#also because i dont want to mess up queue to get a drug one in here

[nuttynutcycle]

Prompt 420

"No." The man shook his head firmly. "You don't love me. You can't love what you don't know."

"But-"

"I've never even been on your side. Played you and your team for a fool."

She felt faint.

"Give it up. Your feelings are based on a carefully curated image, designed to lower your guard. They're fake." He curled his lip. "A counterfeit love."

#my writing #writing #prompt #writing prompt #hero #hero villain prompt #villain #heroes and villains #hero x villain #betrayal prompt #its a betrayal prompt because its nimber 420 and drugs promise an escape and ruin you in the end #also because i dont want to mess up queue to get a drug one in here #but yeah #dont do drugs #they be bad #unrequited love

[ugliestdiary]

4:17 𝙋𝙈

OKAY OKAY I CAN FINALLY WRITE. basically today at school we only stayed in the building for about 3 hours until recess and then we headed to the auditorium for the drugs prevention thing. it was super boring istg, but i mean i did actually pay attention to the first bits and shit because this guy literally smoked 20 joints a DAY. not even week a DAY. 20 fucking joints☠️

// 4:49 eww im eating too much sugar fuck

im gonna update again when i can

// 4:57 ok i washed my teeth. but im super angry at ray lol wtf is he even doing to Yuu istg im killing him.

on another note, today yeah was boring. probably gonna do nothing all day at the very least. just gonna listen to my queue songs in shuffle or joyriding in loop.

i wanna be frank so much

i dont wanna be me anymore

:/

dysphoria is killing me and i'm starting to sh and binge eat again

i wish i could just get super high and forget it all for even just a few hours.. i won't give it a shot though.

i'm still not afraid to keep on living and i'll keep it that way ♡︎

i'll update tonight.

"yeah, it's cool, i'll be okay"

10:41 SOO he just drifted off to sleep so i can write now!

i miss them though :/ i'm using he and they on them now because i think he's feeling uncomfy with she?... i mean, he put some statuses and on one he write "iwannabeaboyiwannabeaboy" soo :/ also he didnt use she for the whole day i think?

well, i just hope they're fine :(.

on another note we were just in call, yeah, but it was rly cute <3

got them more stuff for presents <333

ALSO ALSO WE MIGHT BE ABLE TO GO TO AN MCR CONCERT!!! I MEAN WE MIGHT BUT WE'LL BOTH LISTEN TO A SUB TO MAKE THE CHANCE HIGHER!!!

it's still 42 euros though! i mean it's a fair price, it's mychem, but still,

also it's at bologna i think (sonic park) I hope we're gonna be able to because i really really wanna see them perform <3

still, we didnt do much today... in general. apart from some relapse thinking, i was fine.

i'll probably update later or on another note, for now, bye <3

12:16 AM: currently listening to random songs in my liked and some are just <333 TAKE YOUR SHIRT OFF IS JUST SO GOOD WTFF

i'd be a scene queen 100% if i wanted to

come as you are is on even though i dont listen to it as much... still, <ku/rt3

i was crying to songs before

but i cried of happiness after because i saw a photo of gerard genuinely smiling. it made me happy. he's giving me hope. and its okay to be a little messed up at first but we'll keep on living <3

I WANNA LOOK LIKE FRANK SO MUCH </3 HE'S A SUPER GENDER ENVY ISTG WJWKWMWDB IM GOING CRAZY I WANNA BE HIM. i fucking swear. I'm him I'm him I'm him

watch me starting to use frank as a name because of this mf. but i dont think i'm gonna honestly...maybe

WAHTEVRR

also <murderdolls3 i love those men ♡︎

I'LL MAYBE UPDATE LATER AGAIN FKWHSJWJ

MURDER TO THE LEFT, MURDER TO THE RIGHT, HELLO, GOODBYE, DIE DIE DIE ! ! !

12:29 AM / FAST EDIT: oh my god.

fuck. i realized i already developed a strong emotional attachment towards gerard. shit.

i really need to stop with the attachments towards people like gee or frank or whatever. i'm really upset for him.

"and you don't know how long i could stare into your picture, and wish that it was me." fuck

who am i?

-𝙜𝙚𝙚