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Losing your identity in favor of survival
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dontmeanlove · 5 years
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not a competition
Pairing: peter parker x female!reader
Word Count: 6k
Warnings: a little cussing, nothing major.
Plot: You’re not competing with Peter Parker, that’s just ridiculous and you were not doing it. No matter what MJ said. You were frenemies with Peter Parker and best friends with spotspidey on instagram. You had no idea what it would mean. 
Prompt: Enemies IRL and best friends online
You weren’t competing with Peter Parker. It was a ridiculous concept, you refused to acknowledge that. But if, and only if, you were competing with him, you were winning anyway.
There was this ongoing thing between you two where you weren’t really enemies, you didn’t even talk if you were honest, but the two of you were always trying to one-up the other.
You didn’t know when it all started, but now you announced your grades nonchalantly loud whenever Peter was around and when he was the one with a better grade you rolled your eyes and scoffed. It didn’t matter that you smirked at him, raising an eyebrow whenever you were the one with the better grade.
It was ridiculous really, that’s why you weren’t competing with him. Nope. Nopety no. It was too lame to admit.
“I can’t believe you’re still doing it,” MJ sounded bored. She had her eyebrow raised when you said you got an A- in physics. You refused to blush.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” You tried to sound nonchalant but your voice failed you, you face with a slight blush.
You heard Peter tell Ned he got an A+. You squinted your eyes and pouted.
“C’ mon,” MJ nudged you, “Tell him he’s cute, ask him out or something, this weird dance you’re doing is nauseating.”
“Hey,” You protested. “I don’t like him,” your mumble not really convincing. “He is irritating and smart and dorky.”
“Oh,” MJ chuckled. “You’re in way deeper than I thought.”
“I’m not,” You frowned, you barely stopped yourself from stomping your foot because you’d never hear the end of it.
Your phone chimed, you smiled down at the notification. You opened Instagram and tried to contain a smile.
(yourighandle): spotspidey: school is sucking the life outta me
(yourighandle): spotspidey: I think today took like 5 years out of my life span
You chuckled. He was always dramatic. It was a bit funny how you could feel so strongly about a person you didn’t even know. Sometimes you wondered if you were being catfished, like it was a good possibility but, at the same time, you didn’t really care?
yourighandle: ever so dramatic,,, it’s not that bad.
yourighandle: my day was off to a bad start, I got an A-
spotspidey: who’s dramatic now?
yourighandle: you
spotspidey: no :( meany
yourighandle: aw bby you gonna get over it
You smiled down your phone and ran a hand through your hair. The bell rang way too soon and you sighed.
“I always forget about your ig boyfriend,” MJ looked amused.
“That again? Girl, you seriously need new stuff to talk about.”
“What can I do if you’re into two hopeless boys?!”
“I’m not into either of them.”
“Yeah, right.” MJ wasn’t convinced at all. “Let’s go to class, loser.”
You groaned but followed her through the school to your lockers, they were side by side.
“Where’s that loser penis parker?” You heard Flash say with a tone to his voice that made you frown. “You think I can make him cry today?”
You felt pure rage bubble inside you, you turned to where he was standing and smiled sweetly at him. He smiled back at you, looking surprised. You walked to him and put your hands on his shoulders.
“Oh Flash,” You kept your voice sweet and a smile on your face before you knee him in the balls. “Think again before being such an asshole.”
You cleaned your throat, went back to your locker with a victorious smile on your face, got your things and headed to class. He was on the floor cupping his crotch.
“Oh my god,” MJ was laughing by your side. “I can’t believe you did that.”
“Me too,” You laughed along with her. “I’m kinda freaking out.”
“Chill, nobody’s gonna tell on you, everybody knows that Flash is a jerk.”
You shrugged, you didn’t know why you did that. But the thought of anyone messing with Peter Parker after all he went through was too much for you.
Of course, you two had that grades thing going on, but it was never mean or anything. It was like you needed that sense of normalcy that came with this competition (no, you never admitted it was a competition and you never would).
yourighandle: I just kneed a guy in the balls.
You sent to your ig friend as soon as your butt touched the classroom chair. He replied right away.
spotspidey: you go, girl,
spotspidey: what did he do if you don’t mind me asking
yourighandle: asshole bully honestly I don’t know how anyone did it before
spotspidey: that’s even better omg
yourighandle: I can’t help being so cool ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
spotspidey: lol won’t disagree
You smiled at that, Spotspidey was a dork. It was weird he didn’t say what his name was, so you also didn’t share any personal info. You weren’t dumb, stranger danger and all that, your mom taught you right, okay?
It was your side ig account, you only posted edits and artsy stuff. Never your face. Never anything personal, apart from your nickname.
You always commented on spotspidey’s pictures because they were awesome and his captions were always the best, so one day you sent him a message on the dm and it all started.
Nowadays talking to him every day was so part of your routine that when it didn’t happen you felt like an important piece of your day was missing.
You went through your day like a breeze after the encounter with Flash, most of the classes were easy, the homework that sucked.
You were walking out of the door after the long school day, you spotted Peter talking to Ned. As soon as you saw him, he saw you too. He jogged to catch up with you and smiled brightly when he reached you.
“So, I heard you defended my honor today?”
“You honor? Didn’t know you had that, Parker.” You teased him.
“I’m glad you’re still you.” He chuckled.
“He deserves that. Someone had to do something.”
“I’m buzzing that “something” to you means kneeing a guy on the balls and not like report his harassment to the school administration.”
“Oh, please,” You rolled your eyes. “They’d never do anything about it anyway.”
“So now you’re the friendly neighborhood bully avenger?” He was trying not to laugh at his own lame joke, oh god this boy was ridiculously cute.
“I like to think of myself as the unfriendly neighborhood bully avenger, please.”
Peter snorted and you let out a low chuckle, damn Parker.
“Spider-man has tough competition now,” He commented. You were walking together to the subway station. How the tables had turned.
You saw MJ passing by and raising an eyebrow with her lips pursed so as not to laugh, you sent her a glare that wasn’t convincing at all.
“He better watch out,” You said flipping your hair off your shoulder.
You two giggled and bumped shoulders. You were trying to hide a smile.
“Thank you,” Peter turned his head to look at you.
“Anytime,” You smiled at him.
“Good thing I can count on you to save me.”
“I wouldn't go that far, but I know a friend who knows a friend that can keep an eye on you, you princess in distress.”
Peter chuckled again, shaking his head as if he found the idea quite ridiculous.
“Yeah, I guess I won’t need that,” He ended up saying.
“Why do I feel I’m not getting the joke?”
“Because maybe you’re not,” Peter shrugged. You elbowed him.
“Hey,” You protested.
You ended up going home together and somehow you were now sharing your earphones with Peter as you jammed to Paramore. People who didn’t like Paramore couldn’t be trusted.
You arrived at home and as you slumped into the couch you shoot a message to spotspidey.
yourighandle: do u like Paramore
spotspidey: duh?!?!
yourighandle: good
yourighandle: our friendship was on the line dude
spotspidey: pfff as if my music taste wasn’t on point
yourighandle: tell me more about it
spotspidey: wow it’s like you’re asking me to strip
spotspidey: strip my soul right on this chat
You snorted out loud. Oh god, he was aDORKable. And by even thinking about this you were also in the dork section right beside him.
You sighed. What wouldn’t you give to know who he was so you could hang out. What if you had already seen him on the street or talked to him, or you two went to midtown. What if you two had classes together or went to the same Starbucks all the time?
The day went by just fine, it was starting to get dark out and you were hungry. Your parents were still at work, something had come up and you were going to get take out from the restaurant two blocks away.
You got your food and you felt weird. You snapped a pic for spotspidey and he replayed the story.
spotspidey: thanks for reminding me how hungry I am
yourighandle: anytime ;)
You started walking home from the restaurant and as you passed through an alley someone grabbed you and put a hand on your mouth.
You tried to scream and kick the guy but he was stronger than you. Maybe thirty seconds passed and suddenly Spider-man was in front of you.
“You should really let her go.” He said, his voice weirdly pissed off.
The guy was stunned and dropped his hands quickly. Spider-man put his hands on your shoulders and down your arms.
“You okay?” He asked softly.
“Yeah,” You mumbled, eyes wide still in shock.
The guy started to run away but Spider-man shot a web at him and glued him to the wall.
You were trying to take deep breaths and calm yourself down. It was a fucking big scare and you just wanted to cry. You felt arms around you and stopped breathing for a second. Spider-man was hugging you.
“It’s okay, you’re safe now.” He whispered to you, holding you close.
“Okay, thank you.” You said shakily.
“Let’s get you home, shall we?” Spider-man said and you just nodded. He wrapped his arm around your waist and suddenly you were in the air, swinging with him.
“I live like a block away,” You said breathlessly.
“Cool, which house?”
“The brownstone apartment building, right there” You pointed at your home.
He took you to the top of the building and let you down.
“Are you really okay?” He sounded concerned.
“Yeah, nothing really bad happened,” You shrugged trying to convince yourself too. “Thank you,” You smiled shyly at him.
“Anytime,” He rubbed the back of his neck. You bit your lip thinking if you should do what you were about to do. You guessed there wasn’t a better time than now.
“Uh, it’s gonna sound really weird considering you basically just saved my life but like I have a friend who is a great fan of yours and like maybe, uh, could you take a pic with me?” You were blushing and speaking really fast. Spider-man chuckled and looked down.
“Of course, c’ mon.” He reached for you and pulled you close.
You got your phone out and snapped a couple of pictures, one you were smiling and the other you were pulling a silly face and Spider-man had a peace sign behind your head. You giggled while putting your phone back inside the pocket of your pants.
“Thank you again, he’ll be thrilled and also thank you for, you know, saving me.”
“Nah, it’s just my job.”
“The friendly neighborhood Spider-man,” You joked.
“I mean, yeah,” He sounded a bit embarrassed.
“Cool, I’m called the unfriendly neighborhood bully avenger.”
Spider-man let a laugh out like it was punched out of him.
“Cool, I mean, if I ever have a bully problem I know who to bring them to.”
“Count on me, Spidey,” You make finger guns and winks at him.
You both giggle and you point at the door. “I better get going, you know, I bet you still have people to save and stuff.”
“I guess my shift is over,” He shrugged.
“Even superheroes have to rest I guess.”
“And do homework,” Spidey said, looking startled right after like he said something wrong.
“Homework is the worst! So, good luck with that.”
You waved goodbye and headed to the door, having your back to the hero.
“Good night, Spidey. And thank you again,” You turned one last time, he was still watching you leave. He nodded his head and waved a little. You grinned at him and wondered how that was your life.
You got home and plated the food. Your heart was still beating fast, you tried to make sense of what happened tonight, shuddering when you thought about what could have happened. Thank God Spider-man showed up. You took a deep breath.
yourighandle: I guess I did your job tonight
spotspidey: how so ma’am?
yourighandle sent a photo reply.
spotspidey: holy shit
spotspidey: that’s your face
spotspidey: by Spider-man’s face
yourighandle: we’re bros
yourighandle sent a photo reply.
spotspidey: I have no words rn
spotspidey: you’re distracting me with your cute face I’m trying to do homework
yourighandle: your face is cute
yourighandle: oh wait I guess that’s not an insult
yourighandle: you're distracting yourself
yourighandle: get down to business
spotspidey: to defeat the Huns?
yourighandle: really?
yourighandle: you gonna hit me w Disney songs and expect me not to distract you?
yourighandle sent a video reply.
Now that spotspidey had seen your face you didn’t have much to hide. Even if he didn’t feel comfortable showing you himself, it was nice to have this new layer to your relationship.
You sent him a video blasting ‘make a man out of you’ and couldn’t care less.
spotspidey: this video will be forever kept in my heart
yourighandle: I am all in your heart already silly
spotspidey: like a murmur?
yourighandle: like a heart attack
spotspidey: that’s mean
yourighandle sent a photo reply.
spotspidey: you’re killing me
yourighandle: maybe that’s the goal
yourighandle: you’ll never know my true plan
spotspidey: I guess I’ll have to call a guy
yourighandle: hope it’s not my bud spidey, he’ll fight for my honor
spotspidey: I’m not questioning that at all
yourighandle: lol go do your homework loser
spotspidey: responsible loser at least
yourighandle: true that
You laid on your bed that night thinking about the three boys you talked to today. Peter was funny and dorky, much nicer than you’d ever expect. Spider-man was caring and so nice, too. And spotspidey was awesome, funny, a complete nerd but in the best way possible. You sighed, what a weird day.
The next day at school was ordinary, for the most part at least. Peter waved at you and smiled brightly, MJ elbowed you because of that and you were sure you’d never hear the end of it.
“Guess you talked to your boyfriend irl.”
“I can’t believe you just said ‘irl’, you’re a basic girl now, MJ.”
She gasped pretending to be offended, at least you hoped she was pretending. She had a too good poker face.
“You get the basic white boyfriend and I am the basic girl?”
“He’s not my boyfriend,” You pouted, your voice way too close to a whine for your liking.
MJ snorted and gave you a pointed look, one you definitely decided to ignore. You headed to class and it was just as boring as usual until AP biology. It was one of the classes you shared with Peter.
The teacher assigned a project to be done in pairs and chose said pairs. You were developing a project with Peter Parker.
“Hey, partner,” Peter said with a smile on his face, way too coy to fit him.
“Hey, pal.”
“So, project…” He touched the back of his head.
“My house or yours?” You tilted your head to the side.
“Uh,” He seemed to think. “Let’s go to mine.”
“Okay,” You smiled up at him. “Meet me at my locker?”
“Sure thing,” Peter was at the door to leave for his next class. “See you later alligator.”
You laughed, “See you, loser.”
“Hey, not nice.”
“Never claimed I was,” You shrugged, the smile still on your face, it was getting harder and harder to be serious whenever the boy was around.
Peter shook his head and chuckled looking down, when he looked up at you with a bright smile on his face and eyes sparkling you sucked in a breath and bit your lip, forgetting how to breathe for a second.
He left and you finished packing your bag, also leaving for your next class. At least you shared it with MJ.
It was not good that you had this class with MJ, she was teasing mercilessly about Peter and spotspidey.
“God, your ig boyfriend is being cheated on.” MJ had a frown on her face. “I never thought you’d do that, totally surprised and disappointed.”
“What are you even talking about?” You chuckled.
“You and Peter making heart eyes at each other and you misleading your internet boyfriend, duh.”
“Uh, no to both of these statements,” You tilted your head.
MJ chuckled and revolved her focus to the assignment the teacher had asked. Or so you thought. She lifted her notebook and there was a drawing of you and Peter with your chins leaning on your hands and big silly hearts over your eyes.
You laughed and pushed MJ’s shoulders, “C’mon, MJ, lay off, let me live.”
“I appreciate how you didn’t deny anything.”
“I’m not leading Spotspidey on,” You frowned. “We’re friends, that’s all.”
MJ nodded but pointed at the drawing one more time.
“And about Peter, I’m not even gonna dignify you with an answer.” MJ hummed and smirked, you kept looking at each other until both of you cracked and started laughing out loud, the teacher shushing you and giving you a stern look.
“Sorry,” You said and went back to your assignment.
The class was over and with that, you headed back to your locker to leave. Peter was already waiting for you leaning on the lockers by yours. Damn, he was cute. Who were you trying to kid?
He silently waited for you to get your things ready, looking down at his phone at one point and typing fast.
“Let’s go?”
“Sure,” He pocketed his phone and started walking by your side.
“How do you feel about a sub at Delmar’s?” Peter said looking at you.
“Fine by me.”
They headed to the snack bar and got two sandwiches to go, going to Peter’s right after.
“How do you want to do this?” You asked as soon as you stepped foot on his house. Peter blushed, the tips of his ears getting red as well as his cheeks.
You chuckled. “Get your head out of the gutter, Parker.”
“Easier said than done,” He mumbled. You didn’t think you were supposed to have heard that.
You followed him to his room and sat on the bed, opening your backpack and taking the Biology book and your notebook out.
You started well, Peter doing some research on his laptop as you took some notes and included some things from the book, eating the sandwich between one information and the other. Peter started writing the essay with the information you were giving out, it was easy to work with him, he was crazy smart.
Your mind started wandering as you looked at his room. You hadn’t paid much attention when you first got in.
“Oh my god,” You gasped.
“What is it?” Peter sounded concerned, he was frowning.
“You have the millennium falcon lego set IN A BOX?” You were disappointed with him, seriously. “How dare you, Parker?!”
“Uh, sorry?”
“You should be! Let’s build it!”
You got up from the bed and touched his arm, sliding your hand until you reached his hand and pulled him up.
“But the project…” Peter tried to argue.
“Please,” You stretched the word and pouted. “I promise we’ll finish it later.”
That’s how you ended up spending three hours to build half the ship. You couldn’t remember when you had more fun, ‘God, I’m such a nerd.’ You thought to yourself as you laughed at one of Peter’s science puns.
You retrieved your phone to snap a pic to send to Spotspidey on ig, then took a picture with your thumbs up and Peter looking down in the background.
You sent it to him with a smiley face emoji and smiled to yourself before looking up and seeing Peter looking so cute you might cry.
He was holding the BB8 toy with a bright smile on his lips. “This is the cutest thing I have ever seen,” He said.
“Me too,” You must have had a look on your face that gave you away because you had Peter blushing softly.
“Now I have to take a picture of this moment,” You held your phone up and Peter put the little BB8 near his face and smiled big enough for his eyes to get tiny. Your heart warmed up with that picture and you promised yourself you would cherish it forever.
“This is the best picture I’ve ever seen,” You announce before chuckling softly.
You posted it on your story and not 5 minutes had passed before you received a message from Ned.
(yourighandle): leedstheway: the BETRAYAL this has
(yourighandle): leedstheway: I’m disowning Peter
(yourighandle): leedstheway: I’m calling the police on this crime
“I think Ned is upset,” You turned your phone to Peter for him to see the messages.
Peter laughed, “Excuse me,” He took the phone from your hands and took a picture of himself pouting.
You may or may not have melted right there. Maybe MJ has been right with all her annoying crush thing.
Thankfully you had Instagram save all your pictures, so you had Peter’s pout on your gallery. Small miracles and all that.
You two perked up when you heard the front down open and close.
“My aunt’s home.”
“Cool.”
You two continued building the ship until there was a knock on the door.
“Hey!” May said with a smile on her face.
“Hello,” You smiled back at her.
“I’m May, Peter’s aunt,” She waved.
“Oh, I’m (y/n), nice to meet you, May,” You waved back. “We’re working on a biology project.”
“I see…” May raised an eyebrow and you and Peter had the decency to blush. “Okay, kids, I’m ordering Chinese for dinner.”
“Maybe I should go,” You started getting up, your cheeks still red.
“Don’t be silly, have dinner with us.”
You looked at Peter not knowing what to do. “Stay,” He said. You nodded and sat back.
“I don’t think we’re finishing it today.” You pouted.
“Maybe you can come over tomorrow?” Peter touched the back of the neck, looking embarrassed.
“I’d love to,” You smiled shyly. You heard May calling you so you put the unfinished ship to the side. “We should also finish our essay?”
“Of course,” Peter has that sly smile on his face, “I still have to beat you for valedictorian.”
“Only in your dreams, Parker.”
You kept lightly pushing each other before you started laughing. May was looking at you with a knowing smile on her face, turning around when you both looked at her. You would figure it out yourselves.
They ate dinner in comfortable silence, making small comments about the food and how hungry they were.
“I’ll take you home, (Y/N).”
“I’ll be okay!” You brushed it off. “I live like five blocks away.”
“I insist,” Peter pressed.
“No, really, I’ll be just fine! I promise I’ll call you when I arrive home.”
Peter seemed neither confident nor happy about it, the look on his face making it clear, but he let you do as you wished anyway.
You were about one block away when Spider-man landed on your side. You jumped a foot away, startled.
“Waking by yourself at this time, miss?”
“You’re my mom now, Mr. Spider-man?”
“Nah, just your hero.”
“Good, will you take me home?” What? You wanted to swing through the air in Spider-man’s arms! Who could judge you for this selfish wish? Spider-man could, but he didn’t. He actually chuckled and wrapped an arm around your waist and shot his web. You went flying through the air securely in Spider-man’s arms.
You two landed softly on the top of your building.
“All safe and sound, princess?”
“If you ever call me princess again I’m going to knee you in the balls.”
“You really have something for kneeing men in the balls,” He said, voice playful.
“It’s what they deserve,” You pause frowning. “How’d you know that?”
“haha, interesting question but now I gotta go, you know, save people and stuff.” And as sudden as he appeared he left. You frowned but got in your building, going down the stairs to your floor.
You called Peter to tell him you’re home safe and sound.
“Hey, Pete.”
“Uh, hey.”
“I’m home, just so you know.”
“Oh, okay, glad you’re safe,” He giggled nervously.
“uh, okay? See you tomorrow.”
“See you, good night.”
“Night,” You said before hanging up.
He was so odd, so not himself on the phone that it was weird. You check your ig for Spotspidey and he had just answered.
spotspidey: haha good fun u had today
yourighandle: yeah it was awesome
yourighandle: the millennium falcon is almost done!!!!
spotspidey: cool
You frowned, why was spotspidey so weird now? Why was everybody acting odd? Maybe it was just you.
The next day wasn’t much different. Peter was clearly ignoring you, on lunch break, you walked to him and he turned red and mumbled he had already finished the essay and Ned wanted to finish building the millennium falcon with him, dismissing you greatly.
You had no reaction but to nod stunned. You couldn’t believe Peter was treating you this way. He had never treated you like this, not even when you were low key enemies.
“Okay,” You whispered before walking away, feeling so utterly disappointed you didn’t really know how to act.
You tried to reach out to Spotspidey, to have some comfort but was left on read. Your eyes started filling up with water and you tried to take a shaky breath and stop yourself crying in the middle of the hall.
MJ saw you and came running. You let her wrap her arms around you and then you couldn’t stop yourself. You cried quietly in her arms. She must have pulled you to the side because now you were by the wall.
You looked up, bottom lip wobbling, “Try taking deep breaths, will you?” Her voice was soft and she ran a hand through your hair.
You did as she instructed and started to calm down.
“What happened?”
“Peter is acting really weird and my ig friend isn’t talking to me either and everything was just fine yesterday but now it’s all crumbling down.”
You felt tears threaten to come back, your voice sounding strangled. You didn’t know why it was affecting you so badly.
“What if it’s something I did? It’s my fault, I fuck everything up.”
“No,” MJ said sternly. “You don’t get to talk about my best friend like that.”
“MJ,” You whispered. “Thank you.”
“Boys are dumb, (Y/N),” She hugged you. “Don’t let them make you think less of yourself.”
She let you go and grabbed your hand. “Now let’s wash this face and get our shit together.”
You chuckled softly and followed her. She was the best best friend you could have ever asked for.
After washing your face and breathing deeply you headed to the rest of the classes for the day and wished for them to go quickly. You couldn’t wait to go home.
When you were leaving you bumped into someone, you looked up to apologize and it was Peter. You shot him a hurt look and mumble an apology, not giving him time to reply and left with your head down.
You decided you would try again with Spotspidey, maybe he was just busy.
yourighandle: hey dude (seen)
You waited for hours deliberately trying not to check your phone. You did all your school work, procrastinated a bit, made dinner with your mom, watched a couple episodes of queer eye to pretend you were crying because of that and not because your online best friend was ignoring you.
He was ignoring you. You were sure of that after the second day he refused to answer your messages. You could see him typing but soon he would delete it and not send anything.
The message you were so anxiously waiting came after the fourth day trying to reach out to him.
spotspidey: leave me alone.
It hurt, but it hurt so much more than you ever thought it would. The thought that he could have been just playing with you, that he had been collecting info, or that it meant nothing to him made it sting.
You were waiting for the pictures of you being silly pop out throughout the school, or on the internet. You were waiting for the other shoe to drop. You were waiting for a sign that it all meant something other than you being so easily discarded that it wasn’t even worth a second thought.
All these days when things had been weird you had seen Spider-man. He was always somewhere near you when you went out. As if he was watching over you exclusively. It made you angry.
You saw a red suit pick out of an alley near your house.
“Leave me ALONE,” You said loudly. “Stop doing this weird stalking thing, dude.”
Spider-man got out of the alley with his head down.
“Sorry,” He mumbled. “I just want to make sure you’re okay.”
“Why?” You laughed bitterly. “I’m just some lame girl you saved once, nothing more, nothing special about me.”
“Don’t- don’t say that, please.”
“It’s true,” You said with finality to your tone. “Now, if you could please stop doing what you’re doing-“
“Why?”
“Because- because seeing you reminds me of people I’d better forget.”
“Oh,” He said softly.
“I’m sorry I’m being ungrateful right now but- but- oh my god,” Your voice broke and you started to cry (fricking cry!) in the middle of the street. “I gotta go.”
You all but ran the rest of the way to your house, feeling embarrassed and just sad.
You put on your earphones, laying on your bed and just as you were about to put some music on you saw a notification that made your breath catch on your throat.
(yourighandle): spotspidey sent a video.
You sucked in a breath and clicked on the ig icon, went to your messages and clicked on his icon. You wanted to delay this as much as you possibly could.
Spider-man appeared on your phone screen and you sat up immediately.
“I know I fucked up, but this-“ He paused to take his mask off. You gasp out loud as you saw Peter Parker’s face, eyes bloodshot as if he had been crying, hair a mess and looking so soft you just wanted to hold him in your arms.
“This is why I disappeared. You knew me three different ways and I thought-“ The vídeo ended. There was another one.
“I thought you’d be disappointed to know they were me. Penis Parker, the loser.” Peter sounded defeated and as if he would start crying any minute. The video was over and you had a hand over your mouth, too shocked to do anything else.
There was another video and a message.
spotspidey: this is me, I know it’s not what you expected.
spotspidey: or wanted anyway
“So like if you could keep this a secret,” Peter had his hand in the back of his head. “I’m sorry, (y/n).”
Your heart was beating so hard it seemed like it was going to pop out of your chest. Your finger moved on its own accord and suddenly you were calling Peter.
“Hel-“ You didn’t give him a chance to speak.
“You’d never disappoint me, Peter Parker.”
You heard him sigh. “You don’t have to do that,” he mumbled.
“Peter, listen to me now. You are the smartest guy I’ve ever met, you’re a great friend, you are so sweet and kind to everyone you meet, you are an amazing person and you don’t get to talk about my best friend like that. You’re funny and yes, Parker, you’re a nerd! But in the best way possible.”
You were a little out of breath because you were speaking fast in case Peter decided to hang up.
“You are everything, Peter.” You finished your little speech.
“I-“ He chuckled sounding self-conscious. “I don’t know what to say.”
“Come over so we can hug it out.”
“Okay.”
You waited for less than five minutes and Spidey was knocking on your window. You opened it and he slipped inside the room.
“Hey,” You watched as he took his mask off.
“It’s really you,” you were still impressed and a bit astonished by it all.
“Yeah,” Peter smiled sadly.
You walked up to him and pulled him into a hug. He melted into it, wrapping his arms around your waist and bringing you close. Your bodies molded into each other, you fit like a missing jigsaw puzzle piece. You breathed him in and he did the same.
You had your eyes closed and was just enjoying being that close to him. Peter, spotspidey, Spider-man. They were all the same.
You pulled away, hands resting on Peter’s shoulders.
“It might mess everything up,” you said before leaning in and kissing him on the lips. It was just a press of lips at first but then your lips started moving against his and it changed everything.
You ran your fingers through his hair and he pulled you impossibly closer by the waist, fingers slipping under your shirt to touch your bare hips. You split in order to take a breath.
“So…” Peter said.
“That’s that,” both of you chuckled feeling a little embarrassed.
“That’s cool.”
“Yeah?” You asked with red cheeks and a small smile on your face.
“Yeah, I’d like you to do that again.”
“Many times?” You pushed him a little.
“All the time from now on,” He was still holding you and smiling.
“I could get on board with that.”
“We still need to talk, I kept things from you.”
“Aw please, later? We can talk about all the feelings later,” You leaned on his chest, he chuckled hugging you tight.
“What do you suggest we do now, then?”
“Nap, cuddle, make out. In that order, please.”
“Maybe I should change,” He suggested. He was probably right, it would be weird if your parent caught you snuggling someone dressed as Spider-man.
“I’m gonna grab some sweatpants for you and me.”
You rummaged through your closet and you two quickly changed, turning your back to the other to give them a sense of privacy. Maybe it would have been easier to go to the bathroom but it would take longer and you wanted to cuddle that boy to death right away.
You settled on the bed and Peter spooned you. “I don’t know why I have to be the little spoon,” you complained. “You deserve to be held and cared for too.”
It was much easier to say these things when you weren’t facing him, so you just told him everything that was on your mind.
“We can switch later, grumpy.”
“Hey!” You protested with no heat.
You enjoyed being held and could feel his breath on the back of your neck, it calmed and settled you.
“I forgive you,” you whispered suddenly. “If that’s what you need to hear. You were always forgiven, Pete.”
Your voice was getting slower and deeper was sleep took over you.
“Thanks,” was the last thing you heard him say before falling asleep in Peter Parker’s arms.
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