#and i always feel dizzy

[despairots]

“stop sleeping everywhere or saying ur sleepy”

im anemic bro.

#kaz. 💫 #sick snd tird #of hearing that #like i cant control it #i get decent sleep #and im still tired #im extremely fatigued #like stop #anemic #anemia #i always have headaches?? #and i always feel dizzy #etc

[shallowrambles]

Look, I know Lisa’s behavior re: letting Dean, someone she hasn’t seen in nearly a decade, skulk around her child’s birthday party is best explained by him being The baby-daddy.

But here’s the rub: (1) the angels didn’t even sniff towards Ben and (2) Lisa is (relatively) honest. During the year Dean was actively with her, she would have likely told him. (Cause it’s no small thing.) Especially under The Truth curse where she ranted about the loss of loved ones/hunting. (My take: It’s a cheeky…red herring. Ben was hungry for a father-figure, and Dean’s relationship to him parallels Bobby Singer.)

So while it is a truth that would be kinder to Lisa’s behavioral health/motivations/etc, the latter plot points don’t support it. Yeah, I agree that it actually makes better sense as an initial explanation for her behavior in her intro ep. But these latter points transform her behavior’s root cause, leaning towards her as a (possibly chronic?) caretaker type of person.

We do see that she is caring! She’s got a caretaker persona from her first ep, driving her to help her neighbor. She’s a good friend! Because of the later plot points, we can assume this caretaker/gratitude aspect of her character is more the driver of her actions than hiding a paternity.

#i have a cousin who is a lisa #she’s always being uber caring in her off-time #she makes herself a part-time therapist for all manner of friends boyfriends etc #she’s so caring under she gets in The Situations where she has to put her foot down #but literally she is always in a Situation one way or another #she likes being a Helper #it’s how she’s wired #she can pick a damaged guy or girl out of a crowd to nurture it is Wild #my cuz is literally my bestie so i know i would get along w lisa #she over-extends herself #she’s a great orator when it comes to communicating boundaries #but there are so many C-minus lays that become Best Night of My life for her #and soooo many Best Years of My Life with Hreat Guys it makes me dizzy #she speaks with oozing kindness and with lots of exaggeration #like lisa #she swallows her real feelings to be The Cool Girl #she is chronically lonely #it’s a Type i know so well! #and i love her very much #she thinks bars and dangerous guys are So Hot but has no street smarts #she is more well off than us but always calling is in one of The Situations

[bi-shop]

penny had the worst posture ever which makes jane have to deal with constant back pains with no knowledge of why

#not an art post #ride the cyclone #legoland #penny lamb #jane doe #jane doe rtc #i am loving a very specific scenario in my head and it’s just ‘jane dealing with penny’s disaster of a body’ #gets confused over why she constantly feels dizzy before “oh . so i used to have a horrible sleep schedule” #“why does my stomach always hurt” her body is filled with unreleased stress

[clambuoyance]

I’ve never been so obsessed with a character so bad that I literally can’t do anything else I’m like the squidward meme watching SpongeBob frolic outside the window stretching a hand out to all the pretty paintings and animations and comics I see in my head but being unable to feel any motivation for it . If only i could use the energy spent to create 20 kon doodles to sit down and concentrate on a single finished full piece I used to be able to make like 5 page comics what happened to me

#sighs yes before anyone says anything IK it’s probably adhd related 😭 #BUT ITS GOTTEN SO BAD I CAN FEEL THE DIFFERENCE IN MY BRAIN HOW DID IT GET WORSE #it’s probably a mix of burnout too but I don’t get tired of drawing ? #it feels like when u get dizzy or change glasses or so #and it’s either everything is wayyy too in focus and you can see literally everything clearly that it hurts ur brain #which doesn’t help given how saturated w information the world is always #and simultaneously somehow everything is blurry or out of focus and I physically have to strain myself to hone in on one thing #I JUST WANNA READ COMICS AND FINISH A DRAWING AND HANDLE WORK AND SCHOOL AND TALK TO MY FRIENDS #ALL IN OME DAY #BUT MY BRAIN IS LIKE. TODAY IS ONLY FOR COMICS. YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ESLE #😫🫶 I’m deleting this later I’m just ranting LMAO #I’m highschool it’s crazy bc I did okay and then honestly i just think my ability to concentrate has deteriorated as the years have gone by #free me!!! #either way I want to lessen my social media and just pick One bc girl I have an Instagram a tumblr and a twitter this is horrible for me . #honestly I’ll probably pick instagram and just post on tumblr when I have art #I already do that #I mean when I have Good art. #IM RAMBLING IDK

[azoosepted]

i must draw bl don x kurokumo ishmael yuri i must draw bl don x kurokumo ishmael yuri i must draw bl don x kurokumo ishmael yuri i must [dies]

#nothing more gay than dueling eachother in a turf war amirite or amirite #“Ishmael began to notice a pattern.” #“Surely enough / the bright eyed Salsu always found her way to her / as if she were seeking out Ishmael specifically.” #“Their blades would always find themselves clashing against each other / no matter the place and time of conflict.” #“For whatever reason / Ishmael began to anticipate their duels.” #“She began to eagerly await each battle between the Kurokumo Clan and the Blade Lineage.” #“And when a fight erupted / Ishmael would scan the crowd for the petite swordswoman.” #“It was only a matter of time before she’d inevitably show up / dashing in with her blade in hand.” #“And then a long / lengthy / and passionate duel would be had between the two.” #“Only a few thousand duels later / and raised eyebrows (as well as questioning) from Heathcliff did Ishmael realize:” #“She had stopped attempting to purposefully harm her opponent.” #“It was certainly odd / Ishmael had to admit. The way she found herself lost in the swordswoman’s eyes…” #“Or the way she felt almost dizzy looking at the swordswoman’s smile… 'Cute' had been a word Ishmael used to describe that grin—” #“Which had earned her a couple of raised eyebrows from her clanmates (and in Rodya’s case / a snicker.)” #“It was surely nothing though / Ishmael thought to herself / as she gripped the hilt of her katana.” #“Another battle was about to break out / after all…” #“And she could worry about the implications of the sensations she feels when fighting against that particular somebody afterwards.” #if i had a nickel for wvery time i hijacked the tags to write an entire minific #id have two nickels #which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happened twice #anzu says shit #ishdon #limbus company #project moon #lcb ishmael #lcb don quixote

[silenthillbunni]

🍽️😔🎻

#soo blah blah need to vent again abt my health issue situation 💀 #yuh so like im so sick nd tired of whats going on. nd not being able to just eat whatever i feel like whenever #it's emotionall draining tbh. im always thinking abt what i could maybe try nd im always like ohh gotta make sure the portion is small etc #it's annoying me sm bc i can def feel the effects of me not getting the right nd enough nutrients nd vitamins etc etc #i get dizzy nd my vision is hazy sometimes. nd im like forgetful bc the other the when i walked home i kept getting lost nd had to walk back #nd forth several times nd i was like ?!?!? what?! i've lived here for 25yrs nd now i just cannot for the life of me rmbr the way #also i am so weak in my body. like carrying even a small amound or books nd groceries nd walking for 30min makes me exhausted #my legs are actually shaking when i get back home nd every step feels like im walking in cement #plus i just wanna be able to go to the gym nd build muscle. but if i dont get enough protein in me i cant build muscles T-T #what else... yeah also i do miss food bc of comfort. like my coffee + chcolate everyday makes me genuinely happy lmao #but i just want the food situation to be normal bc even w veggies im like oh no that is too gas building that is too hard to digest etc etc #it's mentally gruelling to not know how tf to get all the important nutrients!! i def have several deficiences lmao :(( #im so over it. but theres nothing i can do. i wish i could just not think abt it 24/7 tho #also. im the thinnest i've ever been BUT. i am constantly bloated so i look fkn pregnant. so i cant even enjoy looking the skinnier

[tillman]

Theres some bangers in here 👍

#sorry for shakey cam pics I cant overstate how miserable I feel rn. theres some images contained in this tho thats for sure #txt #for by your side so johnny is the crowd favorite for included the most LOL. theres a couple w him and testament and they make me a happy #grinner. testament my friend. #ONE. anji appearance. the one of the guild. and a handful of jam sightings …. #who else is by your side. uhhh. #OH. DIZZY. I forget shes from x and not the og LOL. shes in a ton. as she should be. #many axls as always. hes the star of all of these a lot of the time. cery cute image of him playing billiards #lots of very good sols. I like the sols in this one a ton. hes deviously cute. #id take more pics but my back hurts so bad. im laying back down. oopsie

[dutchwinter]

i miss being at ls dunes and when anthony would roll his eyes into the back of his head or shake sweat everywhere or other such things id go 'oh my god...' involuntarily out loud and like. i think i almost fell over a few times. i miss him i want to attack him let me AT him please

#i also miss it being so hot and screaming to the songs and dancing that i was out of breath and dizzy after every song #and feeling the fucking Bass #this bitch has bewitched me so hes got my knees buckling when hes not even that close to me and all hes doing is what he always does

[toestalucia]

been thinking about last anni again and the whole "captain is continuously murdered because they hesitate in dealing the last blow"

#stardust speaking ! #death// #makes me dizzy (negative) when thinking it came together with logia having a 'captain has to know loneliness to be strong' realization #my no1 mixed feelings to the event is due to that line cuz ? <-thinks its annoying #its so silly cuz i rly loved this anni but its arguably the one ive had the most issues with LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #and you my beloved beloathed #thinking about the last fight against logia makes me tear up always........the way the dialogue choice changed T___^ #as long as you dont give up........skydwellers can create miracles................................. #been thinking about those themes in msq too but thats another post ill get into someday #aurgh logia was so cool i think the entire concept of changing sprites depending on who u play as + having them switch is so so so so cool #i need to record some of their voice lines cuz auurrghh whenever they went 'do NOT touch my kid' i T_T yknow..

[liebelesbe]

thought my long covid getting worse now that i have a job would be better bc quote "last year I stayed home with long covid FOR FREE like an idiot. this time I'd at least get paid" but it's like... actually last time was better bc now I gotta prove I'm actually sick and feeling bad and not just trying to get out of work due to laziness. fucked up.

#doddie redet #what always fucks me up the most is the 'but CAN you *activity that is exhausting*??' and it's like. yes! probably! #but I'll feel terrible the entire time while I'm doing it and also feel terrible after. like sure I can go for a walk but it'll make me #super nauseous and dizzy. but I /can/ do it! easily! I did do it in fact! i hated it and I'm still feeling bad but I could even do it again #does this mean I should be going back to work because I could probably do it and not pass out maybe? I don't know!

[tempetejovienne]

Im gong to get a palm tattoo that says YOU ARE EXPERIENCING WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS so I can stop pretending I don’t know why I feel like shit every other week

Remember to take your meds friends

#it’s always #ugh I feel kinda dizzy and nauseous today idk what’s happening #ugh I feel like I’m going to burst into tears at minute for now reason with #ugh I’ve had a twitch in my eye for a couple days what’s up with that #ugh even with 9 hours of sleep im still exhausted #ugh why do I feel like lying on my bed and staring at the ceiling instead of doing literally anything else #you are experiencing withdrawal symptoms #dumbass

[the-yearning-astronaut]

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#tbd #☉ #lemme start by prefacing this with I KNOW there's no real normal way to be human #ok i get that #but fucking HELL I wish i was normal #i wish my health was normal for my age #i wish i wasn't fucking. neurodivergent #im fine with being queer but ffs why am i in between normal queer and accepted Aroace-ness #why am i abnormal in that regard too #i wish I didn't alienate people i wish i didn't have to explain why im extra quiet and moody and minutes from a meltdown #i wish my hands and feet wouldn't swell up and hurt and burn and I wish i could take a fucking shower without feeling dread #because i had the water temp set to hot and now im dizzy and my heart is racing and im overheating -- alternatively I wish #i didn't feel so self conscious because i DONT shower every day or even every other day like i dont like when my hair goes limp either! #and i use deodorant everyday and wipe off when i can but i have fuckin Let's Sweat Buckets For No Reason Disorder so i always look and feel #like a drowned rat. im tired of being tired but not being able to sleep. im tired of not being able to explain that yes its really not you #its me. me wanting to be alone has nothing to do with you ok its my brain deciding to fuckin shut down because everything is too much rn #& idk how to tell you that im at my wits end but if you treat me with kidd gloves i WILL go off like a fuckin bomb. just treat me NORMAL ffs #just treat me normal 😭 i just want to be normal. i want to be able to sit down and just do my application stuff instead of #staring at a blank document for weeks and then wanting to throw things as the deadline approaches ( #its due friday and i have absolutely nothing written lmao) and idk if its executive dysfunction or anxiety or my tendancey to self sabotage #but either way im so fuckin fucked. im NOT in the headspace rn for writing a graduate school application letter. #trying hard not to cry rn bcs my friend and her parents are sleeping already bcs they have a 9-5 sleeping schedule to fit their 9-5 jobs #like i dont even have a normal sleeping schedule lmao mine's 2-10. i just don't understand why im so broken or whatever. not normal. #& i feel bad for bitching about it all bcs objectively i have a pretty decent life. i have a home i have food i have a family that loves me #im just back to feeling like im too much and also not enough and im so fuckin lonely. im tired of feeling lonely. and i think #ive got a platonic crush or two. or something. and idk how to handle that anymore. if i ever did. #idk idk i feel like im back to looking at the world and passersby through frosted glass again.

[nonbinarygamzee]

dude wtffff this is the second fall ive had this week :(

#feels like bad jounts r suddenpy getting sm worse. anf im always dizzy. currently kindnof scared to get off thos bench bc i almost passed ou #ughhhh

[wantbytaemin]

good god.. been dealing with THINGS. very many of them

#i worked from home this whole week and only went in today and it was expectedly super exhausting and not productive #but i also worked the whole weekend too and i am so totally spent like burnt out emotionally and on every other level LMAO. anyway #i came home to roommate and she was like oh I was hoping you’d want to go for a walk and i was like listen my love i am not in shape to #even breathe-in breathe-out right now without falling apart and she was like ok got it! and went for the walk herself and she brought back #my favorite sour candies and my favorite watermelon cider and . oh my god get this i’ve been meaning to replace the battery on my AirTag i #keep in my car bc I always park it where the fuck ever and forget #and she actually got me the AirTag as a bday gift but i digress. anyway i always forget which battery i need and she went and bought it for #me and said this is to ‘refill your battery hehe’ and i’ve also . been told some other things like borderline incredible things (positive) #(not by her but well. someone else. shan’t say it and such) #and it’s just sooooo much all at once i feel like i’m exploding i need to decompress for one thousand years #like this is mostly positive trust me i just have not been shown love for so direly insanely long and now im receiving it in a genuine way #and idk how to even deal with it or how to express my gratefulness like how do you. how do you begin to give all of that back im dizzy

[simmaster]

too scared to watch secretary 2002 bc i worry it will reveal to myself that i do in fact only find james spader hot when he is voicing a killer robot

#this is not a joke when i think about ultron i feel dizzy. hottest character in the entire mcu #too many people joking about wanting to fuck machines/robots and not meaning it #when i was like 11 i went to universal studios and they had one of those evil transformers idk what theyre called #like a reallt realistic proper metal mascot costume. or maybe it was just an animatronic #anyway the point is i had a crush on it. so i have always been like this #recently was looking at pics from that holiday and there is in fact a photo of that exact robot #and i can confirm its still hot #micah.txt

[tired-biscuit]

i’m adding little by little to this story that i’m writing between moments of free time during my day and it’s so fun and amazing to me and i haven’t had so many ideas and inspiration for a fic in a long while

thank you all for being so patient with me. i know i haven’t been posting much of my usual stuff as of late, but i haven’t written a (to me) decent one-shot in such a long time and this one actually feels like it could be my pride and joy and i just— !!!!!!!!!

#werewolf cock has got me feeling dizzy hehehe #but like it’s not just smut ya know #it’s got actual plot and a backstory and they’re so cute and AGHHHHH #i can’t wait to post this mf istg #i just don’t know when it’ll be cos i’m always working ya knowww