#So any progress is good progress. I suppose.

[bluebirbo]

Breaking Down Moments From The Trailer

oh man, it’s been a while huh? the hb trailer came out a while ago but I figured it’s still relevant enough to talk about so that’s what I’m doing. I’ll simply be speculating on things that got my attention in the trailer!

starting with

these two scenes clearly take place in the same episode and in the same location. I’m not 100% sure that big shadow is Andrealphus but I think it’s safe to assume it’s him based off of what we know. I believe this is also the same area we saw the Octavia leak take place so I think there’s a good chance we see her side with Stella’s family in a fake out “turn to the evil side” scenario

on a similar note these two scenes of Blitzo and Millie fighting don’t seem to take place in the same episode. now I’m not saying this based off the location but off of the outfits. unless the characters do a quick change between fighting I think it’s safe to say we’re going to see a plot line of Millie and Blitzo having disagreements/fights through out AT LEAST two episodes of this season

this is pure speculation but I’m like ninety nine percent sure that this is Tilla. It’s very exciting that we might get to see her after so long but she’ll also probably get the Barbie Wire treatment if not worse so…

I’ve seen a lot of theories over who this fiery guy could be but I think the correct guess is the wrath sin, Satan. why he’s saying “you’re a disgrace” I have no clue. at first I assumed he was in the same room as Mammon and was scolding Stolas but Stolas isn’t in that scene (as stated very clearly)

i DO think that these two scenes are related and probably take place in the same time as the Mammon one. the railings with the snake and apple pattern appear in both. they also use the same template of blobby background characters if that will help prove my point at all

Octavia, you poor sweet summer child. she deserves so much better than what they’re gonna give her. on a more positive note though, I do really like that they’re keeping the star motif she’s had throughout the show

this is so dumb I can’t even talk about it. Verosika get outta there girl, you actually have a well explained reason to say Blitzo sucks, not this overdressed owl

no clue what this guy is about. he has the same marking on his chest that Blitzo has on his bell. we know that bell came from Tilla but that’s about it. if anyone has any theories I’m open to hearing them

the too many villains thing is really showing in this trailer. now not all these characters are necessarily villains but all of them will cause at least some struggle for our main characters. that’s seven in total (eight if you’re counting Stella and her brother separately and six of you group the cherubs and dorks together). all of this is supposed to span across only five episodes. that isn’t mentioning any internal conflict or joke time. the writing team is gonna have to work overtime to fit everything in

that’s all I’ve got to say. I could break down the trailer frame by frame but I don’t have the energy for that. I can’t wait to see everyone else’s thoughts as we progressively get closer to the release date of Full Moon. thanks for reading and I’ll see ya next time!

#helluva boss criticism #helluva boss critical #helluva critical

[tacit-semantics]

Netted jellyfish :) little clumsy on the execution but I do think the visions there and I ALSO think it would be a lot of fun in like a scene or something. Get my hands on a shoebox and go wild kinda thing

#id in alt #first netting pattern I’ve done all on my own think it would be fun to fuck with color and design of the bell part #maybe make it a little bigger? you can like. see through netting as a function of it which makes attaching the tentacles difficult because #it gets muddy it gets muddy. think that would help mitigate it though #oh I didn’t get any good progress pictures which is unfortunate because I like having those for more obscure fiber arts like this one so #people have a better idea of what’s going on sjjsjs but that’s fine. I suppose it doesn’t quite justify it?? but regardless #fiber arts #netting #netted lace #lacemaking #soft sculpture #sea creatures #jellyfish #net making #my work

[13eyond13]

It's interesting sometimes to think about how much the implied message behind Death Note is almost very much "maintain the status quo and it's foolish and fruitless to attempt to actually change the way things already work," even though it's also seemingly quite focused on challenging and questioning a lot of norms and values and institutions as well

#not that i think Light's method of changing society was a good one or was supposed to be seen as one either #but it's just interesting to take those kinds of things into account when reading it too #i saw an analysis of christopher nolan's batman series recently that pointed out that it was often very much a similar sort of thing #i think maybe because i grew up somewhere that is heavily of that mindset and culture itself i find these kinds of stories #pretty familiar and interesting to think about #and it's also interesting that a lot of fans of these stories probably have generally more progressive types of ideals themselves #i am pretty sure ohba is pretty conservative and that he mostly benefits from maintaining the status quo himself #but i know that generally japan has been conservative for a long time #and that its hard to make any kind of big waves of some sort there without it being frowned upon #and i think when you live in that kind of atmosphere it becomes quite difficult to openly discuss anything #that might help you make better sense of it all as well #i know i always learned best by being allowed to discuss things with other people openly #so i related a lot to matsuda when i first watched the show #p

[dragonsongmakhali]

The 2023 retro has been completed, so let's get to the 2024 kickoff!

Things I'm working on this year below the cut! This is mainly a tool for me to keep track of what I want to accomplish this year, but if I post it, then I've also got some form of accountability built in.

Storytelling in posework - what it says on the tin. My stuff is entirely 'moment in time' based, which can make some really cool action shots, but definitely also contributes to the feeling where Makhali is a deserted theme park - the colors and action are all baked into the design, but it's empty because there's no actual life in it. I think if I make myself think more in sequences of events, it will make her story more real to me.

Color theory - I've never really put much thought into the color palettes my shots get outside of very general vibe feelings. I would like to dive more into why certain colors fit certain moods, and I would also just like to play with palettes in general. Maybe find a preset that isn't Cyane Prism (or my other favorite, Cyane Prism With Some Sliders Jiggled For My Purposes, but that's a mouthful so I just say the first part).

Live multi-actor shots - I've done a few of these, and they're always a challenge. I'm fairly good at setting these up async, but I had a lot of difficulty when I tried to do it live with two friends of mine - there's just not enough time in explorer mode to set up three poses AND get good angles on them AND get good lighting for all actors AND find a preset that fits. I'd like to find a workable solution for this because it's the primary blocker for why I haven't gone to or organized any gpose meetups.

Gifs - this is easily a bonus item. I'll get to it if I feel my other objectives have been met or at least are proceeding at an acceptable pace. Once the images start moving, I call wizardry and hide in the cupboard. Maybe I can stop doing that.

As an overhang to all of this, I'm trying to be more outgoing and more present in the xiv community, and although that's not art-specific, it's something I hope will be noticeable this year.

Alright! That's it! Happy 2024 Y'all!

#the mun speaks #yoinked this because it's an excellent idea! #that way a year from now i can look and see if i've accomplished what i wanted to #rather than the nebulous thing I've got going now that is more accurately an indicator of my mood than of any kind of progress #anyway I'm hoping to experiment more this year - i feel like a lot of my problems are because i stopped doing that as much #so everything i did was something that i ostensibly was supposed to be 'good at' #which made the pressure insurmountable bc I went into every session expecting a two hour perfectionist run #and like. i only got there because 'ffxiv screenshots IV' and it's prior ilk are all over 1gb in size #that's a lot of experimenting!!! it didn't really occur to me until the 2023 wrapped post.

[urlredacted]

i just don't do relationships right, do i?

#something wrong with me i think #i think i got my idea of how friendships are supposed to be and i expect too much #and letting myself get hurt #i just wish i didn't annoy everyone and wasn't so needy #i think i just need to realize my expectations have been too high #and i don't know what the socially acceptable progression of things like that are #so i scare everyone off #bc i get weird i'm too intense too fast #and then i still feel like we have a connection but i've been long forgotten #and i miss them but i'm just that weirdo they managed to ditch sooner rather than later #maybe i should just stop trying #i've been alone for so long i can't see it ever changing #there's too much wrong with me #i don't want to be alone but it just seems inevitable #i don't have family except my brother and most friends i do manage to somehow hold onto i piss off all the time bc i'm fucking exhausting #like i have family but when have they ever given a shit about me and who i actually am #my brother is the only decent one who shows me any amount of respect #Casper is the one good friend i have who manages to tolerate me #but that's all i've got #is my brother and Casper #i just want to feel wanted by someone #i don't want to have to ask if they can pencil me it #i want someone to ask me to hang out with me #make time for me and reach out and ask to spend time with me prove they don't just tolerate my presence #i do it all the time i'm always the one to do it #why can't someone do it back for once #why can't someone want me back for once

[tj-crochets]

Quilting update!! Because of various scheduling things, today was the only day I’d be able to get to the next town over (where the good quilt shops are) for like the next month, so I went to some quilt shops and stocked up! The polka dot one will make at least two donation-size quilts, and I got backing fabric for all these, so this is five donation quilts worth of fabric!!

My current quilt (the quilt kit one) is almost done; it’s trimmed to size, the binding is pinned in place, that last missing round of quilting is done, and the binding is half sewn on. Unfortunately, while out and about we got a bit turned around and ended up driving through a construction site (the road was done but they were building houses on either side) and there was a Mystery Smell. Mystery Construction Smell led to a weird asthma attack and now I am resting on the couch instead of finishing the last bit of the quilt binding. So…quilt update tomorrow?

#fabric #the person behind the yarn #future quilts #if you have names for any of them please let me know #I will need names for each of them for tagging purposes #the weirdness of the asthma was normally for me asthma attacks involve wheezing. like. immediately. #this one snuck up on me #no wheezing but my chest was tight and I was occasionally coughing #and then I started getting extremely dizzy and my heart rate jumped up and would not come down #and using my rescue inhaler fixed it! #now that I think about it it’s a little weird so many of my health problems are like #well. the medication for (name of thing) fixed it so it’s probably (name of thing) #like. this was not like any asthma attack I’ve had for a long time but inhaler fixed it so it’s probably asthma related #or like how Benadryl fixes my migraines so I assume my migraines are allergy related #oh well. my heart rate and blood pressure are back where they’re supposed to be #I have new fabric to be excited about #my dad picked out the polka dot fabric #and the quilt kit quilt may not be done but I did make good progress on it

[colloquialcolors]

huh so. watership down. is a solid book. solid. book. compelling characters, thought through world building, build up and payoff in good amounts, somehow pretty hopeful despite the ongoing danger and threats throughout. like. damn. nice.

and honestly. less tragic than i was expecting! excellent. holding these little rabbits in my hands.

#that said it is Not the book i read as a child about a rabbit trying to jump over a river. alas. #but! good! whether this equips me to watch the newest d20 season is a different q i suppose. #(i say as if im not still trying to make good progress on mentopolis) #sysreading #? #i think its really like. a beautiful showcase of little lives and big emotions and crises. #the realism of the rabbits crossed with the complexity of like- human quarrels and emotions and explanations. really just. yeah. #damn. beautifully done. #it is a harsh book to an extent with the realism and the blood and the danger and the fear and the losses but honestly? #so much more hopeful and kind than i was expecting given its reputation. #i feel like its something like: the world is harsh and cruel and can leave you with your throat run red at any moment. but all of the main #the main characters. the sympathetic ones. are never cruel or uncaring despute the world #or even bc of it. or even when they are unkind you see the reasons behind it. its a harsh world with a main band of characters who are #trying their best and sympathetic and scared and persevering. idk. good stuff. enjoyed it greatly. #watership down #god you know what this makes me wanna do though. other than go thru the discussion questions in the back of the book. #i kinda wanna reread guardians of gahoole #love books of deceloped animal societies dealing with conflict and war and strategizing....

[classical-vanity]

One thing I find really aggravating about myself is that I never finish things

#i just start stuff and then never finish them #hobbies mostly I suppose #like I started a book back in 2020 and I had under 100 pages left #I did finish it this year #took me 3 years to actually finish it #it’s actually one of my all time favorite books too #I have a paint by numbers started and I keep thinking on starting a new one #rather than finishing this one I have which is like 80% done #and it’s more than just small things like this #wanted to learn Italian and I started a notebook with notes and stuff #haven’t opened it or made any progress in ages #I guess it’s my lack of discipline and dysfunctional perfectionism #anyway #gonna stop rambling now #this has just been bothering me lately #and I should really do something about it because it’s no one’s fault but my own #it’s just so hard but i don’t think it’s good long term to just stay like this #I don’t like it #tbd later

[in-a-slanted-outhouse]

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#i think i might be having a nervous breakdown #i dont think there will ever be a good time to have one but this week is a very bad week for me to have one #so uh idk what im doing tbh #im not going to school tomorrow #friday? who knows #i havent been in all week #it started with me being sick and now im still sick but also feeling like complete and utter shit #i havent done half the things im supposed to do #and it should be fine in that regard because my mum told me shell email people for me to ask for extensions #but theres one thing due next week which is an official deadline which cannot be moved #and its piece of work that i can only to in school because i dont have the technology or software at home #technically im not allowed to do it at home but thats besides the point #I’m actually terrified of that deadline rn its making me feel physically sick #ive been writing a second chapter for pull on my strings recently #and thats literally the only thing thats holding me together #being able to do that and enjoy it although progress is slow is all i have rn tbh #so i dont think im gonna meet all the fic deadlines i set for myself which im totally fine with its just one of those things #ive gone to bed but i havent taken any of the medication i was supposed to #its been five days and i still dont have my prescription #(i was only first prescribed it last week so im not being affected by that its just annoying because i guess that could help me) #i havent started useing the cream the doctor gave me yet but it has only been a week #so yeah im really stressed out about everything #i didnt shower today and i barely ate anything proper until dinner #i did eat but it wasnt anything that substantial #i just feel like my life is falling apart a bit #i think i have therapy next week but im not sure #i hope i do #yall dont have to worry too much about me i guess screaming into the void helps and i like being honest with people about where im at #louie says shit #tw vent

[somaligovernment]

“Right now I listen to Jimmy Eat World a lot.”

#I don’t that’s a lie but a lot of corny rock I feel like tacky rock music doesn’t get enough hype #near perfect weather today #was supposed to go somewhere with a friend but he’s mia 🫤 kinda my fault I could’ve messaged him but it’s whatever #I had on okay day except something happened and I thought wow I wish I could cry when I’m sad bc I was a crying moment but I didn’t and #it meant a confrontation that should’ve happened didn’t like I missed out idk I should just fake cry in these situations I’m actually really #good at fake crying… this is an epiphany moment fake it till you make it right? #like my parents raised me to be so emotionally numb and now they don’t see how that caused like 90% of the relationship issuers we have now. #anyways idk what my fitness goals are at this point like I’m happy with where I’m at any progress at this point is just a bonus but it’s #inevitable considering how much sports I do? so like it feels whatever you know? I hope I can keep this up with my work schedule tho🫤 #anyways I’ll message my friend that I missed him today bc I did #SoundCloud

[vishodhan]

The tokenistic fallacy is so funny to me. The implications that a token gesture, or one/a few, is an adequate solution to major problems confuses me to no end.

To provide an example, it'd be inadequate to say that a company selling pride merch for a single month means they support gay rights. (this is directed)

It's innacurate to say a token is, in any way, a representation of a person or company's beliefs, but I guess it's easier to want to think that way..? Who knows.

#text #rambles #original #logical fallacies #I mean this goes both ways sometimes I'm convinced people who say a thing /once/ probably just had no idea what they were saying #Which... fair. We're all stupid in some fields of life. #This kind of fallacy is used a lot in the corporate world to pull in blind support #And I think that's why it's so important to be cautious with what people say or do. #shrugs #who knows? #In any case this was all because I saw an old article talking about how an italian mafia was getting more progressive #when they found out the boss' son was a glorious drag queen #which #good for him! and it's odd seeing a mafia get progressive #But they seem to still be very discriminatory and this supposed gesture doesn't cut it #Anyways #It was an interesting read #There's that.

[kindacreepy-kindaugly]

I mean I'm not goin back to him I'm not(!!!) but at this point I got no idea why

Literally just screaming into the fucking void

He already broke me to the point where all the shit he's said are my only core beliefs n even if I try to shut down the voice in my head repeatin it all I still believe every damn word

So no matter how long I cut him off for it's always there just the same. But no one else can always be there to make it go away. W/ him I at least go from a total waste of oxygen to the one thing I'll ever be any good for. It's an upgrade I can almost live with.

So what's the point? What do I or anyone gain from me stayin away?

I've been tryin so fucking hard n it's just not getting any easier. I don't know where to put all this fucking self loathing, I can't keep pouring it onto other people. I always need to keep so damn much inside n some of it still spills out n that's already bordering on too much. I don't wanna be a burden. I know everyone is, to some extent, but not like this. Not all the time. Plus they have something to give in return, I only have things no one else wants, just Val's happy to take em if offered.

I still feel the pull all the fucking time. It's like the chain he used to have around my neck but I know he's not doin the pulling, he doesn't care if he has me or not anymore. It's all me now. I'm the one who keeps wanting to go back. The rational part of me is screaming no cause I know he'll just hurt me n find new ways to cut even deeper but. What's left that he hasn't already done?

Maybe this time he'll make the feelings n the noise go away. Maybe this time he'll make it all quiet.

#i know i can't expect anyone else to save me that's something i'm supposed to do myself but #what if i can't? i don't know how to #best i've managed is a somewhat stable daily life but that relies on practically zero triggers n i don't actually get anything done ever #there's no progress. none. it's just me drowning out the noise w/ distractions n booze #everyone i see struggling w/ this shit that's made actual progress has made it w/ the type of healing experiences i can't seem to find #n cause it's all just pseudomemories n shit we can't really even unpack it in therapy cause it doesn't rly get to the real causes #it's always just 'have you had experiences in real life where someone made you feel like this?' #i don't know!! we don't have our actual trauma memories!!! #i just. i wish i didn't need so goddamn much more than what's reasonable to ask of anyone. #i wish i wasn't wired so completely fucking wrong i can't have those needs met #i wish i wasn't so fucking worthless. only ever barely keepin my head above water. #i tried to list any skills/positive traits/things i like about myself n the only thing i could come up w/ is i give great head #n i guess the way i'll let you act out any fucked up fantasy on me if you don't mind that i cry or dissociate #but i don't have anythin else to give. my body's all i have to offer n it's not even a very good one anymore #i still wish someone would use it. make me feel like i still have a use. give me some way to make up for even fucking existing #i guess i was doin some good back when i still let val take all his aggressions out on me so he had an outlet aside from doll #i'd be ok w/ him just usin me but he's always so fucking cruel about it. #i really really really wanna cut but he'd be so fucking angry i'm scared of what he'd do #i just. can't someone just fucking use me. do whatever you want to my body n tell me i'm not a waste of space cause i make you feel good #tell me i'm a good boy #spdrvent

[musical-chick-13]

Anyone else out here feeling disconnected from their own humanity.

#WILL! MY! BRAIN! LET! ME! LIVE! #like I ran into a meds delivery issue so that's part of why the past week has been so Bad™ & it's finally fixed now but jfc brain calm down #I just feel like everyone else lives on some plane of existence that I will never EVER have access to #and I can keep being myself and keep hoping that eventually I'll meet someone who lives on MY plane but I've been wandering around #for 30 years up here and I really haven't made any actual progress. #the only thing left is to just not care if I ever have someone else on my general plane of existence and I have been TRYING to do that #for god knows how long but with the way my health is...I cannot do this by myself. at least not for the immediate future. #like genuinely I need to not be alone but what do you do when your life looks so different from everyone else you know? what do you #do when everyone else has had at least one 'normative' experience (or a socially-acceptable excuse for not having them) and you never have? #what the actual fuck are you supposed to do with that???? #everything good that has ever happened in my life has depended on how well I can perform being a neurotypical person. and I just. #the physical stuff prevents me from being able to actually do that anymore. #so now there's just...nothing. there's nothing that will ever allow me access to the good parts of society #and I gotta say that is a really REALLY miserable outlook to be stuck with right now #In the Vents #mel's Illness™ chronicles #okay I think maybe. I should go be creative or something. or sleep. or take a shower. idk.

[eau-duresistance]

My favourite things about the whole OceanGate disaster, in no particular order

That the vessel was originally named Cyclops II but the CEO renamed it to Titan, so it’s even BETTER than the Titanic

He also called it indestructible

The guy piloting the vessel is an ex-naval captain who has been on several titanic manned trips. But the guy is 77 rn

The billionaire from Pakistan is apparently friends with King Charles. You’d think for someone who’s besties with a guy whose job was literally being born, he’d care more about protecting his bloodline. Instead, he brought his 19 year old with him

Meanwhile, the stepson of one of the other billionaires (I think the British one named Hamish) went to a Blink 182 concert. When questioned about this, he basically went “my family would want me to go to the concert”. Today, minutes after posting about asking for thoughts and prayers, he @‘ed an OF model on Twitter, asking her to sit on his face

Bc it’s part of the safety demo & music track list for the trip, there is a VERY good chance that if there’s still some power left in the sub, it’s playing an instrumental of My Heart Will Go On on loop

Also, the vessel is a submersible bc it doesn’t meet literally any of the safety regulations to be called a submarine. Which the CEO knew, because he’s blatantly said that safety regulations get in the way of progress

The CEO once stated that he thought the future of humanity was not in space, but in the ocean when the surface becomes uninhabitable

Apparently the controller he’s using has REAL bad reviews because the connection always fails

These idiots paid $250k EACH but they had to pack their own lunch. Not even a damn charcuterie board

The pilot’s seat is on the toilet. So whenever someone needs to go, the pilot needs to move

There’s 1 window looking out. That’s it

It’s about the size of a minivan

The sub uses texts (but only to the CEO’s phone) to communicate, as well as StarLink, but they can only access that if they surface

The door literally cannot be opened from inside

There is a decent chance that at least 1 person has been cannibalized (my bet was the pilot since he’s not rich, but bc of the banging sounds, he’s probs not dead, so it may be the CEO)

They’re supposed to run out of oxygen tomorrow (22/06/23) at 7 am est, but tbh, the CO2 scrubber system will probs fail before that

The toilet is a plastic bag

This is only the 3rd time in 3 years the vessel has gone to the Titanic. Every other time, there’s an issue and they gotta turn back within like 4 hours

A lot of major news networks are trying to remain positive, but it’s a HILARIOUS comparison when you go to social media and every single person is like “yeah that shit is built like a cardboard boat, they’re fucked”

The company’s name is literally called OceanGate

#oceangate #Titan #titanic #shut up holly #queue du résistance

[rubys-domain]

logged into enstars for the first time in months. i still have no idea how to play this game lmao

#⇢₊˚⊹ 🩷∥ruby∥yo，ide yo !! #like i can at least clear hard mode with a B #which i know isn't impressive but shhhh dw about it #but for anything else irdk what i'm supposed to do #like tf is work mode? is the dorm thing important or just for funsies? #what are the daily essentials besides the ones already listed in-game??? #and how does one get a higher score besides just being good at the game? #cuz i just KNOW there's an efficient way to play that i'm simply unaware of #i sure hope it's not like SIFAS where you NEED certain high voltage cards or you're just fucked #anyway i have zero interest in pulling for anyone besides 2wink #i actually have two accounts just to have both of the twins #i consider the one where i got the free yuta my main. solely because he sounds the most like chongyun lmao #not that it matters anyway cuz i've barely made any progress. it wouldn't matter if i started from scratch yet again #i should really watch a beginner's guide to enstars or smth. i looked them up once but they all seemed to be at least a year old #hopefully that doesn't mean they're so outdated that the ui is unrecognizable or smth

[todayisafridaynight]

WELL I LOVED SUBSTITUTE FATHER SO MAKE THAT TWO don't apologize bro 😭😭😭😭😭 I love everything you put out so I'm biased, and I wish there was something I could say... but no I get what you mean 100%, and if nothing else I hope you're happier with this fic! :] And uh. That You Don't Die Of Hypertension ☠️ HBD to your sis though

OH here i thought you thought it was mid (╯▽╰ )im glad you liked it tho, ty for enjoyin then LMAO (*￣▽￣*) my self confidence is at least three layers below the earth at this point so its just a me problem LMAO s'all good :]]

#snap chats #i didnt make any progress with the new fic last night since i just didnt have any faith it'd be any good #i can try again but hm.. we'll see idk #speaking of hypertension tho it's def gon be worse today since my mom's home all day :) what a terrible friday #it sucks that i hate weekends now but w/e is what it is 😷 #might go to the mall and do some stuff there so i dont. die of a stroke in my house LMAO #and yeah... hbd to my sis... last year i sent her a funny birthday text and she quotes it like every other week to me or so #and she was like 'if i dont see that same text at midnight sharp on my bday im gonna be sad' LMAO #she hasnt texted me back yet :( but she's supposed to be having fun this week so prob just too busy #ok my chest hurt BYE im gonna uhhhhh figure out what to do with myself rn (￣▽￣)