#HOW AM I STILL ALIVE AFTER SEEING THIS

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

do you ever just sit there thinking about your favorite ocs while violently shaking. god. clenches fist. They're So.

#every time a song from their Joint Playlist comes on i go fucking feral #the betrayal the refusal to Let Go the haunting the persisting love the renunciation the resentment the abandonment the resignation #the overwhelming desire to do good vs the fear of admitting you were wrong vs the two people you love most tearing each other apart #AGHHHHH FUCK FUCK FUCK IM SUDDENLY DEEP IN THE ORIGINAL SAUCE #five seconds i was Normal. scribbling welcome home #then One Of The Songs Came On and now im losing my fucking marbles #perceived betrayals leading to real betrayals.... #going too far and now its too late you're Committed you cant go back #he came to you thinking he could make you understand and you could work together to make things Better #and instead you ripped his heart out and left it bleeding on the floor for everyone to see #THEY MAKE ME MORE INSANE THAN LITERALLY ANYTHING #absolutely unprompted #the oc Unwellness comes and goes in waves but its the only true constant obsession with my life #god those three... my dearest darling Trio.... how old are they turning this year? #is it year eight of having them? year nine? #one of the two is for sure how long ive had My Specialest Boy Light Of My Life The Reason I Am Still Alive #the other two came after... maybe only mere months after but he was the first and he is just. i love him so fucking much #he is so so personal to me. he has a permanent place carved out in my chest #he sleeps on my ribs <3 #the other day i was reminiscing about his development over the years. his changes his different Versions #and fuck... he's really changed with me huh?? #his past selves are echoes of my own self over the years #like he is Very different from me but at the same time. i created him with little pieces of myself sewn in #we hold the same views the same beliefs. im not him and hes not me but we're Kindred yk yk #i think i need to go listen to his playlist.... how long is it now... let me check... 15 hours 13 mins... 228 songs... #my gay 5'2 powerhouse of a guy. him <3 #maybe 'them' too he's played fast and loose with gender over the years. holy shit wait #his development echoes mine... i characterized him as 'fucks with gender norms' long before i realized my own gender fuckery #god damn. i love him even more now. i didnt think that was possible. im going to cry. hes so important to me #he has been with me through my worst years... and will be with me through all the hard times to come <3

[weird-life-of-a-closet-fangirl]

I went into the fantasy high tag (ON PURPOSE!! I WANTED FANART!!) and accidentally got spoiled for the latest episode of junior year, so for anyone reading this: SPOILERS!!!!

WHAT DO YOU MEAN FABIAN GOT POSSESSED BY BARON?????? I THOUGHT RIZ DEFEATED BARON IN THE NIGHTMARE FOREST????? also the fact that fabian's worst fear was literally being used against his will and helpless to fight against it, and now he's POSSESSED???? brennan lee mulligan what are you doing to me I WANT TO FIGHT

#fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #spoilers #honestly i am so worried about how this is going to affect fabian #like okay fine baron's still alive thats a little creepy but it makes sense #the fear of being alone doesnt disappear overnight #but the fact that fabian got possessed by baron... fabian whose worst fear is being physically unable to fight back... #and its riz's demon... riz who is terrified that all his friends will one day leave him bc they'll find someone more important to them... #riz who tries his best to be useful bc he's afraid they won't like him if he's not even though they've tried to reassure him #AND LETS NOT FORGET ADAINE #SHE'S BEING ATTACKED BY ONE OF HER BEST FRIENDS!!! THE PEOPLE SHE SEES AS FAMILY!!! AFTER BEING MISTREATED BY HER PARENTS HER WHOLE LIFE!!! #i swear one day i am going to fight brennan bc what the HELL

[milflewis]

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#in a strange place today and i need to put this somewhere. i do not have a journal yet. this is it #my grandad was diagnosed with dementia years ago and the grandad i have now is often unrecognisable from the one i grew up with #and while this like isn’t fun and it is strange for him to look at me and not know me more times than he does. it has also been kind of l #lovely? #bc he thinks my granny is still alive so whenever i get to go see him i get to pretend she is too. and she is for a minute. and tho i am #glad she went before him. it is nice to say oh i’m popping in to see her after this grandad and talk about her like she’s hasn’t been gone #since i’ve been ten. my dad has spoken more to him in the last five years than he has his whole life #he was not an easy man. he was loud and friendly and hard working and funny and scary but not easy. in ways he is even #harder now. in others he is easier. #he is more of a child. this is what dementia can do to a brain. we are learning things about his childhood that no one alive has ever spoken #about. that no one knew. my dad doesn’t love him more now but he understands him better #my grandad taught me how to drive a tractor and how to fish through my dad and he has not recognised me in over a year and he #hasn’t walked since he broke his pelvis seven years ago and his muscles are nearly all gone. he is a fraction of the size he used to be. his #personality and body took up my childhood like adults on the screen in cartoons. he hasn’t dressed himself in a decade. he told one of the #nurses that after dinner he wanted ice cream plain like herself and nearly peed when she laughed and told him to fuck off #he is in there. he is himself. i know him. but he isn’t. he doesn’t know me but he allows me to tell him how to ppl he knows are doing. he #still somehow trusts me. we talk a lot about my granny and how she stayed up watching tv again last night so she’s tired today. don’t stay #long when you call in to see her? #whenever we would journey to see him and my granny and get in v late he’d ask us if we wanted apple tart and my granny would say michael. #not ur kids. u can’t parent them. he didn’t know my name yesterday but he asked me if i wanted apple tart #i hope he dies soon. for all that i will miss this. miss my dad having this. he would not want to live like this. it wouldntbe living to him

[moe-broey]

Also I was SO fucking right about this. I was on the fucking money.

Some not even half baked like it's batter. Snippet from a daydream that I lost like immediately 🧍

#feh #for the record also i haven't revisited book 3 At All so gustav (esp alive gustav) is NOT fresh in my mind #in fact a lot of times i'm actively ignoring him. yes i have his dod alt unfortunately (color sharing w alfonse who i +10ed) #yes i did get him randomly i think free summon (standard dead version). yes i do pick him apart frequently #but because to pick alfonse apart you kind of HAVE to go back to gustav. man did a number on his son and it shows #i actually really don't wanna go back and see how he treats sharena esp after how much i've come to love her too #i'll kill that man again. #eventually sometime i do wanna revisit book 3 though i've probably forgotten. a lot. #still. fuck gustav all my homies hate gustav #i am gustav's number one hater. #unfortunately also before that tangent yes i do also make him silly. not in an endearing way i hope #just like. if he HAS to be here. i have to make it funny. #or just incredibly devastating. no in between #fe gustav #sharena #fe alfonse

[hauntingblue]

I

<3

In between arc (kinda) episodes

Pt. 3

#so MOMOS GRANDPA IS ALIVE??? AND PLUTON IS HERE SO ROBIN LIED TO CROCODILE IN ARABASTA! QUEEN #THE NEW ADMIRAL JUST KILLED QUEEN AND MAYBE KING (PLEASE DONT!!) AND IS CALLING FOR A WARSHIP TO KILL LUFFY #oh luffy grabbing kid akdhaksj reluctant friend maker they call him... wdym youre going to kill me... come here lets smush cheeks #luffy is such a humble king.... also why am i crying here thinking how everything is so brautiful (and otsuru is alive) and i have to find #out buggy is a yonkou. what the hell did he do against the marines akdbaisbsks ????? HOW???? #ofc luffy is obvious.... also the admiral could roam arund wano a little and grow some plants all over... it is needed after all... #take a breath.... meditate what you're going to do... #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1080 #also why is jinbe in there alone??? also i thought pluton was nika but pluton is in wano??? metaphorically yes.... my theory is in shambles #SHANKS???? 'momo and hiyori must have grown' well... recent update actually... #yamato got him!!!! fuck yes!!! #yasopp isnt ready to see usopp???? well boohoo... also why does this guy care about kid... nvm shanks got his arm i forgor xd #so shanks new about the fruit.... bc not even whos who knows... #barto burning shanks flag omg akdhsks #SABO KILLED COBRA???? that has to be a setup.... kuma escaped!!!! sabo is more popular than dragon somehow??? its bc he actually does stuff #MOMO CAN MAKE FIRE?? well kinda... shanks goes for the one piece.... what's in the air??? like you didn't have time before??? #once again i <3 in between arc episodes.... i love getting fed new info.... #nami new sharpshooter usopp step aside... and with one hand only... oh nvm.... it is rigged then #episode 1082 #law and robin ponebesties.... jack gyojin???? also that is such a way to construct a city... wth RED PONEGLYPH!!! 3/4!!! #opening the frontiers frees the weapon.... inch resting also did luffy talk to him??? yamato could hear him because of the king's haki??? #what is up with shank's haki.... jesus christ.... they were just watching lmao luffy can feel shanks omg..... #did he just leave or does he need the poneglyph still??? #episode 1083

[c0bblenygma]

I keep replaying my interactions with Dacre and remembered that when I asked him to do a funny face he asked me what we should do and I said it was his choice and HE SHOWED ME HIS TONGUE and then I went back to the video of us and…

yep

THE LIL TONGUE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

A DORK 🥹

#how the fuck am I still alive after this Saturday it’s a mystery #not me starting to save money in case he goes to LACon next year so I can see him again #dacre montgomery #dacre in brazil

[i3utterflyeffect]

also sometimes with the media i consume i don't think about how starved i was for good trans rep as a kid and i just remembered this morning the first time i saw a trans person in a movie and it's just like. man............

#was the studio ghibli film w the trans woman #tokyo godfathers i think it was called? and i'm pretty sure it was the dub that was recontextualized with trans rep #and i literally fucking sobbed my eyes out after the movie bc it was a time where i was still really confused about my gender #am i a woman? no. was it still really important for me to see a trans character at that time in my life? ABSOLUTELY! #i think it's part of what prevented me from going down the worse pipelines when it came to being transgender #i'd rather not tag them because you just know some fuckers are gonna hound me but. you know what i mean yeah? #pitch posts #just. god. i forget how fucking lucky i am to be alive in even the very beginning of the era where we began to be accepted

[scattered-winter]

thinking abt shiro again...yeah no it's gonna be all day...

#im getting ready for work rn so idk how coherent i am but MAN. character of all time. #he dedicated his life to studying the stars and longing to explore them. he gets caught up in a 10 thousand year old war when he does #and is imprisoned and tortured and mutilated and made to kill for others' entertainment for a YEAR. #not knowing where either of his crewmates are. not knowing if theyre even alive. not knowing if he'll ever see home or family again. #then he manages to escape. against all odds. and he makes it back home to earth. #only to be betrayed by the very people he thought he could trust. locked up and ignored when he tried to warn them about what's coming. #he escapes from them too (sees his brother again after so so long...is he even the same person anymore...are either of them...) #before getting launched BACK into space and joining the war on the front lines. fighting the ppl who tortured and maimed him face to face. #AND his entire team is made up of KIDS. IN A WAR. and so he tries soo hard to be strong for them because god theyre just kids.. #AND THROUGHOUT ALL OF THIS. DESPITE BEING MOLDED INTO A WEAPON AND LITERALLY HAVING PIECES OF HIMSELF STOLEN AND TWISTED INTO SOMETHING EVIL #HE'S STILL GOOD AND KIND AND GENTLE AND SUPPORTIVE AND HE MAKES GOOFY JOKES AND HE DOESNT KILL UNLESS HE HAS TO #ANYONE ELSE WOULD HAVE BUCKLED UNDER THE PRESSURE OF ALL THAT #BUT AT HIS CORE HE'S SO KIND. AND SO HE WAS ABLE TO GO THROUGH HELL AND MAKE IT THROUGH THE OTHER SIDE #WITH HIS KINDNESS INTACT. #crying screaming throwing up punching the wall #thinking ALWAYS about that fic where his bayard form is a SHIELD...because he's not a weapon he's a Protector......auughhhh #society if i was in charge of these characters fr. #winter speaks #voltron #shiro

[starbuck]

about a quarter of the way through making the WORST PANTS IMAGINABLE and i’m feeling GREAT

#stopping for tonight bc Too Sleepy #but i’m excited about my progress considering that it had stalled for uhhhhh…. five months #where’s that post about making terrible art to prevent Killing… that was me this evening #anxiety is still Up There but at least i DID something #with my HANDS #from which i can see PHYSICAL RESULTS #i needed that #this week is gonna be fucking ROUGH and I will be RELIEVED when it is OVER #and honestly it’s a toss-up whether these are even gonna be WEARABLE after all this work #but i don’t CARE at this point #i made them and i LOVE them and i don’t care how shit they look #if i can wear them then i’m gonna wear them to a queer club with my ridiculous boots #and NO ONE can fucking stop me #and that vision is all that’s keeping me going right now and that is OKAY!!!!!! #I AM ALIVE AND OWN DELIGHTFULLY STUPID SECONDHAND CLOTHES AND THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERS

[undercoverxs]

#|[.ooc #yes hi I am once again still alive (unlike some people) (murder victims) (milgram prisoners' murder victims) #anybody still up #pls like this post if you're a milgram rp person who is also still alive!! dw if we're not mutuals yet let me find you!! #also gonna rb some memes idc how long after this posts that you see it go ahead and send them in! #frothing at the mouth to write something somewhere #also I'm thinking about making a sideblog to try other milgram kids? curious how well I could do on that front so!! #so

[loutrem]

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#its dumb of me but a few days ago i went with his deadname on google to see if i could see more stuff about his dead #since his friends who were alqo supposed to be my friends did a 'ceremony' together without telling me #even tho i rly wanted to go to be able to grief and to cry it out properly #so since i havent been able to grieve well i did that. search for his deadname. i just wanted to know #and i found out that a page for him was made on the tdor website. there were a ton of details on what was happening #before and after his death #many things i didnt know about. because i was a shit friend and never kept contact. and also because he was secretivz #i feel awful since then. who was i to him. why couldnt i help him. why am i even sorry for myself. he was the one suffering #i keep crying and i cant sleep at night without reading comics until i feel too tired to open my eyes #because otherwise im thinking too much about him. its just too awful. too unjust #i have. weird cravings for alcohol. ive never even drinked much before. im scared of starting to get addicted #but sometimes i wanna get somethibg anything and just drink until i pass out since people say its good to forget #i wish he were still alive. i wish i could hug him and help him. i wish id visited him in the hospital after his 1st mental breakdown #he had sent me a text to tell me he was there but i had work and i was tired and honestly too lazy to go. and now i regret it so bad #its all so unfair. death is so unfair. grief is so unfair. i was afraid i had no heart before because people who died around me didnt #phase me much. i didnt cry. but now that ive experienced the deaths of 2 actually very close people counting one i couldnt grieve forproper #i just wish i had no emotions. that i wouldnt cry when i think of them. but especially him. #and i cant stop thinking about how awful ill be when my parents die. ill be a wreck. #im just crying in my bed and its 4am. everythibg sucks. im so sorry to everyone whos ever met me. im awful #negative / #death m / #suicide m /

[bo0zey]

boys be mad asl when i don’t giggle n tehe n show cute emotions like bitch my wounded inner child just got done drunk sniveling begging for daddy not to yell n hate her while her intoxicated narcissistic father screamed n gaslit her until she dissociated to euthymic plane 🙄🙄🙄

#‘trauma dumping’ eat my shorts loser assholss #so funny he said if my narcissistic sociopathic insane brother killed himself then it’s ‘goodbye to the rest of y’all too’ #like ohhhhh so ur eldest daughter n youngest son don’t mean jack fuckjn shit to u right??? lmfao lolll #yeah just go rot with that selfish egotistic psycho while ur 15yr old son who lost his mom at 7yrs old #i want to strangle my fuckjgnf dad sometimes he’s so cruel n said so many mean things to me #he always has to defend my middle brother ‘he’s depressed what if he kms’ like??? #my middle brother literally manipulates tf out of my dumbass emotionally unintelligent father he’s tearing this family apart #meanwhile i never planned on seeing 18 nor living past 22 n now i have to go exist n find a job when i never thought i’d have to do this sh #shit ever b. i was supposed to #be dead 4 years ago lololllll #god forbid i tell him that or my plan to kms at 27 lollll #so worried abt a fucking LOST SOCIOPATH SEFISH NARCISSITIC CAUSE ur gonna make me and my baby brother suffer?? as orphans ?? #my dad n i used to get breakfast every sunday in middle school n talk abt life n drive around after n those days meant the world to me #i never realized how much i missed them. how much i looked forward to him saying he’d call me while i’m away at college #but my middle brother egosticizl fuck is like ‘lolyh i just nod n say what dad wants me to hear’ when my dad is trying so hard to save him f #my dad admitted to neglecting my lil bro lol it makes me so fkcing angry he doesn’t give af abt us #says ‘im worth more im the ground than i am alive’ n my inner teen bursts into tears bc she experienced that already #yeah moms life insurance money was so fun!! until it ran out bc of college n impulsive manic spending n the materialistic thrill never laste #i want to hate him but i can’t even deny i love him so much he hurts me and everyone i love and disappoints us all n we still care for him #he’s letting my brother fuckjgn kill him literlaly my dad is physically sick bc of my sociopath narcissistic bros drama #he blames me for not going to him n telling him abt my ‘’mental issues’ as if i didn’t have to grow up n become mom the day after my 16th #i am my mothers child he didn’t know anything abt our childhoods until she died and he had to step up n parent us himself #he doesn’t know what it means to be a parent he shouldn’t be a parent but oh fuckjgn well oh my god WE ARE YOUR KIDSMWE NEED YOU WH #WHY CANT YOU SHOW US YOU CARE WHEN WE ALL HAD TO LEARN ALL WE HAVE IS OURSELVES #i am so angry he tried to throw me under the bus abt not having a job as a new grad nurse instead of my brother for dropping out everything #ur son wants to drop his ap classes bc he procrastinated n doesn’t wNna do the work so now he’s manipulating u to let him quit #i am just not exiting the identity crisis coming to terms w the fact that i’m 22yrs old n alive n need to start living n working #tonight was a shitshow but the ending calmed down but i couldn’t stop crying sniveling whimpering when dad yelled #yelled n accused n attacked me n chose to defend my middle bro over me like..he’s trying to kill u n i freaked out bc stepmom said u cut #ramblings

[gatun-gatunesco]

...

#and so i came back here. because in here i can find joy and sorrow. laugh a little and cry a lot because someone made a post i resonate with #it makes me feels understood. a private and intimate place that is also shared at the same time. and strangely; like a home #but i came back without knowing who i am. I see someone else in the mirror. Is that a monster? a sinner? a human? a normal man? #after all that effort leaving depression and self hate from my adolescence behind. from being proud of myself for being different to all me #was all a lie? how could i do such awful and terrible thing to the person i swore to protect? the person i love the most #i said i would never do that kind of unforgivable act. And here i am. Alive after the event. I want to drop dead. To dissapear from here. #But at the same time i want to fix what i did. in order to do that i need to heal. to change. be happy. to live. and i hate it #how can i do all of that with the weight of guilt crushing me and telling me i killed myself that day? i am just a shell of who i was #how to change what i thought was the best version of me? i was supposed to be different no harmful and kind man!!! #i already asked for help. and they told me it was not all my fault. But i still think it is. There is no way it can be 50/50 #physical actions are only responsibility of the ones who made it. circumstances are not a reason to diminish them guilt #a confused person is not deserving of any part of the guilt. they do not have control over themselves. but the other ones sure have it #yes. they might have started and added little physical actions. but i refused and it never came to completion. which is the opposite of min #physical trauma can spawn emotional and mental trauma as well. is way more bad and deep that the emotional one i might have #i want to kill that trash in front of the mirror. why are you still living bitch? just to be a parasite and hurt people on the go? #to make irreversible mistakes that affects every person around you? your decisions never end well. why do not you just give up already? #and yet here i am. trying to not isolate myself thanks to the safe place i found here. I can write what is on my mind. gives me some relief #because the only person i talked everyday is the same one i hurted as i never thought i would in my life #Hope i can found redemption one day. I hope they can heal and be happy soon and forever. #I am going to always be worry about them (i am sure of that) but i wish nothing but the best for them. I want nothing to hurt them again. #They never deserved the trauma and guilt. They suffered more than enough way before i step in and fucked up everything. #Life. if you can hear me. Please give them recovery. happyness. health and lots of love. They deserve it. Please #They did nothing wrong! Take them pain away and put it in me. I will stay alive just for that if is neccesary #I wanted to kill myself way long ago. but i still here. I might want to kill myself again. but i still will be here. #Just leave them be happy. That is what i really want

[epicdogymoment]

well i think mobcop has everything to do with hijikata being an alivegirl

#leologisms #gintama #gintameta #so if 'we're' (i am) talking about hash tag alivegirl hijikata im gonna have to talk about mobcop #hijikata who has been assigned the title alivegirl on the basis that he does not want to be the alivegirl. his lose condition is still being #left alive after everything. farewell shinsengumi arc beheading nightmare and kondou 'death' come to mind #but also the chapter where kondou gets shot protecting that frog amanto. specifically the part where hes addressing the men afterwards #(lesson 15. truly one of the chained government dog moments ever.) 'not the bakufu nor the shogun. i only take orders from kondou-san' #<- words from the mouth of a dog on a short chain #shinsengumi crisis as well. 'you are the soul of the shinsengumi we are the sword that protects you' #and of course rengokukan arc and 'you know how kondou gets'. which also brings up hijikata and his oni mask #which he dons in an attempt to save kondous face in exchange for his own. to redirect any animosity towards himself #AND in an attempt to remove himself from his own humanity (something which merely gets in the way of the duty hes imposed on himself) #gestures broadly at mitsuba arc. of course both that arc and rengokukan (wherein the actual unmasking takes place) reveal that hijikata #really is nothing but human (with vices like mayonnaise and smoking. behaviour of a guy who thinks he is Definitely going to live to see the #ill effects of his own actions) but yes. hijikata and hes desire to be stronger. to be helpful. to justify his own existence #hes decided for himself (pre timeskip) that his sole purpose in life is to protect kondou and that anything else should be (SHOULD be) #discarded. hes someone who would gladly never have been alive (a living human being) in the first place if it meant he could carry out his #self imposed duty better. enter mobcop #yamazaki fellow resident alivegirl of the shinsengumi. by virtue of his mob nature. of being so jimmy. #yamazaki former hooligan reformed into a Normal Guy. and hijikata 'self flagellation is always the answer' toushirous treatment of him #yamazaki who did what hijikata couldnt and actually became the Most Normal Guy Youve Ever Seen. and then went on to die and become a robot. #but also interesting is that this happens post timeskip. at which point hijikata is less single mindedly driven by his self imposed #duty to kondou. we even first meet him and realise who the hell he even is once hijikatas tracked gintoki down. #which doesnt necessarily mean that hes let go of the oni mask human mask sword thing. #i dont have a good way to end this. theres a lot of implications here and i dont know what to make of them. good night to one and all

[prehistorictriforce]

it’s my old best friend’s bday today and i’ve been thinking a lot and it’s made me v appreciative and grateful for my now best friend. if u see this hiiiii i love u i’m hugging u in my mind

#as of a few weeks ago he had notifs on for my blogs (BOTH???? FOR SOME REASON????) #so if u see this hi hi hi ur everhthing u mean the world to me thank u for being The Coolest Person Alive #still don’t understand how they put up w my posts. this dude has notifs on for my WRESTLING BLOG TOO #and i hope he knows. i will not be upset whenever he turns notifs off #especially when i liveblog shit good god i post too much for MYSELF on ppv days #that’s like. 5-6 hours of nonstop posts #this is nothing against my old best friend omg she’s lovely!!! i just. am very appreciative of #the person that helped me get out of the rut i fell into after her and i stopped talking #and that person is my current best friend

[gazelessmenagerie]

quietly slides in here-- your portrayals are all insanely good. although it's been a while since i've really read too much of your writing(SHAKES YOU i need to throw my muses at you more AGH); everytime I do see it, it's like a breathe of fresh air. It's amazing how you manage to capture what I sometimes can see as a pretty one note/one sided character in Broly as having so many layers beyond just fight lusting brute. You're REALLY good at making simplistic characters initially feel like they're real, like they're alive.

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( NAMI~ HOW YOU BEEN HOLDING UP??? omfg pls do. I know I owe on N’doul and King but anflksfnskjgs blind man needs to stop ignoring me. but outside of that, just ??? omfg, ;; honestly I feel better bc holy shit have classes and school taken out my time to delve deep into lore and the brain power needed to make connections and mix n’ match ideas to see what works.  )

( and oh my god. just.. blame that my brain fixates entirely on one character and just cannot let go. There’s always something more behind the scenes of what is seen and writing it out with people only makes those brainwaves amplify. anfsldfjg just. -fucking cries on main- ily and thank u. getting the Nami-certified Approval never fails to make my brain emit fireworks. and just overall, you never lost your touch either on King from what I stalk lowkey on dash. )

#|| Tag: OOC #( MAKE BROLY BECOME A BEAST PIRATE. MAKE BROLY BECOME A BEAST PIRATE. ) #( IDK IF I'D KEEP HIM AS HIMSELF OR GIVE HIM A DEVIL FRUIT IN AN AU. BUT REGARDLESS. ) #( he'd look good in leather. just saying. anflsdfljg but yEAH. ) #( i love and miss all the talks we had but its all good. they will come again when school stops kicking my ass ) #( also Kata and King fighting over Broly to join up with them never left my goddamn head and I wheeze over it. #( and just anlfsjlf fuckign ) #( im gonna splurge my thougths out. ) #( i just feel happy getting to take these single point characters and push them beyond what we see out of them ) #( Broly has just had this certain charm to him. he's a menace. he's a beast. but beneath that. there's more to ti. ) #( he is a fallen prodigy that would've save his entire race in time had he been allowed to grow but due to both ) #( his power and the course of events. he never got that chance and became a black hearted creature. ) #( but... even still. he knows how it felt to be loved bc no one can tell me Paragus didn't love him as a son ) #( before he grew fearful of him after Broly took his eye out. ) #( just. i have so many fucking feels and thoughts and not enough time or brain to write them down. ) #( from there. I just write and write. i interact with people and tho I am hella fearful about my portrayal. it just gets easeir?? ) #( i end up thinking of things. or events change development. its just.. really fun and lovely to see how my muses ) #( develop either by my own hand or with the help of hella talented writers. ;w; ) #( so the statement you say that I make them feel alive is just????????????/ makes the joy in my brain spark like a supernova. ) #( thats always my end goal to give these characters both layers and a life of their own. ansdljg )