#and they wouldnt judge me if i fucked up

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

#MOTHER FFFFUCKER #to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants #im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night #at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn #to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS #the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori #but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey #consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!! #just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick #outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to #animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better #at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH #i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc #im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over #where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands #there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE #ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles #but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your #health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!! #im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves #also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet #im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to #have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to #to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up #their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ #yapping

[worstsequence]

who else is here on this day thinking about eddie lovey dovey free with affection known dustin for not even a year uses his dying breath to tell him he loves him munson

#hes so ebbiecakes sorry... you can make him mean all you want based on you misunderstanding the cafeteria scene in your own special ways #it will never be true <3 #'hes very judgey and pretentious. literally has a munson doctrine with set rules' oh? the one he mentioned in his #dramatized retelling of how he thinks steve is really cool and that judgeing him based on highschool cliquey stereotypes would be wrong #and that if he WAS the judgey gatekeepy dick you all want him to be so desperately that its something hes clearly reexamined vis a vis #steve ur so cool speech? and WOULDNT be something hed still be doing to steve? #that one? thats your citation cool cool i see yes of course #what if disney princesses were FUCKED UP! buzzfeed thread type of take to me. its fine. do as u please #he just wants to play his little guitar.. cc were practing in that garage having fun and smiling and giggling playing their little songs #🐯.archive #eddie meta

[dullahandyke]

i look at some of u guys talking abt a new show u watched or a new thing u read and im like. holy shit thats a thing u can do. im in awe of u. i spend my time slowly ping-ponging between several interests whose base componants i can never experience because i get scard

#right now its danganronpa again grin. did u know ive been into it on and off for lets say 7 years at this point #and ive never once played it myself. i have it installed on this laptop ready to go and i just! never open it! #because if Im the one playing it then i have to pay attention and i get scared #but if im watching a lets player i just naturally pay attention without the pressure #ive talked before how i always feel i need to have the smart cool takes on shit #n this deep plays into that #idk boti was good for me bcos nobody fucking knew what it was so nobody could judge me for pardoning anotsu's crimes bcos he was hot #so i probs need to do that again #yknow a thing where i disconnect from anything that anyone knows about and get really really into some dipshit manga from 2008 #but also like. i get a lot of my media recs from people talking abt what they like #which then means i defacto have someone who is gonna know if my takes are shit #and like even now. im watching mop cycle w dri and im having fun w it #but i feel bad bcos i see so many ppl like This Is The Best Anime Ever and i just like. dont get it #like i can actively feel the messages and shit whooshing over my head #its a fine anime! i'm having fun watching it! but i don't get all the commentary abt pacifism or whatever #idk. something something my need to be The Smart Kid The Bookworm Kid that went unchecked too long without peers to challenge me #so now im here like Uh Oh #and like this wouldnt be the end of the world (save for its impact on my mood n stuff) #but also like. i am an english student. i should know this shit. but i stragiht up do not feel smart enough to sometimes #i keep coasting by on the assumption that im a smart kid and i'll automatically be better than my peers #and im being disproven #i got an english exam back tonight and i got like 63% #and i like college! i just dont like. college. #anywho its approaching 3am and i have a 9am tomorrow morning which means bedtime

[muskmelon-enjoyer-199x]

thinking about the time this young 19 y/o guy i used to work with was talking to me about a bunch of random stuff and I said something about how he shouldnt worry about something this girl said on a dating app because he was just overthinking it and snowballing over nothing.

He paused a minute and said, "I guess you probably have more experience with women than me, huh?" I thought a second, but it was true. I'm not some kind of relationship guru and I fuck up a lot, but I do know more about dating and maintaining a relationship than a 19 y/o wannabe bodybuilder that watches Andrew Tate and has terminal virgin energy.

I said "I guess so, yeah'" and he visibly deflated. Like it was such a blow to his ego. I think maybe he was tethering his sense of masculinity to some weird sexual marketplace virility bullshit and felt emasculated?

im like a weird limp-wristed lesbian with a flamerboy 2003 fashion designer voice. I wear mens and womens clothes as I feel and often just have frizzy hair idgaf about because i'm not a public-facing employee most of the time anyways. if you spend more than a few hours around me it's probably pretty easy to see im a tranny no matter how hard i deny it and im honestly just kinda goofy and do silly shit for my own amusement. normies seem to like me alright and say im fun to be around but also think im a weirdo and I guess that's okay because I have some friends and a wife and I don't need external validation like that (or at least not desperately lmao).

but he seemed genuinely hurt and threatened by the possibility that I've been more successful with women than him and that just feels so weird to me. like why do you feel bad? It's not a competition and even if it was the women you like wouldnt like me and the women that like me wouldnt like you? Maybe stop talking about right wing bodybuilders and acting macho at work because those girls you like think you're an annoying closet case?

#internalmelon #this guy apparently talked to a trans woman on a dating app and didnt know #and his family shamed him like “that's a man! look at the hands dumbass!” #and he brought it up at work to tell it like a funny story (BAD CALL BRO) and they made fun of him too #and he was all weird when he talked to me about it and i said idgaf and wouldnt judge him because it wasnt weird of him to like her #he got all defensive but admitted he liked her before she told him but not anymore and then got weird when i told him both of those were OK #like do you want me to call you a fag or say you have to date people you dont feel attracted to? what was your expectation #like he seemed kinda offended that i didnt judge him for it but hurt that others did. who cares that you thought a trans woman was hot lmao #i wonder if he would've still been interested in her if his male relatives didn't call him a maricón for not clocking her #for some reason the “would you fuck a tranny if...” conversation comes up a lot with the men at my work #when i stumble into it i just say “sure why not” or “been there done that” and they get really uncomfortable lmao #like i get you're proving your straightness to yourself and the bros but why are you so unsettled when other people aren't paranoid like you

[toytulini]

idk. picky eater rights. im coming to your events and turning my picky bitch nose up at your fancy ass desserts you spent a bajillion hours working over in the kitchen and asking if i can find like a basic ass brownie with no extra flairs or ingredients or steps or whatever the fuck. cry about it. stop trying to feed me

#toy txt post #they gotta have some picky eater bitches be the judges on those food competition shows i stg #sorry for committing the unforgivable sin of my tastebuds didnt enjoy the food you made. it was intended as a personal slight actually #i am trying to offend you for real. yeah. thats definitely whats happening. god/sssss #like god irl if i dont like food you made ill try to be fuckin gracious about it buf dont fucking get mad at me for like. idk. prepping my #own foods you percieve as worth less or whatever the fuck. ppl are so fucking weird about food. #honestly guy on prev post didnt even dislike the cake it sounded like but was just experiencing the human emotion of disappointment #when the little specific joy he was looking forward too was not what he expected. if she had asked him 'do you mind if i make a similar cake #that is not the exact same as the one you asked for? maybe he wouldve been fine cos he wouldnt have been looking forward to that specific #thing. OR maybe he wouldve said if youre not going to make this very specific one im looking forward to then dont bother i dont want you #wasting the time and effort and then she wouldnt have been mad. or maybe she wouldve. ppl do get weird about that kind of thing #maybe saying that wouldve been a crime too. guess that dumb asshole shouldve shut up and eaten his stupid cake and enjoyed it and said #nothing. a recipe for happiness #anyway. hot take ig stop putting nuts in desserts. alllergy havers will prolly thank you but you know who else will thank you? #every day i see takes about food that make me think i really should be more of a picky bitch eater on maim to knock yall pretentious #food fuckers down a peg tbh. every day i resist the urge but god how yall test me. let me be the judge on a cooking show. #weird assholes who are rude abt ppl having allergies or sensory issues: come here. im going to break you #anyway more of us picky bitches who are picky just for like. casual reasons. we should he loud picky bitches on main. if a cook or baker or #whatever can accommodate my picky bitch ass thats difficult to feed for no reason we can be sure they can accommodate allergy havers #and ppl w medical restricted diets. if they can be gracious about me just not vibing w the food then they can def be gracious about more #sensitive reasons. yea i could choke down the food i dont like probably. it wouldnt make me throw up or send me to the hospital. but why #should i? if youre an asshole to me about simply not liking your shit then why the hell would i feel safe disclosing medical info to your #bitch ass? why would i trust you to follow it? and not try to sneak some shit in bc you think you know better about food? #anyway #picky eater rights. let ppl be picky for no apparent reason. cos the ppl who have uwu Good Valid Reasons(tm) dont fucking owe you that #explanation

[freebooter4ever]

A friend called and something he said is nagging at the self-hating part of my mind....

I just...when im working i always use the excuse of 'im too busy to date' and when im unemployed im always too ashamed and depressed/worthless to date. That doesnt leave any moments TO date?

#Journal shit #I have to confess that a huge change in my thinking recently happened while volunteering #To explain why i was avaiable to volunteer on mondays now i had to tell them that i lost my job #And they didnt even blink #Just treated me normally or like they were excited because now it meant i got to help out even more and its just so fun being there #That once a month wasnt enough #They didnt judge me or suddenly act like i was a social pariah #i dunno this city is 90% fucked up people will DROP you as a friend immediately if you lose your job as if unemployment is contagious #Anyway i started feeling like maybe meeting people when i had time and wasnt working 24/7 wouldnt be so bad

[monsterbisexual]

i hate how i feel doing or not doing certain stuff for/because of the pain + fatigue since im a fat person :///

#p #id feel double standard-y shame (my favvvvv) abt it anyway #but its like. i took the elevator up to the break room just now n it always feels like everyones watching me do it #n judging or smth. like ya im also not in shape n thats like my fault etc n that would help these things be easier too #like especially on days ive worked i dont wanna go w ppl walkin the dog cuz im in a lotta pain #n w all of this i feel like a lazy piece of shittt which. like i said..id never think abt anyone else #even another person who isnt thin #or in shape etc #anyway. on lunch break now when theres lots to do (we have more ppl now at least tho) #n i feel like im such a loser cuz i rly needed to sit+rest n eat #also for my brain cuz i get overwhelmed n weird anyway but. -___- i gotta get over itttt fuck offfffff #i feel enough dumb bad stuff abt not doing 'Enough' but adding this makes it feel worse bleh #im big into shame idk ! #working (sorta. its not rly working akdhdj) on not feeling negative n bad abt the word fat #i wouldnt randomly call someone that irl or anything #but i know ppl on here are wanting it to be more normalized n that its not an inherently bad thing/word #but. :((( #not another good word for it so yknow w/e #ok im gonna try to stop pity partying thru a break #especially when ill have less than an hourrrrr after this yay

[ajokeformur-ray]

new arthur photos oh my goddddd i wasn’t sure how my feelings were towards the second movie but seeing him him himhimhimhiiiiiiiiiimmmmm new photos oh my oh my

I feel like I'm totally alone in my non-enthusiasm for the sequel😂

but yeeeees seeing him againnnnnnn🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 it's been so long but but but he's still here, he's coming back!!!!💗💗💗💗💗💗 i remember how we used to collectively CRAVE more arthur pics😭💔 and once again, we're well fed!!!

#arthur fleck #joker 2024 #im happy about more arthur content but the way they're taking the sequel in the direction they said they wouldnt makes me feel like it's #just a cash grab and arthur deserves better than that #and i swear if they do the 'you must be crazy to love arthur fleck' thing i'm gonna lose my SHIT #he's too important to too many people & im terrified they're gonna fuck him up and undo all that nuance #im borderline on making this blog anti sequel tbh #like not to judge a book by its cover but😬😬😬😬

[magioffire]

i saw a ‘wh/ump’ blog in my recommended and out of morbid curiousity decided to check it out, maybe see if i could get some good hurt/comfort ideas, and oh my god....

this is when i truly realized ‘hurt/comfort’ and ‘wh/ump’ are not interchangable terms and wh/ump is more on a level of torture porn trying to be cutesy/romantic omg

#LIKE TO EACH THEIR OWN BUT LIKE #'whumpee gets their limbs cut off and is a perfect little drugged up toy for the whumper uwu and the whumper takes care of their every need' #THEIR EVERY NEED HUH???? #god #uh #ok #im #im gonna #slowly #back away #THATS REALLY NOT MY CUP OF TEA GUYS IM MORE INTO THE #PATCHING UP EACHOTHERS WOUNDS AND HUDDLING FOR WARMTH TYPE SHIT #WHHHHH #now if they treated it like the actual fucked up plot ideas they were i wouldnt be so freaked out by it #but they way these blogs write it...its like....supposed to be...cute??? #screams #ok never doing that again #also im trying to keep this post out of the tag so people dont hit me for posting 'hate' in the w/hump tag LOOOL #seriously do what you want but i still reserve the right to JUDGE A LITTLE BIT #tbd. #ooc. #i like a little bit of fucked up shit...but that SHOCKED ME LOOOL #maybe i didnt entirely know what whump was ok #maybe i was innocent #innocence soiled but honestly its the internet....ive read and written weird shit...i should have expected it

[mbat]

i wish i could just consume the media with characters i relate to as bite sized snack. i want to see the characters that feel like reflections to me but theyre in the middle of long ass media most of the time. like got damn why cant you be a reeses cup

#my post #su snack mlp snack y2kvr snack ccy2k snack tangled the series snack DONT JUDGE ME but yeah #i could swear there was like. one or two more but im blanking on the other characters #tbf i can at least consume the cassandra snack as songs. cause damn her songs make up a lot of the relatability to me #waiting in the wings AND its reprise. bruh #idk that i relate to crossing the line and nothing left to lose quite as much but i wouldnt say they dont feel similarly good to listen to #people always seem so confused by cassandras villainy but man. i get it. i get it completely #sorry im not gonna go on a rant about the characters i relate to sjfjsjfjd #edit: fuck me i forgot that quote marks make a seperate tag because tumblr is dumb #'sudden' villainy. that was what i meant to say.

[lovestryke]

THIS TRIAL WAS SO ?

#OK FIRST OF ALL WHY DOES VON KARMA GET TO BOSS EVERYONE AROUND. ESPECIALLY THE JUDGE LIKE IF THIS WAS AN IRL TRIAL THE JUDGE WOULD BE LIKE #SHUT TH EFUCK UP AND HAVE SOME RESPECT #GAHDMAAAANNNNNNNN YOGI? WTF EARLIER I WAS LIKE HAWHAW WHAT IF HE WAS PLAYING THE KOOKY OLDMAN AND WAS REALLY THE KILLER ._. #his story about his wife polly makes me so sososo sad #naming his parrot after her......:( #von karma is a dickhead like. irl he would be arrested?? retraining the fucking parrot. goodness gracious and i thought edgeworth was inten #se. miles had a messed up childhood im so sorry for him...being scared cuz he thought yogi was gonna hurt his dad. and picking up a gun to #protect as A CHILD is already fucked up in itself but accidentally firing at his dad and killing him oh my gawd???? #and then being adopted by a really mean man i.... #what i wouldnt give to hug edgeworth like i genuinely think itd be nice to hug him also help me lord he has all this baggage and then nick #is over here like SNRF SNF. IN THE FOURTH GRADE I WAS ACCUESD OF STEALING LUNCH MONEY #i mean that Is genuinely traumatizing as a 4th grader and they way EVERYONE fucking swarmed him. thats horrible but then you see edgeworth #s story like BRO T_T

[arundolyn]

i love how i had just checked the page for the izayoi also bc it said on the uniform section of the NOL page that “tsubaki is allowed to wear the izayoi while on duty, despite it not being part of the standard uniform”, which led me to believe oh, maybe the izayoi is her WHOLE OUTFIT that would make sense as to why it looks like ayames

......come to find out no, they did just mean the hat. so like help girl are we ignoring tsubaki’s flagrant nigh uncharacteristic disregard for uniform rules for the sake of?? historical accuracy/homage to one of her ancestors? which is honestly sorta on brand for her

#crow.txt #blazblueposting #bc like there IS art of her in a proper wings of justice uniform. like official art. a few i think? #i remember this Specifically bc they say the wings of justice are supposed to have feathers on their sleeves and for some reason #all of them i can remember have little like.. cloth things? #and that bugged me hfjkdhkh #like they make it CLEAR its Only the hat #which is very very funny considering tsubaki is just straight up not wearing literally any of her proper uniform #despite being THE rule abiding goody two shoes to the woooooorst degree ever that is her whole brand #shes more focused on upholding the law and shit than the damn imperator (until the middle of cp and all but yknow) #izanami just kinda fucks around and then she sees tsubaki going absolutely HAM doing everything in her name to keep 'order' as she sees it #and shes like oh shit lol thats fucking hilarious. im going to mind control her now #(as if she wasnt pretty much doing that already honestly. but yeah take away the REST of her free will sure) #god i love remembering tsubaki is the funniest character in blazblue bc she seems like 'normal' but shes actually insane about it #literally every character is the funniest character judging by different metrics. this franchise is going to kill me. #i love just. on one hand: crazy that tsubaki would actually violate the strictures of her job like that in a way she normally wouldnt #BUT in the other: her being soooooo obsessed with larping ayame that she goes up to? idk the head of the wings of justice #and goes pleaaaase can i wear this instead of my uniform. pretty please. #and shes so pathetic about it they cant say no #not often do i get to call tsubaki pathetic but its always funny when i do

[cryptidspaz]

there r a lot of things im still working thru & coming to terms with being a transplant here in texas. texas is not the south no matter what the locals say because its culture is very very different from the rest of the south. i was raised in deep rural tn & still, despite being here for 10 yrs am grappling with certain culture shocks

#ie i have to remind myself its not Ingrained in every single texan to Bring something for the host every time u visit smnes place #& that if u spend a long time at or are overnight at smnes place (surprisingly common amongst casual friends cuz of southern hospitality &) #(-how far apart everyones homes actually are) #that u help clean up any 'mess' u made #ie doing dishes- folding blankets- moving furniture back to its place- etc #& being overly polite in thanking them for having u over & making sure its a two way street- like next time u host the potluck at ur place #because i was raised with Actual Literal Southern Hospitality i find myself judging anyone who doesnt naturally act this way here. STILL #& like i knowww i shouldnt because its literally an unfair expectation #& its not really {ahem white} Texan Culture(tm) #BUT STILL #some ppl here act so in ways so inconcievable to me #MY BEST FRIEND SAID HER BOYFRIEND DID NOT HELP HER MOVE OR PACK ANY OF HER MOMS STUFF FROM THEIR OLD HOUSE #I WAS LIKE EXCUSE ME?? WHAT DO U MEAN #he should be taking care of you AND ur widdowed mom when yall need help with stuff like that WHAT THE FUCK .? #was he just sitting at home playing fucking wow ????? #& then she was like 'well he still hasnt met my mom' #WHWHHHH .?.?.?? #HE HASNT WHAT .? #she lives 5 minutes from her mom. by the way. #& spends her days off visiting & taking care of. her mom. #like theyre super close & her mom is ill. #ANd his ass hasnt .? met her? LET ALONE WOULDNT HELP YALL MOVE STUFF ???? #insane behavior to me #the other reason i was thinkin abt this today is #i had Someone over last night & they ??? left a mess in my room like #they had to borrow smth that i had in a basket then they left all of the stuff that was in the basket on the floor #they left a half drank gatorade on my desk NEXT TO MY VERY EXPENSIVE LAPTOP & PC #left their charging sitting on my nightstand. #& most absurd- THEY DIDNT PUT THE CAP BACK ON MY TOOTHPASTE WHEN THEY WERE DONE. WTFFF.??? #personal

[first-pass]

I know he was sedated, but to me he died right then. Because that's not what he looks like when he's asleep.

#had to put my cat down earlier today #having a lot of thoughts and feelings about it as youd expect #hated that i didnt get to be there for his actual death because his veins were too small for the catheter thing so they had to use a kidney #stick and didnt want us back there #so they sedated him and then took him back #hated that. not their fault but hated it #hated that my mom kept trying to reassure herself he had a good life #i think my problem was actually that she kept doingnit outloud #who am i to judge how someone greives but who are you to impair my own process etc #if im to make compromise why are you not to do the same #i didnt like that he was cold. that was part of the issue his blood pressure was so low #his little paws ans ears were cold #he can die if he needs to but i dont want him to be cold like what a fucking #what a fucking #i dont know. how terrible to be uncomfortable while youre saying goodbye #i spent most of the day chasing sunbeams so that he could lay in my lap and be warm because my body temp wasnt enough to warm him up #and when they sedated him they just had him laying on his stomach and one of his paws was out in a way i knew he would have adjusted and his #tail was hanging off the table and he wouldnt have liked that either and it just made me so mad #because hes not comfortable and no one fixed it and #two very small things but thats whats sticking with me right now #im angry its winter and he was cold and he was sleeping uncomfortably #im not angry he died. im sad but he was 18 years old #and thats not really anyones fault #especially not his #my speaking tag #i think ppl generally tag stuff like this 'delete later' but i hate deleting things so uh #woe. cat feelings be upon ye #also am i well adjusted or am i repressing OR secret third option am i autistic #questions the world will never have an answer to.

[suck-mein-pokeballs]

I've been under a lot of stress for a very long time and I finally snapped and I'm trying in my own way to get back from that and find a little joy so I can start leaving my bed and I don't appreciate you judging me for my methods or for the fact that my mental breakdowns have been an established pattern for years now

#everyone always goves up on me and judges me #and i wouldnt mind cause i know im not ok and my actions arent good healthy or rational #what fucks me up is when someone comes into my life and shows me their ugly sides and i dont judge and i try to be there #and eventually i open up and i let them see my ugly sodes and at first theyre compassionate but they always end up judging me #and giving up on me #sometimes i feel like i just shpuldnt let people see just how ugly things get #because everyone loses respect for me and everyone ends up thinking im worthless and a lost cause #mein shit

[toonfinatic]

Sighhhh if i didnt have pets living at my dads house i'd go non contact/low contact with my family

#getting my dog to live with me full time would be easy #id have very little space because i live in a tiny ass apartment #but getting my cat from my dad would be difficult because he likes her. and makes up any stupid fucking excuse to keep her #sometimes i honestly think about rehoming my dog. because i know my dad doesnt want to keep her #and as i said i live in a small apartment. i love her but i have no privacy and i just. have so little energy for a dog #and it sucks because shes very dear to me. i just dont know if keeping her makes any sense. #if she was rehomed i could still at least visit her... id feel like the worst owner ever but at least i wouldnt have to stress about her #i feel like shit about all this. i just want to be low contact or no contact with my family. im so tired of being a disappointment #i have no idea what i should do. i know that keeping a dog at my apartment WHILE no contact restricts me from ever really going anywhere #with a cat its easier. i guess ill just. try for a while to live with my dog. and if it doesnt work ill just have to rehome her #id probably gotta give her back to her breeder #and it scares me. i know i got this dog when i was 15 and a kid and had no idea about what future would hold #but i feel like she'd just be mad at me #i dont know!!!!!! #i just want to be without being constantly judged by my family