#anyways idk where I went with that rant

[kyistell]

Wowza ain't this a big one eh?

SCENE KID NJ IS BEST NJ PROVE ME WRONG!!!!

*ahem* Soooo...I did this on my Ipad if it isn't obvious, I actually really like this lol.

There honestly isn't too much to say about this, like Jersey was a slight scene kid in the early 2000s and basically DIY'ed everything he is wearing, did I make it obvious enough that he is a Devils fan?

The red and green is a heavy call back to the original jerseys the Devils used, which I lovingly call the Christmas Jerseys, and clearly I went VERY heavy with that lol

The other side of the hat has a Rutgers patch instead of the Devils one you can see, this would have been when the Rutgers football team was doing pretty good I think soooo ya know, I felt it was important to mention.

ANOTHER POLAROID, this time by Rhode Island, and no you aren't reading that date wrong and I feel as though I don't need to elaborate ;)

#welcome to the table #welcome to the statehouse #wttt #wttt fanart #wttt new jersey #wttsh new jersey #soooo #i had another sketch before going with the second one #it was him in a more 80s style dress #i was bored can ya blame me? #anyway i didnt really like it for a finished product so i went with the second one instead #also your eyes dont deceive you rhody does sign with rhode runner #pretty much every polaroid will be signed with more or less the states nickname #also polaroid's are not limited to jersey #he just happens to be the focus of the two ive done thus far #also this is probably the only polaroid drawing that will be completely finished and also on the ipad #like dont get me wrong i love procreate and the advantage of drawing on the ipad in general #but i also love doing the sketches on the computer where yeah i may have to put in more thinking but it doesnt take nearly as long #idk im sorta ranting now huh lol #anyway this was just my start to my Scene Kid NJ propaganda #there will be more #eventually #lolz

[gu1lty-as-sin]

im so obsessed with melanie martinez you dont even KNOWW

#my friend that i went to the portals tour with was like “and when we go to the trilogy tour-” #and it was like girl #you seem to relate to me so much even though we are clearly not the same #but omg i would KILL to go to the trilogy tour fdhslfhdlsf #k12 is my favourite thing ever #anyway #i hope my mom gets a promotion soon lol then hopefully i can go #or maybe my grandparents would help me #idk #wow this is turning into a rant #but also like #these girls at school were talking about how they spend $400 on like tiffany or some shit #like what the fuck #you could go to like three concerts #i feel like if only i was rich i would be so much happier #like ik money doesn't buy happiness #but in some ways it kinda does #going from staying with my very rich grandparents to back home where we are. not #its such a shock #and i was talking to my dad about it #and he was raised like upper class yk #and i was like “haha its so funny staying with ur parents bc its such a diff lifestyle” #and i did want to make him uncomfortable bc he kinda chose this life a little #and was like “yeah i wanted to give you something that i didn't have growing up” #and its like girl what is there #anyway if you read this far here's cake 🍰 #juno.txt #melanie martinez

[the-acid-pear]

hey do u fw phone guy jack and if so do you have any thoughts on phone guy jack

I loooooove phone jack as a concept unfortunately I haven't managed to build a coherent thought since the summer of '92 but let me try like. I mean he'd be undeniably one of the fucking worst ones hands down. Steven would blush next to how atrocious of a boss phone Jack would be. Because he's a bit of a cunt as it stands but w his brain reprogrammed to focus mainly on the company and forget his previous life? He'd be a turbo cunt. And I don't think he'd even that good at the job either. I do wonder if he'd manage to keep the narrator or not. I'd be funny if he did and the narrator remembered everything but was like, unwilling to tell him? Or maybe he'd tell him and Jack would just ignore it. He's busy half assing his duties to be bothering with past memories you know?

Hell even if he remembered I think it'd be a bit of a Roger moment in the sense that he was already fucking MISERABLE where he was and now he is Someone he's Scott™ and he lost everything already so what's even the point? Here is bad but there is worse.

Maybe I had more thoughts than I accounted for.

#luly talks #asks #decaffeinatedgardenerpersona #sorry if you meant phone jack as in DT jack and I just went on this rant though i do have some vague thoughts about him too #just more vague #i think if jack went out his way even after dying and being revived TWICE and tried to still be a good man is. sad. #like could you imaaaagine the people who knew him trying to be like fym jack get your shit together #phone jack has a certain neutral ending quality to him but ironically it works as a corruption of what thst ending stands for #<- guy who just said he was incapable of forming coherent thoughts #didnt even drink coffee idk where this brain function is coming from but anyway #because the neutral ending is marked by jack doing shit FOR HIMSELF not for dave not for dee not for anyone #so him mirroring this but out of having been kinda lobotomized is soooo twisted ykwim? #NO CONTROL FOR THIS GUYYY‼️‼️‼️ #okay i need to eat breakfast now #ALSO TY FOR LETTING ME KNOW BOUT THE DOGMAN QUOTES BLOG wasn't gonna rb that post again so this came in clutch WKDHDKFH

[thethingything]

we have a dentist appointment tomorrow and on the plus side we're not really anxious about the appointment itself because the dentist was so nice last time and actually took our medical trauma into account.

unfortunately though we do have to have anaesthetic which makes us feel like shit for at least the rest of the day, and no matter how considerate the dentist is, having a medical professional touch us at all does still trigger certain trauma and then I end up having a bunch of panic attacks at some point within the next few days and it's a really shit time. I really don't wanna have to deal with that and the concept of it is making me nauseous

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #<- kinda #medical trauma #(this turned into a long rant about medical trauma and consent so here's your warning for that if you read the tags) #I didn't like medical professionals touching me anyway but ever since the stuff last April when we went to the hospital #it's been a way bigger issue and I end up being an absolute wreck for a while because of it #I cannot begin to express how much I do not want a medical professional touching me at all but especially not in my mouth #and any other situation where someone shoves their fingers in your mouth when you don't want them to would be considered really violating #but because it's for medical reasons and we have to put up with it if we actually want treatment nobody around us seems to see it like that #same goes for various other medical procedures where it's like if a stranger touched me like that when I really didn't want them to #in any other situation that would be assault but because it's a medical setting I'm expected to just be okay with it??? #idk I probably haven't explained any of this right but I just don't like that people treat medical stuff as a special scenario #that's exempt from causing the same distress as any other scenario where someone touches you when you don't want them to #even though our brain is processing them the same way and we can't magically make that not happen #I know technically with medical procedures you (usually?) consent #but it's like... the choice is either consent to it or have your health keep getting worse #and once again in any other situation if your choices were to either consent or experience physical harm #that wouldn't really be considered consent and would be really distressing #I'm literally only consenting out of fear of what happens if I don't which... technically isn't consent but what choice do I have #idk this stuff is probably an issue specifically because of our trauma #but even still I would like to be taken seriously when I say I feel violated after medical procedures

[theloveinc]

REEEEEEEEEE

#i want to go out for dinner but nO MONEY #really i just dont want to cook #cuz we went out yesterday and tell me why the bill was $144 PLUS TIP #WHAT IN THE F*CK #my roommates were paying for me bc i did their chores but i didnt feel good abt letting the whole $50 of my portion slide #i wasn't expecting that cost at all esp cuz the food was good but not. anything other than that #anwyay i had a good time but YIKES i just want fast food rn but I'M BROKE #and i've been eating my frozen meals and meal prep for the whole week #where is mommy when you need her #i am TIRED #anyway hello. how are you all? #i am. idk what i am. #caitie rants

[rammstein4ever]

I love my bf to death but sometimes he makes me want to pull my hair out. He just started a new job but it turns out it sucks and he applied for a different job and immediately got a job offer. I called him because I was excited for him and like, I wanted to talk to my fucking bf bc he's one of my best friends but after 5 minutes he says he needs to go bc he was watching something. Like wow excuse me from getting in the way of you watching something that's too damn important to talk on the phone with your gf for more than 5 fucking minutes

#i also bought concert tickets for us #well mostly for me bc its for a band that i like but i wanted to go with him #and even though it was a band he didnt like he agreed to go #but then he got that new job (the first one where he only ended up working for 2 days) #and he didnt know if he was going to be off to go with me so i was looking for someone else to go with me #bc i didnt want to go by myself and waste a ticket #any way im going with my brother and i told him and he was basically like cool i didnt care to go anyway #even though you dont like the band you would have had a good time any way and you would have idk spent time with your gf #ive gone to shows with him before where i wasnt i big fan of the band he wanted to see but i went anyway #bc i wanted to spend time with the person i love #sorry this is really long i just needed to rant and im upset #i wanted to talk to my best gf about it but she didnt answer her phone

[baeshijima]

gn today is such a bad day and its not even 11 am

#sophie’s idle chatter #long rant abt my great morning -> #stayed up until 2 am writing my project that still isnt even done (500 wc out of the 2000 wc) but had to give in the hard copy today #then i was like ‘well i can take a nap and wake up at 4 am to do some more!’ #woke up at 4 am. had an existential crisis. cried. went back to sleep #then i slept through my morning alarm and banged my head on my desk when i tried to turn the plug off #couldnt eat breakfast and cried like… 3 times to the train station #basically no one handed their project in bc none of us finished and he was v passive aggressive (disappointed aha) #and only me and four others actually turned smth in #and while we were doing our eng lang test (diversity in women and mens language) he kept sighing while going through our hard copies #anyway im now on the train home with a massive headache and the want for the world to swallow me whole #and i have biology later. where i havent done the hw bc ive been stressing over this projects 2nd draft. #…… #anywho lemsip my bestie im coming soon hahahshsb #and 3.5 update ;w; #probably delete later. idk. ughfhdjs

[lesbienneanarchiste]

I'm basically an influencer now bc after 2.5 years of watching me use mine, my mom has finally started a book/reading journal 💅

#she's enjoying it so far so thats nice! #i maintain that keeping some kind of log of your feelings abt the books you read beyond a star rating is a valuable practice #i dont even rate my books in my journal and its nice looking back and not having my memories of them pinned down to a number #i mean. i do still star rate them on 3 different apps. but my POINT IS #reviewing something even (or especially) if youre the only one who will see it helps you engage with the text on a deeper level #which doesnt mean all my reviews are long or laborious like literally sometimes it's just 'wow! hated that ❌' and i move on #but that tells me something when i flip back to it months or years later and its really interesting #its the same w annotating #there's a page early on in my copy of fellowship of the ring where i went on a righteously angry rant #and literally the next year i wrote 'idk what tf i was so mad abt' next to it #theres a piece of me in there! it was the truth in the moment! thats important to see sometimes! #anyway its late and im tedtalking but like. if you ever read books please jot down some notes somewhere when you finish them even in an app #disgruntled octopus

[charlitosalcaraz]

what's the beef with toni?

it's a combination of things tbh i dont know where to begin 😭 but basically things i've read from his book about how toni was really tough on young rafa to the point where he'd come home crying but wouldn't want to tell his parents what had upset him because he didn't want his uncle to know; toni being so harsh on him during practice and never being satisfied no matter what rafa did;

then there's rafa even in that interview where he's like 13 and they ask him what he's going to do now that he's won (some tournament) and he says go back to practice because this trophy doesn't mean he'll be a good player and then his uncle telling him winning rg once doesn't mean anything either about the rest of his career (obviously simplifying what he said here)

and i know tough loving is a big part of sorts and anyone that's played sports knows how coaches can be, but i think there's boundaries and i have a feeling uncle toni crossed them and i also think rafa has that boomer mentality where it's like 'yeah but it's family they meant well and did it with love *said after you were literally traumatized*'

and then lastly, just his vibes, i don't like them and bless the day carlos moya showed up and took over i think rafa has been so much lighter since

#i also think with carlos he doesn't have to figure out how to do a coach professional relationship and a family one #like imagine disagreeing with your coach or in this case your coach verbally abusing you probably #and then going to family dinner like nothing happened 😐 #anyways anon sorry this got longer than you probably asked for but it's a rant i always have on standby #so uncle toni if i see you 🔪 #asks #akskkask me: idk where to begin also me:*puts under the cut because i went off*

[fakeoutbf]

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#hi you’re getting a rant from me today bc i’m still so pissed off ajejfjke #might delete this later idk #so i went out to dinner with friends and then we were gonna go out to a club but it was kinda late and we didn’t know where to go #so this one friend suggested we just go to his house #now this friend and i have a little history and ngl i may have gone with him in his car bc 1) i don’t drive and 2) i’ve gone with him before #nvm that once we made out in his car right (but i fully use that to my slight advantage) #we hadn’t seen each other since like november and haven’t properly talked waaaay before that so we caught up in between car rides #and once we got to his place and a couple of other friends left we started bantering and lowkey flirting #which led to him sitting like right next to me pressed up against me and we were really close and then with consent he starts to like #pull me close and touch my legs and ngl it’s a little embarrassing bc there were three other friends there #and he goes on to compliment my outfit several times and saying i have great style blah blah blah #but bc there’s other ppl we don’t kiss and i’m BARKING SO FUCKING MAD BC I KNOW IT COULDVE LED THERE #he always brings up this weird conversation talking about really liking to get acquainted with someone else’s smell and how intimate it is #and we even fucking smelled each other and he said i smelled good/great i don’t remember his exact words #y’all i just wanna be KISSED like #he’s a fuck boy and i know that but i’m not looking for a relationship i just wanna be KISSED FUCKING AJEJFJSKEK #anyway i deserved kisses last night and fuck hanging out with other ppl bc i would’ve definitely gotten some last night if not for the crowd #WAIT I FORGOT THE BEST PART #he literally showed me shirtless pics of himself and dude’s fucking ripped which is not necessary but a definite plus #y’all if that wasn’t a fucking opening shoot me bc idk what is

[hkpika07]

What moment in ttte made you shocked?

Idk man ttte isn't a very shocking show. It's incredibly down to earth, if a bit real with some of its stories. While yes some of the earlier episodes and especially the books can branch onto more serious and arguably darker content its nothing that would really shock me per se.

Nothing really shocks me, it just makes me think. Maybe be a bit sad or feel for the characters. But that's what any good story does.

#idk really know what you want me to say here #im not super into talking about the quote on quote darker elements of ttte. i like my fluff #people act like its this secretly dark and fucked up kids show. shocking people. constantly bringing up Henry’s tunnel and what not #and they dont take into account not only rhe full context. but the messages themes and time period that the stories were written. #these “darker” storylines were written in the 40s. where a punishment like this would seem normal. #obviously now in 2023 these views have changed #its like the old children's parlor game Snapdragon. played in 1800s. #where children would eat raisins out of a burning dish of brandy while it was still on fire #times change and its important to take the context into consideration. does it make the action or plot point any less unsettling? no. #like i said perceptions have changed. but i dont think its fair to call it a fucked up oooo dark and egdy not what you think show #dont act like it was written in today's time when it wasnt. the authors didnt write that show for Children's television in the 80s to shock- #-and scare kids. it was written in 1945 by Awdry as an allegory for being a brat. you get put on the naughty step or go to your room #like how henry was shut in thr tunnel. granted today the wording and time spent in the tunnel seems overly harsh. which it is. #but it also might be hyperbole. also henry was let out the very next story and everyone fucking misses that fact and i fucking hate it #HE WAS LET OUT OF THR TUNNEL THE VERY NEXT EPISODE #sorry sorry i went on a bit of a rant in the tags. anyways nothing in ttte shocks me cause theres nothing really shocking about it #red answers

[strawberry-peach]

Me, watching reactions to that series again because I apparently like suffering: these men are breaking my heart just like the first time, why am i going through this again? i need to let it go

Me, days later, after more reaction watching, going through his fucking tag on this hell site: i am in emotional pain again haha here's for another month of suffering!

#im not even gonna... man they hurt me #like yeah i hurt for the couple and the protagonists and everyone too #but for some reason these three four five guys just ripped my heart idk why i got so attached to them #and so quickly also bc their screen time was... rather small idk #no it doesnt matter what the fuck im talking about just ignore me and my rants im just letting some feelings out to relieve pressure or smt #but yeah... and him in particular bc the dude playing him has such big brown puppy eyes and oh boy that face went stright for the heart #also he has a pretty moustache #yeah yeah he is pretty ok i admit it but i swear on my life i only realised that now on my reaction watching #or rather after that when i dreamed abt him no its not relevant ignore that to if youd please #THE POINT IS he hurt my feelings they hurt my feelings and the fact that there was real people they were based on is 100000 times worse #anyway where was i going with this? sorry got carried away i was going nowhere actually just ranting for the sake of ranting #and because this thing wont let me rest and i wont let it go apparently watching it at all that first time was a fucking mistake #anyway thats enough have a nice one!

[genshins1mpact]

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#every time my father picks another shitty fight and i get all worked up and bitter i can't help but think... #two wrong don't make a right but my 'daddy issues' & scara #scara's mommy issues are a match made in hell so what it do baybee #i normally go for the vvv sweet or spicy sweet ones yet lately.... #im like this close to just aiming for all the (fiction ofc) toxic tropes #bc while i can't say i relate to everything.. scara def reminds me of old me ive tried so hard to overcome sometimes #maybe why i took so long to come around to him.. reminded me of all the ugliness i like to pretend isn't still part of me 💀 #and now im like ykw fuck it time to main him- /hj #delete later #just rly needed to vent & i normally keep that on main bc that one's pretty dry lately anyway but.. nowhere else would the refs make sense #tldr; toxic tropee w/ scara time bc im feelin fucked up and it's time for some terrible decisions 🤪🤙🏻 #reminds me of that one kaeya fic where he abandoned the mc and their kid and shit went ham til diluc stepped in to help and all that #.....lowkey wanna find/re-read that one again if it's still out there #&maybe some questionable albedo tropes too or even childe idk. again just.. all for bad decisions rn bc life got me all sorts of fucked up #:^)))))) #/neg #vent/rant #why do we call them daddy issues like they're our issues and not our inherented problems from our barely functional dick figures- #uhh i mean sperm donors- err fathers #if you thought that was petty .... you didnt even see the parody holiday card i made him w/ a diaper on it 🤡 #ok but fr ima shut up now and i better actually remember to delete this one hhhhh

[roxannepolice]

#welp the tags will be a rant but now i'm obsessed with this silent cinema divine comedy lucifer so for your viewing pleasure #look at him he munching #but anyway #bitterish post potd reflections that won't let me sleep p. 2: #technically 3 but really 2.b #classic who doctor/master was giving me the vibes of those romanian christian folk stories described by mircea eliade #where god created satan from their shadow because they needed a counterbalance to create the world #tensimm is the variation where god created satan simply because of loneliness #twissy went in the direction of devil as a trickster figure of christianity that god is cross with but lets hang around #potd left me with the vibes of those gospel adaptations that acknowledge judas as a tragic character #idk i just feel drained by the role my child is being given of late #i seek emanations of collective unconscious not morality tales #sorry i keep thinking about this #but i need to get stuff out of my system #and no one i know in real life watched much dw #and when they want to listen anyway they make it about my stupid mental health #not sure how to interpret that #but this feeling of muteness is so frustrating #personal

[munamania]

nancy wheeler for the character bingo thing. or merlin if someone already asked for nancy

he. well. he’s just so. he’s my buddy <3 he’s soooo pathetic wet cat man you gotta wring him out and put him in the sun to dry… make him some soup and he’ll ask you about necromancy <33 he’s really the only man i feel truly Blorbo about. other than peeta. but that’s different i can’t explain. i don’t know why i’d beat him up he doesn’t deserve it it could be like that affection aggression… as for violent urges i think i’ve just grown more insane watching the show. i don’t feel violent Toward him. frequently. i just generally am 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 more of the time now. you know.

feel free to keep ‘em comin 😓

#thank you for asking me about merlin i looove talking about merlin #he’s so. just. he’s insane. he’s so absurd he’s like a cat protagonist and he’s soooo cunty and mean sometimes yet #he’s filled with so much kindness. and love. so much love that it eats away at him. i hate it here. #oh the based one… mmm…. i would argue morgana is based. tbh. #but sometimes he goes on his little rants and i’m like slay babygirl!!!! #anyway i truly think colin morgan just has some kind of effect on your psyche man. id have given him an emmy for s2e13 alone and #he continues to raise the bar #i was watching a short cast commentary clip and bradley was talking about a scene where they had to use rain machines #and everyone went awwww poor colin!! </3 and he’s like. also right there #like he just. yeah man idk. not to be weirdly parasocial i do not know this man i’m just saying. yk #the acting is beyond. The beyond #ask games

[emeraldbabygirl]

I had this dream the I was with romin or wonjun wearing the Creature fit, the red and black one and we were in my kitchen dicking around but I was complaining that the fit didn’t..fit lol cause I was fat and then I turn around and Hwalchan is in front of the silverware drawer holding a spatula? And he also happens to be in the Creature fit and he was like ‘you’re not fat’ and I took the blazer off and was like arguing with him and he was like ‘come here baby you smell so good’ and he hugged me and wow thank you dream hwalchan I needed that :’)

#my dreams #dream log #it’s been a minute since I’ve had any dreams with idols #it’s mostly weird sex dreams #I mean sometimes the sex dreams are ok but it’s never the sex dreams I prefer #plus I love comfort dreams? like the hongjoong one I had #need more of that since I crave it so much :( #and to be honest I want to leave tumblr not permanently ?? but I just am tired of being so attached to it #like idk I try to take a break from it but i always come back #like I wanna leave for a long time and have mutuals wonder where I went and worry that I got eaten by meiko #and then I pop in and they are happy I’m back and blah blah blah #anyway #I really just wanted gone cause I was so upset over eunwoo the other night #and then just upset with family and personal issues #but I always come here to just post #it’s like how I cope so if I’m not posting at all y’all know somethings up #I’m just so tired of tumblr ya’know? #rant #I guess that’s what it was #and my shift got canceled tonight and tomorrow so plenty of time to sulk I guess