorry about that LMAO, I have felt so unbelievably lucky that I have been able to get to know you. You are one of the most supportive people I have ever met. You are so kind and caring and genuine. You are also the coolest badass with an insanely awesome sense of humor. I love how we totally lose our minds over sports -- especially football lol -- together is it Sunday yet? this wait is fucking killing me and my nerves are already through the damned roof LMAO But what I love even more than that is the way we can talk about everything in between too -- all the ups and downs of everyday life. I truly treasure your friendship so so much and I hope your birthday is as amazing as you are!!! Love you!!!!!!!

A/N #2: Thank you soooooo much @bbrandy2002 for reading over this for me and calming my nerves over this!!!!

“Yo, B!”

“Yeah, babe?”

“Remember that IOU you still haven’t paid up on?”

The slight hesitation in Bryce’s voice gave him away even as he lied, “Uh…no? What are you talkin’ bout?”

Raising an eyebrow even though he was in his bedroom while she was in the living room, Casey prodded, “Sure ya do, love. It was after you hit on that poor, new surgical nurse and you somehow ended up making a date with her. I went with you and helped smooth the situation over because your whiny ass was terrified of having all of the surgical nurses pissed at you.”

He skulked into the living room and plopped down on the couch with her so that his head was laying in her lap. She knew the look he was giving her – hair flopped down just over his eyebrow while he was looking up through his lashes at her – was entirely deliberate as he muttered, “I thought maybe you’d decided that that whole fiasco was punishment enough.”

“Not even close, Bryce. I literally had to go explain to that poor girl that you were in a relationship with me while simultaneously making sure that she didn’t think you were a creep or a two-timing asshat. I deserve to get something outta that shit.”

“Ugh. Ok… fine. So…what kind of torture am I about to endure?”

Casey tried to shove Bryce’s head off of her lap, but he just wrapped his left arm around her back and laughed at her attempt. “You are impossible, you know this?”

“Yet you love me anyway.”

“Sometimes I really wonder why, though.”

He ran his hand lightly up under her shirt along her side, stopping when his thumb was able to brush the skin just below her bra. Just that simple touch was enough to have Casey’s breath catching and a self-satisfied smirk spread across his face. “Do you need a refresher course, Case?”

Summoning up all the inner strength she could find, Casey bit back the moan bubbling up the back of her throat and rolled her eyes exaggeratedly at him. “No, Bryce, I don’t. I know all about those magic hands” – another eye roll for emphasis – “of yours. Don’t think you are going to distract me into forgetting what this conversation is about.”

Bryce huffed out a sigh through the deep pout that had settled over his face and she had to bite the inside of her lip to keep a smile from breaking out over her own. She waited a few beats until he finally dropped his hand back down so it was resting against her hip before quirking an eyebrow up and leveling him with her best are-you-shitting-me stare. “Do you really think that you shouldn’t have to pay up after that bullshit, Bryce?”

“Ugh. Of course I know that I owe you for that. I was just… hoping that you would take pity on me and not cash it in.”

“I swear, sometimes it’s like you’ve never even met me before.”

A streak of pain shot across his face so quickly that if she hadn’t been watching him so closely, if she didn’t know him so well, she would have never even picked up on it. But she had and she did and it sent a stab of guilt rocketing through her so strongly, she almost tossed aside the ruse that she had taken so much care in plotting out. Rather than changing course completely, however, she opted for a slight detour to reassure him instead. “Love, you know I was only joking.” When Bryce tried to interrupt, she placed an index finger over his lips to silence him while she ran the fingers of her other hand soothingly through his hair. “You know me better than anyone in this world ever has. Ever will. Okay?”

Bryce’s eyes had slipped closed, a soft smile turning the corners of his lips up, as she spoke and Casey couldn’t help but trace her finger across his eyelids and then down across his lips. When she got to the middle of his lower lip, his lips parted and he gently nipped at the tip of her finger. The sudden move startled a breathless laugh from her and when she met his eyes again, they were full of mischief.

Shaking her head good-naturedly at him, she was about to scold him – playfully – when Bryce mirrored her earlier gesture and placed a finger across her lips. “I give, alright? Just take mercy on me and tell me what kind of penance I’m about to pay.”

“Do you always have to be so damned dramatic?”

“Case…”

“Fine! I need you to drive me to a meeting tomorrow morning.”

“Is … that it? Just a ride?”

Confusion knit his brows together and instinctively Casey ran her fingertips between and over them to soothe the wrinkles away before whispering, “Yes and no.” Shaking her head slightly to get herself back on track, she added, “It’s going to require fighting rush-hour traffic to get downtown” – his groan brought a smile to her lips – “and I… I would like you to go in with me.”

“Seriously? You are dragging me down there in that bullshit and making me sit through some boring meeting with you?”

“As a matter of fact, I am.” Cocking a defiant eyebrow at him, Casey challenged, “Is that a problem?”

Feeling more than hearing the sigh he huffed out, Casey bit back a laugh at the look of horror on Bryce’s face that was ruined by the humor dancing in his eyes. “I do this and then we’re even, right?” When she nodded her agreement, he let out a melodramatic groan before finally muttering, “Fine. I’ll do it.”

Twelve hours later, Casey was struggling to decide whether she was going to join Bryce in cussing out the idiot drivers that seemed to be out in full force on their morning commutes or start laughing hysterically at his outbursts. After chancing a glance at him out of the corner of her eye and seeing the tight lines of frustration and irritation marring his beautiful expression, Casey instead decided to try and lighten his tension.

Reaching over to gently pull his right hand off of the steering wheel while they were once again stopped after only moving half a foot on the freeway, she laced their fingers together. When Bryce didn’t even glance in her direction, she had to bite back the brief flare of hurt, reminding herself that he wasn’t deliberately trying to hurt her. Seeing that the traffic was probably going to be at a standstill for a bit longer, Casey carefully leaned across the console to place a quick, gentle kiss to his cheek before whispering in his ear, “Thank you so much for doing this with me. I…I really didn’t want to have to do this alone.” With her nerves getting the better of her and realizing how much she could be setting herself up for humiliation, or worse, she couldn’t bite back the honest admission.

Before she could settle back into her seat, Bryce tightened his fingers around hers where their hands were resting against his thigh. Finally turning to look at her, his eyes fell to her lips as he murmured, “C’mere.”

Despite her half-hearted, at best, protest of, “But the traffic,” Casey found herself leaning back in to press her lips against his. Although the kiss was incredibly brief, it was also soft and sweet, managing to settle the nerves she hadn’t expected to be feeling.

When she was once again situated properly in her seat, Bryce brought their linked hands up so that he could press a kiss to the back of hers. "You know, you never did tell me what all this is about.”

Forcing a calmness into her voice that she didn’t quite feel, Casey feigned innocence on a gasped, “Oh, I didn’t?”

“No, babe. You didn’t. So… you gonna tell me what’s got you so nervous this morning?”

He wasn’t supposed to notice that!

Fumbling for what she could say to mollify him without giving up what was about to go down, Casey was relieved when she noticed both that traffic was moving once again and that their exit was coming up in just over a mile. “Hey love, this next exit is ours.”

Somehow giving her a side-eye while still keeping his focus on merging into the needed lane, Bryce muttered, "I know what you’re doing.”

Her heart leapt into her throat, out of both anxiousness and frustration that her plan was blown but before she could respond, he added, “You’re trying to avoid answering my question by giving me directions.”

That pulled a genuine laugh out of her and she couldn’t help but sass, “Oh, yes. I’m only telling you how to get to our destination as an avoidance tactic. Not because I want to… oh, I dunno, get there on time, or anything.”

Bryce’s lips twitched and she knew he was trying to fight back a smile, but he remained silent for the rest of the drive, allowing her to navigate them to the parking garage that she was told to utilize on her last phone call with the receptionist.

He turned to her with the most intense puppy-dog look he’d given her to date after parking and practically whined, “Are you seriously gonna force me to sit through whatever this is after making me face rush hour?”

Fighting back her dismay by reminding herself that he didn’t know why they were downtown so he couldn’t be rejecting her, Casey schooled her expression into one of annoyance. “She cried, Bryce. You embarrassed that poor girl so bad that she was fucking bawling. And you got saved by that damned pager of yours, so I had to comfort and reassure her all by myself.”

He at least had the grace to look ashamed at that as he held his hands up in defeat. “Okay. Okay. I get it. No more complaints from me.”

“Good. Now let’s go before I’m late.”

Fully expecting Bryce to still be pouting, Casey was slightly surprised when he was waiting for her at the back of his car, his arm outstretched towards her with a soft smile on his face. She tried to take his hand, but he encouraged her to wrap her arm around his waist as he wrapped his around her shoulders and settled her in against his side instead. Before they took off towards the elevator bank, he dropped a kiss to the top of her head and whispered into her hair, “I’m sorry I’ve been such a baby about this, Case. Even if I didn’t owe you for that, which I definitely do, I’d be here for you. I’ll always be here for you.”

Resisting the urge to growl at him for being so damned sweet when she was trying to torture him, she squeezed his side and laid her head on his shoulder. “I know you are, B.”

“Okay then. Let’s get this shit over with. Whatever this shit is.”

“Ugh, don’t worry about it. You’ll know here soon enough.”

After making their way into the huge office building just down the street from the parking garage and up the elevator to the twentieth floor, the couple were standing in front of the office of the realtor that Casey had been talking to for the last few weeks, unbeknownst to Bryce. The minute that they came to a stop, still wrapped in each other’s arms, she could feel the tension flood his body and wondered for the hundredth time if using this as payback was a good idea. Still, she steeled herself, knowing she would never be able to come up with a different plan that would be satisfactory enough to fulfill this particular IOU.

“Casey?”

“Yeah?”

There was an unmistakable hint of panic in his voice as he asked, “This is where your meeting is?”

“Yeah, it is. Now come on. My appointment is in like two minutes and I don’t want to be late.”

His feet stayed planted as she stepped forward to open the door, his hand tightening on her shoulder keeping her in place. She felt her expression soften when she glanced up into his terrified eyes. Forcing herself to push on, she deliberately misinterpreted his fear, telling him, “It’s okay, Bryce. It’s just an office. I’m not gonna make you do paperwork or anything.” Well, actually I hope that is a lie.

“But – “

“C’mon. Seriously, I’m about to be late and I’m just standing out here in the hallway.” It took her practically dragging him, but Casey managed to get both him and herself into the reception area of the office, where she was met with a kind, understanding smile of the receptionist that she had spent a great deal of time talking to and planning with.

“Hello and welcome to Mortemer Realty. My name is Peyton and we are so happy to have you here today. Can I get you guys something to drink? Water, coffee?”

Casey looked up at Bryce waiting for him to answer, but after taking in his dazed look, she realized he likely hadn’t heard Peyton’s question so answered for him instead. “Could we have a couple bottles of water?”

“Certainly, I’ll be right back with those. And Edward should be ready for you in just a moment. He was just finishing up a phone call.”

As soon as she walked away, Bryce’s face snapped down to Casey’s with his eyes narrowed. “The fuck are we – you – doing here?”

Before Casey could reply, the door to an inner office and the realtor, Edward, stepped out. “Ah, Casey! It’s such a delight to see you again.” Bryce’s hand once again tightened around her shoulder at the word “again.”

Reaching her free hand, luckily her right, out to close around Edward’s for a handshake, she gave him a bright smile and replied, “It’s good to see you again as well. I’m” – she took in what she hoped was a hopefully silent, steadying breath – “excited to get this ball rolling!”

“Excellent! And I see Peyton has already taken drink orders.” Giving Peyton an exaggerated wink and a smile that she returned, Edward waited until she had given both Bryce and Casey their bottles before continuing, “Is there anything else we can get you before we begin?”

Shoving down her ever-increasing nerves at Bryce’s silence, Casey shook her head and said with more confidence than she felt, “No, thank you. I’m more than ready to get going.”

“Alright, then. Let’s have a seat.”

Tugging Bryce with her, Casey followed Edward into his office and pulled the two chairs set up there closer together before gently urging Bryce to settle into one of them. Once she was comfortable in her own, she reached over to rest her hand on his leg, needing to give him some sort of comfort. This was a terrible idea. What the fuck was I thinking?

Realizing Edward was already speaking, Casey took a small breath to calm herself down, thinking, I’ve come this far, no sense in turning back now, before focusing her attention back on the realtor. “…what you told me you were looking for. Is that correct?”

After taking a quick peek at the sheet of information she’d provided him in their previous meeting, Casey glanced at Bryce out of the corner of her eye to see that he was staring at the wall with the same dazed look in his eye and then answered, “Yes. That looks like everything. Were you able to find anything that fit the bill?”

“I was! Actually, I managed to find three listings that covered all of the must-haves on your list.”

“Three? I wasn’t sure if I’d be lucky enough to find one!”

Edward laughed, “Then I guess it’s a good thing you came to me for help!”

Casey returned his laugh as he handed her three sheets of paper detailing the listing details for the three apartments she’d been shown on her day off last week. She already knew all of the information on them by heart, especially that of the one she knew she liked best, but made a show of looking over the paper as if it was the first time she was seeing it.

After giving her a few minutes of silence, Edward asked, “Do you have any questions about any of the properties?”

Humming softly under her breath in mock contemplation, she finally looked up and forced herself to avoid making eye contact with Bryce as she replied, “No. I think this covers everything I need to know.”

“Excellent! As luck would have it, all of the properties are available for a showing today. Would you be interested in that?”

Casey caught the twitch at the corner of Edward’s lips when he glanced briefly in Bryce’s direction and found herself biting the inside of her lip to keep her composure. She was genuinely impressed with herself when her voice came out steady on her answer, “That would be perfect, since I won’t have another day off until later next week.”

That seemed to snap Bryce out of his daze and he whipped his head around to look at her as he wrapped his hand around the one she still had resting against his thigh. “Are you in some sort of a hurry?”

Before she could answer, Edward interjected, “She needs to be if she wants any of these properties. They are all quite coveted and she will need to move fast before someone else comes in and scoops them up.” Swiveling his gaze back to Casey, he asked, “Do you know which one you would like to see first?”

“Oh, um… this one” – she handed the paper of the one she had fallen in love with back to Edward – “This one is the furthest drive, so I figured we should probably start there and then can work our way back?”

“Actually, I was anticipating you might wish to view them today, so I made arrangements for transportation for us. We’ll take a helicopter there and there will be a car waiting to drive us to the properties once we arrive.”

Bryce’s hand tightened around hers almost painfully. “Hel-helicopter?”

“It’s the most efficient way to get to New York and still have plenty of time and sunlight to properly assess all of the options.”

“Oh my gosh! That is so amazing of you! Thank you so much!” I hope I’m not overselling my fake surprise too much.

“I figured with your schedule as a doctor, this would be the easiest way for you to see everything that you wish to and still be back to Boston in plenty of time. In fact, the helicopter should be ready for us if we leave now. Does that work for you two?”

Turning to face Bryce, Casey had to shove down her guilt once again at the ashen look on his face. Placing her free hand over the one Bryce still had wrapped around hers, she squeezed gently until his eyes met hers and flashed him a smile. “Are you ready for a quick trip to the ol’ NYC?”

“Now?”

Casey laughed, “Yes, now! Aren’t you the king of spontaneity?”

“I uh… I” – he swallowed hard, his fingers flexing under hers – “Yeah, I guess I am. Let’s uh… Let’s do this.”

A squeal of genuine excitement slipped from her lips before she could contain it causing Bryce to flinch, so she leaned over to press a kiss to his cheek to soften the blow before turning back to Edward and telling him, “It definitely works for us.”

A little over three hours, and barely two words from Bryce, later, the group of three were stepping off an elevator onto the tenth floor of a brand-new apartment building. “Now, as the literature explained, this apartment won’t have the picturesque view of the city that the higher floors do, but that does actually save you a bit on the rent. The owners have discovered it’s been a bit trickier to rent out the apartments on this side of the lower floors because of the adjoining building.”

“I thought you said these listings were flying off the market?”

The shock of hearing Bryce string together and entire sentence had Casey’s steps faltering so much she almost tripped herself. The way that Bryce reached out to steady her and tuck her into his side – the most contact they’d shared since they left the realty office – offered her some semblance of reassurance.

“They are flying, but that doesn’t mean that the interested parties are willing to overpay compared to other options out there. It isn’t much of a savings, mind you, but every bit helps.”

Casey agreed, “Yes, it absolutely does.”

Coming to a stop in front of apartment 104, Edward turned to look directly at Casey and announced, “Here we are. Are you ready to take a look around?”

Feeling as if she were literally vibrating, she hoped that Bryce would attribute it to excitement rather than nerves as she nodded her head in response, all ability to form words escaping her as only one thought bounced around her brain: I hope he loves this as much as I do.

Once the door was open, Edward stepped out of the way to let Casey and Bryce enter first. Surprisingly, she didn’t have to pull him along behind her, but rather was practically getting drug inside by him. She honestly wasn’t sure if that was a good thing or not. As they moved about the small apartment, checking out both bedrooms and bathrooms before venturing through the almost non-existent living room into the kitchen, Casey kept sneaking surreptitious glances at Bryce to try and judge his impression.

When he finally came to a stop in front of the refrigerator, staring into the stainless steel, she walked up behind him and wrapped her arms around his waist. She pressed a kiss to his shoulder blade before whispering, “So, what do you think?”

Letting out a harsh scoff, he practically hissed, “Does it even fucking matter?”

You knew there was a chance that he’d be pissed. Just stay the course and it will all be fine. It has to be fine.

“Of course it matters! I wouldn’t have brought you along if it didn’t.” When the only response she got was another scoff, she squeezed her arms around him gently and pleaded, “Please, Bryce?”

Spinning in her arms, Bryce threw up his hands and exclaimed, “Fine! It’s a great fucking place! It’s got enough room for a TV and couch for your sports, a good-sized bedroom, a more-than-adequate kitchen for all that you are gonna use it. Hell, it even has a goddamn extra bedroom that you could use for a fucking office if you want!” He let out a deep breath and seemed to deflate with it as he asked, “That what you wanted to hear?”

Pressing herself closer so she could rest her chin against his chest, she bit her bottom lip and hoped that she could hold herself together for just a bit longer because seeing him lose it like that damn near broke her. “Almost.”

“Really? What fucking more could you want from me over this?”

“You really like this place?”

Finally wrapping his arms around her, he muttered, “No. I told you I think it’s great. I didn’t say I like it.”

“What don’t you like about it?”

“You really have to ask?”

“I really do.”

“It’s in fucking New York City! I mean – never mind.”

Sucking in a steadying breath, Casey turned her head so that her ear was pressed against his chest. The sound of his pounding heart beneath it simultaneously made her feel like shit and also reassured her. “So that’s the only thing you didn’t like?”

Letting out a resigned sigh, Bryce pressed a kiss to the top of her head and said, “Yeah. That’s the only shitty thing about this place. But do you really think you need to waste all that extra money on a two-bedroom?”

“I think so.”

“Why? Other than an office that you would never use?”

“Well, I think Keiki would like to have her own room, wouldn’t you?”

Shoving her away from his chest by her shoulders, Bryce narrowed his eyes at her. “What are you talking about?”

Giving him her most patronizing look, Casey repeated herself very slowly, “I think Keiki would like to have her own room.”

“In New York?”

“No.”

“Casey. What in the hell is going on?”

Surprised by the force of her unexpected laughter, Casey couldn’t help but double over. When she had regained a bit of control, she turned over her shoulder toward Edward and asked, “You think I should let him in on it?”

“I think you’ve made the poor boy suffer more than enough.”

“Okay, fine.” Twisting back to look Bryce in the eye, she brought a hand up to cup the side of his face, her thumb tracing over his cheek. “Did you really think I would move away without even telling you first?”

“Before today? Not a fucking chance. But we’re standing in an apartment you want to rent in New York fucking City, so I guess I was wrong.”

“You weren’t wrong, love. This was just a little bit of payback.”

“What?”

“I’m not looking for an apartment for me. I’m looking for an apartment for us – you, me and Keiki.”

Bryce’s brows scrunched together in a combination of disbelief and confusion. “In New York?”

“If I may?” Edward interjected, waiting for Casey to nod yes before continuing, “Casey came to me a few weeks back, wanting to know about two-bedroom listings in Boston that would be close enough to Edenbrook to be feasible for the two of you and your sister. In the midst of our conversations, I asked why she was doing this solo if she had a partner to help her with the process and she told me that she was wanting to set him up with a little bit of a fake out to pay him back for a mess she had to clean up for him. That led to us discussing the whole situation and once we found the apartment that she could best see you guys living in, I realized a way that we could take her plan to a whole new level.”

By this point, Casey was giggling almost uncontrollably, but she still managed to add, “Oh my god, it was a brilliant idea.” Bryce’s fingers tightening around her waist told her he wasn’t sold on that opinion quite yet.

Edward laughed softly, “I’m so glad you enjoyed it Casey. Anyways, the apartment she picked just so happened to be owned by a real estate firm that had just built an almost identical building in New York. So, I called and found out that it had an apartment that matched the floorplan of the one in Boston so I arranged to have this available for a showing today. That way you could see what your apartment will look like, if you choose to lease it, and we could really psych you out.”

The apartment was silent for what felt like hours as both Casey and Edward waited to see how Bryce was going to react to the full reveal of her deception. As the seconds ticked by, her nervousness amped up exponentially, suddenly terrified that she’d ruined not only her chance to move in with Bryce but maybe their entire relationship. When she couldn’t take it any longer, she used the hand still cupping his cheek to gently turn his head so that she could meet his eyes. There was a look in them that she couldn’t quite read and she had to force her words out around a growing lump in her throat. “Bryce? Love? Talk to me.”

“You really set all this up as payback for the incident with Lilly?”

“I… I did.”

“So, you thought ‘Let’s make Bryce think I’m moving to New York City without discussing it with him first.’?”

Casey sucked in a deep breath through her teeth, but kept her voice steady as she answered, “I did.”

His eyes narrowed on her in a glare so hot she felt like her skin was melting, but she refused to look away. Whatever the fallout was going to be for this, she knew she had to face it head on. He was silent for several long beats before a smile finally broke out over his beautiful face and he let out a hearty laugh. “Damn, babe. That… that’s fucking incredible.”

“Wait… you aren’t… mad?”

“Hell, no! I’m impressed that you came up with such a devious plan, to be honest!”

“Really?”

“Really. I only have one question.”

“Um … okay?”

Shifting his gaze back over her shoulder, he asked Edward, “Why did you go to so much trouble, so much expense, for this prank for a woman you don’t even know?”

“Oh, that’s actually an easy one. Remember that pitcher that collapsed during the game between Manhattan and Boston a while back? He’s my cousin and she saved his life.”

“Stop it, Edward. I told you that wasn’t just me.”

“Bullshit. Several of his teammates told him and me both how you figured out what was wrong with him. Besides that, I could immediately tell what an amazing woman she is. As much as she wanted to mess with you, her biggest concern was finding a place that would be comfortable for you and your sister. She wasn’t even worried about what she wanted or needed. All in all, I was more than happy to help you guys find a place and to help her get a little bit of payback.”

Chuckling once again, Bryce brought a hand up to the back of her neck to bring their faces closer together. When their lips were almost touching, he muttered, “Damn, Case. I’m so glad I have no interest in a prank war with you.”

Voice breathless, she asked, “And why is that?”

“Because I’ve already lost before I could even begin.”

Casey’s laugh was short-lived as Bryce pressed their lips together for a deep and tender kiss. When they finally pulled apart, Casey’s smile was slightly mischievous, making Bryce question, “What’s that about?”

“I just realized I never got to asking my question.”

“Oh yeah?” Leaning back down, Bryce pressed his forehead against hers. “You’d better hurry up and ask then. Wouldn’t want to give me too much time to think about how to respond.”

After pinching his side, Casey let out a soft chuckle at his grunt and lifted her arms up to wrap around his neck. She leaned in just enough to brush her lips across Bryce’s and then stayed there as she asked, “Do you want to live in this apartment’s Boston twin with me?”

“When can we move in?”

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I know it’s been forever since I’ve posted anything, so if you’d prefer not to be tagged anymore, I apologize. Just let me know and I will take you off the list. I actually debated whether I should even tag anyone in this for that exact reason, so I will totally understand if you want off - especially because I don’t know how soon I’ll have any sort of regular posts again.

#bryce x mc #bryce lahela x mc #choices open heart #happy happy birthday burns!!!

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asks :)

i love you guys, just putting that out there 💕

We stan a supportive dad who hates the miya twins 💅 @lovelyvillainess idk it won’t let me tag you :(

I figured at least one of them should have an ounce of common sense lmao

Holy shit! The Miya twins meet the parents was soooooo good. I've just finished reading it and come here to gush and now I will go re-read it because wow. The tension. The feeling of dread that sinks in when you realize what reader might be in for tomorrow or the next day. But the dad is my hero!! It makes me wonder what Kita and the crew would say because they certainly saw the Miyas bullying their soulmate. We are not worthy of your genius

🥺 dfghgfhkl thank you!! But also yeah, it’s a temporary victory at best and you’re definitely gonna pay for it the next day 👀

🥺🥺🥺 go dad for having our back i feel like its rare for parents to actively support u in yan!fics so like...heart is warmed

so who wants to see daddy dearest go ham on the Miya twins and beat their asses??? 

omg ive never sent a message before but the meet the parents with the twins when her dad protected her i 🥺🥺❤️❤️

He is the only valid parent just sayin (still won’t make a difference in the long run, but at least he tried?)

I'm reading your newest drabble and came across the line, "it’s the pity he’ll give you. He thinks he ruined your life when he left (he didn’t)" I love this reader's energy lmao

Definitely not me projecting one particular ex of mine onto this fic, nope, not at all. But seriously those ex’s are the fucking worst 😒

Hi! Just popped in to say i love ur meet the parents drabble. One of my fave things about ur writing in general is how well you write dynamics between characters and that recent drabble was some good food brah. Thanks!! ❤️

ahh thank you so much, bby! 

Just passing by to say you are an absolute queen and that I love you and your writing very very much !! 💞💗❤️💖💓💘

Hi anon, i’d die for you i just wanted you to know that! 💕

Reread NFWMB again. Idk if you have watched or if your familiar with Bungoy Stray Dogs, Rhi but reading it again made me think of OdaSaku 😅 Idk, it's probably the opening line about kids. So I kind of had this screnaio in my head where Iwa's higher ups and contractors are surprised that he finally agreed to kids but what they don't know is that instead of killing them, he is taking them to the reader.

I have not watched BSD but I’ve heard about it?? it is on my ‘might fuck around one day and actually watch’ list, if i can ever stop re-watching my other faves. I did write Iwa as much more of a morally ambiguous character - he’s not gonna push an old lady in the street but he also probably wouldn’t stop somebody if he saw they were getting mugged kinda guy - obviously with the reader being the exception to that. But I do like the idea of Iwa just bringing home some kid he was supposed to kill and being like ‘this is now our child, we’re a family and i will straight up murder anyone who tries to take either of you from me’

but then i also like the idea of him seeing her be good with kids and just suddenly *breeding kink* ya know?

Okay unironicly??? Nice guy yandere Bokuto is my kink and that last piece hit the nail right on the head. Everyone is cooing that you guys are adorable together, so why does it feel so awful every time he puts his hands on you~ you cant find it in yourself to say no, but you want to get away from him as soon as possible~

Yandere Bokuto makes my heart horny and it is a straight up tragedy that I don’t have more written for him (soon, bby, dw) because he’s all soft and cuddly and needy and incessant, but the moment you start pulling too far away - oop. Now you get to play with an upset Bo 👀

For all the hard work you do, someone should write for you. Depending if you're into the really disturbed, angst, smutty kind where there are no such things as regrets. That's me. I write that stuff all the time. Keep up the great writing beautiful. What's next on your upcoming lists of fanfiction you're going to post? 💋💞😍🤗👀 Love ya! @doloresdaizhamorgan

Ahh thank you, bby! You always send the sweetest asks (and btw I hoped you liked vamp Touya!!) Next up is slasher Bokuto, Akaashi & Kuroo which I am v excited about 🔪

Hi! I was wondering how you think the yandere soulmate pairings would react to the reader favouring one over the other? Would they get jealous of the other—leading to the reader's possible escape route? Also just wanted to say I love your writing so so so much—it genuinely gives me chills in all the best ways :)

I think it would be difficult for the reader to prefer one to the other as they’re all bad in different ways. However as it’s kind of implied that both Oikawa & Iwa and Ushijima and Tendou are also each others soulmates as well, I think they’d find a way to manage it without too much drama between each of them - probably exposure therapy. Say you start to cling a little more to Ushi because Tendou’s being sadistic mean, he’ll leave the two of you to spend some ‘quality time’ together - surely you’ll be feeling better by the time he gets back (you aren’t). Or if you start showing more favouritism to Iwa because he doesn’t go as hard with his punishments, the two of them will agree that next time it’s all up to Iwa, and he’s gonna make it hurt while Oikawa will be there to take care of you afterwards.

It’s all about balance.

If its with the twins, good fucking luck. They’re already bickering over the small stuff - they’ll just take it as an excuse to lord it over the other one - which ill inevitably prompt the ‘loser’ to remind you of exactly why you should really reconsider, especially with how good he’s gonna make ya feel. Basically - it’s a tug of war with you caught in the middle. Have fun tho!

#fic q's #BD answers #ask #anon #not a request

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good mornin' or night \(≧▽≦)/ i really love your works! they're so good :( can u give me tips on how to start a writing blog hehe (๑•́ ₃ •̀๑)

good morning/night to you too as well!! ( ू•⌄• ू )✧ thank you soOOOOo much for your words and it's an honor to be asked this kind of question

disclaimer! i am far from being from a great writer; therefore, i am still trying to discover things that will help me improve. the things below are only based on my own experience (when I started writing). another writer's experiences, opinions and perspectives might differ from mine. nonetheless, here you go and i wish you luck & happiness on your endeavors!

1. explore and read

in the writing community, you will surely come across many types of contents (and genres) like written fics, headcanons, smau's and then fluff, angst and so many more au's. i highly suggest for you to explore— you can try reading from different authors (perhaps to be inspired and to learn lots of writing styles and stuff like that). also! aside from reading one-shots, fanfics, etc; reading novels and books (mostly trilogies and other series) helps me a lot, esp. when it comes to widening my vocabulary (because english is not my mother tongue)

2. write for each of these types/genres

as a continuation for number 1, other than reading, it is really helpful (for me at least) to try writing at least one output for each of the aforementioned genres/types— this will help you discover which one suits your taste the best (like the genre or type you know you will enjoy; i.e. if you noticed, i mostly write angst because that's what i feel comfy writing for)

3. updating is NOT an obligation of yours, nor is satisfying each and every one of the reader; always prioritize yourself before anything or anyone else!

at first, i used to... feel this pressure of having to update, esp. the ones that are a series, because i was scared of readers possibly complaining for the slow updates (or for the lack of one). furthermore, i fet like i had to post something that is worth reading and such. however!! the longer i stayed in this writing community, the more i have remembered the reason i even started writing— for myself, for my hobby, for my passion, for my happiness. if you feel like you're no longer happy? like writing only brings you negative feelings (esp. the toxic ones)? then stop. think for yourself, not for others. yes, as someone who signed up for this decision to write, you might be expected to write and post contents BUT you have to keep in mind: expectations are different from obligations. you have to realize that in life, not all expectations can be satisfied.

as for the second clause "nor is satisfying each and everyone of your readers" — in this passion (or in any kind of passion, as a matter of fact), there will always be someone or something that will contradict or oppose you. (constructive criticism is good but there are really just some outright bashing that gets on your nerves, y'know) still, you can't control that because you know,,,, some people just feel SO entitled that they open their mouth for businesses that aren't even theirs. however, what you can control is how you will take it; will you let it get you down? or ignore them and just keep doing (and improving to prove them wrong) what makes you happy? i think that's the most important here given that it's a public community ^^ — so far, i've never had criticism/bashing directed right at me but! i've come across different generalized posts like that (i.e. a user (i ain't gonna drop names because i am not like that; if the shoe fits, feel free to wear it) stating how smau's are "lazy writing" - which basically calls us, smau makers, lazy writers). you might feel hurt, offended, etc. but at the end of the day, it sounds more like THEIR problem than it is mine, y'know? to cut it short, the logic with haters is that: "if you don't like it, then get the fuck out of this blog"

4. be happy

as i mentioned a while ago, i personally think that it is not healthy to push yourself to do something that only gives you a toxic mindset (like putting yourself down and stuff like that). in this harsh world, we only have limited choices to make and you have to always bear in mind that your happiness is the most crucial thing to have here. hence, i'm saying that no matter what choice you make, i hope you choose the one that makes you happy and fills your heart with fulfillment— if writing is what will help you achieve that, then go for it

this got way too long but i actually wanted to post something like this for a long time now; not just for aspiring writers (like you) but also the current ones, esp. those who are doubting their abilities and works— you did not enter this world for others nor for their satisfaction. for yourself, always.

ps - if y'all need someone to talk to, just send me an ask or dm me! i may not reply as fast as others can but i'll be there to listen! (⊃｡•́‿•̀｡)⊃ *hugs*

#marga babbles

[aceofwhump]

Okay so I got back into my Supergirl binge, just finished season 3, and I HAVE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS. So buckle up cause I'm just gonna put this all under post. There’s a lot here. It's really random and incoherent and long so I'm putting it under a read more.

If you’ve been with me a while you know I can get....passionate about characters I love so this probably won’t be anything new lol. For all you newcomers this is a good time to warn you that I can get long winded in my outpouring of affection for certain whumpees.

Also, spoiler alert I guess if you haven't watched. And if you are a Mon-El hater reading this please don’t interact. I won’t put up with that bullshit. This is positive Mon-El post cause I LOVE MON-EL SO MUCH

TW: discussions of child abuse, emotional and physical

First of all, you guys remember me posting about how much I loved Mon-El and how I had thoughts on how I wanted him whumped? I WAS NOT DISAPPOINTED!!!! God he got whumped so good!! The gunshot! The Medusa virus!! The emotional angst! The stuff with Rhea!! The lead poisoning!! Him having to leave! HEARTBREAKING! WONDERFUL! I LOVE IT!! I NEED MORE!! He whumps so so good!! And there's still soooooo many ways I'd love to see but probably won't get to. Ugh so many opportunities and ideas I'd love to explore.

Secondly, I have feelings about Mon-El and Rhea and Daxam in general. 

Oooh boy do I have feelings. OH MY GOD the Mon-El angst that can/does come out of it all is so fucking delicious!

Rhea is one abusive, manipulative BITCH and I feel so bad for Mon-El! I can only imagine the things he went through a child if she is doing this shit to him as an adult. In the show we’ve seen that Rhea has physically struck him (not only did she slap him across the face but she also punched him so hard in the chest he went flying across the room), locked him up on their ship (and was going to keep him in caged for the next 4 years while she brainwashed him into being the "prince” he used to be), continually emotionally manipulates him, murdered his father and blamed it on him, repeatedly ignores his wishes and words, attacked the people he loves, threatens him, guilt trips him, tried to force him into a marriage using the lives of sick children to manipulate him into it, took locks of his hair without his consent in order to make a progeny with his dna (seriously what the fuck!), invaded his new home with an army, plays on his emotions and love for her as his mother to manipulate him, lies to him, and so much more.

Shes a monster and if she does this shit to him now then you can bet she did this shit when he was growing up. And that hurts me. Thinking about how emotionally and physically abusive Rhea must have been to Mon-El as he grew up in Daxam is heartbreaking

(Also, did Mon-El actually ever learn that his mother murdered his father!? Cause I'd have liked to see Kara tell him and his reaction towards it! He would have been devastated by it. And it would have been really hard for Kara to tell him something like that. Oh man can you imagine the guilt he'd feel over that!? My heart.)

Then there’s everything we learn about Daxam through things Mon-El says and how his parents act and my god if I grew up in that environment i’d be messed up too. I mean he’s canonically said in 2x20 that "we'd drug ourselves, so we literally didn't feel anything" back in Daxam. That’s so fucking heartbreaking! And he says this after he think he sees (he does actually see her but doesn’t believe he did) his mom on the streets and nearly has a fucking panic attack! 

Mon-El: I, um... (SIGHS) I thought I saw my mother last night. I didn't. Don't worry. I went and checked, and my parents' ship definitely had left for Daxam a few weeks ago. But thinking I saw her, it... I thought it would make me feel anger. But I felt, um... Other... Other stuff... I just... I hate... I hate that I still care about her.

Kara: Hey, we can't will ourselves to not feel anything. Life doesn't work like that.

Mon-El: On Daxam, that's exactly what we'd do. We'd drug ourselves, so we literally didn't feel anything.

Kara: You're allowed to miss her. She is your mother.

Mon-El: Well, she's gone forever. So...

AND! And! I was thinking about when Mon-El saw her on the streets and how much it effected him and how much of an emotional roller coaster that was for him. From the fear of seeing her again to realizing that he still loves her despite everything she’s done and it’s so heartbreaking seeing how much he doesn’t want to feel anything towards her but he does and it hurts him. God fuck Daxam and fuck Rhea. I’m glad he got out of that crap planet and into an environment where he can grow and heal.

Third: Mon-El has been through so much and I really really want to see someone talk to him about it and see him breakdown and someone hug him dammit!

Let’s take a look at everything Mon-El has been through for a second. I mean he witnesses the destruction of Daxam and is forced into an escape pod and is sent into space before he can even think anything. He crash lands on an unknown planet, is in a coma for a while, wakes up panicked and confused with a Kryptonian over him and for him no time has past since he escaped Daxam and he doesn’t know his people are dead so he runs and tries to get home. He’s in unknown territory and he’s in distress and gets caught by Kara who hates him because hes from Daxam and she knocks him and locks him up. So he’s confused and being confronted by a Kryptonian with a clear prejudice against him and then he learns HIS PEOPLE AND PLANET ARE DEAD and he is a refugee now and jeezus that must have been really hard to hear! But no time to process that I guess cause now you have to learn to navigate a strange world but oh you can't leave this facility yet cause we don't trust you. So here live in this random corner of this room. Who needs it to feel homey. Then he gets kidnapped by an evil organization while trying to help someone and gets shot in the leg. Then he gets infected with a virus and nearly dies. All the while he's hiding the fact that he's the prince of Daxam because he’s afraid if Kara finds out she'll hate him again like when they first met (I mean she flat out said at one point that she didn’t want to go on a date with him because of the way he is/who he is) and you know what HE WAS RIGHT! Doesn’t matter that he's trying to change or that his identity would have been a bad thing to blurt out to a Kryptonian. Kara breaks up with him and let's be real who can he go to to talk about this? No one. Cause they'd all take Kara's side. He maybe could go to Winn but not really. Things get better eventually and then his fucking parents show up and he’s back in that emotionally and physically abusive relationship and he’s trying to be stronger and better and he sacrifices himself over and over for Earth and for Kara. But no matter what he does he'll always be a Daxamite and never really trusted by them and that hurts. Winn (and yes of course Kara) was really the only one to truly care that the lead bomb would kill him too. That hurts me. Also! Also! He saw Rhea that day on the street and can you imagine the emotional tailspin that would have thrown him into!? Can you imagine if you saw you evil abusive mother on the street?

SOMEONE LOVE AND HUG MY SON!!

Wow sorry I got long winded there but god I have FEELS!!!!

Which I guess brings me to my next discussion: My feelings about Mon-El's return and the Legion.

Surprisingly I was not as upset over Mon-El and Saturn Girl (and the subsequent death of my favorite top Karamel cause fuck that hurts guys) as I thought I'd be and it took me a minute to work out why. The reason why is because the Legion are his family. Mon-El found his family and his purpose and he's happy. He lived 7 years in the future where he mourned his home and Kara and he found people who love him and he found purpose. He built a legacy, a family, based on everything Kara had taught him and that's amazing. I never felt like he fit in with the DEO group other than Winn and Kara. Even with Kara he sometimes still didn't feel like he fit. But with Imra and Brainy? It feels different. It feels good. They don’t see him as an untrustworthy Daxamite like the others did. To the Legion he’s just Mon-El. From the way he interacts with both Imra and Brainy and the quick lines he throws out about their lives in the future you can feel how different it is for him. They love him, they trust him. He called Brainy his best friend! It feels happy and they feel close just like a family. And I'm so so happy that its Winn who ends up going with him back to the future cause not only did Mon-El deserve to have his best friend back but Winn deserved that adventure and it makes me so damn happy.

I was really sad when he left again and really sad that he and Kara weren’t going to be together but it’s okay because he’s happy! Look at how much Mon-El has grown! He’s a true hero! He’s brave and smart and selfless and strong and I couldn’t be more proud of him. Being back was really hard for him but he tried to not hurt Kara and in the end he made the best decision for both of them. I’m so proud of him.

I wish so desperately that I could get a whole fanfic or series or even just tons of headcanons about his time forming and fighting with the Legion cause I want to see that family grow. That's a team I can get behind. I want to see everything that Mon-El went through from the time he landed in the future for the first time to him waking up in 3x07. I want to see how he adjusts and who he meets and see him slowly start fighting and finding others to fight with him cause Kara taught him to help people so he'll help people while he's stick here. I want to see him learn how to fight, him learning his cape tricks, getting his supersuit, fighting with the Legionnaires. But I also want to see him slowly lose hope of every returning home of ever seeing Kara again and how that affects him and hopefully see the rest of the Legion help him through that. To see that family begin to grow. To see him slowly accept that he won't ever see his home or Kara ever again. To see him reluctantly fall in love again. To see him accept his fate and make a home in the 31st century. To protect it and fight for it and his new family. To begin to feel happy and content in the future and finally feel at ease with his life again after years of closing himself of from others too afraid to lose them and hurt again. I want to see all of this. I also want to see what they're like now that Winn has joined them and how much fun those two have together in the future. How do the Legionnaires feel about losing Brainy? How do they feel about Winn? How do they bond?

One final thought. Less about Mon-El and more about the fandom.

You guys warned me about the hate he gets but oh my god I did not expect to see hatred in such a level as I did when I ventured into the tag looking for gifs. Jeezus fuck. I don't understand it. I do not understand how anyone could hate that adorable space puppy. Mon-El worked so hard to unlearn all of the bad things he's been taught since birth and is instead learning from Kara how to be a hero. And he does! He learns and grows and it's amazing and I'm so proud of him! He becomes a caring and supportive and loving boyfriend and is well on the way to being a real hero! He stands up against his evil abusive mother and turns away his people and fights for Kara and for Earth. I'm proud of him. Yes he makes mistakes but he recognizes it and tries really hard to learn from them and do better! How can you hate him with such vehemence!? How!? I've seen less hated towards actual villains! Villains who murder with glee and without remorse! Villains whose backstory is nothing than "I want to". But Mon-El is the one to get hated on? And for those fans to not just attack Mon-El going as far as to call him abusive (the fuck?) but to go after other fans who like him and ship Karamel? To go after Chris Wood himself?! The vitriol I've seen spouted is horrifying. I thought the hate I got for being a Grant Ward or a Roger Mackenzie fan was bad. And it was/is but this is....wow. Just wow. I'll never understand it.

I love Mon-El greatly. He's such a complex character. I love watching people grow and learn and his character development is a gift to watch. Seeing him go from the playboy asshole he started as to the caring and brave hero he is now is wonderful to watch. And I love him and Kara. You can see the love between Chris and Melissa every second the two of them on screen together and it warms my heart that they found each other, that after everything Melissa went through she found her happiness with Chris. And you can see that happiness with Kara and Mon-El. They were so cute and loving and so full of light. I love them and will continue to support and love Karamel forever.

#mod post #mod rambles like crazy #supergirl #mon el #mon el positivity #i love mon el and i got the feels #my thoughts

[nblesbianbenhanscom]

Will you get mad at me if I ask you to answer ALL of the fanfic Day questions because I just really enjoy your writing and I want to know everything I can. ♡.♡

OMGosh Lock, lol. Nah, I’ll answer them all. Lol.

It got long, surprise surprise, so I put it all under the cut.

What is your favorite fic you have under your belt?

I mean, the all time favorite one I’ve written is It Was Only a Kiss from my Teen Wolf days because of all the emotional hurt/comfort. 

For It, I think, other than Death Is Just So Full, it has to be I Want to Hold Your Hand. It’s a preslash reddie fic that’s just so fucking soft.

What is your favorite snippet of dialogue?

I... Have such a hard time remembering what I wrote once it’s up. Lol. I’m looking over my fics rn like..? I wrote this?

The only thing that’s coming to mind is from my unfinished steddie fic, Leaning Out for Love-

It will be a cold day in hell before I fuck someone in a public bathroom, Eddie told the voice.

What inspired Fresh Raviolis?

You! Lol. Um. If I’m not mistaken, I think that was another @dysregulardyke​ helped fic. I was going to try and write some angst, and it was like. I don’t wanna write angst. I also think I just really liked the idea of Stan being the needy one. Usually it’s the other two, but like Stan always seems so solid, or at least the way I write/interpret him.

Do you prefer writing long or short fics?

So. Dijsf is actually the longest fic I’ve finished. When Leaning Out for Love is done, it will probably be longer. Historically, I have written much shorter fics, the longest coming in around 40k. It just depends on my mood. I’ve been writing a lot of short fics/drabbles lately because I don’t have the emotional energy for the bigger ones and I get bored easily. I do need to get back to that steddie though. It’s so good.

What’s your favorite headcanon you use in fics?

I’m just gonna say it. It’s. It’s unpopular. I’ve been avoiding saying it out loud to anyone but Lou. I’ve vague posted about it A LOT, but like. It is a common theme in my writing...

Richie’s parents don’t like him. They don’t get him, they think he’s weird and a freak. They don’t like that he’s queer. They just want him to be Normal.

Do I appreciate fics where Richie’s parents are loving and caring and so forth? Yes. I’ve read lots of drabbles and short fics where Went and Maggie are great parents, love him, and support him, but like. That’s not what I saw. That’s not how I took it.

Richie’s parents aren’t in the movies/miniseries. We have absolutely no idea what they are like. In the book, from what I remember, they have zero idea as to how to handle him. I know, I know that just because a parent doesn’t know how to handle their kid doesn’t mean they don’t like him, but. *shrug*

I don’t know if it’s even a favorite headcanon, it’s just one that seems to come up a lot.

What’s the detail you wait on bated breath for readers to notice?

The stuff I want people to notice is almost always stuff my first readers don’t get, so it usually gets cut. Like in dijsf, I had a part where Richie was going over stuff in his head and was like “A happened, and 2 was wrong, and c none of the above,” type something and both Lou and my other friend were like THIS MUST BE CORRECTED, and I did a sad.

How much do you like symbolism in your fics?

I don’t? I am a chaotic writer. I do not use outlines. I just write. The closest I come to outlines is making a calendar but that’s filled in as I go so I can have some idea when things happened.

How often do people catch onto your little details?

I honestly have no idea? No one mentions anything. I think sometimes I ask Lou about stuff, but like my brain is so not remembering shit right now about little details that I may have wanted people to notice.

What’s the fic you like the least?

... My most popular It fic Not Gonna Lose Me. Like I have no idea why. It’s good, it’s really good. But... I don’t like it. I almost didn’t even publish it, but both Lou and my other friend were like, it’s a solid fic, so... ??? I have no idea.

What would you change if you had it all to do again?

... i killed stan in dijsf and i felt so guilty about it i started writing Leaning Out for Love.

Like, my friend was over halfway done editing when I was like, I should- I should rewrite this. I should rewrite this so Stan lives, because I love Stan and he deserves to live.

Lou had to tell me very firmly that the fic would not have been the same if I kept Stan alive, and let me tell you, Leaning Out for Love is SOOOOOO different. It’s like literal polar opposite.

What’s a fanfic idea you haven’t done yet?

Any of the Losers as trans, nonbinary, asexual, or aromantic. There’s... thoughts that swirl around, but I hesitate. I wrote a lot of stuff like that in my Teen Wolf days, and they were good and I know helped people, but like. I don’t know. I don’t know why I can’t quite do that here. I probably will someday though.

What’s the hardest thing to write for you?

Describing what things/people look like. I have no ideas. Also sex positions?? And often emotions.

Do you have a favorite character to write for?

Eddie. Eddie spaghetti. I love Eddie so much. He’s fucking everything. Stan and Richie are close seconds though.

What’s your favorite shipping fic you’ve written? Favorite gen fic?

If we focus on It and push dijsf aside, my favorite shipping fic is probably my streddie fic We Won’t Settle for Less. The proposal scene is just... pure delight, lol. My favorite gen fic is I Want to Hold Your Hand. It’s just... So Good. So pure. Like. Just Richie and Eddie going on their first (not) date when they both only kind of know it’s a date? I don’t know. It just warm fuzzies.

Give us a snippet of something from your WiPs!

Have something from Leaning Out for Love-

Eddie smiled a little as he leaned up against a tree. He bit his lip as he looked around. He still couldn’t believe how much had and hadn’t changed in the Barrens. Stan leaned close to Eddie but didn’t touch him. Eddie grabbed his sleeve to pull him close, but Stan pulled away, shaking his head.

“No, talk to me,” Stan said.

Eddie shrugged a little. “There’s nothing to tell.”

“Clearly.”

“What? What do you want me to say? That I’m fucking terrified that I’m a disappointment? That I’m scared that you don’t actually like me? That I’ll never be good enough for this? For- For-” Eddie yelled, his voice raising with each word. He wrapped his arms around himself as he stared down at his feet. Stan didn’t say anything, just stood there watching him. “For you,” he whispered. He took a deep breath and chanced a look up at Stan who was just watching him, clearly lost for words. “Well are you going to say something?” Eddie snapped despite himself.

Stan opened his mouth and closed it. He started to reach for Eddie but stopped.

“Eddie, you’re- You don’t need to put so much pressure on yourself,” Stan said. “You’re one of the best people I know.”

Eddie huffed. “Yeah, I’m really fucking great.” He shook his head. “I live with my fucking- with fucking Sonia. I don’t even have a fucking job or savings! I’m a twenty-four year old gay man who’s most serious relationship was with a woman just like my mom!” He laughed again. “Real fucking catch.” Breathing hard, he looked down at his feet again.

“Hey!” Stan growled. He grabbed Eddie’s face roughly, his fingers digging into Eddie’s cheeks so Eddie would look up at him. “You are great. You are a catch. You are so fucking caring, and sweet, and hot. And strong.” Eddie tried to pull away, but Stan shifted, pushing him back. “You’re so fucking strong. You’re one of the strongest people I know. Yeah, life sucks right now. I get it. Mine does too. But it’s not going to suck forever.” A tear trickled down Eddie’s cheek. “It’s not going to suck forever.”

Eddie sucked in a deep breath. “I just- I don’t even know what I’m really doing here.”

“You’re doing your best,” Stan said gently. “And your best is good enough.” Eddie sighed, all the fight leaving his body, and he brought his hands up to Stan’s wrists.

#i'm not going to tag this #because reasons #but tysm #<3 #i really should get back to writing that steddie #it's so soft #thelxckblog

[reynaruina]

The angst in the PonytailAU is just *chefs kiss* It hurts soooooo bad BUT IT'S SOOOO GOOD AND YOUR ART MAKES IT WAY BETTER I know one day those idiots will stop being idiots, but until then, I'm gonna be at my crying corner :')))))

Eyyyup! They will get their shit sorted out someday but there’s just so much stuff in the way to get through it’s gonna be a whole process. And they both gonna fuck up big time before anything gets resolved c:

#as #ponytail dib au #repeating for the hundredth time that this shit will take a while #also ty aaah <3 #glad you're enjoying the pain <3 #yourfriendlybisexualien

[kinktae]

I’m so proud of you for not only finishing the masterpiece that is Bitchin *chef kiss* but also getting the final chapter out when you were hoping. Every little win should be celebrated so make sure to give yourself some credit x

bitchin 10 asks (finally!)

thefouranemoi said: just finished bitchin! it was soooooos soooooooooo good! im a sucker for a really good slow burn but this wasn't dragged out or overly dramatic. it was perfect and im so glad y/n and jk have each other. thank you for such a series!

sadlemonboy said: i read bitch’n 10 on the bus and was trying so hard to just not cry. i was so good i love it so much. just like thank you

Anonymous said: WHAT'S WITH YARA AND TAE??? ARE THEY TOGETHER??? WILL WE EVER KNOW???

Anonymous said: Buttt just out of curiosity what happened with Yara and Taee, did they became fvckbuddies or smth

forvever-ddaeng said: STOP IM FUCKING SAD ITS OVER :( WHEN I READ “I SLEPT WITH ERIK” I WANTED TO STAB MY EYES OUT LIKE WTF BUT THE PAPER WAS HONESTLY SO FUCKING CUTE IM SO HAPPY WITH HOW THIS TURNED OUT I LOVE YOU AND YOUR BRAIN 🥺 p.s. do you think you’d ever do a drabble or epilogue where we get more of yara and tae? Totally cool if you don’t want to I was just wondering

O.O

Anonymous said: BITCHIN PART 10 WAS SO GOOD!!!! I WAS CRYING LAST MIGHT, THINKING THAT Y/N AND JK WERE JUST GOING TO PART WAYS,,,,HEKDHBFKD FUCKIN HAD ME SCARED. OMG SUCH A GOOD SERIES!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEXT ONE.

Anonymous said: AHHH I LOVED BITCHIN SO MUCH!!! This has always been one of my favorite fics right from the beginning and probably will always be one of my favorites. You did such an amazing job. I’m sad Bitchin era is over but I’m excited for whatever era that will be next:) Thank you for writing this, ILY

Anonymous said: THANK U FOR BITCHIN IT WAS AMAZING

Anonymous said: Bitchin was one wild ride 😭😭 I loved it and can’t wait for more of your rewind series 🥺💕💕

Anonymous said: 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💜💜💜😩😩😩😩- my reaction to bitchin final (for now)

Anonymous said: REST IN PEACE BITCHIN AAAAKAAKK.,?!@ FOREVER IN MY HEART GOD DAMMIT I CANT STOPCRYING ARE U HAPPY ROSE DID U LIKE CRUSHING MY FEELINGS LIKE THIS OIOOHNMY GOD 😭😭😭😭

jessiejellybean said: The only thing I can say about bitchin finale is GAJSOSLALHSISSAOWLLANSHSJAKA SERIOUSLY ITS SO GOOD THIS SERIES AS A WHOLE IS UNBELIEVABLY GOOD 10/10 WOULD RECOMMEND

Anonymous said: bitchin was so good😭 i am BEYOND devastated knowing that ill no longer be getting notifs on another update🥺it was so fun to be a part of this journey consisting of having to anticipate for another part to be posted for as long a month! but never have i regretted any second of waiting bcs the result came out so well written and interesting u might as well make it into a hard copy or a movie and get paid loads🤩 keep up the good work❤️

Anonymous said: Funnily enough, you were the first EVER bts blog that I followed because I thought you were funny as hell. Then, you posted part 1 of bitchin and on god I swear I signed my life away for bitchin!jk 🤡. I've officially lived through an era 🥺🥺. I'll miss them but I'll always be the biggest yaraxtae whore 🥵💦 -♒

sydney--chan said: This might sounds totally stupid or whatever, but bitchin' means a lot to me and I'm so happy that you decided to share it with us. Not to get all sad n shit but I started reading this during a really rough period in my life. This story allowed me to forget about all the stuff that was going on, even for just a little bit. This story means so much to me and seeing it end is like making me 😭😭😭 this is the perfect story and I love you and thank you for creating such a beautiful story 

Anonymous said: THAT WAS SO GOOOOOOOD the way u wrote about jungkook’s feelings tugged at my heartstrings like my heart physcially legitimately hurt ur writing was so spot on!! all the details!! Totally worth staying up even though i have class tm

Anonymous said: miss rose i just wanted to stop by and say thank you for always giving us such masterpieces. as a jk whore (ot7 whore in general but ya know) bitchin was just *chefs kiss* i literally looked forward to Sundays bc I knew there was a chance a new chapter would be posted lol. I am sad to see bitchin end but am also suuuuper excited to support your new fics and anything else you come out with. you’re the best. love ya 💕

Anonymous said: Bitchin' 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I'm going to say this for the umpteenth time... IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD. It's one of the best fanfictions out there and I'm gonna re-read it at least five more times. Thank you so much for blessing us with this bounty! Take care! 💜💜

koru-rhi said: I should really be asleep but I had to finish Bitchin & I went back and reread it from the beginning to the end and I just want you to know how much I loved it! It was a beautiful smuttyfluffyangsty ride and I can’t wait to read more of your writing! I totally lost it at Everything I Didn’t Say 😫 btw.

Anonymous said: Wow bitchin is over... what is there to look forward to now on this app :(

Anonymous said: I AM NOT CRYING, YOU ARE ALL CRYING I CNA IT THE END DNDMSM MY POOR HEART. AGHHHH SNAMAMA PLEASE,WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME. YOU ARE KILLING ME. I DON'T KNOW IF I AM SAD OR HAPPY OR BOTH.

Anonymous said: UGH! bitchin 10 was amazing *chef’s kiss* I sobbed, I felt their earnest love for each other. A real roller coaster just like my emotions rn. Ngl I sound like a middle aged white mom giving a book review 💀 anygays I just wanted to say that I love ur stories and they’re always so well written

betysotelo18 said: Bitchin'...has me in tears! For some reason I thought this was going to have smut...Who needs smut! This was PERFECT! The damn piece of paper made tears roll down my cheeks! I loved every single chapter. Thanks for sharing

deewhalien21 said: Waiting bitchin part 10 was hell, couldn’t imagine living without them now😔 I’m going to miss them, like a lot. And thank u for good memories with these people mam, thank u for making me experiencing heart break that I could never have. I’m waiting another great stories❤️😔

lalumaia said: That was just perfect, Rose. Thank you, I love you

Anonymous said: hi, bitchin was soooo good and every time you uploaded i felt so happy and excited for the next one, thank you for all your work!

Anonymous said: when i saw the warning said “angst” i was so worried they wouldn’t end up together :( thank you for this rose this was such a beautiful story and experience!!! love u lots angel

Anonymous said: ROSE HOLY SHIT THAT WAS SO GOOD !!!!!!!!

unknowntalesx said: ROSE IM CRYING WHAT THE FUCK I LOVED THAT SO MUCH MY HEART WAS BEING SQUEEZED AND TORN AND I HAD/HAVE LITERAL TEARS RUNNING DOWN MY FACE

Anonymous said: OMG CANT BELIEVE BITCHIN IS OVER 😭😭 i loved everything from the beginning till the end 💜 THANK U FOR WRITING SUCH AMAZING STORY

Anonymous said: On god bitchin is the best series I’ve ever read on this app. The ending was great too! Just sad that it’s over :( thanks for writing it

Anonymous said: FAM YOU GOT ME CRYING IN THE CLUB WITH BITCHIN PT. 10! I absolutely adore your work so much and Bitchin was absolutely beautiful and so fantastic to read. I love it and you so much! Thank you for giving us something so beautiful ❤️ P.S. now take a long break girl because you deserve it

Hi friends! I can’t even begin to explain how much every single comment/like/reblog/ask in regards to bitchin has meant to me

#ask

[fanfoolishness]

Rambling thoughts for Little Graduation/Prickly Pair

My heart can’t even handle it, you guys.  I just... I can’t.  *cries forever* Thoughts behind the jump for spoilers/length, and please feel free to yell at me or reblog with your own thoughts!

Steven is singing along to an old Sadie Killer song because it’s old and familiar

Really the only time we’ve seen him sing this season

Because his feelings are too muddled up and painful to dare put to song

So he sticks to others’ music instead, safer that way

OMG he adds a little “Hey” to “Teens by day” so cute

OMG he does a falsetto part to the first Sadie Killer and Suspects and then a goofy as FUCK deep voice for the second Sadie Killer and the Suspects

I just… Zach Callison’s voice work this season has been so good and it sounds like he’s having such a good time at the silly parts and he’s been so emotional on the rough parts, if he doesn’t get recognized for his work on the show by the end it’ll be criminal

This is gonna be the last time we really see Steven happy for a long time, isn’t it? And it’s so sad because it such a joy to see him that way again for a second, no eye bags, no stress. My heart.

Aww Sadie got a neck too!

YEAH STEVEN REALLY DID DIAMOND EYES FROM EXCITEMENT, not stars!!!

I’m sad for Lars and Sadie that their growth took them different places but I’m so proud of them too!!!

“Don’t you wanna try something new?”

“Well, hm.”

“Except for me! I’ll still be… right here.”

Steven is losing control of his floating powers. Tried to be cool guy floating around with his friends and failed. This is really concerning. The last time he couldn’t float well was way back in season 4. Stevennnnnnn….

Shep DOES seem so cool!

Look at Rebecca Sugar, they truly just be out there like “last season, what are they gonna do to me if I put non-binary humans in the show, that’s right, they won’t do jack SHIT” bwahaha

And it’s lovely that it’s just no biggie

Steven your ship didn’t sail, I’m sorry but you can’t write AUs for real people

Lars is more worried about the cake than about his ex

“Are YOU okay?”

Finally someone is asking and of course Steven is like”what? My problems are visible externally? WHAT problems???”

“Everyone but me…”

Buck got into medical school??? Holy shit, so he was in college before? Dang. Also his bedside manner will be soooooo weird and cool

Actually I can see him as one of the weird internal medicine doctors who’s super smart so you want them on your case but he only says the occasional weird thing like “your gallbladder is an illusion” or “your hormones are like, totally out of sync. Lemme fix that” or wow, I don’t even know, I may have to write a drabble of an intern just being wowed by how weird he is

Classic Steven would definitely buy a jacket for his phone

Awww Sadie you should have told him 😭😭😭

Lars watching Steven slow motion self-destruct like “oh god is this how I was”

“Ah, well… you should have asked me, I’m-I’m really good at naming bands…”

Jesus Christ Steven that sound was my heart breaking for you

What the fuck is Shep’s instrument? Anyone know?

Okay this is actually a really good graduation song and while Sadie Killer is still awesome I love that Sadie can also tap into more personal emotions for her work now, she’s just so good!

I know how Lars feels, sometimes those big events are just overwhelming

I love his leather jacket!

So uhhhh maybe Steven doesn’t control Diamond Mode as well as we had thought given the last few episodes

It’s really fascinating because it’s clear in the animation and voice work Steven’s struggling with so many feelings right now

He’s scared Lars and the others are slipping away

He’s ashamed he feels so aimless beside them

He’s angry that Lars isn’t listening and is going to leave him

He’s sad that everyone’s changing

The way Steven yells at Lars to stop is just so fucking desperate, his shaking fist, holy shit kid you do not do goodbyes well do you

Aaaaaaand that’s new. What the hell is it??? We’ve never seen this from any other gem or Diamond before. DAMMIT STEVEN THIS IS NOT HEALTHY

It shredded the stage and the banner 😭

Digging that scary as fuck musical motif

It has the Diamond mode machine noise in the background — that flickering humming power sound

Seriously Steven!!! How the hell would Lars’ feelings— so much denial

“When did this happen, I didn’t see any of this!”

I love that he touched on this, like of course people don’t have to live their private lives in front of you, dingbat! But so much of his life has been lived with the Gems who did display all their trauma and problems that he can’t help but feel he’s entitled to see how things work out

It’s also concerning because it suggests he is having some trouble viewing people as independent to him, as having their own agency

WHITE DIAMOND ANYONE

I love that Lars is so excited to be back in space with his friends!!

Oh man the way everyone stares at Steven like “bro, clearly you are the only magical pink person in the room”

Some really gorgeous frames of Steven’s face here, wish Apple TV let you cap them 😢

“I can’t help it if my dumb heart misses you guys” I’m CRYING FOREVER

AMAZING use of “squash and stretch” Disney animation theory here hahahaha

Lars and Steven hug gives me so much life waaaaaah

I still can’t get over how grownup that boy looks behind the wheel. I love his hand tapping on the wheel.

So pensive. Poor Steven.

And now Prickly Pair, if you thought your heart hurt before well lemme tell you what!

How much time has passed since Snow Day?

Dammit, I predicted in one of my fics that Steven would feel weird about gardening magically and want to do it all the old-fashioned way…

But I haven’t finished it, alas. And Steven is doing much better emotionally by that point in MY story thank you hahahaha

Also it’s Connverse and adorable

Okay really should work on it

Well, okay, Connie is a cute smart blue flower so at least Steven’s still thinking of her? I really wish she had been here but I guess she’s gonna have to save Steven from himself soon enough.

I’m now kind of uneasy about the idea of them dating… I really wanted them to get together but Steven isn’t healthy right now. He’s really messed up and kind of worse than I was even thinking with all my angsting. If they try to get together now Steven might be weird and controlling and secretive and that is not the Connverse I want! Maybe we’ll get something cute and sweet after Steven starts recovering and getting mentally healthier?

Because not to say you can’t be in a relationship and be mentally ill… but the low point of your illness is NOT a time to START a relationship, and if they’d really been dating this whole time I have to imagine we’d have heard about it. So my guess would be not dating, Steven was too busy to hang out a lot of the time, but still friends.

Dammit I really wanted cute date episodes and the big dance from Chille Tid 😭

DON’T NAME YOUR PLANTS AFTER PEOPLE

Garnet tried to warn him… I wonder how the cactus acted in other timelines.

Does Zach voice the cactus too?

Yep: confirmed, Zach is a cactus.

FINALLY we’re in Steven’s head and it’s an uncomfortable place to be

“I used to be helpful, but the Gems don’t need me anymore! Why do I need to be needed? Stevennnn, pull it together!!!”

And again with the head clutching and yeah it really seems like White’s pulling a Steven in the intro doesn’t it???

Oh god I assumed the cactus was going to be a monster because of repressed feelings manifesting in Steven’s spit but it’s so much more painful that it repeats after him and THAT’s what makes it upset waaaaaaah

Cactus Steven screaming why do I need to be needed!!!

The Gems are finally asking the right questions but Steven is so paranoid he can’t help but view them in the worst way

Steven venting about the gems hurts but he DID have to deal with them at their worst

Oh no, he went diamond mode on Cactus Steven!

The powering up noise diamond mode makes is so ominous, I love it

I can’t believe Steven didn’t almost lose an eye from his own shield right then and there

“Those are my real private thoughts! I can’t let them hear!”

Noooo his house!

Nooooo Steven the Gems can take listening to you a lot better than a magical cactus could, you’ve GOT to talk to someone or this will get SO. MUCH. WOrse.

Yeah. It’s gonna get so much worse. ;_;

#steven universe future #suf #steven universe future spoilers #suf spoilers #steven universe spoilers #steven universe #my fucking heart

[bigskydreaming]

LOL in all honesty though I’m way too amused by my own Jack Frost joke and its literally from a Bobby/Christian fanfic I wrote like, twelve years ago or something. It was right after Morrison introduced the idea of Christian in his run for purposes of Emma angst, and then they had that Emma solo, and I took that and ran with that fueled entirely by Rage and Spite, as I am wont to do. I now have no idea where said fanfic is, sadly. This was definitely way before Ao3. I think I only posted it on LJ, on an account where my friends list was like....entirely people from an entirely different fandom soooooo probably why that fic never really caught on. Whatever, I write fic more for myself anyway lmao.

It was pretty good though, think it would’ve held up well. The basic premise had to do with Dark Beast, the AU version of Hank from Age of Apocalypse. See, in the comics, when the few survivors of the Age of Apocalypse reality ended up in the 616 reality after it was destroyed, not all of them ended up in the present. Dark Beast, for example, ended up like twenty years in the past. And he didn’t have most of his memories, amnesia from trauma from the cross-dimensional travel or something. Which is when he met a then teenage Emma Frost, who’d just run away from home after everything that happened with her dad and Christian, and she ended up restoring Dark Beast’s memories with her telepathy, so they actually have history in the comics.

So I went with the idea of, okay what if you let Christian have agency in his trauma instead of giving it to Emma, who lbr, has PLENTY of story material on her own. So my premise was that it was Christian who ran away from home and ended up meeting Dark Beast and restoring his memories. And then Dark Beast, who has always been just as obsessed with creating the perfect mutant as Mr. Sinister is, if not more, because he’s like....equally obsessed with proving he’s better than Sinister....well instead of experimenting on the Morlocks, which is what he went on to do in the comics, he looks elsewhere. He never went after Scott or Jean, because he’s also a coward and Sinister scares him shitless, and DB knew damn well there was no such thing as a reality where Sinister hadn’t already called dibs on Scott and Jean’s genes. BUT, Dark Beast also knew from his own reality who all the other most powerful mutants would end up being....years before their powers even manifested in this reality. And since I’m me, of course I wrote it so that like, DB decided to focus on the other one of the 05 destined to grow up to be an omega mutant. 

And so he had Christian, who was young and easily manipulated because Love Me, I Need External Validation, My Last Name is Frost as In My Family’s Credo is What If We’re All Frosty All The Time....he had Christian use his telepathy to like, prompt Bobby into running away before the actual event that led to Xavier and Scott finding him and saving him and him joining the X-Men. Where Bobby of course ‘happened’ to bump into DB, who took him in along with his other young protege Christian, so he could like, secretly conduct experiments on Bobby blah blah you get it. 

But eventually Christian and Bobby fell in lurv and Christian was like what no, this is wrong, bad, not doing this anymore, so they run away together, and then it was basically just me writing them as a mutant Bonnie and Clyde who are gay and do crime together and say like, fuck all the adult mutants who try and manipulate them and other kids like them. Like Xavier, who eventually tried to get Bobby to join the X-Men and Bobby was like lol no, hard pass. Or the Hellfire Club, who eventually tried to recruit Christian except he was like lol no, hard pass. And then they were basically like this Chaotic Good power couple that just popped up here and there fucking shit up in a well-intentioned way that made half the X-Men grind their teeth and the other half snicker, and same with the Acolytes and other various groups. And there wasn’t really anything anyone could do about it because its canon that Bobby’s only real weakness is to psychics and having a world-class psychic as your boyfriend really kinda nips that weakness in the bud. Unless you come up against like, a cosmic-class psychic like Jean Grey, but lucky for them, she just thinks they’re adorable and tends to go whoops, missed them again every time they slip through the X-Men’s fingers.

And ultimately they decided their real mission in life was to rescue really young mutants whose powers manifested early and put them in danger, and make sure they get a chance to grow up without the various factions going ‘we’ll protect you, but only if you grow up to support our agenda and be One of us, shhhh, don’t fight it, just sign your life away on the dotted line, all the cool kids are doing it.’ And also me being me, and it being like 2004 ish? I think? Maybe 2005. Anyway. So my other preoccupation of the time was the Academy X kids so of course we’re talking like Julian and Josh and Cessily and the like, who were all like, adorable little ten year olds at this point in time, but also V. Beyond the Capacity of These Two Hapless Gays to Handle Without Help. Like, apparently omega powers and world-class telepathy do not actually qualify you to effectively parent a mob of young mutant menaces when you’re only 21-22 yourselves, who knew. So they ended up just showing up on the doorstep of one of Emma’s properties, mutant menace mob in tow, as she was the White Queen by now, and Christian greeting her facepalm moment with ‘Hey Ems, remember how you always wanted to be a teacher?’

And then there was this bit where Emma was something like “I’m a bit busy trying to take over the world, darling, try me again after my mid-life crisis.”

And Christian was all: “You can teach and take over the world at the same time, y’know, some of us are capable of this little thing called multi-tasking?”

And Bobby helpfully piped up: “I can pat my head and rub my stomach at the same time.”

Cue Emma’s wrinkled nose and accusing stare at her brother: “What on earth do you see in him?”

But Bobby just turned around and was like: “Umm, for starters, my ass is amazing. Have you not seen it? Here, touch it. Go ahead, you can squeeze it.”

Emma: .....

Christian, shrugging: “Well I mean, he’s not wrong.”

Emma: “If I agree to this idiotic plan of yours will you leave immediately and never come back?”

Bobby, stage whispering: “Tell her we still want holiday visits, so we can be the cool gay uncles who show up and spoil them rotten and thus they love us more than her. But don’t tell her that last part.”

Christian, dutifully: “We want to still come by for holidays so we can be the cool gay uncles who show up and spoil them rotten and thus they love us but no more than you, an equal amount only.”

Emma: “I’m standing right here you imbeciles.”

Bobby, still whispering: “Make sure that includes Easter. I’m pretty sure if I show up in a bunny costume I can make her head explode.”

Christian: “Just to be clear, that includes - “

Emma, a vein in her temple throbbing: “Just give me the children already.”

Bobby, gathering up the kids in a crowd around him, all noisy and giggling and clamoring for his attention: “Okay kids, so here’s the plan. From now on, you guys are gonna stay here in this big old house with Auntie Em!”

Emma, appalled: “Oh. My. God.”

Christian frowns: “Emma, please stop trying to fry my boyfriend’s brain. I’m not going to let you.”

And then the kids swarmed through the door past her into the hallway and there were the sounds of stuff breaking, distracting her for a bit before she like, glared at Bobby and was all: “This is all your doing!”

Bobby, hurt: “Only mostly! Chris and I are a team. A united front. It was a 60/40 split.”

Christian: “Well....”

Bobby: “Okay, 70/30.”

Christian: “You said you were going out to get some waffles to make breakfast in the morning and you came home with waffles, ice cream, and Julian on your shoulders.”

Bobby: “He followed me home!”

Christian: “That’s not how he tells it.”

Bobby, whirling on the ten year old Julian Keller who’s playing a Gameboy and looking entirely unconcerned: “You little traitor.”

Julian flipped him off.

Bobby, scandalized: “He did NOT learn that from me.”

Julian, still not looking up from his game: “Yes I did.”

And that was when Christian started dragging his boyfriend back to their car, before Bobby can get into an actual fight with a ten year old, yelling back over his shoulder at Emma: “Okay, great, thanks so much for doing this, let us know if you need us to bring anything when we come back in a few days with the second batch.”

Emma, distracted and trying to do a headcount: “Yes, fine, be gone already. ...Wait. What second batch? DRAAAAAAAKE!!”

But it was too late as the car is halfway to her big mansion gates by then, Bobby cackling: “Hey, we should totally get a dog. Like a little foofy one.”

Christian, knowing better than to ask but asking anyway: “And why is that?”

Bobby: “Bet you anything I can get her to say “I’ll get you and your little dog too!’”

Christian: “I’d appreciate it for both our sakes if you never do or say anything to suggest to my sister you’ve ever compared her to the Wicked Witch of the West. I mean, not that she’d protest on moral grounds, but she takes her color schemes very seriously. And you do know you don’t actually have to provoke her quite so much...”

Bobby: “Mmmm....agree to disagree. It’s the principle of the matter.”

Christian: “What principle? What matter?”

That was the gist of that scene anyway. Dialogue’s probably different, but you get it.

Ugh, I probably have the whole thing sitting in an old email account somewhere because that’s always been my main way of backing stuff up, is emailing it to myself. Problem is, I think I had a specific fandom email account back then and I don’t know what it is anymore lol. 

#kalen writes things sometimes

[hollands-poppet]

ALL WE HAVE IS NOW PT 4// TOM HOLLAND X READER

Summary: Y/N is living the Hollywood dream but is conflicted with her feelings when her old flame comes back around..

Word count: 5.3K 💛

A/N: Okay. Soooooo, I was super conflicted on where I wanted to take this story, and it just keeps going into a different direction. I almost feel like this a Team Edward v Team Jacob type of thing, if that makes sense hahaha. I just kind of am going with my gut, anyway I hope y’all don’t hate me for this part. enjoy. 💛💛💛💛

warnings: Italics is flashback, hella SMUT SMUT SMUT, there is cussing , slight fluff/angst, also I sort of proofread this but not really so yeah 

PART1 PART 2  PART 3 PART 5

Through Tom’s kisses he manages to let out a few words, “Are you gonna get that darling?”

Tom continues to set kisses on your neck while you stare deeply at the phone screen in front of you. Your left hand lays on his chest while your phone vibrates in the other. Your guilt begins to set in, here you were with your ex boyfriend about to have sex while the boy you loved was calling you on the phone.

This was wrong. Timothée loved you. And you loved him. But why did being with Tom feel so right in this moment? Did you still love him? You couldn’t. You shouldn’t. This was so wrong.

The vibrating stopped, and Timothee’s photo disappeared from your screen. Y/N pulled away from Tom slowly, his kisses becoming distant and he becomes confused, “What is it darling?” You’re out of his grip and you walk to the dresser and rest your hands on it, your phone still under your right palm.

You stare at the photo of Tessa, studying her. You remember the day that photo was taken, you remember how happy you were with Tom that day.

“Tom, you don’t know how bad I wanted this day to come after we broke up..” You eyes move from Tessa to your phone under your palm, your guilt completely taking over you.

Tom creeps up behind you, his hands landing on your waist and his chin sits on your shoulder, “I’m here now Y/N, I’m sorry I took so long.” You turn around, your elbows on your dresser, and you arch your back and Tom’s hands move from your waist to the dresser. Your elbow nearly touching the photo frame of Tessa while your hands dangle towards the ground, “We can’t, I can’t. I have-”

“What? A boyfriend?” Tom straightened out his back, his hands moving from the dresser to crossed arms. Y/N straightens out, and her hands start massaging her temples “Yes well no, I don’t know. Timothée and I-”

Tom lightly scoffs, he rubs his thumb on his bottom lip, “Timothée? What? I asked him if you guys were a thing and he said no.” Your bring you hand to your shoulder, “Well, it’s complicated Tom.” He presses his lips into a tight line and then brings his hands to his pockets, he’s becoming heated, all he wanted was you, and you’re right under his nose.

“If I were him, you would’ve been mine a long time ago.”

You roll your eyes, had he only know how much pain he put you through. How hard it was for you to be with Timothée because of the pain he had put you through. “Look Tom, I wanted to move on so bad but I couldn’t. I couldn’t give myself to him, until now-”

Tom pressed his lips together again, “So you’ve had sex with him?” Y/N bites her lips, “Not exactly, I’ve never gone all the way with him if that’s what you mean.” You move past Tom, bumping his shoulder lightly and moving to your closet, you would hope Tom would get the hint to leave. You were fine with the whole conversation ending there, yeah you and Timmy weren’t exclusive but you both had admitted your feelings already.

As you enter your closet, you begin to look through your clothing. Dresses upon dresses, you come across a long black fitting dress, and that’s when you hear someone clear their throat, “You wore that dress to In the Heart of the Sea premiere when you came as my date.” Y/N turns around and sees Tom in the center of her closet, she rolls her eyes “I thought you would understand me coming in here meant that our conversation was over.” Y/N loses the dress on the rack and skims over a couple of more pieces of clothing.

He walks over to you and turns you around, his hands lie on your neck as your hands land on his chest. His face is only inches away from yours, “I can’t accept that we don’t get a happy ending love.” Y/N’s hands move from his chest to his hands that rest on her neck, you’re giving in “you know, pretending to be happy is actually really tiring.” Tom gives you a smirk, “you haven’t pulled away from me yet..”

She looks down at the ground, “You just need to know that I do love Timothée..” she bites her lip and looks back at Tom, who looks slightly defeated.

It was so true. Y/N’s feelings for Timothée were always genuine. He wanted to help her move on and he did sort of. She knew what it was like to love a person again.

She takes another deep breath in and while studying Tom’s brown eyes she sighs and brings their noses together, their foreheads touching now, “But I love you more Tom.”

Y/N was tired of fighting her feelings, her feelings that never left. Her love for Tom didn’t leave because she held on to all that she knew of him, just as he did with her. And with that, Y/N brought her lips to his. His lips tasted so sweet, they tasted what she had craved for all these months.

Her hands wrap around his neck, and he brings her legs up to his waist. Tom lifts her up, while Y/N holds onto his neck with her hands. Her core slightly touching his belly button area, she starts grinding while Tom leads them to the bed.

Y/N’s fingers intertwining with his curls, she missed his gingerly brown hair. She missed everything about him, and the way he missed her too.

He wanted this so badly for months but how could he? How could she even let him in after he hurt her so bad? Because she was a fucking angel that could only see good in Tom. She was too good for Tom, and he knew that, the fact that he was even about make love to her right now was all chance according to him.

He is twirling with Y/N in his arms, her hair moving in the air as he tickles at her neck with pecks. He says her name in a whisper every time her kisses her neck, it’s like everything stopped just for them. This was meant to happen. They were meant to be brought together again, they were electrified in this moment.

Tom drops her on the bed, Y/N lying on her back. Her hands shaking from the intensity, flashbacks in her head from all these moments with Tom. She still loved him, her denial creeping on her. All those memories coming up, she pulled Tom down with her hands. Everything stopping again.

The only noise in the room were their kisses, their light moans. Y/N pushed Tom so that her knees are on either side of him now, this reminded her of how Tom would let her win their little wrestle fights. She begins to move back and forth, teasing Tom with some dry jumping. Her covered core on his growing boner that was separated by their clothing.

“Did you miss me Tom?” He lets out a light moan as he lets out some broken words, “Y-yes Y/N, so m-much..” she continues to tease him while she pulls of his sweater. He has a plain v neck black T-shirt on, she pulls the bottom of it and begins to kiss his stomach.

The indentations of his abs being kissed by Y/N’s lips, he sits up and pulls of his shirt with a struggle. Y/N ignores his struggles, moving up from his abs to his chest while she pushed him back down. She wanted this, she needed this just as much he did.

Y/N’s lips make it to Tom’s neck, and she brings her lips up to his ear, she licks him slightly under his earlobe, and lightly whispers into his ear “All we have is now, and right now I want you..”

Tom remembers the first time he said those words to Y/N and that was true. In both instances, all they want in those moments are each other. Right now, no one existed, just them two.

Y/N’s lips find Tom’s, his soft lips intertwining with hers. Her lips move from his lips to his chin, then they make their way down. Her tongue sliding down his chest right above where his sweat pants stop. Her hands land at the waistband of his pants, and she begins to slide them off with Tom’s help.

Then there he was, how convenient that he had gone commando and his dick just how she remembered it. It was aching, she knew what to do next. She took his dick into her hand, not squeezing it to hard but just enough to get a good grip. Tom lightly moaned out her name “Y/N,” as she licked his tip.

Y/N continues to tease him, every lick came a moan out of his mouth. She finally brings Tom’s cock into her mouth, she thrusts her head up and down. Every thrust making Tom whimper, one is his hands finds your hair while his fingers intertwine in it.

With his dick still in her mouth, Y/N looks up to observe Tom’s reactions when she noticed he’s already looking at her, she pulls away when she notices the immediate eye contact.

“What are you looking at?”

Tom pulls Y/N by her hips and onto him, “You’re just so fucking perfect love. I don’t know how you can even give me a second chance.” Before she can respond, his lips taste hers and he flips over on top of her. His hands tugging off her sweater over head, his lips re-attaching to hers.

Tom wanted nothing more in this moment to let Y/N know how much he was sorry, he was gonna show her how much he loved her. His kisses land on her chest, sucking softly on the spots she remembered she liked. Tom brings his face over Y/N’s, she was so fucking beautiful. How did he ever fuck this up?

“Y/N, I’m so sorry.” She brings her hands to his hair, “Just fuck me like you mean it Tom.” And with that Tom flips her over, her legs spread open and he lies on top of her in that perfect gap. She gasps as Tom makes his way down to her heat, he grabs her hands and holds them down on her stomach as he removes her sweats with the other. Out of all the days she decided to go commando today was that one.

She immediately tightens her legs, Tom grins as he looks up at her, “Shy all of sudden?” She throws her head back, almost as she is trying to hide her face in the sheets, “It’s just been a minute since-” He comes up quickly and leaves a kiss on her lips, “Shh darling, let me take care of you.” Tom makes his way back down, leaving small pecks on each side of Y/N’s thighs, she slowly opens her legs for him.

His hand lets go of Y/N’s hands, and brings his hands to under her thighs with full view of her core. Y/N brings herself up with her elbows watching Tom slightly teasing her above her core. Y/N becoming increasingly impatient bites her lip,“Please Tom, take care of me..” He looks up at her with a grin, and then he his tongue meet her heat. Her back immediately arches, her legs beginning to tremble to Tom’s tongue flicking against her clit.

Y/N’s hands clenching onto the sheets next to her, she is whimpering his name, her hands moving from the sheets to his sweaty curls, “T-Tommy..” He stops for a moment, and smiles at his old nickname that Y/N used to call him, he brings his fingers to her core and starts rubbing her down, “What was that love?” Her hands moved from his hair to her waist, finding their way back to her head as she runs her fingers through hair, “T-Tommy.. I want you inside of me..”

With that Tom immediately pulls his fingers from her heat, and brings his face to hers, “Are you on the pill or do we need I need to get a cond-?” She pulls him back down by his shoulders, “No, we’re fine.” She brings her lips to his, she slightly tastes herself but she doesn’t care. This is all she had wanted for the longest, she was ready for him. Her legs wrap around his waist as he takes his dick in his hand and positions it right at her core.

He enters her slowly, as she whimpers a bit, Tom gasps at how tight she is. He begins to thrust back and forth slowly, Y/N is digging her nails into his back, this was the first time in forever that her and Tom were connected like this. It felt so good, it felt almost like this was moment should’ve happened way sooner.  

“Harder..” escapes Y/N’s lips as her finger tips continue to dig into Tom’s back, sweat now forming between the two bodies. His forehead connected to hers as he thrusts back and forth, he speeds up a bit. The slapping of bodies becoming louder, he lets out a slight moan “fuck y/n- you’re so t-tight.”

He was right though, he was the last person to be inside of her. Y/N brings his lips to her, breathing harder and panting louder, “I’m gonna cum Tommy.”  His curls on his forehead, light sweat falling from his chest on to Y/N’s chest and her sports bra that he never took off.

Tom felt his release coming up soon, he started to thrust harder and harder, Y/N’s legs still wrapped around his waist and her hands moving from his back to his shoulders. His hands on her sides while he thrusts, he was about to burst, “Y/N, I’m-“ And before he finished she brought him down into a messy kiss, feeling his dick pulsing as he was about to finish, So was she. Their kiss was a shaky, as they both finished in their drowning ecstasy.

They both stay in their sweaty embrace, both of their breaths start slowing down. Tom’s face is in the crook of her neck while Y/N stares at the ceiling, if there were anyway to reunite with Tom this was the most wildest way she could have imagined they would be again. He pulls himself up and gives her another kiss while at the same time he pulls out.

Y/N lays on her bed with her legs still spread open as Tom lands beside her. She could feel his moisture still on his core, she was going to need to wash the sheets was the first thing she thought. You turn to your side, and your hand lands on Tom’s chest, “As much as I missed that, if you break my heart again-” he interrupted you with a kiss, “It’s not, I promise.” You bite your lip and look into his chocolate brown eyes, “Don’t make promises you can’t keep.” His arms wrapped around you, “You can trust me, Y/N.”

She rested her head on his chest, and for some reason in that moment, she did. You kissed his chest as he touched your hair, “I could go for a shower right now.”

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After your shower with Tom, you both fell asleep on your bed. You slept so peacefully, it’s like Tom had taken his rightful place in your bed. Everything felt so nice and quiet until you jumped at the sound of your door opening.

“Y/N?”

Your hair was a mess, and you covered your naked body with your sheet, “Manny? What are you doing here?” What time was it? 

She crossed her arms at the doorway, “ Me? I live here and we have to be at the casting office in an hour. Do you ever check your phone?” You squint as your heavy eyes look for your phone by your bed post, and as you open up your lock screen you had 10 missed calls from Manny. And 3 missed calls from Timmy. Yikes. You had forgot about him. That’s so bad, you felt bad.

“Well, hurry up. You have 10 minutes before we go and don’t think I didn’t notice Tom in your bed!” You scoff, “Manny!” She laughs and grabs your door knob, “also you should know there are paps outside so I don’t know how you’re going to get out of this one!”

She yells as she closes the door behind her. You turn back to look at the guy in your bed, he’s sleeping face down as you bring yourself to rest your head on his shoulder, “Tommy..wake up.” You kiss his sweet skin, and he begins to make stretch lightly. “Y/N?” He asks while your weight rests on his back, “Why are you up love, go back to sleep.”

You let out a light giggle as you try to turn him around with your arm, “I have to be at Universal soon, let me give you a ride.” He turns around and his hand lands around your shoulders, “It’s okay, I can call Harrison to pick me up here.” Y/N lets out a light sigh, “Actually, there are paps outside.” He puckers his lips in confusion, “So? Who cares, we’re together again right?”

Y/N runs her fingers through her hair, “Well yes but I have to break it to Timothée first before any photos of us leak.” Tom rolls his eyes and removes his arm from Y/N’s shoulder and crosses his arms, “Screw him.” You bring your hand to his chest, “Tom I know you’re upset but I can’t just have him see us without me breaking it down to him.”

Tom is looking towards your bedroom window when he sighs and looks back at you, “I guess you’re right. I just want the whole world to know that you’re mine.” He brings you in closer, and you smile cheekily at him, “I do too but we need to wait.”

The door suddenly opens that causes you two to pop up, “Y/N!! Get dressed we need to go!” Manny throws you some clothes from the dresser and throws Tom some of his, “Here lover boy, we had some of your clothes in the garage.” Tom catches a bag of his clothes, you had forgotten that you had those. It was just a couple pieces of clothing Tom had forgotten when he would come over.

Manny starts to walk towards the door, “2 minutes you two, and bring a blanket so that we can hide Tom in the car.” She exits once again and you turn back to look at Tom, “Thank god for the garage.”

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Manny and Y/N had dropped off Tom at his hotel. On the way there, you had told Tom that he and Harrison could stay with you as long as they needed. As soon as you both left his hotel, Manny turns her head to you while you drive and hits your arm. “Ow, What the hell?” You hands stay on the wheel while you look glance back and forth from the road to Mannys face.

She rolls her eyes, “What’s wrong with you? What happened to Timmy?” You avoid eye contact with her while your guilt starts to set in. “Hello, earth to y/n? Answer me.” Manny is growing more annoyed with Y/N by the second, and it isn’t until Manny threatens to throw hot coffee on Y/N that she finally answers.

“I don’t even know what the fuck I’m feeling anymore but I do know that I love two people a lot….” You bite your lip to avoid choking up, Manny puts her coffee down on the cup holder and turns her body to you while seated in the passenger seat.

“But I know my love for Tom never changed.” Manny rubs her temples, “Then why did you tell Timothée you loved him, Y/N?”

“Because I do. I really do. I just didn’t think I was going to give myself to Tom again.” You start to feel water flood your eyes, while Manny touches your shoulder, “sweetie, it’s okay.”

Tears begin to fall from your eyes as you shake your head no, “No it’s not but you’re my best friend and I need you to tell me it’s going to be okay even though its not. Please just tell me it’s going to be fine because I don’t know.”

Then there is silence, truth is you both didn’t know what was to come. Manny wanted to tell you it would all work out but was it really going to be fine? That was something that was going to unfold soon. By the time you knew it, you were being let into Universal’s lot and parking in front of the casting building. Manny pulls down the mirror from the sun visor in front of her, “So this is literally the last person we audition before you make your choice.” She pats under her eyes with her fingers, trying to make her eyebags disappear.

You grab your bag from the car floor, “I don’t know why Leah just can’t choose, this is so stressful. I don’t even remember half of the auditions.” Manny puts the sun visor up, “We could have Leah choose the most memorable auditions and then you can pick from the batch. A little less stressful.” You nod, and grab your glasses to hide your puffy red eyes that had been crying a bit earlier.

You and Manny both walked into the building, all you could think that after this, you would be free from this stress and just relax til production on the film actually started. Just as you walk through the door, your jaw drops at the sight in front you.

“Did you forget how to use a phone?” Timothee says as he walks towards you in the room.

“Tim, what are you doing here? I’m supposed to come out to New York to see you.” You’re in panic mode as soon he makes his way towards you, he comes in with a hug and you dodge him with a side hug. This was going to be much harder than you thought, “Before we start, we need to talk..” you whisper to Timothee in his side embrace.

He pulls away from your side hug, “Maybe after, I have a surprise anyway.” Leah walks in and claps her hands, “Okay, lets get this audition started!” And with that, the audition continued.

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The audition process was like all the others, except every time Timothee came in for a kiss, you dodged them. You tried to make not make them obvious but you couldn’t kiss him. Not after the night you just had with Tom. Manny was cringing the entire time, this was so bad. In the back of Y/N’s mind, she joked to herself that she needed a new assistant who would tell her she was actually auditioning with so there was no shock.

As soon as it was over, Timothee wanted to be with you. Fuck. This is where you knew you knew you needed to explain yourself. Leah said she would be in touch, and she would need an email with a decision in a couple of days. You got hold of your bag from Manny, “I’ll be in the car waiting. This is it, Y/N. You have to tell him.” She moves past you and once you turn around, Timmy is waiting in sight for you.

Y/N walks towards him as they both leave the audition room into the hallway of the building, “You’re gonna pick me right?” Timmy jokes as he actually lightly pushes you with his shoulder, you grin “So, here’s the thing..” You both exit the building, and stop right in front of the doors.

Y/N looks into Timmy’s green eyes, “When I said I love you, I meant it..” He smiles and holds your hands, “Y/N, so did I and about that surprise I had for you.” He reaches into his pocket and pulls out an envelope with tickets in them, “I thought we could go on a mini vacation, just me and you. Just so you can relax before you film this movie, a trip in Bora Bora..just you and I.”

Your heart breaks even more, holy fuck. “Timmy..I-” You don’t make one ounce of joy shown on your face, which starts to make him a bit weary, “What is it? I thought you would be excited about this.” You fidget with your fingers, you kept staring into his eyes, “ I just can’t be with you..” Timmy doesn’t respond, his eyes start become watery, “So you’re dumping me?” You tug your lip and then bite it, “Timmy, we were never together. I’m so sorry, I never meant to hurt-”

He begins to laugh, he bites his tongue with his teeth “I can’t believe I actually waited for you. I thought, I really fucking thought you wanted me Y/N.”  Your fingers run through your hair, “Timothee, I did. I’m just-”

“At least I’m honest Y/N.” Your eyes begin to swell with tears, you felt so bad, he continues to speak while the lump in your throat causes you to stay quiet.

“I wanted to love you so bad, and I do. But you can’t be trusted, and this whole time I thought you loved me back.” He put the tickets back in his pocket, and walked right past Y/N.

You call out for him, “Timothee, please I’m so sorry!” Tears are falling down your cheeks as Timothee turns around disappointed, “How could you do this to me? I never thought-” He put his hands in his pocket, “I never thought you would make me feel like this.” And then he was gone. He walked away from you into the lot, and you stood there feeling even shittier than you did about having to break his heart earlier. But this is what you had wanted. Right?

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It had been a couple of days since the whole Timothee situation, but it started to just become a memory in your mind. You knew it had to be done especially know that you were back with Tom, well sort of. No one claimed that they were exclusive yet but it felt like it. Harrison and Tom had moved into your home until they had to leave on the press tour for Spider-man: Homecoming. He had convinced Y/N to travel with him since it would be her last vacation with him til she had to film Wicked. She hadn’t even chosen Fiyero yet. It was stressful couple of days.

You and Manny had invited Zendaya over to hang out, and you made sure Tom and Haz were out so that Z wouldn’t run into Haz. You girls sat on the couch, sipping on your starbucks drinks, Zendaya cleared her throat and adjusted herself on your single couch, “So, have you spoken to Timothee?” You sipped from your cup and threw your head back to the pillow behind you, “No, I just can’t, I feel so terrible.” Y/N’s feet lied on Manny’s lap as Manny relaxed her feet on a footrest in front of her, “Sweetie..did you tell him about Tom?”

You rubbed your forehead with one hand, “He didn’t give me the chance to, he just left.” Z slightly choked on her coffee, “Dude, you’re gonna have to tell him sooner or later. He’s gonna find out.” You sighed heavy, a heavy weight on your shoulders, “I know, I know. Especially since I’m sure the paps have caught Tom in and out of my house. I just don’t know guys, should I even say anything?”

Silence. Z and Manny sipped their drinks and straight up were throwing shade like that Kermit the frog meme. Y/N’s head sunk in deeper into the cushion, and that is when her front door opened.

“I can’t believe iHop didn’t have pancakes man.” Haz remarked as he closed the door behind him, and Tom froze as he seen the three women on the couch. You widened your eyes at Tom, as you instructed him to keep Haz out of here while Zendaya was here. “Oh, I didn’t know we had guest- Zendaya? Is that you?” Haz says as he walks towards us all.

Z glances at Y/N as she wasn’t prepared to see him, “Haz, hey. Uh, whats up?” She gets up to hug him, and even though Harrison knew that Z made a fool of herself that night back in Atlanta, he didn’t know it was to impress him. Y/N got up to hug Tom, and asked “Were the paps giving you a hard time?” He hugged her back tightly, “Kind of, not really. Just a few today, they’ll probably get a bit crazier when the tour starts.”

Tom pulled away and took Y/N’s drink from her hand, “What is this?” And before she could respond he took a sip, she giggled as she took the drink from his mouth, “Uh, excuse me. Get your own.” You both laugh, as Manny makes a gagging noise, “I’m gonna go order Chinese anybody want something?” Everyone’s hands shot up, and Manny smiled, “Let me go get my phone, be right back.” She left the living room, and went straight upstairs.

Zendaya and Harrison stayed across from each other, you and Tom lightly listening into their conversation. Z’s cheeks were so a light pink, she had missed Harrison but she was so mortified about what happened but Haz was a such a div that he had probably forgotten about it by now.

You hear the doorbell ring, and you head to your door but before you reach it you call for Tom who is still eaves dropping on the duo, “Tom?”

“Hm?” He looks back at you with the cutest confused face, “Come with me to the door won’t you?” He realizes that you’re trying to give Z and Haz a moment, “Oh of course, darling.” He quickly speeds up next to me and walks towards the door with me.

Tom begins to poke your sides and lightly tickle you, “Tom! Stop!” You push him slightly as he grabs you by the waist, his head resting on your shoulder as you both walk to the front door clung to each other. Y/N reaches for the front handle, and her smile disappears from her face.

And there He was clear as day, staring back at you and Tom in each other’s embrace.

“So this is why you said you couldn’t be with me huh?” Timothee expresses as his eyes pierce Tom.  You stepped forward, “Please, let me just explain.”

Tom chimes in, “Why don’t you just get out of here bro?”

Timothee rubs his bottom lip, “Make me.”

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A/N: THAT ENDING THO, I CAN’T!!!! SO WHAT DID U GUYS THINK?!  I WOULD LOVE SOME FEEDBACK, THEORIES, WHATEVER YOU WANT TO SAY! LOVE Y’ALL!!! Also feedback from y’all really helps me navigate the story so please flood my inbox haaha. -AMY 💛💛💛 (I don’t think I missed anyone on the tags but if I did, let me know please and if they dont work im so sorryyyyyyy.)

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kwk lb: saif/sara ali khan

ugh these damn intros. i liked the varun/katrina ep better, where they brought karan out instead of this time waste of a meaningless ramble karan does in every damn ep. 

yash johar sounds like a sweet dad tho.

….. all this talk of “royalty” and saif comes out looking like a right hobo.

gosh howwww does she look SO much like amrita? like, they cloned these damn kids, didn’t they? like straight up just CLONED them.

sara sounds like a smart kid.

lmao her little snort chuckles as saif tries to be diplomatic.

saif sounds like an exhausting man-child to deal with.

god this modern family question. pls we all already know that everyone is cool with it. why ainvayi trying to stir up drama?

“kareena aunty” lmao bitch just try

lol saif just staring into the distance as his child speaks with more maturity than he ever had at that age (or now.)

sara seems to have the same existential angst that i do.

lmaoooooooooooooo saif is just noping outta this soooo hard.

all these years and she’s never been shopping with kareena?

lolololol ofc kareena hated the museum.

ugh lord can we stop talking about their family situationnnnnnnnnnn. like either give us some juicy gossip about it or stop talking about this happy happy family narrative. honestly.

lmao “happy independence day” i love her i truly do

sara’s lol whut face at that ainvayi ka google home nonsense.

don’t lie sara you still have a boyfriend.

also what just one boyfriend long back? you have one right now (that AD of kedarnath) i can name two exes (harshvardhan, that politician’s grandson.) girl, this is the age of the internet; idk why ppl try and hide these things and make a fool of themselves.

yup; karan’s talking about that politician’s grandson, whose brother janhvi was/is/whatever-the-current-status-is dating.

sara is soooooo done with these two embarassing uncles.

*muttering* “not all of the values” omfg the sass

pft karan trying to make saif’s mostly fail “journey” look good

i’m just transfixedddddddd by how old the styling is making saif look. like why can you ppl just embrace the age you’re at, instead of trying soooooooo hard and ending up looking worse.

yeah how can someone who’s descended from royalty and has literally every single form of privilege in life feel bad about chote-mote failures here and there? you’d have to be a damn fool to.

lmao saif processing everything sara is saying.

“gym look is a visual delight” god karan you’re such a gross creeper honestly can you just fucken let women live and go to the gym jfc

i am sara, sara is me

what journey? ek movie na kiya hue hi she got a second in hand, what big struggle are these ppl talking about??????/

OMFG THIS TAIMUR NONSENSE. it really gets my goat how this whole fucking situation has gotten so fucking outta hand. in every single way all of this is fucking messed up. leave the poor baby alone.

oh. viral bhayani is much younger than i thought he was. i thought he was an old uncle.

lmaooooooooooo viral talking about cherishing the memory as if he’s one of taimur’s parents? saif’s face also reflecting the same; like bhai tu hai kaun??????

saif honestly looks confused and mad and like…. same.

KARAN SO HELP ME GOD LEAVE YOUR DAMN KIDS ALONE UGH SDLKFJSLKJFLSDK

i am sara, objecting to this “rate” garbage.

she looks sooooooo unconvinced and mad and like she has something to say but she’s holding her tongue.

lol mirma.

i hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee karan and his body shaming bullshit. i really hate him.

ok fwding this coz i can’t tolerate such second-hand embarrassing nonsense.

can saif and karan literally just diaf for shaming her like this, thanx.

ugh saif is just sucha weirdo creep bringing up chubby chasers jfc i hate men so much.

finally time for rapid fire. pls god let sara win.

that ok google always sounds so doneeeee with karan every time he addresses “her”. even AI women are sick of his shit.

all of bollywood’s tharki buddhas are enamoured with alia these days huh?

oh ho, guessing saif doesn’t want a sanghi jamaai. aur drugs aur infidelity ki baatein aap na hi karo toh best hai.

“got cash? take her.” wonderful. not creepy at all.

gtfo with your intellectual elitism saif. OOTD naa jaankar tumhe kaunsa booker prize milna hai?

LMAOOOOOOO IT’S 2018 AND PPL ARE STILL SHITTING ON VIVEK OBEROI THE POOR THING

looks like all those rumours of saifeena being broke af are true afterall, with the amount saif is showing laalach for paisa.

ofc he’d rather be caught. majaal hai jo you get hurt but still keep your conscience clean. fuck.

sara is me. just incredulous at that answer.

all these ppl calling ranbir kapoor a charmer….. i just…… like have some standards man. ugh.

lmao what great work with imtiaz ali?????? love aaj kal was terrible. only the bits in the past were slightly tolerable. ainvayi, just coz he might be doing imtiaz’s next. also aren’t sara/karthik doing something with imtiaz too? is that the same thing?

MAN YOU KNOW WHAT I WANT? AN AKSHAY/SAIF MOVIE AGAIN. LIKE THEY PAIRED OFF SO WELL IN THE 90S AND I WANT SOME MORE BROTP SHIT FROM THEM. (not crap like tashan tho.)

note to self - watch main khiladi tu anari again.

kareena’s gonna kill him for not saying she was the hottest.

go sara go. win this shit!

poor sara and her traumatic childhood thanks to her parents’ awful movies.

really? varun dhawan? over everyone else?

i mean i guessss….. he’s got a near-100% success rate. but there’s so many better ACTORS.

“DON’T SAY THAT ABBA!!!!!!!!!!!!!” lmao she’s superstitious i think. after all the hassle she went through.

man is everyone chaaatofying alia’s coz this is karan’s show or what? anushka is way more look-up worthy than her. she’s from a non film background, she acts well, does a good balance of movies and produces interesting stuff. like….. honestly.

WHY DO ALL THESE GIRLS WANNA MARRY RANBIR’S DUMB ASSS I REALLY DON’T GET IT LIKE HAVE SOME STANDARDS. HAVE ANY STANDARDS.

lol i like her tinder bios.

pft kartik aryan is such a chooza. sara pls, you seem smart and sorted, aim higher pls. at least for like vicky kaushal and all.

SAIF IS ACTING LIKE A RIGHT DALAL WITH THIS MONEY GARBAGE. HE NEEDS TO STOP.

oh boy what is on your phone girl.

ranveer ranveer blah blah blah……

sara deserved to win.

ouff this game is boring yaaaar.

LMAO SALIM? WHO SALIM?

sara lost quicker than i thought she would on the ivy league Q.

how does kunal come under pataudi family? kuch bhi.

lmao oh sara. manikarnika is the jhansi ki rani.

LMAO SALIM IS BITTOO

SAIF AND SOHA????????? ARJUN JANHVI??????? SHAHID ISHAAN???????? SALMAN AND HIS BROTHERS? COME TF ONNNNNNNN SARAAAAA.

lolllllllllllllllll sara is so petty in her victory i love her.

why do they always keep the cup at that one spot??? 

why does arjun kapoor look sunburnt? like its that unnatural brown-pink colour that srk was for a lot of years.

#koffee with karan #kwk lbs #episode liveblogs

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Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince - thoughts after reading it for the first time

OKAY OKAY OKAY as usual this will be a mess cos there IS A LOT to discuss so good luck trying to make any sense of this ashjsjhajh

Once again i’m gonna take some time to reinforce my feelings about my baby Harry. HE IS GROWING UP SO FAST HELP. I love him so so so much and it was soooooo SO SO SO interesting to see him get a taste of dark magic with the Half-Blood Prince’s book. Like I really need to analyse this further later. it’s so interesting to his character and this whole “harry and voldy are connected” thing. to see him actually get help and learn more from this dark magic and actually enjoy it and defend it throughout the whole book was just sooo cool to read and it shows that anyone even the chosen one can get tempted by dark magic. I really wish this would have been explored further in the series but seeing there is only one book left i’m not gonna get my hopes up. This also makes me think of that thing dumbledore said about harry not being able to be tempted to the dark side because he’s protected by love. I really loved that moment between the two and it made me just wanna hug harry because he couldn’t understand how that made him special and i wanted to shake him and be like HARRY YOU ARE DOING AMAZING SWEETIE. But i find it interesting that this was said after we have spent a whole book watching him get tempted by dark magic. sure it’s not the same as joining voldy but I think it’s really telling that he saw just how powerful and helpful dark magic can be and we got to see firsthand along with Harry, why dark magic is so tempting to wizards and witches. AND I LOVED THIS ASPECT OF THE BOOK THE MOST !!!

This would be the part where i talk about how much I loved fred and george in this book and YES I LOVED THEM but i have a bone to pick: there wasn’t enough of them smh. I better get so much more of them in Deathly Hallows or i’m gonna scream. They are two of my faves hands down and every scene with them makes me laugh and smile. I need my comedy relief.

Okay im gonna critique another thing IM SORRY if this is super controversial and mean, but what the hell is with the romance in this? don’t misread this I LOVE ROMANCE so so so much but i wish we got an actual romance with a deep and meaningful connection where we could be like “oh he’s so into her” without harry saying “oh so i like ginny now” like shsahjjhas IT WAS SO RANDOM !!!! and it feels sooooo awkward. The tonks and remus thing at the end was also random and awkward. idk i kinda want to see characters form a close bond instead of just being told HEY SO THEY SUDDENLY LOVE EACH OTHER JUST GO WITH IT. I do like ron and hermione tho. I mean that’s been building up for ageeessss and the drama was super fun lmao teenagers. ALSO if you are gonna force ginny and harry on me at least give me some angst but nope he just kisses her and we’re good to go. AGAIN IM SORRY I FEEL REALLY MEAN SHJASHJS i’m being really harsh right now but who knows i might change my mind after the last book sjhhjsahasj

ahhhhhh man okay okay i’m gonna address the elephants in the room. SNAPE SNAPE SNAPE SNAPE SNAPE i got one thing to say to you...

seriously guys i think the worst part of this is just,,,,,,,,HARRY AND I KNEW AND DUMBLEDORE WOULDN’T LISTEN TO USSSSSSS UGH IM SO MAD AND FRUSTRATED EVERY TIME HARRY WAS LIKE “UH SIR, HE’S A FAKE ASS BITCH” DUMBLEDORE WAS JUST LIKE

idk it’s just i can’t explain the feeling guys, i just feel so frustrated and unsatisfied??? like something feels incomplete it doesn’t feel right?? does that make sense? like i have this really weird incomplete feeling about this situation. something is missing. Why was Dumbledore, the most powerful wizard ever, so convinced Snape was on his side??? like something is SO OFFF im just so FRUSTRATED AHHHHHHHH like he pleaded with him too HE PLEADED whats going on here??? i feel like i need to read dumbledore’s diary or something because THE BASTARD FORGOT TO EXPLAIN TO US WHY HE WAS WILLING TO IGNORE SNAPES OBVIOUS EVIL ASSS???? im sorry i guess i’m at the anger phase with my grief right now sahjashj

THE HALF BLOOD FUCKING PRINCE alright you guys trust me when i say i have never been more disappointed and devastated in my whole life. I think I only mentioned it once or twice but I REALLY GOT MY HOPES UP that it was lily. I’m super in love with her from the tiny bit i know or have seen of her and I REALLY WANT MORE OF HER BACKSTORY and i really convinced myself it could be her cos i’m an idiot. sure when harry began using spells that basically sliced a person up, i kinda figured it wasn’t her anymore, BUT SNAPE??? RIGHT AFTER KILLING DUMBLEDORE??? im- WHY i swear all this series does is make me feel pain. I don’t know what hurts more, that harry has been learning dark magic from Voldy’s right hand man all year, or that this probs means i’m never gonna get Lily backstory :((( there is only one book left.

i’m really depressed about dumbledore dying. the scene itself was so painful and good tho i will not lie. especially with malfoy like, i really really feel bad for that kid. he didn’t wanna kill his headmaster? he’s just a kid who has been given this horrible order that he literally can’t refuse. I’m sad. and then harry not being able to move and having to watch it all under his invisibility cloak? :(( AND THEN THEY TELL US THEIR MISSION WAS ALL FOR NOTHING AND IF THEY DIDN’T GO DUMBLEDORE’S DEATH COULD HAVE BEEN AVOIDED JUST LIKE SIRIUS’S FUCK ME UP.

OH and i’ve already worked out who R.A.B is and im so excited to hear how that story goes. he has tea on voldy and i wanna hear it.

Also i remember making a comment about obsessive love being foreshadowed at the start of the book, and i guess that turned out to be voldy’s parents? his mother used a love potion on him so he is the subject of obsessive love instead of real love and i guess that’s important because harry is protected by love and thats something voldemort doesn’t have. so i guess that’s what it is?

ALRIGHT so what is gonna happen next? i really don’t kn- oh wait i do know this time cos harry told me. him, ron and hermione are gonna hunt down the horcruxes like a fun treasure hunt but with PIECES OF VOLDEMORTS SOUL instead of like chocolate easter eggs or something. and that’s about all i know. im so scared to see how it ends im just AHHHHHHH i just hope my faves survive and end this thing happy.

Also i really really really wish i’d get lily backstory im sad because james got a WHOLE BOOK dedicated to his time at hogwarts and his patronus and his friends and what he was like and everything but lily just gets a guest star appearance in snapes memory where he says a slur at her because he’s the worst. (i really don’t get dumbledore trusting this dude when he loathed both of harry’s parents like that god) but yeah i really want lily time but i don’t think it’s gonna happen UGH UGH UGH

so yeah asjhsahj im really excited and nervous to finish this series AHHHHH it’s gonna be weird officially knowing everything im not ready sjhsajash also i feel sad for fawkes :((

#mikki reads hp for the first time #hp #harry potter and the half-blood prince