#but maybe that just means i dont know them idk man

[carpathiians]

ok this might be a crazy thing to say but if we pretend joviers real for a minute do you think after ch6 javier ever remembered how ttheyd sleep in eachothers arms as he was trying to fall asleep all alone and just fucking broke down becauskdmmkdkmmdkjdkdkndm *gets dragged away from the keyboard forcefully*

#posting one of my more embarrassing thoughts #as an experiment #sorry sorey for being insane #anyway i need to know everything that happened with javier between the two games just in general i need to see him in distress #also i guess this whole thing depends on if you think theyd hold eachother like that or if theyre too awkward or whatever #i can imagine it being either way theres a lot of things that could change how their relationship works #to me anyway #but maybe that just means i dont know them idk man #generally tho i dont think itd be a regular thing. but maybe sometimes? #carpathians.txt #<- feel like maybe i should tag this in case someone doesnt wanna see this stuff #bc i might textpost more in the future if i get over the embarrassment. or.something

[todayisafridaynight]

I’ve seen you say that u like that mine is a mystery til the end of yakuza 3 when asked abt a minedai saga i completely agree , so i feel like it would be better if kiwami 3 did happen the saga would be unlockable agter u finish the game

//sagely nodding// you get it.....

#snap chats #it'd be so funny playing as the antagonist after the game tho lmao #on that note tho i always forget mine is. technically an antagonist #LIKE I KNOW HE'S AN ANTAGONIST BUT it just doesn't feel the same as the other antags #maybe its cause he starts to do heinous shit only after daigo goes under. in that case it's just really funny #idc if we all seen the joke its still funny that Area Man Makes It Everyones Problem Pookie Wont Wake Up #to go back on topic tho. itd be so funny flvkejlLVKEJLV #at the very least they could adapt mine's character story if not all of them yk like i wouldnt EXPECT all of them. despite my selfish ass #idk. if not the rggo stories at all i dont know what a hypothetical mine saga would consist of #cause its veyr true i like mine being a mystery and to add on to that i kind of like what we see as is #maybe its just the thought of playing as him is weirding me out. not that i wouldnt kill to play as him of course #maybe its just cause thatd mean mine became playable as part of the a main game before daigo himself vjaKLVJAELKJ #AND I SAY THAT EXCLUDING GAIDEN CAUSE THAT'S DLC AND SIDE CONTENT #tho ig you colud argue a hypothetical mine saga WOULD be side content but it'd be story-relevant side content yk what i mean #im rambling. anyways. i just want the gay bar seen in 4k mk thank you.

[miraclemaya]

i do think especially arguments about this stuff that hinge on going, well im a victim and i think this is bad are unworkable because you will find a hundred other victims who go oh it helps me process it or whatever else

#i mean i guess it's like well i deserve to have my voice heard over someone else because xyz is what they are saying #it's so insane that this happens repeatedly on this site where you can just filter out terms and shit #block people who make you uncomfortable #idk man i used to be really like eww it's important to tell people about these freaks #but like fuck i really just do not agree that someone should be harassed off the internet or worse for like doing consensual things with #other adults like even if it bothers you majorly does that give you the right to harass them #i am also unsympathetic to the argument that they are gonna harm people because first off most of the people who get chased off dont #really have any power in the first place lets be real otherwise it wouldnt be an affective tool to chase them off in the first place #and secondly if they are gonna harm someone it's someone close to them and posting online about it isn't gonna do anything #you aren't gonna solve abuse by harassing people online even if they suck shit #like unless you want to fucking call the cops on them which i would hope we all know is 100x worse #it's not gonna do anything besides maybe make the situation worse lmao

[volk-swag-genitalia]

hmmm reconsidering, maybe i'm not aro/tihro??? i dunno man this shit's confusing.

#found an old crush and im #im urg #i dont know #a fictional crush btw #and im wondering #did i like them romantically or was i projecting???? cus i mean they were pretty damn relatable which was what drew me to them #oh no now im going to keep asking that question #''is it a crush or is it projection'' BOOOOO #i mean ok yeah theyre cute #attractive #do i see myself getting along with them if they were real? maybe???? but i mean would that romance last or will it just turn into #another friendship like all my other irl crushes #man idk #maybe its just easier to be attracted to fictional characters cus they aren't real and cant reciprocate the romance??? #help #i am #the questioning is questing

[kasaneteto]

bowl:smoked

tinder:deleted

PS5:on

time:gaming

#txt #had to get rid of tinder it made me feel so nasty to be perceived by so many #got one date tho thats enough for me lol #hes v nice im excited to meet him #dont think its gonna go anywhere tho and tbh i dont want it to #i just want more like casual dating experiences while i can get them #bc idk man #im seeing a lot of fucking angel numbers #idk what it means but my intuition is telling me it means something that i am afraid of it meaning #but maybe rhats just my anxiety #WHO FREAKING KNOWS! WHY WORRY ABOUT IT! JUST GONNA HAVE A GOOD FREAKIN TIME!

[cottageivy]

trying to decide if i should go ahead and read the sun and the star now despite not having read the last two trials of apollo books or to just go ahead

#mia rambles #the only stuff ive seen about it is from 2 pjo blogs i follow and listen. love them great posts but also #they do tend to always skew negatively and i love them for it but i also am taking with a grain of salt #bc some of the shit that bothers them i dont really care about lol #again love their blogs thats why i follow but #anyways from what ive seen and i ahvent seen any actual spoilers #but i have seen the fact tah apparently rick disregards the plot of the toa books #which idk if im mad at bc i havent finished them lmao #also something doesnt follow a canon detail but its rick riordan that man does that so many times #also tumblr people despise solangelo and that is their right #im more neutral on them but like i like the potential of them #they just werent developed enough and thats what they use as an excuse but in like a mean way skadaj #anyways all this to say. idk if reading the last two toa books are important #i did read the Big One (burning maze ifykyk) so i wouldnt be spoiled there #i know piper gets a nameless girlfriend in the end that we dont even properly meet at the end of the series #which so true sapphic piper is so real but also thats not proper rep babe #the two lesbians that house leo (and calypso? i cant remember) are better rep #give piper her own book pls #...maybe write it with an indigenous person tho bc uh. we dont want a hoo repeat #IM RAMBLING ABOUT PERCY JACKSON ON MY SIMS BLOG IM SORRY #I JUST HAVE THOUGHTS #i placed a hold on the order on the book at my library and im 23rd in lines #so maybe ill get the last two toa books and read them in the meantime idk

[mothheart]

Idk what I was doing or what I had searched but I just remember this one time I saw someone say something like 'trans men need to stfu about jk Rowling bc she only harms trans women' like sorry what. How did we even get to this point when did a majority of people start assuming the t*rf queen only harms trans women. Why do so many people have this belief that trans men experience No Opression

#im not smart enough to articulate my thoughts but seeing people just call her a transmisogynist and pushing the belief that shes only #out to get trans women #i dont get it #what led people to believe trans men have it better or easier #do you think the moment i started identifying as a man that 20 years of lived experiences ive had just. didnt happen #i dont 'pass' im not on t i just wear mens clothes and have short hair. theres maybe 2 strangers i know who #actually refer to me as a man #im not going to write a novel about the experiences ive had but me identifying as a man does not magically erase the #things ive experienced #trans men who 'pass' dont magically have cishet male privilege #the moment t enters our bloodstream doesnt mean we're going to turn into an evil cruel opressor #do you understand how exhausting it is for such a large part of the community to shun us #even other trans men #i dont think ive gone a day without seeing a trans man talk about how horrible it is that he had to end up being a man #or a straight trans man feeding into the idea that men being attracted to women is inherently dirty or perverted #idk what im trying to get at here lol i just think its kind of insane. all of this. #i hope trans men who hate themselves for being men learn to love themselves but also i cant stand them #ask to tag #miles rambles

[jrwiyuri]

oHHHHH I can’t say things it will make the boobers mad but I sometimes want to kill people maybe

#stupid snake talk #AUGHHHHHHHHH *kills self* #I don’t want them enough to know their personal take on it #and tbf this isnt ONLY a problem with their fans this can be said with anyone who was ong he d5mp #but it always makes me so mad and sad and frustrated when people are like mad that idk they became very famous and popular from that #IDK maybe I’m biased idk idk #It just makes me upset :( #I love the d5mp to this day and it’s so.. it feels MEAN to be so dismissive to it #it unironically impacted many peoples lives #like i mean yeah ofc dont be defined by it that’s fine #but people can like it man

[bonetrousledbones]

anyone wanna powerwash my brain for me real quick pls. like just full blast

#delete later #idk its probably bc summer aint good for my mental health and also my sleep has gone to shit but. man #atbb’s turning 4 years old this august and i’ve barely gotten it started #i cant stop thinking about how i started this in middle school and next summer i’ll be getting ready for college #and i have fun working on it when i’m working on it but when i pause to start thinking about the next thing for it i just. dont rlly want to #maybe its the undiagnosed untreated adhd but i cant or the life of me get myself to work on even the most mundane parts of it #i really love this story and i wanna see it to its end but im kinda. starting to doubt if i actually can #i mean i have hugely major characters that i havent even started foreshadowing yet. plot arcs that i dont even know the start point of yet #its been 4 years irl and 1 week in canon. the whole canon story is supposed to be a little over a year #im kinda tempted to just convert it entirely to a fanfic but then i’d lose the charm of the ask blog parts of it #god i dont know im just. i’m not giving up yet. but if i’m still having these doubts by next year i think i’m gonna act on them #but also it’s 9am and i havent slept yet so maybe i’ll think this is stupid and melodramatic by next week. who knows lol ✌️

[todayisafridaynight]

not to make people believe in me and my work ethic but im lowkey a liiiitttttleeee stoked to share the fics ive been cookin lately..

#snap chats #its only two. if i even decide to post them we know how i am #BUT NOOOO i think i like what i have so far... i spent all evening working on them #which means nothing cause All Evening consisters 80% of just watching youtube videos while thinking of what i should write #but yeah :) i think i like what i have :) #theyre cute :) i think :) one of them is. i dont think the other one is but whatever anyway #Unrelated Tag Ramble Time found out the building my dad and his wife work at's called monarch #and of course that reminded me of my baby boy drew because i still refuse to believe he's a papillion #but he is... i still see it.. it's not just the face but also his ears #Which Sounds Like A Lie cause his ears dont look super like traditional papillion ears #but they have like. The Buds of it if that makes sense <- it doesnt #idk something bout his ears just screams Butterfly Wings.. maybe its how the little stray hairs remind me of swallowtail butterflies #ok bye im making pizza . which is funy as hell cause my br just came home with pizza. from work. where i got my pizza #SMALL WORLD ok bye. alsohave you guys ever drank kombucha what is this shit <- is gonna finish it #it reminds me of seltzer but if it wanted me to kms. sorry i compare everything to seltzer its the only thing i drink apparently #OK BYE my dog wont stop looking at me.... he wants me to play fetch with him.... well when you look so handsome Lil Man #who am i to say no right. OK BYE HE'S CRYING MY BABYS CRYING

[whilomm]

just bc of stuff going around i was suddenly reminded of one of the stupidest bits of bi discourse i saw, no idea if it was widespread at all or if it was just a few very loud and adamant ppl, where ppl were so angry about pan stuff again that they decided that the best way to defeat the evil pans was to make bisexuality The Most Inclusive and said that it was biphobic+nbphobic to define bi as ANYTHING BUT "attraction regardless of gender". no "attraction to multiple genders" thats NOT ALLOWED ANYMORE bc of course sexualities are basically just markers of How Inclusive You Are™ and not like. guidelines for what sorta ppl ur into right.

so it was like. okay im nonbinary and attracted to men a lot and women a good bit and other nonbinary ppl a lil less usually so im bi an-

"dont you mean you are attracted to people REGARDLESS OF GENDER? because that is the ONE TRUE DEFINITION OF BI"

Uhh. no gender is. definitely a factor, not in a full stop way or nothin its a lil wibbly but its not regardles-

"then you arent bi and its kinda biphobic and nbphobic that u are insinuating bi is anything but The Most Inclusive with full attraction equality for All Gender :/"

...okay then uh. what i am, a nonbinary person attracted to multiple genders, but not REGARDLESS of gender, supposed to call myself?

"idk just die ig"

#where they just pretend there is One Nonbinary #(the human nonbinary) #like idk nonbinary is a. pretty fucking wide net. i personally dont feel like its 'if ur attracted to one of us ur attracted to ALL OF US' #buzzy #anyway it was. so stupid. okay some ppl were dipshits and said shit like 'pan includes trans people and bi doesnt' #or the classic 'well bi means 2 so #discourse #and i dont even know how to words this but #it also felt. really reduction of nb shit too? #like 'OBVIOUSLY ur included in EVERY bi persons attraction bc u can either be sorted into Woman Lite or Man Lite :)' #that or the classic 'you just switched out the binary for a trinary #and some people saw that and instead of just dismissing those dipshits as dipshits they were like. the solution? #BEAT THEM AT INCLUSIVENESS THE ONLY ALLOWED DEFINITION OF BI IS EVERYONE EQUALLY NOW #and its just like #okay instead of rejecting the idea of it being a contest u made it Even More of a contest. cool nice. #idk maybe its just me but i prefer my sexuality label to be a loose idea of Who Im Into rather than a pissing contest. #christ what in the fuck happened to my tag order. i didnt use quotation marks. maybe tumblr is drunk? #idk whatevwr if anyone bothers to read this u can. maybe figure out what fuckin order this shit was supposed to be in. idk.

[mejomonster]

Been informed that. Maybe I come off as commitment phobic since I'm demi. And therefore don't get into relationships right away until I know if I actually like a person (I'll date I'm just not gonna get into a committed relationship until I'm sure I have at least a crush and they at least like me). Mm. I mean like i categorically am Only looking for long term relationships mainly since I'm gonna take a while to like someone and feel lust for them. But interesting to me that maybe despite that, I was coming off the same way ppl who avoid commitment do. Maybe that partly explains why I seem to attract SO many people who just do not want a relationship/are not capable of liking me (but still wanna be with me until they find someone they Actually like :/ )

#rant #i had no idea idk that like. demi could come off that way yo others #idk man. i still thinks its absolutely wild that ppl commit within a week to a month like??? #even if u DO lust immediately. even if u do feel an emotional 'attraction' immediately . #how would u know if y actually liked them versus a sjort term attraction like. u dont wven know them well in less than a month #a person could have horrifically opposing values or just uncompatible at #living with u based on their traits. and u do not know that within a month.. ur gonna commit hefore u even know.... #i guess thats how it works when u can crush so fast maybe. sounds wild to me tho #any other demiromantic demisexuals out therw following me? #by that i mean. ur dude mejo doesnt get a crush until a few months of knowing someone minimum If I Do #and also i dont feel particularly anything banging or kissing unless im at least falling in love. which makes hookups boring af #so i usually wait to get intimate until im in a committed relationship dalling in love. whixh takes like idk 3-7 months #u know if i get lucky and do get a crush after a few months of dating And we are actually compatible so i start falling in lofe proper

[mrfoox]

Being genderflud for me is always a mess

#Miranda talking shit #No ok it isnt... But ivr always been a.. 'tomboy' ot whatever and never been a girly girl... I mean i had to play makeup and #Dress up doll for my sister until i was 5 but after that i basically abruptly stopped wearing any dresses unless i had to... #Only thing appearance wise i kept that was feminine was long hair. Idek why i did that? Maybe bc ive always had it so i just kept it... Or #Maybe bc it was the few feminine things i had. Ive had such difficulty with my name. In the teen years it eas severe #But i still never ... Changed it? To this day i haven't. I have my online name having an mr in it but i always give my name and i mean #Yeah... I like being referred to as bro/dude and such but usually don't like being referred to as a girl... I dont hate it usually but im #Indiffrent? Maybe why ive been struggling with sx isnt only bc of my shit self esteem and that but also with gender. I know if i would have #Had the option id want to been born a guy. I mean... Most days at least i think so. Bc i am uncomfortable with my shape and organs. The #Fact i have buubs makes me wamt to shrivel up and perish. But i also mostly love my tighs. Maybe bc i like that on others as well.. #Heck idk. Sometimes i want to really go all out and make myself look cute and girly but i dont havr the confidence or knowledge #So instead i keep wearing what I've been since i was 8 yrd old (big hoodie or tshirt + jeans/sweatpants) would lovr to know someone #Whos into make up and fashion who would teach me and take me out and pick mr outfits. But also i dont think im cute enough to do that #Not cute enough and not cool enough to be a boy ... Im an oddly shaped blob /: #I dont know what i am i just let people call me whatever they want. Its a shame itd usually a girl. Thr time a kid called me 'boy' i was #Genuinely happy but then their parent corrected them and i was like damn... He had it man he knew what was up #Maybe I'd not struggle as much if i was skinny bc 98% of my time I've been overweight so..curves comes with the territory #My moms genes also got me the biggest cake in history like i cant lose it i think its permanent. It can get bigger tho

[yongseungkim]

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#its been great like not being as interested in social media #but unfortunately for me that means a lot of the anxieties that came with social media have like #infiltrated real life in very real ways and its scary and i dont like it #i dont like thinking like this #these ppl are too precious to me #i try not to act on it but man are the thoughts the exact same no matter what social thing im a part of #like ive never felt truly included in online spaces or just feeling unpopular or like whatever #kinda the odd one out #and even irl it feels that way #the thing is i have good people and good friends in my life #like i know theyre not the problem #its just me and my thoughts that havent literally changed forever and like now its annoying #bc i care about these people and maybe selfishly wanna keep them in my life (?) #although based on my interactions and conversations w them it feels the same for them too yaknow like reciprocated #but i feel like these days my thoughts have really just been making me not the most fun person to be around sometimes #im not acting on them fully but like maybe slightly (?) #the closer i personally feel to people the more hurt i unintentionally get #i have such unrealistic expectations sometimes it feels #and i feel like my few attempts at trying to get closer with certain ppl one on one hasnt always went down well and like #this has to be a two way thing so i cant really blame em but it also hurts idk :( #i just feel like im always doing something wrong bc ppl never seem to like me as much as i like them ? #idk i think its the superficial things too at the end of the day that bother me more than they should #i feel like i wouldnt be missed like i have to always do the reaching out whos reaching out to me :( #there are ppl that do though and im so thankful to them but things like idk #feel like ic ould shut my phone off for a week and not see anyone and just hear from no one #which is fine i guess but it makes me feel very invisible #its been strange i have feelings im trying to reconcile but not sure how to #socializing is so hard so so so hard ive just been almost confused to a frozen amount #and its been harder these days cuz the rose tinted glasses are off like my friends do re energize me yes but i feel a lot of anxiety too #rambles