#I don't need more things to write but now I guess this is going on the list too because I love it

[cobaltperun]

Congrats on the 500 love!! You deserve so much more❤️

Can I request a drabble or something really short of Lost!Tara and Reader where Tara is about to pick up the kids from school while R is out of town doing CEO stuff and comes to surprise Tara and the kids at school but all the people are drooling over r cause she is still in her ceo attire but R only having eyes for Tara and her kids while ignoring literally everyone else. (It's alright if this is weird and you don't wanna write this.)

Lost (Side - 2) - School Visit

Tara Carpenter x female Reader (Request)

Summary: After a brief business trip all you want to do is surprise your family and pick them up from school. (Set between Lost 29 and 30)

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Word count: 0.6k

If there was one thing you absolutely loved about your job, it was that most of it could be done from home, which meant that you could maximize the time spent with Tara and your children. That being said there were still some occasional business trips you needed to leave them for. This one was supposed to be four-day long, but you managed to get everything done in three, so here you were, fresh from the airport and checking the time as you rushed to the garage.

You still had time to drive to the school and pick the kids and Tara up, as long as you didn't waste time. So, while still dressed up in your navy blue three-piece suit with a white button-up shirt underneath you jumped in your car and got going.

It's been years since Tara drove a car, seeing as you being home most of the time meant she didn't exactly need it, so that meant she wasn't exactly keen on driving for the first time in years with the twins in the car. And they were still just seven, so you picked them up from school, either driving or walking there.

When you parked on the school's parking lot you noticed people coming out of the school with their children, so you were just in time. You saw the three of them immediately. Tara, holding Zack and Susan's hands and laughing with them as she listened to them telling her about their day, and you paused. No matter how many times you got to see the scene in front of you, you were always mesmerized, thankful for the family you wished for all your life, though you didn't quite know it until Tara brought it up for the first time.

"Mom!" Zack was the first to notice you and he let go of Tara's hand and ran toward you, with Tara and Susan still surprised to see you walking to meet them in the middle of the schoolyard.

"Easy buddy, watch your step," you easily lifted the boy up and hugged him.

"Mom!" Susan got over her initial surprise and you dropped to your knee so she could run into your arms as well.

"Sue," you went and kissed both of your children as Tara walked over to you and kissed your cheek as you got up with the twins now in your arms.

Tara looked you over, her eyebrow rising a bit. "Baby, maybe you should be more considerate," she smirked cheekily and traced the collar of your suit.

"Hmm?" you tilted your head a bit.

"Let's just say it's good I'm no longer jealous," she whispered, though she still leaned closer, her hand going up and sliding around your neck, just a tiny bit possessively.

"Just a bit possessive?" you chuckled and finally looked around. Some people were staring at you, and you guessed the suit you were wearing did show off your muscles a bit more than your casual clothes did. You just didn't notice all the attention you were getting.

Tara did though. "Just appreciating what others can only look at," she smiled, winking at you.

"Mommy/Mom!" Susan and Zack complained, making you and Tara laugh.

"Okay, okay, sorry about that," you apologized.

"How about we take you on a picnic this Saturday as an apology?" Tara offered, it was a bit of a habit the four of you formed, at least once a month you all went out for a picnic and the twins loved it.

They looked at one another before grinning widely and nodding.

A/N: Come on, you know I had to write a Lost request before most of the other requests, and Anon, you have no idea how thankful I am you requested this! 😁😁💙💙 Also, thanks!

Taglist: @alexkolax

#tara carpenter x female reader #tara carpenter x reader #tara carpenter x you #tara carpenter #scream #jenna ortega x reader #x reader #x female reader

[66sharkteeth]

Weekly thoughts Ep 173-

Well i said last week that I'd definitely have more thoughts this week, but here I am again, kind of just empty headed as I start this. I was actually pretty excited for this episode, just because it's the first time we see Jericho undeniably as the villain, as well as his scion's first canon lines technically.

But I dunno, feedback lately is kind of killing my enthusiasm. I know the majority of readers are still enjoying the comic, but it's exhausting to see the negative comments increase, ranging from people just being disappointingly moronic about there being LGBT themes in the story, to people telling me the story is going down hill. To which... I'm sorry! But! How?! Like I'm trying to wrap my brain around it. I'm not immune to criticism, there are plenty of points in the story that I agree were not the best writing, but this is not one of them. I've seen comments ranging from "not enough is happening" to "things are only happening for the sake of conflict" and both of those points baffle me. How is everything that's transpired in the past 10 episodes alone nothing? Sorry, do I have to kill off ALL of the cast for it to be "something"? And as for conflict only happening for the sake of conflict???? I literally don't know how to respond to that. Conflict is how a story progresses. Should Rex and Jericho just have...hugged it out?? Should Jericho just have been like "Actually, you know what Claude, I think I do just need therapy. This world domination thing was a bad idea." Should Rex have, back when everyone was betraying him and joined the bad guys, been like "Actually, the systemic treatment of me is fair. I guess I'm just gonna go to jail now instead of going into hiding with these guys. See ya!"

I dunno. I've been SO sad and down the past two weeks, but typing this out I've progressed to angry haha. Mad at homophobes and media illiteracy taking away the pleasure I get from sharing this comic. In a venty way, to be clear. I definitely don't think I'll post this one anywhere else because I can see people saying I don't take criticism or something, but man. No. I can and I have. But the points made this week would make for a flat out bad and BORING story. And I'm so mad people just want my story to be so BORING because they just don't like facing negative emotions in a story. There will be a light at the end of the tunnel of this story eventually, but we're just in the tunnel currently. I'm not gonna hurry up the tour for everyone else just because you're afraid of the dark.

Raugh ok, I guess this wasn't actually much about the actual episode, was it? Ironic that the big villain monologue episode is where I finally kind of lose it and monologue myself. I guess for the sake of actually commenting on the ep...

Yes, I had lots of fun drawing this ep. I've been waiting a long time to have Jericho's scion finally "speak." There's also a lot of cracks showing in Claude that I'm glad people are taking note of. I've said it before, but Claude's development has been some of my favorite to write in the entire story, and we're still in his arc. Excited for things coming up for him.

#city of blank #weekly thoughts

[antiqua-lugar]

fun fact, during my first fully blind playthrought of bg3 I honestly thought gale was the writers' favourite if nothing else because of how much varied dialogue he had. like I never reallly had a conversation with astarion that wasn't about his trauma, his vampirism or how boring I am for not wanting to take over a cult but I knew all of gale's hobbies, two or three childhood's anecdotes and the whole history of tara, who he was making plans to introduce to me later.

#like i was honestly feeling sorry that astarion wasn't allowed even a single conversation about idk the fucking weather #i think because subconscously I was also comparing it to da2 which was careful to try to give characters more than just their trauma so #so I was like poor astarion he's just the trauma character #and then i found out HE was god's specialest princess #despite the fact that the official specialest princess still got conversatons about things that aren't her trauma DESPITE HAVING AMNESIA #bg3 #i don't even know where I am going about this it's just something that really stuck out to me about the writing #anyway thank god larian immediately set me straight and let me know my beloved wizard is actually the writers punching bag #god forbid I break my strike of not being wild over the more popular character in an rpg I guess #oh and they let me know i was supposed to be annoyed rather than going oh man I am glad I am learning so much about gale #like I understood why lae'zel had less content and expected her to have more in act 3 which she didn't but whatever #she should have #i mean now having played with everyone in the party for the whole game they all need more content but still #like astarion has more content than anyone else but also somehow I know less about him than anyone and like why

[sollucets]

guys i am trying Really hard not to have public opinions about of this morning... pray for me

#i work really hard not to do that. genuinely. every single time i reblog a meta or post my own opinion or write more serious tags #it is Vetted #i keep these things to my friends & my discord & such on purpose because. because. it's better for everyone #but im hanging on by a thread today i guess :') #for now.... just.... people need to remember that when youre debating fiction like this #the characters are fictional but the people listening aren't #and you can cause real fucking harm by talking about demographics the way people have been #rowan chatter #(if i see someone fucking say ray can't love again i'm going to kill. it's directly to murder i will be committing crimes) #(AND if i see another implication that he should've had to get sent to prison it'll be arson also) #fuck you all you dont get to have ray anymore. im taking him he's in my pocket now #do people even know how rehab & therapy fucking WORK #okay. okay. okay okk okokokkok mission failed a little #but we're far enough down in the tags now. reblogs are off. don't eat me

[novelconcepts]

more and more it's feeling like we just...don't have room for people trying anymore. it's all or nothing; get it right the first time, or be crucified by a jury you can never fully see or convince. and this isn't new, isn't born of current events. it's become more and more prevalent over the last ten years thanks to social media putting every little thought on blast, but i'd put money on the idea that it's actually been brewing much longer than that. and, for me, it goes beyond being tiring or upsetting. it feels bleak. it feels downright fucking broken that we're all so busy trying not to condone anything remotely problematic that we don't leave room for good faith learning. watching people trying to suss out their own identity--something literally ONLY they can fully understand or explain--be vilified for trying to fit words around their own experience sucks. watching people misunderstand something and try to apologize for it later, only to be told they should have known all along, sucks. seeing people who once held truly toxic beliefs actually grow and learn and apologize and still be told to fuck themselves as if they're a lost cause--it sucks. just. does that not fill you with despair for the state of things? does that not break something in you, to think that if you one day don't understand something, or misuse a word, or grapple with complicated feelings, it will forever stain you in the eyes of perfect strangers?

dude the world is fucked, and we all see it, but like. it doesn't feel like it helps to be so goddamn reactive. it doesn't feel like it helps anyone to demand perfection out the gate. it's exhausting. there are enough people out there who don't want to learn, who aren't trying, who actively revel in cruelty. looking for malice in every little fuck-up from people who seem to be genuinely striving to live their lives with kindness strikes me as lending strength to an army that already glories in suffering. and makes the world look more fucked than ever. and i really don't know that that energy is what we need when there's already so much to set right.

maybe it's just me. maybe this last decade just shattered something in me. but i really, really hate the idea--reject the idea, frankly--that people can't learn and change and grow. that people can't be better than a bad day or a failure of understanding. i reject the idea that people are something to be thrown out because they fucked up. it just seems...yeah. bleak. really fuckin' bleak.

#personal #i dunno dude #this is that fighting energy from earlier. found some actual words for it i guess #but i'm just so tired #shit's fucked. some shit's complicated. and some isn't--some feels incredibly straightforward to me. #and to the next person maybe there's more nuance. it's all so fucking...there's so much to process all the time #and i catch myself in knee-jerk mode #i catch myself writing people off. making lists in my head. sometimes it's just purely a matter of safety #but god the things i'd give for some of those people to come back into my world #to learn. to grow. to apologize. to decide they value kindness and life over brainwashed beliefs #i would give so much for those friends back. those family members. those people i knee-jerk wrote off back in 2015 #i shrunk my world down when i cut them out. i shrunk it down when i told them to fuck off instead of having a conversation #i actively made my safety net smaller in the effort to keep myself protected #and i just keep watching other people do similar things #and thinking like. if i could go back. if i wasn't so hot-headed and Certain that evil thoughts make a person evil #or that miseducation or ignorance or straight-up brainwashing broke a person for good #maybe it would all be different now than it was for my 25-year-old self #i just. i don't fucking know. #people are trying. people need to KEEP trying. #and telling them they're shit for NEEDING to try is only ever going to carve out the part of them that wants to be better #the world is fucked. why help fuck it even more. what is the point of that. #and i'm not saying don't call people on their shit. but maybe calling them shouldn't look like telling them to kill themselves #maybe it should involve a little grace #slamming doors just feels like it makes the house smaller. and shuts off exit routes you might need later #and i kinda wish i'd known that in my 20s

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

it's like. everything happens so much. it's all happening right now but at the same time nothing is happening whatsoever. it's a liminal space of an existence. it's slowly crushing me under the weight but when I look up there's nothing actually bearing down on me. there shouldn't be any weight. something is wrong but nothing has happened. I'm simultaneously overwhelmed and utterly bored. nothing is happening and maybe that's the everything that's happening. maybe the everything is the nothing. we aren't there yet but it's all so imminent. either everything is going to crash down or nothing is. I'm just waiting to figure out which.

#I refuse to be upset at anyone. I have so much love in my heart #but I'm going to pack formal clothes for my sister in my own bag just in case. she doesn't need to know that. #you couldn't pay me to care or to stop caring. it's cognitive dissonance #because I know this won't always affect me but it's my whole world right now #I say I don't care and I mean it but at the same time I care more than anything else #it's actually almost scary how much I relate to dark alley #not in a ''I'm in a mentally dark or dangerous place'' way but in a ''yeah I compare myself to others too much'' way #and then I try to make excuses so it can make sense to other people so they won't think the worst of me #like literally I'm trying not to think about fall but it's right around the corner and I'm. falling into it I guess #pun intended of course. I don't want to lose all my friends #I want to be one of the kids who gets invited to people's houses for lunch after church and I know I never will be #because that's the kind of thing that's only for the kids who are going someplace. not the ones who stay #I'm feeling very selfish and it's probably bc I'm tired lol this happens sometimes #I'm gonna make dinner for my family and then I'll feel better skskskskk #Lu rambles #sometimes I think I could write poetry #I feel like once my vacation is actually imminent I'll feel better I just haaate the point we're at right now #which is like. it's SOON but not THAT SOON so I feel like I can't do anything bc I'm just waiting for things to get going :/

[twilightarcade]

OC-tober day 6 - symbol

These two freaks.. caduceus ft some assorted article clippings! Transcripts of said article clippings under the cut :]

1- top left

"Caduceus as a symbol of medicine

The caduceus is the traditional symbol of Hermes and features two snakes winding around an often winged staff. It is often used as a symbol of medicine, especially in the United States, despite its ancient and consistent associations with trade, liars, thieves, eloquence, negotiation, alchemy, and wisdom."

2- top right

"The author of the study suggests that professional associations are more likely to have a historical understanding of the two symbols, whereas commercial organizations are more likely to be concerned with the visual impact a symbol will have on sales."

3- bottom right

"Wing clipping is the process of trimming a bird's primary wing feathers or remiges so that it is not fully flight-capable, until it moults, sheds the cut feathers and grows new ones."

4 & 5- behind everything, the long ones

the one on the left is a snippet from the Declaration of Helsinki, while the right is a snippet from the Hippocratic Oath, as written by Louis Lasagna. I don't believe said snippets have been chosen with any particular care but who knows really.

#notwordswordstag #OC-tober #bweirdOCtober #harry woudl be proud. That's not even his name but i don't care to remember it #mr heavy handed symbolism #caduceus ♡ hippocratic oath & that one declaration i forgot which i used ♡ clipped wings ♡ snakes (one more constricting 2) ♡ roulette tabl #ummmmm think that's it #[5 days after drawing me] so like i drew this in like. One night. One sitting etc #and as with most things that are drawn in like. One sitting. I don't like it very much anymore. #like after a day or 2 its always either the best thing i've drawn EVER frame it in a museum or hot shit. Today it's the latter #but what EVER!!!!!!! yolo and stuff.... #oug i guess i need to write this in the caption Huh. #whatever i'll do that later #Something came up [said thing has been on the calendar for weeks now] and I didn't get a chance to finish day 5.... #quite unfortunate really.....! I don't actually have any plans for the pallette week were just gonna sit down and hope 4 the best #[really agressive pointing] this is THAT GUUUUY #the one i really need 2 axe but my heart says no. Because i like her. #we will have a lapse in story logic just this once (once...) 4 da guy. #umm what else [post caption writing me] i was going to trace the articles but it got a bit tedious #i probably could've it would have looked nice #also the colors here are a bit awkward because i was dead set on having a limited pallette with like. 3 colors. #i was going to make [lady on the left]'s wings black just 4 contrast then i didn't. #think I shouldve but some evil voice in my brain said it was cringe..... #quite a shame really. #i am so SLEEPY!!!!!!!!!!!! All the time foreger #had a pretty good burger today [thumbs up emoji] #ok we r !! getting of subject #i thi nk i had like 40 different things 4 today. Same with day 5. But alas I can only do so much #ok i need to go draw an arizona iced tea. please await my return anxiously

[trans-cuchulainn]

i guess the reason so many books featuring trans characters have them able to go stealth and make it so other characters don't know they're trans unless they say something is because that's an escapist fantasy for many trans authors who don't get that and want to imagine what it's like to live in a world where you don't get misgendered on sight every single day, and because they don't want to write about the latter (very fair)

but also when these are YA books it depends on the characters being able to medically transition at like 14 and i have literally never in my life met a single person who was able to do that (partly because I live in the UK where you can't and also I am old enough that for people my age, coming out as a preteen would've been way harder and rarer than it would be for current teen-aged protagonists)

so idk. i would like to read a book with trans characters who feel like real people living in the real world occasionally. it's hard to walk a path when you never get to see other people do it first and never get to witness it safely in fiction before you experience it IRL, and only ever seeing people walk roads that don't even exist in your reality doesn't really help at all tbh

#i have mostly only read fantasy and historical adult books with trans protags #aside from Confessions of the Fox i guess. which is still 50% historical #but i never come across contemporary-set adult books with trans protagonists #compared to the growing contemporary trans YA scene #this may be that i am looking in the wrong places #but i can more easily find historical trans romance than a novel with a relatable 20 or 30something transmasc protag #oh i did read detransition baby i guess. but it didn't really speak to me for various reasons #(most of them to do with me being trans in a different direction but not all of them) #anyway idk. i read a lot of YA because a lot of my friends write YA and it is easy for me to find things #but even though i am glad there are trans YA books now I can't relate to them at all #i guess because I didn't know i was trans as a teenager #so the trans teenager experience is always inherently one i did not have #i am looking for something that will never be what i need it to be #i want coming of age and self discovery and all that because I don't feel like I've DONE it yet in gender terms #that's why i want the YA vibes but. i guess as a 27yo still trying to do that I'm not going to find it there. not meaningfully #so i need novels about adults coming of age and figuring shit out and being newborn baby trans adults i guess. where are those #and nobody is allowed to be cool in those books because i am unable to continue reading about cool people sorry #néide has opinions about books

[emdotcom]

I changed my mind. Hater behavior is undeserved, when it comes to works, & idgaf about holding creators accountable when their games are mid, anymore.

#em.txt #now i only care about how you treat your workers tbh #so there are still series i hate. but now I don't want to be mean to people who put time & effort into making shit #this is about post shift 2. people were too fuckin mean to Rjac for a game he made for free #& as a bitch who loves that game a lot i see your criticisms i understand. but you're not gonna be mean to him abt this #that fucking teen that held that interview & told him he needed to be held accountable for his mistakes. god #he made this shit for free across four years. what can happen in four years? what did he work through? #to deliver you a free game. even if you don't fucking like the game if you invite a creator on to talk about their works #you don't fucking talk to them the way uyeah did. shit was cruel & uncalled for. #this game is fucking good but it's forever going to be burried as a game that's complicated with weird tutorials #ps2 is fun. you should try it. if you don't get it -- ask. I'll answer any question at any time #i will vc you i will write a text doc -- whatever you want. more people need to experience this fucking game #it's compelling in a way few games are to me. #i can homestly only compare it to rain world but not for a reason that's overt & easy to explain. more in how it feels to play #rather than what you do. #man. idk. i gotta learn how to talk about shit i love without being mean now #this started because i was talking mad shit to my friends & it asked me to stop because i was downtalking something she loved a lot #& i realized this isn't fun for people. i thought we were having fun but tbh? I'm just a mean negative bitch #& that's not fun. that's mean. #i have to redo this character arc from when i was 13 because i guess I didn't learn it the first time around #cynicism doesn't make you funny or cool. it makes you mean & unfun to be around. finding kind things to say is tougher. #if you can present your criticism nicely then maybe you can criticize too #but that alone does not a good critique make & it definitely don't make you fun at parties #listen. i am still gonna be a bitch. but i am going to be less of one.

[whysamwhy123]

I'm writing AGAAAAAAIN

And it's TRRAAAAAAASH

But I don't CAAAAAAARE

Because it's FUUUUUUNN

#What is wrong with you Sam you should not be allowed to write #I guess sometimes you just have to resign yourself to writing extremely trashy rarepair AUs that will only appeal to like three people #It is The Way #Y'all motherfuckers don't care about Chricky?! WELL GUESS WHAT after I'm done with this...you will continue to not care about Chricky!! #But I'll be happy! 😀 #On a more serious note I am dubious about the quality of this writing #Methinks this second chapter is going to expose how out of my depth I am with this AU 😬 #But I've wanted to write a proper multi-chapter fic for a long time now since it's been forever #And against all odds it's *this* idea that I've thought about the most and have something resembling a story taking shape in my mind #And it's FUUUUUUUUN for me at least so maybe that's all that matters? #Still need to actually complete that outline though #And perhaps a separate doc just to catalogue all of the superfluous smut ideas I have in mind for this fic #When I say I've thought about this AU too much and have an embarrassing amount of ideas for it I mean it baybeeeeee #And at this point it's like...I almost don't care if it's bad? Like what'll happen if it sucks - am I gonna get sued LOL #So perhaps I should just Do The Thing and not worry about whether The Thing is Good or not #IDK these tags are out of control STFU Sam JEEEEEZ

[swordsonnet]

on the off chance anyone on here followed me for my jonmartin fake dating au, currently standing tragically unfinished at 7 out of 8 chapters: i'm still working on the last chapter! i would love to have it up this year, but unfortunately i can't make any promises, because i've started a new medication and the side effects are wreaking havoc on my mind and body. haha isn't chronic illness fun. but rest assured the fic is the beating heart under my floorboards, and i WILL finish it one day

#i feel pretty bad about it because my update schedule has been really inconsistent for the whole fic :/// #and now the final chapter is going to be even more epically delayed than the other ones #should've probably finished the whole thing properly before i started posting it but you live and learn i guess #my chronic illness really messed with my ability to write and i hate it #like the chapter is almost done. under normal circumstances it wouldn't take me long to finish it #but it's like my brain has forgotten how to make words happen. ugh. #i don't want to let people down by making them wait so long for an update #but i also don't want to let them down by giving them a mediocre chapter y'know #if all goes well the new meds might help with both the chronic fatigue *and* the depression which would be an absolute godsend #but ngl. the side effects are rough. and they can apparently last for up to six weeks #and i've only been taking the meds for about 2 1/2 weeks so i've still got a long road ahead of me #i also started my period yesterday which certainly doesn't help lmao #delete later maybe #just needed to vent for a lil bit. and as everyone knows there's no better place to discuss your private business than tumblr dot com

[luvisia]

sometimes i feel like i haven't gotten anywhere and then i think, "well, even though i'm sitting in the same room, i'm not crouched over a folding table with a computer that's falling apart to do college assignments anymore," and that's tangible progress i guess.

#i'm not always appreciative of where i am now but it's better than where i was. sometimes worse but i'm still learning. #taking a break from the internet taught me that all the online drama doesn't matter in my real life and should not affect my health. #taking a break from writing and volunteering taught me that i'm actually not easily replaceable and nobody is paying me for my time. #taking a break from school taught me not to put any faith in a job and to focus on my own goals. #getting into debt taught me that i don't want to think about money so i need to live within my means and take that as a blessing. #and going on one date taught me that i love my peace more than anything and it's no use forcing connections with people. #(although i think i can work on putting myself out there more and being honest about what i want.) #so i guess those are some things i've learned in my twenties! #my progress is slow but i grew up very differently from most and i can't measure it against other people. #i guess the point is i just need to worry about what i'm doing! #luvie.txt

[martyrbat]

writing for the first time (beyond ‘yes, and’ing sessions in dms) in over a year and the first time since i been sober is just a constant saga of alternating, intense feelings. realizing how much i missed writing to shame of my limited vocabulary and writing ability. the excitement to start again and grow to the remorse of how much i used to write confidently and somewhat decently. having a forced acceptance that i have to start over and relearn how to have this passion and interest without it crushing my heart and confidence at every second while actively having my heart crushed and pretending that its not so i can work through it. the amazement at the old giddy feelings tetuning to the fear that all my creativity and drive came from these hard substances i abused for years instead of something im capable of by myself. then rewording a sentence 5 times and smiling because i like how i phrased something finally and have the feeling of pride swelling up in my chest to once again the sudden guilt and shame over my own feelings and past that seems to overcome my entire senses.

#i don't talk about my addiction past a lot because man some of you do not know how to fucking treat poverty ppl or drug addicts and it shows #and i already get enough weirdos and assholes in my tags but also. man it was literally such a big part of my life (14/16 up to last year) #to where it effected who i am now and my ability to do things #i used to have SUCH a bigger vocabulary and more confidence and ability to talk to people #i was writing 5k+ words nearly every day #to now i always feel like my mutuals are lowkey looking down at me/always reminded that i didn't even get a middle school education #but oh well. no where to look but forward i guess. #<- someone that desperately needs to go to bed #delete later

[anothermonikan]

I do think it's a little silly when someone says they miss a piece of media... Like,the media is right there(probably) ! Go watch that show again or play that game again, it's (probably) not gone! But then also like. I get it. I suppose the first watch or experience of something is special and like, fandom hype around stuff if it was a popular piece of media is something you wouldn't experience within the show again, but also like,,,, you're mourning something that's not dead (usually) Create fan content! Watch that thing again! Engage with old fanworks! Cause someone will appreciate it, it will also make you happy!

#Having to put the stuff in brackets literally _just_ to account for Unnus Annus #Ugh #Sorry I didn't like that thing when it was still coming out and still don't like it now :thumbsup: #I was gonna make a funny meme post but I think it wouldn't be funny because I can't explain it using simple language #Impermenant media enjoyers be like #“Wow that trip to the beach was good. Shame I can never do that again because that's how the world works” #Or smth like that #It's not even funny I need to think of a funnier situation #My quelms with Unnus Annus are weird and complicated and no ones ever agreed with me about it so it's probabaly just a me thing #And not an actual legit critism of the thing sjsjsjsj #I write about more in a draft I have of a mini essay I was writing about DDLitG's ending that's like. A year old by now #I will finish it! Just permanently busy and when not permanently busy I'm permanently tired #It's like. It's mean! Which is a silly complaint but it ties into like. A trope I hate that I love how DDLitG does! #This kind of critism of attachment to a piece of media often insists on making the viewer feel dumb for liking a thing and I don't like it! #Unnus Annus kind of plays this kind of moral where it's like 'Oh #Unnus Annus plays this kind of trope like 'Oh-all of this is impermanent so don't get attached because you'll only have memories after uwu' #And like. I guess I get what they were going for. But that's just. People were getting sooo upset over being attached to the thing #Like they felt bad about it and just don't think that's a great thing to be perpetrating. I promise you can get attached to media guys. #I promise you you're allowed to like things:3 #Also I realised I've been spelling Unus Annus wrong this whole time I apologise #Also not a huge fan of people acting like their in this super secret club for watching an extremely popular piece of media thats deleted #But that's definitely a me thing sjdndnsjs #Okay jeez I started ranting about this on a completely unrelated post sorry #Look forward to the mini essay whenever I finish it lol #Android.txt

[altschmerzes]

posting chapter three of ted lasso mediafic like [this is a soft apology for the extremely upsetting nature of the first two chapters. also it is about to get worse again.]

#gav gab #characterizing a chapter where there's like. a Fuck Up that almost Upends The Whole Mild Stability We've Reached #as 'a soft apology' is uh #that'll tell you what's up with this fic i think #BUT IT'S OKAY. THERE'S SOME SOFT TENDER MOMENTS IN THIS CHAPTER. WE NEEDED THEM. #I NEEDED THEM. #writing liveblog #this chapter is like: roy is doing his best but SOMETIMES HIS BEST COULD USE SOME WORK #i honestly don't tend to do the normal like Bad Event Takes Place -> The Event Is Over And Compassion And Tenderness Fixes/Addresses Things #like. hurt/comfort genre formula i guess #which i do love!!! i love it don't get me wrong i will read it one million times and i know i've written it a few times as well #but i think i tend to go for more of a like #roller coaster the harm and the caretaking subsequent to the harm doesn't have a neat 1-2 effect #it comes in waves! we take the hits as they come and we do our best to keep each other whole and sane in the process #there are moments where things are More Painful and there are moments where things are More Gentle #but generally they are. a mix. and it will get worse before it gets better. WE'RE IN THE LULL BEFORE THE WORSE NOW. #fic: the same story

[noxtivagus]

mood swings frfr 🥹🫶🏼

#🌙.rambles #started feeling better after listening to ffxiv n then a lot more music #n i've been writing to myself for. quite a while now n i've written a lot #at least i feel better now. it's still heavy but #just need to hold unto myself n remember n do things in my own time #i'll accomplish it all anyways i might as well find peace within myself #me myself and i let's fucking go i have to do this #i'll figure out other things in time but for now #for now i'll try not to push myself too much. not sure actually but i'll just go along with the flow #but i'll try to hold unto myself at the very least #i'll be productive n i'll succeed but i'll also rest n be kind #yeah. i guess. yeahhhh #i'm fine i'll get this all done yeah i'll fix myself i'll fix my life i'll #yeah. need to improve n do this better #gna fix this fr :< #it's heavy but i'll always forge ahead and hold unto myself #even at the end of the world i'll always manage to get a grasp on myself like that #& what it means for me #yeah i oft still think i don't belong in this world but i might as well stay true to being who i really am #live a life that would be enough for me. adjust my mindset for myself. #i just want to be reasonably at peace with my own life as a whole. i don't want these regrets to burden me and bring me down #too much that i forget how to love how to smile how to live how to be myself #it hurts but i'll forge ahead regardless of the circumstances for me. no matter what #i'll be well enough for others too. i'll try. i've been too distant from both fiction and reality lately #generally life and myself as a whole n i. i'm human too i must at the very least deserve something better for myself #i'll try not to do anything i'll eventually regret like damaging some sort of aspect of myself while i'm like this #yeah?