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marathedemonoverlord · 10 months
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Lesson 17 Hard Mode Spoilers(???)
Just finished Lesson 17 Hard Mode ( Don't @ me. I'm taking anything I can get to stay invested ) and like.... Did Michael just love bomb the Angels? (ಥ ͜ʖಥ)
Maybe my ass just hates gifts cause I'm so difficult but like... Weird doting vibes- Anyways weirdly I feel bad for Raphael being caught in the middle of it all - He's so awkward I see myself in him (ಥ ͜ʖಥ)(ಥ ͜ʖಥ)
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yall remember that post that was abt a vampire trying to seduce an ace person n it didnt rly work cuz they dont feel sexual attraction?
well. it got me thinking. yknow how corinthian is always shown (at least with men) to sleep with them n then maybe take out their eyes? sometimes he just sleeps with them n thats it but they can become his victims.
idk if theres a reason for the ppl he chooses to kill (except for those killed out of convenience n shit like that, the ones we dont see much of in the series) but i'd like to think is because he finds their eyes particularly beautiful, in anyways possible.
so i have this OC, he's ace, and he has the most gorgeous brown eyes ever. like baby cow type of deal. its devastating right? and corinthian thinks so to. so he targets him, tries to seduce him to bed. n then my oc just goes "oh no thank you! i'm ace :) have a nice day, tho, love ur glasses!" and then he goes abt his life thinking nothings wrong ever.
except cori (thats my nickname for corinthian, if it wasnt clear) cant let it go. he loves those eyes, he wants to eat them. he wants to know that man's soul through his eyes n talking to him didnt help at all cuz he sounded so sweet, and its even better when they sound sweet.
so. cori has a stalker phase with this oc of mine (im sorry, i do not have a name. i might have a faceclaim and if yall want yall can choose a name for me but no promises) and while cori just thinks "this is just my next victim its fine", my oc's like "this handsome man is so weird, hes charming tho :)" n then invites cori to a date.
and cori's thinking his won his game of cat n mouse but then the date it at my oc's place, and its nice and warm, and he has the fluffiest brown cat, and theyre making cookies and watching scary movies together. and "suddenly" (we all know whats gonna happen) cori just... wants to postpone. he doesnt feel ready to kill him just yet yknow?.
n then months pass, they are basically dating, and then cori's gone. and my oc doesnt get it n is heartbroken. but um well. papa dream got mad at his son and had to unmake him or whatever so yknow.
to be continued >:)))
(face claim below!!!!!!!)
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this is his body type if any of yall r wondering. hes at least a head shorter than cori, cuz im weak for height differences
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rrxnjun · 1 year
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it does fit him kinda but i also just can't imagine him just teaching someone maybe i just don't know awsten enough🫡WAIT HOW HAVE I NEVER HEARD ABOUT THAT???? but this is my new fav fact about them wow🥹 wahhh tommy does deserve everything he is a savior for real🫡 my minecraft addiction is unhealthy istg i don't think i will ever be able to get out of the phase at this point it's a lifestyle ngl 🤣🥲but i'm glad to hear that u also had a minecraft phase it's just such a fun game!! ohhh i never really got into sideman but they seem very funny that's for sure!!! tbh the first time i ever heard of alex will and memeulous was through probs wilbur but i listend to their podcast in quarantine and they were very funny tbh so i understand the chokehold!!!
I DID SEE SO MANY CLIPS FROM IT IM AO EXCITED FOR THE ALBUM I CANT WAIT!!! NINGNINGS SOLO WAS SO GOOD SHE IS JUST SO AMAZING EVERYTHING WISE ITS CRAZYYY and i'm going to be very upset if the solo songs do not make it to the album they will hear from my lawyers for sure!
take ur time with it u have the all the time in the world to listen to her! my fav song from her is definitely you're here that's the thing, it's like the cutest song ever but i also really love apple cider those two would probably be my favs and also sunny day as well!!!
WE LITERALLY ARE 🫢 it has never really happened to me before as well so i'm very surprised! I LOVE THE DIRVER ERA DUDEEE🥹 SO SAME LOVE THE MAN SO MUCH i will always be thankful for austin and ally for introducing me to the amazing man ross lynch is🫡 i listened to wallows and they are pretty good definitely will listen to them more however nothing dethroned scrawny for me so i'm staying with my basic as hell fav song🫡 BAEKHYUN HOWEVER I FOUND ONE OF MY NEW FAV ARISTS I THINK!!! amusement park is just so me core i love it so much!! claiming it as my song hihi! but the whole ep was🤌🤌🤌(i still believe in u beating him one day!!!)
OH MY UR REVIEW JUST MADE MY WHOLE DAY MY GOD!!!🥹 IM VERY GLAD THAT U DIDNT REALLY DISLIKE ANY OF THEM AND THE FACT THAT SOME OF THEM MADE IT TO UR PLAYLIST IS JUST🥹🥹IM VERY GLAD THAT U ENDED UP LIKING SOME OF THEM🥹🥹🥹
lovely neighbor!!! hi!!🤭i think i knew that u were slovak but i kinda forgot:( HOWEVER I MIGHT ACTUALLY VISIT SLOVAKIA IN LIKE 2 WEEKS OR SO!! VERY EXCITED TO SEE THE COUNTRY!🥳(or more like the one city we will be visiting)
IM GLAD U ENJOYED!! I ENJOYED TALKING ABOUT MUSIC VERY MUCH AS WELL AND THANK U FOR LISTENING TO THE HUNGARIAN SONGS U ARE VERY LOVELY FOR IT!!! and also if u have any slovak song recommendation tell it to me pls as well!
LMAO NO PROBLEM FOR WRITING HER AS A CHEATER I KNEW THERE WAS PROBABLY NOT LIKE "ANY GOOD REASON" THAT U WROTE HER AS THAT BUUUT HAVING A CRUSH ON MY GF💔💔HOW COULD U /j
LMAO probably most likely it would be similar but i actually want to see them and like properly throw jisung up in the air like i still think about that every time i see jisung!! u portrayed it so well my lord!!!! oh my the renjun bathtub pics inspiring it just makes it even more perfect my god!!! THE LAST SCENE IS JUST SO SUPER GREAT IM VERY GLAD UR INNER JOHN GREEN PULLED THROUGH XD I LOVE IT WHEN MEN ARE SIMPS ITS SO RARE BUT I LOVE IIIT🫡 i wrote it right after i read it and my emotions were all over the place it showed very much i think xd AND THAT IS CRAZY WHAT ARE THE CHANCES OF THAT PLAYINGGGG (liebestraum anon💕💕)
no thats so valid i couldnt imagine him being a guitar teacher either LMAO. and tommy deserves the world for that song alone AHAH also i understand the minecraft lifestyle the other day i wanted to download it too but it didnt work and i am not paying for that game so i just gave up after a while lmaoo. sidemen are funny sometimes but sometimes they also miss w their humor so take it as you will AHAHA. i didnt listen to the eboys podcast if u mean that one!! i am not a podcast girlie tbh i dont enjoy listening to people talk jfkdals but their videos were honestly my favs. also i sometimes still watch george memelous drinking vids where they watch terrible movies because i just think that is peak comedy
MY GIRLFRIEND NINGNING DID SO WELL the solo is stuck in my brain i NEED A STUDIO VERSION ASAP. i honestly never really stanned any girlgroups but aespa have such a chokehold on me istg- my friend said its only bc theyre the girl version of nct sound-wise and i was like :D ok then.
I STILL HAVENT LISTENED TO BEABADOBEE BUT I PROMISE TO GIVE YOU A REVIEW OF THESE IN YOUR NEXT ASK
no bc when austin and ally aired i was fundamentaly changed as a human. everything about ross lynch was just- DFJKA i even watched the teen beach movie like three times because i had such a crush on him LMAO. i wasnt really ever big on r5 (however i still have some of their songs in my playlist) but the driver era are sososo good. scrawny is so good!!! i think my fav from wallows (at least atm) is definitely wish me luck. it has such a good sound and the lyrics are honestly sososo good ugh. YES CLAIM AMUSEMENT PARK!!! ITS ONE OF MY FAV SONGS EVER AHHH i personally claim bambi because it's my nickname irl and when he came out w the song i lost my shit so hard i made it my whole entire personality. (thank u for believing in me. rather than beating hyuck i now fantasize about us going to a baekhyun concert together in my dreams<3)
THANK U TO INTRODUCING ME TO HUNGARIAN MUSIC!! i really have nothing against trying songs in diff languages if thats what you were afraid of!! i really enjoyed all of the songs they were so vibey<33 your music taste>>> AHAHA ITS OKAY IF U FORGOT IM SLOVAK i mean i dont really talk abt it here as much?? on my main tho,,, i dont shut up about the fact i even shitpost in slovak sometimes bc i just can. slovak music recs are hard for me to give bc i dont listen to slovak music much?? and the ones i do listen to i would get clowned for in slovakia bc they are just objectively not good songs but theyre my guilty pleasure AHAHA but if you really do wanna listen to some i recommend my by yael (it was in my top 10 on spotify wrapped last year LMAO), vďaka ti by yael and puerto (which is a badbunny cover lmao but listen to the ver on youtube and not spotify bc the spotify one sucks ass), valeriya by samey (THIS is a guilty pleasure for sure. the rap is weird but the lyrics are beautiful), staré časy by medial banana, káva by medial banana, záverečná by iné kafe, nad prahou by zoči voči and včera som miloval by fishing strip (for some good slovak punk rock<3) ALSO WHICH CITY ARE U VISITING (if u wanna tell me ofc)
the renjun bathtub pics....altered my brain chemistry so much iykwim. like i knew my man was hot but i didnt know he could get THIS hot. AHAHA MEN BEING SIMPS IS RARE BUT SO FUCKING GOOD thats why i even started my series in the first place the original title was the simp diaries bc its all about men being simps AHAHAHA
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nad-zeta · 4 years
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Oh my oh my, I don't want to bother you but... I'm inlove with your writing and how you portray the warlords and I wonder if I can ask for headcanons of Uesugi-Takeda forces reacting to a Latina MC. Generalities and things you can imagine of. Anything is okay! Thank you so much.
Hi hi, love! Sorry for the wait..... hehe TBH I struggled with this cause I have legit never met a Latina before! ❤😂So I have like 0 reference points to generalities and stuff, lol so I turned to google..... 🙈Sorry if this is shit or not all that great, but either way I hope you enjoy it! And thank you so much for the request! (人◕ω◕)❤
Headcanon: Latina MC feat; Kenshin, Yukimura, Shingen and Sasuke 
Kenshin
It was low key what drew him to you (人◕ω◕)
Your long lushes wavy brown hair 
Like all this boy wants to do is lock you up in a cell and pull his fingers through your hair
Jokes, Jokes, luckily for you, you made it past the locked in a cage phase of your relationship (¬‿¬)
Thinks you are super adorable and loves loves loves your accent
One day as Kenshin was going back to your shared room after war council, he heard some unusual music coming from your shared room
He approached with caution
He slowly opened the sliding door and his breath caught in his throat when he saw you 
|ω・)
You were dancing to your favourite song, a song which would play at every family gathering
 \(^ω^\)
He was entranced by the way you moved your shoulders as you danced
(〜 ̄△ ̄)〜
His eyes followed the curves of your body from your hands moving above your head to the way you moved your waist
He had to resist the urge to pounce on you right there and then
You turned your head and saw him staring at you (*≧∀≦*)
You gave him one of your bright smiles and motioned for him to join you
In an instant his hands were on your waist as the two of you danced together (~˘▾˘)~(~˘▾˘)~
He was a little clumsy at first but after some instruction from you, he soon found himself really enjoying it ( ͡ᵔ ͜ʖ ͡ᵔ )
It wasn’t long before even the bunnies decided to join you two cuties, happily hopping around the two of you, dancing in their own way
(ㅇㅅㅇ❀)
The two of you dancing together became somewhat of a tradition and whenever you are sad or missed home, Kenshin will pull you up and start dancing with you   (>^_^)><(^o^<)
Shingen
He finds the fact that you are a Latina soooo hot ◉_◉
Like when you speak, it makes him weak at the knees, especially when you call him Papi (¬‿¬)
One day he made you super angry, and you started yelling at him in your mother tongue (┛ಠДಠ)┛彡┻━┻
You got even angrier when you saw him chuckling at you (ಠ ∩ಠ)
Even though he couldn’t understand a word you are saying he can’t help but find you super hot (。◕‿◕。)
“Hey you know I am swearing at you right.” (╯°□°)╯
“Sorry, angel, I just couldn’t help but get distracted by you, for even when you are angry, you are just too cute.” ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ
Cue you hitting him while he continues to laugh at how cute you are 
Love your cooking 
As in, he can’t get enough of it
He has especially fallen in love with the Churros and pan dulce that you had made for him
 (っ˘ڡ˘ς)
Won’t eat anything else during banquets, and insist that you cook for him
He won’t share the sweets you made for him with anyone, not even Yukimura who is begging to try your sweet creations ಥ_ಥ
“Sorry Yuki, the goddesses sweets are reserved for me and me only.”
Yukimura
At first, he thinks you are an evil enchantress and that you are casting a spell on him when you speak Spanish |ω´・;)
But after you explain to the doofus that its just another language, he low key loves it when you speak Spanish (¬‿¬)
Will actually insist that you teach him a few phrases (◕‿◕✿)
As you teach him, he is absolutely captivated by you and the way the words roll off your tongue (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧
You wack him on the head with a book “Hey dummy, are you even listening to me.” ಠ▃ಠ
This boi goes bright red in 0,2 second, no way is he ganna admit that he has been daydreaming about you as you teach him 
(〃 ̄ω ̄〃ゞ
TBH he turns bright red every time you speak Spanish (*^^*)
You can’t help but giggle at the goofball, especially at the way his blush would spread to the tips of his ears (人◕ω◕)
He loves your beautiful brown hair
HE low key thinks you always smell soo good.... not that he would EVER admit it(o´〰`o)♡*✲゚*。
He absolutely loves love love your cooking
At first, he was suspicious of the new dishes that you presented to him, but the second he tasted it he was gone ◉_◉
 The way the flavours exploded in his mouth, he was in love!ლ(´ڡ`ლ)
You can’t help but smile, after all your mom always did say the way to a man’s heart was through their stomach (。◕‿◕。)
He also loves that you are very family-oriented, and will often just hold you tight in his arm when you are feeling down and miss your family
(っ˘з(˘⌣˘ )
Sasuke
Is really impressed with your Spanishヾ(●ε●)ノ
He didn’t think you were Latina at first but the second, you started ranting in Spanish about some dirtbag men you met in the market he knew
ヾ(●ε●)ノヾ(●ε●)ノ
TBH he can low key also speak a bit of the language, but you can’t help but chuckle at the meme lord, as he clumsily falls over his words
(─‿‿─)
The two of you are forever gossiping in front of the others... It’s always a good time to tease Yuki while the boy busts out into the biggest blush 
≧☉_☉≦
“Hey, dummies, I might not be able to understand what you are saying, but I can definitely tell the two of you are dissing me.” 
ヽ(´ー`)ノ
Both you and Sasuke burst out laughing (☞゚ヮ゚)☞ ☜(゚ヮ゚☜)
He loves YOUR COOKING! 
In fact, he insists that you teach him how to make a few dishes
The two of you actually go all out, even drinking a little as you cook
Both of you spontaneously start dancing while cooking ヾ(⌐■_■)ノ♪
He loves the way your body moves, and you cant help but laugh at his awkward dance moves  ღƪ(ˆ◡ˆ)ʃ♡ƪ(ˆ◡ˆ)ʃ♪
Both of you love to sit together and tell crazy family stories considering both of you were suuuper close with your families \ (•◡•) /
Hehehe its always super fun during your birthday, as Sasuke will go all out with the other warlords in making you a special piñata 
Kenshin really liked this concept of hitting open the piñata, so he decided to make it a banquet tradition, to have one every time (▀̿Ĺ̯▀̿ ̿) 
They would legit go all out decorating the whole castle in bright colours just for you 
(ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧ ✧゚・: *ヽ(◕ヮ◕ヽ)
They would also low key buy all the candy they could get their hands on just to fill the piñata, hehe cue Shingen standing underneath, with his mouth open hoping to catch some fallen candy, only to be hit on the head by blindfolded Kenshin (╯°□°)╯︵( .o.)
Hehe, I hope you enjoyed it, love! and I hope you have a good day! 🌻🌻❤😆
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hopeshoodie · 4 years
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Favorite and least favorite LIs and why?
I put in the read more for convenience but whoo boy do I have THOUGHTS
((Also if I shit on your faves here or in another post, I mean no disrespect to you. Some of my best friends are Lucas stans- I’m kidding. Legitimately all of these come down to personal preference- except Levi, if you like Levi you need to get some self-worth babes- so whoever your fave is you’re valid.))
Season 1
Favorites: Talia 😍😍🥰😍 and Jake 😘🥰😍
I genuinely don't understand anyone picking other LIs. Talia is god tier, one of my favorite LIs from any visual novel. She’s so hot, really interesting, and open/kind/loving/pretty/sincere.... I love her. I do wish I knew more about her though because I chose her every opportunity but never really learned a whole lot of personal details. Jake is such a kind soul and we stan a handsome, respectful gentleman. I've always liked quiet boys and mad into loud smart girls so... yeah..... The only other valid LI choice is Tim, and he's my platonic bestie so. 
Least favorite: Levi 🤢🤮😡😤🤢🤢
Levi? Stupid idiot motherfucking Levi? Goddamn fool jock stupid cheating ass rat bastard shithead idiot Levi? Fuck OFF. I don’t really like Mason that much but haven’t done a run through where Mason is as terrible as Levi. I'm not even mad about Cherrygate I'm mad about how Levi treated MC after it. He never apologized, he never really showed MC that she could trust him, he never supported her. The nail in the coffin was the lie detector. We hate men who cant apologize or empathize.
I will say, they fixed Levi’s character in Matchmaker, so if we’re counting matchmaker then I guess my least favorite is Jasper.
Season 2
Favorites: Noah 🥰😚😏 Marisol 😅😏😍 Henrik 😇😍🤗 and Carl 🤩☺
I don’t even know how to explain why I love Noah. I love angst and slow burns, AND my comfort characters are always quiet smart lawful neutrals. He’s such a complex character and every action he does makes sense and ugh. I just really love him ok. He and my S2 MC are OTP.
I know people hate Marisol but she’s exactly my type irl. I love slowburns, and I love people who grow as characters because of the people they’re with. Marisol does this lovely thing when you couple up with her when she goes from flighty and insecure to fiercely loving and devoted. I think that works with her character. My big hangup with her is her pretentiousness-  like girl I took up to psych 305 and I don’t go around trying to analyze people and act like I’m so smart. I think she’s really stuck in her ‘not like other girls’ phase, and feels superior because of her education, which I relate to a lot. That was me 2-3 years ago, and it was all fed by insecurity and isolation. But maybe that’s part of the appeal? I want so badly to fix her. Obviously it sucks that you have to support her during RoccoGate just to access her, but I love her nonetheless.
Henrik is a delight. He’s the perfect balance of sweet, independent, honest, and funny. He's a goof but unlike Bobby he's not trying too hard. I just wish he hadn't gotten kicked out of the villa every time until I realized the only factor deciding that is who MC says she wants to keep to the girls- but then again, him cheating with Blake is so out of character unless it’s explained why and his reaction is different. 
And Carl is just my good quiet sweet boy, and his design is really pretty. I just wish he had a different pose because I hate his fuckboy hands and lip biting. But he’s really straightforward and supportive, and I headcanon him to be on the autism spectrum so he’s automatically one of my faves. 
Least favorites: Arjun 😤😒🙄 Bobby 🥱🙄😬 Gary 🙈 and  Rahim 😒😐😔
Arjun gets under my skin with how pushy he is. He doesn’t really bother to build a relationship with her but expects her to pick him. Also I hate how he and Elijah are the only mlm rep we've got but neither of them are unavailable or uninterested in MC. Ciaran and Tai kind of made up for it this season, but I still think Arjun sucks. 
Bobby is super insecure and doesn’t respect MC's wishes to stay just friends. I also? Don’t think he’s that funny? Like I love a goofy boy, but so much of Bobby’s humor seems like all set up and no punchline- ha ha I made up a word? ha ha I put on a dress? ha ha I switched peoples clothes? Versus Henrik and Chelsea, who I think are genuinely funny, are able to poke fun at themselves and reference other things. But it’s mostly the Nice Guy (TM) vibes I get from Bobby that put me off of him. 
Gary doesn’t support MC like I wish he would, he just lets people bully her and doesn’t apologize when he’s done hurtful things like kiss both her and Lottie. He’s a sweet character, but he gets away with a lot and never apologizes or recognizes that he’s hurt MC. That scene with Hannah always frustrates me because he acts like the victim. I get that people think he’s a sweetheart, and I like his backstory, but I just? Don’t see it? He refuses to take responsibility for his actions, allows his partner to be miserable without even asking what he can do, and storms off whenever there’s a confrontation. 
And finally Rahim. I’m mad about this one because Rahim was my FAVORITE until like day 22, then Fusebox did him so dirty. Dont get me wrong, he's hot af and his little 'I'm shy around girls' shtick is cute, at first. But my first playthrough ever I coupled with him before the disaster recoupling and then went back to him the first chance I got. He is SO sweet before CA, but afterwards Fusebox really leaned into his ‘control freak’ personality. I liked the drama with Jo and Shannon when MC is involved, so I don’t hold that against him. I like how he learned to open up and developed as a character (his arch is less pronounced when he’s with Jo but oh well). What I hold against him is how he treats MC and the other characters post-CA. He's super condescending whenever MC says something goofy, always shaming her and giving frowns. He really uses the 'I'm geeky so girls don’t like me' bit even though??? He's super hot and rich, so why is that still his Thing. I get lowkey misogynistic vibes from him with his pickup lines and bragging about spending money on dates- like dating is a game and women are prizes rather than people. ALSO!!! IN THE WEDDING EPISODE!!! Every other LI I've played through the wedding episode with has also had a ring and proposed to MC at the same time. RAHIM DOESN’T DO THAT!??! Such a weird choice for the writers to make and idk. I just really resent Rahim as a character.
Season 3
Favorites: Lily🏳️‍🌈😍🥰 and Yasmin 😆😚🔥
Lily is LITERALLY Henrik but as a woman and I love that. I’m so gay. She’s really open, caring, passionate, and plus she’d really hot. Not as hot as Iona, but up there. Even when she’s fighting, she seems like a real person as opposed to the generic personalities everyone else has. We love a lesbian queen.
I was hesitant to try Yasmin at first because her eyeshadow is really ugly, but I’m so glad I finally did. All of her lines are SO romantic and she’s SO pretty and ugh. Again, very gay. I love the spontaneity and the idea of a manic pixie music girl. 
I was into Tai for awhile (mostly because of that comment about MC’s voice) but he’s a bit too full of himself for me personally and also he and Ciaran are meant to be. They need to get married. Camilo’s also a really great character but he dresses like a 10 year old boy and also he’s a Man.
Least Favorites: Bill 🤷‍♀️🙄🤨 and Harry 🤢😤🙄😐🤮
Bill really isn’t that bad, I don’t mind his silly turns of phrase or his insistence on debating dumb things- because it’s mostly banter. What I do mind is him defending those phrases instead of laughing it off and thinking that hes somehow deep for not liking small talk. He comes across as a twitter poet. Also I think his pose is dumb. 4/10 he has some endearing moments but eh I'm not into him. 
But Harry on the other hand......... I was going to pick Harry in the first coupling because he's super cute and his fashion sense (at least his swimwear- that yellow jacket is something else...) is way better than everyone else's but he ruined that when he opened his mouth. Business major is a red flag, but then his dumb little pick up line turned me off. And then every scene since I've hated him more and more. I work in legal services and want to go to law school in the future, so I like educated and successful people just fine. But I HATE when they act classist and like that makes them better than other people (if you cant tell by my distaste for Hannah, Marisol, and Lucas). Harry doesn’t care about real things, he cares about the status they bring him. It's not that he wants to open a business because he has a drive for a product or service or cause, it's because he wants to say hes a business owner. If your only goal for doing something is getting power I don’t have time for you. 0/10. EDIT: He gets one (1) point back for being open about his anger issues and actively seeking treatment, I don’t know many men in their 20s willing to admit that and seek help. Every time I replay I try to be like ‘give him a fair shot, he has a lot of stans’ and then he blows off MC to play video games and says he has no freetime because he’s networking all the time. *pointing at Harry* blow that piece of junk OUt oF the SKY.
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chrliekclly · 6 years
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do you think charlei and dee had sex because they mistook their genuine platonic bonding as attraction? (serious question, steming from thatlesbian dee post). I never thought of it that way, and I'm interested to hear that side !
YES that’s actully smthn i lose my sht abt !! iv blown up ppls mssgs with this kinda talk like, im a mess. ok lemme type right nd lemme type A Lot Again Anyways cz thos 2 giv me Way too many feelings (im spposd to b working on a final rn christ…)
okay…i scrolled back up after finishing nd turns out i went…literally insane…aka Much too far…so i need to under-the-cut it. mobile…viewers…i’m rly so sorry. swipe hard to leap ahead…hell im sorry fr computer viewers too. my theme is rough.
to start, my HCs surrounding chardee are rooted in charlie being on the ace spectrum and dee being gay (or like @ least bi, but imo all the men stuff is straight up compulsory heterosexuality).
i will always cling tight to the deleted scene wherein charlie says he thinks sex is gross and will genuinely get sick when he thinks about it unless he thinks about it with one specific woman. i know he shows sexual interest a decent amount of times throughout the show and has canonically had sex (on camera too, yeesh) but i see each time as very out of the blue moments (coming onto dee @ multiple points while worked up, agreeing to bang tatiana cuz she says to, that kinda thing) or relating to his long standing and delusional obsession with the waitress. in that vein, he’s also canonically enjoyed sex, and I don’t try and blind-eye any of it, because ace doesn’t always mean sex can’t be enjoyed in the moment. charlie definitely has a libido, and bodies be bodies. hell, sex-repulsed can sometimes even flip 180 in the right conditions. shit is one fun spectrum i’ll tell you that…but either way, to start with him, i think him going forward with banging dee was very much a misjudgment of what feelings are and being extremely caught up in a moment where he felt real, genuine, closeness with someone else who he was having a damn good time making terrible poetry with.
as for dee, i, first of all, just agree with everything in that post. in the context of chardee, as much as i will lose my mind in tags about how hard i ride or die the ship, it’s mostly my obsession with their dynamic. i don’t think chardee is meant to be endgame. i absolutely 100% believe that dee, too, is misinterpreting her feelings. i think part of it is her consistent comp het, and the other is she’s never been close with someone the way she has been with charlie, and she doesn’t know what she’s meant to do with it. i think she was similarly caught up in a moment in which she showed her own vulnerability, opening herself up to someone who could easily just ridicule her as she’s used to (”right now? i’m scared”), and she receives support from him instead (”you’re not gunna bomb, you’re gunna do great”). we’ve seen how much dee craves validation, thats her entire thing. i’m not shocked she dropped her pants in this moment lmao. she probably felt her damn heart flutter cuz she got told by someone who she at least somewhat trusts that she really is good, even if she doesn’t think so. the only rational explanation for the feeling associated with that person is that he’s The One right? pretty big leap
just…basically i dont think either of them know what a relationship is.
charlie’s lived nearly his entire life deluding himself into thinking that, 1. he and the waitress have a relationship that is anything other than creepy, and 2. that the warped-ass mess of an image he’s created in his brain for what he and the waitress are to each other is what love is. he thinks he’s making progress in getting close to her when the only thing she’s Ever done pre-s12 is ask him to leave her the fuck alone. he’s never even attempted to look past the waitress before, and the only time he shows interest in other people it’s purely his libido talking. he doesn’t pursue romance, and the one time we’ve seen him do so he was using her to get to, who else?, the damn waitress. 
dee’s lived her entire life having to prove herself to every single person she interacts with, and its familiar to her to getting ahead by using men, usually as sexual objects. i’m hesitant to bring this up on a post wherein i speak on dee’s sexuality because i don’t want to link this trait to it in any way as if its related, but to be fair, dee is as much a serial rapist as dennis is in that regard. the gang are shitty people, we know that. she will get men drunk to have sex with them, or pressure them into it, or trick them into it. she’s not having sex with these men for pleasure, she’s literally doing it for power. it’s absolutely fucked up, but so is she.
when she Is romantically involved, she’s shown to leap headfirst into those relationships and blow them out of proportion on 0 grounds for it. she buys a promise ring for a guy who didn’t think they were dating, it’s implied she’s going to actually go ahead with the brad fisher marriage thing after the episode ends, she gloats about how important she is to a stripper who was literally shame-crying during sex (also? she says “we BOTH wept,” and she can say that’s because it was that good, but i really doubt it). i mean the woman GAGS when talking to men she’s “nervous” around, something she takes as meaning she’s attracted to them? lmao uh???
at this point i’ve probably repeated myself over and over, my brain is on backwards and my train of thought went off the rails years ago. but i’m still gunna retype an old set of tags i found:
i hc that neither of them end up together but they do go through a relationship-ish phase, but dee’s gay and charlie’s okay with that (and always ace in my mind) because they finally move on from their own irrational drives to adhere to what they think is expected of them. i dont think either of them have any idea what a relationship is meant to be and they pathetically grasp at each other because they’re kind-ish to one another and that feels safe for once. chardee may be my main ship but i purposefully backtrack on myself because i know they’re two people who barely know love and have found each other, both as underdogs in their environments, and feel an electrifying Something that they Cant Name wen theyre together, and that something just so happens to be friendship and they don’t realize it cuz they’re doofuses who’ve led really unfortunate lives where friendship and hatred are always intermingling.
i’ve never brought it up here, but i often imagine a timeline of their relationship, because i enjoy the idea of them figuring themselves out through each other, just because they are genuinely amazing (platonically) together, and they get into some of my favorite shit. the thought of late night talks and confessions about their worries and confusion about their feelings while lying in bed, just close because they feel comfortable that way, realizing they can keep loving each other and not force it to mean something it doesn’t, the relief that comes with that, a final kiss that really doesn’t mean anything but thank you, not losing what they had but rather gaining a whole new kind of intimacy, and still getting into absolutely ridiculous situations. maybe dee realizes shes, ironically, found herself with a crush on the waitress and it cracks charlie up. he doesnt mind. he’s finally learned that if he Is going to be with someone it should definitely be with someone who makes him feel at Least half as comfortable as the way being around dee does, and knowing he doesn’t have to make himself look for that, but when he knows he will know. plus, he cant imagine dee pulling that one off. but maybe one day she does. dees gentler around the edges, and she gets butterflies when talking to women, but she never gags. charlie’s a terrible wingman but he keeps convincing dee to let him try. she brings a girl home for the first time and charlie all but backflips in an empty pool that day. they’re still shithats but they’re learning to let that go. people can get better. AA would probably help.
iv gone too far goodbye
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noona-la-la-la · 6 years
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I'm the anon that asked about your sexuality. I was asking because based on you answer maybe youd understand my issue better? Basically I came out as lesbian to my parents 4 almost 5 years ago, it didn't go to good. Long story short they kicked me and my twin sister out. My grandma took us in saying I was going through a "phase" and she'll "fix me". So for the past 4-5 years I've been passing as straight. The issue? I'm kinda living a double life? (1/?) -sad gay 👧
So I'm seeing this girl XXXX (she doesn't have a Tumblr so saying her name is okay?) But its like a super lowkey kinda thing. Like my friends and her friends and her family know but I'm like alwayd looking over my shoulder with her. She got mad that I'm not open enough with me family which resulted in a huge fight where I told her something along the lines of "well they cant know I'm dating a girl cause as far as they know I'm a serial dater!"... -sad gay 👧
Yep. In order to keep up the straight story I've been going on random dates with guys from meet me and tinder and stuff. But always shut them down by the end of the date. So XXXX's pissed and screaming at me (who can blame her? I'm an ass) she saying I either come out again or we break up and Im like "dude my dad beat the shit out of me and kicked me out? And you want a part 2??" Anywho.Just needed to vent, and maybe get some help?? If this is a situation that can be fixed. -sad gay 👧
I X’d out the name of your girlfriend because her name is not super common and you never know if someone who knows her or you or the both of you is reading this.  I figure it’s the respectful thing to do.
I’m not gay -- which means I don’t have personal experience coming out to anyone.  I have a sibling who is gay, but our parents were accepting and supportive.  I’m probably not a great resource for advice on this kind of situation.
So having said that, I can share with you what I’ve learned about dealing with really crappy situations and having to make incredibly difficult life choices.  You have to weigh the pros and cons of your options.  I don’t anywhere near enough about your personal situation to say for sure what the pros or cons would be for you personally, but it could look something like this:
Option 1:  Coming out as gay to my family
Pros:  Being able to live as my authentic self, less stress from keeping secrets and lying all the time, be able spend my time on finding relationships that suit me and make me happy
Cons: Being shunned by my family, being hit by my father, lose the financial support from my parents, having to move out of the family home
Option 2: Continue pretending that I’m straight
Pros: Stay with my family
Cons: Live a double life where I’m constantly lying, not be able to engage fully in a relationship with a person that I want to be with, waste time dating men that I will never want to be with, not be able to give myself fully to someone I love, make the woman I’m dating feel like crap, be miserable and paranoid that someone will find out my secret
Look -- it’s complicated.  And you might have very legitimate reasons for not coming out.  I don’t know you, I don’t know your family, I don’t know the consequences of making one choice over another.  Sometimes you need to choose to continue pretending to be straight to give yourself time to put your affairs in order and prepare for an independent life before you can safely come out.  Sometimes you aren’t emotionally ready yet.  You have to be the one to decide.  Your situation sounds incredibly difficult and it’s very likely that no matter what choice you make, there will be some pain and sacrifice.  But you have to figure out what is going to be the best plan for your long term happiness.  
I don’t know if any of that was helpful.  In my head I’m thinking “Ahhhh! Noona, don’t fuck this up! Do no harm!”  I’m hoping you have friends who you can talk this through with them.  Do you have gay friends who have been through this before?  I know there are blogs, and self help columnists, and YouTubers, and writers, and lots of other people who have been in a similar situation as yours and can probably provide you with insights on how they coped with their situations.
Good luck!!!
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Why do you ship Wyndolliday? (I'm totally expecting the three page essay)
well first let me lead you to my previous post on the subject
and second, i will explain with pleasure. (under a read more cause WOW that got long)
so, ill start this with the honesty that im not a big fan of just wyndoc on its own. just in the name of transparency and to elucidate on authorial bias. also because it is relevant in how i see wyndolliday.
so anyway.
first off, just from a representation standpoint the universe could use a great and sweet poly ship on tv. and a bisexual black man. and just two bisexual men who arent just ‘in a phase’  or any other bullshit (also wynonna is alsways headcanoned by me as pan, but thats not super relevant to this. just putting it out into the universe)
secondly, i think that wyndolliday as a relationship balance each other out really well. in theory any two of them could make a decent relationship pair, though again i would have to keep an eye on wyndoc cause im not sure they bring out the best in each other, but again again thats besides the point and ill admit those two have potential. now, i will get into all the relationship dynamics as i see it, with a prelude about when i first started to see this as like a thing for me:
 so honestly it was the season finale where dolls and doc finally got over their dick measuring contest and got all bff bromance on screen. previously i kinda thought about doc and dolls both dating wynonna and not each other, all consensually and whatnot. though that would require the character development that made dolls and doc not wanna murder each other necessary much the same. but when i saw them on screen getting seriously bromantic i was like “....ah. i dig it.”. plus there was that prompt from the wynonna earp official twitter about the “ghost river triangle” pairing. so that made me think it more too.
now for the dynamics (how they fit and why i think being in the ot3 would be good for them): first - wynonna and doc. like i said earlier, this makes me a little wary. the reasons being as follows: they can bring out the worst in each other and doc is shown to be very willing to manipulate wynonna. but they are also two people who i see as being very emotionally raw. theyre like exposed wires, dangerous and volatile and pouring all their feelings out in every action. they can find in each other another person who processes and expresses themselves in similar ways, who have both faced hardships and come out on the other side a little bitter and a little self-loathing. they see themselves as survivors first and foremost, but they both know what it means to love someone who tries to fight for /good/ and /morals/ (waverly for wynonna, wyatt for doc). and they would be able to find healing for themselves by helping and standing by and experiencing someone else healing from similar wounds in similar ways. sort of like a third-person perspective of themselves. combined with the ease with which people can sometimes face issues when they arent directly their own. they would be emotionally open and provide the same level of emotional openness and comfort they both require. they would probably be able to help each other through emotional times, but on the other hand they are both runners by nature (even if they try not to do that now. even now that theyre “heroes”) so would they turn to each other in hard times? or would they run? would they fear sharing themselves because they might make the other run? and their shared nature makes it easy for them to get caught up in things, get battered around and make things not feel very stable. doc would also be someone who would be willing to go all out and risk anything /do/ anything for his chosen few. wynonna would thrive with someone who would always put her first above everyone else, cause she doesnt even do that for herself. and wynonna represents hope and a future to doc, and at the same time a connection to his past. she’s bitter adn battered and she’s been through hell, but she hasnt given up all hope, and despite what she says she believes in good people. she represents what he could be, and what he strives to become (he protestes the entire way, but he still wants to achieve it. he’d rather not try at all than fail he thinks most days. its easier on his tired heart)
            i think dolls would help their relationship. hes a very steady person, and i think he would act as a sort of grounding to their passion and an anchor that they can come back to when they run. he is not someone who runs, and i think they both need that. so while doc and wynonna can connect as raw nerves, he can serve as a centerpoint for them. in this relationship i think he serves as a sort of a “calm in the storm” kind of man. and he’d be able to sit and listen and be able to think things through when doc and wynonna get carried away. plus he’d be able to mediate their arguments. he may be steady and calm, but that comes with a heavy amount of stubbornness and an unwillingness to back down.
wynonna and dolls - i think these two compliment each other. wynonna, as mentioned earlier, is like a raw nerve or an exposed wire, and dolls is very self-contained. the man is practically made of willpower from what ive seen. when wynonna feels something its all over her face and her actions. she feels everything deeply. i think dolls feels things jsut as deeply, but he keeps it all bottled up. they are both just as stubborn, and i think they provide a challenge for each other. wynonna would help dolls express himself, and dolls would help wynonna learn when to stop and take a breath before things run away on her. on the other hand, would wynonna get the kind of emotional comfort she clearly craves from dolls, who is not expressive by nature? would dolls be able to keep up emotionally with someone who is so /on/ all the time, who needs so much and asks so much? they also carry the same kinds of guilt, i think. they both have things they feel guilty about, things that have changed the course of their life and in both cases (in my uneducated opinion) i think these things that cause guilt are in some way a part of who they are. they have to look in the mirror and face themselves when they believe that their very nature and legacy is tied to this terrible guilt. and the entire reason people need them and that they can now do /good/ is because of this guilty thing. i think they both need someone who can relate to that feeling. but at the same time, maybe they need someone who can approach it without those kinds of conflicting feelings. i also think that wynonna is (once again) more hopeful and optimistic than dolls. she sees in him someone better than he thinks he is, and he sees the same in her. she gives him a reason to maybe hope that he can be better, and that they can make the world better. he gives her a way to make the world what she’s always known was in it. he gives her a chance to prove to herself that she is good and she is worth it and he believes in her every step of the way.
              doc adds something to this dynamic as well. he provides the midpoint between dolls and wynonna. in some of the ways that they are opposites he can provide a middle ground between the pair. he can do quiet and controlled (sorta) and he can do wildly emotional. hes always been adaptable. while he is naturally an emotional person, he has far longer been a person who is good with people and that requires give and take. hes a con man. he can play the waiting game. and he may not like it much, but he can wait with the best of them. and when wynonna needs emotions freely given (not dragged out like pulling teeth) he can do that as well. and when dolls needs /time/ and a moment to pull himself together and a break, doc knows when to back off and let things sit for a bit (wynonna’s not so good at that, so sometimes he disappears and takes wynonna with him and dolls is so grateful, but he’ll never say)
doc and dolls. these two have less time together in canon where they arent fighting so its a bit harder to predict their relationship, but i think they fit. they would be the kind of couple that constantly fights and bickers, but theyre there for each other in quiet ways. theyre not as vocal about their feelings as wynonna is, they show their feelings in actions instead of words (wynonna just needs to be /heard/ and acknowledged and listened to. she spent so many years of not that, she cant go back). they can bond over sometimes just needing to make a fuss, over both of them being the type to get things done, over “the ends justify the means” (wynonna is a survivor, but her continual hope and belief in /goodness/ means that sometimes she will sacrifice the most practical option for the right option). they also get along in some of the ways that dolls and wynonna get along. dolls is still a steady presence for doc and doc is still a motivator for dolls to share. they both have high respect for each other and they both are unstoppable when they get a goal in mind
                where wynonna comes in here is more integral than the other dynamics. for all that doc and dolls are in many ways good for each other, they are not the kind of people that each one would normally go for. shes really what brought them into each other’s orbit. and with her they are able to avoid the kind of pessimism and bitterness that they may otherwise fall into. wynonna may not know it, but she has the kind of personality that can inspire people. in another life she is a natural leader. people follow her without questioning, she’s charismatic and she’s the head of some sort of movement. in this life, she draws people in and keeps a few very close and very loyal.  doc and dolls have such opposing ideologies that their similarities and differences that make them good for each other may not have even gotten the chance. but with wynonna’s tendency to draw people in and keep them close, and her ability to love so fiercely, and her unique combination of experience and beliefs that put her in line with both ideologies bring them together and allow them to grow together.
so as a group i just like the idea that these three have a constant push and pull between them, where they can see each other in ways that not everyone can, and they have such unique experiences that only they can relate to. they all believe in the best of each other even when they dont see it in themselves, and through this they all help each other to be better and inspire themselves to try to be their best. besically these three beautiful, badass, stubborn assholes have my heart and i think they all shoul dhave each other’s.
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