#I can’t sleep because of the pain

[bobfloydsbabe]

What’s the return policy on a uterus? Mine’s defective.

#helena rants #I can’t sleep because of the pain #like i’m in agony #and I have tried everything #fuck periods #tw periods #tw cramps

[link-posting]

Twi wasn’t the lightest sleeper in the Chain, yet somehow he could always sense when Wild couldn’t sleep. His eyes blinked open to the sight of Wild’s silhouette as he sat by the fire, carefully poking it with a stick to be sure it didn’t fully go out. Twi moved closer to him, making sure to make a bit of noise as he did- not enough to wake the rest of the Chain, but enough so he wouldn’t startle the other when he came up behind him. He sat beside the smaller man, putting a reassuring hand on his shoulder.

“Can’t sleep?” The Ordonian asked.

When Wild simply shook his head, Twi wrapped an arm around his shoulders. “Nightmares?”

Wild leaned into him with a sigh. “Nerves.”

Twi gave a bit of a hum. Wild lost a lot of sleep to pain, and far be it from Twilight to just leave Wild alone to deal with it in solitude. They had a bit of a routine for this exact scenario anyway. Twi checked if anyone else was awake and shifted into his wolf form. Wild had known about this form for quite a while, so he wasn’t exactly shy about it.

Wild gave a quiet sigh as he settled against Wolfie’s fur. He was warm and soft, and it never failed to soothe his pains. Between the warmth of the fire and the warmth of the wolf, Wild could slowly feel the jittery, tingling feeling through his body ease significantly. Wild absently stroked Wolfie’s fur, the soft texture serving to sooth his body even further. Twi could feel Wild twitch against him every so often- a result of his muscles spasming as his nerves misfired.

Wild let out a frustrated sigh and buried his face in his friend’s fur. Twi could feel it- Wild’s frustration at his chronic pains, at the way his body malfunctioned as a byproduct of his death. Wild saw it as a reminder of his failure’s, no matter how many times Twi told him it showed his drive to survive and his dedication to protecting Hyrule and Zelda.

“I hate this,” Wild muttered into Twi’s fur.

The young wolf nuzzled his snout into Wild- careful not to touch his nose to the younger Hero’s skin. They had learned the hard way the damp, cold skin of his nose set Wild’s nerves off.

Wild knew what the gesture meant. He sighed, turning his head and reaching to scritch behind Wolfie’s ears. Wild smiled when he could hear the wolf’s tail thump against the ground. “Thank you for keeping me company,” he said quietly.

They rested there for a while, just laying against each other while they waited out Wild’s nerve attack. Twi stayed awake the whole time, though after a while he could feel Wild’s body slump further against him. His breathing deepened and slowed. Twi stayed where he was, letting Wild sleep against him. Staying warm always helps Wild’s nerves, and if Twi’s body heat helped him stay warm enough for his muscles and nerves to relax he had no interest in moving and risking Wild waking up when he moved or suffering another attack.

Twi fell back asleep eventually himself, though he remained vaguely aware of Wild’s body against him, paying attention to any signs of further muscle spasms. In the morning the sun slowly rose in the sky, waking the Chain up one by one. They knew what it meant for Wild to be sleeping against the mysterious Wolf, so they tried to be quiet to let him sleep a bit a bit more. Time even took the time to stoke the flames back to life to chase off the damp chill of the morning. Wild was a bit creaky when he woke up, at almost the same time as the wolf. The Chain let him wake up and stretch him muscles a bit, though they didn’t directly acknowledge the scene. Wild wasn’t a fan of talking about his pains, but even he could tell as the others spoke and bantered more they were avoiding the conversation.

Legend could see on Wild’s face that he knew the others were just avoiding the conversation. He looked uncomfortable, though this time it wasn’t from his nerves. Legend took it upon himself to try to distract him from everyone else’s attempts to avoid bringing too much attention to Wild.

“Oi, Cook, you ever plan on actually making breakfast?” It was well known how much Wild enjoyed cooking for them, and Wild could tell Legend wasn’t being so blunt to be rude. in fact, Wild let out a chuckle as he started to gather his cooking utensils and ingredients together.

“Calm down, I’m working on it. I think you’re safe from starving to death. Especially with how much you put away last night!”

#linked universe #lu wild #lu twilight #lu legend #lu fanfiction #lu angst #I wasn’t sure how to end this ngl #So it kinda just cuts off #I can’t sleep because of my nerves so have this #Headcanon is Wild deals with chronic pain and neuropathy from the whole dying thing #in which twi is his service wolf #tae writes

[akindplace]

Struggling really bad with migraines. I can’t be here a lot because it’s awful to look at the screen. I’m struggling to walk straight lines because of the dizziness and I can’t sleep because of the pain. The thing about being constantly sick is that… it’s so boring. You can’t really do anything because of the pain, but you also wish you were doing literally anything else instead of being miserable in bed. Most of all, I wish for low pain days and less fatigue. Oh, and I also want so bad to be by the beach.

Queue is on as usual, and it’s safe to say I won’t be around as much as long as this crisis continues.

I hope everyone is doing okay. I wish you all low pain days, less fatigue, and a long seaside vacation.

Lots of love,

Liv

#this turned out longer than I expected #oh well #it’s 2:20am and I can’t sleep because of the pain and the ringing in my years #idk man I’m so tired of the sameness of day to day life with chronic pain #I’m trying to remember that I can find joy in the little things and try to slowly build a life that makes me feel stable and safe #but it’s hard #because of the pain of course

[oliviatexts]

i told my brother (11) that i listen to tma and that it’s a horror podcast etc. he likes to come into my room in the mornings and today i couldn’t sleep so i was awake when he came in (which usually never happens) and he was so surprised, but then quickly came to the conclusion that it’s because of “that horror podcast”

like yes you’re right but

#a guest for mr spider traumatised me #i don’t understand why #something about it was so terrifying and i’m not even afraid of spiders #maybe because it was about a children’s book #my brother also has this thing where he does weird movements and says hes a spider so im glad he wasn’t doing that today #anyway it’s time for another tma break which is painful because the mystery is so intriguing but i can’t handle the horror #i was contemplating before whether i should skip tucked in cause i was feeling brave #but now i know for sure that i will skip it #i wouldn’t be able to sleep again ever #tma #the magnus archives #the magnus archives spoiler #a guest for mr spider

[nuppu-nuppu]

Sorry for not making any art in a while I swear I’ve been trying but Idk if it’s artblock or something but it’s just not working out 😭

#also i’m going through the ect treatment which is like twice a week so I’m just not capable of drawing #because I’m just sleeping the pain away lol #i really wanna draw tho #but I’m going to my father’s place for Christmas #so I can’t make anything digital #but I did take my sketchbook with me #so we’ll see #<333333333 #i love you all

[palms-upturned]

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#meg talks #it’s my birthday and i can’t sleep because my nerve pain is flaring up #and now my hands hurt too just bc i played a game on my switch for a while in lieu of all my bday plans getting canceled #and also our car got possibly totaled #ik ot’s whiny and there are more important things but god it’s getting hard to cope w even little things #when the physical pain just keeps getting worse and worse #well watever… happy birthday to me ill spend the day working more on my research project for palestine #and then have a friend over for dinner in the evening #it’ll be a good day <- pleading

[writhe]

my whole body hurts SO BAD

#my back hurts pretty bad. i can tune it out a little but not ignore it. i think this is making the rest of my spine really tense? and #shoulders too? and i’ve also been getting headaches almost every day #im still a little sick but it’s probably just gonna linger until i can rest which can’t happen for a few more days (i say this like #every week though no?) #hands and wrists are like. bad worse than usual #like both numb and painful and it’s taking a lot more focus to do things nimbly or not stop stuff #*drop stuff #ankles have kinda been sore i think just from walking so much which is manageable #but it’s hard with everything else rn. also i think i kinda pulled something yesterday because i almost hit it onto the concrete while #almost BIT IT not hit #walking at night #felt like a pull? but it was painless but then i ran across the street and a numbness shot up my leg #and it’s a little tingly today #i think i need to build some more core strength honestly #and get enough sleep more than one night per week #also probably more stretches for hands and wrists #ideally i’d also love to not be enormously stressed but i do not see this happening! #im actually less stressed this week but i think the months and months if not years have done their damage #also getting beat up for fun. which i think is objectively funny to layer over all this but yknow. i think that detracts from my overall #stress & doesn’t contribute to bad exhausting pain #(-:<

[wroteclassicaly]

Anyone have any tips for someone whose life is falling apart?

#literally drowning in anxiety as well because it’s the fucking work week #the amount of mental pain I’m in rn I can’t even fathom it #I should be sleeping but I’m just thinking

[severalrelativelytamebees]

Happy Friday the 13th

#i started my period #and I somehow threw out my shoulder in my sleep #well more like my shoulder neck and upper back #I can’t turn my head all the way #or touch my chin to my chest #or raise my right arm #or lift heavy things <which is part of my job so imma need help today> #also my emotional support coworker isn’t here for the next 2 weeks #because he’s getting married #and going to Iceland for his honeymoon #im too young for my body to feel this old #not my art #reaction image #periods #pain

[lckboys]

he deserves the world 💙

#league of legends #esports #lolesports #league of legends esports #drx deft #it’s so late but i can’t sleep because of the adrenaline rush #gifs and posts will come tomorrow but i can’t believe how perfect this picture looks #everything was worth it league of legends esports is pain and suffering but it’s worth it #the dance has come to a close and the fairy tale has became reality

[warriorsatthedisco]

Man I used to sympathize people with chronic illness, but now I can really empathize. This shit sucks and it has the worst snowball effect too.

#helped my friend with her art booth at a con this weekend and it wasn’t even like a ton of work but it fucking exhausted me so much #I think I pushed myself too far because I also got sick and now I feel like shit and I’m so so so tired #and of course this is with steroids. like the drug that gives you energy to do shit and I’m barely functioning at work #I’m going to up my dose to 30mg bc the doctor said I could. cause even at 20 I’m still getting crohns symptoms #nothing like picking up groceries and feeling sudden impending doom where you have to get to a toilet as soon as possible #and then being so tired from just picking up groceries that you don’t have energy to make food #so you just lay in bed but you can’t sleep because you’re in pain and it’s hard to breathe from this stupid cold #this cold shouldn’t be kicking my ass but of course my steroids are immunosuppressants so it’s like I have fucking Covid #(I don’t have Covid) #and then crying because even on the steroids I still have to follow this stupid miserable diet because apparently #my body just fucking hates all good food #including goddamn rice #RICE! #not to mention the fact that prednisone can make your vision bad and it’s been making it hard for me to read even with my glasses on #and the foot cramps. idk what that’s about but I’m drinking so much water and taking supplements #anyways. rant over. hope I can work tomorrow. I accidentally slept thru my alarm today and was an hour late #personal

[pepprs]

just went thru all of the notes on that post and like. YEAH. it’s a fucking wonder. like i should get to scream. i should get to lie down. i should get to have as many treats as i want for free.

#purrs #menstruation tw #literally so tmi but the pain + digestive issues + constant paranoia abt leaking + pain + exhaustion because of blood loss + exhaustion beca #because of sleep deprivation because of pain + pain + discomfort + the mortifying ordeal of leaving the room with your purse or taking out a #heating pad and everyone knows why + being in situations where you CANT use a heating pad because you have to walk somewhere or meet in a di #different place + pain + the fact that i can’t just reschedule shit when im dealing with it and can’t schedule around it and there aren’t #social structures in place to make it easy to do that + the fact that you aren’t supposed to talk about it even though it is all consuming + #pain and pain and pain. and it happens EVERY MONTH and if it doesn’t happen every month then either you’re suppressing it and risking #consequences or you’re pr*gn*nt and definitely unequivocally experiencing consequences or you’re menopausal which idk what the fuck that #even does but it’s not good or you’re getting it MORE frequently because you have a condition of some kind. like. the absolute suffering and #hellfire. i don’t want to play into the stereotype of menstruating ppl being bitchy and mean and hysterical but like.. not to say it but i #GET ITCOMOLETELY. why ppl thought it was hysteria and a curse and whatever. because it is 💖 no one should ever have to experience this 💖 #delete later #ask to tag #brought to you by i haven’t even finished my dinner and i had to go lie down bc im in too much pain lol 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 #* digestive issues that need to be dealt with like… posthaste except (SO TMI SORRY) i have anxiety abt um. doing that in restrooms other ppl #can go into at the same time as me so ihave to scurry down MULTIPLE flights of stairs praying that the single user bathrooms are open so i #can shit in peace 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[broflovski-brah]

i saw a poll a week ago that asked what the worst sickness induced feeling is

it’s sore throat. 100%.

#i can’t sleep #i can’t swallow #i can’t even yawn without feeling like wolverine is clawing my throat from the inside out #i physically can’t sleep because one wrong movement sends my throat into aching #im complaining too much #sorry yall #im just in a lot of fucking pain rn #i’ve been sick for four days now #ive never been sick this long and it fucking sucks #abyways #tw sickness #vent #one moment i feel fine and the next im shivering under like four blankets #i can’t keep anything down #im getting so frustrated #sorry for no art or fic this week #i wanted nothing more than to write and draw and this whatever the fuck sickness knocked me on my ass #i feel bad for venting so much about some stupid sickness #i just feel like i don’t rlly have anywhere else to turn

[arolesbianism]

I’ve been thinking abt one of my older oni colonies and decided to doodle my first three dupes in that save

#keese draws #oxygen not included #but yeah these guys were my main scientist digger and rancher respectively #this was one of my actual spaced out style saves so ofc I chose the cold asteroid still #it was painful opening this save again to look at their traits as it was basically my first longer attempt #let’s just say I had no idea what I was doing and ran out of power literally everywhere #might do a rescue attempt on this save tbh sounds like a fun challenge #but yeah I actually have characterizations for most of the dupes in this save in my head they’re like semi ocs to me #they’re the ones I like to imagine fumbling about post olivia entering sleep mode #cause there’d be such a harsh contrast in how they’d all react and move forwards #burt in particular would take it rly hard mostly because he’s the only scientist #so everyone ends up looking to him for answers and help and he just doesn’t know how to provide any of it #he had already spent so long feeling overworked and under appreciated so this wouldn’t help at all #quinn on the other hand is generally more optimistic as they have gone through a lot of rough shit and made it out on the other side #so they see this as an obstacle they’ll all overcome and grow stronger from #they’re also just very used to being suddenly forced to say goodbye to people for potentially forever #harold was almost relieved by the whole event because it lead to a lot less activity in the neural chip network #which is in fact a big source of panic for most of the dupes but harold pretty much exclusively goes to like 3 rooms so he’s not as effected #he also just doesn’t like the noise of the hundreds of commands that he can’t even follow #he just manages the plants and the pips and sometimes helps with the cooking #he honestly really likes the freedom of figuring out what to do without instruction #as the pip farm he manages is very. well let’s just say pips tend to starve in there a lot #yknow thankfully I did give these guys a bunch of phones so at least they’d be able to still know what’s up with eachother still #still an uncomfortable feeling loosing that connection that you’ve been relying on for years

[robotic-maid]

How things are going again… update I guess? Still can’t figure out how to read more on mobile. I’m just typing this out so it can leave my head.

#nights are really hard for me #mornings are also really hard for me #I think my jobs burning me out #and I haven’t been able to sleep very well much at all #I’ve only been getting 3-5 hours if I’m lucky because my nightmares are really bad so I usually just stay awake #I mean I have to get up at 4am anyway so what’s the point #do you know how it feels to be in pain but you can’t cry because your body’s grown so used to it? #so it feels like crying because it’s Wednesday again #which I can’t justify because tommorrow is Thursday and that is your new normal #your new normal is working so hard you don’t have the time to see your dog and your cars ac is out and you spend all your money on the room #you sleep in 15 minutes away from the office you are stuck at more than 11hoirs a day #you ask your job to adjust your schedule and they say they can’t without cutting your hours and you need the money to survive #it’s too much #but feeling this way or not feeling this way won’t make a difference because the only other options will make your living situation harder #I’m so tired but I don’t have any better options right now so I have to keep waking up and working #I feel horrible spending time with me friends because I get tired after an hour and I worry that I’ve become #too flaky or something #I can’t stay up late and I’m already stressed out so I just can’t keep up with everyone and I don’t want to be a drain #I wish my heart would just stop some times #my meds stop me from hurting myself or crying or sleeping too long but these feelings always come to me when I wake up #I’m disappointed I woke up again #I don’t want to keep doing this I don’t know how long I can keep going #my body is breaking down like my car is breaking down #I don’t want to keep doing this I need more than a day off work a week I want to see my dog I don’t want to be poor but I don’t want to #wake up just to spend all day in an office getting yelled at while my coworkers come in and leave before me #I know I can do this I know I need to keep doing this I know there’s nothing better for me than this #I shouldn’t say these horrible things out loud because they’ll just wear me down faster #there’s nothing that will help me I need to help myself #this is en endurance test and I need to keep it up because if I fail I will lose so much more than I have #I wish I could cry I wish I could break down and scream but what would be the point? it won’t help it won’t fix anything m

[danielnelsen]

there’s so much i wanna do this week/month/etc but i’m just too sick, i have no energy, i can’t sleep, i’m constantly nauseous and headachey and on the verge of a migraine, i’m stressed and irritable and impatient and panicky…….how tf did i survive nearly 5 years of high school untreated if i can’t even manage this when i don’t have any major obligations rn

#at least i finally got my meds so hopefully i feel a little better soon #although i’m now on 20 pills per day which is Just Great #whenever i’m in remission it’s nice to just. forget sometimes that this can happen at any time #kinda wish i had the typical kinda chronic illness that people talk about with ‘flares’ #or at least triggers that i can plan around #the other times have all had an easily identifiable stressor tho tbf. idk what caused this one #the first time was whooping cough and the next few were all very major life stressors like my cat dying right after i started uni #and i think also towards the end of my honours thesis? #but this…….there’s no major stress right now. nothing wildly beyond normal #i’m a little concerned about my joints tho. they’ve been so much worse than normal the last few months #so i’m kinda worried i’m developing rheumatoid arthritis (also an autoimmune disease and it runs in the family specifically) #so if that’s happening then it could set my thyroid off? probably should get to the doctor at some point #obv i’m seeing my endo for thyroid stuff. but i should see my gp and get her to run all the autoimmune blood tests again #i’ve done that before but it’s been a few years and my ankles and knees are so painful i can’t even walk properly a lot of the time #BUT I JUST WANNA DO THINGS I ENJOY AND I CANT AND I WILL CONTINUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT IT #‘oh you’re so lucky you don’t have as many obligations because you’re chronically ill’ ha ha ha please swap lives with me immediately #personal #but seriously. i wasn’t diagnosed until i was nearly 17 and we can trace it back to whooping cough when i was 12 #so it was the last half of year 6 and then all of years 7-10 and the start of year 11 of just being. uh. ‘very lazy and complaining a lot’ #and TEACHERS joking about me and my sister (who was dealing with an arguably more severe undiagnosed disease) missing so many classes #wow so funny pdhpe teacher who’s supposed to be teaching is about health #and the thing with being a mentally ill teenager is that hyperthyroidism can just look like a very severe anxiety disorder #so i didn’t go to the dr until i was too sick to go to school at all. and luckily had a good dr who did a blood test #i’m just rambling now because i can’t sleep and i don’t wanna lie here doing nothing #might go play pvz or something. that’s been keeping me entertained