#I NEVER THOUGHT ID LIVE TO SEE THE DAY

[xxxcertifiednerdxxx]

MANG FACE REVEAL?!?!?!?!

#WHAT #I NEVER THOUGHT ID LIVE TO SEE THE DAY #THAT IS SO PRECIOUS #HE HAS ACCEPTED HIMSELF AND IS WILLING TO SHOW HIS TRUE SELF #DONT DO THIS TO ME OMG #bt21 #bts #bt21 mang #and rj was so cute #bt21 rj #nerd out #nerd-out #kpop

[wanoace]

BABE WAKE UP HUNTER X HUNTER IS COMING BACK !!!!!!

#oh my god #FUCKING FINALLY #i never thought id live to see the day #im so happy i could cry #hunter x hunter #hxh

[tenshindon]

still not over how modern db is trying so hard to gaslight people into thinking goku’s a meatheaded idiot who’s never considered mental training an important aspect of martial arts

#snap chats #i might not fucks with db as heavily anymore but ill die a goku defender #he's my best friend even if this franchise hates him #LITERALLY DAY ONE WITH THE TURTLE SCHOOL MASTER ROSHI TAUGHT HIM EDUCATION WAS IMPORTANT #AND EVEN BEYOND THAT WHAT WAS ALL THAT TIME WITH KAMI AND POPO FOR THEN #does goku not also remind gohan that he cant overwork his body when theyre in the hyperbolic time chamber or am i gaslighting myself #idk point is goku's not a braindead idiot i cant believe thats a hot take #he can be a bit dense and socially unaware but he's not stupid when it comes to fighting i hate it here #never thought id see character assassination happening live but wow... #anyways i was reminded of this cause people were talking about the superhero movie again #and i think its amazing how the movie wasnt even about goku and featured him for maybe about fifteen minutes #and they still managed to sneak in goku slander thats amazin honestly

[shleemies]

2015->2023

It gets better

#was looking at old photos and put these side by side. wow #in the first pic i was miserable malnourished and so depressed i didnt think id make it to 2016 #the second pic was a few months ago in too lazy to take w newer one today lol #im still depressed but not like i was. ive come so far and its so hard to see it from day to day sometimes #i never thought id live long enough to go on hrt. top surgery felt completely impossible #but i got to live #i got to transition #i wish i could go back and show that scared kid how far we've come #idk these pics just had me feeling really sappy #maybe one day ill make a more intentional transition timeline post #but these photos really show a lot #transgender love transgender peace transgender joy #it gets better i promise #sounds fake and shallow but it's so fucking true

[apollos-boyfriend]

CELLBITS FINALLY ON AT THE SAME TIME AS ARIN. ITS A MIRACLE

#icarus speaks #icarus liveblogs #I NEVER THOUGHT ID LIVE TO SEE THE SAY #DAY

[renamusing]

aaron is back and there's an adam mention??? HOW VERY 2014 !!

#emmerdale #spoilers #never thought id see the day i would live watch this trainwreck of a show again

[coldhardbinch]

Six months ago if you'd looked me in the eyes and told me that fall out boy would be regularly playing folie a deux songs live I would have called you insane but look where we are, what a time to be alive baby

#i never thought id see the day #but i saw water buffalos and headfirst slide live #unreal #tourdust #so much for tour dust #fall out boy

[jacob-blogs]

Having a lot of moments™ recently.

#jacob blogs #ive been doing so much introspection into my previous romantic relationships #ive essentially trapped myself in my own head #... #meaning #ive been with people who so desperately wanted to be with me #and they changed themselves to fit the mold of what they thought i wanted #its a pattern that i sat up last night crying about and recognizing #i want to be with someone who sees me for who i am #and not just what they think they should be for me #and seeing how my exes changed drastically after id broken things off with them... #i cry thinking about how i could never bring out the best in them #partially because i couldn't bring out the best in myself #but also because they took from me what inspired them most to make better decisions in their lives #im tired #im so tired #anyway enough emotional posting im ready to get to work #gonna be another long day at the PO

[paddington-two]

tears of the kingdom tomorrow

#never thought id live to see this day. used to pray for times like these etc #feels very surreal like we've waited years for this....and now it's here #im so excited i feel ill :) #totk

[saph-yells-into-the-void]

HOLY SHIT HES HERE HES ACTUALLY HEREE i CANT FUCKING- OH MY GOD HES LOOKS SO FUKCING COOL WHAT THE HELL ITS THE BOYY ASDLKFJAKSDLFJALJKSDF

#I-I NEVER THOUGHT ID LIVE TO SEE THE DAY #bllk #bllk manga #my only complaint is that he lowkey gives hisoka vibes in this shot askdfj #8bit dont be shy give him more of his eyeliner

[1980ssunflower]

aouhhh 🥺💖💙🥰

#ot3: ❤rhyme💛easy💙 #tape entry circa 1980 #ngl ive been feeling like a bit sad like... i just miss them sm hfdjks #i just wish so SO soso so badly that i could go home to them both back in the 80s #to be w the loves of my life but ALSO to have someone i can talk music to and we can just talk abt music for hours <33 #i can just talk abt it to them and theyll completely understand and give their own thoughts abt whatever song/band/album im talking abt #and id love to hear them go on long insane rants abt their own favorite albums and for them to show me a new album they listened to #something theyd know i like cause we love the same music genres #fuck i just miss them so much... they understand me more than anyone and get along w me more than ANYONE #i couldnt even try to imagine a person who better suites me than them even if i tried to create the perfect person for me #they just ARE already the epitome of perfection for me like we were made to know and love eachother to get along so well to be inseparable #i love them... god i love them both so much just thinking about them always makes me cry #i almost never cry its only ever because of them that i cry... #i miss them so so fucking much i keep thinking about them throughout the day #just imagining me being w them to be able to kiss and hold them and show them just how much i love them both #actually today i was picturing them here w me which is something i never do #i just love and miss them... i feel lonely and just ah... idk i wish i could go off on an adventure w them rn #i want to escape the life im living rn and just run off on the road w them chasing after our dream of being rockstars #tbh id also just love to experience the train together and get to see all that crazy stuff yknow? would make good song writing material lol #idk i feel like i cant truly get into how much i truly love and miss them w/o sounding super depressed and pathetic tbh #so i keep holding myself back from really expressing how i feel abt them

[0jamajos]

we have some changes at my workplace, new administration and shit and they're implementing ridiculous amounts of red tape which I'm mainly ignoring and bullshitting my way out of and bro... They sent me a survey, like a costumer satisfaction kind of thing for the students like man... My students are a bunch of 4 year olds and a literal baby

#rue.txt #i never thought id live to see the day my hippie workplace sent out surveys instead of having a conversation like real human beings

[pristine-starlight]

Yesterday I was dicking around with the obelisks on the Cambion Drift at sib’s suggestion (very fun way to get some extra resources, i like it) and then they said something about how oh yeah i could go do an iso vault now sometime

And I’m still reeling from that

Like yeah okay i completely forgot those are A Thing for me now but like. so are eidolon hunts and sorties and liches, and i’m sure as hell not touching those anytime soon

But they said i could just?? go try my hand at an iso vault sometime?? for real???

It’s still wild to me that i’ve Gotten Somewhere in this game. That many, many things i’ve seen others do or just knew they were doing are now within my reach. Hell some of them are just Things I Do already

I have the major stuff unlocked by the War Within. If all goes right, I’m getting a Railjack next weekend. The only part of the regular starchart i haven’t touched yet is Eris, simply bc i haven’t been bothered to yet. When i’m in the mood to deal with a rescue mission again, I can easily clear my way to Hydron. I can go long in endless missions, just don’t often feel like it. I’m rank 28 in Nightwave and most likely hitting rank 30 this week. I do Sanctuary Onslaught for fun.

It’s wild

#kata's chatter #theres ofc so SO much left to go but its still wild how much ive already made it to #and how much has become just normal to me #i still remember getting anxiety attacks over defense and survival missions #now i pleasantly do 20+ minute runs of both for resources or just fun #and im hardly ever the first one to leave #space ninja fashion show #i have a vaulted prime in my oven! i semi-regularly sell stuff to ppl for plat! im casually chipping away at getting rank4 with the entrati! #the ostron too actually but im not as pressed about that one rn it kinda just happens along the way #i wanted rank4 for zaw stuff but im no longer as interested in that bc xoris #anyway. at the end of the day it comes back to #sib fondly poking fun at me just before i started the second dream #recalling how i said i doubt id ever get this far in this game #what a cheesy fuckin parallel actually what is this. to the fact that im hitting a birthday this month i never thought id live to see #god. what the fuck

[birbtails]

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#gods #im .. in trouble this semester #which sucks bc i was doing so much better last semester #i stopped going to therapy!! #which i think i knew at the time was a Problem #but my therapist suggested it and i didn't want to but i couldn't come up with a better reason than im worried ill nosedive next semester #to be fair to me while i was feeling so much better i knew i wasnt .. stable i guess? #in her defense i can't tell anyone the whole truth even if my life was on the line #and by cant i mean some combination of wont dont want to and its instinctive #but the problem is im failing one of my classes and im at least a little bit suicidal and i havent told anyone really and gods i feel lonely #(and by a little bit suicidal i mean thinking of ways to kill myself 2 days ago. im feeling better now but i don't trust it) #(by feeling better i mean im not Actively thinking of methods but it definitely crosses my mind as a Possibility) #(although i guess its a bit less i want to die and a bit more i want someone to find me before i die and help me) #so anyways this semester might be replacing 10th grade as the worst year of my life #im just.. so tired #i don't want to keep living like this #and im sucking it up and making myself do better but i Hate this #and ive got to think about summer plans bc i don't want to go back to my parents house but i also Really want to bc i can see my brother and #maybe i can see my friends(?) and maybe if i tell my parents everything that's been going on theyll take care of me? #but i Really want to stay here bc i always regret going home and bc ive gotten used to living on my own and i really like all the freedom it #gives me?? but i need to get an internship or a job or something if i want to stay here but its So Late and now that im thinking about it im #worried that ill be so isolated here that ill feel worse? but if i get a therapist here then maybe itll be okay?? #i don't know #and im almost done with my junior year and i don't know what i want to do with my future and #i just never thought id get this far yknow? i honestly thought i wasnt going to make it to 18 or college and now im almost 21 and so close #to graduating?? and i don't know how to face the rest of my life #im just tired and stressed and depressed #i just want a hug and a friend that i can tell everything to #ne ways im just tired and whiny and i need to suck it up and get groceries and do my hw

[hairydykecunt]

once my friend said that sometimes it seems like i don’t want a girlfriend and just want to be some girls pet and like. yeah okay sure, but is that really all people see in me. is that what they think i’m only capable of? i want to give so much, i want to fill them with so much love and make them feel safe and loved and adored. i Do want to do more than just be a pet, i want to be a Provider, i want to take care.

#kitty talks #maybe that is animal behaviour. maybe i jsut wanna be a guard dog. idk. i just feel weird #it sucks but i cant see myself in a relationship and idk if its cause im insecure but the thought of someone chosing me and staying is. fake #and i think everyone can tell too. i think thats it. thats the thing that makes ppl stay back #sometimes i think ny autistic brain and its facination with shows fucked me over bc i love the idea of grand gestures. #i want a grand gesture that wipes away every little doubt ive ever had snd that makes me think Fuck why was i so riddled in worry #anything in oublic would embarrass me. id be shy. but id still gush. idk. i want personal thiught out expressions of love #man im high and just cant stop thinking. im just so lost. i dont even know how to feel. it feels weird reverting back to highschool + #mentality but Nothibg is ever rnkugh and will never be enkigh and ill always keep asking for more snd more no matter what till i break them #gonna attempt to put an experienced adult point of view on it tho and say that i think nothing will evrr be enoigh for anyone #but that whatever is there is good and it will stay good snd if it gors something else will be good. the world is so fucking shitty to us #but i will still love despite it. people will still love me #i will get a girlfriend some day. or not. and itll fill me up. or be bad for me. i just need to take csre of myself snd my loved ones #and i can live on that. i guess. idk. bye

[this-doesnt-endd]

I used to have a really giant family like tons of tias and tios and cousins and i say used to cause like it seems like after my grandparents died on both sides both families seemed to never speak again and i had no chance to even try and keep hold of those ties i was in elementary school watching my parents marriage crash and burn in real time dealing with major death in the family and then subsequent family abandoning me at the tender age of 11. Hell my brothers were older and jumped ship it was just me and the horrors

#my moms dad and my dads mom were like the heads of their families and they both died really close to each other #but my grandma and a tio on my moms side died within 3 days of each other after being in hospice literally 3 doors away from each other #for months and my parents both took the roles of like taking care of everything and being the descision makers cause no one else would #which im sure was super traumatizing in everyway possible but their siblings both seemed to resent them in ways #when they didnt want to be those people but had to be and they arent even the oldest siblings they are both like 3rd youngest #but like it just ruined the families and me and mom and my dad were all at the hospital or hospice center for months #we were there every day and night i remember it so much i can get anywhere in any hospital in my town using the stairwells #like i knew them that well #it also likely ruined my parents marriage which was bumpy before the intense major tragedy #which like yaknow what fair it was a lot to deal with ontop of like trying to crawl ur way out of the recession #but after all was said and done i talk to no one on my dads side i bearly talk to my older brother #and i talk to like my nina and two tias on my moms side and occassionally a few cousins #when theyre arent being fucking insane and unhinged #idk i loved having a huge family the like going to 5 houses on christmas type #going to birthdays or weddings and seeing everyone taking at least 45 mins to say bye to everyone #and now its gone and i wont ever get it back #and its by no fault of my own cause i was literally 11 and every adult decided i was gonna pay the price too #like i think abt when i get married its not gonna be what i thought itd be or when i get my first movie in theatres #im not gonna have the major family celebration ill have all my friends which im so greafull for #but its not the same yaknow #and id love to have that relatiomship with my family again but like where do u start when its been over 10+ years #like they remember 11 year old me if they remember me #and thats part of the problem #like on my moms side specifically i have some family who acts like theyve never met me before when i used to see them every weekend #and it was a major failing on my part as an 11 year old for not keeping in touch even tho we did my mom calls everyone and she tried #but people didnt want to return it #and as for my dads side its the same and if it was a moral failing for me as an 11 yr old to not reach out and they didnt like my mom much #my grandma fucking loved her but the rest of the family didnt and like i lived w my mom and was fucking 11 i couldnt go anhwhere by myself #and i didnt like not being places without a parent and i hated sleepovers i refused and they took it so personal #and they stopped talking to my dad and bad mouthed him and still do nd ill never allow that around me my dad isnt perfect but hes a good man