#anything to procrastinate from my postgrad honestly

[mellaithwen]

put all my pieces back together (where they belong) spoilers for 5x03 Desperate Measures

Eddie sighs as he runs his hand through his hair. He knows he did the right thing, he does, but his guilt still lingers in the air along with the remnants of her perfume. He hates how uncomfortable he feels standing in his own home, his own kitchen. He hates that he feels like he’s failed somehow, like he’s still failing all the time, like he can’t just be good at this one damn thing—and all of it’s making his skin crawl.

After the break-up, Eddie decides to bake cookies with Christopher as a form of stress relief, but first he has an incredibly messy kitchen to clean...

read on ao3 here

#911 fic #911 fox #Eddie Diaz #Christopher Diaz #911 spoilers #911 season 5 #911 fanfic #mellaithwen fanfic #911edit #911 on fox #911 #9-1-1 fanfic #eddie diaz fic #yes i made a graphic shhhhhh #anything to procrastinate from my postgrad honestly #my screencaps are painfully low quality but look how good my cookies look haha #(technically these aren't the cookies Eddie makes - BUT the cookies Eddie makes have never once *looked* nice) #(my photos of the triple chocolate cookies are awful) #(but the choc-chip cookies I posed next to my flowers so they look more aesthetically pleasing ~daaahling) #buddie fic #mellaithwen edit

[duchessofostergotlands]

Honestly I find some academics from Oxbridge unis to be extremely uninteresting people to have conversations with as they're very by the book if you know what I mean. I went in and did a master's because I thought I wasn't done with education and that was such a silly mistake omfg. I struggled and somehow finished but it was hellish in the last term of the degree. I'm glad to be working and just coming home to do nothing.

I’ve only had one conversation with a group of Oxbridge students- I’ve had conversations one on one with individuals but only once with a group- and I felt a bit out of my element because they were talking about professors they have and the course they’re on and I didn’t know anything about it. I get why. I was the only outsider and it’s natural they they would talk about something they share but I just kind of didn’t have much to contribute because I don’t know these people they’re referring to or what it’s like to be in one of their seminars. I think it was also because I’ve been out of university for 5 years so even though they were around my age (they were all postgrads) they were still uni students and I work so we were kind of focusing on different things in our lives. I know what it’s like to feel like university is going to be easy and then the reality being very very different. I had a similar situation to you in my undergrad. I completely agree. I miss the holidays!! I did not make the most of those at all. But the thing I like most about work is that it’s structured. At uni you have freedom but with that comes the responsibility of having to make yourself work and I am a Grade A procrastinator haha. At work I know I’m there from 9 till 5 ish Monday to Friday and then I go home and that’s me done for the day. And my weekends are mine, I don’t have to work. I still wake up in the middle of the night sometimes thinking “I HAVEN’T DONE THAT ESSAY” and then remember I’m 27 and employed, I don’t have to do essays haha. It stays with you!! 

#anon #ask #non royal