#I had an anxiety attack at work

[jihyo-x]

#i had an anxiety attack at work

[uncanny-tranny]

Every time you think, "Oh, I don't have [x condition], I'm basically cured!" that is the devil talking. You aren't cured, you are likely going through periods of your symptoms waning. Don't cease whatever you're doing to help yourself, like medication, for instance, because it's likely you still have the conditions or symptoms, even if you aren't noticing them as frequently or severely.

#disability #this is a callout post about myself #i genuinely thought my GAD was cured because my symtoms had lessened significantly since i've transitioned #turns out my anxiety is just as killer and awful - it's just muted slightly #i am currently laying down with my brain convinced that i'm About To Have a Heart Attack #(and not in the fun demi lovato kind of way) #(that song is a little over a decade old... what the bingle) #anyway please don't do what i do whenever i experience ANY level of symptoms getting better because it will shock you... #...when those symptoms come back and remind you that you Do Indeed have [x condition] #i now know how a wolf girl feels when they say they are Actually Feral because that's how i feel rn 💀 #even I'M not immune to the idea that the things i suffer from are things that can Disappear Magically 😭 #it's wishful thinking and almost like... imposter syndrome because you're *so* desperate to prove to yourself you're Fine or A Faker #and you become hyperfixated on picking every tiny little waxing and waning of symptoms like you're a fortune teller #and honestly it's really stiffling and it's a lot of work to kill the cop in your head that says you are secretly Not All That Affected... #...that you're either exaggerating to the Extreme or you're just a bored faker who's trying to Get Attention (bad somehow)

[mediumgayitalian]

managed to finish the mean fic i mentioned last night sorry will

#couldn’t make it work last night so had to leave it and come back #i was also having somewhat of an anxiety attack but i’m sure that’s unrelated #i’ve written during worse

[curioscurio]

sometimes dinner NEEDS to be a carton of plain mushrooms, butter, and shallots ....

#impromptu anxiety attack at work sent me home early and it snowballed from there 😭 #so my last 4 hours of the day have been miserable #except of course when my gf called me and made me laugh and feel so much better #but my ass was so overstimulated at work and on the drive home that i had to take a gymmy eat a comfort food and vegetate

[polithicc]

…

#my grandma’s birthday is tomorrow and my mom’s is on Wednesday so we were all going to my brother’s house for lunch today #but my grandma woke up not feeling well so my mom had the paramedics check her out and they took her to the hospital #my mom went with her #I think she’ll be fine #they just wanted to be sure #but it’s so damn stressful and now im in bed having a mild anxiety attack #I need to keep myself busy now bc otherwise I’ll spiral #im going to put away some clothes and organize my work backpack #and then I should make lunch since I’m not going to my brother’s anymore #pers

[withacapitalp]

Here have a snippet of the next chapter for HTRAJ y'all :D I'm mid write and I'm vibin' with what I have so far

“He’s long gone, Eds. Can we go back inside now? It’s fucking freezing out here,” Gareth asked, rubbing at his bare arms and shivering as the frigid winter wind raced past them. Eddie could barely feel his own body, but he ignored both the cold and Gareth’s words, walking towards his van. 

Steve was there. He had to be. He had to be, or else Eddie was going to lose his mind worrying over what was probably nothing, and he might say something incredibly stupid when they actually found Steve, and that would ruin everything they had worked so hard to build.

Luckily for Eddie’s increasingly fragile heart and mind, he spotted a familiar pair of beat up old converse poking out, attached to dark wash jeans that he instantly recognized. Eddie practically melted in relief, jogging around to the other side, needing to see Steve’s face. 

He opened his mouth to spout off some stupid quip about dining and dashing, but he stopped short the second he saw Steve’s state. All of the relief instantly vanished, replaced by a bone deep dread that overtook Eddie’s entire being. 

Steve was sitting on the ground, his knees pulled close to his chest and his eyes staring firmly at the pavement. He was as still as a statue and just as silent, barely even blinking as he took shallow uneven breaths. Eddie could see him shaking from where he stood, trembling like a leaf in the wind as he continued to just stare at nothing. 

Something was wrong. 

#tw anxiety #tw panic attack #htraj #Steve joins hellfire au #just feeling like sharing a lil bit #lmao I told myself I wouldn't and I'll probably end up deleting these tags so like #feel free not to read these I'm being a little petty #if I had a nickle #For every time someone clearly took 'inspiration' from an idea of mine and basically blatantly just did their own version #And then pretended like they had never even seen my thing or barely even knew about it #I would have two nickles #and that's not a lot #but its WILD that it happened twice #the worst part is if they had just been honest and been like hey you inspired me w x y z so I decided I wanted to write my own! #I would LOVE it #I would reblog it chat with htem be friends #Instead I feel like someone took something I worked on and cared about and tried to steal it and pretend they didn't #y'all I adore hearing when people wrote something bc I wrote a fic that inspired them it's such a compliment #This just feels #uncomfortable #ANYWAYS that's Liam's lil rant in the tags today #Again if you have a problem pls just ignore this it's literally just me needing to verbalize how not okay about this I am

[feral-and-or-horny]

I need a good night's sleep, a damn good massage, some really strong weed gummies, and then I need to get railed into next week

#its been a bad morning #i had an anxiety attack literally 15 minutes after i got up #i also have to pack for school since im moving back on Saturday #but i need some self care first #but also i work the closing shift today and tomorrow #so we'll get through that shit and on friday night I'm getting high as fuck with my friend and turning off my brain for a few hours #my post

[twicethetrouble]

Family web official update!

#tmnt #rottmnt #family web #my fic link #brought to you by the absolute shitty day i had at work yesterday #and the psychopath that yelled at me over the phone for no damn reason and caused a mild anxiety attack #needless to say i needed some positive stuff today before going back there #and this chapter was ready sooo #(i was going to post it monday so there was a bit of a backlog) #(but not anymore!)

[shima-draws]

Told my boss that NO I cannot take over customer phone calls because my anxiety will literally not be able to take it. And I’m being SO brave about it,

#I say this as I’m sitting here shaking and on the verge of having an anxiety attack. AHA #Shima speaks #She called me yesterday morning and was like. Hey your coworker is drowning and I KNOW you hate phone calls #But she really needs help #And I was like. Yeah okay. Maybe I can do this. #Fast forward to last night. I’m in bed hyperventilating bc no I CANNOT do this #My mental health has already been Bad for the past few months bc I’m already working overtime for this job #And now to take on the One thing I generally get anxious about? Bro. It’s gonna kill me. 100% no exaggeration #So I called my boss this morning and was like hi I’m so sorry I said I would but I actually can’t. I deadass had an anxiety attack #just THINKING about it last night #And she was like omg no I get it. I have anxiety too I know what it’s like. It’s debilitating sometimes #So she said I didn’t have to do the phone calls and now I’m like YIPPEE #And she said hey that was a really brave thing to do. Speaking up like that and making it clear when you’re not comfortable with something #Me still shaking and holding back tears: Thank you I’m being SO brave about this rn #Anyway I’m still coming down from the near panic attack I had before I called her to tell her lmao #It’s been a rough 24 hours. I’m fine (lying) #I’ll BE fine now that I don’t have to talk to angry customers on the phone tho 🥰

[cheatsykoopa98]

"Why am I not being able to do anything these days?"

*remembers my meds ended like last week*

"Ooh"

#I am stupid #worst part is I had to clock out at work and after that my boss (who is in vacation in europe btw) scolded me for it #vent #context: I had an anxiety attack at work and had to leave early

[detentiontrack]

Feeling so anxious about work for tomorrow for literally no reason

#what if they fire me #what if I screw something up #what if I have a panic attack while working #I had to call in due to anxiety last week #I hope I can go tomorrow

[lesbian-hannibal]

I FUCKED UP

#got Very stressed about a Situation at work and had a panic attack #and my anxiety was thru the roof and i couldn’t calm down #so… an unhealthy coping mechanism came out ……. #and i have a doctors appointment #on monday… and they have to see my arms…. bc that’s where my eczema is ……. and also the unhealthy coping mechanism……….. #well …….. #i’m so fucked bro #personal

[revenantghost]

What if, instead of being a responsible adult, I rewatched Tristamp again. What then.

#Yadda yadda #I legit think I might start it #I have no method of transportation and I can't look for work or craft or write or anything wit all my physical crap flaring up #And I may have had an anxiety attack this morning lmao #NOT TO MENTION I need to rest my back so maybe it heals #And I can't focus enough to read much #That's it I've talked myself into it

[knaveofmogadore]

Imagine you're a robot girl (stay with me) and you're made by a corporation right like you're made by a company for other people but like. You're made by a company. At any moment that company could decide that your line isn't profitable enough and they could cut software updates and support as soon as tomorrow. In the blink of an eye the very things keeping you alive stop coming and you've become terminally ill overnight, your only chance of salvation being the thin hope that in the future a niche group of data hoarders or software engineers become obsessed with getting you to work again. You're an object with sentience and a brain and wants and needs and at any moment the Google news feed of the crusty computer nerd you live with could spit an alert across your eyes telling you that you have months to live.

What even happens when the time runs out? Does life continue as normal, but you're sick more and more often? Do the viruses take more and more processing power to fight off as your security protocols fall out of date? Does the world become muted and distant as your compatibility fails? Do you one day just lose your Internet connection forever, a loss so profound that you can't explain it to your human companions? It's worse than a limb, but not quite like losing your mind.

Do you lose function bit by bit, or are you able to scrape by on second hand parts? Bit by bit replacing the pieces of you that fail, all the while living a muted, disorienting existence without the ability to right yourself? Are you more or less of a person now that you've lost touch with the network? Lost your connection to the metaphysical, to you, the divine? Are you eventually bricked after falling behind one too many software patches? Do you fry after trying to take on an update you're not able to even contain, a piece of software so complex and unfathomable that it burns you to a crisp from the inside out

#messages from knave #i had an LG phone when they turned off update support i was Devastated #I never got a hold of a software key so there's no way for me to go back now and get that old phone to work #my old roommate had an iphone six. when that iphone six broke they cashed it in for another iphone six. now all iphone sixes are #essentially bricked forever because they cant support newer apple software #anyway android 14 update coming this week #had a panic attack that i might have to take my tonsils out in the future and i cant just not talk for two weeks #my job is answering the phone. that'd be like turning off my most basic function I'd be so screwed #well. ALMOST had a panic attack. my meds kicked in before it really got going. theyre not meant for anxiety but they sure do something #ok to rb #if we're still doing that

[silenthillbunni]

im in so much pain lol :') </3

#literally.... why am i getting full scale gallstone attacks again T-T #i havent had an attack since september but now they started again #and the meds they prescribed arent working!!!! T-T they dont help #and they told me that in this case all i can do is go to the ER (where i'll get morphine shots skskks) #but then i'll just go home and eat a potato and then be in pain again #i just want them to remove my gallbladder why is it taking so long #but yeah anyway i am in sm pain it ebbed out a bit earlier but then i had oatmeal and now it's bad again #so im scared of eating. and it hurts sooo bad i cant focus on anything or sit still even #so i rlly think that even if going to the ER is just not fun at all and it gives me anxiety that i'll just have to sit there #in pain and be uncomfortable and wait for several hours... #and the cost sksks. $32 but im poor so thats a lot to mr #anywayyyyyy yes i cant stand this so if it isn't better tmrw i'll go to the ER even if thats so scary #i cant handle this pain anymore it's just so awful #i luv ma lajfffffff uwuwuwuuwuwuw 🫶🏻💕💕💕💕💕

[mustangs-flames]

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#hey guys just an update #i am really not doing well #had some massive anxiety and panic attacks and haven't slept properly in over 3 days #my brain has latched onto the idea that i am hurting people - loved ones and strangers alike - and i can't move past it #I've started medication but i don't know what to do. i feel miserable and sad and can't even get out of bed #i haven't stopped shaking for days now #i don't know what's going to happen with htb au currently #my anxiety has decided that that is what is hurting people for some reason and i am scared of even going near it right now #i just. i don't know what to do. please if my work has ever hurt you i am so sorry. i really am. #sorry