#I wore my mask all the time

[snzluv3r]

so i have the flu and strep at the same time and my cough turned into bronchitis again so i am feeling very unwell but at least it happened before school started? i have absolutely no voice OH AND i’m on my period yeah it’s a tough day

#like omg #i feel horrible but i have all the medicine now so i will survive #i wore my mask the whole time i was in the er last time except when i literally had no choice but to take it off this sucks so bad #y’all with immune systems have no idea how lucky you are

[orcelito]

Built one of my shelves

Yaaay shelves and organization! I'm gonna be trying to unpack those boxes that r still out. At some point.

My self cleaning litter box stopped working last night & I spent the past hour trouble shooting... I think I need to deep clean it, at this rate. Which i think I've reached the limit of what I can get done today, energy-wise 😅

I did clean up the area I wanna move it to, though! Progress is being made, even if it's not all at once.

#speculation nation #this has been Hell on my nose though. all of this cleaning. so much sweeping. so much dust. #my nose has been running for Hours at this point hfkshfjd #i wore a mask while dealing with the litter box and it STILL has been giving me hell. #but like hopefully getting all this dust out will help #For Now. i think. i need to go be sedentary in bed. for at Least a few hours lmaoo #and also blow my nose like a million times. eurghhgjhgh

[dazais-guardian-angel]

went to my first con in 4 years on Friday to meet Kaiji Tang and got a Dazai autograph + video recording of him reading to me. He was the sweetest person (as I knew he would be) and interacting with him was lovely, but also at the same time oh boy it sure was an extremely stressful, ugly wake-up call of what it feels like to live in a world now where everyone around you has blissfully moved on from covid and can enjoy things normally and happily, while you'll forever be trapped in a hellscape of perpetual fear 🫠🫠🫠

#like. to be clear this was the first time i've been literally anywhere but doctor's appointments in 4 years #not just because of the pandemic but because of mental and physical exhaustion #so it was a Big Mistake to go from 0 to 100 and not ease myself into it at all #but at the same time........ it was a fucking hellscape of people. i don't think any kind of buildup could have prepared me for it at all. #it was so much less crowded in 2020 (ironically the very last place i ever went; literally on the BRINK of covid) #and now idk what it's become. a monster con. it was unbelievable. #but i was only there for less than an hour but i was so so so terrified that i very nearly left before even seeing him #i couldn't even fully enjoy meeting him as kind as he was because i was so anxious and distracted #and when i got back to the car i just fucking cried......... #the last five days i've just been sitting in fear waiting to feel Any sort of symptoms #i wore two masks and again was barely there for long but Still #and everyone around me was so chill as if everything was normal and No One was wearing a mask :))))) it's not fucking fair man :))))) #insert the 'they don't know' meme; they don't know how much covid can destroy your body even if you get a 'mild' case #i would never want to be that ignorant even if i wasn't disabled and didn't have reason to worry (but everyone has reason to worry!!!) #but also. ignorance is bliss and it just really fucking sucks man. #it really fucking sucks. why do they get to be happy and enjoying life and not /me?/ #why can't i do just ONE thing for myself without having it tainted by anxiety and fear that i'm going to die horribly??? #while they get to do fucking EVERYTHING??? #if they all just wore masks we could all enjoy ourselves much more comfortably than some of us are now #but no that's too much to ask from people 🙃🙃🙃 #shit sucks man. the world sucks. something that should be a happy memory for me was simultaneously the most awful experience #and i don't know how to feel about it now that it's over #he knew that i was afraid and at the end he told me that he hoped to see me again at another event someday #and that made me cry because it felt like dazai telling me to live. and i want to. but i don't know how to when the world is like this now. #i desperately want to be able to see him again someday but right now after how terrifying that was i never want to go to a con ever again.. #i wanted to ask him things about the manga and about dazai but i was being rushed and stressed so i couldn't ugh #(and doing that is hard enough anyway cause disability and i have to talk with my phone bahhhh) #at least i was able to give him my note *sigh*

[is-the-owl-video-cute]

The fact that I have to be nice to the woman who asked "why did you do that?" when I mentioned I got my covid shot and then said "oh, sorry, that's political u_u" is so soul draining. The fact that I am not allowed to snap at her. Ma'am we are in the line to the deli. -🦀

Any time I wear a mask I get “they still make you wear that ??” no, I made that decision all by myself but thank you.

#When I had first come back to work from COVID I wore a mask for a week #even though I was no longer symptomatic #just in case #and I bring the mask back any time cases start to rise in my region again #I would just wear it constantly but hauling >50lb products all day in the summer #does not mix well with wearing a mask unfortunately #It makes me overheated and get a sweat rash on my face if I don’t change the mask several times a day #but I’ll still do it if my region has another big spike #I would rather not spread disease to people if I can help it #not that they extend the same courtesy of course

[kittyeekcube]

i saw the boy and the heron on opening day!! it was such a beautiful and profound film, i highly recommend seeing it in theaters!! 🥰🩵✨

#my outfit was inspired by the colors of the movie poster for the boy and the heron! #i tried to match the blue of the heron’s feathers and the studio ghibli logo as well!! 💙 #i also wore a white mask to tie it all together to be like the heron hehe 😷 #ignore my dirty mirror haha #i hope everyone enjoys the film as much as i did!! 🥰 #i loved it so much i think i’m going to see it a second time and check out the dub! #the boy and the heron #studio ghibli #me #queer #lesbian

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

sometimes when I think about how my roommates treated me when I had COVID I get so angry I lose speech

#first context: we are all honors students. none of us want to miss any classes. all of us are busy and don’t have much free time. #second context: I was masking scrupulously. they never wore masks anywhere. I took every precaution possible not to get sick #but in September I did get sick. really sick. symptoms started on the weekend and by Monday I was feverish and loopy with exhaustion #I took rapid tests three times. the third time was at the doctor on Tuesday. I was so out of it my friend had to drive me to my appointment #only the third one was positive. but I was responsible and immediately told everyone I’d been in contact with. #my roommates response was ‘stay in your room. don’t leave. don’t get us sick.’ #I took them literally. I was sick. I only left my room to use the bathroom. #I ate four times in four days. on the fourth day I asked my roommates for the first time to make me food #suddenly I could leave my room because they were too busy with homework to bother putting something in the oven #they wouldn’t buy me groceries. I had to ask the friend who’d taken me to the doctor to buy them. #they never asked if I was okay or if I needed anything. it was as if I became invisible the second my door was shut.

[zoonotic]

worked with my pharmacist from 9-6 today and then she texts everyone to say she has covid! love to see it. my family won’t let me come home for the weekend.

#praying i don’t get sick bc i have an exam on monday #she wore a mask all day bc she knew she’d had an exposure but hadn’t tested positive yet #but it wasn’t an n95 or anything. just a regular blue mask. and then we all had pizza together on break. #but if i get sick there’s a near 100% chance that my roommates are also gonna get sick #but who knows. when i had covid the first time i told my roommate and she made no effort to distance herself and she didn’t get sick #and we lived in a single bedroom style dorm #.txt

[abba-enthusiast]

How do I tell my roommate that I’m going to murder her boyfriend if he touches anything in my our kitchen again, without sounding like an asshole?

#I CANT FIND SHIT. WHERE ARE THE SCISSORS. WHERE IS THE CUTTING BOARD. WHY IS THERE A LOSE TUPPERWARE CONTAINER NEXT TO THE TOASTER #WHY WOULDNT YOU PUT IT TO THE OTHER TUPPERWARE CONTAINERS????????? #also he cleaned the stove with the anti mold spray that tells you to wear like a mask and goggles when using it. he wore neither and also #got it all over his fingers. and then he was like ‚phew this smells really strong‘ #DO THEY TEACH THESE MOTHERFUCKERS ANYTHING AT HOME??? #WHO USES ANTI MOLD SORAY FOR A FUCKING STOVE? HOW DUMB CAN YOU BE #‚oh i just grabbed the first bottle‘ #next time he wants a drink i‘ll also ‚just grab the first bottle‘ and if that happens to be mold spray then so be it #sorry i got a little agitated. but i have a system in my kitchen and i don’t like it when my shit isn’t where it’s supposed to be #and this mf managed to UPSET me. RESPECT THE SYSTEM BITCH

[drinkthemlock]

chewed my nails again. like a bitch.

#this is serious now if anyone here used to bite their nails and managed to stop completely please please give some tips #(that aren’t like chewing gum or smoking. because I’ve been told both) #I can’t wear gloves because it’s way too hot where I live :( #my record for time without biting was 3 months during the pandemic because I wore a mask all the time #I am very close to just bandaging my fingers forever

[asexualjedi]

Hiding some to lay about some without my mask on. Before I must return to my family and wear a mask. Also fuck you WHO for that fucking dogshit “it’s not an emergency anymore it’s a crisis and you shouldn’t change any of your behavior” announcement bc now everyone’s like COVID’s over they said it’s not an emergency why are you wearing a mask.

#like they’ve left me be for the most part after I explained thst like that announcement doesn’t mean all it says it does but now my parents #aren’t wearing masks anymore when they go out #they used to #they wore surgical ones only but that was still soemthing now they think I’m just overly cautious and idk how to convince them my mom had #Alzheimer’s I don’t want her to get Covid again. like that would be so bad for her!! #also my dad is the care giver for my mother and my grandmother both who have a form of dementia he. like luckily he had Covid and mostly #fine but I’m so scared #and bc stupid Joe Biden Covid is over they. think it’s over which makes since the government told them it is but pls pls!! I don’t want them #to get sick they are already have so many health issues #all I can do is do my part and bring masks tell them what I can and wear my mask and #my dad tries to not go out much #but they still go out sometimes bc staying inside all the time was making things worse for my mom but at least at least they try to be #outdoors I jsut ahhh

[nerves-nebula]

I’ve desperately wanted a decorative mask I can wear when I leave the house. So I can have a literal face to put on when I’m in public. Not a covid mask, but like a full face one. Maybe one that looks like a goat or has horns or something. I have trouble finding one that isn’t too clunky to wear every time i leave the house. This is made even worse by the fact that I have glasses and need to wear them to TRAVERSE the world. 

So I need a lightweight mask that I can wear over my glasses, that I think looks cool

the ordeal of people seeing my face is too much but there’s not much I can do about it.

#nnstuff #rambling #masks #sorry this is just something im very mentally ill about #it makes me itchy when i think about how much better i would feel if i wore a mask all the time #personal #my mask

[dearmrsawyer]

I have lived through the most wonderful exquisitely joyful weekend and got to see Louis twice at long last!!! I didn't want to express my excitement in the lead up because i was so petrified that i would catch covid like a week before and be unable to go, but god really had his hand on me and delivered me from 2 VERY close calls in the 2 weeks leading up to the shows lol. 2 weekends prior my brother's girlfriend caught covid the day he was with her, but the infection was obviously so fresh that she didn't transfer it to him. and then the following Wednesday our boss at work sent an email saying she was happy for us to join meetings virtually since cases were on the rise, and it was just in time because on Thursday we had a staff meeting, and on Saturday someone who was in the meeting room tested positive LIKE. god was really like if this girl does not get to go to these concerts she is going to unravel like a ball of frayed yarn lol

but ANYWAY it was the most amazing, amazing weekend, both nights were so fulfilling and just.. i felt pure happiness. louis was so BRIGHT and i got to share a room with him and lots of other very excited people, i just had the best best time. highlights from memory:

i've said before that i think it was so galaxy brain of him to open the show with 'we made it', especially in the context of all the rescheduling, and i was so excited to finally get to scream it out when he came on stage and the moment lived up to it!! i couldn't even hear louis for the first few lines of the song because the crowd was singing SO loud lol, it felt like a moment of such release for everyone there, it was really cool

on night 1 he walked out in that bright yellow shirt like a BEACON!! i always call him my sunshine and he is!! he was literally the louis that lives in my mind right there on stage. and on night 2 it was a very classic louis look in one of his 4000 burberry shirts lol, a comforting and familiar presence <3

can't express... just cannot express how happy i was during through the dark, i felt like it was visibly radiating out of me. its one of my favourite songs ever and my fav 1d song. it captures a specifically positive energy that i am so drawn to, and that i've coincidentally always associated with louis. i can't even explain how the room felt during that song, it was joy! i took a moment on night one to capture a snippet of it for myself to hold onto forever. the absolute respect louis has for me specifically to tour this song and let ME watch HIM sing it, that song both nights was genuinely one of the highlights of my entire life

don't let it break your heart was another one of the standout songs for me, one of my favourite louis songs!! maybe for me the one that i feel most represents louis, and i felt like it was a favourite for a lot of other people there as well, which took me by surprise! but i love that song soo much and it was so good live :)

wow seeing his smile in person...... sunshine

his stage presence!! he's become such a playful presence on stage, its so him, he is so interactive while he's singing. he doesn't do a lot of chatting between songs and i realised he likes to do the bulk of his playing as he sings lol. he's been like that all tour but i didn't realise it until my shows, i wonder if that's a comfort he built during 1d that he's deliberately exercised as a solo artist and made a key part of his performance

coacoa was soooo amazing live, and he sang changes which i LOVE. got lt2 is going to be so good

getting to point at louis with 5000 other people and shout "you were my because" 10/10 experience could not have enjoyed that more if i tried

oh the snuts were really good! i hadn't investigated them at all and wanted to hear them for the first time live (i feel like that's such a great way to be introduced to music) and their set was literally just jam after jam, i'm excited to dig into their music properly

i didn't even realise until i was on the way to the show on night 2 that it was the 1d anniversary! the crowd sang happy bday to 1d during the break before the encore 😂 honestly singing the 1d songs on night 2 felt so celebratory, what a cool experience to get to sing them with louis on such an important day

omg also on night 2 i was toward the side of the pit and saw little bentley with his sign ready for the show 😭 pre show our whole side of the crowd was cheering every time he lifted his sign, i found a short video here of it, we did this for like 30 minutes dskjlgkdfl it was v cute. i didn't even know they were from australia!

i completely lost my voice by the end of night 1 and couldn't speak the whole way home rofl, thankfully it came back the next morning ready for night 2. ugh it was just!!!!!! 🎇🎇🎇 this year has been.. quite horrible and this was so refilling. I have a week off work now because i was originally going to go to the Melbourne shows, but decided it was best not to take the extra risk, so instead this week is all mine to reminisce.

#it wasn't the perfect weekend because i was supposed to share it with silv #a bit crushed it couldn't work out!!! #this also means i have still met 0 tumblr friends :/ #silv is still going to get her louis dose tho thankfully! we'll have to share niall instead when he eventually comes #now just need to wait and see if the larries gave me covid 😂 #i have been a bit stressed the last couple of months about the chances of catching covid at the shows #this was briefly overridden by my fear of catching covid before the shows and not being able to go LOL #but once i was there i was just so happy there wasn't even room in me to be worried #im a fairy one feeling at a time #i also felt like i had done everything i could to protect myself #flu + booster shots in june #and i wore 2 masks and a filter #so i did all i could \o/

[tenshindon]

Have you ever cosplayed as any DB character?

i cosplayed baseball yamcha for anime nyc last year :]

#snap chats #i think it was last year anyway time's a whimsical one but it was def for anime nyc #im p sure i posted pics of the outfit but yah that the only db cosplay ive done #i dont cosplay much- if at all nowadays- but it was def the cosplay i was most proud of #i even had a lil puar plush sticking out of my baseball bag it was cute it was fun #i wore a mask and im lowkey grateful cause i dont know how to do makeup and my scar makeup was. EH so im glad i got to hide my face LMAO

[katya-goncharov]

ugh today was so draining. the entire day seemed to be my family playing a game of "how many horrible ableist comments about neurodivergent people can we make" and it really just made me feel :/ :/ :/

#basically my 11-year-old cousin is probably autistic and she clearly did NOT feel like masking #and so she wore headphones and was pretty quiet the whole time #and after she'd left my family went on this MASSIVE rant about how rude and unpleasant she is and how she didn't deserve her presents #and claiming she didn't thank them - when actually she did do it but really quietly #and saying thank goodness that her neurotypical sister was there too #and to make matters worse their dad - who is actually diagnosed autistic - didn't come along bc apparently he was ill #and they just all acted like it was the most rude entitled thing ever. and then my grandma started going on about how my cousin has #''inherited his bad genes'' #anyway yeah. having to listen to all that was... triggering for me to say the least #and now i'm so so paranoid about how they must talk about me behind MY back #just. ugh. apart from that my day was nice. but sometimes extended family can be the worst! #and i feel so so bad for my cousin. i mean she's only little and it was clear that she DID like her presents - #she was just very overwhelmed by the situation #emma vents #don't rb

[kil9]

aauauauuougghghs i need to move out 👁👁

^^^ [CHEC IT OUT] i need to move out moodboard (available now !!!(

#99.txt #my mom is like ''you seem upset with mee :('' yeah cos straight up like i think i just hate u now #when i got covid it was MY problem i stayed in my room. i wore a mask any time i left. i even wore gloves to the kitchen. #to make sure she didnt get it (and she didnt !!!) and i even cleaned the whole house while i had it lol. and still kept it away from her #so now that she has it guess what !!!!!!!!!!!! everyone guess what !!!! its STILL my problem !!! #i stay in my room ! i use the basement toilet !! i have to wear a mask outside my room at all times !! #and wash my hands so much im gettin rashes because she just goes around doing whatever touching whatever ? #coughing on whatever because she doesnt give a shit !!!! #i made it my mission when i had it to keep her safe #and now that she has it its ''well if you wanna keep safe thats your responsibility'' like ??????? #i promise you the thought of making space for another person & accommodating or compromising has never occoured to her once #its all ''well its up to you !!! good luck !!!!!'' yeah fuck me i guess #and she keeps bothering me asking me to help her with shit still !!!!!!!!!!! #''how do i find my documents on the computer ive had for 10 years :('' are you stupid ?????? are you dumb for real ??????? #and she puts me in the situation where. im busy clearly busy with my own shit #but she feels SO entitled to my time that she will just insist that i drop everything and do something for her #if i say no or have a slightly unenthusiastic response its ''oh youre SO mean to me youre SO mean. no one will want you :('' ...ok. #but if i ask for help from my own mother once in a while its ''wow you ask so much of me you know youre not a child anymore :\\\'' #yeah. i know. i dont think ive been helped with anything by a parent since i was like 15 years old #''why are you mad at me ven you seem mad at me :('' yeah . i think like you just kinda fucking suck

[powerup-the-revolution]

#BUT HEY MMBN COLLECTION AMIRITE???? #hi hello i haven't checked this dash in 4 days #pointless ramblings ahead don't mind me #the timing is the fucking worst too #we have the yearly company seminar at a theme park next week and i can't go :)))) #literally my only chance to see the bosses get drunk and have a fun time with everyone outside work #and tonight my friend at work was throwing her goodbye party and i'm missing it too #but hey at least i was certain i'd caught it and wore a mask all week so i didn't contaminate anyone else :) #i caught it at work of course but i got the symptoms late and the others who got it are out of isolation already