#but its just been better on here lately

[befuddled-calico-whump]

toying with the idea of far-future Sahota reluctantly taking on an apprentice after a pissed-off orphan begs to be trained under him so she can avenge her parents' deaths

#its difficult to draw the same character at different ages tbh #he'd be in his mid-late 40s here #epitome of the 'go home kid i work alone' reluctant mentor skdnjfkd #its also difficult to say if he'd still be as emotionally repressed because i haven't explored the in between a ton yet #it would be very Drama #the first time he got the better of her in a sparring match hed have a panic attack and be terrified he's turning into vic #this might just be an au but i like it enough to post :) #ander sahota #ive been waiting to name a character noor i love the name so much

[ode2rin]

hi... (runs away)

#HELLO (comes back w better confidence) #i miss all of you :< #will respond soonest #!!! #have you guys seen rin' #s official arts #it's been occupying my mind lately #esp that one where he looks like a knight or sumn #imagine rin as a grumpy yet so damn protective knight??? yeah that (like a grumpy obi...)(I ROOTED FOR OBI) #anw!! i turned 20!!! #aaaaa 20 is like... a scary number #i've never thought i'll made it this far and i haven't planned anything up to this pot #*point #so i've been really anxious abt it lol #but then it happened #and it felt just like another normal day #i ate some pie (bec its pi day lol) and had some wine #watched your name (for the 6th time????) #and just. existed. normally #the world doesn't spin differently when you turn 20 i suppose #or any age actually #so it doesn't have to be scary :> #i'm treating it as a reminder #that i am here #despite it all :> #SO THERES MY LIL UPDATE #i'm alive i swear #mimi rambles ᐢᗜᐢ

[iphigeniacomplex]

"prayer", ghost quartet (dave malloy, 2014) | "when i heard the learn'd astronomer (walt whitman, 1865) | "little god", octet (dave malloy, 2019)

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Image 1: A screenshot from the Bandcamp lyrics of "Prayer" from Ghost Quartet. The text is black on a white screen, and styled in all caps. It says, "I WILL TRY TO FORGIVE MYSELF / FOR BEING ABSENT IN PUBLIC / AND BORED BEFORE STARS / FOR NOT REMEMBERING / FOR NOT BEING IN MY BODY / FOR NOT STARTING RIGHT NOW"

Image 2: A screenshot from the Poetry Foundation website, containing the full text of Walt Whitman's poem "When I Heard The Learn'd Astronomer". The text is black on a white screen, and in a serif font. It says, "When I heard the learn'd astronomer, / When the proof, the figures, were ranged in columns before me, / When I was shown the charts and diagrams, to add, divide, and measure them, / When I sitting heard the astronomer where he lectured with much applause in the lecture-room, / How soon unaccountable I became tired and sick, / Till rising and gliding out I wander'd off by myself, / In the mystical moist night-air, and from time to time, / Look'd up in perfect silence at the stars."

Image 3: A screenshot from the Genius Lyrics page for "Little God" from Octet. The text is black on a white screen, and says, "We traveled into black holes, into quarks; we slipped through time backwards and sideways; we created new life forms, living suns; we watched the universe multiply, invert, spiral, disappear. We beheld an infinity of wonders---and yet we sat at our desks in stoic calculation, paralyzed by the unforgiving relentlessness of our intellect." The text from "We beheld an infinity of wonders" to "stripped of awe" is highlighted in yellow.

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#it speaks! #sorry for being hashtag anti-intellectual i was just relistening to little god bc i think its a fantastic work of short speculative -> #<- fiction (highly recommended; you dont need to listen to all of octet bc it is standalone) and ive been thinking about this kind of -> #<- thing a lot lately. #alt text and transcripts bc im not sure which one is better so i figured i could try both here. hope you enjoy #ghost quartet #octet #dave malloy

[claitea]

porygonhd by @startistdoodles, a few doodles complete with gen 5 styled sprites!

#pokemon #porygon #clai's art #maybe i went a lil overboard but i just Really liked this concept haha #i actually have always been a little annoyed the porygon line ended at z yknow? #like dont get me wrong i love the whole porygon line but it was cool how porygon seemed to develop along with the games #so while it makes sense to stop since its a full three-pokemon evo line. why stop at a Glitched version? #i was looking at the porygon lines' bulbapedia pages while drawing this out of curiosity #and porygon-z's smash bros trophies suggest a patch was on the way. but that never happened :( #also fun thing to note is that porygon seems to have been made purely to poke fun at people lmao #bulbapedia says people told satoshi tajiri it was too late to make a game boy game and he should make games with 3d polygonal graphics #so instead he made porygon. which is techincally polygons as they told him but still in sprite form lmaooo #but does that not make right now and even better time to make an actual split-evo for porygon2? #since pokemon switched to full 3d ages ago why not commemorate that with a fixed up final porygon evo? #anyway thats my porygon rant haha #porygonhd is Such a perfect concept i would do anything to have this in a real game #EDIT: //DANG// THE SECOND AFTER I POSTED THIS I READ THE ASK ABT HOW HD CANT OPEN ITS WINGS HAJGHVDHGD #ah well. its cute here isnt it

[quietwingsinthesky]

i do love canon amy & rory but god, does some part of me wish they really had gone with the idea of the doctor picking up a child as a companion (and then later, that child’s best friend with a huge crush on her.) with the rest of the season really not changing at all, except now it’s amelia pond with an angel in her head killing her and lost alone in the woods. it’s little rory who dies and is forgotten and becomes a toy soldier. if this is going to be a fairy tale, then let it be one. children have never been safe in fairy tales.

#it wouldn’t have to change any of the actual plot of the season. except MAYBE amy’s choice but even then i think amy’s choice would be the #one episode where they should be adults. if only for the half where they live in a village in that dream. #because that’s the kind of future that children would dream up. they live in a little cottage and nothing ever goes wrong and their best #friend visits them all the time even though they’ve grown up. #they aren’t actually adults there just children with an idea of what they should be as adults and acting accordingly #and it would still end the same way. #but idk its just. rory’s 2000 years waiting for amy inside the pandorica is already tragic. yes. #now imagine its a kid. a kid in a little roman soldier helmet who will never grow up. who will not leave his best friend. #he loves her and she’s more important than the whole universe and that sort of love is supposed to MEAN something in a fairy tale! #its supposed to melt the ice out of hearts and transform people from stone. #and what that love means here. is that he will have to wait 2000 years. a child and a box. #little rory and the amelia who followed the doctor’s letters to the pandorica. and she doesn’t recognize him again. #and amelia in the pandorica… 2000 years a child trapped in a small box waiting to be rescued. #s5 is already fucked for them but it could be worse. it could be so much worse. #and it would make the doctor choosing to take her place in the pandorica to save the universe later even better. #because who else but the doctor would put the fate of the universe on the shoulders of two children and realize much too late what a #monstrous thing he’d done. and still have to hope. have to hope. that amelia would remember him fondly enough to bring him back to reality. #the logistics of all of this would have been a pain lmao. child labor laws in acting and all that. #BUT. hypothetically. it would have slapped. #doctor who #amy pond #rory williams #<- also this entire time ive been referring to him in my head as rory pond so much that i fuckin. forgot his actual last name. #and then like if you want them to be adults in s6 or whatever you can just timeskip to them getting married and still have amelia remember #the doctor there. it would work. it would. #amelia pond au

[the-deadlock-south]

good morning yeehan community

#overwatch #overwatch 2 #cole cassidy #yeehan #art tag #im lying it's like six o'clock it's well in the evening now #also i finally drew OW2 cass :) idk if ill ever get used to everyone getting thicker beards but ig i have four months until OW2's launch so #BUT ANYWAY i've been MIA from the internet and i'm only just now learning there are charms in OW2??? and cass gets hanzo's lil bottle??? #OW really gotta step it up after the #wait who were the gays that got confirmed recently #yeah them anyway OW really better step it up after THEM this aint enough but i guess its a start #this shit been going on for six years if yall dont just jump right into the bush and stop tiptoeing around it im losing my mind #i was gonna draw a mini comic of cass just being a dork and hanzo being Himself but i have a pounding headache #plus i really havent been in the drawing mood as of late however i felt a responsibility to at least doodle something with this #anyway hanzo thinks its stupid and says so In Hanzo Fashion but cass knows better #hanzo's always had a funny way of saying he loves something Is What Cass Is Telling Himself #there's a junkenstein joke here #idk theres a lot of potential with this dinky little charm but Again. Head Hurts #also hence the very sketchy and I Dont Give A Shit RN nature of this scribble #so forgive me everyone i can only give something subpar #i hope someone does better than me #but for now im gonna go lay down or something- maybe have dinner #my head's REALLY killing me

[poisonouspastels]

#i figured this would be better suited for a separate post continuing from here #I've had people get angry at me for giving Steve a proper strongman build - thus making him fat and muscular in the process #ive gotten people mad at me for making him his direct colorpicked skin tone. got told I made him ''the wrong color'' for it #got called slurs #got told i need to just ''take a joke'' when im getting right fully angry at people telling me im wrong for making his AU design that way #been quite literally told our art looks ''ugly as hell'' when people ran out of bigoted arguments #its all just getting really hard and really tiring to keep doing what i love when everyone is vocal about hating it #and very few people are vocal about liking it #i do art for me dont get me wrong. and people have been supportive. #but i cant help but wonder if anyone would have even cared about the mega ref at all if it hadn't been surrounded by people full of hate #its just hard to stay motivated and put my all into something that's gotten so much backlash for stupid reasons you know #i've been putting so much love into my work surrounding this AU lately. my writing and my art. for over the past year now #i try not to ask anything in return other than for people to just pay attention to it at all. give it a reblog #but the one time we have something out of it become popular its because people are stupid and bigoted #i dont care about numbers this isnt about that. i just care about returning the passion i put into the world. #if anyone wants to send anything my way feel free. i could use it #sorry for venting

[larrythefloridaman]

two very different kinds of siblings

#cpuk #took me FOREVER to make mac and al Feel Right to me and just as long to properly execute on the vibe i knew i wanted for goog always #but pretty happy with these! #cpuk alabaster uppercut #cpuk juniper uppercut #cpuk google #cpuk mac and cheese #you ever call a character by a nickname shortening of their name so long that when you have to type their full name again #it hits you all over again how goofy it is. anyway mack encheez would be an entirely normal ace attorney character name #ive been thinking about Al a lot lately. the difference between him in season one and season 2 is interesting to try to reconcile #because in season one its very explicit- he has beef with The Tournament Itself and that was the only reason he was here. #he was an ideological pacifist who was publically mocked and only came to fight in cpuk to prove a point #when a kid from uppercut village was getting bullied because of contestants mocking him and the village. #but when season two rolls around hes a 'cpuk veteran' who's always fighting at locals and bettering the scene. #which leads me to assume Al arrived to CPUK and went 'damn bitch y'all live like this?' and set to work on repairing the vibes #especially since uppercut village has been utterly ignored by the lore since his introduction and with ncct information... #im not sure it... meaningfully exists? its a part of his concept and self that informs his actions but has never mattered. #and as such with the schrodingers isekai way that submission to cpuk works in nccts worldbuilding #i think it might be. just as unreachable as eric is to thera/folk. something from another reality hes just not part of anymore. #in his second tournament appearance he sets a goal of not coming in last and then he's retiring and he doesnt come in last. #but then he comes back. #imagining this dude trying to get a ride back home to uppercut village and the driver needing directions bc hes got no idea where that is #and al realizing he doesnt. know how to get there either. and so the only place he has to go is back to the tournament. #and the sense of community identity so core to himself he's named after it falters and hes left alone #and so he begins to build a new sense of community for himself out of the new home he's been left with. makes friends. adopts new family. #living in honor of the memory of a village that never was. #at least not here. #juni knows the participants of cpuk as family. uncle cha cha. mama hoedown. #in a sense both al and juni are adopted from elsewhere into the family they know. #smthn smthn 'it takes a village to raise a child.' i am speculating myself into getting emotional about funny punch guy 👍

[shadowmoses]

oh I forgot to take unboxing pics but. look at her. my first not-secondhand bjd and i'm afraid i've been spoiled by her because she is just the cutest thing I have ever laid eyes on........!!

#im just sad she came back up for sale too late for me to get her faceup started its much too cold in here but also. #more time for my indecisive ass.............. #bjd #legit bjd #dream valley #dream valley olivia #my only thing is she's just a little bit smaller than I thought she would be but I haven't been collecting for very long #so I wasn't sure what size she would be #I think it doesnt help that peppy is a fuckijg UNIT of a doll #and so is my wife's resinsoul #but it makes her look n feel sooo delicate and dreamy....... I feel like I have a plant doll in my house now. peace n love #then when I get peppy's new head the family will be all here and I will NOT! buy new shit until they are done. #and I mean full faceup wig outfits. the whole nine yards. might even get shoes. #doll -- #doll nudity /- #anyway now I am back to not buying anything j don't need this month to feel better about making such a big purchase. byeeee (fades away)

[sailor-aviator]

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#y'all my anxiety has me spiraling as of late because it just feels like my whole life is falling apart at this point #i got fired from my job a couple of months ago and i've been scrambling to try and find a new one #i work part time at a store i really love but it pays shit #and i've had all of these interviews and no one wants to hire me and i just feel unhireable at this point and it's hard not to despair #and on top of that i'm struggling with my self esteem again #i know i'm not ugly per se but i'm struggling with feeling confident in the way i look as a big girl #and all of my old insecurities are rearing their ugly heads and i want to cry just thinking about it #and i feel like such a failure right now even though i know that life has its ups and downs but my stupid brain just won't chill #and i don't really have any friends in the area because they all either moved away or didn't live here to begin with #and i'm tired of living at home because of my stupid student loans and not being able to afford to live on my own #i have one person i hang out with and we just met and i don't want to scare them off because they're a great friend and person #and i just feel like i'm never going to meet anybody who's going to love me the way i want to be loved because of my looks #also because it's me. and i feel like i'm so flawed as a person that no one will ever fall in love with me #and i've just been feeling really alone lately and i'm trying to do things to make me feel better but it's just so HARD right now #and i love writing because it gives me a chance to explore some of my feelings and it's something i genuinely love to do #and i'm sitting here waiting for the day things start to get better. and i know we all joke and i'm gonna sounds so dumb for saying this #but i feel like i was meant to be famous? or do something great idk and it's something everyone has always told me #and idk if my feelings of inadequacy are because of that or what but i'm scared that my life is going to mean nothing in the end #anyway this was a lot and you can pretend like you didn't read it. i just wanted to write some of my feelings down

[policyoftruth]

@hornystiel hiii *twirls hair* 🤭💕👋🏼

#i knowww its been like. ages since i said im working on chap 2 lol #but in my defense i started my new job in training and vastly underestimated life as an Adult with a Job™️ and how much time and energy it #leaves you with #ive had the pages printed out just lying around here for ages hfldhdldv but well better late than never i guess #anyway hiiii ily <33 #solar posts #i need to finally come up w a crafting stuff tag man this is getting embarassing #bastelstunde #so. fhdkdhd

[im-smart-i-swear]

eeneks sister having a fuck ton of scars, but later most of them being revealed as just from her childhood/from mundane accidents is so fucking funny to me for some reason.........

#like of course a lot of her scars ARE blade of marmora -related #but a significant part of em are just. eens scratches n bites & the results of mundane fuck ups #god. i hate calling her 'eeneks sister' all the time. i NEED to find a good name for her asap!!!!!! #constantly calling one of your only female characters '[someone]s sister/daughter/etc' feels wrong and this woman deserves better than that #also. ignore the scar placement. it WILL change #i am incapable of drawing scars consistently #and im still figuring out her design #my funky guys #my art #im a little bit obsessed with her. shes like a sad wet cat to me #shes so cool and cringe at the same time<333 #20 something who spent her entire adult life as a marmora solider and is now trying very hard to learn how to be Normal(its not going well) #girl has issues #love that for her<3 #ive been on an eenek kick lately. thinking about this fucked up family 24/7. i love them #theyre all so funny to me. this family of three has so much drama its like a fuckin soap opera in here. its ridicoulus #also #taks thinks this woman is soooo cool and badass. i mean she is but shes also a wreck. #taks takes after eenek and idolises their sister. paralells ig??? #this girl sees a purple alien and asks 'is anyone gonna use this guy as their role model for the next couple of years??' #and doesnt wait for an answer

[steelycunt]

omg you’re WELCOME tumblr.com for the collab of Ridi x Siken I take gifts in the form of german cars or freshly baked pies just an fyi!!! Hmm okay can I pls have either 3 or 5! xx

HELLO BAB! FIRSTLY cant thank you enough for this ask game its wreaked absolute havoc on the dash xx SECONDLY sorry this is so late! i am the slowest of all time xx its kind of long though so there's that!! and THIRDLY: i went with five in the end!! some post-moon angst xx

He’s been in there nearly three hours, now. Sirius has done the dishes, changed the sheets, sorted the cluster of plastic bottles and blister packs and jars of ointment on the bedside table into the precise order in which they’ll be needed. Dug out their Muswell Hillbillies record, since they were talking about it the other day. And Remus is still in the bathroom.

On the other side of the door, all quiet. Miserable bleed of the dripping faucet, but nothing else—no movement, no jostled water. They left the kitchen window open. A draft rocks through the flat.

“Remus?”

He thinks maybe he ought to knock. He doesn’t. The bathroom isn’t thick with heat, as he expected, and Remus doesn’t turn to face him: he’s hunched over in their narrow alcove bathtub, the hair at the nape of his neck slick and sweat-curled, his knees against his chest. The start of a bruise, splayed out over one of his shoulder blades.

“Hi. Hi, you.” Sirius wipes his hands on his jeans, kneels by the bathtub. Remus’ pyjamas, folded in a pile on the lid. “Everything alright? Can I do anything?”

Remus looks at him—or, rather, looks vaguely at his collarbone. He’s bitten his bottom lip bloody, and his eyes are red. Damp, like he’s been crying. When Sirius touches his face, it’s clammy, beneath a sheen of cold water.

“Sorry,” Remus mumbles, "I’m—yes, m’fine.” His voice is chafed, dusty; he digs the heels of his palms into his eyes, the dark thorns of his eyelashes. Rasp of raw skin up his forearm that’s yet to scab over. Pinkish tinge to the bathwater. “I’m sorry. Shit, god. Sorry.”

“Oi, no. None of that, Moons. What’s the matter?” Sirius swipes his fingers through the short, sticky hair at Remus’ temple, flicks away a tangle of dirt in it. So much of last night is still raked up against his body, gathered in the soft creases at his arms and thighs.

Leaves rotting on the forest floor. White moon, lodged there in the black like a bullet in an X-Ray, or a tooth through skin. The way the delicate bones at the wrist sound when they snap, like twigs: radius, ulna.

He deserves a gentler night than that. He always does.

“I’m not…m’sorry,” Remus shakes his head, a thinness to his voice that sours Sirius’ insides. “I just don’t—I don’t feel very good, and I wasn’t ready to get out, but I can’t—”

“What is it that’s playing up? Is it your hip again? I can—”

“No, I mean—” Then his shoulders jump, and something catches in his throat; some scraped-up, shuddering noise: “I don’t—feel good, Sirius,” he chokes out, blinking quickly. “I’m just so, so tired, all of the time, and—and it never fucking stops, it’s always so much. It’s so much, every month, and it doesn’t—doesn’t ever end, and sometimes I can’t do it, I can’t.”

Sirius watches the outline of Remus’ ribs, the way they heave. The divots between them that he has traced out so many times. In the corner of the bath, there’s the scummy soap dish that for whatever reason currently only offers a pack of fags: Cadets, white box and red stripe, which neither of them smoke. His jeans, wet at the knees from splashed water.

“I just—I want to feel okay,” Remus breathes, knuckles scratched beneath his eyes. “I don’t feel okay.”

Edging closer to the bathtub, Sirius tries to stamp his voice into something more solid: “Okay—okay, hey, look.” He presses the side of Remus’ head to his chest, kisses his hair and his burning cheek and the bump of bone at the top of his spine—sorry about all that broken skin, sorry there’s only loose change in my pockets, sorry I can’t hide you anywhere.

“Look,” he says after, “we’re alright. We’ll be alright again, you’ll see, Moony. My Moony.” His hand slips down to Remus’ neck; he knows exactly where to feel for his pulse, proof of the desperate kick of his heart. “I love you, and…and I’ll make you feel okay. I will, every single time. You don’t have to do a thing.”

He reaches past him for the washcloth, hanging limp over the faucet. “I’m sorry,” Remus repeats, with a cough. “I—I don’t know why, sometimes.” He pauses. “I’ve made your shirt wet.”

“No you haven't,” Sirius lies, just for the sake of it. “Fuck, though, you must be knackered. I’ll get a takeaway later. Indian, if you like.”

Remus nods. Sirius starts the hot water running again; Remus opens the packet of Cadets, takes five snaps of his fingers to light one. His hands are still jittery. He does this shy, sad smile, as if to say sorry, again.

“You have to know—you’re the very best thing I’ve got, Remus,” Sirius tells him, quietly, fingertips still against his pulse-point. Steady, darling bass beneath his skin. Ash in the water. “The very best thing, so. Sit forward, will you? I’ll wash your back.”

#pov the mould is still talking #also this is dedicated to the other anon who also sent me five!! i see u too mwah xx #i had a variation of this scene written months ago ive been WAITING for the r bathtub breakdown moment. its been BREWING #i cant tell if i. really like this or absolutely loathe it im so sorry. its late here now though ill have to decide in the morning xx #its just. you literally dont understand i need to hug him so bad. i need to feed him strawberries and brush his hair im sooooo serious #hes everything to me...hes everything to sirius too...his boyfriend better hope he can fight.... #i have uhh. three more!! i told you id do it you never shouldve doubted me xx #r/s #ridi drabbles #my fic

[ra-vio]

I thought doing this meme would help me draw and that visually seeing how my style changed would make me feel good.

#my oc #rune #utau #out of these my favorite is 2013. i dont know the other years #i missed this monday because I haven’t been feeling well at all lately #and i dont know when im gonna feel better #i spent way too much time on this. i redrew 2018 3 times and i hate all 3 of them i hated 2018 #2023 is weird because my art style is always changing #i started using procreate this year. it fucks up all the colors because of color conversion #so everything is often more dull #thats not why 2023 is weird tho i just have a hard time staying consistent #its consistent enough that i know i drew it but inconsistent in that if i drew it again it would look different #i made. collages for all four of these to get a feel for what characteristics to draw #2013 is a complete mess theres like 3 different styles happening and thats not even all of the #2016 is the most consistent. 2018 is. ehhhh. #if you wanted to see 2023 you can just scroll through the last few posts here

[theygender]

I've been trying to figure out and justify why I've been experiencing so much fatigue lately. At first I thought I may have developed anemia from my endometriosis making me bleed for 8 weeks straight but my blood tests came back fine. Maybe I'm just exhausted bc I had to work that entire time while actively sick? But I had quite a few days off to rest this month and I haven't been as sick recently, so what gives? Turns out I didn't need to look for an outside source. Apparently fatigue is one of THE most common symptoms of endo and it's just not mentioned often bc most doctors underestimate the impact fatigue can have on people's lives 🙃 The call is coming from inside the fucking house

#endometriosis #just decided to google if endo itself can cause fatigue and uh. turns out it fucking can! #one study im reading here had ~85% of participants with endo report pain. ~50% report heavy bleeding. and 100% report fatigue #that would make fatigue a more common symptom of endometriosis than the symptoms that DEFINE endometriosis #WHY have i never seen fatigue mentioned on any other resource before 😭 why did my DOCTOR not mention it #jk. one of the articles literally says that its under-discussed and under-researched bc most doctors dont think fatigue is a big deal #tell that to me sleeping through all of my fucking alarms missing class missing appointments and being late for work #rambling #at least i know now i guess #ive been having to explain myself to my professors and my boss and ive been correcting myself #to say 'fatigue from my chronic illness' instead of 'chronic fatigue' bc i didnt think this counted #but. looks like it fucking does. endo can cause chronic fatigue. fuck #can i just get this fucking hell machine taken out of me already #its not like im using it. and a month or two of recovering from surgery would be better than a forever of pain and gi issues and fatigue #menstruation tw

[cosmic-kaden]

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#a post thats in the tags so I don't take up space. Sorry for not being as active the last few days. got another thing piled onto the #'Kaden can't stop having things wrong with their body' So I'm dealing with bs. This one hit suddenly and I spent the day trying to get #into walk in clinics (and failed) they either weren't open or they were already filled for the day. #hoping I can get in sometime tomorrow and if not then its back to urgent care which is really something I'd not do as the wait times #are astronomically long. but if I have too I have too. #If I ever feel a little better I'll be here to bombard you with content and rb your stuff. please keep tagging me. i won't get to it #straight away but usually when I see I'm tagged I will rb it into my drafts so they don't get lost 💜 #I feel like I haven't been existing lately irl and its really got me at an extremely low mood point. #sleep pain sleep pain eat/drink sleep pain repeat the cycle and I'm just so mentally exhausted. #I love you all /pl and I hope I can start being a little more cheery soon and I'm sorry a couple of my posts havent been. im just having a #real rough go of it rn #cosmic chatter