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leonardcohenofficial · 9 months

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the more i rewatch twin peaks i am reminded more and more that albert rosenfield (and to a lesser extent bobby briggs, though he doesn’t quite articulate it as clearly as albert with the exception of him breaking down at laura’s funeral) is THE only character to recognize laura’s death for what it was—completely avoidable, unromantic, and caused by human evil that nobody recognized the signs of or did anything to stop

#twin peaks #albert rosenfield #bobby also gets it but he is a deeply emotional struggling seventeen year old with many issues who we watch process his trauma day by #day on the show and thus has a specific emotional POV (which i think is actually incredibly well written and makes sense for his #character and relationship to the town and to laura)#meanwhile i think about the fact that one of the first major moments interpersonal conflicts set up for him is that he wants to do the #autopsy on laura and finds himself fighting with half the town—including other law enforcement officers—to just do his job and try to bring #this dead child justice like. it is so incredible to be how key his character is in getting why the show is the way it is #and then to watch fire walk with me completely tempers the way you view the show; why didn’t anyone help laura when she was alive? and why #is albert the only one to do so after her death?

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fallevs · 3 months

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me: satisfied with my quick drawing before going to sleep

me again: I remember I have real artists in my mutuals and get anxious because... this is kind of ugly...

But hey the beauty of life is to try, right? You don't know me anyway and at most you can insult the drawing, not me 😃👍

(no please don't do it or be gentle)

Adding a warm filter makes it nice tho!

#i'm only posting this because it bothers me that i've spent time on it – however little – but tearing it up #my problem is that i always think i'm good at it but then in the process i realize i can't do it #i mean okay it's not that deplorable but i would like to do better 🥺#it doesn't matter anyway #watercolor crayons #hand drawings #i wanted to make a caption like:#Kurt Elizabeth CUNTmel #because of course #but i didn't do him justice 😔🤚#kurt fanart #kurt hummel #sorry baby

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eternally--mortal · 1 year

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I keep telling myself to post this and then forgetting, but here’s the progress on the Bakery Enemies AU dress (@buggachat’s AU).

This really has been a side project (because while I was hyperfixating on it I didn’t have access to the right equipment, and by the time I was back in a place to access my stuff I was already enmired in like five more important responsibilities and various rotating hyperfixations). But I made a previous post and I feel like I ought to round it out with some more information.

Also I absolutely adore @buggachat and her AU, and I want to celebrate the work that she’s done.

So here’s Marinette’s dream gala dress (at least, within the unfinished capacity to which I’ve progressed):

This project was meant to be a way for me to use some of my fabric scraps to drape something fun, so it took a little bit of experimentation.

I draped and patterned a few pieces and made a mock up out of muslin to make sure that the pieces shaped correctly and were the right measurements (all of which I do not show in the pictures. I just figured a little context would be helpful for anyone who’s never sewn before). Then I started my first version with an opaque layer underneath and added a sheer over layer. Unfortunately, this version was scrapped because the under layer absorbed too much light, which hindered the ability to see the spots that I added afterwards.

The first spots that I tried were cutout and stitched on (which looked super campy). So the second time around I painted them on my under layer.

Then I draped a skirt from some leftover chiffon.

(I’ve removed my sewing room from the background. It’s a mess. I don’t want you to see it. Maybe one of these days my ADHD will drive me to clean it instead of abandoning it to chaos. But that day is not today.)

Since then I’ve created a black underskirt. But then I went and mucked up the overskirt by painting it. (I know better. You’re not supposed to dye a dark color. You start with a lighter color and move to a deeper gradient. But I’m also using fabric scraps and I got lazy and I figured ‘it’ll be ok. It’s an experiment. It’s fine’ . . . It was- . . . Ok, it was kind of fine. But not stellar. And the red was never going to be light enough for me. So I’m not showing it to you. Because while it is productive for people on the internet to know that dresses take a lot of experimentation and don’t pop out of thin air, I am also embarrassed by my ridiculous choices that went against all logic. So I will tell you about them, but I will not show them to you).

I’m considering going out and genuinely crafting a decent Ombre. But it’s not going to happen right this instant. I’m not sure how long it’ll take me to decide and then to actually finish the dress. But there you go! Some progress pictures, and maybe also some perspective on the process of crafting clothes. All of this took hours and days, although sporadically separated—mostly because each step requires testing to ensure that the seams and measurements work well and that the right fabric is being used, and that it’s being used properly. Definitely not on the professional level, but what I tinker with in my own sewing room tends to follow a bit more of a haphazard plan than what I would do in a shop.

#I love the dress design #but I want to do it justice #which means finishing it when I have the energy and the willpower #rather than letting it scream me into submission #it’s an eyesore in the corner right now #all I can see about it is the things I’ve done wrong with it #but that’s the process #bakery enemies AU #miraculous ladybug #ml #mlb #buggachat #marinette dupain cheng #gala dress #Marinette’s gala dress

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1o1percentmilk · 2 months

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i love lexapro so much i just dissociated thru two hours of philosophy class

#cw drugs #drugs #'how do we incorporate the environment into a liberal egalitarian justice framework' i literally cannot stress how much #-i did not process that question at all #yap #so of course i want to try more drugs #fleki and lycion..... speak to me u_u

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homoeroticfisticuffs · 3 months

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trying so hard to wrap up a starmora fic i started like 3 months ago. it has been such a huge challenge for literally no reason but i am determined to at least finish it. the process is still ass though

#starmora #fic writing #writing process #writing problems #send help please #i want to do them justice i love them very much

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magentagalaxies · 3 days

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#this might be both oversharing and being too vague rn but it's 2am and i'm emotionally exhausted #i can't believe during one of the most traumatic moments i've had in the past year i was lucky enough to have scott as my biggest supporter #the entire time as i was going through it he was so supportive giving me space to process shit and always having my back #and yet there are some people in my life who are always going to villainize him for one comment he said during that time out of context #or even if they're not ''villainizing'' him i now feel like i have to begin every sentence about scott with #''yeah we don't agree on everything but we're still friends and isn't that amazing!''#which yeah that is true and i do genuinely enjoy when scott and i disagree and are respectful about it #BUT WHY DOES THAT HAVE TO BE THE FIRST THING I SAY ABOUT HIM????#and honestly that whole experience made me agree with scott on way more than i started out with #i'm proud of how i was able to grow as a person and for the fact that it brought me and scott much closer together #but that shit i went through at my college was still traumatic. and it did change me as a person #it completely changed my relationship to activism in a way i'm not happy about bc i want to be more of an activist #but when i had someone use social justice language to justify horrible things against me it's hard not to be wary #of how hollow and performative a lot of conversations can be #and like i'll even say it. like people might get mad at me for admitting it #but that whole traumatic situation has irrevocably changed my relationship to gender as well #or at least how i label myself and how i move through these conversations #and in some ways i'm grateful for it bc i do feel like i know myself more and like i don't have to worry about what others' think #or even what other people understand #but it shouldn't have had to go down like that. and as much as the time i got to spend with scott during that time was so much fun #and such a great experience and he was truly the perfect support system during that time #he shouldn't have had to deal with that and neither should i #and the fact that scott somehow got villainized in some people's minds while the person who actually caused that trauma #is instead treated like ''yeah he was a bit misguided and made a mistake but he was probably anxious about it!! he's just a person!!''#that's never going to stop being painful. especially the idea that with the importance people put on labels #i would supposedly have more ''community solidarity'' with that asshole than a cis gay man like scott #idk i think i'm past the timeframe of that traumatic experience bc it's not consuming every day like it used to a few weeks back #but something triggered it tonight so i just need to process it. anyway shoutout to scott for being there for me i really needed it

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howthesleeplesswander · 5 months

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❛ i’m sorry, but i’m just thinking of the right words to say. ❜ // @Kazuma but... Masked Apprentice Kazuma?? 👀👀👀👀

Songs from the 80's Sentence Starters | Accepting! | @tenacquity

((hoooOOOWEE ARE YOU READY TO CRY?? 8'D I SURE HOPE SO, HERE WE GOOO))

The right words?

He may have laughed at the statement if he remembered how. If it weren't so cruel in its irony. For the words this man spoke didn't matter when the mere sound of his voice shook the Apprentice to his core.

Every time, without fail. After months of wandering the foggy London streets like a wraith plucked from a ghost story, the feeling of being utterly lost was never as powerful—or as weak—as in this man's presence.

He made the emptiness inside of him better, yet simultaneously worse. As the Apprentice watched him struggle to speak, he didn't recognize the churning depths of his eyes or the thoughtful crease to his brow—and that unfamiliarity ached unlike anything else. Earth-shattering, even though he couldn't understand it. Powerful enough to change everything if only he could remember.

And he wanted to, with a desperation he didn't know himself capable of feeling before their fateful meeting in the Prosecutor's Office only yesterday. But he couldn't. He'd tried. And the same thought crushed down upon his shoulders now as it did then:

What right did he have to something—to someone—he did not know?

He shouldn't be here.

He'd never intended to face him to begin with. With the halls of the Old Bailey dim and abandoned for the night, the Apprentice had been about to leave, too: prepared to spend another night searching for anything that might trigger his memories, if the other man hadn't found him first.

Wasn't this exactly what he'd wanted? No—not this. It was too much. Too painful.

The Apprentice took a step back. Then another. Each one soundless yet stilted as he battled against himself: trapped between a visceral urge to flee, to leave this man behind—and an equally powerful conviction that he couldn't. Not again.

—again?

He didn't...They didn't... Did they?

It was too much...!

In the end the Apprentice moved no further. He merely watched, dark eyes unreadable in the shadows of his mask and cloak. Silently weathering the tempest of nonsensical emotion surging through his rib cage. Waiting for something he didn't understand.

Or, perhaps, simply waiting for the right words.

#tenacquity #《⭒✩⭒ || answered ask 》#《⭒✩⭒ || interaction: sword of justice (kazuma) 》#《⭒✩⭒ || bond: there’s love above love and it’s ours (tenacquity) 》#ajdsfj;sdASDLDFJSDK THIS IS FINE #I'M FINE YOU'RE FINE EVERYTHING'S /FINE/ 8')))#catch me crying while writing this tbh 8'D BUT IT'S A GOOD KIND OF PAIN #HHHHH THESE POOR BBIESSS TTATT THEY'RE IMMEDIATELY BREAKING MY HEART I CAN'T TAKE IT #I'm still forever so mad that the game didn't do more with the two of them together at this point in the timeline #fINE WE WILL JUST DO IT OURSELVES DAMN IT 😤#I figured this could be somewhere in the process of Harebrayne's trial??#maybe the night after they investigate at the fairground and ryuu and susato have that lil interaction with kazuma ;;#if that works for you ofc!#also sorry this got long (again) aslkfj kazuma's immediately having a whole episode dON'T WORRY ABOUT IT #everything in him is pulling him towards ryuu #but he still can't remember him so he's just afraid and desperate and so confused T~T 💔#tysm for sending this bby! ;3;/ feel free to continue it if you want as always!

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thosewildcharms · 1 month

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to the anon who sent the lovely ask about episode 3x12, I know it's been a minute now since you've sent that but please know that I got it and I'm working on answering ❤️

#there are so many gorgeous thoughts and comments in that ask i want to make sure my response is coherent enough to do them justic lol #as it stands my brain is still processing 1x04 so i'm so sorry it's taking a while!#richonne

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soldier-poet-king · 1 year

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Reading James Baldwin essays at work and just. Tearing and biting and weeping.