#but also like non-delusionally

[skitskatdacat63]

It's so funny having an insane project cooking and I'm just delusionally giggling to myself in the corner on here like "no one knows what's coming" *rubbing my little paws together*

#lol i worked on it for a while and i am sleep deprived #so i actually am a bit nuts rn #that being said #you dont know whats coming >:) #lol tho its funny being delulu like this ^ as if im not working on smth thats still pretty niche #sry i blame it on 5 am brain #but also like non-delusionally #it is fun to know you have smth youre gonna eventually get to drop on people #also its a pretty big thing id say? #but i am feeling sooooo delusional rn abt the possibility of finishing it within a weekend #but it sucks bcs i was like hey i should try and write a paper for my class(dw its not like pertinent) #but then i got sucked into this and im like well thats not happening #alright anyways please wish my luck and motivation djfkkglg #as i said its big so i just hope i can remain motivated 🫡 #catie.rambling.txt

[lord-squiggletits]

I know there are as many religious good guys as there are religious bad guys in IDW, but I think I pinned down the reason why it feels like the most prominent religious figures are all bad guys and it's pretty much due to the worldbuilding.

Maybe my memory of the comics is just really bad, but the religious worldbuilding in IDW is....kind of trash honestly. I'm not sure there's a single religion or religious custom that doesn't exist solely to further the plot along. Like, it's one thing for the Camiens to worship the Primes and that causes a lot of stuff in exRID/OP, but what does that worship actually look like? What are their holidays, customs, religious texts? What about "spectralism" which basically the only thing we know about is the Festival of the Lost Light and some hippie color coding and aura shit? Like sure, there are characters who are religious and their beliefs come into play sometimes, but it honestly feels (especially in MTMTE) more like their religiousness only exists when it's relevant to the plot and it's just kinda. Disappointing eh. Lacking in worldbuilding. Plus the more religious a character is the more it's written as their entire personality and the driving force making them evil so it just kinda made me cringe to read honestly.

#squiggposting #i think there might be more 'religious moments' than i remember since it's been a hot minute since i read #but i remember during my first read/while liveblogging it was something that disappointed me #i know it's probably unfair or whatever but it still makes me cringe so hard #that the reason tyrest suddenly became a religious zealot was because he got shot with a brain altering bullet #and his religious fervor is almost literally just a product of him being brain damaged and delusional #like oooooooooooooooooooooooof it's so fucking cringe lol #i'm not sure if i'm making sense honestly. it's not so much the NUMBER of evil vs non evil religious characters #but it's more like. the more prominently religion is part of a character's personality or motivation #the odds of them just being an evil guy shoots up to almost 100% #also then there's dr/ft who's a fucking clown and 'spectralism' is just some half baked hippie shit i can't take seriously #guess my problem isn't with IDW so much as it is with JRO lol #anyways not an objective analysis i might be wrong on some counts that was just my feelings as i read #and also i just don't like it when the worldbuilding around culture only exists when it comes to plot related stuff #it really makes the world feel less lived in/realistic when it's established that there are multiple religions #but then as far as actual customs- beliefs- texts- philosophies- etc there's hardly anything #so the good guys may be religious but there's not much about what their beliefs actually entail and how they impact their daily life #and on the other hand the bad guys are screaming about how they're god's chosen all over the place

[lunar-years]

re: “the jamie factor” to the roykeeley resolution in the finale, they really do have to do something about it because they heavily implied that keeley still had feelings for him multiple times at the beginning of the season and that was… never resolved? unless they intended the resolution to just be that she wanted to be friends with him?? but (and maybe this is just my shipping goggles) I don’t feel like that really explains how she was talking about him to shandy and jack

Exactly.

This is one of the few things that will actually hack me off if it's done incorrectly in the finale (read: Roy/Keeley getting back together and Jamie is neither mentioned nor shown. Or, 1000x worse, if they do show him finding out/one of them telling him afterwards and he's just like "Oh I'm so happy for you guys! my two best friends who I absolutely don't also have feelings for! together at last! :)" because WHAT). I'm pretty confident they won't do that because of how little sense it makes but like. It's still an illogical fear of mine.

And look, I'm all for an ambiguous ending in which ot3 isn't defined. I don't really need any further confirmation beyond what we got last week. But the fact that the narrative did start (and subsequently interrupt) an "I don't want to just be friends" conversation between Roy & Keeley makes it an almost certainty that they're going to finish said conversation. In which case, I don't see how Roy and Keeley could make any choice about their relationship without thinking about/including Jamie. The only route to ambiguity I can see is Keeley turning Roy down (maybe after some more glances in Jamie's general direction to suggest to viewers with eyes that he's part of the reason) and then the three of them shown briefly as friends again.

As you say, there's been several moments in the season where it's been made pretty clear Keeley is thinking about Jamie in that way again. And even in the moment where Roy/Keeley are talking and Jamie interrupts them, Keeley 1) does not look like she's about to give a resounding yes to Roy and 2) drops her hand SO fast the moment Jamie walks through the door. How else are we supposed to read this, like ?? We know Roy still loves Keeley, there's been nothing to indicate Jamie isn't still in love with Keeley (as he told her last season) and everything Roy/Jamie this season has not been subtle development... the dots are connecting in a way that the writers absolutely have to not only be aware of but also intentional about at this point.

Not to mention that last week the entire Jamie Roy Keeley plot was however many minutes of "there is no heterosexual or monogamous explanation for this" so uhhh. yeah. I can only conclude that ot3 is going to be addressed.

#ted lasso #ted lasso speculation #ted lasso spoilers #royjamiekeeley #like the shipping goggles ARE admittedly on but this is also genuine analysis based on what the show has shown us. #I don't think I'm being delusional because how else can people be interpreting some of this. cmon. #and I started off the season being 100% fine with r*yke*ley endgame btw #but now something about it would feel very aggressively 'no homo actually! cheers xx' and i would hate it #BECAUSE of everything they've shown us!! #I've literally gone from 'this is my fun little non-canon never going to happen favorite ship' to #'this is the only endgame that makes an ounce of sense'

[vialae]

really feel like gortash and ascended astarion wouldn’t get along to comical amounts. like especially with how i write everything where durge accepts bhaal and succeeds in his plans w gortash.

gortash and kaidos planning every awful expansion of their empire out to the minute details. theyve been working at this for years, and finally they see the fruits of their labour and they so deserve these seats they’ve muscled their way into.

and then here comes ascended astarion waltzing into their halls as if he owns them. as if everyone should be kneeling and be so grateful they get to be in his presence. gortash isn’t at all intimidated by it; he’s seen every act and trick there is to play amongst aristocracy. sure a vampire ascendant is physically very strong, but where are his connections? the wealth he earned all on his own? a well established reputation? appearances are everything in the upper-city, after all.

and then to hear this vampire talk to his dearest assassin in that tone. talking down to his equal as if he was somehow better than him. gortash wouldn’t stop it in the moment because he doesn’t want to make kaidos seem like someone who can’t fight his own battles, but he does ask about it when they’re alone. why do you let him talk to you that way? he has no right to. gortash is also a very petty man, and so whenever astarion addresses him personally, he will use the same condescending tone in response. nobody is undermining gortash in his own halls.

for a vampire ascendant who has only had this rush of power for a matter of months to act this way in front of a man who has spent the last 40ish years dragging himself to the spot he is in now. nobody ever gifted gortash any power - there was no ritual he could ever override. no, he had to fight, scheme and crawl his way up. he deserves to be sat in these halls. gortash is only tolerating his presence because kaidos insists he can be useful. there is information a vampire can get a lot easier than a group of banite soldiers can. the looks gortash gives this ascendant vampire let him know that he is only staying his hand because his beloved wants him to.

#this got WAY too long #and yes I am very aware of how non canon and self indulgent this all is #I am also not tagging this properly because I enjoy everything I do staying in the little delusional gortash girly corner #it’s also important to know that the durge runs i use as a base for my fics had everything pick their ‘get worse’ options #because Kaidos isn’t going down alone #I am also not excusing any of these fucks #they are all evil and delusional and I find it easier to write stuff out from their awful deluded POVs #just in case the last paragraph sounds like I’m an apologist No Enver is awful!!!

[singsweetmelodies]

Well you HAVE to be delusional to be a lestappie, I mean you have to be delusional to even like max lol but yeah, to be a lestappie you have to be delusional bc they literally spend no time together willingly, max is just delusional and Charles is polite

so true anon 🙏

#asks & answers #anon #anti lestappen #'max is just delusional and charles is polite' might be my new favourite thing someone has said LMAOOO #LITERALLY SO TRUEEEEE TOO #like if you bother to watch any of charles' interactions with ANYONE he actually likes... #you'll see so quickly that he's just being polite to a coworker #they might not hate each other but they sure aren't friends #you really DO have to be delusional to see more to it than that... #but then again like you said; you have to be delusional to like max in the first place #i feel like a lot of max/lestappen fans really feel like fic!max is exactly what he's like irl #and i don't know how to say it any more clearly than OH GOD HE'S NOT #fic!max is the most idealised and likeable (and; yknow; non-racist) version of who max verstappen could possibly be #the reality is NOT that #and i think a lot of people need to snap out of it and realise that #it's that whole thing of ''yeah im delusional about my drivers but at least im not THAT delusional'' y'know? #ALSO!! so sorry for only answering these now... yesterday got unexpectedly super hectic 🙈 #but one of my favourite weekend activities is being a hater on tumblr dot com 🤭🤭 so cheers anon!! #ilyyyy and hope you're having a great saturday!

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

here's the idea.

leo's wife/lauretta . (gets stabbed to death)

#according to our delusional chat leo's wife is real actually alive and a lesbian #so both her marriage w leo & death was fictive #m2 #no idea is fucked up (=interesting) for many reasons but it lives in my head since february #wlw experience w age difference 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 #please just ignore me just ignore me #no maybe there wasnt anything between them but every time i think of them i start howling #bc smth that didn't happen also can be interesting #Im turning off rbs + dont u even dare to judge me. it was in my head for too long #im fkin confessing here 😤🤬 #i dont like leo but i like his non-existent wife #im tired of playing fool. theyre one step away from being canon to me #“its funny how ur bee sting touch never leaves me whole” “half time vertigo” etc #“just a corner of my bed where u dont belong” #lauretta ghiraldini gets bitchslapped #no she won't tell carlo. probably #dont make noise but ur wife's kissing ur nemesis's wife😭im sorry. im not #yes i know its absolutely delusional but can u imagine the potential n how insane would it be #if it was real #upd. im never talkin bout this again. probably

[oatbugs]

im actually becoming a littol bit annoyed by smn 😭

#we are on a camping trip and im having sm fun and i love her sm but mein gott #basically she talked abt her boyfriend a lottt like right from the start of the trip from the car #and i thought it was like. yay bonding time. shes telling us abt her loving healthy relationship #and then it kept going to the point where eveey convo literally every single convo is abt her bf and yow great he is #at first it was sweet but now its like i cannot open my mouth without her being like. yeah my bf us xyz like in legit not #exaggerating its every single convo. like it is becoming absurd atp im rly happy for her but...what abt like #hobbies and like...the convo were having #and ar first i was gen happy bc i gwt the feeling of being in a healthy relationship but some of the stuff she says is quite concerning too #like we were all talking abt our insecurities and stuff and it was quite a deep/intimate convo and one of my friends #shared how he feels bad bc hes underweight etc and she was like. since being w him i feel great abt my body #but rhis happens so often #w any other topic. i cant even bring up my own relationship without it becoming and her bf like . he does that but Better #like me being like i love cooking tgth w my gf and her being like. ive never even cooked bc he cooks for me all the time. etc etc #bro one time i shared an insecurity shared an insecurity i had abt my relationship and her immediate response was abt how they dont have #that issue bc hes so great. it gets concer ing too bc she says stuff abt . like. bc of him i dont sh bc of him im not depressed bc of him #bc of him i feel worthy etc etc...also oversharing stuff abt his ...like genetalia that im like idk if hed want us to know all this #anyway no one has said anything and im afraid im delusional..or like its acc sweet and im just not being nice etc #which yeah it is sweet but in the length of me typing this out she has made 5 (five) comments abt her bf it is non stop no other #topic of convo . i dont wanna rain on her joy either bc i get it but omg 😭 every #single conversation...

[minimoefoe]

ppl banging on about carol instead of just enjoying daryl dixon s1 for what it is is so embarrassing like we KNOW she's gonna be in s2 idk why there's a need to go on about her rn

also I find it odd that a lot of the ppl ive seen going on about it are carylers like ohhh okay daryl clearly only exists as part of this ship to you and not as his own character lmao, very odd. couldn't imagine loving a ship but not thinking much of one of the ppl in it

#twd txt #daryl dixon #also seen some ppl talking about view count #which is like.. god who gives a fuck #twd shows do crap views #we all know this #it doesnt matter at all #im used to ppl banging on about view count bc im a doctor who fan and that's all ppl do #and with dw and twd its like okay this is a pointless convo #it can be interesting to look at rhe differences but tryna do a gotcha or be like 'i wonder what the views would be if carol was here' is ?? #like dont worry we will know what itll be like when carol is here when s2 starts airing duh #also i will say that ive seen an uptick in ppl saying how its weird that ppl wanna ship daryl with every woman he speaks to #but tbh idrc about that #like some ppl are into ships more than individual characters #its such a non issue for the most part #the only times i find it annoying is when ppl let that shipping go to far and they just become delusional #like i think its weird ylu get annoyed at ppl shipping #but i also think its weird when shipping blinds you from other stuff #like theres a happy medium #idk

[rosymiel]

boy genius or hozier.. boy genius or hozier.. 🧎‍♀️

#i still need to buy tickets to see my bestie across the country this summer but i also really want to go to a concert #and i love both hozier and boy genius so so so much #they're not close together in dates but i feel like i can only choose one #also its SO weird because boy genius is going to my home town on tour and like?! there's literally nothing in my home town #they built their first theater only in 2017. that's how much nothing there is there #i wouldnt go all the way back to my home town for them especially since they're visiting the state i live in now. but it feels like fate #idk i'm delusional #non sims

[meowonhao]

soo crazy to me how in the last year with minghao, dokyeom, hoshi, joshua, junhui, and now woozi (idk if i'm missing someone) y'all are way too ready and eager to automatically throw them under the bus over something some random person (usually antis) said online and then like a day or two later when everyone comes to the consensus that it wasn't actually that big of a deal or even wrong/bad in the first place (which you could've figured out yourself from the beginning by just doing like. 30 seconds of research and exercising your critical thinking skills) everyone just moves on like nothing happened and goes back to being a fan/stanning them or whatever like you weren't just going with the crowd and shit-talking them 12 hours ago

#not even going to get into how so many problems arise from no understanding of korean/asian culture #and relying on half-assed and sometimes just straight up wrong translations #like cool you don't have to know everything about a culture or be fluent in a language but #that also means you probably shouldn't be speaking on certain things at all much less without even trying to look into it a bit more #anyways..yeah i'm sorry maybe i'm delusional but i definitely am going to default to trusting my idols #and then figuring out for myself if i really think they did something that bad or “cancel” worthy #before i'm about to believe some random twitter/tumblr/tiktok user and just go with whatever they tell me to think about something #and most of y'all don't apologize or clarify anything. just move on right after hurling the most abhorrent accusations against these people #who are people too in case anyone forgot #but then an idol kills themselves and everybody boohoo's and cries and acts like they just can't believe how this happened again #like it's you. you're why #and i can only speak on the last year of course bc that's how long i've been an actual carat and kept up with them to this extent #i'm sure other stupid stuff has happened before that too with other members #i just think if you're so ready to toss away your idols without giving them like any benefit of the doubt whatsoever you just need to go #i hate when i see this stuff too bc i'm usually only seeing the korean side of stuff and most of these things are such a non-issue here #bc people know better (not saying there aren't some crazy fans everywhere but) #then i see some dumb shit on tumblr dot com that either only has links to some dumb twitter thread #or i have to search for on twitter because again. i do not see stuff from int'l fans unless i am forced to or look it up intentionally #and just saying the timing of these things is always so calculated by antis and y'all fall for it every single time #this is all i have to say bc i just remembered the whole thing abt ppl trying to say hao was being fatphobic or something dumb #and then i remembered everything else and it just made me mad all over again lol #if anyone disagrees with any of this feel free to block me🥰

[hybrix-hidings]

being gendered correctly and still knowing you're being mispercieved is a whole new type of dysphoric

#heavy tag #like dont get me wrong!!! im insanely grateful that people are Trying #and that im lucky enough to have at least a side of my family that Does try #along with my immediate one #i Know thats lucky and im Grateful for it #but i Also know. that they dont actually see anything masculine when they look at me #they see me as an eccentric tomboy at Best #and a delusional little girl at Worst #and i KNOW theyre trying but it fucking! hurts!! that i can Tell they dint actually percieve me the way i percieve me #and it fucking sucks that theres Nothing i can do non-medically to convince them otherwise #my chest is too big to bind and I just end up being more dysphoric when i try (because it always fails) #theres Nothing i can do to flatten my hips without some kind of surgery #my vocal chords already dont function right; so trying to upkeep the tone direction is difficult #and just Sounds Outright like im Trying to deepen my voice #i just. i fucking hate it #i hate this fucking body and i love my family but i hate that they dont see me right #and i hate that ive Never been gendered correctly wjthout having to outwardly correct someone #and that even when someone meets me Knowing im a guy they still fuck up because i just Dont Present Enough as one #theres just. theres fucking nothing i can do until we start medical treatment #and even that can go wrong in so many ways #i dont Talk about my dysphoria much because talking about it makes it Worse how the fuck am i supposed to have enough 'documented' #that I can actually be cleared for testosterone? #and god knows we already have to cash out so much on my fucking Teeth so surgery isnt happening Any time soon probably #i just. im so tired #im so fucking tired

[disordersgirl]

stan lee saying the suit always fits eventually miles growing into being spider-man ohhh i’ll be sick .

#*delusional* the no refunds sign was a joke yeah but miles also can’t just stop being spider-man like he wants too it’s non refundable

[cicadangel]

one thing thats been getting on my nerves lately is 2 of my white friends acting so perfomatively concerned abt there "only being east asians" in the asian student union club im president of when a) that is not true more than half are NOT ea b) there is maybe 1 or 2 non ea or sea kids at our school stop complaining shutttt upppp oh my god.

#also like ppl decide if they join the club or not... it has nothing to do w me #THEYRE THE KINDS OF PPL WHO SAY NON CHINESE PPL CANT SAY THE C SLUR BC ITS NOT USED AGAINST THEM #which im not saying ppl should use the c slur at all but like. are you delusional are you actually dumb the c slur is used against #like all eas & seas... you do know that one of the main points of anti asian racism is that we all look alike...

[maddy-ferguson]

outer banks ships are like ships in law to me even though i watch the show

#i don't care for any of the canon or soon to be canon ships #but i don't really care about the non canon ships either i have this one twitter mutual who's very into jjpope and i was like you know what #so am i now (right before season 2) #and then of course season 2 was what it was and i was like damn. poor real jjpopers #but just so you know jjpopers are also being called delusional and get hated on for saying kiara should be a lesbian they're just like us #fr🫂 except jjpope really isn't happening #there's this one 'this is for my people who just lost somebody' twitter video about jjpope tweets AND THE BYLER STATIC KISS IS IN IT LMAO #with someone saying 'me with jjpope' #idc about the ships because i barely care about the show when it came out two of my friends were like you gotta watch it it's really good #and then it wasn't🤨 i liked s2 a little more because i knew it wasn't gonna be good and it wasn't but it was kind of fun whatever #wasn't 'jjpopers' really funny #and like i say: brf slt

[microwaving-tesilid-argente]

wonder what will happen first. me finishing the (first) teshes fic and publishing it, or tapas reaching That Chapter.

#just thinking about the fact that ao3 sorts fics by date updated by default #and i dont have any gen fics queued up #imagine youre a new reader. you just read the Most chapter ever which turns the entire story upside down #you go to ao3 for some solace #firstly the fact that theres less fics than you can count on one hand is pretty sad #and then you read the tags for the first fic on the list and go. huh. was this always this kind of story? #new kind of whiplash!!! #i feel a little bad for any potentail new lurkers bc im bringing an unhinged multishipper delusional energy to #a fandom with no fancontent #congrats your fandom gets one unhinged fan who yaps #apologies they talk only about their non-canon rare pair #anyway tapas will take an estimated 7 month to reach there #cracks knuckles we'll see #but also genuinely idk when this will get done bc the outline + 10% written is um. 10k words. #actually maybe i should prioritise a reed pov fic 🤔 i want to punch new readers in the solar plexus actually #like in a leaning into canon kind of way not in a hey i found a new blender to put tesilid in kind of way #also the fact that i have a total of 6 teshes fics that i absolutely intend to finish #vs my 2.5 gen fics that hv alr been published #if no new writer comes into the fandom then eventually two thirds of the fandom tag will be a non canon rairpair send help #ailette doesnt even exist in the teshesverse dear god

[pocket-mobster]

so glad i quit duolingo a couple days ago cuz i can't imagine having even the little bit of covid that i have rn and being Hooked On The Owl. i can handle german brainwashing and a bit of a sore throat separately but not at the same time. good fucking riddance

#ipj speaks #lowkey had to quit cuz having a 4-digit streak was doing some cocomelon shit to my OCD/non-specific delusional tendencies #i also wanna push myself towards more active and effective language learning methods but like... thats not gonna happen silly :)