#and there's like ZERO stuff for him on here

[envysparkler]

Jason might’ve mentioned a passing interest in meeting Robin—the old Robin, because he was going to be the new Robin, only judging from the low, furious conversation and the death glares, Bruce hadn’t exactly mentioned that to Nightwing—but he wasn’t expecting Bruce to leave him alone with the guy.

“Justice League emergency,” Bruce had interrupted, cutting off Dick’s half-hearted tour of the parts of the Cave Jason hadn’t explored, and disappeared through a zeta tube with a simple behave for Jason and a growled watch over him for Dick.  Leaving Jason with the guy that spent the entire visit seething in unconcealed distaste.

Alfred wasn’t home, he had left on one of his rare days off, or perhaps he was aware of the cloud of tension that formed whenever Dick and Bruce got too close to each other, and Jason understood that heroes and emergencies were a part of life, but he didn’t enjoy that that meant that Jason and Dick were left alone in the abruptly resoundingly empty Cave.

“Right,” Dick muttered, not quite under his breath, “I don’t know why I ever expect anything different.”  The bitterness was palpable.  “Two and half goddamn hours, and he leaves to space.”

Jason shrunk back slightly.  It had been clear from the start that this visit was not for him, and his desire to meeting the original Robin had fast dwindled in favor of getting out of ground zero before Bruce and Dick actually started yelling.

Dick blew out a sharp breath and turned on his heel, suddenly enough that Jason flinched.  Dick froze, staring at him like he’d forgotten that Jason existed.  Jason couldn’t read the expression on his face, and didn’t think he wanted to.

“Jason,” Dick said, carefully pronouncing his name.  His blue eyes were sharp and cold.  “So.  New Robin, huh.”  His face stretched into a smile that looked warm for all that it was plastic.

“Yup,” Jason said, inching back another step.  “Uh, it was nice to meet you.  I guess I’ll see you around.”

“Where are you going?”  Perfectly level, calm and even, but it still forced a chill down his spine.

Jason had been terrified of Batman, but terrified in the way he was of shadows and ghosts.  Abstract.  Not real.  Once Batman had proved himself to be human, all that was left was a man—large and trained and dangerous, but who got scolded by his butler and forgot to put on matching socks and bought Jason a stepstool to reach the books on the tallest shelves.

Bruce wasn’t scary.

Not the way that Richard Grayson seemed to be.  Quicksilver manipulation of his expressions, smiling when he didn’t mean it, and cold, cold eyes—Jason wasn’t reminded of monsters or demons.  He was reminded of the gang members that watched him ducking into alleys with just a little too much intent, the narrowed eyes of his mother’s dealer, the bright, fake smiles that marked the cops he had to run from.

And Jason was here with him, all alone.  Robin—Nightwing—trained and dangerous and currently looking at Jason like he wanted to leave him in pieces for Bruce to find.

Jason had read a book with facts about robins just last week.  Robins are territorial birds, and disputes can get physical.  Fights to the death often occur.

“Upstairs?”  Jason hated the way it turned into a question.  “I was reading a book, and—um, I wanted to finish it?”

“We haven’t finished our tour,” Dick said, and Jason had preferred the low-voiced hiss to the casual neutrality.  “Come on, there’s lots of cool stuff here I bet Bruce hasn’t shown you yet.”

Jason dithered in place, casting a glance at the stairs—Dick was already walking away, heading for the back of the Cave—but as much as common sense was shrieking at him to stay away, go upstairs, don’t stay down in the dimly lit cave with the guy that hates you, Jason was still the kid that looked at the Batmobile and decided to steal some tires.

“Fine,” Jason said, hurrying up to match Dick’s pace.  “But I don’t know what you can show me that Bruce hasn’t already.”

“Oh,” Dick’s expression twitched, something flashing for a second, “You’d be surprised.”

~#~

Jason, mouth agape and neck protesting as he stared up at the acrobatics equipment, was speechless.  Dick was breathless and flushed and grinning widely, and fuck, this was what Jason had wanted to see.  Not Bruce’s sulky other son, or the cold, dangerous Nightwing, but Robin.

“Bruce showed you that yet?” Dick teased, calling down to him from where he was swinging upside down from the ring.

“How do you do that?” Jason breathed out, too amazed to feign at disinterest.  Dick had moved like he was an actual fucking bird, like gravity was for lesser things.

“Practice,” Dick laughed, flipping off from the ring and flopping down on the safety net.  Even across the rope, he was all fluidity and grace, flipping once more before he reached the ground.

“Bullshit,” Jason rebutted, looking up at the silks and the ropes and the swings, the scaffolding, the way Dick flew—“Tell me the truth. You’re a meta, aren’t you.”

Dick laughed again, bright and twinkling.  He looked much happier than the sullen teenager that had met Bruce’s hesitant hope with a scowl.  “Nope, just practice.  Grew up in the circus.  I could fly before I could run.”

“That’s so cool,” Jason said, looking back up at the scaffolding.  “Can you teach me how to do that?”  Flying through the air, spinning and flipping without a care in the world, unbound by physical constraints…it sounded like the best thing in the world.  It sounded like freedom.

It took him too long to realize that Dick hadn’t responded.  He turned towards the older boy and saw Dick stock still, expression frozen in a pinched grimace.  When he saw Jason staring at him, he turned away.  “Sure,” Dick said, in a voice that wasn’t even remotely believable, and Jason flushed at the reminder that Dick didn’t want him here.  “Maybe later.  You need a lot of training first.  How about you show me what Bruce is teaching you so far?”

There was a bite to the words, and Jason had too much of Gotham in him to not respond to the challenge.  “Was that an offer to kick your ass?” Jason retorted, stalking past Dick and towards the sparring area.  Need a lot of training first.  Well, while perfect Richard Grayson had been growing up in the goddamn circus, Jason had been living on the streets.  He knew how to fight.  “I’m ready when you are, Dick.”

That cold smile was back, like Dick was trying to figure out just where he wanted to stick the knife, and Jason thrummed impatiently on the balls of his feet as Dick slowly made his way to the sparring area.

#my snippets #dick&jay #first meeting

[quartings]

The original Gravity Falls pitches and pilot just dropped!!

(Link for those who want it)

For those who don't wanna look through all of it, here are some highlights I found!

Interesting changes from the pitch (What Alex Hirsch showed Disney to make them greenlight the show):

Stan’s secret was that he’s secretly protecting the townsfolk from weirdness, nothing to do with Ford. No mention of Ford in the pitch at all. Stan also wanted Dipper and Mabel to be his successors in this version.

Mabel used to be the unhygienic one instead of Dipper.

Wendy was brunette and didn’t work as the Mystery Shack cashier, instead selling veggie juice out of her van.

As such, Soos (Jesús in this version) worked the register in addition to his handyman job in this version. He was a bit less of a hard worker here, watching telenovelas on the job sometimes, but still loves his job and is extremely loyal to Stan.

Robbie was almost exactly the same, parents’ backstory and all, but there’s an interesting note that he occasionally clashed with Gideon in this version (which we never got in the final show)

Speaking of which, Gideon’s last name in this version was Garrymore instead of Gleeful.

Gideon used to personally harass and prank Stan, going out of his way to vandalize Stan’s stuff himself.

Manly Dan was always planned to be Wendy’s dad. In this version, he hates the idea that his hipster daughter prefers conserving the environment instead of chopping down forests

(For those who wanted more Wendy episodes, I’m surprised Hirsch didn’t use this as a conflict for one of them- it makes her interesting without costing any of her “coolness”)

Sheriff Blubs was originally Sheriff “Blumps”. Durland has the same name likely because Hirsch said he’s named after a real guy.

With no Ford and no Journal mentioned, episodes were originally very different-

“The President’s Cabinet/Irrational Treasure.” Instead of via the journal, Dipper and Mabel find a record of Quentin Trembley in a box buried in the yard. No Pacifica mentioned here.

“Secret Dungeon” Dipper becomes obsessed with a recalled arcade cabinet. Mabel must try and save him by finding the original high scorer.

“Thtupid Thursday” One of the many ‘Shining Twins’ episode concepts Hirsch wanted to do. Dipper and Mabel learn ‘twin telepathy’ from some creepy twins, and soon regret it.

“Periodic Mabel” Mabel invents her own element for the science fair and Dipper is jealous.

“Only the Clonely/Boyz Crazy” The exact same episode just without Candy and Grenda. Sev’ral Timez is called “ReelBoyzzz” in this version.

“Big Dipper” With surprisingly no tie to Little Dipper, Dipper asks a fortune teller to make him older so he can win Wendy over. But she makes him 22, so he and Mabel have to undo the spell.

“Sweater off Dead” Mabel buys an antique sweater and is possessed by the soul of the granny who last wore it. Stan is terrified by the spirit because she reminds him of his ex-wife Marilyn (Deep Edalyn Clawthorne lore???) so Dipper must “Swexorcize” his sister and save her.

“Teed Off/The Golf War” With no Pacifica, this was originally a Dipper vs Gideon episode- No Lilliputtians, either. Instead, the 13th hole is cursed and traps the cast in a time loop.

Now, changes from the Production Pitch (I’m guessing for when the show was already greenlit and this was a way to brief crew members on what the show would 100% be about)

Stan’s secret (likely the portal) and the journal are now set in stone.

Emphasis on continuity and character development. Nothing gets “reset” by next episode. All plot developments are permanent.

All character names and designs are locked in. Pacifica has now been added, as well as Waddles, Gompers, Lazy Susan, Candy and Grenda, and McGucket (No mention or hint at his past here)

Interesting to note is that there is still zero outright mention of Ford and Bill in this version, even though multiple episodes were seemingly in production at this point.

Manly Dan’s conflict with Wendy from the original pitch is still here. Making it even more mindblowing that we never got it in the show

Blubs and Durland are described as a little more playful instead of mean like in the original pitch.

All episode examples made it into the show with no changes this time. They are Tourist Trapped, Legend of the Gobblewonker, Fight Fighters, Boyz Crazy, and The Land Before Swine.

#gravity falls #gravity falls pitch #q speaks #alex hirsch

[bleach-your-panties]

OMFG I'M SOBBING.

#i want him so damn bad #this don't make no mf sense #he lives in my head and my cooch mortgage free #smfh #i have been down bad but never THIS bad #lawd hammercy #bleach izuru #and there's like ZERO stuff for him on here #kira izuru #izuru kira #💗💗🍡°thirsting #💗💗🍡°thirsty thursday

[mossyflowers]

I can't do this anymore just take it. Take the ace combat art. I'm going to explode

#I BET EVERYONE FORGOT I WAS AN ART GUY BEFORE I WAS A FUNNY 5 MINUTES OF FAME INTERNET GUY HUH #anyways yeah just. yeah #we'll see if i ever post the million other doodles i have. #considering cleaning up one in particular because i do reaaally like it but erbrbbrb #but yea! cipher! silly guy! he's an oc to me at this point aside from the fact i physically cannot remove him from pixy #might chatter abt him at some point because i like the stuff i can up with #dont expect a lot of art in the near future tho because um. erm. i may or may not be working on a fic that is currently over 30000 words? #if you wanna read that it's on ao3 you can look for it but i am 99% sure i will not advertise it here just because #ace combat #ace combat zero #cipher ace combat

[bibiana112]

One of my favorite character traits that Junpei has is how as much as he's protective and caring to his favorite people and impulsively jumps into danger to help others if he has an opportunity to without wanting anything in return and highly values the promises he makes he just seems to also always be more curious than he is sensible or empathetic, he gets so caught up on the horrors he sees but he has such a hard time looking away, he's right to analyze and be intrigued by the ninth man's remains but he stands around staring at it until he pukes, in the showers you can interact with the wall behind which lies "Snake's" corpse and he will pick up more details about it each time you click on it until he has to mentally rip himself away because it's not that he can't keep looking at it it's that he better look away and focus on getting out, and the way he talks to Clover about the body with every minutiae she wouldn't want to hear is like his brain connects faster to his mouth than it can connect to his sense of morality sometimes which I guess turned out to be a good thing in this one case or just good common sense in general like there's other minor things he blurts out at times, he's stated to not have tact be his strongest suit, he's insensitive on accident trying to fumble through interactions even if he's entirely confident on what he's saying he's soo sharp when he has a goal in mind but he's soo dense if he's trying to just exist my man is so traumatized and his brain always seems to default to taking the most of any given situation in as possible to desensitize himself instead of any other response and sometimes it pushes his mind to be so single mindedly entranced on not ending up that way too that he'll describe a mangled body in excruciating detail to a grieving relative even if that's his friend and even if he feels guilty about it immediately as soon as he catches up with what just left his mouth instead of staying in his thoughts

#I did it I made a post about Junpei without talking about the Kurashikis!! #I am... still doing that here in the tags because that's how this train of thought started but... akdhsk #like I just started thinking how even in the everything is fine and junepei still has the capacity to be a healthy couple AU in my head #he would still have moments™ like this #how he would make invasive little questions about uncomfortable things to reminisce about #not realize he's overstepping right away not deal in the best way with Akane's meltdowns if she's doing bad enough to have them #kind of like in door 3 as in still being touchy and stuff but nothing bad on purpose #nothing like pushing her around like I still can't believe he canonically does in zero tiem dilemma #but yeah basically that's it that's the post I like Junpei a lot despite not being as present in my every waking thought as other character #and I love this about him love that he isn't just completely heroic that he has to struggle a bit #he's a protagonist that feels so generic for the first few minutes but he's anything but the more you play #I love how No One in ze is a good flawless person the way stories usually portray #they have quirks and hang ups that they are capable of doubling down on or turning for the worse under circumstances that push them to #again not. really including zerotiemdillema on that one but you get what I mean #zero escape #zero escape spoilers #999 spoilers #junpei 999 #junpei tenmyouji #every character in this series who ultimately wants to do good has to struggle so much with the horrors around them and in themselves for i #and then there still aren't right simple answers and they still try for the slim possibility that things can be okay this time and I love i #escape room convention but it's a time loop

[abrushwithdeath]

@thcangriestboy It happened so fast. He knew it was an accident. Just a brush of skin while he and Rogue were alone out on the grounds. They were always careful, too careful. They weren't even *doing* anything that would mean a likelihood of touching. He knew it only took a second. He'd felt a little queasy, but hoped Rogue wouldn't be hit with much, some light telekinesis, maybe. Minor telepathy. It could be fun, right? "My dad says it's a bad idea to just go to the astral plane while your powers - or my powers - are unstable. We'll just ride it out here. Are you -- Are you feeling okay?" He asked tentatively.

She felt like it was her fault. She'd not been paying attention, talking, and almost tripped. It shouldn't have constituted more than a laugh. But David had reached out to grab her arm, to steady her, and all it took was the brush of a finger against the barely exposed skin at her wrist...

She heard what he was saying, but, for just a moment, he felt distant. That wasn't entirely unusual after her powers had kicked in. A bit of disorientation was normal, though it usually came with longer contact than the brief second they'd shared. She just had to blink it away, welcome herself back to the present. Are you feeling okay? "Yeah." She assured him. It was the truth. She felt fine. Well, as fine as she could feel when she was still worried she'd hurt him. "Yeah, no, yeah... I'm fine." Clearly David was too. He was talking to her. He was checking on her. Maybe she hadn't really taken anything from him at all. That would be the best case scenario, right? "Yer a'right?" She asked, tossing the question back his way just to be sure. Even if he seemed okay, she couldn't not check on him.

Except that concern was short lived because, rather suddenly, she was well aware that something was wrong. The voices started first. The thing was- Rogue was used to hearing voices of other people in her head, she heard them all the time. But most of those, aside from a stray few that she had stolen too much from, were almost... static. They repeated the same things a lot, like NPCs in a shitty video game. A student reciting facts for a history test. A man worried his wife would find out about his affair. One spoke lewd thoughts. Another was caught in prayer. She knew them each by face, by sound, and she knew how their voices would cycle in and out of a one-person conversation until they eventually faded from her forever. This was not that. It felt so different, in fact, that she paused to look around them, as if anticipating the voices were coming from elsewhere. From a person hiding in a tree nearby. Or slinking across the ground. But there was no one. Just her and David. They had to be from somewhere though.

In hindsight, she should have realized that she'd maybe taken something from him after all- some symptoms of his illness. But she hadn't experienced them before herself. Her only basis for what he endured was, well, what he said. What little he explained. So then, why should it have occurred to her, in this moment, that what she was hearing (or seeing) wasn't entirely real? Eyes still darting about, searching, she grabbed at David's wrist. Her gloved fingers held a little tighter than she should have. Despite being a girl who wasn't really scared of much, she looked borderline terrified. "I don't think we're alone..." She told him quietly, so that she wouldn't be overheard. Someone was out there with them. That was the only explanation. And it made all the more sense when she thought she saw something out of the corner of her eye, head whipping to the right to search for it to no avail. "We should go... go back inside... somethin's not right..."

#thcangriestboy #((Starting off slow w/ voices because she's used to hearing voices and think she kind of gets it but SHE DOESN'T. #She's pretty sure they made it out of that skin contact without her taking anything from him but- she's very wrong xD)) #((Also- feel free to throw ideas at me! Things that plague him most commonly and such! #Since it's HIS illness she's taken and is living with for the moment I think it would make sense for similar symptoms etc #stuff that David could be like ''Okay I know what she's going through right now and how to handle it- more or less'' lol)) #((Also also- correct me on stuff if you need to! I've never written it before so zero experience here;;))

[absolutely-zero-regrets]

It's been like half a year, but. Clark ref! (He's still lost in that IKEA, by the way.)

#I didn't forget about him! Just got sidetracked by other stuff; y'know how it is #I wasn't going to post this here but figured like why not. Actually finished this a couple nights ago #Ack tumblr made him look all blurry! Click for quality! #kirby #awoofy #oc stuff #zero draws

[realboutfatalfury]

finally got back to playing zero escape

#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. ok. yay. <- so astonished #spoilers for puzzles and the ending i got? whoooooo care/////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// #/////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////<- just to be real sur #i want to get every ending before the true ending and um. wow only got to finishing one today bc um. yeah #i thought the ending with clover you knooooooooooooooowww....... was fucked up but this. holy fuck? holy fuuuuuuuuck #hated the puzzles in door 6 second half. fuuuuuuuck that shit i hate pushing boxes I HATE FINDING 3 DIGITS WHERE THE SUM IS 15. #fuck that one in particular... #i thought it was finding numbers with the digital root of 6 bc F is the 6th later but no.. i gotta find 15 bc of hexadecimal stuff... #but my first guess is not wrong technically bc 15 does have the digital root 6 but still.... #anyways. snaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaake um was seeing him again but also not bc. ☹ #fuck fuck fuuuuuuck i literally stopped at the part where things get crazay. clover tells me snake has a prosthetic arm swag. #later we find his ''body'' and his left arm is a real arm. inchresting. #thought this haaaaaas to come back. and it did. ☹ #AND THEN ACE. 😲 <- my face when finding out the truth #AND THEN CLOVER. clover 😭 #god i'm still like just sitting here processing. woafsdjkfsnjks #AND THEN SNAKE. SNAAAAAAAAAAKE #also the zero bracelet being 6... what does this meaaan?????????!!!!!?!? and zero at the end. and akane disappearing WHA TDOES IT MEAN #well find out next time on gabe plays zero escape after not playing it for 2ish years. lol

[snekdood]

#why am i writing this comic #i hate him so much lmao #i just wanna write about my other ocs but ig since hes the villain hes gotta be annoying and intrusive and creepy like that #my ocs #my comic #every moment zero is not on a page is a moment i cherish #and its like. yeah i cold just draw a snake n pals comic. but those arent supposed to be as serious yknow #im tryna write a gay romance drama comedy fantasy sci fi supernatural action horror western anime over here okay sdhhvfbdf #and i cant do that w snake n pals bc its basically a meme comic based off the main comic #BUT I CANT MAKES JOKES ABOUT THE MAIN COMIC IF NO ONE ELSE KNOWS WTF IM REFERENCING SEDHJFSDHVG #SO #here we are #im basically writing this comic a. for the gay sex n stuff. and b. because i need the context for when i make snake n pals comics sdhjfsdg

[maladaptivedaydreamsx]

i stayed up til like 9am the night before just to binge read clavis' route for the lucky time (had like 100 unused chapter tickets bc im always behind as hell-) anyway uuhh so i decided to say fuck the order for once and skipped sariel's to go straight into rio's route bc ive waited like 2yrs for this and i am lwjsidehiejdd ALL up in my rio feels all over again rn. i can safely say that much.. he's always been one of my faves and i love how sweet and badass he is and so far his route has just been phenomenal imo🤩

#aerin.txt #abt; ikepri #.....yes that means i barely got like 2hrs of sleep before work..but i just took a nap during my lunch cause fuggit #not my smartest decision. but at least i didn't spend an exorbitant amount on gacha.. again. I'll take the sleep deprivation ty;;;;;; #my insomnia does that often enough anyway 🫠 #haven't been able to focus on one thing for so long long that in ages lol #also binge read what i had left of shigezane's route over in slbp the day prior #been taking a break from a lot of my stuff since ive been feeling unwell these days and just been reading a lot tbh #also why i haven't been on here much..... despite having like 19373847 screenshots now #ah whelp. just the way the cookie crumbles ig #ended up clearing out the current collection event so I'll try to post some stuff from there soon for you loves #the rio card/story absolutely melted my heart... gosh i just love him sm #my taste is so fuckin apparent it's hilarious #yves licht and rio have basically been my top faves since like... before we even got the game localized fkrjfjf pmsl #im nothing if not consistent ig #atp im calling my type 'seisunderes' bc i always end up liking the seisos & tsunderes hfjdjdjfjf #......arthur is kinda (majorly) the exception to this.. but i digress 🥴 #luka harr zero kyle yukimura mitsunari ieyasu isaac yves licht rio- i could just go on and on over here 😅

[fruitsyrups]

Miles 🙂🥺🥹🥰☺️🤗😌😊😇😁

#this is just my brain right now. he is so cool. #argrhekajHhhh. i need to sleep. i also reslly need to do schoolwork like ive got shit due URGENTLY SO VERY SOON #but i just want to draw miles #ive been figuring out how i wanna draw him & when i eventually get around to doing smth digitally i'll post it :]]] #just doing secret sketchbook stuff for now though. because people irl see my sketchbook and Noone Can Know. #the chances of anyone ever even getting the chance to make that connection are so low. but not zero... so. yah. miles is so awesome #though #blorbo microwave spinning SO fast right now. like the microwave is broken it is not supposed to be spinning this fast. #imagine theres a gif of a microwave here and its sped up like 200x #so fast

[crimsongrimoire]

i have been trying to write lately and it's been insubstantial but of course I get struck by absolutely random inspiration at work huh

#crow.txt #kaeluc #genshin #snippets #angst #have i even USED that tag #sfw #god i just very much love the idea of kaeya (with diluc ONLY cause hes not telling anyone else) just like #happening to think of Everything and flippantly go haha crazy how things work right? #and for diluc to look him dead in the eye (figuratively at least unless/until i change stuff around here) and go #no thats actually extremely fucked up that you were subjected to that. its not right and it should never have happened much less to a child #possibly even going so far as to flat out say kaeya is stronger than he ever could be because he cant fathom how he would ever live with it #if it had happened to him instead #and kaeya having an extremely strong moment of oh. he's right huh. #like sure hes probably had the thought himself but there was nobody he could TELL and have it AFFIRMED for him that hes not being selfish #to not want to have to live with something like that #and for it to be DILUC that tells him? OUT LOUD? directly indelicately (toward everyone else not kaeya) and not mincing words at ALL? #indelicate isnt quite the word but yknow. zero regard for whoever thought it was okay to do that #like just KILL ME at that point. im already fucking dying #absolutely losing my mind over this #imagine!! the relief!!!! he cant change it sure BUT at least he FINALLY fucking has someone go thats fucked up and youre allowed to hate it #kaeya being flippant abt his own trauma is going to Fucking Kill Me. #over a week since ive posted something decent. shameful smh. idk if theres anything else worth sharing yet tho.. #i just need kaeya to be told that it WASNT his fault and hes NOT inherently irredeemably horrible forever because of shitty circumstances #or else i will fucking explode cartoonishly like a water balloon full of red paint #grabbing his shoulders and shaking him like a ragdoll. its fucked up and you dont have to laugh it off all the time I Promise.

[bushido-jack]

//Something I relate to with Samurai Jack, is that feeling of life finding every opportunity to push you back down, to kick your legs out from under you, bring you to your knees, leave you screaming, in pain, desperate, on fire. And yet to persevere, not just for your sake, but because you don’t see any other way. And somehow, even limping, you’ll find a way to wring out peace, happiness, contentment, love, and passion from this never ending path of pain. If you are to suffer, but there is no other way, there must be joy to be gripped with white knuckles and hungry claws, to fight for peace and to strive for hope even in the midst of all your anger and confusion and despair.

I may feel like there’s no way out, but I’ve got to keep moving. There are people out there depending on me to not give up. I can’t let these forces trying to cut my journey to an abrupt end win— even if I’m tired, even if I feel like it’s too much. When I feel alone, I let my mind picture what they’d want, I let myself mourn and wonder and wish, but I don’t let it give up. I can’t go see you yet. I have more to do. Watch me and I will see you when my work is done. But I will hold onto you for all of my life. I will make my life a service to you, my actions a memorial that can be trailed to you. In every move I make I will tell the ones I love, gone and with me, “this is for you, this is for you,” and when I live, even with tears and anger and joy, “this is for you.”

#『名誉: musings』 #『 out of robes 』 #『 meta 』 #『 sharkie chews the scenery 』 #//and maybe someday once the oppressive darkness doesn’t feel so close I can say ‘this is for me too’. #//hi guys I bet you weren’t surprised when I didn’t actually start rping again after trying to come back #//that’s because I posted that promo got zero response and felt discouraged #//and then life threw every awful thing it had at me. #//I feel like haven’t been able to do anything but fight to survive lately. been in a bad place #//and right as new year’s started I lost a very very beloved friend and pet unexpectedly and too soon #//I’ve lost a lot of loved ones these past few years. it builds up. I think this last loss was the most unexpected though. #//since then I’ve been in a worse state mentally that I probably have been since high school #//but I refuse to give up hope because that’s what helped me climb out of my last endless pit #//I’ve been really wanting to write Jack again since I posted the promo but haven’t really had much I could do #//plus I’ve been battling all this irl stuff and it’s made it hard to find much left over for hobbies #//but I’m posting this both as a love letter for jack and for those here I care about #//and to say I’m still here. I won’t abandon Jack I don’t think. he means too much to me #//I’m thinking if I start rping him again I’m going to worry less about cosmetics and worry more about getting something written #//I’ve been worried about trying to be presented in a nice aesthetic fashion but tbh I think that’s blocking me from actually doing things #//I’d like to do a soft restart and maybe focus more on the people I know have talked to me and talk to them #//hopefully you will have me back after to much time away and waffling to get started again. I had decent reasons but still #//being away does a lot to severe decent connections #//anyway. Jack means Hope and Healing to me. no matter how much he goes through it isn’t about the pain. #//it’s about the Herculean yet incredibly human task of overcoming constant and monumental odds because you care. #//because at your core is hope and passion and love. #//I‘ve been crying writing this so it’s probably very sappy and unpolished but I’m not sorry lol #//listening to my old playlists I used to play on loop whenever writing Jack or thinking about him and it made me emotional

[meowstix]

So the reason g-rev Kai feels so different is because g-rev was closer to the manga with how they wrote him. In the manga, Kai's grabdfather was unrelated to Borg (still an abusive piece of shit), and Kai uses beyblading as an outlet for his anger, as well as an act of rebellion (Kai's father abandoned his family for blading, which caused his grandfather to hate blading itself). The Yuya incident also never happened in the manga

Which then takes us to the BEGA arc. So the manga ended with the world championship arc. BEGA was a scrapped concept that concept, but there was an early draft of it. Takao Aoki, the creator of the manga, also had more creative control over the anime, since he didn't have his editor (Zeo being an android was also a scrapped manga concept. And the manga was darker with that by making him real!Zeo's younger brother who was manipulated into thinking he was the real Zeo)

The entire BEGA arc was lifted from an early draft for a manga arc. A manga arc that was written without considering anything the anime did differently. Volkov and Kai's relationship wasn't acknowledged because of how minor it was in the manga. Kai joined BEGA because that was consistent with the manga characterization. And because of how different the anime and manga were, it meant that they essentially got a completely different character and put him in Kai's place

Sidenote, but the dub changed the dialogue in Kai's fight with Brooklyn substantially. They made Brooklyn someone who enjoys blading because he's naturally good at it, and Kai calls him out for never putting any effort into bettering himself

i knew kai's backstory was different in the manga + that the yuya incident never happened there. but the fact that they just.. didn't change a THING to make sure this fit into the anime. yowch.

#the zeo stuff sounds FUCKED though good god #i.. don't think i'm very interested in manga kai though granted like no fuckin wonder i'm not they just dropped him in the anime #with zero explanation as to him being Like This #there's a joke i could make here about pokespe from what i've read of it feeling boring in the same way #i'm just not sure exactly what that joke is #overall i don't know if this makes things better or worse #you've got mail! #beyblade

[the-halfling-prince]

Having a special interest that has been shit lately really sucks ass.

#This is about httyd. Like goddamn I hate the nine realms so fucking much but I'm still gonna fucking watch it #They really went ''all the characters you know and love are dead. Here's a white boy with zero swag an astrology girlie with zero swag #an rotc kid with only a little bit of swag and Alex. Have fun'' #Also out of all of the main characters- the MAIN main character has nothing that sets him apart from normal people. He's just some guy #The others all have their quirks and interests and stuff but he's literally Just Some Guy (derogatory)

[chanxoxyeol]

I have to smoke marijuana everyday after work before I enter my apartment because if I didn’t I’d say something so mean to my roommate on accident (because work creates bad mood and overstimulation) that would end our entire relationship and he’s my only friend left and I’m doing everything I can to keep him around as long as I can before he decides I’m too much and leaves me too

#gmhahhahahahaa #spiraling #I bought him tickets to see txt in May for his birthday #and he told me he’s nervous to take time off work for it #EXCEPT #he has 90 - NINE ZERO- NINETY HOURS OF FREE PTO HE CAN USE #and so obviously my brain deciphered that as ‘he doesn’t want to go with me because he’d rather do stuff with my ex friends #who are still his friends #anyways I hate feeling like this but here we are #hahah #gonna kms #im not mad at him #but god it’s so frustrating when the only friend you have still has other friends they like more