#I'm like HAPPY YOUR TISM IS SHOWING

[shima-draws]

Rewatching FT and noticing that Happy is like. SUPER knowledgeable about a lot of things guild and magic related. He's like the go to encyclopedia for wizard inquiries and he's just a tiny little guy. I wonder if he actually takes time to study all this stuff or if he's just picked up on a lot of it from being around the guild so much 🤔 Thinking about Happy and Levy cooped up in the library reading stuff together makes me really soft. Autism buddies

#Fairy Tail #FT Happy #Happy #Shima speaks #Whenever Happy's like 'Oh yeah that thing you don't know Lucy is this! Let me explain it in great detail for you' #I'm like HAPPY YOUR TISM IS SHOWING #And when he sees a spell coming he's like 'I KNOW THAT SPELL IT DOES THIS AND THAT BE CAREFUL' #Me: HAPPY HOW DO YOU KNOW ALL THIS STUFF #I really love characters who are super knowledgeable about stuff that interests them #(Fyonn is kinda like that in ATS he acts as the QA guy on guild and magic related things. Lol)

[ghosts-of-love]

I was rereading adored last night (there was a blackout so I couldnt ask you earlier) but anyway I was reading it and I thought hmm the captain is rlly quite very autistic in this. idk I recently got a diagnosis and I saw myself in the cap a lot, especially in his rule following (the 'no kissing' rule and his original reservations to rekindle sex with pat come to mind) and the difficulty with regulating his annoyance around pat (I think at one point, its pointed out that pat rlly knows how to push the caps buttons). also the cap being funny about touch and humphrey respecting that and asking if the cap wants a hug after pat goes on the date. anyway, I was curious if this was a conscious choice or whether you were just following the caps character in canon (cause hes pretty autistic there as well) and I know ur great an characterisation but yeah. was the captains autistic traits intentional in adored? or was it unintentional?

(sorry for the long, rambling ask. adored is my fave ghosts fic)

aaah thank you, i'm very happy to know that adored is your fave ghosts fic!! that's amazing!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

with regards to Cap being autistic - i have received many iterations of this question before, but I actually don't think anyone has used adored as an example yet! you're absolutely right that he can be read as autistic and I certainly would also be inclined to do that.

i did not intentionally write him that way at the time, but just tried my best to base him on what he's like in the show (i.e. an autistic king!). and as many people have pointed out to me now, i may also have a touch of the 'tism, but i'm not in a position to be able to get any sort of diagnosis and so i'm just vibing.

bascially, any version of the Captain i write is autistic, even if that was a conscious choice or not.

#ask #curioushabitforarivergod #bbc ghosts #the captain #adored

[libroseitm]

Even if we don't win, this campaign has helped me in a HUGE way.

I suspect I have ADHD and am autistic (currently waiting for my assessments) and a big component of those for me is feeling VERY self conscious about basically everything I say and do.

This self consciousness mainly stems from school: ADHD brain would impulsively say stupid shit, the 'tism steps in to put up a strong mask, and then I get horrifically bullied by current friends, random students and on multiple occasions even teachers.

Now as an adult that trauma has lead to me never being able to speak up about anything, even things I'm passionate about. I'm passionate about the environment, Palestine, animal protection, Ukraine, and SO many other things but I never post about it for fear of doing the wrong thing.

Then I watched Our Flag Means Death. It IMMEDIATELY became my newest and strongest "special interest." So when they said it was cancelled, I didn't even think about it. Both sides of my brain where like, oh no, no masking today, son. We're gonna get your special interest back by any means necessary.

This *rarely* happens for me when both sides rally together, so I've been ACTIVE. I've been posting on X every ten minutes, I've sent emails every day for a week, I've commented on hbo posts, I've done ukulele covers of ofmd songs.

And now?? Today it's snowing and the bin men are out, I said "Stay warm guys, and thank you!" and they were so happy and replied "cheers!". I posted about Palestine the other day too, something I've been meaning to do but have felt so scared to do for ages. I posted about the environment, too.

So THANK YOU to our "silly gay pirate show". THANK YOU to my equally unhinged fellow fans. And THANK YOU to @renewasacrew for lighting this fire in me that I hope never goes out.

#Our Flag Means Death #Save ofmd #Renew As A Crew #Ofmd

[uraverageemodrainergamerbf]

One of my decisions for my future is to never date a neurotypical person again because it just can't work. We may be super good friends and shit but like I just can't do all the things you expect of me. I mean they aren't wrong, it's really ok to have expactations in a relationship, I'm just completely unable to live up to them. And we live differently, they never understand how hard it is to make sens through a day, to know where everything is, to keep track of your tasks or appointments or stuff like that. We just don't understand each other on a daily basis

And I just hate the way i'm being perceived by normal people. It's always the same sometimes it's like you're really cute like "aww what's your new hyperfixation ? Transformers, Winnie the pooh or the muppet show maybe ?" and it's just so infantilizing, I love these things with the same sincerity and thoughts you love your things, maybe even more. Or when you stim or burst with joy, like yeah I get why you think I'm cute, but I just see how they look at me like a fucking dog happy to get scratched on the head. These times I feel like a pet or a child. It's so diminishing in a way neurotypical people will never understand.

There are also the times when I feel like the biggest weirdo. Like I'm cute when it's about pop culture but the second I start talking about politics, gender, or even just when I'm very very intense about a trivial subject people just look at me so weirdly. Or when you have meltdowns, or outburst of emotions that aren't joy in general. Like sometimes emotions just explode out of me and I hate it I can't control it at all but I know about it and I wish I could just be like surrounded these times by people who love and understand me, but at these moments even my friends just look so awkward, so embarassed I can just see it I hate it so much. I hate to feel like kind of monster or weirdo that will just never relate with others.

And now I really wonder if it's just me but I don't think I ever felt attractive in my life. Even during my last relationship when the tism hit harder I just felt so out of place like I just wasn't supposed to be like that. I felt emprisonned, judged and shameful and I realize it only now. But it's just bothering me like if I'm just a cute little kid or a weirdo unable to understand people or act normally can I be attractive ? Can I be not out of place ? Can I date someone while actually being myself and not restraining me ? The thing is I finally found people with whom I feel right at home with but it's nealry frustrating like it's a real thing at the end of the day, it just doesn't go away by growing up or something

#autism #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #social anxiety #friendship #actually autistic

[orcaog]

Hello! Hope you're doing great there! I'm really curious about some headcanons of yours when it comes to my fav ghouls aka Rain and Phantom! ✨️✨️

Of course I’ll come up with some things for ya! 🫶

RAIN + PHANTOM ! HEADCANONS

⭑ Rain’s ghoul form is genuinely stunning; every mark on his skin glows a bioluminescent blue, shifting in brightness every now and then, some fading out and others lighting up, then vice versa. When his full body lights up, the bright blues stand out from the darkness of his grey-blue skin.

⭑ Adding on to ghoul form Rain, his fins match the glowing blues of his body. They start out the same as his skin, progressively fading into that bright blue, ending in a pretty violet.

⭑ Rain is one of the biggest cuddle bugs in the house. Though Ghouls are naturally quite close creatures, he finds it natural to be touching someone at all times. His finned tail often finds itself wrapped around other people’s limbs, and he doesn’t realise it’s happened until they go to move and find he’s got a hold on them. Whether it be around Phantom’s waist, holding onto Dew’s wrist or wrapped tightly around Swiss’ thigh when they go to practice, his tail is always holding something. If not another person, then around his own leg.

⭑ Rain finds himself attached to Dew during the winter, due to his body running cold whilst Dew runs hot. The same goes for Dew in the summer, as his frequent overheating is easily solved by a hug with Rain.

⭑ Phantom’s ghoul form is a bit of a nightmare, but a beautiful nightmare. His eyes glow purple, his body flushing the same colour. His skin is a deep purple (almost black), keeping him hidden in the darkness- though hiding doesn’t work when he glows purple. His fangs are sharp, and show through even in his partial form, leaving him with a little toothy smile when he’s happy.

⭑ Phantom took the longest to pick up life on Earth. He was labelled the accident prone ghoul of the house after he spent months accidentally breaking things due to a lack of spatial awareness, tripping over his own feet, and underestimating how something could hurt him. Mountain has barred him from his succulent/cactus garden due to him trying to poke the cactus to discover what it feels like.

⭑ Phantom owns a bat wing hoodie that he wears for days on end. He once came into Swiss’ room at 3 in the morning and stood there in it, the moon beams only projecting his shadow. Needless to say, it scared the shit out of Swiss.

⭑ Lastly; I’m a sucker for Phan-tism and it’s entirely because I too am autistic.

That’s all I’ve got <3 Tysm for the suggestion!

[theoldgodsaredisappointed]

15 questions for 15 friends

Thank you for tagging me @girlfailgaymer I Do Not have 15 friends on this site but I'll tag some mutuals at the end, so y'all feel free to ignore.

ARE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? My birth name that's no longer my name was a Bible reference. My middle name is my great grandma's.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Last night. I miss my gf tails. I miss her a lot. (She's in college she'll be home soon lol)

DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Haha no, and I don't plan on it.

WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY? I used to play soccer growing up, but I haven't played it in a long time. When I have the time/energy (which I haven't recently) I'll lift weights and do other casual exercises at home.

DO YOU USE SARCASM? Sometimes. Not as often as others. My brand of 'tism makes it difficult for me to tell when people are joking sometimes, and that includes sarcasm.

FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Hmm. Probably their clothes? But not in like a judgey way, moreso what the clothes can tell me about them. Their fave colors or patterns or if it's merch for something y'know?

WHAT'S YOUR EYE COLOR? Blue.

SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? What about scary movies With happy endings? I like both, it just depends on my mood. Not a huge fan of slasher horror tho, I like monsters and psychological stuff.

ANY TALENTS? I can play viola, and I've been told I have a nice singing voice when I try. I'm good at reading out loud too.

WHERE WERE YOU BORN? California.

WHAT ARE YOUR HOBBIES? I love playing mtg, recently got back into the Pokemon TCG. Big fan of vidy games and binging cartoons. I also enjoy reading and writing.

DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS. Sadly no, but I'd love to get a wiener dog later in life.

HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5'2 on a good day. I have horrible posture.

FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? For required classes; English. For electives; I loved drama and orchestra.

DREAM JOB? I don't dream of labor. But less seriously, I always thought being a voice actor would be neat, and in my off time between shows I could record audio books.

Alrighty time to tag people. Again, feel free to ignore. @fluent-in-lesbianism @spooky-qrow @lilypads17 @bonerrmccoy @toboldlygoaway

#tag game #questions #sky speaks

[erikatsu]

✮ NEW YEARS APPRECIATION ✮

i just wanted to take some time and thank those who have been with my through the year. first off, i want to thank my followers, especially those that have been with me since my first blog (rip spookydraken u r so missed).

*cue the golden girls theme song* i would like to give special thanks to:

✮ @twdottore — cat, u have been through 1838384 shit shows with me and we are still rockin' n rollin' together. you are my rod, my platonic soulmate. i want to thank you for always encouraging my wild ideas and listening to me rant ab theories and world building. thank you for all the fanart you send me, and all the tiktoks. thank you for always indulging me in selfship ideas and comms. you're my best friend and ilym (i win). i am so so glad u rang in the new year w me last year, and that you're still with me this year. here's to more.

✮ @dxlucs — ur the bubblegum to my marceline. thank u for dealing with me 15 dms + 3 texts in a row, for being there for my biweekly existential crises, and for allowing my to info dump even if it takes you a minute to understand what im getting at. i'd be so stir crazy without u. im so happy we became friends and that we're as close as we are now. i rmr when i fangirled over u following back LMAO. ily and thank u for tolerating me /lh

✮ @myalbedo — bestie. u always know what to say to make someone laugh. ur one of the funniest people i know and you don't even try. thank you for all the cute stuff you send me, for letting me scream when the 'tism gets to be too much, and for threatening to beat people with ur cane for me /lh. im glad that we've gotten close too. stay hot bitch /lh.

✮ @hanmas — ur so unapologetically urself and you inspire me to do the same. i love all of our meta-talk, our 4 am chats, and u giving me excuses to sneak away from work to run a domain w u. i'm so happy we're ikea gfs. i'm gonna buy u the most expensive candy and the giant ikea bear. ily, pretteeist girl in the whole world.

✮ @mxnjiros — ik ur not active here as much, but i love when u come back and my notifications are flooded by you. ur so supportive of ur friends and it shows what a big heart you have. i'm very thankful that i can call u a friend.

✮ @sennsational — i adore u, y'know? ur so talented and creative and every time you drop a new event i'm mind blown. u r one of the sweetest people i have ever met, and here lately u've been that refreshing sip of water i didn't realize i needed. thank you for that, and thank you for being so genuine.

✮ @dilu3 — i never know what you're gonna say and i think that's exciting. you could have me sobbing over my faves or almost peeing in laughter. you're so funny and sweet and i'm glad that we've gotten closer. thank u for letting me scream ab stuff to u and giving me good laughs

✮ @suyacho — you're also another person who is so genuinely sweet. you match my energy and also encourage me to keep going even if it's hard sometimes. thank you snow, for our little talk and crying over itto with me

✮ @alhaithms — i had to include u even though we've only talked outside of asks like three times. but each time i was able to tell how kind you are and it was so easy for me to hold conversation with you, which im not the best at honestly :,) thank u for being so warmhearted and immediately making me feel safe coming to your blog. i hope that we become better friends in the future <3

✮ mutuals — for my more recent moots who i don't know all too well yet, thank you for giving me the opportunity to make your acquaintance and for future friendships. you are all so unbelievably talented and i admire you all so much. if we haven't talked, it's probably bc im too shy/nervous to approach but i will with some time. if we have talked, im super glad we're starting friendships.

i hope the new year is full of good things for all of you. please be kinder to yourselves, you're doing great.

#eris stfu ᝰ

[underhercovers]

I'm feeling sad all over again, I'm just very disappointed with ppl in general. I invited some ppl out to an event I was attending, and once again, no body I invited showed up or reached out. I tried very hard not to let it bother me, bc I try to think "they're the ones missing out on all the fun, not me", but it all started felling apart once I tried to make it a romantic moment for me and my boyfriend, he just kept doing things that were ruining the moment for me, it was just upsetting me more, that I ended up going to the restroom and crying, like why am I not worth the quality time and effort. Even when I posted to my CF on IG, none of them reached out to check on me, I literally said I felt terrible, and I couldn't even get an "are you okay". It just makes me feel very resentful to ppl, like no body is worth the time and energy to get to know anymore.

I wanted to plan a trip with some friends to California, but now I don't even feel like it's worth it, I just don't want to be disappointed by them in some shape or form leading up to the trip, or be surrounded by ppl who aren't on the trip for friendships, just for clout, it would really hurt me all over again. There is another event I'm going to on the 13th, one of my tism friends is definitely going with me which I'm happy about, I also reconnected with someone I was cool with back in college, they actually randomly reached out to me one day, and it was quite a pleasant surprise, anyways, I also told them about the event, idk if they'll show or not, and I honestly don't even want to think to much about it. I also have a double date plan with another tism friend I'm looking forward to as well, I'm trying to make the best of things.

I'm not really sure what to do, I never wanted to become resentful, but I'm so sensitive, and I'm tried of feeling hurt by ppl, bc even though I'm fully aware that no one is purposely trying to hurt me, it still hurts not to be showed up for, and wondering why no one thinks your worth the time. Like I'm tried of putting energy into ppl just to feel lonely at the end of the day still.