#but i also want them to have a reason to fuck yknow

[maelstrom007]

New Face, Who This?

Don't mind me, just playing in the sandbox that is @ghouldjams cod fae au. Mal switches things up, as they are wont to do, and trips up a certain fae in the process. Featuring ghouls oc Witch who I adore.

Mal looked at themselves in the mirror. They turned this way and that, but something just felt. . . off. Pursing their lips they sighed, changing into the fifth outfit that morning. Ugh, still not right. 

“Maybe it’s time for a change,” they murmured. When was the last time they did this? Twenty years ago? Maybe more? Yeah, it was time to switch things up. 

Stripping bare, they stared at the mirror once more. It was always easiest if they could see what they were doing. To start Mal focused on their face, studying the wide jaw and square face they had become accustomed to for the last however many years it’s been. Reaching forward toward their reflection, fingers splayed, they twisted their wrist. Mal’s reflection fractured, tesselating out in patterns and colors like a kaleidoscope, before suddenly snapping back into place. 

The face staring back at them was much softer, rounder around the cheeks with a charming mouth. Some things remained unchanged, like their fiery red hair and their bold eyebrows. For whatever reason they always stuck around. 

Moving on to the rest of their body, they wanted to move on from the sleek and slim rectangular build. In the end, they went for something a little more filled out, hints of muscle and practical strength within a sturdy frame. They’d have to workout to maintain it, they were using magic afterall, not working miracles.

With the excitement of a new canvas, finding an outfit was easy, opting for a long sundress. The lack of sleeves accentuated the new muscles in their arms nicely, while also complementing their new more feminine face. A last little splurge of magic allowed their hair to grow just long enough to place in a messy bun. 

As usual, the day was rather slow, mainly spent at their combination check out and consultation table project planning for recent clients. Creating patterns, planning dye lots, etc. etc. Their project ledger wasn’t completely full yet, so their curtains were pulled wide open, and a sign that said ‘Welcome, during business hours’ hung from the door. 

This meant that a certain handsome fae could slip in with no resistance, immediately waltzing up to the counter with a confidence that should have been annoying, if they weren’t in such a good mood. 

“Well hello, I - oh.” He started his greeting, but stumbled mid way through as Mal looked up from their ledger. 

They raised an eyebrow, “Hello to you too.”

Confusion was visible on his face, “Sorry, I was just expecting someone else.”

“And who would that be?”

“The last time I came in, maybe a little over a week ago, there was someone else here. Kind of small, very cute, with shaggy red hair almost the same color as yours.”

“Hunting for information, are we?”

A boyish glint sparkled in the others eyes as he leaned over the counter, “Now that I think of it you two look quite a bit alike. You two wouldn’t happen to be. . .siblings, would you?” 

Before Mal could even begin to think of a way to respond to that Witch glided in through the door, the wards tingling in delight and recognition of their clever creator. “Oh my gosh you will not believe the tea I have for you today, I heard that -” 

It only took Witch a second to notice the changes, and only a few more to piece together what Mal had done, “Wow!!!! You look great! I love what you’ve done with your hair, and that dress looks gorgeous on you, did you make it yourself?” 

Gossip forgotten, Witch ran up to dote on Mal, feeling the material and gushing over their new look. After a few minutes of this, the fae man coughed gently. 

“Shit! Sorry, I’ll let you finish up with your customer,” Witch said.

“Oh, I’m not a customer,” he said.

“Then what are you?”

“A nuisance,” Mal said, “a nosy one at that.”

Witch snorted, but said nothing. 

If he took offense to Mal’s comment, he didn’t show it, “All I want to know is who that fae is that I talked to a few weeks ago. About yea tall, pretty hands and shaggy red hair kind of like yours? Tell me, is red hair and attractiveness a job requirement? Or am I just incredibly lucky?” His lopsided grin would have been annoying if it didn’t look so good on his face.

Witch opened her mouth, “M-”

At the sound of their name starting in Witch’s mouth, Mal gave her a desperate look in warning. Even though ‘Mal’ wasn’t really their true name, it’s not something that they gave out left and right, let alone to loitering mystery fae. 

With barely a stumble in her speech, she corrected herself, “My friend here runs this shop by themselves. And damn well at that.”

He chuckled, “Well then, aren’t you full of surprises.” This time, Mal didn’t miss the once over he gave them. When their eyes met, his golden eyes looked molten hot. 

A blush rose to their cheeks unbidden, and Mal brought their hands together in a decisive clap, “Well! If you’re not a customer I must ask you to leave immediately as is shop policy,” a delicate line of fine print illuminated itself in recognition on the welcome sign, “Good day to you sir.”

The typically controlled and smooth wards were swift and erratic as they buffeted the mystery fae towards the door, however he resisted them as much as he could, “Tell me your name! What may I call you?” He called out frantically, attempting to brace himself against the wards unseen force. 

Mal raised their hand to aid in one final push to send him out the door, but paused as their eyes met once again. There was a desperation and sincerity in his features. Before Mal knew what they were doing they opened their mouth. 

“You may call me a fox, sir hunter, for that is all I am to you.” 

“And a lovely Fox you shall be,” he said, before he was sucked out of the door and summarily deposited on the street, curtains closing with a solid thwunk. 

The silence was thick in the shop before Witch broke it, voice strained with barely contained laughter “~You may call me a fox for that is all I am to you~”

“Shut upppp”

“Well, he’s a handsome hunter, I'll give him that.” 

Mal put their head in their hands, “He’s a nuisance and nothing more.” 

“Suuuure.”

They giggled desperately, “He is!! He comes waltzing in saying that he doesn’t want anything and then I kick him out cause he’s loitering!”

“God Mal you’re insufferable, he’s flirting with you you idiot.” 

“He is not.” 

“If you say so. But you best believe that I am going to bring this up over dinner because never in the time that I’ve known you have I seen your wards react like that.” 

Mal raised their head, eyebrows furrowed, “Dinner?”

Witch gave them a confused look, before letting out an exasperated sigh, “I forgot to say it out loud huh.”

“Yup.”

“Well, your ass, my house, I’m making dinner cause I haven’t had you over in ages. Be there or be square.” 

“I wonder if I could actually turn myself into a square.”

“Dammit Mal.”

#1fae1 #maelstrom fic #maelstrom writes #oc: mal #oc: witch #I need a name for this fae #theres only so many epitaphs I can give him #Lowkey want to name him Handsome #Cause 99% of his descriptors have started with handsome #ghoul you keep giving me so many great ideas for Mal #did anyone catch the movie reference? #wonder if Mal will see a certain someone wearing a certain beanie at dinner 👀👀👀👀👀👀 #im so bad at slow burn i just want these two to fuck #but i also want them to have a reason to fuck yknow #feels weird just throwing them together without any sort of relationship growth #augh

[theywontletmebeprincipal]

#personally I think it was #I think we discredit miquella a lot bc they’re so meek when like. the entire thesis of their character is not to underestimate the meek #n their entire goal is radical transformation. they’ve exhausted all other avenues. we Know they’re manipulative #I think they wanted to try out the blood magic #I think they would try fucking anything yknow. they’re desperate #n they’re also Very Clever #don’t get me wrong I think mohg thinks it’s all his own doing still. but I don’t think it actually is #I think mohg is an unknowing tool with his own motivations yes. but a tool nonetheless #n Clearly whatever he’s doing is working bc look how big miquella is #also I just find it hard to believe that malenia wouldn’t have stopped them being kidnapped if she were there #mohg could Not have beaten her in a fight #n she has no reason to leave that tree if miquella’s still there bc watching them is her in entire job #unless of course. they persuaded her to go somewhere else #sanders pollshit #elden ring #miquella the unalloyed #luminary mohg #malenia blade of miquella #soulsborne

[sparring-spirals]

will i watch the imodna confession scene if i have some free time tonight, just so i feel a little less bad about writing meta about it? who knows. maybe. perhaps. possibly. (in an ideal world, as i stare longingly at my hypothetical calendar)

#i Already Have Thoughts but feel like i should respect ACTUALLY WATCHING THE FUCKING SCENE before writing meta. will it make a significant #diff if i havent also caught up on the minutiae of the interactions between the two? absolutely not. will i end up watching half the ep if #i try just watching a single scene? almost certainly #but also #i wanna :) #i understand folks unfollowing me for a whole swathe of reasons but i REALLY understand folks unfollowing me for the #'occasionally writes meta about scenes without watching them' reason. #in my defense the percolating meta has been stewing for a bit and i just want it to contain info about the scene before i actually write i #but. yknow. anyway. ANYWAY. we'll see. #spar speaks #*for clarity when i say minutiae of actions i mean me wwtching every single interaction in the last three episodes vs just watching the one #scene #and it does make a difference!!! its just. not for this meta maybe

[theokusgallery]

#if you had any hope nick could ever be redeemable here's your sign that that's just not gonna happen

Bold of you to assume we don't want to make him worse

LMAO that's the spirit

#ask #anon #arsenic #me too anon. me too #my unethical boy... #he hasn't killed anyone or anything in the storyline i have planned out which is a fucking miracle #...in all fairness it's just because i want him to have as much plausable deniability as possible #and yknow. murder makes him undeniably a. murderer #anything he does to sunny is something sunny technically agreed to. i want to keep that a theme #i don't know how to say this in a way that isn't horrible but- #i want people to be able to victim blame sunny in a way that sounds so reasonable they don't realize it's victim blaming. #toying with the idea that sunny is not /at all/ a perfect victim. i like it when you can question the morality of his actions #(instead of having it clear-cut that Nick Is Bad And Sunny Is The Poor Unwilling Victim™) #the perfect victim doesn't exist and i'm kind of tired of seeing that type of abusive relationship be so... black-and-white #most of what i've seen is so over the top and neatly separated into good and bad boxes it doesn't feel real. #in the real world no one's perfect. sunny sure as hell isn't. but while that would make him toxic to anyone who isn't Nick- #-it doesn't mean he's not a victim #(also we all know what happens to domestic abuse victims when they have a cluster b pd. the fuckin. victime-blaming festivals i've seen) #tw victim blaming #i talk so much in tags i have to add trigger warnings about them. i should really stop rambling #rant

[curedeity]

It’s fanfic day-

Okay so if you haven’t noticed today I went around and dropped an ask in like… most of my beyblade mutuals (and some nonmutuals I think?) inboxes and asked them for their favorite fics. If you didn’t receive an ask but wanna do this, like, go ahead? I probably was just like “oh hmmmmm idk if this person wants me in their inbox”

But! I’m also gonna take this chance and gush about some of my favorite beyblade fanfics, because I recently buckled down and actually got through a lot of the ones I wanted to. 

Gotta start with “The Previous Wielder (Is Just a Guy)” by @artisadie (or squirt1254 on ao3). The fact Sadie has not published any more fics is criminal. Like, Sadie, it’s an actual crime that you gave me this fic and then nothing more. The dynamic written between Gingka and Ryo here is so compelling, managing to merge a serious reflection with their combined goofiness. It’s just really well-written, and also pretty short for anyone who wants a quick read.

My government mandated @lady-lazagna fic is “Christmas with Kenta” (on ao3) which I think is the first one I read of hers. A lot of her fics are very good, including Wounded Pride and especially the second chapter of Metal Mayhem, but I think this is the first work of hers I read, and one that really stuck with me. I like the way it manages to handle this sort of bittersweet feeling, choosing a slightly darker route of Ryuga’s future post-canon if he stayed alive, but also bringing it this very mundane feel. I think it’s an amazing work of both characterization of a wide cast, and also masterfully balances its tone.

As for another Kenta and Ryuga bonding Christmas themed fic, we’ve got “so this is christmas (the war is over)” by @little-christmas-song (ssongpyeon on ao3). Once again, Song, this is active violence against me for this to be your only published fic. Your writing style is addictive. This fic does focus a lot more on the dynamic between Ryuga and Kenta, and is a much more mellow piece taking place further post-canon. Song has a really good understanding of language, and their writing style is honestly incredible. I really love the way it sneaks it characterization for some of its supporting cast as well, and I think it’s just a really chill read overall.

And now for another absolute legend of the ao3, we have @starfishes-and-watercolors or CallmeCloudyorVal on ao3. There’s a lot of fics of theirs I like, from their Tithi fics to Adoption AU, but after thinking for about a minute I found that I could confidently say “The Working Dead” is my favorite fic of theirs. The fic focuses on Madoka and Yuki just having conversations with each other while being absolutely stressed from work at the WBBA, and I can confidently say this fic definitely influenced a fair few headcanons I have for them. It really helped me realize just how good of a dynamic these two could have, and is a pretty fun read for me just for that. The fic is just also very funny at many parts, especially when Yuki and Madoka get the closest to murder.

Lightning round! “Temple Tetris” by DinoSohn (on ao3) is a short humorous piece about Dynamis. It gave me a good laugh, and will probably do the same for you.

“Spicy sweet potato chips” by @ladyryukyo (mademoiselle1 on ao3) is also just a quick work about Ryo that I enjoy, and it focuses on Kyoya and Ryo’s dynamic. It’s got a pretty humorous concept, and executes that humor really well. I like the mundane insanity it has.

It was hard to choose for @heybeyby (candiedshekelsss on ao3) because I really enjoyed “A Leaf-Colored Contemplation” (btw, banger title) but I gotta go with “Fallen Down Where The Dead Boys Go” (seriously wtf is up with all your titles slapping???). How could I not, I got so much lore for this fic given to me and so much fear placed into me. This is a Shogun Steel fic, and a more plot heavy one at that, but if you’ve watched Shogun Steel I can’t recommend this fic enough. It has really good narration for each character so far, and a lot of good character building as well. I am so excited for where this fic will go, and especially excited for the characterizations of Maru and Ren we’ve gotten so far, and where those will go too.

At this point I have started to forget who I’ve mentioned by now and who I haven’t. Gonna come clean and say I am writing this post ahead of time, on google docs, and I’m still getting lost.

Time for some longer multichapters!

First off, I’d like to mention “From Different Eyes” by @masterofdemise (on ao3). This fic is about Dynamis and Pluto post-canon swapping bodies, and has a lot good character building for underutilized canon characters (Elysse counts). But most of all, this fic absolutely embraces the humor of the situation, and the humor of the characters. It is constantly leaning into the absurd, and the humor is written with the characters well in mind. I could go on for a while about how humor is used in this fic, but it absolutely makes it worth the read even if you aren’t interested in Dynamis or Pluto.

“And then there were 4” by @voidix (on ao3) is likely one of the most plot-heavy beyblade fics I’ve read. It takes a lot to commit to making a plot-heavy multichapter, and the set-up and revelations so far in this fic are quite fun. It has a lot of that beyblade absurdity, and I’m glad I read it.

@andro-dino has many good fics, though I don’t think my favorite choice will surprise anyone, as I wrote a fic inspired by it! “This Body of Mine?” (on ao3) Is a short, Toby-centric fic, and I think it’s just a really sweet character study. I don’t really know what to say about it other than it’s a good read, and definitely one anyone interested in Toby’s fanon character growth should read (we are seriously giving this dude so much).

@qloof has got a lot of fics published, but the one I’m gonna choose is “King and Tithi’s Pranking Adventure” (on ao3)  I just found it genuinely funny and sweet. I hope another chapter gets written, but if not, it’s still a solid read for anyone who’s interested, and has really fun characterizations for the legendary blader cast.

“Hagane” by @mellythedork (on ao3) is also a very neat fic, I love the magic it embraces for the mfb universe, and a lot of the writing is very cool. I’d definitely encourage you to read it if you’re a Ryo fan like I am, or just want to see Doji get his shit wrecked.

For my last fic, I wanna quickly shoutout “Gesso” by Arcylic (on ao3) which without a doubt really made me interested in what Team Starbreaker dynamics could be like. It focuses on Zeo and Jack’s dynamic, and has a lot of really fun dialogue between the two. I can bet this fic started a wave of people absolutely ready to try their own hand at the starbreaker dynamic.

Now, I can’t very well let the opportunity to talk about myself just pass me by. I have 53 published beyblade fics, so you can imagine it might be a bit hard for me to choose.

I will say if you’ve watched Shogun Steel, even just a bit, and haven’t read “Stolen Pride” yet, I’d absolutely encourage you to. Since I started in this fandom, I’ve really tried to make narratives about feminism that deal with the issues of the show in an in-universe manner. “Stolen Pride” is my newest work to explicitly focus on that, and I’d love people to read it and tell me what they enjoyed and didn’t. It’s a discussion I really want to have.

“Darkness in Triplicate” is one of my longest Hikaru-centric works, and a bit of a dark read, but I think absolutely worthwhile. I have always wanted to pull off adding Hikaru into the Masters plot, and I think with this fic I finally managed to do so.

Finally, I have to mention “By the Dead of Morning/I’ll be Better for It/And then Fortified I’ll Rise” which is the Faust joins Starbreaker early AU. I put likely way too much effort into this fic, and I really hope I’m not banned from other secret santas because of it (not that I’ll promise to not do it again…). It isn’t entirely my headcanons, but I really like the writing I did for this, along with the concept itself. It’s one of my longest works yet, and the fact I pulled it off makes me so proud of myself.

If you read this far, congratulations! You’re insane! But I’m really glad you read all this, I really appreciate a lot of beyblade fic writers, and actually committing and reading all the fics I’ve wanted to was a really good time. I hope if any of the fics on this list interest you, you go and check them out! And maybe leave a comment for the author. We’ve got an honestly impressive ficwriting community for how tiny this show is, and I can’t wait to see if even more people join! Yknow… so long as they’re not the type of people I gotta use that new mute function on… BUT WE’RE BEING POSITIVE AND HEY

We got a lot of cool fics :)))

#god this took me like an hour to write #fucking hell #beyblade #beyblade metal fight #mfb #also gonna say that i did not ao3 stalk all the authors I mention in this post. No idea what all of them have written #but i have cleared out my beyblade tag entirely so I assume none of them have written some real weird beyblade stuff #hey if you dont wanna be mentioned for some reason you can also shoot me a dm and ill delete your paragraph #but ive just been wanting to talk about fanfic a lot recently. and yknow. shout out a lot of the fics ive really enjoyed #sorry to your inboxes!

[tittysuckersworld]

once again asking begging for a rival

#like fuckkk #i wanna beat someone up and get beat up by someone. but like. erotically but not? yknow???? #i want to be treated wholely as a person and hated for no reason. i just want to hate someone and be mean to someone without reason #i want to not be treated like a delicate little flower for once! i want to be able to show my emotions insted of constantly repressing them! #i want to get bloody noses and broken lips and black eyes and bruises to litter my body not from my own direct doing #i want to be on the same level with someone. on the same level enough to be able to hate eachpther but take care of eachother #i want to love the hate i could have for someone #or just fuck- i want to be treated either as a person or as something wholely not. one or the other just not pityed #hate being soft spoken and frail and get talked over and just constantly feel like a girl in worst ways #i want to cry and be angry with someone that can cry and be angry with me #i cant love but fuck if i dont want smth close to it. am have soft sweet amazing boyfriend but at same timd i just. #i want to hurt someone and have someone hurt me just to feel something more. i keep saying this but i wish when i wasnt programed #by government to be convinient for them. to be convinient to those around me. i want to feel and be angry again. #i have a right to be upset for everything thats happened to me and those i care for and should be allowed to say it. #fuck man- i just want someone to kick me when im down physically and be there for me silently when neex #need someone to punch me for being a doofus. fuck fuck i just want someone that will treat me like a equal on a level. #i want to be hurt like im strong. i want to hit and punch and kick and be allowed to be violent #its not healthy to hold in but im forced to for others and i hate it. i like being nice i dont want to be mean #but i also just so badly want to be violent. to be able to express pain and hurt and feel like i should. like wish could. its not fair #anyways vent rambles sryyy- #vent #tw vent #in tags but yee #want to be hurt and hurt someone else on equal healthy consensual level yk?

[feline-evil]

Blood drooling from my mouth I neeeeeeeeed to get back into making music i neeeed to i do i need to. I fucking. Foaming at the mouth frothing at the mouth i haven't played an instrument in so long.

#jay talkin #ok so see the situation is i am not good at any instrument but i play guitar and bass (and keyboard sometimes) and drums #i have issues with my arm that on top of affecting my ability to draw also severelly impact my ability to play #and i also live with people one of whom works in the room directly below me so im so paranoid about making noise #i cant be loud i cant be disruptive but jesus christ i need to play more often #im not going to get GOOD if i dont PLAY #yeah id have to fix my bass and ahit but. UGH I JUST WANT TO PLAY #WHATS THE POINT OF OWNING AN ELECTRIC GUITAR AN ACOUSTIC GUITAR AND AN ELECTROACOUSTIC BASS IF NOT TO PLAY THEM #i did have an electric drumkit and my dads old 80's synth but ppl all but stole them back away from me so lol. lmao #whatever. i still have my guitars. even if ppl do take them sometimes #ugh really what i need to do is figure out if i can route my guitars through my pc rather than an amp so i can record and mess w that in fl #god. fucking biting my own arms off i wish i lived elsewhere #for more reasons than just the freedom to make music and have ppl not take my shit. but yknow. itd also help that #everybody prayer circle for jay transitioning and moving out in under thirty more years ok. its a longshot but heres hoping #anyway. music. its good. i want to make dramatic weird goth metal.

[minarcana]

#ok guess what fuckers youre going to be on another tag ramble adventure with me #ive been afflicted with the same images in my brain tumbling around and the only way to free my brain is to write them out #and anyways i have been contemplating wol au uri for a bit due to various reasons (he came up and then i got this image and couldnt be free #shb with uri as the wol is. after killing vauthry. he is SO fucked up that raha STILL wont just let him die #he was supposed to have raha send him to the rift with the light and let him die there but now that he cant stop him rahas taking it himsel #and theres the whole. 'no we really cannot have the wol die.' thing. #that makes it infinitely worse to uri. him just yelling through blood to let him die! let him have his turn! he WANTS to die! #the idea of bring told that the wol CANT die makes it so much more unfair to him #'you wouldnt know what to do if i died? i didnt know what to do for years after louisoux died! i still dont know what to do without moenbry #da! papalymo can sacrifice himself and everyone adapts! shtola has thrown herself to the lifestream twice! minfilia died! i had to stay sil #ent and let ryne choose her own path if she died or not! i cant tell people that i would be lost yet everyone gets to tell ME that? #do you think i am better than them do you think them worth less why do they have the right to die and i do not!' #he is SO SO SO much worse as a wol and it falls out in one outburst after hes quizzed as to why he thought he could sacrifice himself #but he also realizes that its really fucked up to say that aloud so yknow. yknow what. yknow. #hell bottle up all his feelings and then one day hell either die or start crying and it looks like he aint allowed to die! #he still takes the aid from ardbert at amaurot with the statement that #'if i dont try and save who i might then ill never be able to face moenbryda' #anyways cannot stop thinking about me giving uri the echo like 'this will be funny!' and hes just 'my life has become infinitely worse' #HEAD IN MY HANDS

[liquid-geodes]

Hi tumblr why is my dash header upside down against my will just to promote a TV show I have blocked

#even when i have things blacklisted i STILL cant avoid them #thanks staff for forcing s*ranger t*ings directly into my face all the time i hate you #i hate you so much please put it back #i dont have anything against that show because ive never seen it #however the amount of times ive literally been forced to look at it against my will has made my brain do the thing #where it fucking hates something after its been repeated too many times #and if i have to keep looking at this show im literally going to kill a man #its the mental illness for sure doing this but that being said maybe this shouldnt happen #i think maybe i should get to choose what fandoms are being blasted into my eyeballs at any given time #and the fact that i CANT because staff is doing this on purpose acrod the entire website is... not great #i should be allowed to make every single tumblr user look at MY very specific piece of media that not everyone likes too #yknow. since we're just fucking doing that now #god why do so many things trigger these responses in my brain i hate living like this #remember when this happened to me with zelda? even my own favorite things arent immune #anyway this has turned into a tangent but whatever its 4am and this is my blog #get your media away from me i dont want it #also incredibly inconvenient trying to read things when theyre upside down #accessibility loss. the person who already struggles to read words in order has to read upside down text now :( #this website is killing me and the only reason im still here is because of my mutuals fuck literally everything else about tumblr #i hate it here... god do i hate it here

[regionbetween]

some of yall rly just dislike ftms and are proud of it. not all of us are """"transandrophobia truthers""""" and """"hate trans women and think we're better than them and think misandry is real""""" just bc we talk abt the very specific and REAL issues we face being both trans and men. the trans men who DO do this are not fighting for us and do not deserve to be taken seriously and generalized as the face of "transandrophobia" therefore all of the issues we are fucking begging other lgbt people to pay attention to get swept under the rug bc we're all just whack misogynists. im so done talking abt this. this is why a giant percentage of us go stealth and abandon the community that's supposed to help us. ive literally seen it happen. you people do not care about us and it is so glaringly obvious

#this is swinging a bat at a hornets nest because people will be so fast to claim im like a misogynist bc i recognize trans men have issues #like why do u want us to shut up so badly abt the oppression we face #i very much disagree with the guys who try to make it a competition and blame women for the issues because that is not the case at all #also trans women i know in real life have always been my biggest supporters and i ofc have shown them that same support #they KNOW how ppl view trans men they KNOW we're fighting the same fight #so it is absolutely batshit to 'blame them' and i personally never would #it is definitely the fault of cis people and this does not exclude cis queer people #most acts of transphobia i have personally experienced have actually been from people in the lgbt community #and it was TRANS WOMEN who stood up for me. trans women i hope u all know the right trans man who can actually fucking think with his brain #will always have your back #it just sucks that when we talk about our issues its immediately #oh you must HATE WOMEN HUH #like..no man. yall do hate ftms tho #u hate that we abandoned womanhood and you take it out on us and everything we do is policed like crazy #Whatever. its so upsetting truly #also im sorry but how come you guys can agree thst cis men can be victims under the patriarchy but for some reason trans men just arent #???? #maybe YOU are the ones who need to mske friends with ftms who dont live on tumblr and make stupid fucking comments about how evil women are #bc ive met misogynistic ftms too and yknow where they are in life? friendless and alone and miserable. #like not to pull a not all men but my God

[gudakko]

wait right i did have another dream

#why do i suddenly remember them only after a few hours #anyway this was from the afternoon nap not the new years sleep that was the bird girl #but yeah i went to my old highschool and usually thats never a good sign in a dream cause that usually means its going to be one of those #stress dreams where im stuck in school for no reason cause i didnt REALLY graduate and have to do it all over #but this time it was different like there was still that lingering feeling at first but then i was just like no im just here to #pick up my diploma im not doing the usual bs #and also it was VASTLY different now like the whole first floor was just a huge starbucks? it had like 5 or 6 counters each with employees #and staff but it was also mainly empty there were only like may 1 or two other people #and i immediately started speaking in english cause yknow and they just assumed i was foreign so they just started speaking to me in the #usual broken italian english and also the way the stuff you could order was displayed SUCKED like you just had a few items listed here and #there and every counter had different listings so you had to walk all over the place to get a good idea but eventually i just asked them #what frappuccinos they had and this guy told me like the 4 different flavors they had but they were all gibberish? like they were just #made up words lmao. so i just picked a random one and he gave me a weird look like are you SURE you want that one? and i was like uh fuck #maybe that other then?? and he approved of the other one so i was like yeah sure and still no idea what flavors they were #eventually i got my order and they didnt even do the name thingy? but i did read something on the cup #cant remember the name but they wrote something interesting i was like huh ok #anyway it fucking sucked it was just. barely a milkshake? no distinguishable taste even if it looked like chocolate and NO whipped cream #like tf. plus it had those boba balls but not the good ones that pop the bad ones i dont like that are sticky #it was a very miserable drink but i didnt wanna complain so i just drank like half of it before leaving lmao

[callixton]

i am in such a weird place socially i love my friends and i’m so glad i’m getting closer with them but also everyone i know seems to hate each other and it is getting so exhausting. just be a good person why is it this hard

#there’s a reason i didn’t shit talk even in privacy and this is why it feels bad #like venting. fine whatever sometimes people fuck up #but i’m just. exhausted and it makes me feel bad. fucking get along with each other #also one of my very close friends keeps telling people about a crush someone has and yes neither of us like her at all but being put in her #- position is literally one of my worst fears it’s just humiliating #and also yknow. maybe i am sensitive and too earnest but also maybe some of y’all could stand to gain some of that. #and this friend is the one who i’ve talked to for days about how we both felt unwelcome last year and wanted to fix it and she just. #is sometimes genuinely mean and doesn’t seem to want to fix it #i know they’re good people but why is it so hard to do the right thing #i’m also just constantly aware of my position and don’t know how not to live in others perspectives. maybe to a fault but i would rather #- that be my fault #it’s also. i think it’s a little too easy for them to dismiss the marginalizations of others #i’m a . political person there’s no way around it but more than that like. if a system makes things better for disabled people maybe it’s #- worth the fucking extra effort. you’ve never lived with having things barred from you because of disability maybe. don’t be against it #- just bc you don’t like the person who proposed it #this is such a stupid vent ignore me this is what happens when i stop using finch #ted talks

[skrunksthatwunk]

my beloved older brother has slotted yakuza 0 pretty high up in his video game queue and every time he mentions he's gonna play it i start shaking, vibrating with motion over it,, I'm so excited heehee

#epic yiik reference there bud #anyway hes gotta finish pathologic and maybe do a seasonal terraria run w his friends but like.. then it's all yaguzer baby #assuming he doesn't break and play kotor 2 again #it seems like he's struggling with temptations about that so we'll see #i would like to watch him play and hear his thoughts and reactions and stuff #and it would be good to have someone i know irl be into rgg yknow #he made a comment about knife shoes yesterday and the context was such that i couldnt talk about the FUCKING KNIFE SHOE GUY #ider which game that boss was from (yk2?? probably) but he SUCKED i hate knife shoe bosses >:(( #however i am a little torn bc i wanna replay the series when im done with 7 #and im worried that right when im thinking about replaying 0 he's gonna start it #and i dont trust our save file management. someone's shit is getting erased on accident yk #argh. may have to speedrun to beat him who knows #that man can get through video games so fast when he wants to so he'll probably beat me #whatever #oh the things we do for love #fine i GUESS I'll wait so he can have the best possible experience. sheesh. #OH and my little brother has said he wants to play them eventually too which i wasn't expecting for some reason?? #probably bc he almost exclusively platformers now that i think about it #so that's also very exciting :))

[louisloulouie]

My very specific life hack is that there’s a Dunkin near my house that never has anything in stock, so I like putting in a mobile order and when I go pick it up, they give me a refund for everything they don’t have and then give me a drink for free 🥰

#this has worked about 80% of the time I go to that dunkin #if I’m dying for what I actually ordered then I’ll go to the other Dunkin that’s 2 minutes away #that for some reason DOES always have everything in stock #cause yknow living in New England means a minimum of 2 Dunkin’s per town/city #rip to the blueberry lemonade and munchkins I wanted right now #but I appreciate a free strawberry dragonfruit refresher #also the person at the window was so fucking hot I literally felt myself going stupid #i could not stop staring at them……