#I drink a lot sometimes though

[canisonicscrewyou]

#if your regular sleep med of choice is Benadryl I’m afraid of you #Idek what my answer is though??? probably melatonin. it helps a lot when I need to fix my sleep schedule #sleep soundly <3333 #I also sometimes take ashwaganda if it’s not too expensive or is mixed w other stuff. and drink sleepy teas but not necessarily JUST tosleep #I was on olanzapine and that helped my sleep a lot (at the cost of eventually making me feel so so tired during the day) #anyways you must tell me

[onlyzhuyilong]

Ma Zhe & his meals ft Xiao Ge

#please stand by for the queue #my gifs #ma zhe #only the river flows #zhu yilong #朱一龙 #朱一龍 #주일룡 #usually with a cigarette because he’s stressed #he also eats a satsuma 🍊 which was nice ya know healthy get that vitamin c #things Ma Zhe does when stressed: drink a lot of tea smoke a lot and eat noodles with green onions very important xD #sometimes he’ll have a glass of beer or a cup of wine if the mood is right #can post a message if anyone wants to watch the film ​but it is without Eng subs booooo (I could sub it though but zero time ;_;)

[pollen]

hii it's been awhile since i've given any updates about what's going on with me but!!! i think we're moving back to oregon at some point. and i'm gonna make grad school happen. i'm so yhappy

#i'm going to oregon sometime this quarter but it's gonna break my heart because i have to leave again #idk the col is so much higher there than here. you can buy a whole three bedroom house for $200k here #a 3 bed in oregon is at least twice that #and rent is insane. $1100 for a beautiful 3 bed here. or twice that for something less nice in oregon #well. not HERE here jesus the suburbs are expensive. but in central pa where we're thinking of moving #which is like.... the best place to retire in the country? what's with that. low col probably LOL #and lately i've been feeling so..... lost? the ego death i went through in 2023 was incredible #and like. do i NEED to go to grad school to get a well-paying job in my field? no i have almost 7 yoe #but i'm missing feeling good at something. and the networking. and the portfolio work i can do. so it wouldn't be about employablility #though that helps. idk i'm gonna try to get my undergrad loans paid off as much as i can (only 30k left on the ones in my name 🫠) this year #while working on freelance projects and all that. it just feels good having a direction that doesn't feel completely hopeless #because it's been so bleak lately. like. got laid off from an agency i poured my soul into (not doing that again unless it's my own) #experienced something deeply personal and destabilizing i don't feel comfortable sharing #moved across the country while i didn't have a job and was processing that trauma to a place where i know no one #i got so lonely and so alone that i thought i would die. i didn't really have anyone to turn to while i did the work of reliving #started drinking a lot to cope bc i didn't have a medical card. was truly miserable. got a medical card. wasn't miserable anymore #and now i'm working and less anxious and feeling supported and stable in my relationship. and i feel myself coming back to myself. #it's been so hard but i'm so glad to be seeing the end of it. and to see good things and happy things in that

[roomy-ghosted]

if you think rand is a classic prettyboy and skinny like his reference no he's fucking not.

#im shooting you with my MIND lasers right now if you think he's classic prettyboy #this is not directed at ANYONE- this is just me being gay and loving stinky boys. #im just having thoughts about men rn is all #like. no. He has chonk. Like a lot. he barely goes out. his face is full of ACNE. he has DAD BOD from all the beer he drinks. #he is scruffy as fuck; his scalpe and hair is GREASY and he is full of dandruff. #his teeth are probably off-white because of all the drugs and also because he forgets to brush them #he is DRENCHED in bodyspray constantly. #he's also COVERED in body hair all over. #like- #Maybe in a good ending au he starts washing his hair sometimes again #he has closure from what happened to Rachel. not perfect closure but. there's some. it helps a litte #his hair is really frizzy though and puffs up like a scared cat after that shower #maybe it takes ages but he starts brushing his teeth again #jrwi #bitb #timothy rand #im gay as fuck for this man; im a homosexual. #but GOD am I tired of people thinking he's a prettyboy #REJECT. canon. Look at Rand. Listen to his actions. This man is stinky and out of order and I love him for this #he probably has large piles of takeout boxes towered in his room <33 #am I saying Rand is a bear? no. a little. he's not an otter. do bears need to have beards to be a bear? #idk but he's covered in hair and chubby and is a bear gay to me

[jellypawss]

to cope with withdrawal i start writing some poems again like I did as a child, I used it to process a lot of trauma and forgot I had this hobby tbh lol. I’m definitely not the best writer but sometimes it just feels so therapeutic to just write and process your emotions. 

#sometimes it doesn't feel that good though #when i want to express a thought but can't find the words #im also thinking about drinking today and trying so hard not to! yay #its killing me :) #i was so bad 2 days ago i started thr*wing up and the room was spinning #so i had to have 3 beers #my boyfriend is getting a lot better at supporting me #i think he's starting to understand the difference between being an enabler and someone who supports me #anyways ya! #i thought about posting my poetry but I don't want to be laughed at for being edgy #and my vocabulary has decreased significantly after I started drinking #tw alcohol #alcohol mention #tw drinking #tw emetophobia #tw vomit #tw throwing up

[keirametzbrassknuckles]

I've realized with this whole "OP should be in the club" post trend, general discursive interest in clubbing in general, and my recent experience at a very exclusive club, that my idea of what "clubbing" constitutes is actually wildly out of sync with what most people think.

#you say 'club' and i think of Concrete in paris and the specifically european EDM basement venues of my youth #that had like...hardcore drum and bass music and everyone in street clothes and so much drugs #and like yeah... i love that vibe and that scene and i miss it sometimes #but i actually can't stand what most people mean when they say 'club' which is skimpy clothing and top 40 music played obnoxiously loud #there are also a lot of drugs there tbf but its different #went to a very exclusive spot recently as part of work and hated every second of it even though i was VIP #and didn't have to pay for a single drink #the music sucked the crowd sucked and i spent the whole time wishing i was listening to hardbass in a graffitied basement somewhere

[cookinguptales]

Hi! Just wanted to drop by and tell you that your Karabita fics are AMAZING they've brought me so much joy and comfort 🥺 as I'm sure you can tell since I probably spammed your notes endlessly with likes and reblogs and silly tags these past few days. But gosh, it was just SO GOOD you're an amazing writer and after so many hours of joy I just really had to let you know (again haha). Thank you sooo much for sharing your work!! It was simply lovely 😔💜

I've really enjoyed reading your tags!! I haven't really thought about karabita much in the past few years, so it was nice to kind of have a walk down memory lane. I found myself reading back through some of my old work as you were reblogging it, and it was really nostalgic.

I didn't actually realize how much karabita I wrote! I've just been going off my AO3 stats for years. But I had a tendency to put stuff on tumblr back then and I didn't always crosspost to AO3, apparently. Then again, there's also a lot of karabita that I put on AO3 and never put on tumblr. So it was wild to realize that, in addition to the 50+ karabita fics I posted to AO3, I apparently also had this whole mess of ficlets that were tumblr-only. I didn't remember writing most of them at all until I saw you reblogging them. lmao

Anyway... thank you very much! I'm really very genuinely glad you liked them. I didn't realize anyone was still reading those. I haven't seen most of s2 or any of s3 (I bounced off of s2 pretty hard) so I wasn't sure if that was still a ship that anyone cared about. It's nice to know people still care after all these years.

I also laughed a lot when I saw from your tags that my Osomatsu-san/Muppets crossover was the first Muppets fic you ever read, but I was glad you enjoyed it! I was even more well-known for Muppets than Osomatsu-san for a while there, which is why I assume someone asked for that. It really made me laugh when I realized that I'd accidentally reeled someone into Muppets from karabita; the two are just such wildly different fandoms. (Though... in other ways very similar...)

I'm not in karabita fandom anymore, but I'll admit that it was a really fun part of my life. I really enjoyed all of the unhinged stuff I wrote, and I really loved how collaborative the fandom was. I didn't remember until I saw your notes how many ficlets I wrote based on requests back then, or how much fanart was made of those fics.

Natsukashii... 🥺

#replies #praise #though I'll admit I was a little alarmed to see how often I mentioned in those tumblr posts that I was tipsy-writing lmao #I was in a LOT of pain my senior year of college when I was writing karabita #I hadn't started taking doctor-recommended cannabis and ketamine yet so I was in SO much pain #my chronic illnesses were wildly unmanaged when I was in college and honestly it almost killed me #I rarely drink much these days so seeing all these posts about how I was writing drunk (and sometimes editing drunk too) had me like.. ah.. #I remember my ribs becoming dislocated and drinking like half a bottle of wine and writing fanfic to distract myself #like....... a lot. that happened a lot. #not healthy days honestly but normal painkillers didn't work... #so I guess I really do not miss that part #but the ship itself was a lot of fun

[shewhoeatssand]

guys what does it mean if days are bad unless we’re doing something Kaneki related

#or fish #I don’t get to engage in that a lot though #but everything is so stressful except Kaneki #talking is hard #being near people is hard #work is hard sometimes I guess?? only when it’s loud #this mf in my class keeps singing like princess ariel and I lose focus every time #eating is kinda annoying too like I eat a normal amount but tell me why it sucks #drinking water is chill tho #idk existing near another human being has consistently been a negative experience and it’s weird #why is the only nice one not real and half human #maybe this feeling doesn’t matter though since we have Eugh days and WAAAAAAAAAA days and today was the second one #but I don’t get why either have to be a thing???

[non-un-topo]

I don’t want to jinx it but I think I might have fixed this plot-hole

#apologies for my fic writing blogging omg you can blacklist this tag: #sage writes #or #fool's gold #and i'll try to be more consistent about tagging #this project feels like a big one and i'm getting excited over it so i've been spamming a lot about it ;_; #anyway YAAYYY!!!! #BUT i noticed i'm doing that thing again where i kind of write the same beginning formula... #like for example: queer quartet shows up in new place. they meet a woman who welcomes them and they all sit down and have dinner - #- with the rest of the locals. here the woman explains shit to them / they learn about the place and some Thing going on. #bonus points if they're drinking alcohol too. #i meean... every writer has a sort of story/formula they write over and over again right...? idk maybe only i'm noticing this - #- and it's not even a big deal. this one isn't really a mystery though. it has mysterious elements but regardless. #it's slightly more house of the dragon + oldschool ghibli inspired. like there's gonna be some family drama and grey morality. #if it does end up being really similar to all my other plotty fics i deeply apologize. and also plotty fics take a ton of effort!! #sometimes ideas subconsciously get repeated... but also i really like to incorporate the message / conflict of the movie into fics #so there's always a good chance some bozo is going to get greedy about immortality or power in my plotty fics #okie back to my doc before this caffeine wears off

[brainfullofbees]

.

#can i be so fucking honest right now #being like the only one in my friend group who doesn't do or even want to try drugs is so fucking isolating #i don't even want to be around it but i can't fucking escape it #they're constantly getting high before or while we hang out and i'm so tired #like we planned to hang out this past weekend and of course i get there and one of them is high and all they wanted to do was sit and #quietly watch always sunny #like. thanks. i barely get to see you guys and the one night in like 3 months i do we don't even get to talk really. cool #and then their parents and parents' friends were smoking in the living room all night as well #and nobody thought to fucking warn me about this even though they know about my shit fuck brain #and then like. the other times when i've made plans with someone and they've bailed because they wanna go drink and get high #thanks i'm glad i'm so fucking boring to you #i don't get to go to a lot of get togethers anymore because they're full of drunk and/or high people #and i'm just. tired. #sick of my shitty fucking brain that doesn't let me chill #sick of feeling like i'm bringing people down and stopping them from having fun #because i don't want to spoil their fun. i want them to be happy #i just. idk. sometimes i really feel like they don't want to invite me out specifically because of this #like i miss out on so much because i have big anxiety about drugs #it's tiring and i'm tired and sad and angry at myself and. idk #today's been. a day i guess

[kitwing-moving]

I like.this one a lot especially.

#🐾.txt #especially since. A lot of the time i just think about us hanging out and eating snacks and hes watching me do whatever. #and he's poured me a cup of tea that he knows ill never fully finish but i still take a drink and even if i cringe at the taste i still #thank him. sometimes he finishes it for me sometimes he doesnt #i always let him take the last of the snacks though. just cuz he deserves it :] #angel paws

[feralnumberfive]

Good morning to every organ in my body except my stomach. Get your shit together

#went to a pediatrician for 5+ years for stomach issues and was on a medicine for 3+ of those years that sucked the calcium from my bones #just to try to help stop the pain only for her (very kind dr. btw) to really have no idea what was going on and just said it hurt- #when I was stressed (which is very logical for me) but it's such a weird issue #I was tested for celiac disease (which my sister has) but that wasn't it and if I get a small stomach virus it kicks the pain back up- #for weeks before settling back down. I can't have energy drinks anymore because the high amount of caffeine- #makes it feel like I've been punched in the stomach & I'm also cutting down on or completely cutting out red meat in my daily diet because- #my stomach doesn't seem to process it well and my stomach is already highly sensitive to greasy foods #the weekly stomach pain returned months ago and I'm getting real tired of it sometimes the acid reflux medicine doesn't even help either #and I've had symptoms of a stomach ulcer on and off but a lot more recently in the past year or two but I never got scoped to check for one #so now I have to go to my current doctor and talk with her and hopefully I'll get scoped but who knows I don't think it's an ulcer though #my stomach hurt while writing this it knows I'm talking shit lol #personal

[hersweetrevenge]

Vincent and Bo call each other V and B for shorthand.

it stemmed from when they were kids and they'd label their clothes/book bags with their initial to keep track of which was which, and then just never really stopped doing it.

they leave notes (either as reminders or passive aggressive complaints) for each other around the house and always sign it with their initial, and they still label their clothes if it's something of questionable ownership, or something which they begrudgingly share.

if one of them is feeling particularly precious about the food supply, they'll start labelling "their share" of it in the fridge, so expect to see 2 out of 4 yogurts with a V written on them in magic marker, or a bag of chips with a B scribbled on it.

#bo sinclair #vincent sinclair #my beloveds #house of wax 2005 #ahhh this is not a new thought but I've been rather absent and just needed to throw anything out there #i do in my heart believe this though #food is a weird thing for them #and usually theyre okay but sometimes if theyve had a fight #one of them will get all precious about keeping it fair on who eats what #somethings in the fridge are fair game though #watch them both drink from the juice carton and not be grossed out by the possibility of backwash #clothes wise they only share clothes which are hard to come by #they get a lot from tourists and if theres only one of something then they share #like good boots and coats etc. #their notes are super specific and almost illegible to anyone else #itll be over bo whistling too sharply or vincent spending 5 minutes longer than usual in the shower #anyway what was this post about ?? #oh yeah V and B #because they only really write these initials then no one else ever calls them that #stems into their little idosyncratic language they have #sinclair twins

[sanstropfremir]

i'm watching street dance of china for the first time (randomly chose s3 to watch). actually being able to watch them dance should be given but having seen only swf/smf for my judgment of dance shows, i need mnet to fire their editors..... smf is so hard to watch with how many random cuts they throw in of audience reactions and camera angles.....

oh sdc will SPOIL you for watching dance shows. they film and edit the dancing so well, it makes mnet's editors look like toddlers hitting a keyboard. s3 is definitely the best place to start bc that's when they upped the production and brought in big name idols to be captains, so even though it's not the first season, it is kind of the starting point for what sdc is now. i still periodically go back and watch some of the routines from s3 bc they're so good (the original huang xiao+qiao zhi routine!!! chunlin's tonight!! the water stage!!!) and also the captain combo is so fucking funny; you get incredible dancing and then you also get whatever comes out of jackson 'i dont understand chinese' wang's mouth. also the battles. the battles. there's a fucking insane seven to smoke that happens in one of the later episodes that goes on for over half an hour and it is one of the most intense television viewing experiences i've ever had.

#the battles on sdc are way more fun than they are on swf or smf bc theyre not maliciously competitive #and theyre edited really well with not a lot of reaction cuts so you can actually SEE what's happening #this is my pitch for everyone to watch sdc it's such a good show #jackson actually says 'i dont understand (the hanzi)' but the translation i watched just translated it as 'chinese' #which made me SCREAM with laughter #text #answers #i'm actually not even sure if there are eng subs anywhere of the first two seasons? #there might be now but there were not two years ago when i went looking for them #s4 is also crazy good. there's a ton of returning people and they do a talent show in the middle for some reason. it's cute as hell #OH you should also watch the hotpot episodes!! the captains do like a debrief mini episode over hotpot. i think it's called lets chat? #they basically just goof around and talk about whatever. yixing drinks from a mug the size of his head #theyre fun and they sometimes give you extra insight into the full episodes #i'm not sure if they're all eng subbed though. they might be easier to find for s3 now that its been a while #sdc #sdc3 #now you understand why i complained so much about mnet's editing skldjflsdkjf

[mercisnm]

a type of viennese coffee, like how i like my men

pws ive tried in no particular order: black, dark, chocolatey, chocolate, chocolaty, stirred, shaken, creamy, creamed, mocha, mokka, warm, hot, wiener, wiener melange, whipped

could you add a clue? (not the actual pw, i like the riddle)

Anon... that wasn't even a riddle but a "I don't want to embarrass myself but I cannot NOT post this so I'll add weird safety measure here" *le sigh*

Also, you are aware that it says "♂️ tissaia" on the tin right?

Still, if you like the riddle, then imagine you are in Vienna and want to drink a latte macchiato, this is what you can settle for.

And if you are as impatient as I am (and tbh it's not that popular a drink, I have no idea if one can find it without knowing German) then click on.

There are two ways to order this drink, the password is "Verkehrter" but you can also ask for a "Kaffee verkehrt". "Verkehrt" (adv.) means "upside down", "verkehren" (v.) can mean something along the line of "to reverse", also the drink itself is weak. I like pathetic malewife men (with layers, just like the drink, badum tss), so at that moment I found the jest somehow funny. Feel free to beat me with a stick.

#you know what langer Rede kurzer Sinn: sometimes i drink coffee the other way round and sometimes i like tissaia the other way round #i don't know how i can like a wiener melange man but i can see my blorbos whipped and shaken and i think i'll like that a lot too #every time somebody ask what's the password on this particular one i die a bit inside though ngl #a wiener is not a coffee it's a- #a- #a sausage #...okay now i see how that can be an answer as well but good lord #asks

[diamcndsky]

ryan bae is the honorary captain of the college baseball team and he makes all his teammates his instagram bf so they're all actually the ones responsible for the thirst traps

#this is inspired lowkey by the scene i witnessed at drinks on friday #where my client made her coworker take all her insta pics and she took a million of them #that's ryan and the team #c: ryan bae #ryan bae is forming in my head i'm giving him a deepseated sense of responsibility that he internalises #and even though he is really cocky and sure of himself and jovial he does use it as a shield sometimes #bc he doesn't want his team slash family to worry #(wow where did you get that from rebecca i wonder) #but his dad was a deadbeat so it's him and his mum and maybe a younger sibling or few #and so he kinda shoulders a lot so they don't worry #he's gonna buy his mum a house and car when he hits it big :( #baseball more like BAEBALL am i right #- ryan bae at any given moment talking about the game