#bc that would be a bitch to clean up

[theygender]

I told myself that if I opened all the windows and lit incense I'd be okay but now I can't find any matches or lighters and I can't scream my frustrations while digging through every drawer in the house bc the windows are open. One of life's many trials

#ive looked through every drawer at least twice and i am trying VERY hard not to start dumping drawers out onto the floor #bc that would be a bitch to clean up #i found ONE box of matches out in plain sight on the kitchen counter and its full of spent matches. like its MOCKING me #WHY are there no matchboxes in the places where i usually leave matchboxes. has my gf used all of them are we actually out of matches?? #this is my fault for dating a magician isnt it 😭 #i know we have lighters somewhere to but for some reason only she seems to be able to find them #im going to lose my fucking marbles before she gets home from work #why have i tied my mental health in this moment to my ability to find matches. for fucks sake #rambling

[landgraabbed]

btw no posts today!! my queue ran out and i'll try to set up some more for tomorrow but i'm just chilling rn after that doozy of a weekend

#delete later #for those keeping up with the sibling saga: they moved out this weekend #my parents helped them set shit up bc apparently they had no fuckin idea or plan for the moving out #like. it's fucking scary how they go about shit. how haphazardly they prepared for the move etc etc #AND THEY TOOK SOME OF MY SHIT!!! i want that back and my siblings like. oh parents can drop it off at ur place #bitch???? u think they're carrier pigeons??? i've been getting ur shitty deliveries just come get them urself and bring my hermetic rice ja #absolutely prepared to cut that cord and i would have already were it not for the fucking shit they took. #after that it's game over #and their room was absolutely disgusting. bc they did not clean up after themselves. jackasses.

[diobrando]

Mr. Lee stopped by my room to see if I wanted to prep with the 8th grade history teachers and that was so nice of him to do

#the two 7th grade history teachers do not want to talk to me and its like yeah ok then but why did u guys approve to hire me lol #i stayed in my room bc i was cleaning up and grading and reorganizing the desks but i was tempted #we had to prep bc the school is getting observed when we get back from Thanksgiving break #we had to submit lesson plans and the 7th grade teachers told me to not submit anything (i did) and when i told my induction mentor she was #so surprised that they would say that and that i need to do everything by the book so avoid getting redflagged by administration so #idk man those 2 know how to make a bitch feel extremely unwelcome

[prettyboysmlm]

did that just fucking happen

#i fall asleep for like twenty minutes #my mom comes in and yells at me for sleeping #even tho it’s 11pm #and she wants me to start sleeping at normal times #bitch i’m doing what you want why the fuck did you wake me up #she also yelled at me bc i ‘said i was going to clean my room’ #and my dresser is still messy #bitch no i said i was gonna clean my sheets #not completely redo my room #she has a lot of audacity calling me out when her room looks like *that* #at least i can walk in my room #she’s upset that i have too much stuff in my room #when the space that i would normally put that stuff is completely unusable #bc of her procrastinating #also she said if i didn’t have it done by tmr i’d be grounded for three days #BITCH I HAVE WORK #U WANT ME TO GO WITHOUT A PHONE?? SEE WHAT FUCKING HAPPENS #WOULD BE FUCKING HORRIBLE IF I GOT INTO AN ACCIDENT AND U DIDNT KNOW RIGHT AWAY HUH. WOULDNT THAT SUCK #idk i’m really pissed bc now i won’t be able to fall asleep for another five hours #so much for good sleep #i’m gonna fucking self combust #‘why are you sleeping???’ bitch i’m tired #we went to the grocery and going to the grocery with her is fucking hell #bc it starts out fine #and by the end she’s always yelling at me abt school for some reason #can’t wait to finish senior year and get the FUCK outta this house #granted that i’m still alive by the end #i just want a normal fucking life where i’m not harassed and attacked just for existing. #ugh. sorry this got long #k.txt

[natandacat]

btw im feeling a lot today bc my neighbor is having a bbq and i really wanna go but i had to lie and say i was working bc everyone there is a hardcore party goer and theres too many covid cases rn so even in an outdoor setting i would need to mask and that crowd would be super weirded out by my n95 and also it would suck bc i wouldnt even be able to eat. anyway. being at risk is like living in purgatory while 99% of the population literally doesnt care.

#I WANNA DO DRUG WITH MY NEIGHBOR AND INSTEAD I HAVE LONG COVID #i think the universe is spitting on me #the levels of restraint i need to have to remind myself that its not worth it #i kinda have to keep thinking about the infection and the bad relapses #even though its super traumatizing lol #bc if i dont force myself to remember i would just go bar crawling like tonight ngl #but then i remember being too weak to moan #and how terrifying those hours were #i remember the days where ive been too weak to move in my bed too weak to breathe without effort #and it kinda kills the urge lol #but it sucks!!! that i have to think about this all the time!! #i wanna forget those horrible times fr but the pandemic is ongoing #the mental fortitude i need to survive this fr. #just bitching #medical cw #i live alone rn i cant have a big PEM im not doing another survival week unable to feed or clean myself #im NOT lol #last year was harrowing and this time around i am more prepared and i WILL not end up at the bottom of the hole again #sorry i need to give myself this pep talk bc i hear the music outside and fuck i wanna drink and smoke weed 😔😔😔😔😔😔

[juniaships]

I feel like tfa was building up an arc where Optimus finally sets Sentinel and Blackarachnia straight by telling them he no longer wishes to clean up behind their messes and they better put on the big kid pants and face the consequences of their actions. Such a cool message to teach kids.

#Just bc people are old friends doesn't give them the right to walk all over you #just because youre a hero doesnt mean letting them disrespect your boundaries and forcing you to clean up after them #that would conclude optimus's hero arc: he made his choices now blue bitch and miss spider has to live with theirs #tfa

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#unprecedented emotions in this body o mine. like. this may b surprising given the amount of bitching i do on this website #but let me assure u irl i am exceptionally patient. but right now. there is a limit and that is where we now stand #and again this is prob my fault but ive come to the conclusion that fuck these custom chambers. fuck the amount of work that went into them #fuck all of this. im not fucking using them. i will sit here with this one fucking bryophite chamber if it takes me all goddam day bc at #least i fucking trust the values. that means ill have to split up measurements by 2 days but fuck u im right abt this #the solution is: u cant fucking do 98 samples at once. that it. im sorry. fuck u #and i would probably have come to this conclusion earlier if i had thr time to test but doing it all rught now with no fucking room for #grace makes it very fucking clear. so idk. im not fucking using the chambers. and im not looking forward to explaining this to my boss #bc shes so excited abt this project that i have been dreading since its conception. i started with the 3 chambers and it was somehow #even more awful than i would have imagined. fuck that. 2 or 3 fucking weeks of this #and im not even getting paid for all the extra work i do bc i don't get overtime. im not even technically allowed to work weekends or over #40hrs a week. im just doinf this bc im already so miserable why thr fuck not. #hhhhh im being such a brat abt this for real. ugh but i dont wanna meet with my boss #bc this feels like the time where i have to explain that like. listen. u know that thing im really good at and have spent fucking hour and #hours and hours and hours of time doing? well its catastrophically destructive to my brain and thats whats landed us here #where im so fucking fed up that i wanna quit. clean cut and never work with this stuff ever again #and if i have to use the 3 chambers i might die. i might just evaporate away into a million pieces bc i dont wanna deal with this #but i dont wanna explain that bc then shell feel bad and this isnt her fault. i have an issue thats out of my control and im letting it #devour me whole so like 🤷‍♂️ its my fault bleh #whatever. itll be fine. ive got a coherent argument as to why this is too much. and i kno im fucking right so there it is #i feel like that helps me make decisions: heres what has to happen. heres whats preventing that from happening #and there it is. it either u can fix it or u cant. thats it. u deal with the things in ur control #lol at least im not alone to stew in my anger. im working with 2 other ppl today. so i mean i say that im fucking furious bc im visual fine #lol bc im a patient and level headed person irl im just really whiney online bc i have no outlet. so itll b fine. decision made now we just #deal with it. ugh but how tf am i gonna distract myself from how miserable this is all day? thats the real question #brain gets Interrupted ever 5 min bleh agony #unrelated

[0last-ditch-effort0]

I know I'm supposed to be good and gracious and kind but yaknow what? Sometimes, just sometimes, I wish ableists would develop disabilities-chronic fatigue and pain and migraines and the rest of it- and I wanna give em a lick of what they gave me. How does it feel, to be told your best isn't good enough? That you're not trying hard enough? You can break your back and it'll never be enough to please me. Get a taste of your own fucking medicine

#Specifically @ my roommate who thinks that bc I 'get to' work from home I should have energy to do chores #After I told her a chore rotation would leave me struggling because I can't schedule energy like that #And now she's facing the consequences of her own fucking actions #The action being prioritising her convenience over my health #And she's tryna be mad at me about it #Being all 'I work two jobs and still find time and I get exhausted sometimes too' #Like she honestly has no idea what disabled means #Bitch my exhausted would put you in hospital #My exhausted would have you scrabbling for doctors appointments and specialists and referrals the whole ball #Yea you're exhausted I fucking would be too except for the fact that I cant even work 5 hours without becoming housebound for the next week #And you're out here working 40+ like it's no biggie #God I just she makes me so mad and the absolute lack of compassion or knowledge does my head in #Also she's just painting me up as the bad guy in her head so now anything can be a fucking infraction #It doesn't even have to be about cleaning anymore #ableism #Disability #me saying shit

[xxxairheadedangelxxx]

the passive agressive nature of my mother i swear to christ

"Im staying home this weekend to clean the house because its been abused by all of us" She says to me

the only one who cleans this fucking house

while spending 99% of my time in the basement(as that is where my living space is)

it's crazy how much can change while also SO MUCH STAYING THE SAME

#dumb as shit ti comaplin about i am aware #ium just ANNOYED bc i know it would take me maybe two hours to really tidy the house back up #but i also know they dont have *any* of the cleaning supplies needed bc im the one who fucking USES THEM #when i said im gonna heal my inner teen apparently that also means throwing tantrums like this on tumblr like its 2012 again #angelic bitching

[ridersofbrohon]

i am so tired of being an adult and being a human

#i have to fix my vaccum in order to clean my space bc it stopped working #my cats keep throwing up on my carpet #my roommate's stopped telling me when my bitch exfriend(who she is still friends with) comes over despite her saying she would #i owe so much many to so many things #i'm so tired

[queenangella]

my moms disappointed in me that I told my aunt to shut up and follow my grandmas schedule cause she tried to force dessert out so she could leave earlier but what is she gonna do? ignore me? did that already for two years. look mad at me? would be like n improvement from last years Christmas where she literally didn’t look at me once let alone talk to me

#actually was kinda different I just can’t stand when I say my opinion and other people are like ‘well I just won’t say anything anymore the #:)’ #she was like ‘okay you can decide everything and I wont say anything anymore:)’ and I was like ‘yeah that’s right cause this is not your #fucking house so you don’t actually get to decide everything:) shut up:)’ #no one fucking likes you and your cheap ass gifts and your mediocre grocery store bought snacks #now my moms like ok next time just be quiet and go along with her to keep the peace like bitch I will literally start a feud I don’t care #I should keep the peace?? bc if there’s be a feud people would side with me over her ten times over #you really think people will side with her when I’m the one who helped set everything up and made gourmet aperos and gave my grandma #something handcrafted to thank her for hosting us while she cant barely bother to show up at her own mom twice a year at Christmas and #easter?? bc she lives a whole two hours away?? bitch when I lived three countries over I saw my grandma more than you did #your husband wasn’t even allowed out of the house for his own dads funeral you think even he’s gonna side with you?? bitch #don’t wanna sound like a snob cause I really don’t care about cheap gifts or grocery story snacks but you have to realise she and her #husband are both doctors and rich and they have a nanny for their twenty year old kids who also cooks and cleans and they live right next to #two famous people and have a vacation house in portugal and also zero friends you really tell me she can’t do better than a five euro gift #for secret Santa when the decided on amount was twenty euros?

[mrfoox]

The older I get, the more I just realize that I am my mom

#miranda talking shit #No I'm not she's amazing and badass I could never but.... #Her in my caring ways. I just act more and more like a mom as I grow #Like her... I see a wounded. Lonely and sad person/creature and I am already trying to adopt it #It's a bit of a problem when I consider how I work... Romantically. If I compare her and dad's relationship... Ummm #I always say I don't want to end up in that kinda relationship but then I'm also on the sideline falling for everyone with some kind of #Problems ™. Last crush? Mommy issues deep ones among other things. #The one before that? Deppressed weed addict. The one before that? Um.... #Well we were teens so shan't say but definitely big... Troubles in family #I guess the wounded seek the wounded and whatever but like... Yeah #At one hand it's scary bc my mom just married the man with generational daddy issues #But also I struggle to se myself ever like someone who don't have some sort of... Either trauma or mental problems. #Bc I... Know people without it struggle so hard to understand and I need to be understood #I at least never think I can “fix” those people. It's never been about that for me... More like... Ah you can understand me in this pain? #But I am definitely dangerous for people who look for motherly care bc I'm literally just... #Ok im holding u.... Only thing saving me is that my energy meter is too low to ever mommy someone with practical things #I'll get you a glas of water and tie your shoes occasionally but bitch I ain't cleaning your messes #I barely clean my own... #At one hand i hate being this way bc... I don't have kids like why would I need to nurture. But then someone compares me to an mother and #I'm crying. To me being compared to an mom is like them saying they know I love them unconditionally. They are saying they see I care #I know it's meant as an joke or half insult but each time I'm like (: yeah... Good that my love is reaching you

[commanderpelia]

We need to investigate why every local small business decides to hard pivot to the sad beige aesthetic like why is everything ivory in here

#also stop with the pampas grass!! it’s a bitch to clean up!! #sorry I used to work in one of these stores and I couldn’t be pissed until now lol #like people would ask me for suggestions on what to buy and I would have to lie bc I wouldn’t put anything we sold in my house #text post

[crownshattered-arch]

|| hi guys, kira has lived in the underworld most of her life where they don't have the supplies to feed themselves, much less any pets, so she sees a kitten in the luofu that follows her around and she doesn't know what to do

#(I WILL EXPAND ON THIS FURTHER) #(this is a joke like 'haha pet cat for the cat bitch' but SERIOUSLY this is PSYCHOLOGY and its character development) #(she needs something else to take care of since she's ONLY ever taken care of herself...) #(this will help her start to care about and want to help others....bc she ISNT a rude person at heart) #(she's just super 'survival brain' rn and she needs to take a few steps back and refresh~ XDD) #(and she also needs to get everyone on the crew to sign a petition to let her keep the cat KSDJHSDHJDSKSS) #(GIRL WOULD MAKE A POWERPOINT ARGUMENT TO P.OM-P.OM ON HOW SHE WILL CLEAN UP AFTER THE CAT ON HER OWN...) #◢||⋇ why do you write like you’re running out of time? [ooc] ⋇||◣

[fantasticalleigh]

i love having to nag my adult brother about cleaning up after himself :)))))

#he is the golden child and it shows bc he does ONE chore and calls it for the day #and i'm here every fucking day with my long-ass list of chores busting my ass off #leigh speaks #i'm losing it this week #when he was growing up it was so clear my mom was coddling the shit out of him and i kept warning them it would make #him lazy and guess what???? it DID #but nobody EVER listens to me which is sad because i'm usually right #but no sure just call me a mean bitch for trying to keep this place clean

[ilguna]

managers really think they know it all, huh?

#ilguna #okay story time because this needs context #sometime in november my GM went thru another delusional phase where she thinks she needs to revamp rules #she does this every couple months #and so she put up like cleaning duties every day for every position #and it was split between am team and pm team #and it was minor shit that would be easy to upkeep if we did it every week #like cleaning the kitchen doors or wiping down the drink station #really easy shit #well when we were doing that #the morning team ESPECIALLY on slow days would HAVE to do that shit #however. night team and busy days like friday saturday and sundays would skip out because it was too busy #which left the am team on mondays tuesday and wednesdays to get stuck cleaning #and the other bitches got out of doing it #well. i was one of the poor unlucky bastards stuck cleaning on slow days. #and it was pretty fucking often this would happen #skip forward to today. now that we don’t do that cleaning shit anymore bc that phase lasts 2 weeks at best #the new kitchen manager has it in his head that he wants us to put ice in the drains to keep the fruit flies from having babies #1. the fruit flies originate from the dish pit and the bar. not really the drink station. #2. those drains are in the SP area. NOT the to go area. i was on to gos tonight #well new manager comes over to tell me to do it. i tell him no and to have the SP’s do it. he tells me we’re all a team #listen here motherfucker. i just ran SP food when i’m not even in that position AND i’m not gonna get tipped out for it. that’s team playing #so i tell him to have the fucking SP’s do it. bc tonight is FRIDAY and they GET OUT OF SO MUCH SHIT #so i try to have my other manager cash me out bc i was pissed off bc he pestered me twice about it. and she told me to just do as i’m told #*clasps hands together* no. #and i didnt. i literally cashed myself out and left out the front door bc i wasn’t doing that shit. #i’m getting real fucking sick and tired of them picking on people like me to do shit bc they know the other person won’t #how about you MANAGE them and NOT ME. i’m not the fucking issue. i have cleaned so much shit for them. it’s criminal. #i did the drains. i cleaned the kitchen walls. the kitchen door. the wall behind drinks. the drink station. the food area. i did the lobby. #im out of tags but you get the point. managers are so fucking stupid and they don’t even realize it