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liverpops · 5 years

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💝everyone... i luv u T_T i’m actually crying really ugly but i’m so happy bc it’s a wonderful happy crying💗 thank you for your support!!

i hope you’re all right!! hospital trips are never terribly fun. i’m casting the softest curaga from afar!!! rest well<3333

you could never be annoying, promise<3 it means a lot to me that you would take the time to write me just to tell me that, MY heart is blooming like a flower right now!!! HOLDS YOUR HANDS SO TIGHTLY FROM AFAR!! i’m glad if i’m even a bit of a comfort or presence when youre feeling blue. depressi episodes are never easy to get through, but i’m so proud of you for being such a wonderful sweet champion💓💗💗 thank YOU!! never change!!

oh anon, you could never be a bother. i wish i could be there for you in person to hold your hand or just sit by your side!! i’m sorry your day was so awful, but i’m really happy that a smile managed to find its way to you💝 you’re so strong!! let my selfish wish be that you smile again today, and even more in the coming days!! i’m here for you!!

FOR SOME REASON TUMBLR WAS GLITCHING OUT AND NOT LETTING ME REPLY PRIVATELY GRRRR so sorry abt answering here!! nyehehe I’M HAPPY THAT MY SILLY AU MANAGED TO YANK YOU IN >:) now.... we’re in this together!!!!!!! a lot of liverpepper has to do with things i crave or covet—not necessarily adopting at a young age for myself, but just.. the idea of family and warmth, and that sense of being loved and belonging and going through with decisions you make no matter the adversity, and i’m glad if leon deciding to become a parent the way he did is smth that rang nicely with you! you’re wonderful, thank you so much!! (real life or no, i’m rooting for you in all your plans and dreams! one day perhaps, hmm? ^o^)

OHHHHH THANK YOU SMMMMM ;___; thats such a wonderful compliment bc i just want to make soft warm things!!! 💘💗💘💗 ive been struggling a bit to settle on a consistent way of coloring and drawing (ive been switching between drawing on ipad and laptop and the results are currently.... KINDA MESSY 😖) so this really makes my day, thank you!! i’m happy to still be here💗

meds can be a bit difficult, huh? i definitely know the feeling. please don’t forget to take them on time and get your refills!! i’m glad though that your new meds dont make you feel as gross as your old ones did—it’s always a relief when something works a bit better. i’ll make sure to try and draw some more indulgent being-taken-care-of!Cloud for you during the year! i hope you have the warmest 2019 and that you receive nothing but love and fill your days with as many smiles as you can💗💗💗💗💗 RAISE YOUR HAND BC IM HIGH-FIVING YOU FROM AFAR!!!!!!!!!

hello!! i want to point out that whenever ppl call me either by name or by a cute nickname like peps or anything like that, my heart just grows about 2894723x in size so....im here wheezing on the ground just from the start of your message!! i’m glad my silly things are even a bit of a cheerup for you, bc they cheer me up too! it isn’t easy when the feeling of loneliness surrounds you, huh T_T holds your hand tightly!!!!!! i’ll do my best to take care of myself, thank you for caring like that<3333 i’m looking forward to kh3 too!! check back w me after youve played it so we can cry together!!

@myadburks 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗 if i could paste 1 billion heart emojis for you i would, but tumblr would never let me unfortunately, so that’ll have to do! thank you so much for your love and support<333 YOURE the wonderful one for taking the time to be so sweet like this!!!!

@ anon: AAAAHHHHHH for a long time now??????? i cant wrap my head around that anytime anyone says it!! thank you so much!!!!! HAHA omg see i very very rarely go back to look at the old posts bc i dddddie at my old drawings, but it definitely does make for a pleasant time capsule of art progression HEHE. here’s hoping i improve even more with every drawing!!! CHEERS ILL DRINK TO YET ANOTHER YEAR OF SHENANIGANS!!! ty for staying on this train w me for so long, dear anon!!!💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

;_____;💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗anon...... youre making me melt.... tysm T__T sometimes i have awful annoying voices at the back of my mind telling me it’s ridiculous that all i ever contribute to fandom-wise is just my own sandbox and self-indulgent shenanigans, so it’s always nice to be reminded that it’s appreciated anyway💗 thank you, this means more to me than you could ever imagine.

ANON!!!!!!!!!!!! are you trying to make me explode?????????????? first off, thank you for all the years of support!!!!!!!!!!! I BLOW U A KISS........ I CRY!!!!! thank YOU for bringing the biggest smile to my face. YOURE the great one here!! <333333 thank you for appreciating all that i do, theres a lot of love in this universe and i hope it shows!!!! have a wonderful day, sweet anon!!!!!!

#not a drawing #you guys have got me crying in the club over here!!!!!!!!!#i love you all so much T___T

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writer-w-magic · 7 years

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Left - Part 1 - Min Yoongi

Word count: 1701

Genre: angst (maybe a lil fluff, okay? I’m trash) Warnings: terminal diseases (cancer), major character death, minor character death, u r maybe gonna cry, idk, swearing, lots of it, man, mentions of past abuse and mental illnesses, mentions of sex, lots of whiskey and leather jackets, so drinking I guess??!? I guess it just abt covers this chap This is my first chaptered thing so b kind guys! It’s very personal for me, and it’s also for the beautiful, nurturing Unnie @angstsuga

(1.1.2013)

“3, 2, 1… Happy New Year!” Everybody’s shouting to the ceiling hugging, and some even kissing each other. (Y/N) feels Yoongi’s fluffy, pillowy lips meshing together with hers, taking her air and throwing it away. He parts maybe a minute afterwards, when his lungs are screaming for oxygen, and when a calm hand is guiding her forehead to his. “Happy New Year, (Y/N).” It’s softly whispered in the crook of her neck, making it inaudible to the rest of the future boyband, hopefully a sucessfull one, Bangtan Sonyeondan. “Happy New Year, Yoongi,” her lips collide with his nose, and then she hugs him harder then ever; because she knows that she maybe loses him afterward. That the next New Year she will spend alone, most certainly, and she makes her peace with it. It was only ever safe to hope, but never to trust in something as mysterious as future. They part when Hobi, one of the best dancers she’s ever seen, goofs his way on top of the table, to make a toast. There’s a little bit of beer shimmering in the glass, Hoseok’s lively eyes getting a new hue, for the lights have maybe been too dim, or he has just drunk more than he should? (Y/N) doesn’t mind. Anyway, she always liked Hoseok and honoured his presence in ways she can’t explain. “Well guys,” it’s a wide smile, blinding everybody. “For this New Year, we want a lot of things. First, for our group to be the most sucessfull one ever!” Claps, nods, whistles and ‘yeah’s’ go through before Hoseok continues. “We want health, good life, and every loved one to be safe and sound. We want love to continue growing, and for new one to create… And we want all our dreams to come true. For Bangtan, and its debut!” Hoseok finishes, raising his beer, albeit a little sloppily, so some is spilt on the crisp tablecloth. “For Bangtan!” Everybody agrees, and that’s it for the night.

* It’s yet not reqired for Yoongi to sleep strictly in the dorms yet. He allows himself, that after all other boys have left, to have a heated night with his girlfriend. It was a perfect, perfect mix of pleasure; her toes have curled all the while he let her scream her release in the form of his name in the pillows. When they are finished, they lay intwined, soft sheets curling around their frames. She wishes that this will never end. The bliss that she feels when she’s with him. But, music is his first love, and she thinks, I can’t compete with that. Sometimes she wishes, that like Yoongi says, there were just a tad more badassness in her than it already does. “But you’re perfect,” Yoongi would then say. “Different and all so sweetly mine…” She wishes that this will never end.

But everybody knows all good things must come to an end.

(13.06.2013) The Day Of The Debut

Bangtan Sonyeondan, Bulletproof Boyscouts, Bangtan Boys, or just simply BTS, debuted today with a song “No More Dream”, and members Kim Namjoon, Kim Seokjin, Kim Taehyung, Jung Hoseok, Jeon Jeongguk, Park Jimin and Min Yoongi. A little hell went to tow when (Y/N) saw Yoongi under the heavy makeup, a dangerous look, and the silly snapback on. But he had an other name, much more known than Yoongi. He was now recognized as Suga. But it’s still him, she thinks, under the stylist’s work, hard choreography and false aegyo. He’s still Yoongi, the underground rapper, the one who fights so hard for his dreams… Nevermind they debuted him as an idol, he’s still happy. He’s still okay with that. A selfish creature gnaws at the edge of a thought, gnaws and thriwes, and she cuts it out before it can grow further; but the thought remains. But, if he had been the producer, we would see each other more often. * It’s the middle of the day when she visits the dorm, knocking heavily, about to congratulate the boys for their bombastic results, and it was only the first day. BTS worked hard, and now, they have to work only harder. Jimin opens the door, makeup still on, clinging to his cute baby fat on his cheeks. The eyeliner is curved around his small eyes, making them even smaller and more curved. (Y/N) deems it unnecessary. “(Y/N) noona!” His voice is high pitched, like always, she senses the hyperactive note and ignores it, and hugs him harder than she would her older brother. “Jimin, congratulations! You were awesome! I-I-you were just- ugh, you were just… awesome,” althrough a little shaky, the confession is sincere and brings a blush to Jimin’s cheeks. “Aww, bless you (Y/N) noona! Thank you! But I wasn’t that good…” the boy begins to slip into self-depreciation, but she cuts him off. “Jimin. You were awesome. End of discussion.” The elder’s firm glare makes Jimin comply. She hugs him once more (because people need 8 hugs a day to keep being positive, even if they have a lot of insecurities, and Jimin is all of the above), and goes to the Yoongi’s room. He’s beautifully perched upon the bed, cuddled in the sheets like a small exausted potato. She nearly sobs at the sight. PMS can really do wonders to anxiety. She has a slight tremble in herself when she climbs into the bed with him; and bless Yoongi, because somehow his mattresses are always soft, and his fingers trap hers, arms caging them within each other. “Why didn’t you tell me you were coming?” A slightly cold shiver races down her spine at his rugged and unused voice. “I wanted to surprise you.” “But we haven’t seen each other in three days.” “Exactly.” “Smartass.” “Your ass.” “You’re right there.” He lost the mini fight so he conforms, jutting slightly the curve of his nose to her jaw. Everything will be just fine. Yoongi stirs and unzips his jacket, trying to get a comfy position. “You were sleeping in your jacket?” “Yeah, why not.” “Yoongi… were you too tired to get it off?” “No, I just-” “Just because I have anxiety doesn’t mean you should shield me from a fact you are tired. It’s normal for people with your job. I love you. Don’t forget that. You’re supposed to tell me everything, and I am to you too. Okay?” A large, sincere, gummy smile spreads from the edge of his teeth to his cheeks. His pale skin looks a bit gaunt and the circles under his eyes have become darker. She kisses his eyelids, and his nose, covers his cheeks and forehead in pecks, and affectionate kisses, and Yoongi clenches their hands together just a bit tighter. “I love you. So, so much.” “I know Yoongi. I know.” They kiss patiently, for seemingly moments, and she realizes the length of her happiness. Threading her fingers through his dark hair, it’s a delight. He will have thousands of fangirls, but I am the only one he’ll love. I don’t doubt his love for a second. “Your debut was awesome. You were awesome. Althrough-” “I know. The wardrobe was suffocating me a bit.” They laugh at each other and how they finish one another’s sentences. “God, I miss you.” Yoongi’s lips are moving slowly in her hair, a beautiful, harmonious movement that is appreciating her very being, intimate and yet so small. “So…” Her words don’t even reach Yoongi properly when he’s asking her to pick some of her stuff over and put all his good grey shirts to her use. They don’t speak about the finality of his leave, and the hushed whispers of the six other boys, finally die down as they drift to soft sleep. * (Present Day) “Fuck. These are so uncomfortable.” Yoongi’s kind of moody today, and (Y/N) wants to weep at it.

“It will get better babe, just you watch. We will win this fight. Together!” Tears in her eyes, lying to herself, she clenches the pale hands in hers as hard as she can.

He absently rearranges the medication on the table, waiting for a miracle. * (14.06.2013)

“It’s a "Music Bank” debut show, we can’t fuck up.“ "Yoongi, of course you won’t.”

“But-”

“No buts. No go out there and set the stage on fire!” She nearly pushes him into a vase.

“I will. For you.”

“Aw, shucks. Why are you shaking up my heart? Huh?” He plays it cool, but blushes slightly.

“Dunno. You are just too cute, it’s difficult not to play with you.” Shrugs with the silly beanie he has on from the debut, ready and caked with make-up for the battlefield. The staff has allowed her behind the scenes, as an undercover make-up noona, as long as their relationship is secret.

“A good-luck kiss, please.” He taps his cheek impatiently, as a child would.

“Yeah, yeah.” She leans into his soft, baby scented skin and kisses it innocently, one would think platonically if it weren’t for the flame in their eyes.

“Good luck. Show them who’s Suga.”

“I will.”

The taste of his skin is still rich on her slightly chapped lips, even as he comes soaked in sweat off the debut stage. She’s fighting herself, she knows she is. Because it never ends - this life - this love - this song.

(Present Day) “Hyung.” Jungkook’s tall as always, but his stature is slightly slumped, he’s slightly scared of saying a wrong thing, his hyung laying near broken. So pale and so… lifeless. Jungkook offers something, a small sign of remembrance. “Hyung… would you please eat some lamb skewers with me?”

#min yoongi #yoongi #yoongi x reader #my writing #bts #angstsuga #angst #tw: cancer #tw: mild depression #agust d

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kaedekayano · 7 years

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001; Kanzaki and Kayano. 002: Gakushuu Asano

oh boy i’m abt to get so excited and emotional fuck adkaldjahdhdjsd

kanzaki/kayano

when I started shipping it if I did: i don’t remember tbh. i always lowkey shipped it haha, but i don’t think i really realised it until @wassailtofivehundred was like !! yukikae !! and also i saw cute fanart and i rewatched a couple episodes (kyoto trip ehh) and i was like, fuck i really ship this. also a lot of it was b/c around december (the time i published be your own hero) i started liking kayano a lot more and then that made me salty bc nagisa/kayano was so poorly written and an injustice to her character. she deserved a person who she had actual chemistry with, and i think kanzaki is definitely that person (or one of them).

my thoughts: pure!! good!! beautiful and amazing!! i love it!! so much!! i’m working on a v v long yukikae kayano-POV fic right now and i’m excited to show it to y’all b/c i have trouble expressing how much/why i love characters/ships until i have a fic to support it, haha. but anyway i think kanzaki is really good for kayano b/c she’s so understanding and caring, and kayano is good for kanzaki because — look they just care so much abt each other okay they’re so Good.

What makes me happy about them: so good. so pure. so beautiful. they’re just healthy for each other and i love the idea of kayano’s best friend supporting her through all the shit she’s gone through because fuck, man, kayano’s mom and sister are dead, the only “friends” she had, she built her friendship on a lie, the teacher she tried to kill and then turned out not to be guilty is dead anyway (bye bye, purpose that kept her going for a year despite all her issues), the person she was for a year was a lie but — not all of it, okay, deep down kaede kayano/akari yukimura is still a good caring person and kanzaki knows it even if she did lie and the two of them supporting each other and I just — yeah

What makes me sad about them: i’m always full of salt about kayano so :/ i don’t like it when people don’t acknowledge the kayano arc happened/kayano’s real personality is very different from the one she pretended to be/she lied to the class for a year? yeah matsui just decided to forget about it and sideline her because he’s a shit writer and what the fuck is continuity, but that doesn’t mean you should follow his example. so it’d be great to see those issues acknowledged!! give me kanzaki understanding kayano did fucked-up things and is a messy person who was not the kind, cheerful, sweet girl she pretended to be and loving her anyway!! (acknowledge and justify the kayano arc for why it happened without throwing logic out the window, and i’ll personally send you a thank-you card)

things done in fanfic that annoys me: there are two fics on ao3 for yukikae, lol (i’m planning to remedy this because inexcusable!!). one is kayano third wheeling karmagisa w/ like 5 lines of actual yukikae (no offense to the author, the fic is fine, it’s just Not Yukikae). the other is green’s fic and admittedly there isn’t a lot of overtly romantic yukikae but it’s a really good fic and there’s good worldbuilding and concepts and y’all should read it

things I look for in fanfic: having it exist. that’s what i’m looking for. that being said, see above rant, because while there aren’t many fics about kanzaki (beautiful daughter pls love her more), there is plenty of fic about kayano and it is almost never accurate. it makes me sad. accurate, well-done characterization is what i Live for

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: both of them, okuda. as previously mentioned, kanzaki, maybe yada? for kaede, rio, also yada, maybe kataoka (it’s mentioned kayano admires her and i don’t think that was a lie, akari seems like the type of girl who recognises and respects strength and competence in people). um. the 3-E girls are all good in general haha, the only person i can think of off the top of my head i’d say no to is okano with kanzaki because okano dislikes her and kanzaki is uncomfortable with that, so. :/ although seeing them work past it (and okano getting past her own insecurities regarding her femininity) would be cool, so even then, i can’t say Absolutely Never. just not nagisa/kayano pls

My happily ever after for them: sometime in their mid/late-20s, they move into an apartment together and own lots of books and cute stationery and various trinkets. also a cat. maybe other pets, like a hamster or a dog. kayano is a successful actress all over again but keeps her relationship with kanzaki not secret but lowkey. kanzaki is away from her parents and likes her job and reads a lot of books. their friends come visit them pretty frequently and the neighbors think they’re adorable. they’re happy.

who is the big spoon/little spoon: omg fuck i suck at this kind of thing. i think kayano would be the big spoon and kanzaki the little spoon but i don’t think they’d mind switching

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: um theyre fond of reading and decorating things (apartment they move into together) and baking and taking walks together. probably taking walks with the dog tbh. that was like 4 i dont know sorry im still in the developing stages of headcanons for these two ive only been highkey invested in this ship for like a month and a half okay

gakushuu asano

How I feel about this character: today i started thinking about him completely out of the blue, with no prompting, and then i sat down and wrote 4 pages in my notebook about an AU where ikeda doesn’t die and gakuhou remains a good dad. last sentence is “in another world, gakushuu asano is healthy and happy and okay.” this is pretty much how i am all day every day i love this child so much he’s just. i see a lot of myself in him (hes relatable okay) and he’s so amazing and brilliant and full of curiosity and potential and i!!! love!!! him!!!! i want him to be happy so much!!! i love him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

All the people I ship romantically with this character: karma (obviously haha), um. fuck. im really fond of renshuu (like really fond) but i usually ship it as ren having a one-sided crush on gakushuu that eventually concludes in ren realising shuu’s crushing unattainability (also i hc gakushuu as ace arospec and he’s kinda ehhh abt romance in general. projecting? me? yeah) and dealing with it and they become really really good best friends even tho it makes ren’s heart hurt a lil bit but mostly its okay. fuck i had a fic abt this i started months ago that i never finished i gotta do that but yeah i envision the virtuosos’ dynamic as being very very complicated in general. oh yeah i cant believe i said i ship karma/gakushuu only once in this post so far so anyway i ship karushuu i love karushuu karushuu is love karushuu is life

My non-romantic OTP for this character: the virtuosos of course its not like i wrote like 1k+ of meta on this hahahaha also gakushuu/isogai, gakushuu/kataoka (why cant we see his respect for her acknowledged as well i know isogai gets his own ep and all but kataoka is still important and is also a class rep :/), gakushuu/nagisa a little bit (i used to be super into it and i still kinda like it), i actually really like the idea of platonic!karushuu because those two are cute boyfriends but working their way from enemies to rivals with grudging respect for each other to best friends?? it’s good

My unpopular opinion about this character: he and karma are not the same person or quite frankly anywhere close to it. there’s lots of parallels they’re good narrative foils but seeing people act like gakushuu is just a recoloured karma makes me sad. pls no my son is so complex and wonderful and different pls pls understand this he’s not just karma akabane with orange hair he’s his own character and such a good one

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: he goes to MIT and is separated from his father’s awful awful toxic influence and lives a happy brilliant successful life and is emotionally okay. i mean it’s not non-canon hahaha but seeing it onscreen would’ve been cool. we can assume that happens anyway tho b/c it’s gakushuu. uhh seeing him interact with his mom onscreen (or like, seeing his mom at all) would’ve been really cool!!! for who i imagine his mom as, i pretty much just think of @cosmicyue‘s hideko asano headcanon :)

my OTP: karushuu obviously. ohh man i love these two nerds so fucking much okay. they hate each other so so much but they also have this respect for each other alright if i start talking about why i ship karushuu (something ive actually never done on this blog bc i dont want people to think im trying to push karushuu on everyone ajdkakdkajsh; theres hardly a shortage of karushuu shippers around) then im gonna b here all day and this is already really long. ill shut up

my cross over ship: none i dont rlly think about AC in relation to other fandoms tbh

a headcanon fact: i have so many. fuck. um one of my favorites (ive mentioned it before but) is that the asanos are both fluent in 3+ languages and they talk shit about people they look down on in those languages when they’re around those people, just to make people uncomfortable.

send me a ship, a character, or five characters

#gakushuu #ac #ask #yukikae #anonymous #also if my complaining abt nagikae bothers anyone (which i totally understand dw) let me know and i'll tag it :)

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