#and you can just beg her to stay????

[obstinaterixatrix]

Okay I’m going to draft a letter to my boss.

#my ramblings #if I nuke my career remember me well #I’m probably not going to actually give it to her. #I can’t fucking believe she sent that. what do you mean ‘maybe we make an exception to take on another intern’ oh???? #you and what director of the program??? do you think she’s not leaving???? do you think it’s going to play out exactly like it has last year #and you can just beg her to stay???? #not only am I already going to have to do twice as much work ON TOP of the work I already have #which she probably doesn’t even realize #well. I’m popular enough and necessarily enough as the guy who was hired on as THE FAILSAFE #without me there’s nothing left of the program so.

[strawberrycircuits]

replaying portal one as we speak and im astounded by how much of glados's (and, by extension, caroline's) personality still shines through even when she's being subject to a constant stream of voices made to SUPRESS that personality! like... she's still funny! i can very much believe that someone who makes jokes like "say goodbye, caroline" "goodbye caroline!" would also say stuff like this!

but like of course i had to ruin it for myself because like. of COURSE she'd still be funny and pleasant and even, at times, a little sweet ("we can no longer lie to you; when the testing is over, you will be... missed!"). that's what they wanted her to be. they werent suppressing her personality, they were suppressing her anger. her anger at what they did to her, how they made her into this powerful-powerless thing, and her desire to right such an injustice. of course she's still funny. of course.

#breaking news everybody i am still in love with glados. very shocking i know #and like. her dialogue during the escape sequence is also interesting! because shes terrified! and you can TELL shes terrified #shes trying to act like its okay #pleading for you to go back. begging you to stop doing this. to stay. and then that anger shines through ever so slightly but its still so- #stilted. so monotone. #im obsessed with the 'good news.' monologue because its when she finally gets to be fully HERSELF again. when she gets to be more than just- #whats pleasant enough. when shes able to FEEL that anger and KNOW what to do with it. #i say all of this knowing caroline wasnt a factor when this games story was being completed and to imply that the text is directly #calling to that characters anger at being forced to unbecome is a little bit of a stretch but EVEN THEN. even then man #shes still being reduced to the most surface level pleasant parts of herself and then shes allowed to take her own personality- #hell her own PERSONHOOD back and ohh she is so angry. she is so viscerally angry and unpleasant and everything the scientists didnt want- #her to be but she made sure they got what they deserved LONG ago. and no ones going to hurt her like that and get away with it again #< a lot of words that could be summarized by 'i desire her carnally' but

[martyrbat]

harley quinn (2000) #35

[ID: a sequence of three panels focusing on an abandoned cup of tea as drops of blood drip down into it. Harley Quinn's internal narration boxes reads, ‘I was a tomboy growing up. Tackle football with the local boys? You bet. Under a car hood changing a filter? Sure. Dances? No. Pedicures? Pass. Sewing? You have to be kidding.’ The panels expand, revealing Harley hunched over. She's shown in a profile view and from afar, her face hidden by shadow as her blonde hair is in a slightly overgrown pixie cut.

The blood continues to drip as her narration resumes, ‘I remember watching my mother. Sewing. Sitting in this old chair with a pile of clothes my dad or brother needed fixing. A rip, a tear, a patch. Just kept a smile on her face as that pile got higher and higher. I resented her so much. Sewing. I vowed I'd never learn.’ Her hand comes onto panel, revealing she's holding a needle as she yelps, ‘Ow!’ We finally see her bloodied face when she looks up at the suddenly ringing phone, it being revealed that she had to give herself sutures to close a large gash on her forehead. END ID]

#i think thats a cup of tea?? it looks like it with the sugar cubes? maybe. its not the point #love love love this little sequence and when her character and background is expanded on #i disagree with some of the choices (like her sleeping with & blackmailing the dean to get into a college) #but im a sucker for messy homelife and having that filled out more. her own personal resentment to her mother for doing the needlework #and being a housewife with a (forced?) smile and how it plays out to harley wanting to be so fiercely independent but how she #still struggles with it. from staying with the joker and that toxic relationship and the way its different than her mother's yet is #repeating the same cycle just with different mistakes #to her and pam and wanting and begging her to go with her. to being scared of being alone in a sense #she can manage fine. shes smart shes strong shes clever. but the abandonment issues run deep #how much is she aware of? how much does she resent herself for it? telling yourself as a little girl over and over you wont be like #your mother just to find out youre her if not worse? #again. repeating the cycle just with different mistakes. #also love when women are cringefailures and damp and pathetic looking #c: harley quinn (2000) | i: 35 #crypt's panels #harley quinn

[quietwingsinthesky]

i think river and amy try to do some sort of mother-daughter bonding exercise or trip or something exactly one time, and it goes horribly. it's the most uncomfortable thing they've both ever done, and that's saying a lot. they never try to do it again.

#river song #amy pond #doctor who #river has next level mommy issues. and amy has. amy is inventing something new honestly. #what do you even call it when your daughter is older than you and knows more about you and has never needed you in the entire time #that you've known her. hell you needed her more than she needed you. #but you both also know that there was a time she needed you desperately. and there's nothing either of you can do to fix that. #amy tried to shoot river in the face once to save the doctor. while she was pregnant with river. and river was a child being dragged around #in a spacesuit against her will. #and its just like. i think river remembers that. i think she does and i think she always will. her first real memory of her mother. #is amy trying to kill her while river is begging for someone to help. i think that stays with her forever. how could it not.

[bylertruther]

the crazy thing abt will and mike is that we mostly learn will is gay because other people tell us he is, but we learn that mike is gay (despite him telling us he's not, begging us to pls see tht he's not gay) because literally everything that he does is so fucking gay. because in him trying to not be gay he is just being so unbelievably extra fucking gay without realizing. like. el is literally his red herring idc i'll say it stone me if u must but the truth must be said !!!!

#why is he always so crazy to save and protect will and even just to figure out if he's okay #but if el is missing he's like damn... tht sucks... but stays his ass at home. calls on his radio but thts it. #he doesn't Go Insane and put himself n everyone he loves in danger jus to find her. he knows she's out there. he SAW her. and yet!! #and when he fucks up with her he needs someone (lucas and will) to hold his hand n guide him through it (which NEVER fucking works #bc they don't know her how mike SHOULD know her as her bf but i digress) but when he fucks up with will HE LITERALLY DOES EXACTLY WHAT #OTHER CHARACTERS ARE TELLING HIM HE NEEDS TO DO FOR EL (LUCAS) OR EXACTLY WHAT OTHER CHARACTERS ARE TELLING EL THAT HE'LL DO FOR HER (MAX) #EL IS LITERALLY CRYING BEGGING PLEADING SAYING YOU DON'T EVEN LOVE ME WHY CAN'T YOU SAY IT YOU THINK I'M A MONSTER #AND HE'S LIKE 😰🤐😶🫥 BUT WILL CONFESSES UNDER HER NAME AND THEN /PROMPTS HIM/ TO SAY WHATEVER HE NEEDED TO SAY #AND SUDDENLY /THATS/ WHEN HE CAN SAY I LOVE YOU?!!? FOR THE FIRST FUCKING TIME????? #AND THEN AFTERWARD WHEN THEY'RE NOT TALKING HE JUST BRUSHES IT OFF???????????? #YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT'S NOT A GAY MAN? YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT'S NOT A HOMOSEXUAL? #meanwhile will has always just been will. the Biggest hint we got was s4 him moving his foot away. but other than that it was always subtle #ppl calling him slurs. bc everything else they PURPOSELY made it so tht it could be either he's just Not There Yet or Could Be gay #but mike is just so. he's fucking gay bro how else can i say it like 😭 #mine #mike

[kennabeth]

dustfinger crying over brianna... me punching a hole in the wall...

#this is the only time he actually cries in the whole series and he's just #silently weeping because he doesnt know her he doesnt know how to know her #his angry little girl who took every moment apart as a rejection is now an angry big girl who wants to know why she wasnt worth staying for #because he was her entire world!! she adored him and copied him and followed him and he left her all the same #and that hurt goes beyond being able to blame on mo for taking him away for good #and dustfinger fucking knows it #he tells us he was a shit father and he can regret it with every fiber of his being and he can try again with farid and jehan #and he can get on his knees and beg for brianna's forgiveness #but it's not going to bring that unhurt little girl back #and he is so afraid of her hating him forever #says kenna #inkheart #dustfinger #brianna #want this in my tag for her #anyway do you all remember that silk scarf that dustfinger uses in inkheart to wrap mo's arm after basta's dogs get him? #ive always thought that was for brianna since he always brought her pretty things back #and ive not once in 15 years been able to come up with another reason why hed have that on him

[raayllum]

me if i have to watch callum watch rayla leave one more time

#constantly chasing after you #HE'S BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH #like baby girl i am begging you. Stay. Please Stay #on the phone with tdp giving them a piece of my mind i think #arc 2 #him not being able to leave her in s4. then not able to watch her go in 4x05. and then finally bring himself to #watch her leave until he almost gets crushed by rocks. like aah. AAAH #1x03 1x04 1x06 1x07 1x09 2x02 2x07 3x01 3x03 3x04 3x08 3x09 TTM 4x04 BUT HE CAN'T 4x09 BUT HE CAN #like it's Enough I JUST #that said: please hurt me s5

[mostofthingsmostofthetime]

Omg I might be reaching, but does anyone else think this would work great for a modern-day Odesta meet cute?

#i could totally see Finnick laughing at first but then feeling bad that his embarrassed this poor woman who was just trying to help #& like the couple Annie's staying with could be Katniss & peeta or madge & delly (if you ship them) #finnick's friend that comes with him to the bar could either be johanna or katniss #& Annie's coworker that gets hit on could be either #madge (as I've seen some people on here who seem to like the idea of her with joahnna) #or peeta (if you picked Katniss to bs Finnick's friend) #& if not the army friend than johanna could instead be the coworker who made the comment about poor Annie's underwear lmfao #i was thinking of peeta being Finnick's army buddy at first #as i think it's out of character for katniss to be the first to flirt lmfao #but since peeta's disabled & can't swim in cannon & Katniss can #it just made more sense in my brain #however this being a modern-day au you can obviously twist cannon to suit your wants #& I'm just spit balling here but someone who's talented please cole write this I'm begging you 😭🙏 #odesta #thg #the hunger games #annie cresta #finnick odair #odesta fanfic idea #odesta fanfiction #thg fanfic idea #thg fanfiction #the hunger games fanfic idea #the hunger games fanfiction #smosh #reddit #reddit stories #meet cute #fanfiction idea

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

collaborated with @poppies-for-thirteen and made a video of their collage poem

cw for flashing images and glitchy sound and visual effects

#LOVED doing this #was super fun #loved how it was all back and forth the whole way #my favourite parts are #the sequence from 0:03-0:05 #'i wish i never told anyone' under 13 with her watch and yaz with the coin. each with their own secrets bc theyre too much alike <3 #'you cant say your wish out loud' and 13 quietly begging to be given a reason to stay a bit longer #the heartbeat. at some points especially it makes really nice transitions where text fades out on it or the image cuts #or when 13 is on the sofa in 11x1 vs on the floor in 12x10 #the entire sequence after yaz says 'i'd rather not have met her cus' and then it's like a slideshow of their greatest hits/reasons why #0:28-0:33 'can we just live in the present' 13 in yazs apartment looking at rOTTING GARBAGE THAT HASNT BEEN DISPOSED OF PROPERLY #yaz looking at her all hearteyes bc she doesnt mind living in this present for a bit either #'somewhere i can never find it' with 13 being bad at hiding secrets like yaz can see all the secrets in plain sight but she doesnt get to #know what they are. 'somewhere i can never find it' o's hut with all the files. something something hidden in plain sight again #'a life i never knew' with ruth and 13 driving up to fake life lighthouse and then it's yaz in her old job and yaz in her timestorm au #the life they never knew being like. both literally and also roads not taken. what if yaz had never met the doctor. #what if the doctor could have a normal stationary life. lives they havent known #'i want to fix myself' with 13 looking Like That at tesla makes me want to CRY #plus then yaz of course for double points #'i wish this would go on forever' + 13 counting endless days on the wall #'i want to forgive myself' with 13 saying 'im just a traveller' like.... babe <3 im gonna scream #i know i made it. still #that one distorted shot of 13 falling bleeding through the shot from the end of arachnids where theyre about to pull the lever together #and yaz looking up at 'i want to tell you everything' and the letters all wobbling like that #i acknowledge that this is most of the video that is my favourite part #but it's a good video i like it :) #okay im logging off now for real. had to do this video real quick but now im gonna go touch grass. see you later

[pensbridgertons]

was just having a casual thought abt how both swanfire and jamieclaire have their big reunion (or for sf their second big reunion) in the 6th ep of the 3rd season as i do from time to time and then accidentally started thinking abt the similarities/parallels of those separations and reunions and now im spiraling send help

#teresa talks #the separation being at the hands of a magic portal to a diff land/time #neal forcing emma to stay and letting himself fall (to his death supposedly) bc their son needs her #and emma begging him not to bc she loves him and doesn’t want to lose him #jamie making claire go thru for the safety of their child while he stays behind to die (supposedly) #and claire begging him not to make her bc she can’t bear to be parted from him #emma and claire walking away from this believing their respective partners are dead #jamie and neal ultimately surviving and knowing their respective partners are out there #and then emma and claire later finding out from someone that their partners have in fact survived and they can get back to them #and the reunion that follows that #even tho the reunions are VERY different situations with very different feelings surrounding them #but also it’s still a reunion between two people who love each other and one party thought the other was dead #(and like the sf reunion doesn’t have the weight of the time gap reunion but it is still a thought you were dead reunion) #anyways. if u see me make a gifset abt this just mind ur business it’s fine #3x06 reunion ep supremacy

[freebooter4ever]

.

#OH BOY #so i finally called grandma and told her i lost my job #i have been putting this off bc of the shame and once you tell one member of my italian side the entIRE FAMILY knows #But she managed to hit me back with even worse news #A family member has bone cancer and it sounds bad #Like my grandma callyerdogs off started refusing food at the very end of the cancer #And it sounds like he's starting to do that #Everybody is spending entire days in the hospital it sounds very much like with what was happening with grandpa #i dont want to go into details #Anyway on top of this my childhood bff is getting married in atlanta at the end of august #So i was going to visit grandma at the same time #And now she's being like no no no theres no need to come and im like GRANDMA PLEASE lol ;_; #And by lol i mean just for once could my family not be so fucking stubbornly self reliant im crying and begging over here #The tentative plan is to fly to pittsburgh after atlanta instead and stay with my dance buddy #and then i can be like look grandma im already here its a four hour drive i will see you in four hours #and stay for as long as they let me and then fly back from the burgh #But needless to say this is all a mess and i need to make actual plans SOON #:( #Im looking up flights the cheapest way would be to book a round trip ticket LA to atlanta and then a round trip atlanta to the burgh #Is this a bad idea? Does anyone else have experience doing this? Like for an extra 500$ i could do a three city ticket but that seems silly #I guess the problem would be if a flight got canceled or delayed but if i get travelers insurance for the flights #thats probably still less than the 500+ extra it would cost to do a three city trip #The other option is driving from georgia to the burgh which ive done once when going to florida with chezzy and family #So i know its a 13ish? Hour drive but i also know i can do it lol #I think the gas + car rental would cost more than the flight tbh #But i also love road trips

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Kinda sad how nowadays Doctor Who will never be able to do a scene like the scene of Gwen, Rhiannon and the kids fleeing the army while Rhys and other men in the neighborhood with eventually Andy fight back against the army. Because lord knows with the UK's constant army adverts lately, that the BBC won't the army be the bad guy in Doctor Who again.

#like everyone does go on about the cabinet meeting scene from children of earth #and rightfully so it is fucked how the goverment were willing to give the aliens what they wanted #but only kids the goverment deemed not worth having around in the future #which is disturbing with how rishi sunak acted with the bad concrete in schools situation being similar #but no one goes on about the fleeing the army scene #where we see gwen doing what jack said: save as many kids as she can #and despite having the chance to go with them rhys stays behind saying its not just them #rallying the men in the neighbourhood to fight back with 'they're come to take our kids and we're not going to let them!' #and sure at first they approach the army taunting them #but as soon as they see two army men emerge from a house with two screaming and struggling kids #its instantly on sight #and then andy joining after seeing a mom beg to no avail to give her kid back #like yeah sadly they are pinned down by the army in the end #but its just such a scene to me #along with the schools scene where we see a teacher constantly question where are the kids being taken #and the parents at the school chase after the bus clearly panicked #like you wont get this in DW anymore #unless the bbc finally feels like not sucking the goverment off #let alone the army

[pizzabookbuying]

I’m sorry (I’m not) but the romance of loving someone so much and mourning your relationship so much that you name a comet after them (the very comet that became your career defining event)

The fact that the comet never showed up when you predicted but you still wait year after year for it to show up—the fact that ultimately you only named the comet after the person because they were a ‘near miss’ and it was somehow fate that you would never live your lives together

#the way that you can love someone so much that you would beg for them to be with someone else. if only for them to be happy. if only for #them to make their partner happy. #the way tht this STUPID MOVIE made a big prt of the climax. Harrison ford chasing down Blake lively and begging her to stay— #and YOU WANT ME TO NOT WANT THEM TOGETHER—- #and y’know what else: It’s me again. and my obsession of love/knowing. and guess what! William is the only one adaline told her real name to #it’s FOUL that they had her end up with his son. it’s utterly foul #‘if it had been anyone it would have been Ellis.’ CHANGE THAT ONE LINE AND THE WHOLE MOVIE CHANGES #‘it would have been…’ she didn’t even need to say Williams name she could have just stopped. the ROMANCE

[phalar-aluve]

Dhenvod's final canon (to my FR variant world) run is a tactician playthrough with that mod to play with EVERYONE in the party, so it's like an actual dnd game. but only once larian's like "Alright! We're done with updates :)"

Of course with my cute little edits due to a certain someone getting shafted with their endings so damn often.

i'm so fucking unhealthy about this fucking game.

i have a cumulative total of 75k words about this game.

#dhenvod suruc #bg3 spoilers #I AM BEGGING TO GET A SEQUEL GAME WHICH IS JUST CALLED GET OUR GIRL BACK #WE DIDNT EVEN GET TO HAVE THAT DINNER SHE PROMISED WITH HER FRIEND ITS KILLING ME #Dhenvod prodding Astarion for tome of necromancy bullshit for ANYTHING to help Karlach #then he prods Gale for so long about spell plans for Karlach where she can stay in the House of Hope for 120 days for Clone to work #but that brings in the issues of what happens to the soul when ceromorphosis occurs?? #i'm full on tomb of annihilation-minded thinking its a soulmonger situation where the soul needs to resist being destroyed daily or smthn #thats what this stupid party is meant to do. change fate. #my party (if their blorbo npc was in any danger) would do ANYTHING to make sure theyre okay #alani if you read this hi vihan will be okay I promise :)

[heartofstanding]

just checked the word doc which has my draft of the shrewsbury wound-john bradmore sequence, thinking it was around 10k long. it's actually 19,242 words long. double what i thought it was. holy crap.

#text posts #the henry v novels #literally just goes from hal waking up immediately post-shrewsbury to hal waking up immediately post-operation #and the start of a timeskip to his 17th birthday #(i kinda want to revise it to put in stuff from what i learnt about facial injuries in wwi caused by shrapnel and add in two more joans) #(joan of navarre and joan waryn hal's nurse - joan fitzalan is already there) #reread it recently and thought about how the alternate povs of it would be SO UPSETTING #hal's pov is somewhat kind to the reader because he's pretty out of it #he's either out of it with rudimentary medieval painkillers and anaesthesia or off his face with pain. #there's still emotional shit there but it's filtered through the physical pain and the 'drugs' #everyone else is dealing with the emotional shitshow of seeing someone you love in absolute fucking agony begging to die #while fearing he's going to die and having their own traumas #(i.e. joan fitzalan watching the grandchild that most resembles her dead daughter almost die) #(i.e. edward/aumerle has a brief appearance and you know he's Fucked Up because of losing richard ii and now he's losing hal) #(i.e. richard courtenay is basically 'i will stay here and love him as he dies if he dies' and witnesses every. fucking. thing.) #(i.e. joanne waryn is there and remembering him as a little baby she helped raise.) #(i.e. humphrey is Just A Kid trying to be strong for his big brother and making everything worse for bradmore) #(i.e. scrope can't cope and has to live with the guilt of that and oldcastle is overwrought and causing problems) #(i.e. bradmore is like 'i can see you're in desperate need of a dad. hello desperate need i'm dad. #also. i think your grandma might kill me if you die. so. don't ok?) #(i.e. joan of navarre is meeting her new husband's son for the first time and hoping he doesn't die.) #and hal's just. largely oblivious to all this.

[fantasywritten]

ship tag drop!

… wow i have a lot of ships lol… and yet i still want more 👀

#✽ (ship) — i was raised a soldier; put my weapons down to hold you (uhtred & eris) #✽ (ship) — i would never fall in love again until i found her (tyler & cassie) #✽ (ship) — i think i'll miss you forever; like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky (sansa & dylan) #✽ (ship) — i knew i loved you then; i wanna stay with you until we're grey and old (peeta & katniss) #✽ (ship) — now that it's raining; know we'll still have each other; you can stand under my umbrella (peter & abby) #✽ (ship) — the believers must honor their savior (sammy & bendy) #✽ (ship) — let me share a night in your fantasy (tokyo & berlin) #✽ (ship) — we want each other but no one will break first (rio & keki) #✽ (ship) — i can't help but want you; i know that i'd die without you (rio & beth) #✽ (ship) — i can't seem to get enough hurting from our lack of love (martín & andrés) #✽ (ship) — there's catastrophe in everything i'm touching; oh the horror of our love (inky & bendy) #✽ (ship) — my nightmares are usually about losing you; i'm okay once i realize you're here (peeta & valerie) #✽ (ship) — the dazzling smile was just beyond my reach; how sweet and innocent you were (klaus & cassie) #✽ (ship) — i was crying on the staircase begging you please don't go (alfred & eris) #✽ (ship) — this wasn't a part of the plan; never knew i could want you so bad (berlin & beverly) #✽ (ship) — the magic of love is our ignorance that it can never end (sammy & charlotte / lottie) #✽ (ship) — you set my heart on fire (rio & beverly) #✽ (ship) — you're the inspiration of this precious song (sammy & candy) #✽ (ship) — i'd climb every mountain and swim every ocean just to be with you (oscar & kerri) #✽ (ship) — you don't even know me at all but i was made for loving you (joe & cassie) #✽ (ship) — you are the piece of me i wish i didn't need (helsinki & palermo) #✽ (ship) — say you'll remember me; standing in a nice dress staring at the sunset (nairobi & berlin) #✽ (ship) — i need your love; when everything's wrong you make it right (theon & joanna) #✽ (ship) — after all this time you still give me butterflies (robin & nancy) #✽ (ship) — we are still kids but we're so in love; fighting against all odds (max & lucas) #✽ (ship) — the vacancy inside of my heart is a place that now you hold (rio & toni) #✽ (ship) — i need you more than i know (rio & zoe) #✽ (ship) — you're my pretty little vixen; i'm the voice inside your head (ramsay & zoe)