#but its my post i get to go on tangents

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

cough hack wheeze who wants a teeny tiny fantasy au snippet with uhhhh laughingstock Tension. it's like... half a scene! unedited & out of context As Is Tradition

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“Nothin’ much. I think I’ll poke around nearby towns, shake down some travelers - see what falls into my paws.”

“I’m not sure that’s such a good idea, Barn,” Howdy says. He sweeps aggressively, spreading dirt more than gathering it into the usual neat piles. “Who knows if those ne'er-do-wells are still roaming around the woods - if you and Ed couldn’t take them, what makes you think you could alone? Or- or! What if you stumble across those cultists? I hate to think of you stuck in an ambush with no help coming, knowing fully well that-”

A large paw slips the broom out of his grip and sets it to the side, and Howdy stammers to a stop as Barnaby crowds him against the bar with a soft, “Howdy.”

Howdy swallows hard, bracketed on each side by strong blue arms. The look Barnaby fixes him with dries up his well of words and bristles his fuzz. Howdy’s heart hammers against his ribs. He can feel Barnaby’s body heat, and it’s lighting his blood on fire. 

“I’m not gonna be reckless, if that’s what you’re worried about,” Barnaby says. He barely needs to speak louder than a whisper for Howdy to hear him loud and clear. He smells like sweet smoke. “The other day was a one time deal, cross my heart. But, if it’ll make you feel better, I’ll take someone with me. I’m sure Jules is itchin’ to get outta town.”

“What would really make me feel better is if you stay,” Howdy blurts, just barely reining in the with me. He tenses, knowing that he’s toeing a dangerous line. One wrong word, and he’ll make the unspoken spoken - but the stress drains out of him as Barn’s eyes go soft. Perhaps that wouldn’t be so bad. Of course there’s no reason to worry, not about this, not with him. There never has been.

“You know I can’t do that,” Barnaby murmurs. “Not yet.”

Howdy doesn’t need to say that he knows. Not for the first time and with any luck, not for the last, it clicks in his mind that they’re on the same page - he doesn’t need to be a telepath to understand the thoughts behind Barnaby’s dark eyes. 

Barnaby says it anyway. “I gotta get him back. I can’t… there’s no room for anythin’ else right now.”

Howdy sighs through his nose and slumps against the counter digging into the small of his back. He nods and adjusts the lapels of Barnaby’s vest. His fingers ghost over soft blue, and Barnaby doesn’t flinch at the contact. If anything, he leans the barest millimeter into it. His gaze burns into Howdy’s, even if they aren’t meeting at the moment, but it isn’t a bad feeling. Quite the opposite, actually.

“Well,” Howdy says in a low voice, “if you find a good lead, send for the rest of us. I’ll be there as fast as my four legs can scamper.”

Barnaby smirks. “Even if you need to take a boat?”

“Even so, Barn.”

The smirk slides into something that isn’t a frown, but isn’t a smile. It’s too soft for a grimace, but too intense for simple recognition. Barnaby seems to sway forward, and Howdy is sorely tempted to meet him halfway.  

But Barnaby’s claw taps the counter, and he pulls away before anyone’s mind can be made up. Howdy’s hands slip from his lapels, brushing against fur as they fall and knuckles skimming over the smooth, fresh scar cutting across Barnaby’s belly. 

“I’ll be back before you know it,” Barnaby says, his eyes crinkling at the corners. He squeezes Howdy’s shoulder and then his back is turned, and he’s leaving. All Howdy can do is watch. 

And call out after him, “Your table will be open and waiting for you.”

Barnaby pauses in the doorway and looks over his shoulder at Howdy, and his grin is so full of affection that Howdy may just burst. 

“With a free pint?” he asks.

“Hey now, don’t push your luck pal.”

Barnaby bursts out laughing, and Howdy can hear it even after the door thuds closed.

#clawing and sobbing and- no. no #im normal. im so normal i swear #yk on a related tangent. i keep wanting to go to my sleep but spotify keeps playing bangers #all of my Lore songs... the animatics in my head... i dont want to not listen! #so i thought hey. might as well offer Yet Another Snippet! #i have many these days! #i almost posted the human au carnival snippet but uhhhh this one won out. i wrote it like. two hours ago #im sorry if it lacks some Personality or if theres blatant Mistakes #im tired! i meant to be asleep two hours ago! its 2 am! #snippets from the bog #laughingstock #wh fantasy au #its not shown in this tidbit #but barnaby has his pack and it contains Not Only Wormie! but also Puppet Wally! #barnaby: i gotta find wally 🥺 #honey... you have had him the whole time... kiss your caterpillar.... #the. the tall one. not the teeny worm. #well. the teeny worm too but she just gets a little kisth on her tiny face. #the tall caterpillar would get uhhhh a lil more than that id expect. lotsa sugar yk yk #im. gonna go sleep #these two will be my nightly bedtime story as i drift away... #and hopefully ill wake up early enough to find the christmas lights before The Stream #and maybe crochet a few more rows.... read a couple more chapters... #i just misspelled read as red i need to be Unconchus

[st4rstudent]

Giant cornplate post here but I'll get my thoughts out anyways. I really like how even visually Mac and Winn are contrasting yet similar. Winn's main color is yellow and Mac's is purple, which are contrasting colors. Yet, they both wear green. And then both of them having glasses but they're different shapes (circle vs square). and ouuughhoguhgh. theyre good friends. i like them.

#clemramble #sorry this is a massive cornplate post . idc. ive posted my thoughts privately and now you all get to hear them #i always wonder if the color choices were done on purpose. i mean winns is obviously. being based off the windows logo #but macs based off a dutch bunny and not the macOS logo . soi always ponder if the purple was an active choice or if it was just coincidenc #not that itd change anything if it was or wasnt . their designs are clemheaven to me anyways #but yeah . you could also write about the same thing with their personalities #mainly in the way they talk in broadcasts. from what i interpret winns a lot more nervous and more casual whereas mac is well. its mac #i also think its funny that despite being nervous and stuttery winn gets to the point faster than mac. like if you read an alarming rate of #aptitude. mac takes 15 years to get to the point which is one reason it gets cut off so easily #and then in the hires and heroes blogpost it goes to do that again and then gets interrupted by winn #but even then winn does sometimes go off tangent just a tiny bit but is much more eager to get back to the point. i presume because of bein #nervous #i just think its all so good. i think they play off of each other in a funny way but not one that would be annoying to either of them #something something. contrasting enough to be different but similar enough to be best friends #sorry this is a kind of long tag post about mac and winn. i just like them alot and i need to get that out there. i hope you all can enjoy #my thoughts #...even if they turn out to be wrong.

[dungeonmalcontent]

Twilight, but it's a reexamination of the way elves age in most fantasy universes.

"I know what you are. You're skin is pale and you're unbelievably fast."

"Not that fast. Marginally faster than most people. On average."

"Sometimes you speak like you're from another time, I've never seen your ears... and I've only ever seen you eat root vegetables."

"Just say it"

"no, you have to do the line..."

"*fine* Say it, out loud."

"You're an elf."

"Cool. Now can you please just not tell anyone about this?"

---

"How old are you?"

"I dunno, like... 460."

"But you don't look older than 17."

"I spent about 50 years looking like I was 10."

"And how long have you looked like you were 17?"

"uh--probably 200 years? I don't know. We don't age in reverse dog years, there isn't math for this."

"Ugh, Sindreth, you're so stupid."

#started out as my brain going “twiligh vampires are basically just elves” #but then there was the examination that nit physically aging while mentally aging is oddly creepier if edward is an elf #somehow twilight actually functions well with the assumption that vampirism fundamentally stagnates mental growth #but also. Twilight is still super weird for that. #getting on a tangent that has already been done to death #this is about elves #assuming elves are more Tolkien-like and live forever they age very slowly to the point that they are basically just twilight vampires #and its very funny to me to imagine an angsty teenage (by elf standards) elf playing through all the dumb edward scenes #but by the time i wrote the end of the post i just went to the “attracted to stupid people” thing that goes around ever now and then

[latinokaeya-moving]

ok. last living dredges of the alberich clan placing the weight of their people’s future on a small child’s shoulders, definitely fucking him up for life, among other things = objectively speaking not a good move. but also their entire nation was destroyed and whole bloodlines cursed to transform into monsters by the divine self-righteous will of gods they didn’t even fucking worship so forgive me for thinking their circumstances would warrant a kind of clouded desperation that perhaps no one else in the entirety of teyvat would ever be able to truly conceptualise

#x #gi posting #i’m trying to more clearly map out/put to words what i think i want the conflict to be here. with kaeya. in this thing i’m writing #but i just ended up on a rambling tangent bc my god it wouldn’t matter if he had told anyone because they wouldn’t GET it anyways. it’s old #the scale of it all is just too much. how could anyone have helped him? how could anyone have understood the position he’s in other than #himself? this is more than just him and his first family and crepus and diluc #VIBRATING LIKE CRAZY. WHATEVER PERSONAL CHOICE HE MAKES WRT HOW HE FELT ABT BEING GIVEN THIS RESPONSIBLITY AS A CHILD #ITS JUST. ALMOST INSULTING. FOR ANYONE ELSE IN TEYVAT TO GIVE IN THEIR TWO CENTS WITHOUT AT THE VERY LEAST GIVING #THE PPL OF KHAENRIAH SOME GRACE… #oh i’m sick i’m ill i’m going crazy. this is never gonna be how it goes in game but it’s how I FEEL ABOUT IT AND IT MAKES ME LOSE MY MIND

[ghost-t-cryptids]

A fake book cover I made for my LoZ fanfic!

(My commissions are OPEN!)

#legend of zelda #legend of zelda OC #legend of zelda AU #LoZ AU #LoZ Ganondorf #legend of zelda fanart #OC ESTRIN #this took so long to finish... #but its so good!!! #im happy with it #if i may go on a lil...tangent in the tags... #im thinking about quitting tumblr for a while #like...deleting account #i just...it feels pointless posting on here #i dont get any interaction...and its kinda making me question my abilities as an artist #as my girlfriend said...you really do need someone popular on your side...someone to get your foot in the door #even asking for money to survive and save up so we aren't homeless...a majority of people ignore me #you all suck lmao /j #i jest...i know its difficult to trust people...gods i know #some of you have been excellent friends tho...and im glad to have met you #im still slightly undecided #but im weighing in favour of leaving the internet as a whole

[crypt1dcorv1dae]

Metalheads who don't like/respect Babymetal bc their "look" isn't, what? Traditionally metal? are so cringe. Like bro it's an alternative music scene we're supposed to say FUCK tradition????? What's wrong w y'all... Embarrassing

And also they are missing out bc Babymetal fucking rules

#its like pol who are like punk is only if you look like *this* and im like. you are asking me to conform to a societal expectation? in PUNK? #like what. the fuck are you talking about. NON CONFORMITY CAN LOOK LIKE ANYTHING. THATS THE WHOLE FUCKING POINT OF NOT CONFORMING #yeah i dont always dress like a typical punk but thats bc the clothes tend to he fucking uncomfortable or a lot of work and i dont care #like why would i put so much effort into looking a certain way... in... a nonconforming alternative group... why would i conform... what #like the way you look doesnt fucking mean shit. a real punk is someone who actually fucking thinks and acts like a punk. #thats all that matters #punk ain't about how you look or causing random mayhem its a fucking. lifestyle. its a culture snd belief system about the world. #its about saying fuck you to the way things are if the way things are isnt fucking fair. its about community and taking care of your fellows #its about safety in numbers against a ruling power that wants people who are different to stop existing. #the mayhem is for a reason. its to say you cant fucking keep us down and if you try we WILL fight back. you cannot keep us down. #thats the POINT. #idk how my post about people being snobs about metal and missing out on good music bc of it turned into a rant about punk ideology but. #well. here we are. i have a tendency of going off on tangents in the tags..... #point is. trying to enforce a 'norm' in a non traditional alternative genre is fucking stupid and against the whole POINT of the thing #and i think it fucking DUMB that ppls get so caught up in appearances when its never been about that

[toaster-selfships]

2, 6, 9, 10, 13, 14, & 15 with lightning!!

SCREAMS!! EEEK SO MANY!!! /positive

I love answering so many fun questions thank you so much!!!!!!

--obligatory mention that I humanize them, so it's all written in the context of them as, well, humans--

Putting this under a read more because my ability to yammer and yap is like no other. I don't think it's truly THAT long but, it feels necessary 😅(future Kane here..ermm..definitely lengthy! Shamelessly lengthy..)

2. Whats their go-to order at a cafe? What's yours?

L.ighting would definitely get some complex, vibrant looking drink, particularly sweet ones. Fun coffee's that have a lot of syrup flavoring/sugar/creamer in them, or milkshakes that have so many toppings on them that you might as well get a spoon for it. KEY component is that it's always something cold. Don't think I've ever seen him with a hot drink ever, unless you count slurping a bowl of soup.

I stick to like the same coffee every time. Some dark roast coffee with a fair amount of sugar and hazelnut creamer in it. Maybe sometimes that vanilla syrup instead of hazelnut. I think I'm a bit particular when it comes to coffee cause I have to have very specific amounts so the flavor is the way I like it, so I don't stray far out of the same place with the same order. If it's a new place we're going to and they don't offer sugar/creamer packets for your coffee then I'll probably just grab some snack/food if they offer any so I don't gotta go through a whole hassel.

6. They gave you a gift!! What is it?

Definitely some or his merchandise that he goes out of his way to sign with a fun marker that's like glittery or some bold color like silver or gold or purple. Probably a sweater or such that has the same design as his racing suit. Though I'd probably get worried about damaging it and only ever wear it around the house! Haha

9. Do you have any AUs for your selfship? Tell me about them!!

Technically!! It's a whole story that I really should make a post about some day😅 but basically I kinda have a different story/AU for how I meet each character, and the role/job I play/have is just about always different. Technically, all of them could be tied together in one big chronological order, kinda like some elaborate G.ame Theory video, but I typicalllyyy think of them as separate, with occasional exceptions and things.

But! The whole(watered down version) story for how I met L.ightning is that because of my super strong love for racing, I ended up trying to(and succeeding) getting hired as a pit crew member, and got put on L.ightning's team and got to work with him. He was a pain in the ass rookie to have to work with(not that I was any less of a rookie myself), but I liked him, nonetheless, and I knew he had a soft side to him. I ended up getting lost with him during the whole R.adiator Springs shebang, and got stuck with him from then on.

10. What's one thing you like that you think your f/o would also enjoy?

Asides from the more outright choice of, well, racing related things, I definitely think L.ightning would be someone that is really into Legos. I only really care much for particular Lego sets like the flowers/botanical ones, or the ones that are different vehicles and things, but 100% we'd make a date night(s) out of picking out Lego sets we like together and then building them together.

13. Who is the most influential person on your f/o's life?

There's the very obvious choice of picking D.oc, but the more I thought about it, the more the answers got kinda complex for me! D.oc definitely played the main role is turning L.ightning around and changing his attitude, but I think everyone in R.adiator Springs kinda influenced him in different ways.

Then there's the more obscure answer that..not really anyone knows about! But, to make a long story short,(I don't even remember the darn name), but when L.ightning was racing the the training achedemy, before he even got to racing in the big leagues and things, one of his friends betrayed him and, to be quick about it, was the reason L.ightning even got the name L.ightning and also played a hand in helping L.ightning have his big break through in getting to race in bigger leagues! YES this is technically canonical(whether you want to include the books as canonical or not is to each their own, especially depending on some books you can very much tell who did help with the movie and who wasn't even filled in on the plot of the movie so it's almost a pick and choose thing), and YES, if you like to count the books as canonical, L.ightning on a camping trip reveals a personal private story to S.arge, F.illmore, and M.ater about how he got the name L.ightning, and his 'original'(if that's the right word for it?) Name was Montgomery. I have a digital copy of said book and can fetch screenshots if yall think I'm pulling your leg🫡

14. Do you and your f/o share any hobbies?

Certainly! I don't have a whole list off the top of my head, but we definitely have the same taste in playing games together, whether it be video games or board games, I mentioned the Legos earlier, going out and just exploring things...OH! OH!! And 100% the whole dinosaur thing. L.ightning(canonically, I say once more, as if I give a darn to canon and don't avidly preach about bending it to however you please and partake in such actions myself) lovesssss dinosaurs! Even goes to a museum with M.ater about one! And proceeds to have the most blatant display of neurodivergance-y if I've ever seen one. He also watches documentaries and stuff on them. And I love dinosaurs, and I love documentaries!! So there's definitely that.

15. Badly describe your selfship!!

"I love you regaurdless of your past trauma/experiences and you are safe to be vulnerable around me and to be your authentic self without any masking, and without any repercussions." Count 1/??? hundred

#made my day with all these questions to answer you dont even know it!!! aaaa!!!! #oh joy!! #using this as an excuse to unapologetically go on tangents so if it is long then GOOD /half joking #i know i have the humanization thingy written in my pinned post but. thats why its obligatory!! XD #okay. slighhtly future me here. MAYBE I GOT A BIT TOO CARRIED AWAY.....but we are looking over and past that😅😅 #i say canonically like I give a darn about canon UAHDJAHDJAHDJA #im a preacher of bending canon to how you want it XD #king of perenthasis over here. i know XD #if you read this whole post youre getting free stickers of your personal choice teehee

[insufferablemod]

they give me the same vibes

#the scenes that is #not the characters #even if they are both princes #and now my brains telling me to classpect the fucking atla gang..... #does being the avatar mean aang gets to be the lord of breath? cus its the most powerful class.. or we say fuck off with the gender stuff #n make him a muse?? #ok... gonna stop this here before i go off on a bigger tangent agdsjas #perhaps this could be its own post tho..... if i get any solid ideas lol #hs reread adventures #hs #dirk strider

[waywardsalt]

i made this a few months ago for a discord and i figured i might as well share it here too

#loz #legend of zelda #phantom hourglass #bellum #bellum is kind of a nothing villain but i like him #this image is basically the framework for how i write bellum's relationship with linebeck a lot of the time #the severity and seriousness of 'ruined your life' varies between aus n shit #ironically post-ph is one of the ones where 'ruined your life' is a bit hyperbolic #im in a talkative mood rn so im gonna have a little tag tangent going on #bellum is fun and like with this image you can take him many different ways depending on your own tastes and readings n stuff #recently i pinpointed some character i mightve accidentally based my take of bellum on and it escapes me rn #but i like to have him come off as a sort of brash young god sort of thing whos been very gung-ho about what hes been created to do and #represent and ive def leaned into him acting differently in different aus but backing it up with the idea that. hes immortal and thinks its #fun to try different things hwne he earnestly interacts with and among mortals. like in my crimson king au (the uh. one where he has a #homoerotic relationship with linebeck) his purpose behind masquerading as human and settling for a decidedly slower and more complicated #method of obtaining food and taking control is because he wants to challenge himself after years of just smashing through and taking what h #wants and because hes more interested in the more minute details of mortal interaction and how he could play along for a while #hes a bit more... whimsical? laid-back? something for the most part with linebeck because he's used to being a fuckin demonic god whos #mostly just playing around and not making attachments bc fuck it if he gets bored he can just eat these people and this one guy gets his #mercy and support because he's interesting and useful as a tool (and eventually as a source of genuine friendship. a common theme i seem to #have with bellum [perhaps as an accidental parallel or smth to the spirits n oshus] is him stumbling into finally understanding why #relationships are worth it? like a lot of the time his interactions with linebeck give him a new understanding of humans and he learns to #care about linebeck despite starting off seeing him as just an interested subject to watch or tinker with idk how to describe it #like in post-ph [ig post ph spoilers] as the fourth member of the main cast his main arc is abt kinda being forced to mingle with mortals #and ends up really caring and supporting these people and considering his own role and place in the world after kind of isolating and #surrounding himself with effectively a literal hivemind and loyal monsters and just reacting to outside forces with the intent to consume #and eradicate all danger so ig theres some parallel with linebeck too? bellum is a work in progress he's kinda a weird oc at this point? #when does an existing character stop being that and starts becoming an oc idk. its a weird line here bc bellum has minimal characterization #) anyways. funny meme or whatever. the discord seemed to like it im not used to sharing memes or whatever. #my post

[solarpunkani]

How much am I allowed to post/ramble about the solarpunk zombie apocalypse story I'm working on before it gets annoying.

Bonus points: I haven't actually gotten to the solarpunk part of it.

#out of queue #ani rambles #Ani's Solarpunk Zombie Story #yes there's a tag now im preparing for the inevitable future where i go off on some wildass tangent #ive been working on this shit since like. 2022 i think. and i still only just wrote the end of the first night last week #its one of those 'im stuck on everything else so maybe i can do this' project #and usually when im stuck on everything else im stuck on that too #but yknow what? fuck if I didn't write some paragraphs on it last week so now my braincell's all like #OOH! can they have electricity in a post-apocalyptic solarpunk society? should there be a stream near the community for current generation? #but wait! what would they use electricity for? but wait! can you do viral research without electricity? how'd they do it in the past? #when was electricity invented? were they doing viral research before that? they had to be right but were they? but wait #does the society work as envisioned in my briancell without electricity? what if candlelight? candlelight could be fun! but would it besafe #wildly off topic but waste! what do they do with waste? did they make a wetland system to deal with the waste? but then all the pipes would #need to go to this wastewater system! if they didn't already in the buildings they repurposed then there'd have to be work to reroute them! #would it be more reasonable for everyone to have composting toilets? how do you make composting toilets in the apocalypse??? #is there just a team of people every day who get paid to make the rounds and take away waste buckets every night? but where to? #what's their PPE like? is there PPE in the apocalypse? there has to be right! but how? what from? like my guy has PPE #because Briar worked for a research facility before it got overrun #but how did THEY work? did The NEST have electricity? leathermakers? where'd they get food from? vials? materials? supplies? #god its a lot to think about #on the one hand i can take the 'its sci fi dont think about it too hard' but on the other hand it has to feel REALISTIC #or else I'm a BAD AUTHOR who's CRINGE and NOT POG and am doing BAD SOLARPUNKING

[arolesbianism]

Breakcore may not be a super strictly defined genre but I swear ppl will call anything that has noises at all like y'know music has like just normal ass music from any other genre breakcore with a straight face and I just have to sit there and try to not reveal I'm a pretentious fuck when it comes to this stuff

#rat rambles #this is abt you splatoon players there's a maximum of One side order song that you could argue is breakcore #and I would consider it breakcore but its very very lowkey breakcore #and its c0ld st0rage btw its sooo light but it was enough to make me go oooooo a new sploon breakcore question mark? when I first heard it #I do rly like side order music but plsssssss most of it isnt even close to breakcore #also on a related note most sploon toon music in general is like. fairly normal music imo? like its Good music dont get me wrong but like #most of it is either just normal ass music with voice filters or gasp the horror uses samples in its melodies #I adore the soundtracks of all three games so dearly but talking to other ppl who do can be funny because theyre all like yeah its rly #weird I didnt like it at first but its grown on me haha #and I just have to sit there like bro I used to not care for a lot of it because it was Too normal for my taste #now by that I mostly mean like squid squad and all the idol music from the first two games #and tbf. the idol music still isnt rly my jam usually marie gets the exception because of that one amv #like I love pearl and marina with my heart and soul but off the hook music has always been some of farthest from my taste in music #which is why damp socks need to make more songs Now because holy shit do they go crazy #it takes my favorite part of off the hook (the vocals) and aplifies what I liked abt them and puts them over absolute banger instrumentals #splatoon piano is my favorite shit you know shits abt to go crazy when they pull out the splat band piano #but yeah note my specification of the first two games idol songs because deep cut music is absolutely delightful #frye's occasional english is kind of scary but it gives me fuel for my history nerd frye hcs so I will welcome it with open arms #also while I love all of the idols vocals deep cut vocals are the most consistently good imo #actually I should just like make a splat band tier list or smth instead of going on a tangent in the tags of this post

[throughtrialbyfire]

also my to-read list is a mile long but i AM getting to it!! life is just very busy 💞 ily guys, thank u for all of the support on the things ive posted here, it truly means the world to me I Cannot Emphasize That Enough, and i am giving all of u warm tea/coffee and Wip Motivation Vibes rn

#bishop.txt #i am saying this bc i am writing So Much lately and its making my brain turn into bees AHAHHASHGDGD #but seriously idk if i would still be writing as much and passionately and with as much dedication as i am rn without u guys its insane #how much community/support can make things feel easier and less scary 💖 #but also pls put your real lives first!! fic will Always be there to return to whether reading or writing #there is no time limit on enjoyment and everything will be waiting for you when you're able to get to it!! #im just thrilled ppl enjoy snippets i post and enjoy the feedback i give on theirs bc i Love reading ppls works!! #anyways tangent over im gonna go back to rotating the vigilants of stendarr in my mind HAHAHAHSHDG

[carnagesaw]

yeah man

#playing splatoon getting ready for 3 and well #anyways i think kashikin and arakawa brush mains zakuro bucket main and taiyo dynamo #SPECIFICALLY kensa dynamo just for fun #i think zakuro would be a perfect bucket main because they are annoying. and this is coming from a bucket main #okay i will probably delete this later bc the fact they go with the splatoon hair rule makes me =_= #i also just wanted to draw them with ‘hair’ to see how theyd feel w other hair styles #sorry for not posting btw im going crazy on twt though. and moshing at the local concerts in my state LOL #i actually hate the hair style taiyo has btw i rhink its the ugliest long hair style in the game #the mohawk looks better lol #^huge ass tangent SORRY splatoon has been my spin since it was announced LOL #taiyo #arakawa #zakuro #kashikin #gijinka #<-? well

[youngpettyqueen]

ive tried a few times now and I gotta say it. BJ Goes to Maine as a concept- the way ive seen it executed the most- really just doesnt work for me

#mash #no hate no shade to anyone I just cant get into any concept that involves BJ abandoning Peg + Erin #if the fic glosses over BJ leaving his family behind its an automatic close tab for me #im saying this as someone who loves Hunnihawk BJ would not just leave his wife and child and fuck off to Maine #its also why im not super into the gay BJ hc and personally hc him as bi in my own writing #it just feels odd to take away how much he loves his wife when its such an integral part of his character #and it feels sometimes like some people do it just to make him 'interesting' AKA 'relatable to me specifically' #which is a whole fandom culture tangent I could go on but I digress #if I look at my own wish fulfillment idea of post-canon events I'd say its not BJ Goes to Maine #and instead The Hunnicutts Go to Maine #with Hawk/Beej/Peg endgame #which again. wish fulfillment just for fun times in my head #I dont actually think about post-canon all that much #and I probably wouldnt write for it #my realistic version of post-canon is pretty similar to Sarah's BJ Goes to Maine fic #(thebreakfastgenie for those who havent read it it's called Wonderful) #which is one of the only BJ Goes to Maine fics ive read that I liked #and its not even Hunnihawk haha #you would think I would love this concept and in CONCEPT its neat but in execution usually. just not my thing #feels like there's a lot of deliberate misunderstanding of the character just to fulfill the shipping element #perhaps a hot take

[springcatalyst]

🖊 for any milo and/or reiji details they fascinate me ^-^

YES thank u they live in my brain

Let me go on a tangent before I even get to what this ask actually is cause why wouldn’t I- Milo and Reiji are interesting characters to compare to each other, because despite their entwined storylines, I don’t draw a lot of connections between them as they were designed.  Characters that never interact are fun to draw conclusions with because it’s more obscure out-of-universe things:  Julian and Milo are so different but they follow very similar paths and come from very similar places.  Milo and Brooke (actually they do interact but only like, once) both deal with the results of a corrupted worldview that once questioned, can’t be ignored once again.  Reiji and Diana share an inherently wary, bleak outlook on how the world functions as a result of their own experiences.  And characters that do interact but were designed that way are... designed that way.  Julian and Liliana are the same stuff poured into different molds, impossibly similar and impossibly different, and that drives everything about their relationship- they’re foils.  Diana and Julian start at the same place in the same situation, (for different reasons), and end up wildly different people in opposite directions- they are diverging paths evidenced by truth or lies. 

But Milo and Reiji aren’t connected by anything inherent or anything unchangeable.  Their meeting in the first place is mostly chance and a little bit of give and take of compassion.  They stick together because the alternative is being alone in a world that’s so much bigger than both of them, so much older, and just a little bit more broken.  Their relationship is a choice in a way that really isn’t the case for a lot of other characters. 

And I mean, they do have parallels, but they seem different somehow, because they actually apply in-universe.  They reflect off each other.  They both leave something behind that they wish they could get back: but while Reiji’s was taken from him by circumstance and chance, Milo’s was a culmination of something grown that eventually he had to choose to abandon, though if there was any other way, he would have taken it.  (He tried, before.  It didn’t work.) 

But now they’re both missing something, and with it, their place.  Reiji doesn’t know where he belongs and the truth is that he doesn’t belong anywhere.  He can’t return to the one place he did- (it wasn’t a place, but a people.  They’re long gone, even as they live) -and now he searches aimlessly for someplace he can return to.  He doesn’t find one.  Milo loses everything he’s ever known when he walks away, and even as he makes the decision to, it feels like the admission of some crime (it looks that way to them, and he knows it).  He longs for the community he lost, but even if he gets something close to it, it’s wrong, because it isn’t them, and because the reason he left still follows him. 

They’re both ghosts wandering a vast expanse of unknown.  There is exploration in it- Milo especially does genuinely love the places he passes through, the people he meets briefly, the idiosyncrasies of each town, city, village.  Reiji less so- he’s only ever known the wandering, so it isn’t as special to him.  He’s always looking for something that will change, but even so, traveling with Milo forces him to see things he wouldn’t otherwise. 

The difference between them is that Milo stops being a ghost.  As time goes on, less and less is searching and more and more is exploring.  More is fixed than is broken.  But the opposite is true for Reiji.  As he finds nothing it feels more and more like he is one of very, very few.  That he has found no place to exist because there is no place for him, for those like him.  Reiji is looking for answers in an environment that buried most of them, in a world that hunts the rest.  And it becomes this obsession- a thousand whys. 

Why didn’t his flock look for him?  Why did he even survive?  Why is he hunted?  Why did it start and why won’t it change?  Why is the world sitting on the ashes of an older one?  Why are people broken by something they don’t remember?  Why does every place he goes scream that there used to be more?  Why are his people a part of it?  Why are they here?  Why do they occupy a world that is so clearly not made for them?  Why does he not know where they are made for? 

Reiji asks a thousand whys and they can all be summarized by one what: What happened?

Milo and Reiji cross incomprehensible distances and in the time that takes, a lot changes.  Milo goes from being a ghost of who he was and who he should be to being alive in a way he wasn’t before, genuine in a way he didn’t allow.  Milo looks for an answer in a different way than Reiji, because he is looking for certainty.  He wants someone to tell him, with no room for error, what is true and what is corrupt.  He wants surety and permanence in a way that just doesn’t exist, and so instead must choose which side he’s on- he must decide what to believe, because nobody can tell him black and white.  With that choice becomes an acknowledgement that the world isn’t as simple as good and evil, and the two can very much coexist, that perfect and unredeemable don’t really exist, not here, anyway.  He’s allowed to just be.  Reiji, though, doesn’t get the opportunity to make that choice, to take that answer.  He isn’t looking for the answer to a moral question or a cosmic should.  He is looking for a reason, which is an order of magnitude more impossible to find.  He looks to the past for why and the nature of time is that he keeps getting further and further from it.  He finds very little, which only makes him look harder, which makes it worse when he finds even less.  He starts down an impossible spiral that he can’t get out of until he finds what he wants, but what he wants just doesn’t exist in the way he needs. 

#ask #ocs #this is... incomprehensible #mein gott. i didn't mean to do that. THANK YOU for enabling me but like.. goddamn #i HOPE they fascinate u because you are getting ABSOLUTE BATSHITTERY in response #basically uhhhhh i would like to formally apologize to reiji for making him like this? it wasn't my intent but now hes here #get fucked sketchbook boy #u ask for details i give u the rundown of their overall character arcs in the most vague way possible. good FUCKING luck #im so sorry. have fun?? idk IM having fun anyway. thank u queen for allowing this #they are just.. my little guys who are so incredibly fucked up. i will talk about them SO MUCH and i will be SO INSANE about them #i loveeee comparing characters to each other I love how they're different and the same i love foils and parallels and bullshit and arcs #i like how i started this like 'oh yeah milo and reiji arent actually that parallely' and then proceeded to say the exact opposite #i guess they arent on PURPOSE. the others that are are like that on purpose but these two just ended up that way #they're just guys. little dudes in a uhhhhhhhhhh environment a couple hundredish years post-natural apocalypse. you know. as you do #i have so many fuckin thoughts. probably could go on another tangent but this already turned out longer than i meant it to so i wont do that #i mean IF YOU WANT ME TO. but i shant #feel like a widow in a murder mystery. '~ive already said too much...' #ya know. whadever man its 1am again. pleace daniel we can't keep doing this

[reitziluz]

"oh huh, usually getting my official business and chores done for the day energizes me to work on my projects. i wonder why my brain is all scrambled up and i feel both unmotivated and anxious like should be doing something?"

turns out migraine prevention meds have been working so well that i managed to forget how auras for big nasty ones feel lol

wanted to transfer the stuff i worked on during my trip from docs to the working file and start neatening things up but oop

fingers crossed it'll fully clear out before bedtime so i can at least start looking into how i want my tenses to work in the flashback

#yea fic talk #i don't want the entire thing to be in past perfect (i think it's called!) #gotta figure out how to cleanly transition from telling about a past thing #into diving into the moment and then back to present #im also once again thinking about some stylistic choices #like how to refer to characters and what to translate or include as is #like japanese honorifics #prolly just going to go with what's most fun for me and comes naturally #like i don't get how others can do third person pov and use arataka instead of reigen #feels like you're calling your pov character babygirl as if it's a neutral term #then again i tend to have single name ocs and feel strongly about this mostly when im writing other ppl's characters #im not close enough to him to call him arataka when that's not what he's mostly called in the narrative nor what his spinoff is called #okay maybe i saw a post about needing to research cultures and how that affects name use #and like. it was weirdly aggressive but mostly seemed confused on its own points #what narrator calls characters and what characters call themselves and others. don't necessarily follow same rules #and yeah this tangent got too long #point is how the pov character is called is how i or the narrator construct of me calls them #other characters are loosely called what the pov character would call them #in my usual style of writing anyway