#apparently i'm still alive

[butterfluffy]

“lovesick!”

⠀⠀ੈ♡˳· love is a good thing, isn't it? but, isn't too much a little too.. sickening? you know, lovesick?

⠀⠀➧ unlabeled | various!yandere!op × gn!reader | oneshots

⠀⠀➧ requests are closed until further notice!

⠀⠀➧ warnings — the fics will contain yandere themes and behaviors, dark themes, and toxic relationships. mistakes and swearing are gonna be present too ofc, so do ignore them, thanks!

⠀⠀꒰ 🍨 ꒱ notes: welcome to “lovesick!,” which is a writing special i made just because, and maybe for this valentine's season.. made crazy.

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#ੈ♡˳· butterfluffy #ੈ♡˳· “lovesick!” · special #one piece #one piece x reader #one piece fanfiction #one piece oneshot #one piece scenario #trafalgar law x reader #portgas d. ace x reader #eustass kid x reader #donquixote doflamingo x reader #apparently i'm still alive #idk when will i begin making these fics considering how busy i am these days AHAHAHAAH

[coraorvat]

SAVOIR FAIRE: I'd worry in Necktie's place, lieutenant can get quite creative with a piece of fabric~ I have seen several cases where people were mixing Electrochemistry and Horrific Necktie and tbf they're pretty easy to mix, but there is a slight difference: EC is your pleasure center which wants you to feel good no matter the source, while Necktie is your imaginary drinking buddy who want's you to party hard like young people do (by getting drunk/hight, sleeping with younger women and doing stupid shit for lulz).

So I'm pretty sure our *bratan* won't be Kim's biggest fan (and vice versa), EC on the other hand…

#perform auto-erotic asphyxiation with your funny necktie out in the open somewhere - ✓ #Disco Elysium #Kim Kitsuragi #harrier du bois #Joopson AS Men's Fashion model Colourful Tie. catalogue no. J327 my beloved #this was way funnier in my head #hoo boy I'm still alive but #the older I get the harder ADHD is kicking my butt #there's like dozens DE sketches but practically no time/motivation to clean them up which is very sad #and apparently I just CANT NOT go hard on colouring cause it's the best part #oh well #hopefully I'd finish some of them eventually

[oocmadagascar]

#terrible quality apparently I didn't reclip this one #too bad #can't do it anymore #ahkj is gone #also hi I'm still alive #I just #didn't feel like posting BAHAHA #madagascar #all hail king julien #ahkj #madagascar movie #penguins of madagascar #tpom #king julien #dreamworks #dreamworks animation #animation #animated movie #ooc madagascar

[mia-ugly]

Chapters: 3/5 Fandom: Our Flag Means Death (TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Blackbeard | Edward Teach/Stede Bonnet Characters: Blackbeard | Edward Teach, Stede Bonnet, Oluwande Boodhari, Jim Jimenez, Israel Hands, Lucius Spriggs, Black Pete (Our Flag Means Death), Frenchie (Our Flag Means Death), Wee John Feeney, Alma Bonnet Additional Tags: Assorted background pairings, Medium Burn, Drag Queen AU, mom issues, Israel Hands the homophobic homosexual, Mutual Pining, POV Alternating, Blackbeard | Edward Teach Deserves Nice Things, Caretaking, Israel Hands can have a little healing as a treat, Blackbeard's Bar & Grill & Other Delicacies & Delights & Fishing Equipment (Our Flag Means Death), First Time, Internalized Homophobia, Oral Sex, Anal Sex, Tags May Change, Eventual Happy Ending, Gendery feelings, minimal angst Summary:bEd falls for Stede Bonnet’s couch first. Then he falls for Stede Bonnet. And then possibly, potentially, maybe but actually a little bit for real - he falls for Edward Teach.

#drag queen au #yes I'm still alive #ofmd #ofmd fic #fic what I wrote #gentlebeard #puns as a love language apparently

[guqin-and-flute]

WIP Wednesday

~When You No Longer Have to Endure, Ch. 2~ excerpt

“He's just…so….”

Xichen tilted his head, raising his eyebrows with a small smile and kept his gaze on the parsley he was chopping for dinner When no further words followed, Xichen supplied, patiently, “Competent?”

“Yes,” punched out of Mingjue in a tone of agonized near despair. “He just does things without having to be asked. And he does them correctly. And well. I knew he was good at organization, I didn't know he had a fucking photographic memory. And it's just--his hands. They do things. They're so nice.” His tone was bordering on cantankerous, like he was annoyed with this office manager for having nice hands. "He flipped open the stapler today, just--” Mingjue flicked his wrist over, a crisp, controlled gesture. "No energy wasted. Elegant."

Xichen dutifully smothered an amused chuckle at the thought of mooning over the way someone reloaded a stapler. “Mm, so you've been saying all evening.”

Xichen could see Mingjue glower over at him from the corner of his vision before he took another sip of his brandy, his 3rd glass of the night. “You're making fun of me.”

“A bit,” Xichen admitted, smile broadening as he wiped the tiny bunches of green from the blade of the knife. “I've just never ever seen you this flustered over anyone before.”

“I was over you.”

His smile grew wider still. “Out of my view, more’s the pity. I’m sure it was terribly charming.”

Especially the thought of him ranting about what he thought were Xichen’s best features, probably to a bored Huaisang. Though, it was a conceited little imagining that Uncle would disapprove of. Mingjue grunted in neither assent nor disagreement and drained his glass.

With a gusty sigh, Mingjue then puddled back against Xichen’s pale gray couch cushions, closing his eyes. “It wasn't a problem when he looked like a kicked puppy,” he went on. “Sure, he was cute then. But it wasn't a problem. Then he shows up all--all--” He screwed up his face in dismay. “And in a tie, and these pants that just--” He cups his hands in the air in front of him evocatively.

#my stuff #3zun #modern 3zun #Mingjue's impression of JGY is apparently Brains > hands > ass and i respect that #wip Wednesday #I'm still alive still writing 🥴

[bonsaiiiiiii]

the picture not it, but the vibes are it

#thunderbirds are go #scott tracy #tag edits #iris speaks #made it with that capcut×tiktok collab #so i just put the picture that was the only one i had in my phone #sorry but i keep deleting things because no memory #once I'll find a better photo ill make it again #but scott seemed very suitable for this template #since hes on my mind 24/7 #not like his brother virg but still #yes im rewatching TAG what gave it away #🤡🤡🤡 #SCOTTY ILL MAKE YOU JUSTICE WITH A NEW PIC #also apparently I'm alive

[gloriousclio]

movies to watch when you're sick (according to me)

The Little Mermaid (this might cure you, it sometimes cures me) (memorized)

Sleeping Beauty (memorized and aesthetically perfect)

Robin Hood (the one with the foxes)

Lady and the Tramp

101 Dalmatians

Are these just my favorite Disney animated movies? The answer is not no....

#i also have the urge to watch #The Young and the Restless #Still hoping Drucilla is alive #we never saw the body! #Wisconsin: famous for fashion and its cliffs apparently #irl #disney #i go back and forth on if i want disney to make the 12 dancing princesses which is my favorite fairy tale #but i would want it hand drawn so for now i'm in the no camp

[unproduciblesmackdown]

and i draw parallels solely on the cinematographic basis of “when my man is no more than a millimeter away from perturbation at all times but you give the Whole Right Half Of The Screen 3/4 Closeup of Harrowing Recontextualizations” like that’s right. we’re living it up

#i mean i guess it counts lol. said generally similar cinematographic approachs for said very generally similar scenarios #(a) when a guy shows his hand (shit) & the Team Experience is in shambles & you're two sec away from shooting him for real.... #nemik not even being around for said ''oh so this guy is like that then apparently'' but Insisting on giving cassian his manifesto when we #all knew like oh f you're gonna get it lol. unsurprised but not unmoved that nemik's manifesto is the source of that Quoteth.... #paraphrasing closely from memory the frontier of the rebellion is everywhere even the smallest act of insurrection pushes our lines forward #the imperial need for control is so desperate b/c it is so unnatural tyranny requires constant effort it breaks it leaks.... #(b) when against all odds you busted out of island forever factory labor electric containment torture execution jail and made it to a phone #make a risky call home to relay to your mom that you're alive and all only to be informed that she is not #and both still like serving as [major turning points] naturally. end of ep six; end of ep eleven of twelve.... #love some drama. even on top of ''oh we knew you'd die but now we know you're dying'' and then like escalation on escalation like umm what's #our bestie here talking about. oh i see. oh he's getting quickdraw blown away right on really at this point; makes sense in this position; #still what a surprise lol truly....that we Aren't surprised maarva dies not only b/c it's heavily cued but also We find out at the ep start #like the one guy dying in prison while we Know that's coming but heaping drama on drama as the doctor tells them what happened on floor two #and we get yet more Acting Wins as andy serkis (lino?) #(nah looked it up & i spoonerized that lol. kino loy. i Only Just Now have one name per each of that heist team down i think lol) so anyways #andy kino loy serkis is getting to be the king of Harrowing Recontextualizations in that moment. ugh just great shit going on throughout #there was a Lot of great [i'm perturbed to harrowed] acting all across the board. its being by and large a cast of characters who are all #like wary and continually endangered with varying degrees of urgency. like the rec abt this series as [tfw depiction of police state life] #star wars /// #andor #truly cassian my [he has the face of a friend] cassian #he really does have this key energy of like your insta new best friend and comrade....nemik's delivery w/''i wrote abt you last night.'' Fun #again like also unsurprising he'd already land on cassian out here like ofc i'll give my crucial legacy work to that guy who just showed up. #and And I Insistingly....and he's right

[no-one-hears-me]

do people actually enjoy college

#if so what is your major and gpa #I liked hs tbh but college makes me feel dead #not even joking it ruined my personality #I used to be very funny and whatnot but going to college made me tired and miserable all the time #and it kinda just killed my personality and I haven't been the same ever since #I'm still super hilarious obviously. but I peaked the summer after I graduated hs it seems bc I'm boring now #I don't wanna change my major bc I'm committed and I don't wanna delay graduation #and idk what else I would do #but idk what I'm even supposed to do with a degree. I have options but I don't actually want any of them #idk what I want bc I don't think about my future. I just don't wanna be alive tbh #realistically I think I would be happier working at a lil coffee shop or something but that's just not acceptable #I need a career apparently #and I understand that it's hard to afford anything with coffee shop paychecks but idk #Sera

[withered-rose-unbreakable-lotus]

I think visual kei is the longest obsession I’ve ever had. It took me 11 years to finally be chill about it. xD I’ve reached a point that I don’t care much about the scene, never seeing them live, missing releases like...this year I’ve managed to slowly detach.

Ever since I was a little girl, my favorite musicians were my life. They gave me a voice, a purpose and a dream. I wasn’t a casual listener, I was the kind of girl who needed to see them as much as possible, listen to music like 6 hours a day, if not more, my walls were always full of pictures of them, I always talked about them...they were my life. And even after getting into visual kei, I didn’t drop any of my previous favorites, I just wasn’t as focused on them as before. With previous artists I felt my enthusiasm was fullfilling and healthy, an energy boost, an inspiration, a place where I felt understood. It was sth I loved, people I loved etc. (and if you are one of those who think you have to know sb very well to love them, get the fuck out of my blog, I know what I felt and if a person can hate sb at first sight, they can love at first sight too. Yes maybe what I loved was 90% illusion, but I believe 10% was actually real cause, no matter how much a person likes to appear perfect and always friendly etc, cracks will always be there). Anyway visual kei felt like more than that to the point I really thought it was destiny to actually work with them (cause I’ve always wanted to work with my favorite artists, I just switched from wanting to go to the USA to Japan after a while being a fan). And you know what, it was fun as long as it lasted. It took me out of the dark, pulled blades away from my wrists, it kept me sane, lead to writing 2 and a half books, it lead to finally getting my hands on photoshop and honestly becoming a better person. But yeah those things aside, I realized that the goal-part was another lie I built to feel I belonged. In reality, it was another lesson in life which, once I got it, it had to go.

I’m closing 30 and I have not much passion for art or music anymore. It was painful forcing myself understand my dreams were silly, but the peace I feel now makes me think I finally made it. I can now look at their photos of the past with nostalgia and not feeling like I failed, cause it was never for me in the first place. I kept seeing people travelling there and being able to see them and, some even got chances to work with them, so I wondered wtf I was doing wrong. It was eating me alive and I desperately wanted sth to work but well...it’s all gone now. ^^

Currently I don’t have any goals but I know some old stuff came back. As a child, besides trying every artform I could get my hands on while listening to music, I also played a lot of games. We had 3 drawers and 1 cupboard full of videogames at home and I feel like I am slowly getting back to that. I limit myself only to genshin now, for sure, but I watch more playthroughs again of games I don’t have and maybe soon I will try getting a console to try more stuff, who knows. I also started watching anime again, which I had stopped for a few years.

Oh well, regardless of what the future holds, I am thankful to all those people who dared chase their dreams and inspired me do the same, my lovely musicians, even if I eventually got nowhere, and I will keep listening to their songs from time to time. And posting their pics cause nostalgia. My only complaint is that I spent the past 10 years of my life being upset that I lived in a house that didn’t allow me have posters on my walls (fucking humidity and mold ye see) and now that I can and my room is healthier, I have nobody I want on my walls. xD I will fill it with Genshin and anime characters xD.

#I'm still not happy so I don't celebrate in any way I'm just glad I found some precentage of peace away from my dreams #and stopped believing silly things #i still think people can achieve everything they want #but it does take work #and after 11 years I personally am done with that work cause apparently it wasn't enough #and that's ok #you can always find a new goal to go after #and choose how many obstacles you are willing to destroy to get to it #some people have more courage than others and patience #whether you have them or not though #finding your place in the world isn't easy #but you can't give up #there is sth out there that will either complete you or will be enough to make you feel glad you're alive #i suppose that's a goal i can have now #to find sth that can bring me happiness and like soon #cause I sure as hell won't fight for another decade for anything that excites me #if it is to bring me happiness for real it better be less than 6 years' work

[sailing-through-hawkins]

🎶✨️when u get this u have to put 5 songs u actually listen to, publish. Then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool)🎶✨️

i'm so happy you asked, because now you're gonna get so much explanation for random songs that don't add up!!!

Solar Powered by Fulton Lee and Jacob Sigman (BIG STEVE AND MAX SKATING DOWN THE ROAD DURING SUMMER FEELINGS)

House a Habit by We Are The Guests (much feelings very wow it hit different i lose my mind over this one)

In My Head by Ryland James (the first song shared between me and my own platonic soulmate)

Masterpiece by Summer Luk (we love supporting trans women and this song is so !!!)

Ain't No Rest for the Wicked by Cage the Elephant (cowboy vibes enough said)

#ask game #MUSIC #good shit #also i just found out that apparently summer had gone missing from social media for a bit a while back and people were worried #but apparently she's alive and well and just wanted to get away from social media? #i'm still worried and hope she's safe and happy wherever she is though

[definitelyjunehomestuck]

yknow ultimately the way i feel about the mob votes is just that there's prolly better ways to drive engagement with the community at this point. like as much vitriol as it breeds between players n towards mojang, you'd think they'd try something different this year, but either they or someone in charge of them doesn't really care, n it kinda sucks to see that.

#june speaks #minecraft #there's all sorts of stuff i could argue against mob votes but at this point it's just the apparent lack of fucks given that i don't like #they're doin a better job of makin the vote feel more fair this time by keepin the mobs on equal footing i'll give em that #but i'd argue that's actually INCREASED hostility between players n towards the devs #cuz now instead of ''obvious good choice that seems to be mojang's prefered winner'' and ''two mid or pointless choices'' #we have options that provide long-requested features that we're worried we'll never get if they don't win #since they basically never intend to let these mobs see the light of day when they lose #ik they don't just throw em away but they end up on a list of super low-priority ideas #its been seven years since we've had the first mob vote with mobs that are different from eachother so like #at this point i'm not confident we'll ever see most of if any of these mobs in the vanilla main game #so i think fears that we may never get included features is valid n it doesn't surprise me to see people at eachother's throats over it #at any rate i'm curious to see what the final mob is but i'm still prolly gonna vote for the crab #i'm still a lil salty about how they stunted the mangrove's atmosphere last second for no reason #and i just want my irl favourite biome to feel more alive #plus i just think crabs are cute

[robinsnest2111]

(listens to the 2 songs Foxy Venus have released so far)

I want more, why isn't there more????

#apparently they're from the netherlands so it'd mean better chances of seeing them play live while they're still relatively new????? #definitely way better chances than seeing stolen prayer play live lmao #the netherlands are way closer than kentucky/tennessee for sure #i am so glad to be alive and get to experience the glam metal renaissance while i'm so utterly obsessively in love with all things 80s 😭 💕

[mishkakagehishka]

Why do i keep dreaming of being with men that nobody in my life wants me to be around

#idk what this dude's problem is but apparently he was ''no good for [me]'' #but idk he got hurt? like i'm talking face full of blood looking like he almost got skinned alive type hurt #so dream me was like #weeeelll..... i can't NOT help him #and then i was getting spammed by calls and messages from my friends like ''do NOT tell me you're at his place'' #and i was. in fact at his place helping him wash the blood off and massaging his face (????) #i went to bed early but i still feel tired sighs

[machidielontheway]

hm. accidentally made mead ??

#3615 my life #actually it may be just a step before mead but like. it's still mead #which i thought was more than fermented honey but no it's just that and some stuff from flavor #'put the honey in cold or lukewarm water in order to not kill the bacteries' #ma'am they've been boiled and they're still alive and thriving #so the explanation is that i very often not finished my tea #which actually contains zero tea. just water honey lemon juice and ginger-lemon-honey bits (infusion pour les français) #and i use metals bottle now so that shit is screwed up tight after the 'oxygen period' #so often when i don't finish it and forget about it for coughs hours it will have... #in my mind like milk left over the night. the taste change and is weird and there's a little bit of gaz when opening the bottle #this time i just left it uuuh a few days. unopened. #and tonight i remembered that i do not have a good track with bottles half filled left unopened for too long #and i did well because the top did nearly come out of my hand when opening it because of the gaz pressure #wait with the lemon maybe it's not mead...it appears there's three kind of fermentation #i'm a bit sad i don't like fermentated things because apparently it's VERY good for the guts #which i have zero problem with. i could eat cement. but just in case you know ? #maybe my body makes me dislike fermentated stuff because i've got all the peeps i need down there for everything to work well #anyway. down the drain it went. don't like fermentation don't like alcohol